#i’m dying this is so cheesy LOL but i’m Indulgent

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

(chaotic-guinea-pig's main here!!)

Hiya fellow Style fanfic author, tell us which of your fics you're most proud of, and why :]

Oh my goodness HI and DUDE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW STOKED I AM TO SEE THIS ASK!!!

I have so much out there but RAPID FIRE:

• How We Began -my magnum opus lmfao. Sot Style slowish burn, them being massive losers for each other, eventual love confessions and soooo much fantasy hurt/comfort. No war, just an elf king and an injured human ranger falling for each other (self indulgent as hell I wrote exactly what I wanted to read lmao)

•And Send It Soaring -a little TFBW oneshot with plenty of Toolshed (my beloved) panicking over Kite nearly dying on a mission. I loooove this one.

•Broken Bottles From Apartment 2 - man I know I never stfu abt OrangeJuiceVerse but this is the story that TRULY solidified that universe for me despite it being later on down the chronological timeline and I’m so attached to it. Domestic style, creek, Tweek angst, and healing arcs because when you’re at rock bottom, there’s nowhere to go but up. Sober king Stan too UGH he’s my baby and I loved contrasting between Tweek and Kyle’s perspectives.

• The Webs In The Rafters - so this one’s WEIRD and surrealist and the darkest shit I’ve ever written so it wasn’t super popular, but the people who were into it were INTO it (the comments to kudos ratio is hilarious) personally I’m a sucker for dark Cryle with Style endgame, badass Kenny, and the whole damn gang being there. Spider analogies, Bunnyyyy, prophetic Tweek, ranch foreman Stan, something sinister under the surface, Putting Kyle In Situations, Evil Craig, it’s a wild ride and it’s inspired by a dream I had lol.

• 5 Stages -another ojv oneshot w some Angry Kyle when our two favorite losers slip in the shower while tryna get ~spicy~ lmfao also Moose the cat I love Moose (I will never in my life stop giving Kyle some kind of chronic ailment)

• And The Lightning Cracks The Sky - I almost like this one MORE than HWB like this fic is my BABY!!! We got Smokejumper/Firefighter Stan, fae prince Kyle, LITTLE MERMAID ASS PLOT (I fucking love this one jesus) the gangs all there, Kenny and Stan being roommates, mutual pining, injury, humor, magic and shapeshifting, evil Cartman, falling in love like awkward losers; when I say this story has been finished for a hot min and I’m still thinking about it.

• I’ll Take It To Mine -the main four boys doing stupid shit, minor injuries (I have problems) THE SBFS, teenage love confessions, just them being hilarious and simps in this one.

• Give You Every Second I Can Find -deadass Stanley Down Bad Marsh trying to execute a cheesy promposal for Kyle and it fails bc his dumbass gets hurt lmao he’s so lame id die for him.

So those are some of my faves THANK YOU WITH ALL MY SOUL FOR THIS ASK AAAAA

[glilboy]

Ateez reactions to finding you reading smut about them: Hyung line

ive had this idea for awhile and even requested it a few times from other writers but..i felt it was time to write it lol

tws under the cut

warning, this piece of fiction contains mentions of somnophilia, slight dom and sub dynamics, and general explicit topics.

Hongjoong:

You had attempted to stay up waiting for Hongjoong, deciding to reread one of your favorite stories in the mean time. Unfortunately that wasnt enough to keep you awake, you ultimately passing out and your phone tumbling onto the floor.

Hongjoong had a feeling you'd passed out since you didnt message him any "i miss you :(" texts after 11pm so seeing you knocked out on the couch was no surprise. He slowly padded over to you smiling softly, then noticing your phone on the floor and went to pick it up for you. He was never the kind to go through your phone but your smart self had no shut down timer which left the fan fiction on display for him.

He couldnt help but be curious seeing paragraphs of text and decided a little reading would do no harm. As he began to read though he felt his gut sweep, in a good way. He was honestly a little upset until he saw his name but when he read his name it was like all of exhaustion disappeared. Luckily he didn't have work the next day he thought to himself.

Sitting down on the couch with a plan he slowly nudged you awake. "Hi dear," he spoked softly with a smirk.

You rubbed at your bleary eyes and looked up at him, "Oh hi Joongie. Sorry I didn't mean to fall asleep." He smiled even bigger at you.

"Thats fine, it helped me find out something fun," he tucked your hair behind your ear. Still waking up you made a small "huh?" before seeing the phone in his hand.

"Oh..." you mumbled, starting to be awake enough to get it. You finally looked at him straight on and saw his signature devilish grin.

He moved his hand to slowly move up your thigh, giving it a small squeeze which elicted a sigh out of you. "Didn't think you'd read stuff like that Y/N, but I guess you're just full of surprises huh doll," the pet name made you shiver, Hongjoong never having used that one before.

"I'm sorry Joongie," you mumbled into your arm, face now red. His hand moving up to cup your core and grind his hand into it making you whimper softly.

"Oh dont be sorry dolly, just shows me that you really miss me."

Seonghwa:

Saying Seonghwa was caring was an understatement in a way. Despite his busy schedule he made it a point to showed he cared in different ways. One thing he always did was if you left your phone out at all he would put it on the charger for you. Small things!

Today though he had come home earlier than usual while you were taking a quick shower. Seeing your phone on the counter he waltzed over setting his stuff down to throw it on the charger even if it wasn't that low. He noticed you left it on, open to a book he assumed enough.Him being the lovely man he is he wanted to read a bit to see what you liked and possibly buy you a physical copy. Written porn with his name in it though was not what he was expecting.

Seonghwa gulped, setting down your phone with his hands shaking and his face now flushed pink. He took a deep breath and set down his bag, running his fingers through his hair now being surprisingly worked up. A part of him felt embarrassed for being turned on by the writing but at the same time he knew you didn't read it for no reason.

"Hwa! You're home early hello!" You ran up to him giggling, now clean and dressed in some sweats.

"Hey babe, yeah we got let out early cause we learned the new choreography fast enough. They asked us if we wanted to do more vocal practice but none of us did," He laughed, trying to shift his legs to hide his slight erection.

"None of you stay late ever," you giggled sarcastically up at him. "Well, I was gonna take a nap. Do you want to? I'm sure you're tired."

He nodded softly and took your hand walking to your guys bedroom talking about your day. He changed himself into more comfortable clothing then joined you in bed, you curling into him quickly. Once you settled Seonghwa felt he could actually breathe, feeling like a middle schooler just for getting more worked up from having you close. He heard your breath settle which is when he shifted away a bit from you.

"Fuck..." He mumbled, having the space now laying on his back to palm himself over his erection. Looking over at your sleeping face made it worse, the piece you had opened having involved somnophilia. One thing he never had the guts to suggest to you despite having such an open relationship.

He didn't notice your eyes flutter open at the movement. You only just fell asleep so you were in no means in too deep. You decided to play it though, closing your eyes and throwing a leg over his waist as if you were just adjusting in your sleep.

He inhaled a sharp breath and bit his lip now mildly frustrated at the whole situation. Mumbling a fake sleepy "Hwa" you moved to straddle the man hearing a childish sigh escape his lips.

"If you keep moving, I swear to god," He mumbled out loud thinking youre still asleep since you had always been a chaotic sleeper.

"And what will you do about it horny kid," you giggled against his neck. You could feel his body tense.

"Go back to sleep and I'll fuck you like your sick little fantasy, how about that hm?"

yunho:

Rain was beating against the window as you cuddled up on the couch with your phone in hand. Yunho was on the other side of his personal office playing video games. It was a chill day but something in the air was setting you slightly off the edge.

Besides the sweet glances and cheesy smiles thrown at each other, your screen was very much the opposite of innocent pure love. Getting indulged in the story you started to zone in, missing some of his looks making Yunho curious as to what your interest was delved into currently.

"Be right back guys," he said into the mic mischievously. Quickly making his way over he slipped the phone out of your hand, this behavior wouldve typically been fine but because of the contents on your screen you gasped and reached out for your phone. "You doing something naughty or do you just like acting suspicious?" he grinned before looking at your phone.

His face feel reading the paragraph of a particularly nsfw scene. You were now sitting up staring at him wide eyed, "yuyu please oh god its not what you think, i think." Silence filled the room, the only noises being the sound of his running pc and the dull chatter of the other boys.

"Do you read this often?" he said out of hesitation and pure curiosity, almost feeling that he violated your private space. He kind of got the gist of it all right away, thankfully for your sake.

"Not all the time but i mean, you are busy yunho," you tried to softly explain knowing this was odd territory.

"Do you...ever want to try it," he says, getting to the end of the page and looking at you.

"I can't say that..none of them aren't, nice," the air was filled with an awkward energy that could suffocate another person if they came in at such a weird time.

The two of you stood there for a second, until he moved towards you and took your hand. He placed it on his bulge and you sucked a breathe in.

"Take off my pants," he ordered, a strange harsh tone to his voice. For you guys there was never set roles, not any dom or sub dynamic but it wasnt vanilla per say so him speaking like this was new. Besides that, you did as he said and pushed your thumbs under the waistband of his sweats, pulling them down his legs.

Silently he took your hand then sat down on his gaming chair, pulling out his large cock. He slipped on his headphones before looking up at you with a shit eating grin.

"Sit down, i can tell youve been dying too babe."

yeosang:

You were waiting for yeosang to come home after a shorter than usual practice, deciding to pass the time by indulging in your secret world. In the midst of browsing your favorite blogs you didn't hear the door open, this event made you learn not to have headphones in when participating in such activities.

Walking in, Yeosang looked around for you and spotted your figure on the couch. He slowly moved near with a secret motive of scaring you when he glanced at your phone seeing a photo of him paired with a lot of writing. Tilting his head curiously he squinted to read the text, reading along with you until his face flushed.

Sucking in a breath slightly he moved back to the door, playing off him just entering. You noticed his figure walking towards you and sneakily turned off your phone and got up to greet him.

"Hey babe, it's nice to see you in the sunlight," you giggled and wrapped your hands around his waist. You noticed him hesitantly wrapping his arms around you, causing you to pull away.

"Hey, whats up? you seem a bit off?" you pouted and brushed the hair out of his eyes, not catching the little blush.

"Yeah yeah babe, I'm fine. promise," he cleared his throat and pulled away, making your heart sink a bit. He practically completely ignored what you actually said.

"No Yeo, I- did I do something wrong? Or just a long day?" you pried knowing something was up.

Shifting awkwardly on his feet he looked up at you, his hair back in his face. "I um, saw what you were reading."

The color drained from your face, mouth slightly hanging not knowing what to say. You thought he was pissed, was going to leave and break up with you but right when you were about to talk he spoke again.

"C-can we do that?"

A moment of silence passed and you looked up at him, your boyfriend who was typically very soft and gentle in bed. Knowing what you were reading was likely pretty heavy in his book, you became worried. "Yeo, I just read it. It means nothing I don't want to make you uncomforta-"

His lips cut yours off and one hand entangled in your hair, his other guiding you to the wall by your hip. Back flush against the way you pulled away after a moment to see his eyes wide and sweat already beading down his temple.

"I've wanted to do that, just didn't want to scare you dear."

[haik-choo]

karasuno first years out late w/ their s/o

request: Could you write how 1st years (yachi too pls🥺) going out with their s/o late at night ?

a/n: this is such a cute little concept i -- 

[KARASUNO FIRST YEARS OUT LATE AT NIGHT WITH THEIR S/O]

-tsukishima, kageyama, yamaguchi, hinata, yachi

tsukishima kei.

not gonna lie, he’s often awake late at night. he’s a night owl and doesn’t mind sacrificing his sleep to watch some youtube videos

occasionally, he even goes out late at night, slipping past his parents and brother’s room and softly closing the front door with his headphones covering his ears and his hands stuffed in his pockets

so when you text him at 3am and ask if he can go out with you to the convenience store, he agrees in seconds to meet you at the halfway point between your houses

wastes no time in putting on his sneakers and a hoodie; he wants to get there quickly so that you aren’t left out by yourself

tsukishima knows there’s creeps out there, which is exactly why he jogs to the halfway point and is relieved when he’s the first one there

as soon as he sees you in the distance he fast walks to catch up to you, and slips his hand into yours

he totally brings bluetooth earbuds so that you two can listen to the same music instead of his wired headphones <3 uwu

is always on the lookout for any weirdos, and if he spots someone eyeing you up he shoots them the nastiest glare

eventually wraps his arms around your shoulder while your hand is sitll in his and its that cute little thing where your arms is across your chest holding his hand </3

pays for whatever you get at the store, ignores your complaints and tells you to shut up when you continue to insist on paying

“im trying to be a good boyfriend for once, for the love of god PLEASE shut up”

secretly takes a candid photo of you at some point in the night and sets it as his home screen -- NOT his lock screen, and when you see it he outright denies having taken it

tsukishima: you told me to take a picture of you

you: stop lying i know you’re a closet hopeless romantic 

convinces you to stop at the park and eat the snacks you both got there, music still humming in your ears as the moonlight washes you both in cool tones

tsukishima when he’s alone with you is so soft -- he literally kisses your hand and temple and mutters very softly “love you” 

all in all, tsukishima kei is the perfect night-owl boyfriend to go on snack-runs with 

kageyama tobio.

"why would i go out right now. do you know what time it is. i have practice in the morning”

kags really out here kinda hurtin’ your feelin’s ngl boy doesn’t understand the vibes LOL

honestly you probably woke him up, he’s asleep at like ten every night (even tho he still has homework to do he just flat-out ignores it LOL) 

only agrees to go out walking with you because you said he could bring his volleyball and you’d toss a few for him....and also because he’s a little worried because it’s so dark out

doesn’t walk with you to the park but meets you there LOL

he deadass has his wholeass duffel bad with the ball, two waterbottles, two towelettes, volleyball sneakers and everything

“you know,,,,we’re not playing a game, right, tobio?”

“yeah???? and??? what’s your point”

acts nonchalant but is totally having fun and is lowkey glad you asked him to go out so late because it’s cool out, there’s no one to bother him, and you just look...really good under the stars

he’s not a cheesy person but...god you just take his breath away sometimes. not that he’ll ever say that though

you ask to take a break like thirty minutes in because you are LITERALLY dying meanwhile he hasn’t even broken a sweat (”you’re already tired? maybe you should workout more” “shut UP kageyama”)

you both sit on the bench, and you’re lowkey waiting for him to reach for your hand but they’re just folded in his lap as he stares out in the nothingness of night

kageyama can’t take a hint. we know this. he’s incapable of knowing what you want unless you flat out tell him; so you have to be a very honest person

he doesn’t even really initiate skinship, not because he doesn’t want to, but just because it never really crosses his mind

plus he doesn’t feel the need to constantly show affection because he thinks it’s obvious that he likes you

despite this, he is good at spotting weird people, and he’s pretty protective of you, so you’re completely safe with him. trust him, he’ll keep you safe

all in all, have patience and stamina because kags will play volleyball with you until you pass out. also, he loves you 

yamaguchi tadashi.

is in bed by 11pm but doesn’t actually go to sleep until two am because he’s scrolling through tiktok on his phone

sees your text about wanting to go out for a late night walk and maybe go through the little forest near your house and automatically sends a text that says “ill meet you at your window! can you pack some snacks? :)”

he walks all the way to your house, even if it’s more convenient to meet halfway because he wants to protect you! he’s not the strongest nor is he the most intimidating, so all he really has to offer is his presence

despite not being strong nor scary, yams literally has eagle eye. you can’t tell me that he can’t read people in a heartbeat -- he’s extremely perceptive 

also texts you to not bring a jacket because he’s bringing on of his own for you !!! so sweet what the hell

he waits at your front door and when you step out he automatically pushes his volleyball jacket into your hands and he takes the bag of snacks from you and sticks out one of his hands UGH such a gentleman

lets you ramble about anything and stares at your side profile as he listens 

joins in with a few quips here and there but ultimately is pretty quite and lets you speak or lets the silence cozy into the conversation

sees that there’s a guy sitting on a bench up the road and he switches places with you so that you’re further away from the stranger 

also wraps a protective hand around your waist until you both are past the random dude but yams will glance behind yall every once in a while

when you two reach the mini forest he ends up taking the lead claiming that he knows a good spot

and damn, he’s right

it’s a little clearing that is illuminated solely by the moonlight and he sets the bag of snacks down beside him before sitting down himself, apologizing for not bringing a blanket that you two could sit on 

pats the spot next to him so that you sit right beside him and he leans back with his hand on yours ONGMIRG 

is the super cheesy type and tells you that you look really pretty and that,,,he kind of wants to kiss you

you: *experiencing heart palpitations* and you did this for what. 

yamaguchi: ...because i love you?

you: *K.O*

all in all, yamaguchi is the boyfriend that completely indulges your late-night escapades <3 

hinata shoyo.

is either completely fast asleep and doesn’t see your text or was awake and not planning to sleep for the next five hours, no in-between

but if he’s awake and sees your text, he agrees right away and asks where you want to meet up and what time because homeboy probably has to bike to get there AgAGAGAGA

literally doesn’t even show up in sneakers. he’s wearing sandals and shorts with a short sleeve top 

“i came in my pjs”

“i see that.”

asks if you two can bike around instead because he doesn’t want to have to wheel his bike around for like an hour 

he tells you to hold on tight because the bike was built for one person, and when you press against his back his warmth is literally so,,,comforting 

has no sense of awareness and will scream going down a hill in the middle of a neighborhood, no fucks given

so, no, he doesn’t notice any weriod people even if there are some around

you always end up running into some weird people and you get new interesting stories every other day because let’s be honest hinata is a magnet for crazy shit and crazy people (usually crackheads) 

you both just ride around as he talks about his day, usually his sister always comes up in the conversation( “she asked me to marry you the other day” “doirhgAEROIHFGRE SHOYO WHAT” “what? i told her i would. i keep my promises!”)

after like thirty minutes he begs for a break and you stop at a little 24/7 ice cream store that is run by the sweetest elderly couple

you share a sundae because you don’t want to eat too much this late at night

he plops on the bench right outside the store with his bike leaning against the metal handles, and h snuggles up to you and watches you scroll on your phone

he talks a little here and there, but for the most part, he goes quiet, and it’s during this time where you’re unaware of his gaze that he just takes his time drinking in your features in the yellow light of the lamppost 

he can’t read the mood most times, but this time he does, and he stays quiet, and he thinks to himself

that he really will marry you one day

all in all, hinata gives you the impulsive young teenage experience of late night bike rides while eating his fair share of ice cream

yachi hitoka.

another either or, except this time she’s either fast asleep or stressing over homework and the nine tests she has the next day

when you ask if she can go on a walk with you she’s hesitant because she doesn’t want to get in trouble with her mom and she’s a total goody goody and terrified of doing anything reckless; but then she remembers that her mom was on a business trip and so she, very cautiously, says yes

you: good. i’m outside your door btw

yachi: i never had a choice did i

you have to meet her at her house because she’s way too scared to walk by herself at night; she might even make you factime her as you commute because she’s worried for you

jumps at every little thing, even the crows cawing make her shit herself

instictively grabs onto your sleeve and nervously look around the entire time, to the point where she doesn’t hear what you say

so you offer to go to a little cafe that’s still open and right away she nods

she’s so adorable, she bows really deeply when you two walk into the store and apologizes for it being so late

and finally, because you two are safe, she’s calm and smiling as she sips at her strawberry smoothie

awkwardly and very shyly reaches out for your hand on the table and gently lays her palm on yours

canon: yachi totally has freckles and you can’t convince me otherwise 

her face is red and her freckles are just on display you can’t help but coo at her and tuck some hair behind her ear because god could she get any cuter?

you two end up staying for like a hour and a half and very shyly she asks if you could walk her home 

and this time on the walk she’s not overly cautious and seems to enjoy the nighttime breeze and your hand softly clasping hers

does that cute thing where she lays her head on your shoulder or arm while you both are walking and looks up at you through her eyelashes and asks if you could give her a kiss on the cheek </3

you: stop. please. im going to die.

when you’re at her door she literally just stands there awkwardly for a few seconds before tilting her head upwards and pressing her lips to yours and then promptly running inside

video calls you three seconds afterwards to make sure you get home safely 

all in all, you might need to be the impulsive one, but yachi enjoys spending late night time with you more than she admits. also please kiss her thanks      

[anemoniii]

dance with me | d.m

word count: 1.2k

warnings: painfully cheesy writing 

ship: draco malfoy x muggle!reader (gender neutral)

request: no, but they're now open c:

summary: taking place after the war, muggle!reader learns just how cheesy sleepy draco can be after taking him camping for the first time ~ based off the beautiful song dance around the fire by why these coyotes 

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Glowing embers illuminated the surrounding trees of an open clearing that was seemingly placed perfectly on top of a cliff. Just under the cliff, it had to have been 30 metres in the air and overlooked the deep, blue water that was colliding against the rocks at the bottom which was releasing a classic summer smell that you were all too familiar with. What was once your “family’s secret hideaway” was now something you decided was time to share with your significant other.

It’s been three years since you have met the mystery man, who you now know by Draco Lucius Malfoy, at a local pub. Or what he lovingly called it upon your first encounter “a muggle sweat tavern”. Despite the abrasive and confusing remarks he made that night, you soon learned the truth behind his complex façade. 

Being a “muggle”, as he calls it, you had no idea what he was talking about for the first month or so. All you could grasp was that he was utterly lost in his morality (thanks to his upbringing) and needed an outlet. You didn’t think much of this the first time you talked to him. In fact, you didn’t even think you would see him again after this first interaction. But, what you now realize was luck, fate to some, you bumped into him every Friday after work. He was always seated at the same table which was pushed up against the west wall of the club — far from both the bartender and others. 

You sat and listened to everything Draco had to say while he sat taking sips and bites at whatever drink and meal he decided to indulge himself with that week. That went on for a month before he suggested that you have more formal meetings. His exact, partially slurred, words were, “I don’t understand why you keep coming to this filthy mug- … filthy pub. I found this restaurant down the street, just two blocks over, and I think- I think we should at least take a look at their menu.” 

To which you replied, with a loving smile, “I’d be honoured.”

The night Draco took you to the restaurant marked the first of many dates, as you would later call them. Three years after that night, you now laid peacefully in his arms, gazing over the water below and up at the stars. His head rested peacefully against your shoulder, and his soft hair was pushed against your face, calling you to run your fingers through it. As you reached out to place your hand on his head, a quiet hum echoed from his throat, causing you to pause.

“Don’t you just love summer?” He happily breathed out, slowly lifting his head off of you so he could stare into your eyes. You met his gaze and saw how gently his eyes blinked — fluttering almost, his eyelashes were barely touching. “I love it so much, it’s so… nice. Summer is so nice, but not as nice as you-” he continued, dragging on the “you”, and ended by booping your nose with the tip of his index finger. 

“Go to sleep you big, oaf,” you teased, his finger still pressed against your nose.

He furrowed his eyebrows and shifted his eyes off of you. To anyone else, they might have thought that was a sign of discontent, but you knew this was his way of teasing back. “You’re rather mean, you know,” he puffed, “I wouldn’t even be out here in this excuse of a forest if it weren’t for you.”

You laughed at this. He was the one who begged you to finally show him your family’s secret hideaway. You smiled at Draco and shook your head before replying, “Then I guess you won’t mind if I pack up our belongings and-”

“That’s okay,” he said before standing up and whipping off his pants, “I was kidding.” He reached down to grab your hand and pulled you up into him. He delicately planted a kiss on your lips, followed by your nose, and then your forehead before whispering an ‘I love you’ into your ear. 

“I love you more, darling,” you whispered back. He gave you yet another kiss before dragging you back to the tent that was placed away from the cliff and near the tree line. You nearly forgot about the fire that was ever so brightly glowing in the background. Fallen leaves and sticks crunched heavily under your feet as Draco pulled you closer to the makeshift fire that was dying down. He let go of your hand to blow the fire back to life.

He looked so at peace. So tired, yet so happy. He found his home. He knew it. Anyone who knew the couple knew it. Even if you denied it to all his old peers from Hogwarts, you also knew that you somehow managed to bring his withered soul back to life. 

“Dance with me,” he mumbled, stuffing his face into you. The two of you swayed back and forth for what felt like an entirety. The sound of the waves, fire, and forest filling the silence.

“You- you are so entrancing, y’know?” Draco asked, his arms wounded tightly around your body. 

“No, tell me,” you replied.

“You’re so amazing and wonderful, and I love everything about you-”

“Even if I’m a filthy muggle?” you asked while trying to repress a giggle, causing him to groan. He was silent for a few seconds, as he released his tight grasp on you to spin you around, he finally spoke–

“Shut up,” he pulled you back into him before he went on. “I love you, the beautiful (A/N: or handsome!) muggle you. And I’m going to marry you one day too — don’t you dare forget that.” His eyes were — lovingly —  boring into your soul. 

“Dray-”

“I’m going to wake up beside you every day and make you breakfast and kiss you before we go off to work and kiss you when we return home and I’m going to love you for every little bit of you. Flaws and all,” he rambled. “If you would let me, of course.”

You rested your hands on his cheeks before putting a finger to his lip.

“Why wouldn’t I let you?” He opened his mouth to respond, but you cut him off before he could drone on with his self-deprecation. “Don’t answer that. You’re worth every star in the universe — you’re worth everything to me, now come lie down. You look exhausted.”

“‘M not ‘ired,” he halfheartedly replied, not on purpose, of course. But he had been grasping for energy since the sunset, so it came to no surprise that he lost all effort to talk properly. 

You led him to the tent where you managed to tuck him in after struggling for several minutes. Following suit, you lifted the blankets on the loose end and snuggled your way in between his arms. Before drifting off to sleep, you felt your lover pull you deeper into his chest before mumbling a ‘thank you’ into your hair.

“Thank you,” you breathed out, reaching behind him to finally play with his soft hair. 

a/n: hello there! i haven’t written anything like this in awhile, so i hope you enjoyed lol - my request box is now open and empty, so feel free to leave anything you might want to read/suggestions c:

[knightofameris]

among the stars — sugawara koushi

✎ gender. neutral  ✎ contains. pestablished relationship, uneahlthy familial relationships (mention), anxiety of a college kid, self indulgent, not edited ✎ wc. 1.7k

✎ summary. with so much anxiety and uncertainties on earth, what to do, how to do it, you always looked up to the stars for answers. 

✎ ameris’ notes. just something self indulgent. not my best work but, it’s kay! also tried to keep reader’s interests as vague as possible, but I can only do so much lol. 

The Miyagi air was sharp against your skin. Piercing. Cold. It felt like if water fell from your eyes then it would immediately freeze over.

That was one motivator to hold your tears in.

You swallowed down the very lump in your throat because you knew that if it escaped, the dam would break loose. And again, you did not want your tears to freeze on your face. A sigh left your mouth, the cold air apparent in front of your face as you walked past Ukai’s shop. There was still a light inside but you could tell that it was closed. After all, the world—or rather, Japan—was preparing to sleep for the night.

“Hey.”

With perked ears, you turned your head towards the source. Suga stood there with a gentle smile on his face, his little bean sprout (as you liked calling it) on top of his head. He donned his typical winter coat and blue scarf, topped with gloves on his hands. Clearly, he was more prepared for the winter temperatures of Miyagi than you. Considering you were just wearing a thin sweatshirt and jeans. But you ran out of your house too fast to think ahead of time.

“Koushi,” a ghost of a smile played at your lips until you remembered why you called him out. The two of you were back in Miyagi for winter break and at first you were excited to be back home from university, feeling like your relationship with your parents was starting to look up. That is, until you realized nothing changed at all.

After all, even your older brother who had a somewhat better relationship with your parents ended up with an estranged one.

They didn’t even go to his wedding.

Suga took off his coat, draping it around your shoulders. You tried to protest, claiming that he’ll end up with a cold but with a chaste kiss to your forehead, you accepted it reluctantly. The final icing on the cake was when he promptly wrapped his scarf around your neck. His gloved fingers brushed against your neck as he tucked it into the coat. And despite the clothed barrier, you were still able to feel the warmth and love that radiated from him.

With that big smile of his, he beamed at you, “There, all nice and warm.”

You rolled your eyes as you laced your hands with his before tucking it into your—or his—coat pocket. And the two of you set off, walking to wherever your feet took you.

“Do you want to talk about it?” He asked, glancing at you. You pursed your lips, your hand squeezed his. Ever so slightly, you walked closer to him, wanting the comfort of his presence.

You shake your head, “No, not yet.”

“Whenever you’re ready.” His thumb brushes against the back of your hand as the two of you approach an empty park with a large open field of grass. The very place the two of you met all those years ago. The very place the two of you would spend countless nights after his many volleyball practices. The very place the two of you confessed your feelings to one another.

You were glad to know that you knew him for over half your life and that he would continue to be a part of your life (at least you hoped so).

Despite the freezing weather, Suga sat on the ground, in the middle of the grass field and pulled you down with him to sit between his legs. He wrapped his arms around your waist, pressing you against his chest.

“I’ve missed you,” Suga murmured into your neck, letting his lips kiss you lightly. You let out a small giggle, telling him that it tickles. He didn’t care and started to press more kisses on your neck. Your laughter was music to his ears. As overused as that statement was. But he was just so happy to hear it in person instead of over the phone. It had been a long time waiting. For the both of you.

“Koussshhiii,” you whined, pushing his face away from you. He pouts but relents nonetheless. Your laughter dying down as you settle down and rest your head against his shoulder, looking up to the night sky.

“Hey, Koushi?” You ask, your eyes tracing the stars, trying to see if you’d be able to recognize any constellations despite the light pollution. The one that you’re always able to find during this time of year was always Orion’s belt. Before you knew it, the three stars entered your sight.

Suga hummed in response, prompting you to continue with your thought. You turned your head towards him, your eyes landing on his beauty mark that you always love leaving kisses on. Especially with how flustered he’d get after.

“Where do you think shooting stars land?”

There was a moment of silence. Suga looked up at the sky, used to your odd questions. A small smile made its way onto his face. Immediately, you knew what he was up to.

“Well, I’d say in your eyes, because you’re made of stardust.” He grinned as you let out a groan, you shook your head.

“You’re so cheesy, Kou-chan.”

“You love me.” He nuzzles his nose to your cheek.

“Yeah, yeah.”

Silence veiled over the two of you. A comfortable silence. Despite sitting on the cold ground, the two of you felt more warm than ever. Even if Suga gave his coat to you. But he was prepared, making sure to wear a few extra layers after past experience to how many times you’d sneak out of the house or just run away for space away from your parents.

His heart would break every time you’d run into his arms with tears. After all, all children want is for their parents to be proud of them, to support them, to love them in a way that’s healthy.

“My parents really want me to become a doctor,” you break the silence. His grip around you tightens.

“Do you want to?”

“I...” you trail off for a second, “I don’t know. I’m doing fine in all my classes, more than fine. I’ve got plenty of shadowing opportunities. I’m actually top of my class. But...”

“You want to do something else, right?” Suga finished for you, knowing all about your interests and what you’d rather do. The way your eyes would light up whenever you wanted to show him something new. You always loved how he’d support you through and through.

“Yeah, it’s just that, I don’t think I’m any good at it, even if I wanted to pursue it as a job. All the classes I have to take to become a doctor, that comes naturally. But not anything I’d want to do. I don’t know what I want out of life anymore.” You let out a sigh, trying to dig further into the comfort of Suga’s arms. His hands begin to play with your fingers. His gloves are long gone so you’re able to feel the pads of his finger tips, the callouses from his many years of playing volleyball. And yet, they were still soft.

Suga pressed his lips against your temple and you leaned into it.

“You remember our third year, when Kageyama became starting setter?” You nod your head. “Do you remember what you said to me when I felt so useless? When I couldn’t even play the sport that I love so much?” You close your eyes, remember that conversation distinctly. It did take place here, like every other memory.

“That you were still important and that you still had a lot to get out of the club.”

“Well, that’s the gist of it. Even then, the same could be applied to you. And you saw Hinata, he was terrible-” you laughed, remembering his many mistakes “-but he’s gotten so much better. He is in his last year now.”

Your laughter died down. “Fair but, Hinata’s sorta simple minded. No offense to him, he only has volleyball in his head. Besides, my parents hate all the things I’d be interested in.”

“That’s the thing about life and living, huh.” You turn your head to look at Suga, his eyes resting somewhere beyond the horizon as he continues to talk. “How should we live, how do we make the most of it. I know I can’t answer that for you, your parents can’t either. Only you can.”

That’s the weird thing about college and moving on from your small sheltered life. You found that even if you had some sort of plan after high school, for the most part once you hit nineteen, twenty, everything comes crashing down. Some of your friends who wanted to pursue STEM degrees found more meaning in the performing arts and some of those struggled with the means of getting there. Some people didn’t even know what they were doing, just trying to coast by. You question everything and you feel like you have to have everything figured out before you leave university. Or so you found within yourself and others near your age.

But it was in moments like these that you found your anxieties about the future calmed down, even if it was for a little while.

You hum, turning your gaze back at the stars. “Well, however I live in the future, there’s one thing I know about it.”

“Hmm? What’s that?” Suga asks, glancing at you, his fingers still fiddling with yours.

“I know I want you in it for the rest of my life, living by my side.”

Suga’s eyes widened. Sure, the two of you grew up together, found love in each other. And sure, he’s thought about maybe starting a family with you, break that generational scarring. Or at the very least, marrying you and moving in together. Waking up beside you, going to sleep with you in his arms or him in your arms. You’ve had the same thoughts as well, but not once have either of you even hinted at it. So knowing that you wanted what he did, well, it eased his anxieties about the future as well.

His fingers began to play with your left ring finger, rubbing over where the ring would go.

“I’d like that, a lot,” he murmurs with a hint of a smile dancing on his lips.

No matter what the future holds, you knew you wouldn’t have to go it alone.

[binniesthighs]

WOW hi, hello, just wanted to stop by and say that i read all three parts to hello stranger and... i am speechless. these are the first fics i’ve read of yours and can i just say? you are a PHENOMAL writer oh my goodness. the way you describe things and are able to form such an impactful, engaging story is so admirable. honestly as a fellow writer i’m left feeling super inspired by your work! i really really really love the three parts and if you ever write more i’ll excitedly read them!💞i really like how reader and changbin met and then how their relationship begins to slowly blossom. loved minho’s and felix’s friendship with reader too. felix’s was cute and then minho’s was hilarious. i was dying of laughter in the third part when reader finds out minho is changbin’s roommate. gosh i feel like i could ramble on and on about this changbin fic and your writing but i don’t want to go overboard😭but yeah... your writing is amazing i can’t wait to read more of your works!💞also as someone who biases changbin too i was so happy to find your fic because i don’t know i feel like it’s a bit tough to find some good changbin fics out there? the way you portray changbin in hello stranger too... ugh my heart😩💖okay okay i’m rambling too much LOL but yeah big fan of your work!!!!

anon reading your whole ask made me so emotional in the absolute best way🥺 thank you so very much for taking to time to read my fics and to send this long and thoughtful comment about them. as an author, I swear that it means the absolute world me to me to get comments like yours and it makes my heart frickin SWELL🥰🥰ahhh I just feel so overwhelmed with love!! To me, it is the highest praise to know that I inspire others, I literally feel so honored!! Writing has been a life-long passion of mine, and to share my works makes me so complete❤️ I’ve said it before hehe but when readers analyze my work and point out lil details I NUT 😂💀forreal though, it makes it all worth it for me, so thank you so much for that!!

also yes I agree with ya!! There are some truly wonderful series out here but we need more Bin!!! This mans occupies some major space in my heart so I wanted to write kind of an ode to him (self-indulgent as it is LMAO) with hello stranger gahhh I know it’s cheesy but Bin (and Jisung) have helped me so much so I wanted to portray that in my fic💕

[fadedtoblue]

Some spoiler-y thoughts on DDS3

I finally got a full night’s of sleep after being awake for about 24 hours lol, so I think I can start communicating like a regular person again. I feel like I still have a lot to process about DDS3 overall, but I thought it might be nice to share a few thoughts while it’s semi-fresh, and maybe later I’ll try to expand on them as need.

Anyway, spoilers below the cut....:)

Overall, this was a wonderful and satisfying season of Daredevil - it felt like they took the things that were notable about S1 and S2 and improved upon them by leaps and bounds. The result was a S3 that was sharply focused and consistently written, plotted like a single focus story (a la S1) while in actuality serving a broad group of equally important characters and intertwining storylines (like S2) - yet I never felt like they lost their grip on the steering wheel. There would be moments in the plot where I’d think, “Wait, are they going to address that plot point / answer that question, etc?” and in the next scene or at least by the next episode, they did. Whoever was in charge of keeping their scripts consistent and not leaving plot holes, extra gold stars to them b/c they did a fucking fantastic job. Kudos to Erik Oleson for coming in with a very clear and intentional plan and executing the shit out of it. 

Here are some things that were notable for me this season:

Matt Murdock. Look, I was pretty worried coming into this that we were getting Dark!Matt and not much else - I love my emo son as much as the next person, but it was hard for me to imagine how we’d get to a positive ending if all we were getting was dark and more dark. And while yes, we did get a lot of dark and emo and raging at God Matt, there were clear and purposeful moments of growth he made throughout the entire series to get from the Matt that washed out of Midland Circle, barely alive, broken and bereft over losing Elektra to the Matt at the end, accepting who he is as DD AND Matt Murdock and ready for whatever the future holds for him and his friends. 

Quick aside for my Mattelektra peeps: I wish he could have actually talked about the events of Midland Circle and better processed the trauma of that and losing Elektra - for the most part, it all gets grouped under ‘general rage at God and life’ during the early episodes and none of the people around him at the time, namely Sister Maggie and Father Lanthom, actually understand what happened with Elektra. BUT we do get shown a bunch of Mattelektra scenes from DD and TD and I realize that the show really didn’t need to do that, so I’m trying to be grateful that we were shown that little glimpse into Matt’s mind right before he comes to. Because it was necessary reminder that part of why he’s broken is not just that he lost some of his senses and abilities, but because he lost Elektra - again.

Thanks for indulging my moment there everyone lol. Anyway, Matt Murdock was A++++ in all scenes and states of clothedness. In conclusion: I still love him. 

Avocado Trio feels. As someone who has always enjoyed this trio, but maybe not as much the individual characters on their own, I am really pleased that they actually got the band back together again, and not only that, I came out of this season with positive vibes for both Karen and Foggy but ESPECIALLY Foggy. Goddamn, Foggy was the fucking MVP. First, he looked damn good this year. The haircut and the suits are working for him. But also, this particular team of writers actually wrote Foggy in a way that feels more true to what I had always wanted from Foggy - someone who was smart, resourceful, caring, and most of all, THERE FOR MATT. I felt like his decade long friendship with Matt finally paid off in his characterization and he wasn’t being pushed off to the side to further someone else’s narrative. My favorite moment was when Karen was ready to throw in the towel, but Foggy talks about how everyone has abandoned Matt and he’s not going to do it too. It warmed the cockles of my cold, cold heart. 

I’m also pretty satisfied with how they finally revealed Karen’s backstory and damn if they didn’t make me feel sad and impressed with her at various points - her phone call with her dad / her dad telling her to leave after Kevin’s death and the 1v1 face off with Kingpin being two such examples. She might not ever be a favorite of mine but she was represented well this season for sure. I’m also grateful that they actually allowed her and Matt to air their shit out in a semi-realistic way. They acknowledged there was a lot of shit and baggage and didn’t just try to rush them to some kind of romantic conclusion. In fact, this season was refreshing in that romance was never a primary plot for any of the characters! There was enough going on with the story that the sort of angsting that kind of plot usually brings would have just been distracting. Any relationships were contained to people who were already in them, like Foggy and Marci, or Kingpin and Vanessa. The focus for these characters was really on rebuilding trust and the overall friendship / family bonds between all three. That was one of my hopes for the season and it delivered :). 

Okay, I’m getting to the point in this post where I’m getting tired with my own babbling LOL, so I’m gonna try to bullet point some more notable moments:

Kingpin - Smart and menacing and I loved the take on him as being this ultimate spymaster. It was really well done and I think once you saw the full breadth of the conspiracy - it was really good. And I guess in this same point I’ll shout out Vanessa - I was SO glad to see her again and dang, she just has a presence on screen that is hard to match. I am looking forward to seeing her as badass Vanessa Fisk - maybe she hires a freelancer named Elektra Natchios as her own personal assassin since Bullseye is gonna have it out for both Fisks?? Would that not be an AMAZING duo?

Dex aka Bullseye. I loved how they established his origin and his psychopathy - it made a lot of sense to me how this inherently broken, mentally ill person could have flown under the radar for as long as he did, and that someone like Fisk would be able to manipulate him to his own ends. Wilson Bethel is easy on the eyes for sure, but I thought he did an amazing job playing a guy who always seemed on the edge of cracking. He played all the shades of Bullseye very well. I’m looking forward to seeing him again as the primary big bad and GIVE ME BULLSEYE v ELEKTRA YOU COWARDS. Speaking of which, that reminds me, I want to point out the Bullseye was literally a diagnosed psychopath who was incapable of showing empathy whereas they kept trying to tell us Elektra was a sociopath but she clearly is not - she definitely had some sociopathic tendencies, which likely developed from her very messed up upbringing and exposure to violence, and when they bring her back, she will probably keep on some of those characteristics b/c of the sort of fighter than she is, but let’s just put it to rest already. And yeah, I want those two to give me a 1v1 fight for the AGES. DD who? 

Sister Maggie. LOOK. I don’t feel like I should have been surprised with any of the stuff that happened with Maggie but everything about it was a HIGHLIGHT. I loved the way Joanne Whalley conveyed the character - every time I saw her and Matt interact, I knew it was gonna be good. When they finally reveal her as Matt’s mom (whew!), I was genuinely moved. When she realizes that Matt has found out her secret and is gone, the way she runs to his bed and completely breaks down at losing her son again? I WAS A BLUBBERING MESS. The forgiveness and acceptance in their reconciliation was something my soul desperately needed and I’m so glad we received. We better see more scenes of the Murdocks together in the future!

Ray Nadeem. Um, who would have thought I'd be so sad to lose Ray by the end of the season! The overall FBI conspiracy felt surprisingly fleshed out and was something I got pretty damn invested in (SO MUCH better than the conspiracy in TPS1). All the shifts and turns and betrayals of this particular storyline could have been very cheesy, but they ended up being working because they were almost character moments first? Because we know Ray and his relationship with Hattley, with Dex, even overall with the FBI, and then of course knowing his home life and his family...every time shit hit the fan, or a personal betrayal occurred, it really hurt. And that we got that super fun escape sequence with Ray and Matt in their civvies and then Ray’s final act of heroism with his dying declaration...RIP Ray. You will be missed. 

God, I haven’t even touched on the non character stuff, like the fights and shit, but I gotta wrap it up now before I bore myself to death :). I’m curious what everyone else thought of the season - feel free to hit me up if you wanna chatter about it!!

[xyalovegood]

1, 19, 50? Happy new year!!

end of year ask meme

1. First things first, did you have a good year?

I’d say so. Silly as it may seem, getting into kpop at the end of 2017 really really was the best thing I ever did. Because of that, in 2018 as I continued to delve deeper into the new world of kpop, I did so many new things I never ever would have done otherwise. I tried Korean food, started finding joy in putting together outfits for the first time in my life and I actually started enjoying looking in the mirror and taking pictures of myself (I even bought a skirt and actually wore it !! I used to hate wearing skirts or dresses; I always felt uncomfortable in them), I also started wearing earrings again and painting my nails on the regular using music videos as my inspiration. tl;dr: I’ve started having fun with and generally just putting effort into my appearance and because I’m happy with the way I’m presenting myself to the world I feel more confident.

I finally found a good reason and motivation to learn another language, and even if I haven’t actively been doing that as much as I’d like, I’ve picked up many things just from exposure to it. I found countless new people to look up to, people who are very nice and hardworking and humble, and some of whom are the same age or younger than me, and as such are going through similar things and they bring me comfort. I tried dying my hair. I even tried learning some choreo once or twice—yes, kpop actually got me to exercise. And of course, I found music to listen to again. For the longest time I only had one or two artists I liked and didn’t really have new music to listen to; now I never run out of it. I love it; it makes me energetic, makes me happy, makes boring tasks more fun—I don’t know what I’d do without you, kpop.

Also, because of our shared desire to attend kcon, me and my mom finally decided to just do it and go on a real vacation, just the two of us, and have healing time like we’ve always wanted to. (I love my dad and sister, but they’re just… on a different wavelength. To put it bluntly, they’re high maintenance and are common-sense-challenged. When we travel with them we’d be making sure they didn’t leave anything behind, making sure we don’t get separated, dealing with my little sister’s whining, and trying to figure out what to do because we have different ideas of what “fun” is…  We can’t totally focus on us; they kind of suck all of our energy.)

So yeah overall I went to six nights of concerts in 2018, found a lot of new sources of happiness, and kinda got myself out of a rut by trying a bunch of new things, so yay!

(Sorry sorry, I couldn’t help myself; it was too much fun lol.)

19. What was one nice thing you did for yourself?

Hmm, I feel like I’m good at making sure I get alone time to recharge so I don’t get socially tired or crabby? A necessary skill for any introvert lol. I don’t think it’s a skill I acquired in 2018 specifically, but it’s what came to mind. I also totally indulged in adding to my rapidly growing collection of kpop albums and merch, if that counts…

50. What do you wish for yourself [for the coming year]?

Pretty much the same thing as last year. I just hope I can be a little more productive, healthier, happier. Maybe even learn from my mistakes and give in to instant gratification less. I’d love to be able to stop worrying about the future and figure out what I’m good at and what I want to do, but that may be asking too much lol. Someday I’d like to find a good irl friend or two again, ‘cause I haven’t had one of those for a while. It’d also be cool if I could work on appreciating what I have more instead of taking things for granted. But I don’t want to put a bunch of pressure on myself for this to be some kind of amazing year, I’m just aiming for “a little better than last year.” If I can improve myself just a little bit, I’ll be happy. Not to be cheesy or whatever but any growth is growth, and it’ll add up. 🤠

Happy new year to you too, and thanks so much for asking, fren! Sorry it took me a few days to respond; as you can probably tell I took a bit of time to think about my answers first lol.

[luckyricochet]

Thank you TURN: Washington’s Spies

I just finished watching the series finale of Turn. Anyone who knows me well knows how much this shows means to me, so I’ve obviously got a lot of thoughts I want to get out of me. Long feelings and slight spoiler-y ramblings follow. 

I first learned about the Culper Ring when I was fourteen, when I went to DC for the first time and visited Mount Vernon. There was this tiny movie screen that was playing a short clip about spies during the American Revolution. The narrator (Robert Townsend, lol) talked about all the different ways spies operated during the war, the invisible ink, the petticoats. I thought it was the coolest thing ever. I never forgot that clip. I always hoped I could see something more on the Culper Ring beyond just some cheesy little bit at Mount Vernon--but knowing how historical dramas very rarely ever touched on topics I was interested in, and also realizing the obscurity of this particular topic, I never really got my hopes up. 

Flash-forward a few years later. I learn that not only is there going to be a TV show about the American Revolution, which I had been dying for, but it was going to be about the exact very subject I had been most wanting to see on the screen. I am not exaggerating when it was truly a dream come true. Never in a million years did I think I’d ever see the Culper Ring on TV. I eagerly waited the next few months, jumping at every new promo and ad that was released. First thoughts: This Ben Tallmadge character is attractive. (No change there.) 

I’ll be honest, it took me a bit to really get into the show. I wasn’t totally in love with any of the characters, and I honestly had a hard time following some of the plot lines. But would I keep watching it? Absolutely. Like I said, this was something I thought I would never have, so I’d support it no matter what. I remember being obsessed with ratings--they weren’t the best and I was so nervous, even expecting, to see one day TURN had been canceled. And then we weren’t, and I was again, thrilled. That’s just 10 more episodes about history I love. 

Again, Season 2 didn’t grab me in right away. I actually didn’t watch it until it had completely finished airing. Seeing gifs of bby Lafayette on Tumblr definitely encouraged me to hurry my ass up and finish it, tbh. I watched it several times, until I had settled on a favorite character: Robert. With that, I was gone I watched his scenes on repeat, and I was suddenly so impatient for the next season, but I was again, so on edge about the ratings. I joined in on the #RenewTURN campaign, tweeting and commenting on Facebook--and huzzah! We were confirmed for a third season!

I think Season 3 is that one that fans agree is when shit reaallly started to hit the fan in the series. Things were really heating up. Each episode somehow was able to top the next. Plus this is the season when the Arnold-Andre plot was unfolding, in some sense the climax of the series. And I was of course overjoyed that Robert/Nick had been elevated to starring role. Anyway, this season is the starting point when TURN started to stress me out each episode. As usual, I was nervous again around renewal, but even more so because I really felt that we just needed to do it one more time, and then we could finish things out on our own terms. I would have been pissed beyond words if it had been canceled and over with the war still on. BUT IT WASN’T. 

And now, Season 4. I was of course sad to come to terms it would be the last, but more relieved that us fans would be delivered a satisfying end to the whole adventure. And I say right now, on August 12, 2017, that we certainly were. This season was a nonstop thrill ride from start to beginning and I’m so glad I was able to be there for all of it. This final episode really hit me in all the right ways. The closing monologue was so beautiful. I really can’t describe it any other way. The writing, the music, the scenery, seeing all the characters with their resolutions--it honestly was so wonderful. I can’t have asked for a better way for a series to finish, especially one that means so much to me. It really broke my heart in a lot of ways, but I suppose that’s what good TV does. And I loved that it ended the way it began--Abe at his farm, playing with his son. I think that’s what made me so emotional. Abe, for all his faults, never once wavered in being nothing less than a loving father to Thomas. And to see him back in that role just brought everything full circle. It reminds you why Abe ever got involved in the Ring in the first place.

Thank you TURN, for an amazing cast and crew who indulge us with live-tweets and so many behind-the-scenes pictures and tid-bits. Not every fandom has that. 

Thank you TURN, for keeping me on the edge of my seat more often that not. I usually don’t audibly react when I’m watching things, but I did on more than one occasion while watching this season. 

Thank you TURN, for writing such brilliant characters and for giving ALL of them such complexity. The character development was seriously unreal, but Mary and Hewlett deserve special recognition. It’s been such a treat to see them change over the last four years. But also thank you for portraying some of my favorite figures in history so well: Washington, Lafayette.

Thank you TURN, for shining light on an otherwise oft-forgotten piece of history. For whatever reason, the American Revolution is strangely under-represented in the media. As my favorite time in history, I am so lucky to have 40 hours that bring it to life so vividly and accurately.

And so now I say goodbye to a show that has held a piece of my heart for the past four years. It now joins the likes of John Adams, Band of Brothers, and Rome as some of the best TV I’ve ever seen. Thank you, TURN. I’ll miss you immensely, but will be forever grateful for everything. It’s been so incredible.

[ahahahahaderp]

HataJitsu & KamiMiyo Toku Headcanons ✩꒳✩

(￣ω￣)that no one asked for but I can’t stop thinking about it okkkk 💦💦💦💦

can you taste my undying thirst and bias for kamimiyo because I am shameless (￣ω￣;)  no actually, I’m Mimi 

Aaaaaand tokusatsu or 特撮 for those who don’t know are J-dramas and/or films that use lots of special effects ^o^ Godzilla, Garo, Kamen Rider, Super Sentai, Ultraman etc. are just some examples~! 

I just think that Kaminaga and Hatano would like really be into tokusatsu series and would debate which ones are better, best suits, fight scenes, etc etc and Miyoshi and Jitsui would just be forced to put up with their embarrassing boyfriends... but low-key enjoying it too wwwwwwww 

...

and yes, Kaminaga and Hatano would totally do the poses when they go to exhibitions and fanboy so hard at the great details!! (honestly, same tho >w<)

Also thanks @dollofdeath​ for indulging me (*´ω｀)o  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

HataJitsu

Jitsui openly likes Toku too (to a certain degree)  and will watch it with Hatano kinda often

It's cute because Hatano gets all excited and Jitsui is just LOL, finding him sooo cute and precious

Hatano naturally hates being teased and called a kid, but Jitsui can’t help but tease him more for being such an adorable fanboy  (*ﾉωﾉ)ｷｬｰ like okk Hatano, ILY but you ARE a kid sometimes and it’s so freaking cute

Not to mention how pure some of these shows are omfg and the fact that some of the catch phrases are so cheesy and Hatano enjoys them so much and get so into it, makes Jitsui wanna bully protect him more 

Because the real hero isn’t the next rider or super sentai, but the stupid boyfriend beside him（˶′◡‵˶）

Though, it’s not all sunshine and rainbows with these heroes and Jitsui does find himself honestly liking the intriguing plot lines that can surprisingly be deep and insightful 

Jitsui looks forward to Hatano’s reactions but really, it’s vice-versa because a lot of the time Hatano’s already seen these episodes but he just wants Jitsui to enjoy it too 

But then they just keep sneaking glances at each other’s reaction instead of watching wwww

Plus Hatano gets really hyped during the fight scenes and is just always in awe and Jitsui’s starting to wonder like ohhh is this why Hatano took all these martial arts classes  (つ∀<●)ﾟ💦 💦 💦

Hatano sometimes thinks that he could totally be one of the suit actors if not for his height and kinda gets really down about it but Jitsui would just be like “I don’t suppose I’d need special effects to draw fear into people when it’s all natural, so why would you need special effects to suit up and be my hero?” (>////////////<) 

Hatano passed out from a fever that night and Jitsui couldn’t take Hatano being everyone’s hero when he should just be his (✿´ ꒳ ` )

But when they do watch the new episodes together, as much as Jitsui does admit to liking it, they don’t hold a candle to Hatano’s reactions at the suits and everything

Jitsui enjoys Hatano’s stupid smile and overblown excitement the most because Hatano seems low-key troubled sometimes and doesn’t say much because he’s unsure really of why he’s feeling dubious, but when he watches toku, he like forgets all that so secretly, Jitsui loves his addiction so much

And Hatano somehow got Jitsui to start drawing toku art and is just MY BOYFRIEND IS SO AMAZING, HE SCARES ME (wait..he always does)

Random but I think Jitsui would probably enjoy KR Amazons the most and would lol during horror films and Hatano is just......I'm glad he likes me...I think. (￣ω￣;)

KamiMiyo

Of course, Kaminaga has to drag (and beg and whine for) Miyo to actually consider watching Toku shows and once they start watching, it’s normal for them to marathon shows and de-stress with each other since Miyo wants to see what’s gotten Kaminaga so excited lately and because he’s so cuteeee   (*´∀`*)えへへ

Miyo thinks that the shows aren’t half bad and is at the very least intrigued by the whole idea of it, and also because Kaminaga is so pure and adorable for watching these kind of bubbly shows, it’s almost funny? Even when they’re not always bubbly and kinda deep. He just likes seeing Kaminaga be really happy  *:･(*/////∇/////*)･:*:･ 

Plus, the chance to tease Kaminaga will never not be amazing wwwww

but Miyo low-key thinking omg the detail on these suits are so amazing and the choreograph is just so grea---I mean...it's passable, naturally. That's why it has a following and all and what no, Kaminaga...I’m just taking this photo for ref ok...?  💦 💦 💦

and yes of course they go to Kamen Rider the Diner and Miyoshi just...why am I here...like sure, Miyo’s a foodie and all but novelty food almost always tastes the same. 

Though, that’s where Kaminaga comes in and says something about how the details they put into creating these silly aesthetics for the food based on quirks from the show makes it really fun to eat! Not to mention that a lot of those times were when he was watching toku with Miyo and that makes all the difference---it’s definitely not as enjoyable if he’s not with Miyo because somehow Miyo makes Toku even better and he just treasures Toku more because of that and I’m cry (´；ω；`)

and god, Kaminaga can you not stare at Miyo like tht because he’s trying to eat here without swooning  （*/∇＼*）

Miyo’s just.......I am not getting flustered over some below average novelty food because of you (≧ヘ≦　) he totally is though wwwwww

and it makes it even worse because Kaminaga’s charms always has that effect on Miyo and Miyo is just...stop taking pictures and eat your weeb food

But also LOL Kaminaga is such a dumb dork and getting excited over the cafe merch or interior and how it reminds him of this and that scene and Miyoshi just can’t help but wanna treasure this stupid pure sunshine even more >w<

Ohhh and and and Kaminaga totally fanboying about toku with these total strangers and Miyo just totally can’t stand it and just cosplays as Kaminaga’s fave to get his attention

though kaminaga is totally flustered at this, he won’t hug Miyo and barely even kiss him because the details of his suit are so amazing and Miyoshi’s just I hate that you’re so cute （˶′◡‵˶） but seriously, look at me b*tch 

Though, what if instead Miyo was like a closet tokusatsu fan because he thinks liking something so childish totally contrasts with his ummm supposedly "cool" image but then again he's dating Kaminaga lololol and he finds the heroes pretty cool lolololl idk (I;m same miyoshi saaaaame)  (∩ﾟ∀｀∩)ｷｬ―!!!!

Kaminaga finding out and at first like LOLOLOLOLOL I can't believe I've known you for this long and you managed to keep it from me; that is so cute (and super happy that he’s the only one who knows about Miyo’s addiction) TwT

Kaminaga's not an avid fan but he does enjoy it time to time from the stuff he's seen and finds it pretty cool and Miyo totally getting excited talking about toku and Kaminaga's like dying because that is freaking cuteeeee 

Miyo secretly collects the figures LOL and keeps them hidden even away from Kaminaga ( ˃̣̣̥ω˂̣̣̥ )

Also okkk so when Jitsui goes to a doujin event to sell his manga or doujins perhaps, of course, the others come to support him! 

Naturally Hatano is there and lol probably buys manga and doujins, artbooks, merch (I feel like he'd be into manga and stuff a lot, but not crazy but does enjoy it) 

Miyoshi comes too, of course, but can't find Kaminaga anywhere is just ...sort of lonely but you know, he's here to support Jitsui and make fun of Hatano and w o w that is some intense cosplay right there huhhh is that his fave rider in a get up that looks almost identical to the exact same suit made for the show and omg his belt is so unreal and every detail makes him feel like this is some crazy dream because this cosplayer is practically oozing this unrivaled charisma and charm ≧(´▽｀)≦

and it’s probably his unhindered narcissism, but he can’t help but feel that this cosplayer is looking at him (though, low-key freaking out because oh no, can all toku fans tell who other toku fans are because he is sooo sCREWED)

miyo's like almost sweating but gosh there's so many ppl and thank you god if you're out there because Miyoshi always has his favourite handkerchief to look extra pristine and wipe away non-existent sweat, of course (Gods don’t sweat) (ノ*゜▽゜*)

and ugh where are you Kaminaga because Kaminaga needs to see this too 

and and Miyo wants to... scold him as well for being this late and not answering all his messages

Secretly, however, Miyo won’t mind if Kaminaga makes fun of him but naturally Kaminaga won't...much because Kaminaga thinks Miyo low-key fanboying is just as cute as affectionate drunk miyo ೭੧(❛▿❛✿)੭೨

The people are still crowding around this amazing cosplayer but now that Miyo’s kinda close, he can totally sneak a pic while no one's looking at him because oh god no one can find out (even if Kaminaga did yikes, but it’s ok because it’s Kaminaga) 

For once, he feels nearly unworthy to be near this cosplayer that is somehow a person and why isn't Kaminaga answering his phone

Nvm Kaminaga finally picked up and---huhhhhh why does the cosplayer have Kaminaga's phone and is...w-waving? at him no less?

Once the helmet comes off, Miyo can barely even register that it’s Kaminaga and is totally blushing because it’s so freaking hot (actually, Miyo, there’s quite a bit of AC buuut) and Kaminaga is so freaking hot and no, he doesn’t mean just because of the material of the cosplay

Finally when Miyo gets close enough, he’s too flustered to say much and Kaminaga’s just adoring the cuteness exuding Miyo right now 

for the first time, Miyoshi’s really feeling insanely shy right now and he’s known Kaminaga for practically forever and Miyo even has the gall to timidly ask if he can touch his suit because it’s so amazing

Of course, Kaminaga isn’t so foolish as to not tease Miyo at this when Miyo softly grazes the suit and is still in complete awe at the precision and detail because yes, Kaminaga has always been amazingly skilled and Miyo is so so lucky to have this man as his boyfriend  ｡(〃ω〃)ﾟ.+:｡♪

Miyo doesn’t even realize how shy he’s become and is just cautiously raising his phone and is starts murmuring almost

 “So...is it ok if we take a selfie together.........” like he’s now Kaminaga’s fanboy and Kaminaga is so startled and is also blushing frantically (because of the “heat” righttt boyyyys 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀)

but Kaminaga’s just kisses him instead and is just “A kiss is a much more meaningful memorabilia, isn’t it?” and even winks for added measure and gosh, Miyo knows his little handkerchief can’t save him now from looking like a total tomato (because oh yes, the heat is oh so vindictive of him)

“If it’s only for me, I suppose it is.”

THE END wooo fuwa fuwa fluffssssss 

Welp...that was way longer than I intended (((0へ0)💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦 cries I kinda wanna write that as a fanfic but idkkkk heehee I just think the whole cliche scenario works for them and is totally adorable TwT If anyone actually read this til the end, thank you for putting up with my eternally thirsty Kamimiyo rambles  (〃 ω 〃) and have a very lovely day and evening because you deserve both, even if you can only have one or the other (￣ω￣)

[lookingglasstheatre]

1. What are you listening to right now? “Kill V. Maim” by Grimes

2. What song makes you sad? I have a whole playlist called “I Used to Know You, But Now We’re Strangers” composed entirely of songs that remind me of exes or old friends I’m not longer in contact with..

“Gimme Danger” by The Stooges is a big one, along with “Everlong” by The Foo Fighters, which both remind me of very specific relationships. But, my pick for this is “Farther” by Third Eye Blind.. it could apply to a lot of different people..

“And I think about you dying years from now never having known who you are […] All I think about is waiting and all the people we are fading into Farther from you every day..” - “Farther” Third Eye Blind

3. What is the most annoying song in the world? Songs aren’t usually annoying to me unless they’re overplayed. I don’t know, no song is annoying me at the moment. Maybe that song “We Are Young” by fun. I’m not even sure it’s annoying, I just hate it.

4. Your all time favorite band? The Birthday Massacre, probably. That would be the most unique pick. Or Elliott Smith, if that counts.

5. Your newly discovered band is? The Regrettes. It’s amazing to me that Lydia Night is like 16 years old. I hope those kids keep killing it. Good luck to them.

6. Best female voice? Hope Sandoval of Mazzy Star has an amazing voice. I wish I sounded even a little bit like her.

7. Best male voice? So, I don’t think he’s the best.. but holy shit, Ville Valo from HIM has a sexy voice. It’s so sexy as to almost make you forget how cheesy HIM lyrics are. Almost.

8. Music type you find yourself listening to most? Pop music, probably.. and shitty punk rock, lol.

9. What do you listen to, to hype you up? Depends on what I’m getting hyped up for. “Bubblegum Bitch” by Marina and The Diamonds for going out and looking pretty. All of Enema of the Sate by Blink-182 for energy in the morning. Kanye for working out. Aesthetic Perfection when I’m about to hit up a goth club, hah.

10. What do you listen to when you want to calm down? Belle and Sebastian, Slowdive, Radiohead, Lana Del Rey

11. Last gig/concert you went to? My friend’s band, Sleepsnack.

12. Band you find yourself listening to the most right now? My taste shifts once the weather gets warm so; Blink-182, Fountains of Wayne, Sufer Blood, Wavves, Third Eye Blind, My Chem’s Danger Days record.

13. Most hated band? I don’t listen to music I hate unless it’s inflicted upon me by other people against my will. So I’m not good with naming bands I don’t like. As far as bands I hate for personal or political reasons.. I hate ANY band that harasses or condones the harassment of women or minorities.

14. Song that makes you think? “Romeo’s Distress” by Christian Death. It’s such a great fucking track, but I want to believe that it’s anti-white supremacist, instead of the other way around… I have read the lyrics over and over trying to figure out if Roz Williams was actually just racist. I want to believe it was written mostly for the shock value and ultimately a song just telling a story and issuing a kind of warning.. but who knows for sure.. [sigh]

15. Band that you think the world should love as much as you do? I’m always kind of surprised more people I meet aren’t more familiar with Sneaker Pimps or IAMX’s early records. Chris Corner is kind of a hero of mine.

16. Coolest music video? Marilyn Manson’s “The Beautiful People” and the video for Death Cab for Cutie’s “Title and Registration.” “All I Full of Love” by Bjork. There are probably a bunch more I’m forgetting. All Grimes music videos.

17. Music video with the most watch? This question is phrased weirdly. But if you’re asking what music video I’ve watched the most… Malice Mizer’s “Illuminati.” Definitely. LOL. Along with Velvet Eden’s “SAD MASK.” Oh god, KALM flailing around in awful CG fire is what I LIVE for.

18. What do you play/would you play in the bedroom to spice things up? Souvlaki by Slowdive. With candles lit, after smoking together.

19. Ever been in a mosh pit? No. I would die. Look at the fucking size of me. I am a delicate doll.

20. Are you in a band? Nope. Someone start an all-girl Ramones and/or Blink-182 cover band with me.

21. Ever dated a musician? “Dated” would be kind of a strong word for it, but I had an ongoing casual thing with a guitarist in a band.

22. Do you wish yourself that you were a musician? Yes, but only because I wish I were any good at playing one of the myriad of instruments I’ve tried to learn. I wouldn’t want to be famous though.

23. Best all chick band you know of? Sleater-Kinney.

24. Last song that you heard on the radio/cd…etc…? I haven’t listened to the radio in a long, long time. I haven’t bought a CD in many years. If you’re counting any kind of physical media, I’m spinning an LP on my turntable right now; it’s Blink-182’s Enema of The State and “Anthem” just finished playing.

32. What do you think of Classical music? Eh, I can understand why some people find it boring. My mother was a classical pianist and I grew up listening to a lot of classical music. I just developed a taste for it after many years, I guess.

33. What do you think of Country music? It reminds me of growing up in Texas. There will always be at least one or two country songs I like - a lot of which reminds me of middle school dances and crying in the bathroom alone because my crush didn’t like me back. And everyone likes at least one Johnny Cash song.

34. What do you think of metal? I like it. I can only take so much screaming, to be honest.. but some bands I really love can be classified as metal.

35. Last BIG band that you saw live? Blink-182.

36. Are you a groupie? Nope.

37. Do you listen to music in foreign languages? I used to listen to a LOT of J-Rock. I also listen to music in Korean, German, Romanian, and French.

38. What famous musician would you like to “spend the night with”!?

Woman; Lauren Mayberry of Chvrches. She’s a great front woman and so, so cute.

Man; I’d say Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance, but I feel weird about it because he’s also married to another super-crush of mine; Lindsey from Mindless Self Indulgence… so maybe Elliott Smith when he was still alive. I get a strong impression that he respected women.

39. Worst concert moment? Any time someone drunkenly falls all over me and/or hits me. It always seems to happen. Also when I saw Kaya live with my sister there was a guy trying to hit on her the entire time and I felt really bad that I didn’t exactly notice until we were out of the show.

40. Funny concert moment? When I went to see Marina and The Diamonds there was a guy next to me with his boyfriend and right in front of us was a woman with her teenage son. At some point they lit up a joint and offered some to the mom (who honestly looked kind of square) and she and them got high together. It was pretty amusing watching them chill together.

41. Sad concert moment? I went to see IAMX with a boyfriend, who I loved very much, but he didn’t really know the band. A few rows back, my ex (who I had just recently broken up with) was there with a coworker. I was sad we’d gotten to a point where we couldn’t go together or hang out anymore because we have really similar taste in music and that concert was amazing and I was sad not to be able to hang out with him during it.

42. Best local act you can think of? King Woman is originally from this area, I think.

43. If you were a musical instrument what would you be? Vocalist. I suck at everything else. In a perfect world I’d be the guitarist or keys.

44. Do you listen to the radio? Honestly, no, and I haven’t since grade school, really.

45. Do you watch music TV? I don’t have cable.

46. Do you follow the music charts, like the top 40? I did in grade school, but I haven’t really paid attention to music charts since then.

47. Have you meet any famous musicians? Met Kaya at an autograph session at Anime USA. It was at the peak of my Kaya obsession. He told me I was pretty. It was awesome.

48. Are any of your friends/family/etc. musicians? My mom was a piano teacher. My dad is basically tone deaf, haha.

49. Song that best describes your feelings right now? “I Really Like You” by Carly Rae Jepson.

50. Song that describes your life? The ENTIRE record Froot by Marina And the Diamonds. ESPECIALLY “I’m a Ruin” “Blue” and “Forget” and “Weeds”.. and “Immortal” Yeah, I can’t pick just one song… The whole record. Just listen to the whole thing and you’ll understand me, haha. Which I realize, does not paint me in a very flattering light.. but it’s accurate.

“Gimme love, gimme dreams, gimme a good self esteem” -Blue

“Cause I have lived my life in debt I’ve spent my days in deep regret Yeah, I’ve been living in the red But I wanna forgive and forget” -Forget

“I miss all of my exes They’re the only ones that know me And God knows that sex is A way to feel a bit, a little bit less lonely Yeah, I tried to keep it covered up Yeah, I thought I cut him at the root But now I think my time is up Cause he keeps growing back Like weeds” - Weeds

51. Do you know the names of all the band members that you listen to? Not even remotely. There are some exceptions, but for the most part, no.

52. Does a musician’s physical attractiveness play a part? A part in what? I think it plays a role in how popular they become. As far as it playing a role in how much I like them, I appreciate bands with a strong aesthetic, but it’s hardly necessary. Some of my favorite bands I wouldn’t even be able to recognize if I saw a photo of.

53. What famous musician do you want to marry? I don’t think someone’s musical output is a good way to gauge their marriageability..

54. Favourite movie soundtrack? The Scott Pilgrim vs The World OST.

55. Any musician pet hates? Any time musicians are arrogant enough to insult other musician’s work just for their own credibility. Like, you’re not cool for hating pop music, my dude. >_>

56. What do your parents listen to? My mother listens to mostly classical music, my dad likes James Taylor and Joni Mitchell

57. What are you listening to right NOW? Private Affair by The Virgins. I fucking love this song.

58. Do you wear band etc T-shirts? I hate wearing band t-shirts with a fiery passion of a thousand suns with VERY rare exceptions.

59. What do you think of people who do? I’m usually pretty.. not into those people. Like, hate is a strong word… but I’m really into fashion. Band t-shirts are like a really lazy way of expressing yourself to me. And they’re almost always printed on really boxy, non-soft material. Everyone wants to fight me on this.. I just don’t care for them.

60. What music sub-culture do you feel like you belong to? None? I always dressed too goth to really feel like I belong in the punk scene even though that was primarily what I was listening to in high school. I guess goth, but I don’t get along with or have much in common with most of the generic goths I know and I listen to too much pop for them. Is the indie-synthpop scene a thing..?

61. What song is stuck in your head right now? The theme song to Buffy The Vampire Slayer.

62. Do you sing in the shower? When I was a kid I would drag my giant boom box in the the bathroom with me and listen to it while taking a bath; mostly audiobooks, but sometimes music. I usually didn’t sing along though.

63. If so, what? If not, why not? Not sure? I sing in the car a lot. If music is on and I know the words and I’m alone, I’m singing.

66. How important is your partners taste in music to you? I’m really open about music, so whatever they are into I’ll probably get into as well. If we already share a taste in music we can discover more together, which is really fun. As long as they don’t HATE my music, it’s fine.

67. Hanson moves in next door to you, do you go introduce yourself, or do you arrange to beat them up? I’d probably just update my facebook status like, “Hanson lives next door to me. So, there’s that.” And invite them to my next barbecue.

68. Sex, drugs, and rock ‘n roll, you dig? Yes, sometimes, and yes.

69. Do you cook to music? Sometimes, I no longer have speakers right next to the kitchen.

70. Do you sing in the toilet? Nah.

[waluweebi]

3-6, 8, 10, 13-17, 20, 24-38, 40-47, 49, 54, 56-67, 69, 72-75, 77-82, 85, 87-133, 140, 142, 146, 149, 152-154 ☺️ have fun with those!

3: 3 Fears

1. death 2. dying alone? 3. the unknown lol (so basically just things that give me anxiety. but not actual fears that someone could use against me)

4: 3 things I love

1. video games! 2. napping! 3. animals!

I answered 5&6 (please see two posts ago)

8: Sexual orientation pansexual

10: How tall am I 5′4″

13: Favourite color purple (followed by black, green, and red)

14: Do I have a crush I ALWAYS have a crush (and usually multiples unfortunately)

15: Favourite quote I don’t really have one

16: Favourite place

the couch in my mom’s office I guess? (my mom works from home so it’s really just another couch at the house lol)

17: Favourite food

pasta, shrimp, tacos (w/ ground beef), potato anything (but especially potato skins)

20: First thing I notice in new person

depends on who they are I guess? like how they present themselves. sometimes their hair. sometimes their face. sometimes their clothes

24: Favourite style of clothing classy goth

25: Ever done a prank call? a looooong time ago

27: Meaning behind my URL

It’s a Klapollo fanfic. You can find it here

28: Favourite movie Battle Royale and Heathers

29: Favourite song

I’m gonna say Under You and The Difference both by Nick Jonas bc I listen to them A LOT

30: Favourite band

I listen to waaaay too many bands to just pick one lol. Mindless Self Indulgence, Papa Roach, and I’ve been listening to a lot of Twenty One Pilots lately

31: How I feel right now worried

32: Someone I love

@chibi-n00b (cousin-ly love! ^_^)

33: My current relationship status single

34: My relationship with my parents

pretty good. they’re supportive of me and try to help me out so

35: Favourite holiday

Christmas when I have enough money to buy my friends gifts

Answered 36 & 37 See previous post

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

My friend introduced me to it, so I tried it out. I got really into it though whenever Homestuck came out

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? no :^)

41: Have I ever kissed the last person I texted?

I’ve kissed my dad on the cheek. anywhere else would be weird

42: When did I last hold hands? ice skating a couple of weeks ago

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

an hour- an hour and a half?

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

don’t call me out like this...No because I don’t tend to shave in the winter unless I have someone to shave for (if you know what I mean)

45: Where am I right now? on the couch in my mom’s office

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

lol I don’t get that drunk. No matter how much I drink, I can always stand and walk.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

I like my music pretty loud. Unless someone is doing work or something then I’ll keep it down or put headphones in

49: Am I excited for anything? I’m excited to graduate and get a job?

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? not really

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Robert Downey Jr.

57: What do I think about most? i’m gonna be cheesy and say love or some shit. Love.

58: What’s my strangest talent? answered

59: Do I have any strange phobias? answered60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? usually behind (unless i’m taking a selfie lol)

61: What was the last lie I told? I can’t remember since I don’t like to lie so I avoid doing so

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? I’d rather just talk on the phone63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? answered64: Do I believe in magic? *shrugs*65: Do I believe in luck? sure. not like it favors me tho66: What's the weather like right now? wet from rain last night, cloudy, looks like it could rain some more67: What was the last book I've read? I don’t remember

69: Do I have any nicknames? Linds, Rae

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? yes!73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? a reese amiibo74: Favourite animal? bunnies! (and stingrays. also i love all animals)75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? wondering why more people don’t like my instagram photos :’) especially the people who i want to see them

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? answered78: How can you win my heart? giving me positive attention, genuinely caring about what I have to say, wanting to know more about me, inviting me to things, tagging me in stuff that reminds you of me, wishing me well idk79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? “wah”80: What is my favorite word? hope81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr it changes all the time bc i spam reblog from all of my friends82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? nothing!

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? 

I’ll answer just about anything truthfully. I overshare all the time so it’s not like I have anything to hide lol

87: Had sex? yes88: Bought condoms? no. i make other people do that.89: Gotten pregnant? no90: Failed a class? i failed math this past semester :)91: Kissed a boy? yes92: Kissed a girl? yes93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yes but not romantically like in the movies or some shit94: Had job? yea i was a lifeguard and a hostess95: Left the house without my wallet? yea :’)96: Bullied someone on the internet? no97: Had sex in public? no98: Played on a sports team? answered99: Smoked weed? yea100: Did drugs? ^^^ that’s it101: Smoked cigarettes? no102: Drank alcohol? yea103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no104: Been overweight? no105: Been underweight? no106: Been to a wedding? a loooong time ago. i can’t remember it107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? yea108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yea109: Been outside my home country? yea. I’ve been to Canada, the Netherlands, Germany, France, and Belgium.110: Gotten my heart broken? yea111: Been to a professional sports game? yea112: Broken a bone? nope113: Cut myself? no114: Been to prom? yea115: Been in airplane? yea116: Fly by helicopter? no117: What concerts have I been to? too many to list118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yea119: Learned another language? yea. I’ve studied French, Mandarin Chinese, and Japanese120: Wore make up? yea121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? no. i was 19122: Had oral sex? yea123: Dyed my hair? yea124: Voted in a presidential election? first one 2016 :’)125: Rode in an ambulance? no126: Had a surgery? only to remove my wisdom teeth127: Met someone famous? yea128: Stalked someone on a social network? >_> guilty as charged129: Peed outside? yea130: Been fishing? yea131: Helped with charity? yea132: Been rejected by a crush? lol funny story. every time I was “rejected” said person turned around and was like nevermind wanna go out and then i’ve been like lol no133: Broken a mirror? no

140: Where do I want to live when older? preferably in pittsburgh. but i’d live somewhere else if my partner wanted to

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? I have faint ones on my palm from scraping it against asphalt when I tripped in the rain during marching band practice lol

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? i’ve gotten caught fooling around *hides face in shame*

149: What my greatest achievements are

being pretty smart in high school. that’s it.

152: What do I like about myself idk. i like myself sometimes but i couldn’t really tell you why153: My closest Tumblr friend i have too many to pick just one154: Something I fantasize about

finding a forever partner, getting married, having pets together, and being happy? lol

[dearest-bloggu]

My Draco and my Rhysand

Hello Bloggu, I hope you’re not mad that I change your name. I mean, we’re way past pleasantries and I guess you’re indeed a dear one for me, so there dearest.

Anyway, I found myself contemplating lately. Obviously, about the heartbreaks in my life. Seeing that the latest one came from a one-month relationship, I’m a little bit sceptical and ashamed and much more repressing my hurt in this one, since well, its only a month old. Shouldn’t hurt much, right? But then my dear old dad saves me by saying that

“No, of course you’re hurt. It’s your feelings. At the very least, you trusted him not to hurt you. And that betrayal, hurts. It’s okay”

I proceed then to explain that maybe what hurts the most was about how I thought lychee checked all the boxes of my type of potential lover and how sad it is that we’re not meant to be. Which lead to the discussion on where should I find my Rhysand, my Draco, really?

I’ve honestly tried all the types out there. The academics (3 times), the jocks (3 times), even the holy-er than thou (2-3 times? Never last long with those lol). But in the end, or probably since I haven’t met the ‘right’ one, they always found something within me that is contradicting with how they ideally saw me at first and found that... they can’t accept that. It was a kind of mindfuck, truly.

I’m obviously intelligent, and speaks fluent sarcasm, and even more fluent english. I honestly love words (both bahasa or english or whatever others) and I READ TO LIVE. Not eat, but read. I honestly wouldn’t last long with anyone who can’t understand my sarcasm or me who use english on a daily basis, but could also swear fluently in japanese, and does understand and quite well-versed on literature, Indonesian or not.

I have friends with tattoos all over, friends who previously jailed years because of drugs, those who smoke and drink and dance like their life depends on it, another who are heads of executives on various organization (NGOs, universities, companies), or friends who took their bachelor or master abroad and are ambitious geniuses, or literal artists that paints and writes for a living, and many others.

Is it so hard for anyone to accept the idea that there is a girl who

Loves drinking and dancing in a club, or sit quietly and listening to someone playing guitar while camping somewhere, or just sleeping and cuddling in bed with favorite playlist on speaker, or watching movies in cinema-with and without popcorns, or cooking together, or travel to new places, or shopping when the money is available.

Enjoys jazz, rock, alternative rock, pop, reggae, or movie soundtracks. Die-hard fanatic of Taylor Swift and Avril Lavigne.

Watched Harry Potter, LOTR, Fast and Furious series, DISNEY OF COURSE HOW COULD YOU NOT, and many many barbie movies. Some cheesy romcoms also appreciated.

Wear comfortable oversized T-shirt one day and fitted mini dress another day, yet absolutely able to rock that chic office outfit with blazer and pencil skirt, also loves to steal boys clothes, for wear.

Took care to always buy safe and well-reviewed make-up products, perfumes, hair treatment products (include the coloring), even when it is quite costly.

Happy to eat streetfood cost around 10k per person yet also willing to indulge an eating splurge of 200k per person, or just that particular guilty pleasure 50k black yoghurt.

Honestly couldn’t care less about motorcycles or cars and would likely force anyone to walk with her (literal walking) from time to time.

Obsess with piercings and tattoos and dyed-hair and all that jazz. Yes. Obssessed. 100% likely to get all three (two out of three checked).

Seriously in love with Jesus, is constantly listening to worship songs. Worship is lyfe.

I mean, am I that contradictory?

The academically-driven would always, ALWAYS have problems with the piercings and drinking and late-night outings, and short clothes, obviously tattoos. Sometimes I wonder why they even willing to be within a metre of me since most of the time my damn hair have crazy colors such as green and blue and purple and red, which honestly shouldn’t project the goody two shoes image they somehow imagine I am. The jocks and the street guys would ALWAYS unable to understand my full english rant, or sing-a-long to my disney songs, or understand that yes I want that damn expensive perfume because I love the smell but that doesn’t mean I forgot to save money for my future. The holier than thou? They just can’t stop nagging me to listen when the priest preached the more money more blessing bullshit, or the avoid sin then you’ll be save and happy in heaven later bullshit. They just can’t see how self-absorbed those teaching were and then proceed to cast me out as a nonbeliever, or a scam. They never know how I honestly swear to God believe and love Jesus (even though not perfectly yet) and I do live my life for Him, just because I don’t listen in church. Sometimes it even gets better, when they got in a situation they don’t like and proceed to be angry with God. Like I’m sorry what? Where is the logic in that? Didn’t you just say that your life belongs to Him? If so, shut the fuck up and be grateful you daft bimbo. You have absolutely no right to be angry, and that just show how shallow the faith runs in you.

So tell me, other than all those types, which others I should try? Wherever should I look for? My Rhysand, my Draco, my Rowan. After all these time, honestly? I’m tired. Tired to get to know another while always waiting for the shoe to drop. Which part of me they’ll hate and unable to compromise with and proceed to leave, or resent me daily for that part. Yippie.