#i want to scrub the walls

[dyrewrites]

Actively participating in three different writing chats/shares, talking to a few different people, revising Weald and Wen, keep jumping into V Rising just to build more castle, forgot to eat, can't keep legs still, brain is in ten different places, jittering like I am made of electrified jelly...

Hmm.

I may have slid into a manic episode.

What fun.

I might be extra for a bit. Not any specific extra, just extra.

And I apologize in advance because it will be annoying.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

WIFI IS MINE ONCE AGAIN as i sit on a mattress on the floor

[umemiyan]

did my laundry and then did a big cleanup of my apartment. since when did the executive in my brain decide to function?

[asinglesock]

They really made me stay here 10pm-6am to deep clean the entire restaurant and get no tips :/

[tardis--dreams]

There's silverfish in this apartment so the only chance for my body to get some rest would be collapsing from exhaustion otherwise i will not sleep for a While

[simplyghosting]

Person: You’re so quiet all the time.

Me: *biting my tongue for the past 3 hours, trying not to be a clean freak or insulting by asking if I can redo all of their laundry*

Me: haha you think so?

[fingertipsmp3]

Just remembered another fucked up paint story (will put in tags because idk I like talking in tags more than actually in the post)

[togetherweflyhigh]

I'm this 🤏 close to locking my door when i have my headphones on or just in my room. Like fuck I'm tired of not having privacy unless I'm 'sleeping'.

Idk when I'm in my room I don't want anyone else to just come in uninvited. It gives that's same feeling of when you're in the kitchen and someone walks in

[punk-raphaelite]

Here’s the painting a friend and did as a backdrop to my installation for my grad show

I chose variations on cyan, magenta and yellow - primaries in the subtractive colour model - to reflect the focus on colour theory and light models within the settings of the piece, as well as the audio narrative that plays in the room when the CD player is interacted with.

The final piece was a room full of old office furniture and studio supplies, made to look like a working studio. By going through the items in the room (desk drawers, filing cabinets, daily planner, files on the computer, notebooks, playing a burned cd on the cd player) the viewer is able to discover the story of the fictional owner of this space.

[nomaishuttle]

in case u guys r ever residents in a ursing home heres an etiquette lesson its considered rude to loudly talk shit about the housekeeping staff when theres one right next to you and its especially rude if when she passes by you say Thats her ive had her for 2 weeks (i have been cleaning this womans room for 2 months .)

[maraeffect]

pt got canceled today bc of technical issues, so i spent the day deep cleaning. let me just say i did SO much that i haven't had the energy or motivation to do in MONTHS. i am so fucking proud of myself ahhhh

[orcelito]

anytime people complain about golfers (like real golf, not mini-golf) i think of my rich ex step family where we’d take family trips down to south carolina and every trip without fail there would be a day where all the men would go golfing and all the women & children would just hang around the house. which like i was 100% fine with, i was perfectly happy just hanging out and swimming in the pool or whatever. 

but like. in hindsight. what a fucking Rich Person thing to do lmao

[wheelie-sick]

"oh, I live in a desert and-"

"wow that must be so terrible" "deserts are so ugly" "I would never want to live in a wasteland like that" "it's just empty nothingness"

wishing 10,000 exploding hammers upon you

behold New Mexico

[ID 1: tall, snowcapped rocky mountains rising above a plain filled with desert scrub

ID 2: brightly colored banded cliff walls of several mesas climbing their way into mountains

ID 3: a desert prairie

ID 4: colorful hoodoos against a twilight sky

ID 5: white sand dunes as far as the eye can see

ID 6: a collection of hoodoos against a stormy sky at sunset

ID 7: a juniper tree standing with a cliff wall in the background

ID 8: several juniper trees on a rocky landscape]

[pbpsbff]

babysitting a grown man is hard work

[girlscience]

It's my third day. I am genuinely so worried that I will end up quitting. I like everything I've done so far. I like the people. I am excited to learn and be outside and do work in streams and rivers. But everyone else has experience with this. Everyone else talks about how much work it all is all the time (and then off handedly will say "but it's rewarding" (it kind of comes off weirdly stuck-up about it??)). They talk about the people who quit, "they weren't as dedicated as they thought", "they didn't understand how hard it would be", etc. They say multiple people quit every new cohort. I don't have experience with this, so what if it's me? The students here all have a connection with each other that I've never really been able to do with others (they remind me of the cool kids at camp or the like cool hikers groups). They say they are like a family and if you can't become a part of the group, you'll probably find it too hard and quit. You have to all work together and support each other because it sounds like the grad advisors don't do anything with us (which terrifies me. idk how to run my own project. idk how to plan scientific presentations for conferences). What if I can't figure out how to become a part of the group and it gets too overwhelming? Yesterday I was standing watching them do some stuff and didn't really have anything to do and one of them said "Lee.... always looking lost and confused." I've only been here two days!!!! Of course I'm lost! No one will stop talking about how hard it is!!! Cant you talk about the interesting things???? Tell me why you like doing this work?? Can you tell me what you are interested in, what you want to do??? Okay so there are very long days, tell me why they are worth it!!!!! Okay so the advisors don't help, tell me how you figured out how to run your project!! TELL ME HOW THE FUCK YOU PICKED A PROJECT!!! You all keep asking what mine is, but I don't know!!! I have had two mentioned to me, but beyond being mentioned, there's been nothing! I don't know what my options are!!!!

Like great, I'm going to work on everyone else's projects and never have time to work on mine, and I'll miss all my classes, and never have enough sleep, and I'll have to study in the car all the time. You have all made that clear. I just am brand new at this! I am excited to learn about streams and rivers! I am excited to learn about fish! I want to go out and do field work. But you all make it sound terrible and it all sounds like a "oh don't worry if you quit no one will be surprised. we understand it's too much for you. you just can't handle it. we get it." And I am new and I haven't been in school for 4 years and I have zero background with this, so I am already worried that I have made a huge mistake and fucked up my life! I am worried I quit my job and moved and I shouldn't have and that I am not going to be able to learn everything I need to and then end up having to give up and disappoint myself and figure out a whole new life. I am just stressed! Everyone is excited for me and asking questions! And I'm just sitting in a lab reading a key on fish identification panicking.

[fly-sky-high-09]

wroooong timing to spill my sugary milked coffee everywhereeeeeeee