#i'm attempting to catch up

[mattodore]

pets him

[sysig]

Don’t be silly! Okay, be a little silly (Patreon)

[houseofborgia]

It's so bittersweet that Juan was the only one who felt Cesare's constant pain, and he was glad he found something to relate to with his brother, with a relieved smile. He found solace in the fact that he could empathize with him as he endured pain all the time as well, albeit for different reasons. I wonder if he ever knew whether Cesare's suffering stemmed from being trapped in a cardinal's robe and not having a career as a soldier. Also, you can see the frustration and conflict on Cesare's face, as if he doesn't want to kill his brother but he has to since Juan became a liability and would eventually bring the family down with him, especially after Juan's descent into addiction, illness, and madness. Cesare is driven by the desire to preserve the family and because he wanted Juan's undeserved position as a Gonfaloniere. All in all, these two tormented brothers were trapped in their father's vicious cycle of favoritism and ambitions, which caused the tragic ending of their brotherhood when they could have been brothers in arms.

[vynnyal]

Btw I'm basically speedrunning now

[svtskneecaps]

here's how it goes:

everyone spends valentine's day in DEEP denial. tubbo isn't dead, he CAN'T be. when they die they come back, that's how it is, how it's ALWAYS been. the island is hell but at least fatalities don't stick, except in specific cases and all of them in the same white shells. of course philza jokes, he's thinking about tubbo, he can't stop. he's expecting tubbo to jump out at any moment, he's expecting to go to fobo and see tubbo hidden in the basement throwing darts at a picture of fit and pac looking at each other, he's expecting to go back to the dungeon and the body is gone (he hopes). tubbo's not dead. he can't die. none of them can, just the eggs.

(it never takes this long to come back; he knows something is wrong)

here's how it goes:

tubbo tells the kids "i'm on my last life." the eggs have always had lives. i don't think some of them have ever understood that the players have infinite chances, with their insistence on protecting their caretakers from deaths like their caretakers do for them, charging back into the eye worker war, refusing to back out of a dangerous dungeon before their parents do, wanting to protect. i don't know if they understand that to the players, death is like spit in the face: unpleasant, sure, but no big deal.

tubbo tells the kids "i'm on my last life" and of course they believe him. death is their constant companion, no more than two doors down. some eggs are used to it being a breath away.

here's how it goes:

tubbo is dead. the children mourn him. the players are scared. defiant. they always are. who among them has died? dan, missing; spreen, gone; maximus... well there was no body, no announcement, surely-

(how long did it take pierre to accept it? to realize it? to take down the missing person posters? not a day. not a day.)

juanaflippa died and there was a court case to save her. bobby died and the whole server journeyed to save him. when is the last time the players have taken death lying down?

here's how it goes:

tubbo dies, and he dies unloved (fit's arm is stretched out to save him). he dies without purpose (sunny is there, she's waiting, she knows he won't move). he dies and no one cares (chayanne refuses to leave, his godfather, he failed his-)

here's how it goes:

the valentine's party is so loud but too quiet. there's a name in the air, even when no one is saying it

"wow sure is good tubbo isn't here" phil says (he's said this before, he'll say it again, but isn't it strange how many times? perhaps even he doesn't believe it. perhaps he's trying to convince himself.)

here's how it goes:

a creature with too many faces comes. it tells them the truth they won't face. tubbo is gone.

quesadilla island says, "not for long"

[kingofattolia]

Cody and Crosshair are SO lowkey displeased to be working together. They are so professionally disgruntled. Both of them are silently comparing the other to the Good Old Days and finding him wanting.

[boyfrillish]

The other day, I was going through my Switch screenshots from Sword to try to find something else and remembered all of the Emotional Pain™ from up until the Final battle lmao

Anyway, yes, these two sillies still give me All The Feels in all the ways, for like 8 whole months and counting now. The OTP ever

[thefiresofpompeii]

look, i'm sorry for being basic and having the same opinions as everyone else on earth, but rewatching the star beast now in a completely different mindframe than i had going in contextless in november and the introduction + title sequence has gotten me more hyped than . again, i'm sorry, and i won't put this in her tags to avoid negativity. than all of thirteen's era put together. :(

[mymarifae]

i’m a bit late to the party but i’m on artfight hi let’s throw rocks (drawings) at each other and have so much fun okay? yay!

[mattodore]

this is what i was doing in the sims the other day 😁

[eryth-arts]

Kirbytober Day 2 - Partners

...Yes this is 11 days late :’)

[pigeon-noises]

Some Genshin sketches while I wait for 3.5... 

[shirogane-oushirou]

me: i think i'm gonna try to log off for my mental health ^_^

me: and by that i mean spend multiple days straight cleaning out my very first tumblr blog so i can back it up bc tumblr utils keeps getting stuck halfway through <3 <- dying and perishing and passing away

[17yearcicada]

i should not have acknowledged to myself that i'm doing bad i feel even worse now actually. it's okay i got dressed and ate something so there is that...

[filet-o-feelings]

My AO3 inbox is finally empty and I'm done with work until Tuesday, so maybe* I will actually catch up on tumblr tags and perhaps** even do a little writing.

Oh and I WILL get to everyone's trees, I'm just overthinking what to write so everyone's probably gonna end up with a short and generic message because ANXIETY but do know I put my whole heart into that short generic message ❤️

[forensicated]

Dear self,

Instead of remembering "I need to do such and such...." in the middle of doing something else you've just remembered that you needed to do, perhaps it might be easier to actually complete the job you're doing on the moment and then move onto the next and complete it too before starting anymore...

Might actually find things get done then!