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autisticlee · 11 months

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sometimes I think about how being autistic can be one of the loneliest and most isolating things...

#autistic #actually autistic #autism #autism things #no explanation or elaboration. the post i reblogged last explains it all and my tags on it where i rambled #i dont feel like repeating it all #but if you know then you know 😭 im sure many know #but it also depends on each person and your situation because i know some have found solid and permanent connections #but a lot of us arent so lucky....this is for you #*internet ghost hug for my lonely autistics who sometimes want connections/bonds/friends/support but have none and struggle to get them*

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andi-o-geyser · 1 year

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*slams hand down on table* WHERE IS ALL THE PERCY AND KEYLETH BEST FRIEND OPPOSITES ATTRACT PLATONIC SOULMATES MOTHER NATURE AND DADDY ELECTRIC CONTENT. HUH. WHERE THE FUCK IS IT

#no like WHERE #i mean. tumblr is the answer #because im currently resorting to watching the end of the glintshore fight again just to feel something #cause its CERTAINLY not in tlovm s2 #as much as i love the show its like WHERE ARE THEY #no compilations on youtube #the wiki does acknowledge that they're best friends but really skimps on the details #so like #WHERE #is it on pintrest? am i going have to resort to pintrest?#i dont mean that in an insulting way i love pintrest but the fact that pintrest may be my best source of *them* is insane #going on a rampage across the internet #NO I DONT WANT SHIPPING CONTENT GET OFF OF MY LAWN #THEY ARE #SIBLINGS #jesus fuck why is it so hard to find compilations of them #they are CANONICALLY BEST FRIENDS where the fUCK is all the content #(outside of the stream)#where *clap* are *clap* all *clap* the compilations *clapclapclap*#artists who have drawn them hugging and being bffs you mean so much to me #thank you for your service #tumblr and pintrest you can live you both delivered but i did have to dig a bit #critical role #percy and kiki #vox machina #cr1 #andis thought geyser

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scattered-winter · 9 months

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horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh

#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago #and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember)#and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him #do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao #and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that #everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it.#and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life #and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years.#sigh. anyway.#im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet #and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3 #just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too?????#we're all grieving. i aint special.#i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl #thats what it looks like we're doing tonight #im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out #and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant.#not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been .#a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone.#sigh. im tired i need to go to bed #winter speaks #personal

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hyunpic · 2 years

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happy birthday @chrisbangs 💖💘💖

#bang chan #video #happy birthday my li 💕💖☹️ i wanted to make u something for your bday that i hope #will make you happy whenever the world is kicking your butt #you are so precious to me and i will forever remember you as one of the first friends #i made in stayblr. i wish all the kindness and love to come to your way #this year because you only deserve good things.#i hope this video feels like the most warmest hug you have ever deserved via the internet connections!!!#i love you i hope you know that and you always have a shoulder to lean on with me #i hope we can keep making precious memories together with you 💕#CHEERS TO THE NEW ADVENTURES THIS NEW UPCOMING YEARS BRINGS TO U!!!!#happy bday once again mwah mwah 😽

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swampthing07 · 9 months

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It is okay to kill mosquitoes

They doxxed you just so they could knaw on your flesh

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moonlightpirate · 1 year

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The demons are fighting to find their way in wondering if I should just let them in

#depressing thoughts #feeling lonely #i wish my internet friends lived closer #so maybe i wouldnt feel so lonely #i want a hug

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thesoupisburning · 1 year

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getting home was worse than i was prepared for but i think the thing that took me the most off guard is remembering just how deressed both of my parents are.

#vent #vent cw #i just. how am i supposed to help them when i also want to strangle them #i want a hug or someone to take care of me and they refuse #they want the same and i refus #how different are we really #the only difference is that im trying things #and maybe a little less stubborn #they just. they just accepted that this is how life is #and i.#they talk to me about it. with no warning #and i say “thats abhorrent that's terrible”#and i turn around. do the same thing to my friends #HOW different are we really #im trying to get better and im trying to not hate myself for mistakes #but they make me think im excusing myself #while i excuse them.#im so confused. im so tired #i was hoping i would feel good today and i could not even do that but maybe it is for the better #ive been avoiding the internet - esp my friends - lately #and ive been waiting to feel better to come back #so if im not feeling good today. maybe it is good i have no motivation #after all i could make them feel just as shitty as my dad's dismayed comments about his age just did to me #does that make sense?#i just. need to stop all this circling #listen to music or something idk #simp for fucking alice angel some more #jesus

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admiringlove · 2 years

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...can people. just not 😐

#like i get home all tired and there's two different people just yelling at me #like ok grandma fine i'm sorry i left my coffee mug on the counter before leaving #tf did you want me to do i was running late #and then this one teacher singled me out ON MY FIRST DAY #SAYING HOW AM I GONNA SUCCEED IN LIFE BY MAKING JOKES ALL THE TIME #i wasn't even talking to the fucking teacher before that i was talking to my deskmate and it was a free period like ffs just die #i dont want to exist anymore #like just. can i have one day where people aren't EATING MY FUCKING BRAIN #i just want irl hugs but i have like. no actually close friends anymore 💀#or an s/o #god. i should probably not vent on the internet for random people to see but oh well who cares anyway #this is free tea spilling time also very frustrated teenagers make for great entertainment #so i hope ur chuckling after reading about my shitty day #:)#sam rambles for no reason 📼

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luchia13 · 2 years

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I wish you fluffy blankets when it's cold and cool water when it's hot and snuggly earmuffs when it's windy and umbrellas when it rains and I wish I could be there to hug you and be supportive when things are scary, but I am here, and you are there, and the world is very big. but the good thing about internet friends is you can keep me in your pocket no matter the time of day. I cannot pat your sweet head and hand you candies on a bus but I can always be just a few flicks of your thumb away.

I love my internet friends so so much and I wish you every happiness, every smile, every joy you can find in this shitty time. You deserve wonderful things.

#I'm very sick and getting very emotional about wanting to hug my buddies okay????#I've known some of you for literal decadeS and even if we don't talk much or at all?#this still applies #thank you for letting me be even a tiny part of your life #and to those who tolerate me nearly every single day: I want to hug you!!! and tell you how amazing you are!!! BECAUSE YOU ARE!!!!#Internet friends are real friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!;;

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autisticlee · 11 months

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I started with posting about my autistic experience on twitter, reading posts on there, and interacting with people there.

then twitter got unbearable, so I moved back here and made a new account and side blogs to mirror twitter and lurk in the tags.

i've noticed a difference between autism twitter and autism tumblr from the big algorithm-controlled posts I usually see:

autism twitter makes me feel like i'm not allowed to say autism disables me or causes problems in life

while autism tumblr makes me feel like i'm not allowed to feel positively about being autistic and can only see it as a struggling disability.

the contrast makes me dizzy 😵‍💫 it's like no one wants to see the perspective of other people when we are all different. each side wants their narrative to be the told one.

#autistic #actually autistic #autism #a little criticism for both. can we not do this 😭#twitter is always “dont use your autism as a disability/excuse for why you cant do a thing! it'll mean i wont be able to do the thing #anymore if they know i'm autistic!“ like when i asked if i can be exempt from jury duty because TALKING HARD. due to autistic #but on tumblr it's always “dont call autism a difference in brain. it's a disability and that's all it is because it ruins my life and is #so hard for me! stop trying to make it look like a positive thing!“#and like....both????? its both?! because it depends on the person and how they see it themself and how affects THEM. not you.#its both positive thing that makes me who i am and disability that makes many things difficult. it can be both 😭#let people describe whats best for them and dont speak for everyone!#linking this to twitter too because both sides gives me headaches lmao #lee rambles #i know people disabled by autism want their storoes told. i know people not as didabled by autism want their stories told #but we cant just do ONE and push only that narrarive. telling one doesnt discredit the other. both are equally important!!! learn to share!#help each other. dont disagree and post passive aggressive posts about each other on social medias. ugh.#i feel like im stuck between where i see it positivly while it disrupts parts of my life at the same time so i dont fit anywhere #people tell me “if you want friends then be friends with other autistics” but i dont even fit in with “my people” sometimes #if anyone else noticed or feels like this then *internet ghost hug* belonging ks difficult :(

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aqqleshiqqing-archive · 2 years

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#sorry sorry this ones gonna be a vent so look away if you're not into that #alright we good? cool cool #cw: vent #a lot of my friends both internet and irl has made advancements in their own circle of friends like they're hanging out and bonding outside #-of school #i feel left out. but this is my fault and im very aware of it #its just... its hard for me to find people that i think id have a close connection with #it makes me think im gonna be really lonely at the end of the day #sometimes texting isnt enough. i want physical enjoyment and fun too #i just find myself stuggling to click off with others and maybe its because im unsure of who i can trust #idk my classmate always talks about hows their day and compared to mine; theirs always seems so much funner to do yeah dbfbbfbfbdbdbr #i dont know. a lot of my close friends. or even best friends if you will; arent physically close with me anymore because they either #actually no its not either. they just moved out #its hard to stay in contact with them too so i dont know what's life like for them anymore #that's why I really appreciate every connection ive made here because it feels very personal here. but i feel the more i keep being here—#without actual physical communication — ill just get worse #and i always think about my faves just to cope with it but i guess i just got slapped with reality check today and came to realize that now #theres this one day in school where a problem arised during an event and i was so anxious and scared — i started crying #my schoolmate who used to be my old classmate (we're in different sections as of present) immediately comforted me and #i really appreciated that. he gave me a hug and even lent me his handkerchief. something about that moment made me realise that this is #exactly wanted. just that feeling of warmth and comfort from a friend dhfhfbdbdb it sounds petty but i really like physical languages yeah #ive been trying to finf ways to say hi to him again but its hard since our school schedules are different #im not close with anyone in my class tbh so its hard for me to feel that physical closeness too #i firmly believe in action speaks louder than words. so yeah #thats all. yeah #ill go continue reading my notes

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chadlesbianjasontodd · 2 years

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not to psychoanalyze people On Line but i always wonder if the extremely consistent pattern of writing (at least in english-language fandom) the pov character to be smaller, thinner, softer, weaker, paler, and above all, just sort of laying there as romance and sex and even friendship are done to them, indicates some specific desire to just......not participate in life

#like. the desire be Acted Upon by a sexually aggressive person of color is obvious; the imprint of the colonial Savage and the white woman #it's the way this seems to extend to everything *else* that is surprising: the total lack of desire to act at all.#to do things WITH other people.#it's not 'i want to be in reciprocal love'; it is 'i want someone to do love TO me'. it's not 'i want to do something nice with my friends'#it is 'i want someone to magically appear whenever i'm feeling down to tell me how smart and kind and special i am'#i always want to ask: dont you have any deep desires to. cook dinner for someone. give them a hug. anything that involves another person??#or even a thing. any desire to interact with the world at all???#maybe i am the only human being on the internet whose deep personal dreams are about *doing* things! who knows!!!

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eternitwo · 7 months

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i miss you i miss you so much

#🦷#i miss them so fucking much sometimes #they’re gone they’re never coming back no matter how hard i cry. no matter how much i reach for their hand they’ll always be gone #i wish i could have hugged them and kissed their forehead and given them a warm bed to sleep in until they felt at least okay for a little #internet friends rip your heart to shreds and they’re so beautiful in my mind. i want them back. i want them back so much #i miss them i miss them i miss talking to them i miss them every day #i never learned what happened i never got to tell them i loved them #i miss them i miss them i miss them like a child will miss their lost dog #except i may never find them again

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einaudis · 9 months

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#I'm going to say this and I know it's going to sound dramatic and intense and as if I were in the middle of a crisis #but I'm not; I'm actually okay; just thinking about stuff as usual #thing is... thinking about stuff made me realize that I'm going to die without getting the chance to actually TALK to someone about #so many things I want to talk about #and I don't mean venting no because I know I can do that as long as I have access to the internet and a keyboard #my point is talking ACTUALLY talking #having a conversation with someone and getting to say all the things I've kept to myself all these years #to actually SAY those things to use my voice #I won't get the chance to hug someone or getting hugged or cry or laugh at how surreal all these things have been #I don't know I try not to think about that that much but I won't lie and say I don't crave touch #because I do; so much #but I mean I hate my mom and she hates me back; there's no way in hell I'm talking to her #my dad whom I love I just won't bother with this stuff #apart from that I only love two of my cousins and they live so far away and whenever I tell them something they consider 'worrying'#I have to talk about something else because they... well... worry and I don't want to deal with that #then almost all the friends I had left the country and the ones who're still here... they're cool but I don't really trust them #and they don't trust me an that's okay #I don't know #I just crave a good conversation and knowing that there's no one around to actually have it kind of kills me ngl #but then again I'm okay nothing's happening I just spend too much time in my head that's all #random #personal #my shitty English #i can't afford therapy so tumblr tags it is

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abra-ka-dammit · 1 year

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every year i get to add another year to "longest ive ever been single since i first started dating" and idk man. this isnt a record im TRYING to keep beating but

like

literally how do you meet people as an adult i do not understand

all i go to is work and theres not exactly prospects there in a staff of 4 men i wouldnt be attracted to even if they were single, and one woman who is straight and married and also my boss's daughter

#stupid shit #man.#its not like im depressed over it or anything like im clearly surviving fine while single #but you do start to REALLY miss someone hugging you and kissing you and saying they love you and wanting to hang out and go places w u #i get enough socializing through my internet friends to stay sane but they cant offer me THIS kind of love yknow...#i tried sneaking my number to this cute verizon girl by giving her a tiny notepad i'd doodled on the front of #on the top of which's first page had my name and number and a smiley face #in retrospect she probably just assumed i had written down someone to call back or smth #(or was straight or taken or just uninterested but you know)#and im fuckin sick of dating apps thats such bullshit #when ur not getting ghosted or stood up youre getting pulled in by some desperate person who would have grabbed anyone #so you can waste 6 months of your time w someone who doesnt even actually like you

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hysteria-things · 2 months

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hey! love your stories

can you do a story where Matt/chris x Reader have to hide their relationship from EVERYONE (including the internet) but one of them slips up and exposes everything.

if you can make a story like this thank you!!!

EXPOSED

𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: chris x reader

𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: a tiny slip-up causes the fandom to go a little cray cray.

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: FLUFF, swearing

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 505

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: thank you for 1.5k i love you guysss!

“why are you so heavy.” you groan as chris is hugging you, his legs wrapping around your waist.

“that’s harsh,” he says, and you roll your eyes.

you’ve known chris for a while, becoming good friends along the way. what people don’t know, including his brothers, is that you guys are dating.

you don’t want to get bashed online by preteens, and he’s just not ready to reveal it quite yet either.

your best friend laughs, snapping a pic of you guys for fun. the three of you are on a sunset walk on the street, soaking up the outdoors.

“don’t hate me.” she starts, and chris finally lets go. “you guys would make such a cute couple.”

cheeks becoming red, you feel chris’ stare on you. he smirks. “nah. that’ll never happen.”

a few days go by, and yes you’ve seen the tweets, but thankfully the fans don’t believe it. i mean, they already know you guys are close friends. nothing suspicious about that.

today’s different. you wake up from your afternoon nap with your phone blowing up. mention after mention.

QUEEN WE NEED ANSWERS @y/n_l/n

@y/n_l/n and chris??? hello???

no SHOT chris and y/n are dating😭

you pause at the last comment.

‘no shot chris and y/n are dating’

what?

confused as ever, you open up the most reliable source: twitter. twitter knows everything about everyone.

you scroll, seeing hundreds of tweets about you and chris. there’s also a video attached, what seems like a clip from the triplets’ new podcast.

you tap on the video.

nothing exciting happens for the first two seconds, just them yapping about whatever the fuck. then the camera cuts to chris. “yeah, my girlfriend y/n—” he starts, stopping when he notices.

that son of a gun.

matt’s face scrunches. “your girlfriend y/n?”

“i meant my good friend y/n. i was talking too fa—"

“i knew it!” nick exclaims, causing him and chris to get into a bickering match.

the video ends, and a message pops up.

chris <3

i’m outside

you sigh, uncovering yourself from your blanket and heading to the front door. you open it, your boyfriend smiling fake at you. he can’t tell if he’s in trouble or not. “it was an accident.” he says, almost fearful.

your eyes widen, nodding your head along with his rambling. “i wasn’t thinking. my mouth was moving faster than my brain. it came so naturally because you, you know, are my girlfriend. my girlfriend; that i love so much. who i will never betray. who i can never live without. who i—”

“chris, stop,” you say softly. he for sure thinks he’s in trouble, but you honestly don’t care about the tweets and tiktoks. it was a silly slip-up, but in reality, you guys couldn’t hide your relationship forever. “it’s okay. it was bound to happen, honestly.”

“you’re not mad?”

“no.” you giggle, cupping his neck and pulling him into a kiss.

“i love being your good friend y/n.” you say jokingly, chris smiling on your lips.

𝐭𝐚𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭!

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