#i’m analyzing this like it’s a betting sport

[ultra-violetra]

the reason why red team wins isn’t because they submit tasks last minute. that isn’t even the biggest part of their strategy, so let me tell you what red is doing to win:

delegating tasks: each member has spent most of their time collecting whatever resource the team needs. they work together to come up with specific goals (eg. enchantment table, mining iron, getting string) and then send specific people out to do that task, usually whoever’s free at the moment

helping each other: they would all drop everything at a moment’s notice to help a teammate in trouble

sharing resources: red team shares literally everything they own. most notably, bings and personal quest items

personal tasks: they all help each other out to finish these, and they make sure everyone active gets them done. i think a good chunk of their points come from this category actually, since the other teams don’t seem to prioritize it as much

not seeking fights: ok sure, they’ve gotten in a decent amount of fights, but usually the fight comes to them. they aren’t spending their time searching for people to kill, rather most of their kills have been from running into others in the wild or at spawn (foolish did spend time looking for tina today, but that was mostly looking for blue base as a strategic point)

using time wisely: to kind of add onto the point above, they aren’t spending all their time walking thousands of blocks to others’ bases. they also are very communicative about how much time they have left and what to use it for. they’ll ask how they can help the team with their last ten minutes, for instance

communicating: red team spends almost their entire time on the server in a vc together. I know this isn’t exactly every creator’s thing, but they could still type in chat if they didn’t want to talk. red team have even been leaving discord messages to their teammates to tell them info when they’re not online!

varying their points: i think this is the most important thing tbh. instead of only focusing on tasks or kills, etc. they do a little bit of every. they make sure to do well in every possible point category

being silly: it’s the best part!! the silliness boosts team morale

seriously though, the red team doesn’t just sweep the win at the last minute. if that was true then they wouldn’t log in until the last ten minutes. all the active members spend their 5 hours (or however long they’re playing that day) working on gathering materials and being useful for the team. the only advantage they have from being online later is they know how many points they need to get to catch up. so they can sort of measure how many kills or resources they’d need, etc. but knowing what they need doesn’t guarantee they’ll get it. the red team puts a lot of hard work into their wins it’s not just a cheap sweep. they are clever, resourceful, and strategic

[queenofallimagines]

Needy Embarrassing sex with Sae

A/N: Daydreaming about this mans dick what else is new🙄😒 imagining he’s in charge of helping the new manager get accustomed to the team and he can’t help but let his eyes wander

EDIT: MDNI but here’s an audio reference for y’all who not picking up what I’m putting down💕 twitter link 🥰

Sae:

- this one gave me butterflies Ngl

- Bc I can hear his voice

- Like I said he’s a lot more Tame than Rin so he does have an occasional soft spot

- ESPECIALLY for cute little things who can’t even remember the name of half the teammates they’re managing

- Since he’s the best of the best coach obviously tells him to whip you into shape

- “Try not to scare this one off”

- “Not my fault you signed off on someone who can’t even fill a water bottle”

- The coach is praying for you fr

- Surprised that you take the initiative to approach him first to ask him about things

- “I mean you ARE the star midfielder right? You probably have a good read on everyone and how they work so asking you would be my best bet.”

- Okay he loves a go getter

- Pleasantly surprised that you’re asking good questions

- “I’m trying to get as much info as possible so this becomes second nature.”

- Gives you a through rundown of the schedule and what time they take breaks

- Obviously he’s a diva so he’s the most demanding

- Giving you a tour around the facilities

- “That’s the locker room. Wouldn’t recommend walking by here between the hours of 4:45 and 6pm”

- “…..I’ll keep that in mind.”

- Finds showing you around not annoying

- Once you get to the dorms he’s listing off everyone’s sleeping habits

- “He won’t wake up before 8:30 am so if you can manage that congratulations”

- He’s been eyeing you this entire time but he can’t help it!

- He’s a hard worker so anyone putting in honest effort into anything especially when it pertains to him catches his eye

- Not his fault you look good taking notes and analyzing your surroundings

- Stands back when showing you the rooms so he can sneak a peek at your ass

- You feel him glaring holes into your back but it’s not for the reason you think

- He’s infamous for being kinda a spoiled brat but he produces amazing results so who’s gunna say something to him??

- Lmao not I said the cat

- You don’t even peep his heated gaze until you bump into him walking backwards

- Turning around quickly to apologize before he can catch an attitude his eyes are quite literally undressing you

- This man’s whole life is sports so ofc he’s gunna find a track suit sexy

- Will play it off like he’s not embarrassed for getting caught

- “Cat got your tongue? Don’t tell me you’re just now getting star struck.”

- Mans is giggly asf in the back of his head

- He fr ain’t seen someone catch his eye like this in a while

- Logically getting his dick wet right now would be nice

- But also with the new manager on the first day??

- weighing the options in his head and the way you look up at him and go

- “What about you? What do you want from your manager?”

- He threw caution to the wind

- Everyone else is busy with practice and he can make up some lukewarm ass excuse as to why you guys took so long

- Testing the waters by letting one of his hands rest on your lower back

- Mamma ain’t raise no bitch so he’s relieved you immediately return his energy

- He’s not wasting anymore time and pulls you in for a kiss

- Mans is STARVED for intimacy like this so he’s definitely a little more vulnerable

- Like that’s definitely the reason your lips fit so well against his

- Why your body curves into his so nicely when he carries you to his bed

- Yeah that’s definitely it

- Feeling himself get embarrassingly hard so fast he’s feverishly tugging at your sweatpants

- “Let me make you feel good, there you go.”

- The quiver in his voice isn’t missed

- You have a once in a lifetime free pass to tease THE Itoshi Sae

- PLEASE TAKE IT!!

- Grind your hips into his while tugging at the hair at the nape of his neck and he will let out some of the sweetest moans for you

- It really has been a while the way his hands are shaking to pull off his own clothes

- Pull him down to kiss you, distracting him from his current task

- He’s weak for being pushed around a little

- Throws your legs over his shoulders without warning

- The way he’s got your legs spread wide for him and he’s eye level with what he wants has you avoiding eye contact at all costs

- Moving his head between your thighs he’s damn near moaning with his mouth all over you

- Holds your trembling thighs still right beside his ears as he shamelessly moans into your cunt

- “You taste so fucking good, gonna use my fingers.”

- This man has not had pussy I’m so long he’s acting FOOLISH

- If he even took a moment to BREATHE he would be giving you heart eyes

- The way he’s singing praises while sucking your clit and angling his fingers to hit your g-spot all at once

- Man is filthy, and he’s not at all ashamed like he’s grown

- Spitting on your clit before he starts rubbing it with his thumb

- While his mouth and other hand are busy getting as much of your taste as possible

- The type of man to need to lay a towel down no matter WHAT your doing in bed

- Very “wait I didn’t shave” “did I ask all that??” Energy imo

- He’s gunna have you cumming on his sheets anyway so what do all that matter??

- Looks up and sees you covering your face trying to keep your noises down and that shit don’t fly w him

- “Keep covering your face and I’ll tie your hands to the bed.”

- And he’s dead serious too

- Comes up to kiss you not caring if you taste yourself because he wants to feel your lips THAT bad

- The way he refuses to break eye contact only serves to make you more shy because they’re glossed over with desire

- making sure you can’t squirm away from him has he has you cumming on his fingers

- “Feel good?… Yeah? like how i stretch you out? Let me feel you come undone then.”

- Whew IK he talks you through it😫

- “Keep your eyes open.”

- “S-sae I can’t-“

- “You can and you will, pretty thing.”

- Feels your nails digging into your wrists as you clench around his fingers

- “Ah. Almost there? Make a mess f’me.”

- Almost came in his pants watching your eyes roll back

- Since he IS shameless he’ll lick his fingers clean as you’re forced to watch him

- Dramatic as fuck the way he groans about you tasting good

- “Let me watch you play with it.”

- Watching your small fingers curl inside your pussy as you mewl in embarrassment almost has him intoxicated

- Throwing his damn clothes anywhere

- He’s not too stupid to not tease you a little tho

- “If you’re that shy turn around and hide your face in the pillows”

- Nothing is EVER that easy with him

- Cursing and grunting under his breath as he slips it in

- “How about you set the pace. Fuck me how you want”

- Chuckles as you hide your face in the pillows while fucking back into him

- He knows how to put on a performance before all else too

- “Use my cock cmon, make me proud and fuck me good pretty.”

- He’s moaning like a whole ass pornstar head thrown back and everything

- Trying not to move because this is your “punishment” for being all shy

- Can’t help it when you look back at him face clearly burning and whimpering at how embarrassing this is

- Praising you which makes it even MORE embarrassing

- “There you go” “fuck me till I come cmon” “you can do it”

- Like bro SHUT UP😭

- However the way you’re squeezing him tells otherwise

- When he feels you come around him he grits his teeth and says a small sorry in his head before he shoves your face into the mattress

- Feeling you wrapped about him had him fr loosing his mind

- Might skip all of practice just to keep doing this

- “Mhm, you can cum on this dick.. i wanna see it messy."

- Stretches out his words and talks all slow

- He is an Itoshi though unfortunately

- “W-wait Sae, 's too much, you're too fucking big."

- Has you seeing stars like never before

- Clit pincher🗣️ hair puller🗣️

- “Sayin’ it's too much but whining for more? Can't make up your then mind I’ll decide for you.”

- Pushing you deeper into the mattress with his whole body weight

- Grunts and moans RIGHT into your damn ear because you’re squeezing him so might tighter shouldn’t he tell you how good you’re making him feel?

- “At least your cunt knows what she wants, pretty pussy sucking me in and won’t let go. Want me to fill you up that damn bad?”

- Failed to take into account that all he wants to do now is lay down and spoon you while you cockwarm him

- But alas this is the shared dorm and NOT his apartment

- And he has no clue how long y’all been at it

- Helps you clean up while wobbling slightly

- Makes sure there’s no trace of what yall did but the sheets to his bed being in the washing machine

- Nobody thinks nothing bc he’s an upper class brat who needs things to be pristine

- Some people get suspicious when it happens like 5 times a week though….

- He does all his laundry separate so there’s no one to see how your underwear accidentally falls out the pocket of one of his jackets

- Everyone congratulates you on somehow going above and beyond so well that The Sae Itoshi acknowledged you!

- He didn’t think after the first time that looking at your ass you’d be enough to make him embarrassingly hard in public but oh well

- “Continue in my absence I’m going to check if the manager has the new schedule.”

- A few people see red scratches peeking out his jersey but meh probably just the imagination

[herohimbowhore]

Max Verstappen: The Legend Begins

The Legend Begins by Mawr and Silverberg is a song I once briefly heard in a show years ago. For some reason, I was like “Okay I’m gonna add this song to my music library.” I don’t think I ever listened to it after that day.

So, for years it just sat there, another song I once thought I would like, but never listened to. I’m not going to say I stumbled upon the song and thought it was perfect for Max. No, I was going through my library for inspiration when I listened to this song again.

While I could have gone for something a little more mainstream, there’s a handful of Taylor Swift songs that could easily be used for Max, this song felt perfect.

When I say perfect, I mean for 2020s Max, not the Mad Max era or baby Max, but the current Max.

The Legend Begins perfectly encapsulates Max at this moment as he continues to cement his legacy and dominance in Formula 1.

Never get to a point where

Where I'm ever gonna quit, no

I'm always pushin' harder

To be a champion, you need to have a champion mentality. With three on the grid this year, they all have this same mentality of never quitting. We could spend hours dissecting that and how it differs in each of them and which non-champions have that mentality, but this is about Max.

Max in 2023 is an undeniable force. He is winning everything. If you were to bet on Max winning, you would win that bet.

But despite winning everything and having both championships in the bag, Max is not quitting. He keeps pushing harder and harder. Taking that extra step in every race.

Max could be 20+ seconds in the lead and have the win in the bag, but he is still going to push for that fastest lap. If you're clear by that margin, the safe choice would be to just keep on pace and take the victory. But Max Verstappen is going to push, he's going to take that extra pit stop for fresh tyres, and he is going to take the fastest lap point.

Nothin' here is gonna stop me

Nothing's gonna bring me down, no

You gotta step on some heads when you reach for the crown

This verse could be analyzed in many different ways for Max and over his different eras.

Purely basing it on the 2023 season, it's Max getting booed by fans. (sidenote: booing is a very nuanced subject. the argument could be made that it's present in most sports but there's a difference between booing an individual and a team. then there's the matter of sports culture, expected codes of conduct, etc. however, I am strongly against booing during national anthems.)

Booing or criticism in general can be disheartening and bring people down. For criticism bringing someone down, think of Lando in Qatar when Oscar was doing better than him and won. Then he was asked by Nico Rosberg when he would win. And you could see that Lando was critical of himself and "down" that weekend.

But with Max, it's not bringing him down. When asked about it, Max said, "In the end, I'm the one bringing the silverware home."

He is beating everyone, and it is inevitable that he'll take the silverware home.

No you can't believe your eyes

But time is hard to take, yeah

Watch me show the world that I'm one of the kings

No rival, no pressure

No force on this earth

Never keep me from what has been mine since this birth

When the 2022 season came to an end, we thought that Max couldn't possibly dominate more. There was an expectation that Ferrari and Mercedes would get their cars right and close the gap. And when the 2023 season started, Ferrari and Mercedes weren't there, but Aston Martin was there and so was Sergio Perez.

But one by one, the rivals fell away. His teammate has spent more time in the midfield than fighting Max for wins. Aston Martin fell apart halfway through the season. Mercedes and Ferrari seemingly alternate on which weekends they'll be good and most of the time strategy or pit stops prevent them from being challengers. McLaren is on the up, but even they are unmatched for Max in the end.

No you can't believe your eyes:

A repeated phrase this entire season has been: "Well, he can't win everything." No one has wanted to believe that we would go this entire 2023 season with just Max leagues ahead of everyone else.

Never keep me from what has been mine since this birth:

The story around Max has always been when he'll win a championship, not if he'll win a championship. He has always been inevitable.

From the moment he skipped F2 to sign with Toro Rosso to winning his first race with Red Bull in 2016 to fighting for the championship, it has always been a matter of when.

This is where the legend begins

At the end of the day, this is just the beginning of Max Verstappen and the stories that will be written about him in the annals of F1.

Max was dominant in 2022, and he’s gotten even more dominant in 2023. Unless Red Bull have a major fuck up, they’ll still be at the head of the pack. Red Bull as the one team to get the car right, doesn’t have the same disadvantage as other teams trying to close the gap. So, at the very least, until the regulations change, we’re looking at a Red Bull/Max Verstappen era.

[katasstrophy]

Your tags 😭 literally he’s an idiot, but I remember reading that he likes to analyze player/game stats and that’s like the only hope I’m clinging to him being somewhat real life intelligent and not fully air headed — hieori

LMFAAOOO STOPP i’m dead he really is an idiot i’m 😭🤚 rant incoming

okay no but listen. i think sae is, actually, intelligent. might even go so far as to say he’s clever, and extremely so because come on. he has to be for the career he’s pursuing. we’ve seen a multitude of examples already about how quick thinking he is on the field, how he can analyze players’ thought processes in a heartbeat and counter it accordingly – but that’s just it, isn’t it? that these abilities of his are mostly applicable through soccer. so, yeah, sae is intelligent, no doubt about it, but only in like a kind of niche, hyper specific sense.

the public knows he’s incredibly private about his personal life, but that just works to feed into their adoration and enamorment of him, because it basically packages this overwhelmingly talented prodigy into something one dimensional they can digest. out of all the public appearances he’s had, sae’s only been approached with questions about football, his career and maybe sometimes his sponsors or workout routines – things he excels at, and can demonstrate that he does. again, no personal questions, because (1) he wouldn’t answer them anyway, and (2) at this point, people only associate him with his sport now, and nothing else, really. so on the surface, everybody has this notion of him that yeah – he’s a genius, in all sense of the word.

what sae is a 100% not, however, is smart, and i will die on this hill 😭😭😭

there absolutely is a difference between intelligent and smart btw!! yes he can come up with a bajillion different attack options from taking a single glance at the field in front of him and memorizing every players’ positions but he will probably burn his scrambled eggs. you get me, you must.

sae’s not really life smart. or academic smart. or emotional smart (well, give him like maybe 5 more years lol). and because most of the relationships he maintains are strictly professional, no one really knows he does lack in some areas looll.

you know who i bet is painfully, excruciatingly aware of this side of sae though? that, let’s be honest, he can be a bit life incompetent? (i’m really roasting him here oop) his manager 😭😭😭😭 that poor man has to deal with so much shit i just know it

you best believe sae never took the time to get his driver’s license. when his driver isn’t available to take him places he just pays an outrageous amount of money on taxi rides like thank god he’s rich. literally spent half his teenage years in spain and i bet he does not know a single word of the language i’m actually crying. cooking?? forget about it he has a personal chef that prepares his meals according to his diet his fridge would be otherwise empty. do you think this man would know to separate his laundry absolutely not 😭😭😭 bet he never listened in his high school classes either his grades were horrendous. i could literally go on about this for ages but yeah i think i made my point <3

so, no, definitely not an air head, but not not an air head either lmao. depends entirely on what you choose to ask him about.

[monkberryfields]

hi Mads, I was your secret Santa🦋!!! It’s been really great getting to know you this month! Merry Christmas, I hope you had a very happy holiday!! 💜

ooh I’m glad your professor liked your paper, that’s always the best feeling <3 my nature writing was based on an awareness journal where I went to the same wooded area for a couple months, and it felt really great to synthesize my observations and get more philosophical about what I saw :) I hadn’t really written any creative nonfiction before, so it made me feel really good to create a product that I was happy with! and I’d love to hear about your masters thesis if you’re comfortable sharing!!

the premade cookie dough is where it’s at!! I really like to bake breads and pretty much anything with fruit lol. my roommate and I like to bake together to destress. pies can be a lot of work, but I bet you felt really accomplished after baking those for thanksgiving!!

I studied in Switzerland! I finished my minor in French while I was there, and it was such a great opportunity for me to deepen my language study and practice. where would you have wanted to study abroad if you’d had the opportunity?

My gift highlights were some queen albums (jazz and hot space) on colored vinyl, a really nice cardigan, and some eyeshadow palettes! what about you??

my dms and ask box are always open if you want to chat! again, merry christmas, enjoy your time off, and have a great next semester! 🥰🥰🥰

Hello friend!! I had a pretty relaxing Christmas thank you!!

My gift highlights include some kitchen appliances, including an air fryer which I am really excited about! I got some albums like George Harrison's Cloud Nine and Wings' Wild Life (which means I now have all Wings' albums on vinyl). I also got A Hard Day's Night on DVD and the new Mal book! I also have a birthday at the end of this week so I'm expecting more gifts, lol.

That actually sounds really cool and introspective! It must have been really rewarding to combine your thoughts into something like that. My master's thesis is under construction (as I had to rewrite my outline a bit), but this is basically what it is. I'm going to analyze how women have gained autonomy (physical and societal) through communicating with spirits + the dead. I was focusing on the American Spiritualist movement for the most part, but I also wanted to focus on African American women's experiences during the same time of the movement (Mid to late 1800s). I'm going to try and outline my first chapter (I aim to have at least 3 chapters), so I'll probably work on it after my birthday.

I do feel accomplished after baking! I really like to bake, I just wish I could do it more often. I think one of my goals for the next year is to do more baking/cooking for myself, so I'm going to find some cool things to create.

Switzerland sounds so fun! I bet it was such a pretty place to study at. If I could have studied abroad, I would have wanted to go to Ireland or the UK. Maybe even Berlin! If I eventually go into a PhD program like I want to, I may be able to travel to study but we'll see!!

It was really nice to get to know you this December! And yes, let's continue to chat! My messages and inbox are always open and I try to message when I can! I'm glad your holiday went alright and thanks for being a good sport!! :)))

[stargatelov3r]

Hmm… We'll see, anonymity and all that.🧡

If you do write some I would love to read it. Can’t stop thinking about these funny scifi characters. <3 I completely understand and I cannot wait to see said reactions. 

It’s kinda cool with those ships where you need to think about it more. I like to analyze why that happens, like as you were saying with Sam/ Elizabeth (Which I will be getting too!) and how the ship was off for you because of the actors. It can reveal our personal biases in a way. In a good way, I think.

Hmm… More Chuck/ Radek headcanons? Why the hell not.

Chuck has no idea he is about to become smitten with the Czech scientist, he only goes to the infirmary because of his guilt. Because Radek deserves an apology. He comes out of the interaction buzzing and tingly, the entirety of it lingering in his mind. Chuck tries to push it away expecting everything to go back to normal. But, no. Radek starts shooting him smiles and being extra friendly. 

When Radek realizes Chuck has a crush on him he is surprised but ecstatic. He tries to maintain a semblance of calm during the work day but his face keeps breaking out into a mischievous smile. The sight of which has Rodney on edge all day.

Hobbies hmm… I’d be worried about them doing Archery. I could see them both painting, I bet they would take lessons from Lorne. You know what, and Pottery, they definitely do pottery. Heck, all the characters do pottery, because doing pottery together is one of the sexiest of hobbies, I’m pretty sure that’s a fact. (Not a Fact.)

Hmm… Radek mentions he had racing pigeons, this gets Chuck interested in birdwatching. Because of this they start to do nature hikes every week on the mainland. Eventually, at the request of Dr. Baxter, they start collecting/photographing insects on the hike as well. I assume Atlantis probably has a small nature identification community and the two of them become quite prominent within it. (Dr. Baxter and his interest in insects is canon. I believe they mention him offhandedly during Tabula Rasa.) 

They always host the winter holiday party and even though it’s unnecessary they still send out physical holiday cards. The front of which always has a picture of the two of them wearing matching sweaters. The sweaters, of course, change every year.

That anon is right, Atlantis is quite stressful for Radek. He can’t even swim! Could you imagine? The terror he must experience just being there, especially at first. But don't worry, Chuck will teach him how to swim.

I love that others are joining in on the Chuck/ Radek! All of these headcanons are just so lovely.

*Side headcanon: Aiden tried to name a ton of stuff on Atlantis, most people shook their heads and laughed at the time. But since Aiden’s disappearance, many Atlantis personnel have taken to using the names he’d suggested.

I love all these headcanons, they are absolutely adorable

I headcanon that atlantis has a lot of pools, both indoor and outdoor, and now that you mentioned Chuck teaching Radek how to swim i can’t shake the image of them at one of the more shallow outdoor pools and Chuck trying to encourage Radek to join him in the water. He probably bribes him with kisses or backrubs or his favorite snacks/food. Very soft

I love the idea of them painting, too, but i feel like Chuck would get a lot more out of it than Radek, who just wouldn’t feel it. Or maybe he would feel it but his paintings would be… interesting.

I feel like as time progresses on Atlantis and they all get settled in and are still cut off from earth a lot of people come forth and start offering workshops for things they are good in. Those range from all sorts of sports to all sorts of arts, and music too. Let’s get the Athosians in here as well, they have art and music and all that stuff as well and they all learn from each other!

Gosh, I love the Atlantis we (and probably a billion fic writers before us) are creating <3

[carry-on-my-wayward-boi]

The girl in the pool

There’s something haunting about water in open spaces.

I didn’t always think like this, I used to go to be beach rarely, and every time my family took me there, I cherished it immensely. I consider myself very lucky, I still love going to lakes or beaches (haven’t gone to a river yet, one swimmable, but I guess I would like it too), and the only sport I really imagine myself sticking with in the long term is swimming.

I go swimming every two days now, after a period of solitary confinement, I’m starting to make myself understand that I need to take care of the shape of my body, apart from the self-esteem issues, for the health problems it has been causing me for a year now.

And I’m only 19.

I don’t want to die yet, even if sometimes it seems the only sane option, I’m not that far in the line.

But I go to the pool 3 times a week now, in the last hours of the day, good thing it’s only 15 minutes from my house. And it is so expensive, how I hadn’t realized this when I was younger? I was so naïve, and honestly, I still am don’t let the occasional stream of fancy thoughts convince you otherwise,

I literally don’t know a single thing.

Sometimes it’s a relief the teacher knows me since I was 14, some days it’s tiring to pretend I’m the person I once was, when I didn’t feel like I’ve reached my peak and I’m just holding on before snapping once a week. I sound so selfish, and I know I am, and I don’t care, and isn’t that just so more selfish?

Figures, I am so better at being objective with my flaws now, that’s a good thing, right?

I hate taking a cold shower before entering the pool, it fucking punches me in the gut and takes my breath away, but once I do, I feel a little bit better. I’m too sleep-deprived to analyze that with a metaphor like I tend to do.

Not today though, today the menu is the raw special edition of self-hatred from my fucked-up mind.

Today I’m going again, and the thing that made me start writing this hasn’t crossed my mind since that day at the pool.

There’s much more pressing fears and regrets bubbling in the surface of my sea of thoughts. But I figured, it was better to put this on writing, at least to write one sad novel of my traumas, so pedantic I know. Still, it seemed so right to do it, while taking arm after arm of water without breathing. So here I am again, writing. It would be more fun if I had more time to dwell in metaphors, but I’m out of time, for everything, so this is the best I can come up with.

I almost drowned, that’s the thing.

My mom is certain I did. I don’t really know if some part of me died on that day, but I bet some did.

It was sunny, at least when we arrived at the beach. It was safe, inside a vacation complex that my friend’s family subscribed, and we were young and dumb.

I want to keep saying dumb, cause otherwise I would have to call them cold-hearted traitors, and well, they are the same friends I have now, even if not close, I can’t afford to lose them. Mom doesn’t know why I forgave them,

I guess I hadn’t, I just don’t think too hard about it.

Just four of us went farther in the water that day, the waves were sometimes strong but manageable at the height of our waists. Salty, we threw it around and I remember thinking at last the worries and sadness lurking in the lasts months of the school year shredded off me like cracking dirt. I was the only girl that went that far, most of them went back to the pool, and those knew nothing of what happened that day, so they are in the clear.

(You should know I love you; I don’t think I could if you knew I was dying and ignored it, so yeah, convenient for my brain you weren’t really there)

Because I was. Dying, that is.

Two were on the sand shores, carving in the sand with their hands, or just sitting, I really don’t know. Then, of the four of us, I didn’t realize when, but suddenly we were just one friend and me.

In his defense, he advised me not to go that far in the water, but well I did, I was completely in control, you know? You have to understand, at that age I was too cocky with everything, the way you only can be when everything has gone right for you without too much effort.

Then, I was carried away by the waves, but just some meters. When I realized it, I tried to swim back, getting a little worried when I just keep drifting away, but still in control, you know? That is until I heard yelling. It was my friend, a girl one, and currently the only one I consider a real friend from their lot.

She was in the shore, and the only one that realized I was in danger.

Figures, what good friends I have, but as I said, I fool myself into calling them careless instead, I don’t know if I can keep telling myself that.

She got into the water and went for me, calling my name. But when I asked her recently, she told me she first told the boys I was in danger, and even urged the friend I keep flirting with, to go for me.

You know what he did?

He shrugged and walked away, and then my friend went for me.

He is in Spain now, I even sent him a message telling him I missed him some days ago. He hadn’t replied to that, not to my last 5 messages in the last months, and I don’t know why I bother. He was never a friend I could rely on, I just fancied an idolized version of him he will never be, so it’s so easy for me to let him go. But knowing all that then would have crushed me, I guess time really puts things into perspective.

So, she came for me, and I remember turning around when I heard my name, and getting so worried, because she didn’t really know how to swim. Picture this, she loved me that much, she didn’t know how to swim but still tried, and ultimately, I thank her, I can’t blame her for what happened next.

I remember this so well; it’s engraved with permanent ink before my eyes and inside my lungs.

The waves were getting stronger and taller every time, I was getting scared and even began to expect them to stay below the surface when they crashed. I heard my name, turned around, saw my friend struggling and yelling, I lost focus and yelled at her to go back,

I turned to the open sea and there it was, the biggest wave yet, just some centimeters away from my face.

I couldn’t do anything, it swallowed me whole, with such a force I hope I’ll never feel again if I’m lucky.

Until then, I had been trapped and spited by some waves before, but just two or three turns, and I was free again to breathe.

But not this time

I lost count after more than 20 turns, and when I ran out of oxygen, I just keep turning, eventually inhaling water when I lost control of that.

And I kept turning, my head a mess of disconnected thoughts, but I remember what I was thinking:

My brother won’t be able to move on from my death, my family would crumble, and I wouldn’t be there to help them pick the pieces. The grief of this was mixed with denial, I denied until the very end that I would die there.

I can say I maintained my humor until the very end, cause the tone of my thoughts were on the line of “Seriously? We are going to die like this, turning like a yo-yo? God, I think the fuck not”, and honestly, I stan.

In those moments, which felt like hours or seconds at the same time, I felt like I was in space, without anything solid to bind me to the Earth and consciousness. But I had a wristband, a plastic one of a gay anime of 2016, and I squeezed it as my only tether to reality, even when I swallowed so much water, I believed I would really die.

That cheap faded blue-sky plastic gay thing really saved me, huh. 

I don’t know why god decide to let me live that day, I found myself suddenly freed of the death wave, and half unconscious, I emerged to the surface.

But the nightmare wasn’t over; when I looked around, all I could see was water in all directions.

Let me tell you, I got scared out of my mind, completely freaked out. Where was I, the middle of the sea? And the waves kept coming, bigger than before. I don’t know how my brain was still rational, I guess I’m really at least as smart as they tell me I am, because I really saved myself that day.

I decided to swim in the direction the waves went, obvious for you, but not for me in that moment, and almost was sucked into another wave, when I remembered to swim below the water to not be caught when they crashed.

Finally, I managed to see the coast.

Turns out, I wasn’t that far away, only the big waves kept me from seeing the shore.

From then, I really don’t remember much, I guess the adrenaline kept me from feeling how tired I was. I remember just vaguely touching the sea floor, walking slowly until I was in just sand. It felt so detached, like seeing a movie, I didn’t feel happy or sad,

it was like I didn’t feel anything.

There wasn’t one of the friends that were with me there, just those that were on the sand, one girl asked me if I was okay,

I don’t remember what I said.

My friend told me later, this girl saw me so pale, and that I didn’t reply, just laid there in the sand looking at the sky for a really long time.

I guess I coped like that.

I asked about my friend, the only one that tried to save, and I found her in the pool, safe with another friend and some people. She, and then they, asked me worriedly if I was okay, I only looked half-crazed at her eyes, nodded to myself that she was safe and got the hell out of there, I couldn’t stay one more minute with all those people that left me to die.

I went to the house and slept until the next day.

The following morning, I talked and told everyone that I almost drowned, and brushed their concern with a sarcastic smile, didn’t let them get too close, and even less, close enough to try to comfort me,

you weren’t there when I was dying,

not even cared enough to try to get someone who could save me, so no, you don’t get to see my vulnerable side again.

I remember fragments of the following days, I made myself got into the water the next day, so I didn’t get a trauma with the sea, I apologized to not giving her the respect she deserved, and thanked her for returning me my life, I was really grateful.

I never cried, just felt devoid of emotions.

When I returned home, my mom didn’t tell me then, but I looked half dead, and she got terrified.

You know the worst part?

Even before I was born or my mother had even met my father, my mom had gone to see a fortune teller, who told her she would have 2 sons and a daughter, but the girl would die very young, she should be careful of her.

And my mom never forgot that, not when I was born, or in every moment I was careless or didn’t reply to the phone.

I was 14, I was so young, and I should have died that day.

When I came back, and my mom realized I had survived, she cried the whole night with relief, she never told me this until some days ago I asked. It breaks my heart to know how much she carried on her mind without my knowledge. She made my whole family pray to the gods to return the part of my soul that had gotten scared and left my body, and the next day I was okay.

That was 5 years ago, and sometimes I remember that no one saved me when I was dying, not even one of the friends I would have died to save would do that for me.

Maybe they didn’t realize I was in danger, but again,

I would have.

I can’t forgive them, maybe I shouldn’t, it got me trust issues that run deep and that I don’t like to acknowledge,

I saved myself, I always do, and it will always be like that.

It makes me feel cold, I can’t rely on no one, I don’t want to even, to my family, not to be a burden, even barely coping with madness. I shut it all inside so mom won’t have to deal with all my jumbled thoughts. It’s toxic of me I know, but I have time to unpack all the trauma when I’m on my own, for now she is more important.

But I remembered this whole episode when I was swimming the other day, which have never happened before, and it shook me. I felt trapped, oppressed under the enormous mental weight of the water on me.

I guess the mental craziness was extra spicy that day that decided to serve a dish that was very buried inside.

I still feel like I’m pushing it all inside, I haven’t really allowed this wound to heal, and I’m too afraid I’m too weak to really look it in the eye without losing control of my sanity. I’m a makeshift of strength on the outside, inside everything is crumbling and I wonder how I manage to still be in one piece.

I got very good at pretending and crying without sound.

[cassiopeiasdaughter]

❤️tell me facts about yourself and I’ll ship you with a HP character (I’ll do you justice I promise)

Facts about my appearance: I'm 156 cm, I have short curly dark brown hair, I have olive skin (tan skin with undertones of green, golden, or yellow), I wear glasses because I cant see well from far away (they’re clear), I'm not skinny but I'm not fat, I have brown eyes and thick eye brows (god bless the arab genes)

Facts about me: im a Gryffindor,  I’m from and live in. Lebanon, I have a cat and a dog academically, I do well, I speak English, French and Arabic, i’m a child of divorced parents, I have two siblings, I’m the youngest child, im a Libra, I love reading (fav series are pjo and Harry Potter), I love b99, my fav season is winter, i like skiing and in the future I would like to be an engineer or a doctor, i tend to procrastinate on homework or tasks in general but i do amazing when i have to work on something i love, i’m an ambivert, i don’t have many close friends but the ones that i have are one of the most important people to me, i am very close to them and i trust them with my life.

(i love your writing and i complete understand if you don’t have time to ship me with someone)

Hiii, thank you for sending this!

So the problem is that I don't know if I want to ship you with Sirius or if you are Sirius.

You love b99, so you are funny and have taste, you sound very smart and dare I say, you are a gifted child? You are smart, without trying, and when you put in work you excel. If you set your mind on something, absolutely nothing will stand in your way!

You are loyal and logical, I bet you don't always show your feelings. You feel more comfortable to be yourself and be vulnerable, when you are near your friends or the people you love.

So, when I first read your message I was between Sirius and Remus, but now as I've written this, I can say (and im very excited to say this), that your ideal boy is Sirius.

First of all congratulations, because Sirius is the loml, and im excited for you.

Now, let's analyze this a bit more. You both are smart and you are into sports (quidditch and skiing), but most importantly is that you are the black cat to his dog.

He is more open then, you, and he helps you open up more and maybe have more fun (?). You calm him down, because you are more sensible, you dint think with your heart like he does. When life hits him, you are there to comfort him.

And he would be your no. 1 supporter, in everything. Learnings new languages? Career goals? You name it. He would fuel you and you would soothe him.

In the future, you get a cat and a dog and live in a cute house, with your own garden and everything. You host get togethers every Friday with your friends, you laugh and talk about your weeks. About adulthood and bills and your jobs, and no matter how heavy life gets, you have them by your side. But most importantly you have Sirius (who, every Friday night after your friends leave your place, begs you to postpone doing the dishes until the next morning, but you never give in).

I really hope I did you justice! Tell me what you think.

I wish you truly the best, may all your dreams come true ❤️❤️

(also I didn't proofread this, because I need to study, so sorry about that)

[brettbowden]

Strategy and Tactics

I have copied below excerpts from an interview I did on Strategy and Tactics with Australian sailing legend Rob Brown. Rob was a crew member on Australia 2 when they won the Americas Cup in 1983, breaking the longest winning streak in sporting history. Rob was also multiple 18 foot skiff world champion amongst the impressive sailing back catalogue achievements. He has excelled in one-design and offshore events so understands strategy and tactics better than most. Brett - With regard to strategy and tactics, what do you and your crew do in terms of on water tactics? Do you call all the tactics or do you get feedback from your crew? What are the roles of the people? Rob: Okay. I think, assuming I am the tactician, obviously I'd be calling the tactics and receiving input from various sources throughout the boat. If I was steering a boat, I would be principally concentrating on steering the boat as fast as I possibly can and relying on the eyes and ears of my crew to call the tactics. If there's indecision, to be able to feed information back to me and involve me in the process of making the decision. Brett - Often tactics involve a bit of discussion and you don't want to start having an argument or a philosophical discussion with your crew, you want to get some pretty good feedback. Rob: If you're steering the boat, your principal job is to steer the boat as fast as possible. If you're going in the wrong direction, that's not really your problem. You rely on your wind callers and your strategists who are giving you feedback, like where you are on the course relative to your opposition.   I remember when I was sailing Etchells, and a lot of this goes on when I was steering. He would say we've got 15% of the fleet below us and we've got 85% of the fleet above us or on our right or on our left. That gave me a mental picture where we were. So while I'm steering the boat, I'm saying are we hedging our bets a little bit too far to the left or should we consider any opportunity to get back in touch with the rest of the fleet on our right. Brett - Would you say to the tactician, is there any obvious advantage to stay out here or should we be getting back to the fleet? Rob: If everything is going fine and you're happy, I wouldn't say anything. But if there was any hesitation or the boat was starting to go quiet, that alarm bell would ring in my head, hang on, things aren't looking as good as what they thought earlier.  Brett -  In that situation, who does what and what are their key activities? Rob: It really comes down to the skill set of the personnel you've got on board. The main sail crewman who's looking in the boat is part of the speed team and he's interacting with you to make the boat go fast. It's a lot easier for the main sheet trimmer to look at and view the compass and he basically calls five up five down, ten up ten down, whatever. So that gave us an input on where we were heading.    Then the forward hand would give you the wind calls. The gusts coming onto the boat. Gust in four three two one on you now. Then he would also be the swivel neck looking around, analyzing where the boats were, opportunities to cross people. So he is more involved in the tactics on the boat. But it really comes down to the skill sets of the people you've got onboard.  Brett - I heard a very successful skipper say that they felt their crew was 75% of the reason that they ended up where they did, what do you think of that statement? Most definitely. I think having roles and responsibilities on your boat and having confidence and backing the decisions that are made in front of you. I think where a lot of people come unstuck is where there's indecision. It's better to make a decision than no decision at all. If it doesn't work out, let's face it, we're dealing in a pretty interesting environment where we're dealing with something we can't see. We're just looking at indicators, compass, gusts on the water, or waves. And we're dealing with nature. So everyone who's had any good results would know you make mistakes and it's really how you recover after making mistakes. I think that the important thing is to back the judgment of the people on board and live by it. Don't question it. Brett - What's the one strategy a sailor who wants to improve should concentrate on above all else? Rob: I tend to think if you're not 100% sure on your strategy of whether the right or the left is going to pay, I generally look at where the main opposition are setting up on the start line. If your top three or four competitors are pushing towards the boat end, in the last couple of minutes, you know that they want to start at the right end of the line and probably go right. So you use that as a bit of input. You don't want to go out there to just follow people, but if you're not sure, hedge your bets and go with the good guys.

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[jonsson49macias]

Different Spread Betting Strategies

Maybe I'm exaggerating. There is no such thing as perfect strategy. But don't lose heart. There is something close to perfect strategy. You have probably tried to find such strategies on many forums. Or perhaps you have bought many ebooks promising to lead you into a powerful system but you are still disappointed. To help you understand, let's look at an example. Let's say that the Jets are seven points ahead of the other team. You place a wager on them winning. The ratio was changed to 10. A few days before the game, it was at 10%. You can now place another bet that the Jets win by 10. Whatever how reputed a site is, you have to check whether it offers first rate services, solid security, and reasonably fast payouts. click here can also spot sites that offer free sports picks and matchup stats. Some offer smart gambling tips as well as comparisons between gambling lines / odds at no cost. There are hundreds, if not thousands, of betting strategies for sports. However, not all of them are the best and should not be used by professional gamblers. Professionals in the chosen sports use a few of the most effective strategies. This is the most obvious indicator as to how the horses will be running in the next race. Many horse racing betting platforms will begin by analyzing the horse?s form and fitness. A horse who has run well in his last race and has had a good run in the previous race is more likely to do well in the next one. A horse that is in good form but not very fit would not be a reliable selection. People who don?t have discipline or a sound money management strategy will lose their temper and bet recklessly when there is a dry spell. You absolutely cannot hope to be successful doing things this way. A well-developed, tested football betting strategy should have a bettor that has the discipline to follow through. There should be some risk associated with every bet. While you don't have to win every bet; if your profits aren't greater than your losses, then your chances of winning the bet will be slim. Red Fox is known to be a good player when he plays away from the coast. This is why there is a high chance of winning. This is a time tested strategy that has enabled many bettors to win money.

[layerrail9]

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[randpaulsdickring]

It’s not a perspective of it and it is not going to be consumed by the autism community… I don’t appreciate intellectualism being degraded… I said being degraded by labels

Does it have a payoff if I do

We should analyze just that I don’t know I know it’s great isn’t it I want one of those giant showers that’s very consumerist well it’s nothing that Spain and Portugal didn’t already know or Brazil for that matter people in Brazil or Savage though no no I said they are it’s the very very different place very dark when I’m listening I’m doing that thing that they do I need to fix that a little but I don’t mind when they do it oh God cause I think I’m talking to myself and I am but I’m not always it gets like that for some people I look for that sometimes when people have a certain when you need a remote access code you have to be careful with people you don’t just get to wear like crazy cool shit just cause it’s cool because if it’s like a baby UFC fight you still have to remember the equality and tongues always come to mind it shouldn’t be a painful thing though but there is something really really painful in the air lake with everybody which lake yes the Lakers Kobe Bryant died sports metaphor for war No it’s not it’s a metaphor for sore loser ask Ashley what’s your face the girl who photo shopped all of her stuff on Facebook Ashley Jackson that’s it she’s one of those sports fans but I don’t expect anything differently from her because she’s a small minded bitch and she’s a racist and she says well I’m going to support my American sports and you’re gonna be a piece of trash for the rest of your life to

What are you supporting anyway you believe in human trafficking you believe that little brown children should be raped by your husband when really why don’t you wake up you stupid bitch your husband is just a fucking dog animal piece of shit he would fuck anything any excuse any excuse you’re not good enough why don’t you get labioplasty

And I’ll bet most American women are just loving all those roast beef jokes they make to fit in to be cool