#i’m just whining

[justnat15]

I don’t like this whole still dark outside when I go to work thing.

[disco-tea]

Sometimes I worry my writing is often too depressing and “raw” but also I know if I pull any punches emotionally then it wouldn’t be as genuine. It would cheapen it to me. Feel like I didn’t fully explored the depth of the characters emotions or pain or whatever it is they’re going through. Because to me, there’s nothing more frustrating and abysmal then a story that refuses to let itself be genuine, that lets it’s characters go to the brink of an emotion but not truly cross the line, or not cross the line as fully as they could have. I would rather read (or write) a story that’s depressing and raw then a story where the characters are indifferent to each other. Indifference just feels…empty, to me.

[kazemi-archive]

my current issue is that sometimes when i’m tired of having boobs bc they’re annoying is i’ll just like hold them like lift them up so it’s like less weight on my chest for a minute. but my boobs each def weigh more than a pound and i’m not allowed to life things more than a pound or i could displace my arm fracture and…. i just want the weight relief for a min goddamn

[dark-mnjiro]

I’m so sad and lonely and cold.

I need Shin to cheer me up. 🥺

I just know he would cuddle with me without even being asked.

[lil-cattz]

what does a girl gotta do to get random people to give her money for nothing

[poiiison]

man why did i have to eat led paint chips and get sexually abuse i could’ve been a stem graduate by now

[luvrxbunny]

hating tumby rn cus they posted a story i was really excited about like…

5 weeks too early so i hid it but i feel like they’ve dirtied her up by sending her out before she was ready

and two people saw it

i feel like they were staring at my naked baby

[awheelywheelygoodtime]

I hate seeing DC comics trending on this app because I know it’s nothing but batfam, batfam, batfam, fucking batfam.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with it and I have no right to dictate other peoples interests but sheer overexposure tends to rankle after a time. 

[eddiessidegirl]

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idk today was ok, i did get some cool beads, coffee and i had a comfort meal but i am still disappointed that no one close to me thought to celebrate with me. i had hope that someone might still call or text or come over but it’s 815pm now and i’m about to go to bed soon.

maybe it’s for the best that people don’t reach out. is it lonely? yes. but at least there’s no set preconceived notions about expectations they have for me.

[artschoolglasses]

Americans not giving a shit about the wildfires burning down forests and homes in Canada until smoke starts spreading across the border. Meanwhile Indigenous communities across the country are far more likely to be impacted by the fires and I’ve seen all of one link to a charity and about nine million memes. 🙃

[charliesopus]

One day my well of trust will be completely bone-dry and I gotta admit I’m kinda looking forward to it, then I won’t have to question if I can talk to anyone. 👌

[vitos-ordination-song]

This is just feeling sorry for myself lol but imagine if my creativity had ever been nurtured and I had a life paved out for me and I had the social skills and connections to know other creatives and collaborate and be intellectually stimulated

[emeraldcreeper]

I never assume a probably quite nosy like 6ish year old boy will end up sleeping in the room I stay in and what happens? Oh this Thursday and Friday he’s coming over and staying the night Thursday night, as if I even like dealing with kids, as if I don’t have a migraine and like he can’t sleep on the air mattress, as if I don’t have my shit in there that a kid can’t and shouldn’t be close to

For context I’m freeloading until I solve my chronic migraine pain problems then get a job that’ll pay at least some rent and move out, I’m borrowing a guest room basically, it was my dead grandpas after he stole it from me because I seemed capable of holding down a job for a couple years there, and then he died in 2021 and I moved back in in January and the 6ish year old used to sleep there when his parents decided to dump him on my mom and my grandma, ergo I must hide my shit so a little kid doesn’t mistake my meds or other things for stuff that’s cool to touch or mess with. I realize how much of an only child I sound like but Jesus he’s fucking little and probably damn nosy, I don’t wanna find out how damn nosy by him poisoning himself off my Advil stash or some shit

[luneariann]

Established skk my beloved

[funhouse-mirror-barbie]

JK Row-Row straight up said “I can excuse a child-rapist being allowed to compete in the olympics, but I draw the line at letting a cis woman that doesn’t fit into my hyper-specific idea of what a woman should be compete!!!”

[ask-the-colony-tree-siblings]

Hey, Hunter!

Aside from the chronic back pain, what other long lasting symptoms did you have from the Rot, if any?

((Okay! So my attempt to answer this somehow developed into a rant about Hunter’s characterization so… here you go lol.))

So I have to answer this on Hunter’s behalf, because part of his character is that he doesn’t like to admit any sort of weakness. Apart from chronic pain, I essentially just gave him the symptoms of low iron. He gets light headed and dizzy, and he is often tired or low energy. 

Hunter has this mindset that being weak, or showing weakness makes you useless. (I wonder what could have possibly made him develop that way of thinking. Surely nothing to do with the way he was raised and treated growing up.) Keep in mind, Hunter’s very logical logic only applies to him. He wouldn’t judge Survivor for not being strong, Hunter just has unhealthy expectations of himself that definitely aren’t realistic anymore with his post-rot symptoms, and were never actually that realistic to begin with.

He has a habit of ignoring his own symptoms, and pretending to be perfectly fine when he isn’t. He’d never admit it if his chronic pain is making it difficult for him to function properly. 

(His physical health is one thing, but don’t even get me started on how Hunter views his mental health lmao.)

Uhhh anyways bonus light headed/dizzy Hunter: