#i'm fine just. frustrated

[coffeebanana]

once my little brother was upset about something (and at the time was probably 3 or 4) so he said "I used to have a good day" and i actually think that was very wise of him. like same dude. same

[thebibliosphere]

Dysautonomia is so wild.

You'll just be vibing and chilling, and your nervous system will go, "Hey, can't help but notice you ate a little more food than usual; we're gonna have to shut everything else down and direct all the blood in your body to your stomach," and suddenly you're lying on the floor with your legs elevated and a heart rate of 140 because your body doesn't body so good.

[uncanny-tranny]

The whole "humans are inherently awful and bad!" spiel is so tiring to me as a survivor of abuse because it comes off as abuse apologia. If humans are inherently awful, then why should it matter if you're abused - that's what humans do best! Like, genuinely, I think this mindset can harm abuse victims/survivors because they're being inundated with this idea that, well, how bad can their abuser be? All humans are horrific, why complain, why escape, and why try to resist it?

I really wish people would critically analyze where these ideas come from and where these lines of thinking can lead. Maybe it's a matter that I'm looking too deep into, but this very bleak ideology is not going to help in the long run, I think, and some of the first people who are going to be crushed by it are the people who are vulnerable or who are put in vulnerable positions in society.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

[zoobus]

Love when you can tell an artist is having fun

[antianakin]

I'll never understand how some fans are so incredibly willing to just be okay with "it happened in a timeskip" to excuse bad writing lol. Like "oh yeah these two characters who have been enemies for like four seasons of a TV show had their entire reconciliation OFF SCREEN in the time skip between episodes right at the end so it works" or "oh yeah this character who was left basically broken had their entire growth and development where they came to terms with the thing that broke them in the time skip so it works" kind of stuff. Like that's literally the ENTIRE emotional climax of a story that's been building for a while and you're FINE with not getting to actually SEE IT???

Can't relate.

[cleradinel]

maybe bylers can be forgiven for the overall sentiment (far from being everyone’s though) of indifference or dislike towards steve/eddie/steddie when everyone and their mother started pretending eddie spent the whole season gay pinning in gay despair when will byers is right there and steddie was the talk of the town when the byler storyline has been happening for 4 whole seasons and steve was put at the very top of the gay ally pedestal when jon has been the most supportive brother since the beggining. maybe, just maybe it was okay for will byers lovers & byler lovers to be a little pissed. everyone and their mother is a dramatic way of me saying, maybe the actual mlm love story in the show being overshadowed by a wildly spread headcanon rubbed us the wrong way and maybe it’s okay to feel like that, even just a tiny bit, or a whole lot.

[fortyfive-forty]

grabbing fistfuls of my own hair rocking back and forth repeating to myself like some kind of fucked up wizardly enchantment you should care about womens sports because its literally the same fucking sport why do i have to bend over backwards to convince you to care about womens sports like at an abstract level it is the exact same fucking thing and yet you cannot bear to possibly watch it unless you think the women are hot or there is some sort of social gain why is it so hard for you to care about womens sports when they are literally doing all of it better than the men

[scoliosisgoblin]

Which version of Rick is your fav?

it's so hard for me to choose tbh. HOWEVER, I'd say Evil Rick

then I'd say it's C-137 and Memory Rick

I love how pathetic™ Evil Rick really is tbh. love that he's being controlled by his Morty. can you guess who my favorite Morty is?

[pastafossa]

Ok. TRT business and a question, cause I need feedback from readers at this point.

First: the final chapter of the Raven What If fic should be posted this week, I'm about done editing it. The bigger, much more important question: So I have a potential chapter for tomorrow. I've been worrying and fretting over posting it, not because I think it's bad, but because it's short by TRT standards, currently around 2k words, and it both frustrates me and makes me feel weirdly guilty at the thought of dropping what's so much less than my usual. I'm used to being able to write longer chapters, being able to squeeze everything I want into them, and I have a literal outline of this goddamn chapter that has this good stuff in it and I know what needs to be written. I can see it right there. The movie is playing in my head just fine. But the truth of it is, my writing is slow at the moment thanks to post-covid brain fog. I'm checking in with my doctor, I've started taking specific supplements (which I'm hoping to see results from in the next few weeks), I'm clawing my way back bit by bit, but I continue to write slowly, mostly because I either can't focus or I have to stop every few sentences to struggle with a word I can't remember. It's incredibly frustrating. The thing is though, at least I *am* writing, which gives me hope. But this is where you - the readers - come in. Because right now we have two possible paths for updates going forward for a bit. Option 1: Longer gaps between our usual chapters. If we go this road, it'll take longer but as I chip away, I'll eventually have the full planned chapter, which I'd post. This would be a chapter closer to what we've had most weeks for the past oh god like 2 years. At current speed I'd drop it in a few weeks, and then hopefully the next one would come a little faster, until eventually we're back to our usual. So basically, you'd get your big chunks when the updates do come, and the same natural endpoints and arcs as before. Drawback is obviously the time between updates, so you won't be fed as often (though I'd try to find things in my editing folder to clean up and drop, like the Raven fic).

Option 2: Shorter chapters but more regular updates. If we go this road, we'd be back to weekly updates of our adventures with Matt and Jane. There'd just be less than usual for a bit and then, hopefully as I improve, you'll see the word count begin to climb back up. So in this case, you'd be getting a weekly dose of TRT, the usual fluff and angst and action, but the catch is less overall to read (likely individual scenes rather than multiples), and potentially sudden endpoints/more cliffhangers as I 'end' at what was outlined as a scene change.

Which way I go will mostly depend on ya'll tbh. I think I can make either work, since I've managed to start writing a little again and I really, really am hoping the supplements help. But since this'll potentially alter the update schedule we've had for years, I wanted to see which you'd prefer.

So, Option One - longer gaps but long chapters - or Option Two - shorter chapters weekly. Which would you prefer?

[paradoxgavel]

ngl having a banner on your art post that says "if you like but don't reblog, i will block you" is the fastest way to ensure I don't interact with your art at all

[daz4i]

the cool thing about headcanons is they're all correct. there's no point in arguing over them because we all bring ourselves and our own lives into our perception of characters and stories. peace and love on planet earth

[t-800]

there's this thing of like.. i've accepted that i'm "weird" and not like most people and that i'm being my true and honest self that way but it never stops feeling alienating. i never stop feeling like i'm doing it all wrong and that gutting myself and bleeding out would be easier than trying to have people actually understand me. anyway

[le-velo-pour-dru]

My mom is frustrating me so much rn oh my god‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[moonchild-in-blue]

*through gritted teeth and holding back the urge to punch a wall*

I love my parents and family is important and the holidays should be fun and they will pass soon. I love my parents and family is important and the holidays should be fun and they will pass soon. I love my parents and family is important and-

[raelle-writing]

You know, I think in the quest to keep Ao3 uncensored, we've lost our ability to have a conversation about dark content and it's place in the world.

Every time people talk about X kind of dark content, it turns into a debate about whether or not Ao3 should be censored or should remove that content, and it's deeply frustrating to me. Because cognitive dissonance is a thing, people. The phrases "we shouldn't censor Ao3" and "that content shouldn't exist" are not mutually exclusive. They can both be true.

And in our quest to maintain Ao3 as a place that is censor-free, we absolutely should not start to give a pass to certain kinds of dark content just existing without criticism.

The only way to consume dark content in a healthy manner is by thinking about it and engaging with it critically. If you don't do that, then you're just glorifying violence and participating in romanticizing it. We need to still be able to have conversations about why dark content is problematic without just being "well Ao3 shouldn't censor it, end of conversation."