#i try though

[falmerbrook]

I am a "the elves should look weird" TES truther, but not in my own art because my grasp of normal human faces is shaky as it is

[justhellacesome]

I have never flirted with nobody but I can, I know I can. In theory, flirting is easy to me, I just need to let every appreciative thought that goes through my mind get out of my mouth without filter, I just need to let my eyes wander without shame and smile when I make eye contact getting caught, I just have to let myself give the soft touches I wish I offer them if they would let me, I would just ask those simple little questions of what they like so I can give it to them when days come.

I can. I can be kind. But it turns into flirting and i guess i really just love so easily that I wouldnt mind.

I hope its subtle, I hope they wont know, cuz I dont think I can accept someone reciprocating it. I can love but I will combust if Id receive.

edit: and they as in not pne person but the general people i consider mine

[tobebrutal]

                  THE UNFORTUNATE DETAILS IN HOW  DEEDS  RUNS THIS BLOG

about speed

fluctuates from day to day.    i’m not so much a  busy  person as i am a  chronically exhausted  one.    i do try to keep people updated on when i’m not going to be around or when i don’t plan on sitting down and putting my fingers to keys.    this can also be dictated by where my brain is at the time.    i may be lightning with one muse and a snail with another.    it  rarely  has to do with my partners and more to do with brainrot and my unwillingness to force out content.    but sometimes a scrub just..  needs a break, too.

regarding replies   

on a  good  day when i’m feeling my oats for all the characters on my roster(s), they come out in order and i’m just ocd enough to  match word/letter counts  to keep my sanity stable.    one a  bad  day though ?    i’ll hyperfixate on one or two muses and the rest could take weeks+ to be got to.    again, this isn’t a matter or me not liking the storyline or my partner, i just know how i am and if i want to write something i will.    if i don’t ?    i know it’s not going anywhere and so long as my partners are okay with me jumping around ?    we’ll be hunky dory. xo

hot take on starters   

woof.    okay, so here’s the pickle with starters of late, for me at least ;   i get pretty burnt out when i write them, they get a like, and then there’s never any activity on it again.    it makes me feel like there’s some  what’s the point  tension in there and i do get kind of irritated after that with the partners who do it.    i don’t always write for my own amusement.    that said,  i can whip out a starter at the drop of a hat.    i don’t always need a subject and i can usually wing it enough to make sense, timelines be damned.    but for me to hunker down and get to that ?    i like to know the person/people i’m writing them for will, y’know, make something of it.    this has grown into a nasty trend and it’s draining.    i can feel myself slipping.    sos.

the inbox

meeeeeemes.    memes.    i love me a good meme or two.    or three.    this takes a step more effort than liking a starter call, y’know ?    it shows a bit more interest in writing with me and i’m more inclined to crank something out for them.    i’m also all about combining memes.    whether they’re from the same prompt list or i’m frankensteining together a real metal setup to hit homers with.    they’re good icebreakers.    another note,  i keep my anonymous off at all times  because we cause drama like men here, faces out.    if you ever want to ask me something privately, my ims are on and open.    ...also i sometimes close my inbox because i’m a fool who gets overwhelmed.    also y’all are cute.

selectivity

high.    it’s nothing personal, i just know me and i know i don’t have the social battery to really keep up with a high tally of folks.    i’m not concerned with aesthetics,  though i like to pretend mine is noice.    i don’t care about icons or if you format your replies.    i like a partner who  puts their all into their writing above all else.    someone i can tell, by looking, is committed to their muse(s) and will be around for the long haul if we plot something out.    because i’m so picky though, i do a good deal of softblocking and the occasional hardblock if someone keeps following me back with no payout.    i’ve been neck deep in this hobby for a very long time and i don’t have the same patience i used to.

a wishlist  

everything.    the end.    seriously though, i know there’s a wishlist tag somewhere on my blog.    it’s usually for  shippy stuff  though.    of which i’m always down to clown with.    usually i’m pretty upfront with what i want from a connection though.    if i have an idea, i’ll seek out the mun/muse i think it’ll work with best and float it by them.    we’re here for instant gratification.

one final honest note

i am not good at maintaining conversation out of character.    i will, at some point, go quiet and, if you want to give me a poke, please do.    this rarely ever translates to my eagerness or willingness to write with a person though.    as said before, the social battery is low and after a while, for the sake of unwinding, i’ll clam up.    i also just ???    rather  focus myself on getting replies  and the like done when i’m typing ?    chitchat sometimes can feel monotonous and i see it as a distraction.    now, plotting ?    if something is real ripe and juicy, i probably won’t shut up and then i’m sorry for that, too. :l

i stole this from  @pagetorn​  and now i’m making it all y’all’s homework for today.    this is a really nice way to let people know i’m never getting better and it’s all downhill from here. :)))

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[noctilionoidea]

We have to make a children’s book in creative writing so you know what that means? New ocs

Not sure if I’m gonna have enough time to make drawings (I think we’re just expected to find stock photos or clip art) but I’m gonna try

that corner doodle is so poorly done in regards to the wolf but I wanted to have it there still so yk. I think Emily is adorable personally

[gr0undr10tz]

unfinished chimera falin wip

[the-tired-commander]

hey could y'all do me a favour?

Reblog if you're okay with "weird" compliments on your stuff!

things like "biting this" and such

[dazzelmethat]

Some crickets and grasshoppers and my thoughts about them.

I've always been interested in bugs since I was real small.. I should draw them more often.

[mangozic]

michael shelley I would die for you

[mithrun-house-of-kerensil]

Lately, I've been thinking about Mithrun and the ways he is dehumanized in canon.

Before I get started, we know that elven society is incredibly afraid of death and illness. This is obvious in how they look down on the short lived races and see them as weak and childlike. We also know that Mithrun himself had ableist views toward his brother and these values did not leave him once he, himself, became disabled. He is a product of the society that raised him, but I also think how Mithrun is currently being treated contributes to his view of himself.

Mithrun has had three different caretaking groups over the years. The first are the ones his brother hired for him. From what we can see, they did the job, but we can understand that they did not know what to do with him. No one had ever recovered from having their desires eaten so the focus was less on rehabilitation and more on keeping him alive.

Later we see Milsiril take an interest in him because of his desire to return to the dungeon. Since she did not bother to visit him for decades after finding him, we can assume that there is an ulterior motive here. Timeline-wise, this was when the majority of the canaries had just been wiped out. They needed more men, and Mithrun is set up to be the perfect single-focused soldier.

Honestly, we can assume that Milsiril doesn't really care about him or see him as a person. Mithrun is just a new project for her to play with. We can see this in how she's focused on superficial level concerns like the fact that he doesn't look nice and wanting him to be overly grateful toward her. She also talks about him like he's not in the room and can't hear her. This is a dehumanizing trait shared by many characters when talking about Mithrun.

When he finally does recover enough to return to the canaries, the military does not make any effort to accommodate his needs. We know the canaries are understaffed and the ethics are already bad, but they really did not even try to care about Mithrun's safety at all.

Entrusting a criminal with his care was questionable at best, especially when Cithis immediately took the opportunity to abuse her power over him and no one stopped her.

While acknowledging the light-hearted nature of the manga, it's uncomfortable that Mithrun was treated like a child and an animal by Cithis for her amusement. Regardless of her 'learning to respect him' later, the point is that Mithrun was taken advantage of and degraded because she believed he couldn't say no. No one bothered to do anything about this until Pattadol yelled at her.

Truly his treatment is summarized well by Milsiril here. Mithrun is extremely vulnerable to being abused by those taking care of him because he won't advocate for himself. He has one desire so he won't fight for himself in any other way.

It is obvious that Mithrun was not treated well by his caretakers and this has resulted in him identifying his needs through a disconnected and frankly, infantilizing lens.

I understand that it may have been a translator's decision, but I always thought it was interesting that Mithrun says that he's "not sleepy" which is a childish term. Otherwise, he speaks like everyone else, if not rather posh.

This, followed by the fact that he is responsive to Kabru treating him like a literal infant to get him to eat, paints a clear picture of the fact that Mithrun is not unfamiliar with being treated like this. He responds to it because he's used to it and has no desire to argue with being treated this way. When we consider the fact that the chapter started with Milsiril treating an older child Kabru in the same way, it is likely that she also did the same thing to Mithrun when he was under her care.

In these panels, we see that Mithrun does not believe that he can sleep without magical assistance, even though it is immediately refuted when Kabru takes the time to bundle him up and help him relax. Not only does he fully believe he can't sleep without external assistance, but he states directly that there is no point in him getting comfortable.

As Kabru observes, Mithrun's inability to recognize his needs applies to needs such as hunger and exhaustion, but it obviously also applies to emotional needs. Kabru just wanting to feed him something delicious and not wanting him to give up on life is the most consideration someone has given Mithrun in years.

The relationship they form over the course of a single week is enough to shape Mithrun's behaviour completely. Mithrun ignores Cithis's demand in favour of asking Kabru's opinion. It is Kabru's hand Mithrun takes to pull him out of his defeated state. It is Kabru Mithrun confessed his true desire to.

Do you realize how depressing that is? All it took was the new perspectives from Kabru and Senshi to make him consider the fact that he should keep living despite no longer needing to fulfill his duty. Being treated well could have helped Mithrun much sooner and this shift in the way he sees himself contributes to his recovery going forward.

TLDR: Mithrun has no desire to be respected, but why does that make people feel comfortable acting like he doesn't deserve it? Someone not caring about being treated well doesn't give you permission to treat them poorly. This feels like a playschool-level consent lesson: just because he's not saying no to a humiliating or degrading act doesn't mean it's a yes and therefore okay to do. Acknowledging this is the bare minimum of treating him as a person.

[maedictus]

Some unposted Tolkien art I've been collecting over the years 💫

Huan and Lúthien | Yavanna and Aulë | Celeborn and Galadriel | Fingon | Galadriel but Art Nouveau | Vairë, the Weaver | Lórien and Mandos | Some Hobbiteses

[chloesimaginationthings]

What’s William Afton’s problem in FNAF….

[waterfish123]

stop drawing old dad and his crazy daughter and get to work.

[saltedbiscuiit]

Apple Zai

[thetimelordbatgirl]

The police in Scotland have the chance to do the most funniest thing right now.

[triona-tribblescore]

I thoroughly enjoy the stage of huskerdust where they have yet to fully admit their feelings to each other uvu <3

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