#i tried* fuck i am dying

[vaguely-concerned]

are. are you telling me that if the romanced mage warden dies and alistair is king, he deadass stares greagoir down over her dead body and grants the circle of ferelden its autonomy after ordering it rebuilt somewhere safer. first you have to deliberately leave him behind so he won't die for you and then he does that for you once you're gone, even when you're broken up??? absolute and literal king behaviour of the highest order????? the actions speak louder than words of it all??????? I think I hauve covid

[heph]

It's so interesting how submissive House is to Wilson. In basically every scene where Wilson gives his 2 cents about a case, House without fail (for the most part) follows his opinion. Wilson gives him unsolicited advice and half the time he listens without saying anything, and the other half he argues but ends up listening to him anyway. House starts psychoanalysing Wilson and Wilson does it right back to him and House shuts the fuck up or gives a one line quip back at him (to have the last line) but knows deep down Wilson is right.

For a man of House's stature and how he interacts with Literally Everyone Else, the writers really hammer it into your soul that House only really listens to Wilson and no one else

[im-not-a-virgo-im-a-lesbo]

Percy: It's okay. I'm okay.

Me, sobbing on the floor, clutching chest:

[beanghostprincess]

When they get to Egghead Sanji complains about the Hawaiian shirt, saying it's too boring in comparison with the other outfits. Then Usopp looks at him with a thumbs up and says "Looking good!! It's very you <3 Do you think that we could keep these things after this is over because I pers-" but Sanji isn't hearing shit anymore because he's having a moment™ and he feels hot all over and maybe he's going to faint, who knows.

[moldy-flowers]

The interesting experience of being pro Sasuke, anti konoha, pro tobirama, anti Naruto ending, pro Sasusaku, anti Itachi, pro Sakura, anti SasuNaru, pro Tobirama×Izuna, anti Madara, pro karin, anti Orochimaru, pro Uchiha and anti Hashirama. And also as much as I hate the guy danzo was kind of hot when he was younger...

[starjunkyard]

A scene of foreman telling house in ep21 s8 that "persevering through pain for loved ones... isn't that what life is?" before being followed up by a scene of house screaming at taub in the middle of the hospital hallway that life is pain. Life is pain. His entire life is pain. How he wakes up everyday and thinks about ending it. And yet hes still fucking here and what is that if not a confirmation that house's entire life is lived for wilson

Its so like. Because from an outsider's perspective its so childish. Its so out of bounds though thats completely in character for house; you don't tell people whether they should live or die, least of all if they're diagnosed with a terminal illness you know will suck the life out of them every second they aren't in the ground. You don't get to tell people that you dont have that right but. But. but

House is here and house is in pain. He's hurting and he's been hurting and he wants that to end but its been an unspoken agreement for years that wilson would never forgive house if he just gave up. Wilson would never let him do that. He would never ever forgive house for that not ever

So house is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He is alive!!!!!!!!!!!! Because wilson is his best friend and house cannot live in a world where wilson hates him even if he isnt around to feel it. So house persevered through the pain he grit his teeth and just kept fucking Going because wilson hating him is a worse fate than any infarcture any perpeptual state of chronic pain, a fate worse than anything

Before stacy before cuddy before everything it was new orleans and wilson in that cell. House has been living for wilson. House's entire life past the infarcture and the pain and the pain and the pain has been for wilson. He has been living in unimaginable pain for 20 years because its been an unspoken agreement that i need you i want you you need me you want me. I need you here you cant go anywhere You cant leave me

20 years of being in a perpeptual unending state of chronic pain. Years of living under this unspoken agreement, being bound to this contract that keeps you screaming keeps you hurting keeps you gutted and emptied out but you never minded it, you never left. you let it take you because you love him. Because you love him he loves you and he lets you love him and thats enough

So can you imagine what a slap in the face it is to have him tell you outright that he wont live for you.

That his life, his death: it'll be about him. All this whilst your entire life has belonged to him. Your life your death everything you've ever done its been about him for him. For him. And you feel furious and cheated to tears because its then that you realise he never even asked. You gave it to him handed your bleeding beating heart warm and fresh to him on a silver fucking platter and he never even asked for it. But you're asking him now. You're actually asking him you're begging him, you are begging him you're telling him that you love him, and he's saying no? He's saying no?

Can you even begin to imagine-- just a fraction of that betrayal? That humiliation? I've fucking grit my teeth weathered 20 years of pain i stayed alive because i knew that you wanted me to-- because i knew that you loved me and you wanted me to stay, and that was fine, because i loved you too. And i never even made you say it. I never made you say the words because i thought it was something we both understood intrensically, down to the bone-- and still im telling you now that i need you that i love you and now the deal's just off?

I weathered through 20 years of pain because surely you would have done the same for me-- and you're telling me now that your life is going to be lived on your own terms? when my entire life has been lived for you? When ive been in hell for 20 years just so i could keep loving you? You; you looked at me in the eyes, led me on had the gall to keep me alive-- just to sit here now and tell me that the agreement ive lived my whole life around was a one-man deal? That you cant be bothered to stick your heels in the dirt a little, grit your teeth and go through a quarter fraction of the hell ive gone through so that you stay here! can be here Be Here and keep continuing to love me when ive been doing that wordlessly thanklessly for 20 years? How could you make me ask? How could you tell me no?

How could you keep me alive and breathing if you knew that this was even remotely in the realm of possibility? You kept me in the dark-- knew this whole time that leaving this friendship could actually be an option for you-- and you kept me alive?

[sebille]

cracks knuckles time for me to be annoying. HOW did Zenos even know that he could "burn through the candle of his life"? Does he mean that he just depleted himself of aether or what? I feel like you'd faint way before you die if you did that?

[micahdotgov]

i got bored so of course i made a chart of what all the classic who companion's relationships were with the doctor because i am the perceiver of truth and knower of all things

[shireduchess]

listen...listen... idk man i didn't expect downfall to hit me as hard as it did. but i'm at the end of ep101 and i have cried more maybe than during any other part of this story...and what a story within a story downfall is

it's about faith, the faith the mortals have in the gods and that the gods have in mortals, the faith in their creations, in and for their love of each other. and there is something so moving and intoxicating and emotional about that depiction, of gods deciding to become mortals to achieve an end goal, but of learning how much mortals love and feel and suffer

just the love between them all, everyone depicted. the wildmother and the lawbearer... the emissary.... trist and ayden, the everlight and the dawnfather... fucking just....everyone

idk man this sort of tragic story really just gets me so so so fucking bad, it hits me in such a unique way

[maybemeursault]

look okay it's bad to erase marvin's canonical sexuality and the fact that She Likes Men but i literally genuinely with all my heart think that she is a trans woman

[this-machine-runs-on-coffee]

"I AM DAMAGED" THIS IS NOT AN EXACT TRANSLATION, THIS IS AN ADAPTATION (AND ONE THAT STILL NEEDS TONS OF FIXING AT THAT)

Ok so, 24/5/24, I got distracted again and for tomorrow have the same problem as the "Meant To Be Yours" Italian adaptation This will come out whenever it's scheduled to come out (but after "Shine A Light (Reprise)" for sure. Probably that Friday/Saturday, who knows). Especially because that week just got busier and yeah I need to give you a little something.

ASK ME FOR PERMISSION BEFORE USING THIS, DO CREDIT ME IF YOU EVER USE THIS (I doubt you will it’s impractical and still needs so much fixing it’s unbelievable) AND TELL ME/LINK WHATEVER YOU USED IT FOR USING REBLOGS (because for some reason Tumblr doesn’t like comments with links and while I do think I understand why I don’t always like it)

(the apostrophes [or however ’ is called] are used to shorten the number of syllables often in poetry so I’m obviously abusing that power.) [J.D.] Son danneggiato, troppo danneggiato Ma non sei irreparabile Resta in vita Rendi tutto migliore Che m'hai battuto e sei ammirabile Ti prego allontanati Poco più'n là Non so 'sto coso cosa farà Spero di mancarti Vorrei baciarti Così sapresti chi t'adora Darò la mia vita per la tua [VERONICA] Oh mio Dio— [J.D.] E quando sarò già via [VERONICA] 'Spetta, fermo là— [J.D.] Cancella da qua la mia scia [VERONICA] Non così! [J.D.] Il nostr'amor'è Dio Il nostr'amor'è Dio Il nostr'amor'è Dio Il nostr'amor'è Dio [VERONICA] Saluta Dio [HEATHER MCNAMARA, parlato] Dov'eri andata? Tutti dicevano ti fossi uccisa! [HEATHER DUKE, parlato] Sembr'esser esplosa [VERONICA, parlato] Ci sei vicina [HEATHER DUKE, parlato] Hey! Che stai facendo?!

So, direct translation! (used in this to specify the meanings and explain certain word choices) [J.D.] I'm damaged, far(/way) too damaged But you’re not irreparable Stay alive Make everything better That you beat me and you're admirable Please (back away/)distance yourself ‘Little further Don’t know what this thing will do I hope you’ll miss me (I) Wish I'd kiss you Then you’d know who worships you I’ll trade my life for yours [VERONICA] Oh my God— [J.D.] And when I'll already be gone [VERONICA] Wait, hold on— [J.D.] Delete from here my streak (Streak, I do mean it as his remains but it's not explicited) [VERONICA] Not like this! [J.D.] Our love is God Our love is God Our love is God Our love is God [VERONICA] Say Hi to God [HEATHER MCNAMARA, spoken] Where have you been? People were saying you killed yourself! [HEATHER DUKE, spoken] You look like you exploded [VERONICA, spoken] (You're) Close to that [HEATHER DUKE, spoken] Hey! What are you doing?!

OG LYRICS (if you’re seeing this I doubt you don’t know them, but here they are anyway): [J.D.] I am damaged, far too damaged But you’re not beyond repair Stick around here Make things better ‘Cause you beat me fair and square Please stand back now ‘Little further Don’t know what this thing will do Hope you’ll miss me Wish you’d kiss me Then you’d know I worship you I’ll trade my life for yours [VERONICA] Oh my God— [J.D.] And once I disappear [VERONICA] Wait, hold on— [J.D.] Clean up the mess down here [VERONICA] Not this way! [J.D.] Our love is God Our love is God Our love is God Our love is God [VERONICA] Say Hi to God [HEATHER MCNAMARA, spoken] Where have you been? People were saying you killed yourself! [HEATHER DUKE, spoken] You look like hell [VERONICA, spoken] I just got back [HEATHER DUKE, spoken] Hey! What are you doing?!

[dunmertwink]

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[daincrediblegg]

hi egg!!!! ive seen the tag a couple times now and im just so curious who is lady terror 👀 an oc? a ship personified? can i peer into your mind for a second (the answer here can also be Who's to say or just NO)

YES! Lady Terror (real name: Genevieve Sinclair) is my sortof self-insert (though she’s gained a bit more of a life of her own now) OC for the Terror. She and Francis as the most disenfranchised from british empirical thought and good society are falling horrifically in love with each other over the course of the expedition in spite of their respective past romantic rejections and dejections and it being the literal Worst Time To Do That. And I tag them when I am… reminded (I’m certain some think I do this too often… but it’s my house). I’m painfully (and soul crushingly at times) trying to get the canon novel for them written (though I have an excerpt of the first chapter in my masterlist in my pinned, should that be of interest), which intends to have the most insane gothic jane austen vibes one could hope for, and I have like 20 au’s for them including a particular western au that is gaining increasing real estate in my brain recently. Loads of content in the “egg’s oc’s” tag if you wanna take a peek (I say mostly bc I’m exclusively on mobile atm bc my computer is in the shop and linking over isn’t very easy😭) and I have some mini fics for them in my masterlist as well!

[guatemala-official]

Why do I have The Dread™ (I have been going to sleep at one in the morning)

[burned-lariat]

The adult Benson children use trauma as an aphrodisiac and a manipulation tool to pull their partner into it. In this essay I will-

[ittybittybumblebee]

I havent continued my halflife playthrough because im stuck on a stage and its soooo fuckign sad i wanted to play more but i really fucked myself into where id have to go WAAAAAAY back in the savestates to start a whole stretch of game ALLL over and that pisses me off cuz i dotn like repeating things at all i did so good to get tthis far and now i cant progress for all my hard work..