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moonlit-orchid · 4 months
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good evening to everyone except a certain few fucking anons
#go fuck yourselves like seriously what the fuck#im so sick of this#this is about the last two anons by the way. i havent gotten any more because i turned off anon asks#if you wanna know why anon asks are off blame those two assholes#seriously that stupid shits been getting to my head#you know why? because every fucking person around here (especially my mum) LOVES to criticise me and accuse me of victimising myself#literally every fucking thing i do is wrong around here down to my hair#all these fucking adults like to bully me about MY hair#fuck you if i want bangs I'll keep the bangs#literally it seems like they're just doing whatever they can to change me into someone else. someone they want#this fucking culture of mine is so shitty i swear to god#like they think that BULLYING you is people being honest with you#and that if someone's nice to you theyre shittalking you behind your back#(honestly considering some of the people i see i wouldn't be surprised)#and im not even doing anything thats WRONG either. im different and not one of these people can tolerate that#yeah my mum sent me a video of a goat with curly hair and implied she thinks my bangs are like that. in a derogatory manner btw#so yeah that's had me pissed and then the fucking anons were also making me pissed#fuck you I'm gonna be as selfish as i want when i post on MY blog#this blog is MINE#I decide what i write and how much i wanna shittalk someone who upset me to get my feelings out. if anyone wants to call me selfish fuck you#and you know what? fuck That Person too. they geniunely messed me up more than they helped me#yes. im still gonna talk about them. im still gonna complain because FUCK YOU I NEED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW OKAY#I NEED THIS SHIT OUT OF ME AND IT GETS BACK INTO MY HEAD SO I NEED IT OUTSIDE#and fuck you anons who gave your unwanted opinion. if you cant say anything nice SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTHS#i was taken advantage of and manipulated#and apparently I'm the bad guy for small mistakes like excuse me#and then that person even told a friend of theirs once to attack me (over text) like what#i just cant anymore it needs to be fucking out#and im not sorry for complaining about this because this is my blog and i will complain on here. this blog is for ME. for MY happiness.#and as such i will fucking complain shit and i will fucking post my vents because thats the only way i can send these emotions off for good
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some-pers0n · 4 months
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I keep seeing people say "nonononono Whirlpool wanting to marry the Actual Child is not him being a pedophile, but rather him wanting to shape her so that, when she is an adult, she marries him and let's him have all the power" which like. that's still grooming. Even if we ignore the fact that Whirlpool went after what is essentially a six year old child and immediately wanted to start the same process he did for Anemone when he saw Auklet (LITERAL NEWBORN), like that's textbook grooming. What you described is grooming. Whirlpool is grooming Anemone into being a submissive and weak dragon who only obeys him and let's him gain control of the throne. He's not a good dragon at all, pedophile or not
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ubejamjar · 4 months
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#trying out a new thing#ffxiv screenshots#ajisaijar#pastjar#gposers#ffxiv gpose#im not happy with the dialogue; not 100% sure why but i just wanted to try this out#i want to explore ajisai's relationships in her decuria; especially with her decurion and her medicus veteranus#right now i'm thinking ajisai got assigned to a decuria much sooner than normal because healers are always needed and she has an aptitude#for it. officially she would've been a field medic so she would be 'jen' and she certainly would've taken an cognomen to make herself as#imperial as possible#ANYWAY#marcus pyr calidus is a piece of shit; he manipulated her into a corner where she couldn't understand conflicting messages#of praise and abuse; i'm still working out the details of what he does but for sure he was handsome and charming and maybe Ajisai was lowke#in love with him and would've done anything he asked ; and he totally took advantage of that#wanna know why ajisai has problems with authority? marcus pyr calidus bby#he's a big reason why ajisai tried to ditch haurchefant post one night stand and why she has a wall between herself and aymeric#is it love or is it the indoctrinated desire to please her betters/worship authority ?? is aymeric nice or is he working an angle#to make her more beholden to Ishgard? does she like him or is she just falling into line like a good little soldier?#who knoooowwwss?#i'm 100% just writing this shit in here so i can copy it down in the lil Ajisai binder I am apparently making because I'm obsessed
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arolesbianism · 1 month
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I caved and made them real. Obverse me losing more and more motivation to draw as I made each of these back to back lol
#keese draws#oc art#oc#pmd#pokemon#pokemon mystery dungeon#pmd oc#these guys are inspired by my usual pokerogue team#oh also imagine a question mark after every he/him I have the trans woman beam pointed at all of them#these are just initial concepts for the actual characters themselves now that I’ve developed the world a lil bit#but yeah these 4 were childhood friends who wanted to be in an exploration team together but had to split up for years#tart and quart both had to move away and cart ended up leaving his hometown to try and become a real adventure a few months later#cart and bart remained in contact for a few years before cart got caught up in some crime circles#he was incredibly trusting when he was younger so he got taken advantage of and ended up digging himself a deeper hole in an attempt to be#manipulative back and eventually he got scared enough that he tried to reach out to a guild and acted as a spy for them in turn for them#eventually helping to clear his name and allowing him membership#there were parts of the deal that were unfair and kind of shady but he was desperate enough to pretend he didn’t notice#after he joined he started immediately putting out listings for new team members and he fully planned on being super picky#but when two of his childhood friends applied he was over the moon about it#and immediately accepted both of them#now quart also applied because he had recently ran away from his old life and was desperate to have a new one#and he missed his old friends deeply so when he saw one of them actually managed to start building the team they all wanted to make he was#quick to apply even if he was rusty as hell on normal non contest combat#cart didn’t recognize him at first and mostly only let him have a trial run because he thought it was funny that an eevee of all things was#applying for a high level exploration team and he fully planned on telling quart off immediately afterwards#this ofc made quart very upset and angry but he didn’t try to clairify who he was because he just assumed that time had made cart into an#asshole which isn’t wrong per say but quart didn’t realize cart didn’t recognize him#it was a rough trial expedition but cart found himself actually quite impressed with quart’s slight of paw skills and his impressive biting#speed so he decided to give quart a real chance instead of a mocking one#eventually quart laughs for the first time around him and that makes cart realize who he is and that makes him feel horrible
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okay to those of you who saw my last rb and care about my stupid guilty gear au. i NEED to rant right now. Massive long winded about bedkari (aka bedman x hikari, my stupid ship that’s part of reverie of rebirth) under the cut. Be warned they’re so toxic yuri
i just realized. The cornered pray analogy exactly how the dynamic between Romeo and Hikari is. The lamb preparing for their slaughter specifically is. Exactly them. But the thing is… The roles are swapped in a way.
Romeo, of course, has sheep elements. Those are a huge part of his design- Even in his canon story as well. He’s a lamb being led by a shepherd. He’s naively being led along by Ariels, she calms him when he rebels or lashes out against her, and she led him all the way to his eventual slaughter. He’s the lamb.
But with Hikari, he gets to be the shepherd.
Hikari is a yokai. She’s powerful. I wrote her to be powerful on purpose. She could be fatally wounded and survive, not even batting an eye due to her lack of pain receptors. Which she does. Right when she first meets Romeo. He tries to kill her, and yet she’s unfazed. She doesn’t care. She didn’t feel anything, and she knows she wants to be near him no matter what. All that’s important is pleasing him.
Basically all Hikari knows is Romeo. When she first met him and emotionally latched onto him, she had only recently awoken and still had all her emotions. All her emotions were developed around Romeo’s guidance and treatment of her, which basically just meant being his little assistant, aiding in his war crimes, and associating joy with his slightly harsh treatment.
All Hikari knows is showing her neck and stomach to Romeo.
When comparing the specific animal motifs of both Romeo and Hikari, it’s really fun to see the contrast. Hikari has the designs element of the predator animal, while Romeo has motifs of the prey. However, those roles are swapped in terms of their behavior. Romeo is abrasive and only begins to show care towards his yokai companion after months in his presence, while said companion innocently follows his commands and accepts anything he throws her way- Naively believing every word he says like it’s gospel. A little cat blindly loving the cruel shepherd. It’s a beautiful parallel that honestly was not intentional.
The sheep bares its teeth and bites into the neck of the two-tailed cat.
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gayferrari · 2 days
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Hi sorry my bad for even starting this, I'm too mentally drained to go into these conversations 🙏 fwiw: I will call out Fred the next time he says something non commital about a clear team mistake. I don't think this was a clear team mistake. but we don't have to agree!
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projectdivaar · 2 months
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SEASON 4 FINALE.........I felt genuinely ill the whole time like my stomach was twisting I was gonna throw up oh my god what the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#SAM MY BOY#SAMUEL MY BELOVED IM SO SORRY#THE FUCKING CON ........ THE WHOLE TIME!?!?!?! THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME!?!??!?!#u js have 2 respect her @ this point 4 that bc holy shit#2 season spanning game she was in 4 the LONG HAUL#cas defying fuckers 4 the gayass 1 million complex brothers 🎉#sam made me want 2 throw up so much#he js wanted 2 save ppl .... he didnt kno!!!! HE DIDNT KNO!!!!!!!!!!! (said thru tears)#THE FUCKING DEMOM EYES...ON HIM......IT MADE ME ILL#srry!!!!!!! sam thoughts im rlly biased#OUGH he PRAYED he had FAITH and he was MANIPULATED and TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF and REFUSED 2 SEE IT bc he WANTED 2 BELIEVE#that he culd do GOOD despite tbe fact he KNEWWW he had DEMOM BLOOD in himmmmmmm!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRGHHHHHHHH#im having so many thoughts. abt him. but i dont thibk im articulating them v well @ all.. oh well! do u understand what i mean#anyways unreleated i thibk sam an cas shuld fuck nasty#im making galaxy brain parallels between them i js cant explain them v well. but i think gay sex wuld help (it wuldnt)#uhmmmm what else#chucks goofy i hope nthn bad happens 2 him (smth bad always happens)#MAN!!!!!!!!!!!! can these stupid ass brothers catch a BREAK!!!!!!! for ONCE!!!!!!!!!!!!#can s5 b normal (s5 won't b normal)#why the hell did i start watching spn. worst mistake of my life#ive been reminded i CAN infact get emotionally attached 2 fictional characters. thanks spn. ive got sam rotating in my mind now#i want dean 2 punch fuck outta him and then i want them 2 make up and they shuld fly 2 sum place else and have a normal life#im so DONE w this show!!!!! (im starting s5 next wk)#why the hell os this show making me feel shit bro this wasnt supposed 2 happen :(#sigh.....................oh well#spn#rivers rambles <3
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mhaccunoval · 2 months
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i always think i'm normal. and then BOOM. mini series eddie
#mhac.txt#it (1990)#he is STILL one of those characters that fills me with overwhelming feeling.#including the overwhelming urge to bite him and shake him around.#i think it's because he's so cute physically and in personality. but i don't mean that in an infantalizing way.#especially because there's so much more nuance to him. like. the amount of times he's trying to be brave and stand on his feet#despite being scared or cowardly and vulnerable. a vulnerability particularly fed AND taken advantage of by the manipulation of his mom.#which if you cross compare that against bev and her dad it's. explosions.#i think also there's a sort of Softness in dennis christopher as 1990 era eddie. because he's just a soft cutie guy.#but also the way that eddie himself is kind. still easy to frighten and not always willing to take the reigns. but can be pushed to#and is compassionate with the guys of his company and all. still has a particular compassion for the losers as well. even richie.#which is. its own can of worms. as much as i love the idea of them i won't try to find and implant queer subtext where there might be none.#but. pennywise calling young eddie girlboy. and also the way in which both eddie actors. they deal out teases and agitation with richie.#that's inevitable when it comes to richie. but there's. TO ME. more of a fondness for him by these actors than the hard line irritation#in 2017/2019. which i'm not faulting jack dylan grazer or james ransone for. especially not when it's just part of the stylistic choices.#but. miniseries eddie holds so much more power to me than 2017/2019 eddie.#i didn't mean to write a whole essay in the tags but here we are
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i don't dislike witchcraft because i'm skeptical of the possibility of the spiritual, far from it. i dislike it because i deeply resent the fact that there's an entire industry that allows brands to slap the word 'witchy' on products and sell them at exorbitant prices to scam largely neurodivergent people who struggle with unreality, that's being actively fed into by a community that lures them in with harry potter nostalgia and tiktok aesthetics, that's built of an utterly unscientific melting pot of cherry picked history where if any actual research is done beyond pinterest boards and books bought from spencers, will lead to either blatant cultural appropriation, or dump you directly in the middle of the pyramid of conspiracy theories thats like one step under the antisemitic point of no return into viking romanticizing, white people dreadlocks having, aliens-build-the-pyramids, white supremacist paganism
pinterest witchy kids, if you see this, please please do not buy that 45$ quartz crystal from etsy, especially if its to protect yourself from abusive family or something. it is not going to work, you're gonna need that money to move out one day, and whether the person selling it realizes it or not, youre being scammed.
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hyp-no-tic · 1 year
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I cannot believe they are making us root for Master Amin 🙃
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trashbucket-poetry · 1 year
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I don’t think of you
Note: TW for the F-Slur, mentions of suicide, mentions of rape, manipulation. Men in general
For anyone from irl who thinks they know who I’m referring to- yeah it’s probably who you think it is xD not against confirming for you either just shoot me a text lmao
Anyway- enjoy!
I don’t think of you anymore.
Not of your guitar, not of mine in your hands.
I don’t think of your music, static with age, I don’t think of the way you eventually let me ruffle your hair, or the time you brought a pocket knife to my birthday and practiced throwing it at the tree in my yard.
I don’t think about the time you told me to jump out of a second story window - how you meant it - how I thought of listening.
Or the time you so easily explained that all my friends thought I was brain damaged, how you made it sound like I should be grateful for the sympathy that was your friendship - because nobody would be my friend unless they thought there was something wrong with me
Not the time you told me you were allowed to call me a faggot because you were bisexual
I don’t think about the way my best friend’s name sprayed like venom from your throat
How you blamed her for your acidic version of love. How you blamed her for refusing to let it burn her.
I don’t think of how the word “rape” was often paired with laughter, coming from you.
How it that moment you reminded me of another boy. Another boy with straight hair the colour of damp straw.
How you both only cared about me because I made myself so small that you could take up more space than you were due.
I don’t think about you.
But I am wearing the shirt your mother bought me for my birthday, because you couldn’t be bothered to get me a present, as I write this. It didn’t fit when you gave it to me, and I’ve never even watched Star Wars, but I wore it to sleep every night, convinced it was proof I had a friend who cared about me.
I found a video of you in my bedroom, the lights were red, your hands caressing my guitar. It was broken but you still made beautiful music with it.
I found pictures from our last days of school, I found your smile hidden in the background.
And I smiled too. And I didn’t remember the way you made me feel bad for existing too loudly.
I didn’t remember the way your mother did not recognize me when were met in the grocery store - or how I wasn’t scared of her, how I smiled when I saw her.
I have a bad habit of trusting boys made of flames with hair the colour of wet straw
But I do not think of them.
And I do not think of you.
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albatris · 1 year
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also shoutout 2 alex when it and nat are on that hunting trip together n unprompted it's just like "lemme know if you wanna fake your death I'm happy to help"
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I'm no longer going to be helping my sister in law. Because of her I was put in a situation where my life was threatened and she doesn't even have the decency to own up to her mistakes. I have spent so much time trying to help her and she does nothing but lie and talk shit behind my back. I don't care any more. I refuse to help a lier. I refuse to help someone who's going to take advantage of me and talk shit about me. I refuse to help someone stuck in her middle school bullying ways who lies about every little thing. I'm tired of it.
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r. f. kuang’s skill at writing a tight, gripping tragedy with an end you feel coming in your bones and yet cannot pull yourself away from, with a message about the infestation and horrors of colonialism that drills itself into your core until you cannot help but internalize its truths, with characters whose lives you want to explore and delve into so much you feel choked up when they’re cut short by the terrors around them…
it’s all why she is quickly becoming one of my favorite authors.
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nonbinaryphantom · 1 year
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making valerie a vigilante in roleswap bc vlad for sure isnt providing ghost gear and im not sure if she would go to the fentons idk maybe tucker hooks her up or something
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vaugarde · 2 years
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bramblestar 🤝 lionblaze
throwing fits when their (ex) love interests call them out on acting like tigerstar and going “SHES BULLYING ME FOR MY FAMILY WHICH I CANT HELP!!” meanwhile theyre literally training with and kissing tigerstars ass and conspiring murder and coup plans with him and neither of them face actual consequences for this while their (ex) love interests are painted as bigoted assholes who went way too far in an argument
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