#i'm just a girl who teaches yoga for fun

[mykingdomforasong]

Nessian "enemies" to lovers modern au ("enemies" in a deeply unserious, and also very one-sided way) set at a gym where they both teach classes. Cassian teaches a kick-boxing class after Nesta's pilates class.

Cassian keeps inviting her to stay and join his kick-boxing class, teasing her a little, trying to convince her to stick around, etc. And her read of the situation is that he's some gym bro who doesn't think pilates and dance are that hard and is trying to show her a "real" workout. This has happened to her plenty of times before with other men. She mostly ignores him, because she's tired of going through this.

Finally, she agrees to take his class if he takes her pilates class first. She's got something to prove, so she makes class a little harder than usual. By the end, he's half-dead on the reformer, and she's smug. "Not so easy is it?"

"No, but it was a lot of fun! I might join your class more often, if that's okay?"

"You ... enjoyed it?"

"Oh yeah, I used to do pilates and yoga with my friend Mor all the time, but fell off a few years ago."

"So you ... knew it wasn't going to be some super easy class for girls?"

"No why would I --" and then the lights finally go on in his brain, and he realizes how he's looked from her point of view for the last few months. He's instantly so apologetic just, "You thought I was making fun of you for four months? Oh, I'm so sorry, no that's my fault. I should have been more clear. I just know you're a dancer. I thought you might enjoy the cardio work out."

Nesta is just rubbing her temples, trying to process this whole situation. "So you're not a giant tool, just some big, hot dummy?"

"You think I'm hot?"

It's maybe the worst day of her life, but she does goes home with him.

[luminouslywriting]

As a recent convert to the ladies who Brady crew, I love the idea of Brady wanting to learn more about his girl's interests. She loves Pilates? He's trying a class. She has a favorite author? He's checking out one of their books. She likes plants? Brady's always wanted a cactus! He would just be so cute and eager to share. 😊

Ahh this is darling so I just had to go on a slight rabbit hole for you Nonny! Because you're so right and he's such a supportive guy! Cut for length :) And keep sending me stuff, this is so much fun! Some light spice mentions below the cut!

-John Brady is above all things, a supportive man—and when it comes to you, he just adores you. Worships the ground that you walk on, thinks that you're prettier than starlight and more important to him than the sun is to the life of earth.

-That being said, if you have a hobby or an interest, he is running with it at full-force and attempting to make it a bonding experience.

-You want to get into art? Babe, he is finding some local art classes and trying his hand at it. Now I don't think he's all that great at drawing....but painting? He absolutely is great at it! I imagine he's really into painting landscapes and finds a lot of comfort and peace in it!

-This maybe leads to some more precarious moments between the two of you....paint fights that turn into messy sex is absolutely on the table haha

-You want to get into hiking or rock climbing? GREAT! He loves being outside and in nature and fitness is pretty important to him! So he's gonna be your hiking buddy for sure! -He absolutely would carry your water for you and make sure that HE has the backpack because he wants you to just have a good time and be able to enjoy nature.

-Rock climbing might be a little more worrisome to him but he loves getting to spend time with you and he really enjoys watching the way that you concentrate so fully on something. It's definitely a turn on for him.

-Oh you like photography? He might be a little bashful, but he's absolutely your muse and he's going to get in on the action

-This definitely means there are a few risqué photos of you that only his eyes have ever seen haha

-Yoga? HOT YOGA

-You want to get into sports? Fantastic! He definitely did a few things in high school and he's a decent enough athlete that he can pull off an average performance in some of the sports he's not as well-acquainted with

-Definitely takes advantage of trying to show you how to golf, or how to hold a tennis racket or baseball bat though haha

-Archery? I'M THINKING OF THE SCENE WHERE MIA AND NICHOLAS FROM PRINCESS DIARIES 2 PRACTICE ARCHERY

-I had to include the gif haha

-You want to get into baking or cooking? He's going to have the time of his life making food with you and it's the most wholesome domestic thing

-Definitely gets a little heated in the kitchen if you know what I mean

-You're into gardening? Great! He loves gardens and wants to make sure you have your favorite flowers or your favorite plants!! And he always surprises you with new plants!

-You're into reading or writing? He's going to read whatever books you like after you read them, or he's going to suggest to you some of his favorites.

-And if you're a writer then he's going to read everything you write and hypes you up! He's also going to be honest about his opinions and tell you what he thinks could be better (in the best and most constructive way)

-You like dancing? BABY, he will take you dancing every weekend and has the time of his life when he does!

-Board games is a hobby? He gets so competitive when it comes to Scrabble, it's not even funny

-You play a different instrument than him or you like to sing? AMAZING!! He's going to ask you to teach him about your instrument and that might get a little heated haha.

-Would absolutely harmonize your favorite songs with you because I think he has a great voice!

-You're into collecting things? Be it baseball cards, butterflies, coins, stamps, whatever it is—he's going to get in on it and try to find you the ones you're missing!

-An academic?? He adores that about you and will try to read up and learn about your favorite field of study, be it history, science, or whatever it is!

-Anywho....I could go on forever and ever, but these are just a few general things that I think he'd be like when it comes to your interest and hobbies

[futanariwriter]

Bangga Beast Master Ch.2

January 04, 2023

Ch.2 Talking with Cassandra 

Before doing anything dramatic I talked to my sons mom about how to best go about helping him learn how to get women to like him. She said that Snakes mate by dancing for each-other, so I thought we better go get some dance lessons from the professionals. Me their Dad Aranea "<The-Electro-Dragon>" who used to be a DJ figure in my small coastal village where I was raised before the conflict broke out. "I am glad I talked to your mom or we'd be doing yoga and lifting weights and swimming". Since you have four arms like me don't forget to remember to use them while dancing, it can really make for some interesting dance moves that will really get the ladies." "Dad stop!!!" Nyuu quipped " I'm always doing the four armed cabbage patch cause I get gangster like that and I gotta show it!" "Could you be any more embarassing dad?" Nyuu said embarrassed to his dad. "Come on now, when I was your age my dad was trying to teach me the sprinkler..." 

"That explains alot" Nyuu quickly Quipped tiring of their parents lessons on adulthood. They were camping out in the forest having a couple of tamales that his mom had prepared for him especially for this spiritual quest to help Nyuu become an adult which they had undertaken. 

"So Nyuu are there any special girls at your school you like?" Said Aranea 

Even though he was home-schooled he still went to a regular academy on Terra once or twice a week to get the "social experience" of being with other Tweens. "I'm not sure I like anyone dad, what is the meaning of life anyway?" He said deeply. 

"I don't know" said Aranea plainly. "what I do know is that sometimes life is hard and things don't always go your way, but that's when you have to be firm to life and say to it 'your my bitch life! I'm gonna make you my fucking bitch Life!'" said Aranea. Thanks Dad!" said Nyuu as they sat and looked at the fire fire with the stars looking out over top of them in the night sky. 

When they got home (after a few days Terra time) Nyuus mother Cassandra was happy to see them return safely as the forest was filled with Bandits and Demons. "So how was it?" She said curiously as to the nature of her sons growing maturity. " I would say we learned alot about girls and just alot about everything. Hugh, Nyuu?" 

"yeah, thanks dad!" they said to their mom and ran up to his room to play/program video-games I grabbed Cassandras scaly tail and kissed her, her split tongue caressing mine as I caressed her breast and fingered her wet cobra slit. 

That night we scissored like the first night we made love with her and my other two lovers, who I spent just as much time with. None of them were jealous types so it all worked as long as I showed up to give them my love at least once a day. The next morning I was off to the Where-wolf Navis house to Visit my son Din-Din, when I noticed the full moon was coming up later that night. During these astrological happenings she needed to be satisfied especially vigorously...it was always fun though I tried keeping her tied up and locked in a metal box but she always managed to break free. I guess that's just what I get for trying to tame a majestic creature like the Where-Wolf. Though her all out nymphomania could not overcome my Foot-long Dragon Cock!

    Loretta was very into Maid play and ironically cooked some really good food too(especially her Gyoza and home-brewed Saki). Not to mention she had a really tight Ass as well, as tight as anybody could ever hope wreck! I always loved to watch as it puffed out Hemorrhoidal after my Dragon Cock destroyed her "Beautiful Red Lotus" as she called it. I say I wrecked it, but our sex life was full of love and I ate her out for hours sometimes and was not greedy by any means.

[evobedevo]

Question from SwordSparks:

"Do you have any family?"

EVELYN:

"Yup~"

"My dad is an archeologist, my mom is a clothing designer and a yoga instructor, and my older sister works for a graphics company, but she does cartography as a hobby...seriously. She's actually really extroverted and a bit of a thrill seeker."

Fun fact, Evelyn is the first character I've drawn the entire family of. Yes, she gets this prestigious claim before any of my "main" OC's.

I was hoping to reach this piece soon, since I actually have quite a bit to divulge about these admittedly relatively minor OC's. 

Though that does mean that they might become more than just background characters since I have a lot to write about.

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Faustin:

Evelyn's dad, a French born Quebec resident, is an archeologist by trade. He's also a full time classic "dad" dad. Bad jokes, wise advice, supportive and comforting aura, the works. Evelyn was admittedly the most terrified of telling him about her being trans, but he took it in stride. 

He's the main reason the family has those squared off spiral shaped trinkets on their outfits, he found them on an expedition and while they were being studied, were found to be relatively recent and designated as "junk." So he was allowed to take them home. 

I'm not spoiling what they do, but they ARE actually rather important~

Olympia:

Evelyn's mom is French Creole, from a marsh just outside of Baton Rouge. She and Faustin met during college, her parents sending her up to Quebec to find better opportunities. She was studying fashion design, and managed to graduate with the experience to open up her own little shop around the area where she designs her own outfits. It's decently popular, though she hopes to expand her business soon and is always on the hunt for new designs. On the side, she also teaches yoga. Personality wise, she's definitely the more energetic of Evelyn's parents, and was one of the first people she came to about being trans. She was fully on board from the start, and admittedly she sometimes goes a bit overboard in making her feel like a proper girl by using Evelyn as a pseudo model to test her new ideas. Evelyn doesn't mind TOO much.

Aurora:

Evelyn's older sister, who works for a company that specializes in graphic design and typographic logo's. Due to being the FIRST subject for her mom's obsessive fashion forward moments, she has an EXTENSIVE collection of outfits to choose from, and her beauty plus her sense of style means she's gotten a reputation around their hometown as the "popular girl who's way out of everyone's league". 

A stigma she admittedly hates, since it means people tend to be intimidated by her. In reality, she's a big dork and a genki girl at heart who loves adventure and exploring. Heck, one of her hobbies is cartography, and she has an innate sense of direction, mainly geographic. Evelyn is really the only other person who understands that her sister is actually quite the red oni as opposed to the blue oni that everyone sees her as, and thus is usually dragged into new adventures and expeditions with her. 

The fact that the family is 3 types of French is something I like to joke about, as Evelyn knows all 3 dialects and flips between them when speaking French with her family. 

[scary-senpai]

Fun with Symbolism: Gods & Monsters

So I’ve been wanting to do something about Garou’s posture/body + the symbolism for awhile (and I have, in bits and pieces, especially when it comes to his hands), and I’m actually glad I waited--it’s only gotten more interesting with his recent evolution.

In this panel, Garou’s arms evoke images of Hindu deities, often portrayed with multiple arms:

Hindu gods from Lakshmi to Ganesha to Saraswati are always depicted with four or more arms. They are two-armed only when they take mortal form, like Ram or Krishna. Four arms do what the halo did in Christian art — help the viewer quickly establish who is divine, who is supernatural, and who is worthy of veneration.

[Source:https://www.thehindu.com/society/history-and-culture/should-a-deity-have-two-arms-or-more/article36892166.ece]

Garou has 11 arms here... in my experience, most deities have an even number (4, 6, 8, or 10)... but then it made sense, when I considered it in context of the panels:

(Notice the Moon is watching here... nothing sus about that, I’m sure).

Garou has 11 hands for 11 techniques, because he’s about to come up with the 12th one: Monster Calamity God Slayer Fist. 

So, admittedly, I had to do a bit of research for the next part. I was certain that incarnations of Vishnu or Shiva or possibly Durga or Shakti (female consorts) had 12 arms... but actually I was wrong. It is quite an awful lot of arms to draw or sculpt. Still, I felt like I had seen that number somewhere and continued digging (and will continue to dig!) but so far I’ve only found one: Kartikeya/Lord Murugana. From Wikipedia:

Kartikeya symbolizes a union of polarities. He is handsome warrior and described as a celibate yogi. He uses his creative martial abilities to lead an army against Taraka and other demons, and described as a philosopher-warrior. He is a uniter, championing the attributes of both Shaivism (worship of Shiva as supreme deity) and Vaishnavism (worship of Vishnu as supreme deity)

Shiva and Vishnu represent two thirds of the Hindu trimurti-- or the 3 supreme deities that represent the cosmic forces of creation (Brahma), destruction (Shiva), and maintenance (Vishnu). They represent a lot more than that, but that’s the upshot.

Shiva (Destruction) and Vishnu (Maintenance/Preservation) have appeared in OPM before (literally spelled out as sound effects), which I wrote about here--but not Brahma, notably. Some schools actually worship Vishnu and Shiva as one entity--creation and destruction being viewed as two sides of the same coin--and Karikeya is similarly seen as a bridge between opposites.

Due to it being past my bedtime time constraints, I haven’t been able to do much research into Karikeya since this is the first time this concept has come up for me. But I did notice that Kartikeya is renown for victory over several major asuras (malevolent entities), which are (again from the Wikis!):

Asuras are a class of beings in Indic religions. [Asuras] are described as power-seeking clans related to the more benevolent Devas (also known as Suras) in Hinduism. In its Buddhist context, [Asura] is sometimes translated "titan", "demigod", or "antigod".

“Anti-god” is an interesting concept (also new to me) and I’m excited to look into this more.

As I’ve mentioned in the past, I’m a bit of a theology geek. I was raised Christian (but, like, the “Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God” type) so my yoga practice (which includes elements of Hinduism/Buddhism) has helped me process all the baggage that comes with spending your formative years believing you are damned for all time.

Something that I’ve been advised in my learning is that in the “West” (I use that term loosely; it’s complicated), we’re used to clean divisions between concepts like Good and Evil. Even though early Abrahamic religions were largely syncretic, incorporating elements from various belief systems, “Eastern” religious (again, not necessarily to over-generalize–it’s complex) like Buddhism/Hinduism don’t have such a divide. In fact, they emphasize and encourage non-duality (we’re all part of the ONE one), including the interconnectedness of all things, the illusion of individual identity, and ability to hold multiple, sometimes conflicting truths in the mind at once...

Wrathful deities, present in Buddhism and Hinduism, could be seen as one example of contradictory concepts manifesting in harmoy: From Wiki (again):

[Wrathful Deities] are protector deities who destroy obstacles to the Buddhas and the Dharma, act as guardians against demons and gather together sentient beings to listen to the teachings of the Buddhas. In Tantric Buddhism, they are considered to be fierce and terrifying forms of Buddhas and Bodhisattvas themselves. Enlightened beings may take on these forms in order to protect and aid confused sentient beings. They also represent the energy and power that is needed in order to transform negative mental factors into wisdom and compassion

Even deities of love and compassion, like the Buddha, can manifest in terrifying forms as needed. Thinking back to it, I’ve always viewed Garou as a kind of Wrathful deity, because he embodies these outwardly disparate ideas.

You know, it reminds me a little of this scene from an old sitcom, My Name is Earl.

Randy Hickey: But karma doesn't have fists.

Earl Hickey: You know what, you're right. Karma doesn’t have fists.

Randy Hickey: Karma doesn't have hands at all. Or feet. Does karma have feet?

Earl Hickey: Maybe karma's behind this whole thing, Randy. I mean the guy finally got what he deserved. Maybe karma just borrowed my fist to give it to him…Wow, karma used me to do its dirty work. Nice move, karma, nice move!

Getting back to Garou, though… Garou didn’t actually have multiple arms in the panel above—he just appeared that way, due to the speed at which he was moving, But later on, Garou does indeed evolve some extra arms:

I could probably find a panel where Garou looks less goofy, but I won’t >:)

As referenced in my earlier quote, multiple arms can mean divinity BUT, of course, it isn’t so simple as that. Psykorochi also has four arms, so does true form Sukuna in Jujutsu Kaisen, and he’s about as evil as they get… JJK is obviously a different fandom, but you get my point. Artistic license is a thing, which is why I like to call out parallels and potential areas of interest, but I hesitate to make predictions or claim I know what the author is thinking because I, an author, never quite know what I am thinking.

That’s the flip side to symbolism in art--symbolic images have a generally agreed-upon meaning, but human culture is so varied and diverse it’s rarely so simple as that. Sometimes a creator uses their artistic license to evoke elements of the divine, or the frightening, or the other-worldly and there’s no deeper meaning to it. My insurance card has a caduceus ☤on it, but I don’t think my insurance company intended this as an homage to Hermes Trismegistus or even just plain ol’ Hermes... I think they just needed something that looked doctor-ish to most people, and they picked this one--the weird sticky, snake-y thing with wings on it. So it goes with symbolism, sometimes.

That being said, though, Garou’s emotional progression over the course of the chapters has gone from more noble (if misguided) to downright angry. When he meets Saitama, he’s literally walking on water right alongside him, but by the end of this scene, well:

He’s literally a fallen angel with broken wings. And Murata only hammered that image home in the re-draws:

Assuming there’s some deeper, lore-informed artistic choice beyond the aesthetic, that would make more some interesting meta--particularly when it comes to Garou being “tempted” by God. If something (or someone) has already fallen (lost everything), it’s hard to tempt them in any meaningful way. Acting out of desperation isn’t a choice (although it is arguably a consequence).

I (like most people with a Christian background) probably think “Fallen Angel = Damned by their own life choices/only meant to serve as a bad example.” But in some traditions, particularly esoterica, fallen angels are a bit more complicated than that.

Some of my recent reading from The Hermetic Tradition (Julius Evola), touched on this:

some say that “the whole corpus of the ancient magico-hermetic sciences was revealed to men by the fallen angels” (so they fell, but they shared their divine knowledge with humans to free them from bondage, or at least decrease suffering)

some sources posit that angels fell in their quest for power 

others say they embody the “glorious and warlike” nature of humans--in other words, exceptional heroism

...or some combination of all these things. Allegedly this esoterica is similar across both Abrahamic and Buddhist/Hindu/Vedic traditions, and I’ve seen this come up a few times in my reading, but admittedly only in books written for/by English speaking (Western European/North American) audiences.

...Oh man, I hope this still makes sense when I wake up.

::queues post and passes out on keyboard:

[xerox-candybar]

hey! wassup (im bored)? which is the hardest asana you've had to do? can u do shirshasana? (i cant for the record)

OMG <3<3 thank you so much for the ask. This made me really happy to answer.

"What is the hardest asana..." that's a difficult question! In teacher training, we learned the hardest asana is actually Shavasana (corpse pose) because it's so easy to lose focus and let your thoughts wander away from the practice. I was told you're supposed to stay in corpse pose for 8 - 10 minutes. Most teachers have to cut this short because of the way classes are structured (who wants to pay for 10 minutes of lying on the floor?!?), and even in my personal practice I'm guilty of skipping it because it doesn't feel like, well, practice. That's not true, of course.

"Hardest Asana" has meant different things to me at different times. I'm terrified of anything that puts a lot of pressure on the shoulder joints, like Urdhva Dhanurasana (Wheel Pose) or even just plan Chaturanga Dandasana. I am weirdly good at Crow Pose because I am weirdly good at falling forward. Anyway... I am very partial to Shirshasana (supported headstand), because of the very poetic way it was taught to me: this pose invokes perspective changes, you're literally flipping your world view. (In my teacher training we learned inversions are supposed to help you overcome your fear of death... and yeah, definitely, if nobody is around to spot me or support me during inversions my life flashes before my eyes).

I *have* been able to get into Shirshasana in the past. I finished my yoga teacher training in Feb 2020, and I was probably in the best shape ever -- then COVID hit and my practice changed dramatically. I remember my very last in-person class, because my teacher complimented how much progress I had made in my headstand.

I actually have a video of myself practicing headstand (forgive my outfit, it was laundry day)... I had to clear an entire bookshelf to get wallspace but I forgot to move a picture frame, so... anyway, watch it with the sound on.

Thank you so much for dropping the ask. I hope I entertained you/answered your question. Whatwith Covid and all, I don't do a lot of (yoga) teaching these days since my last mentorship ended, and I sometimes forget how much I enjoy talking about this stuff.

[invisibleanonymousmonsters]

I'm a H O E for domestic Bucky. Would you write a fic where reader and the women of the Avengers introduce Bucky and Steve to spa days? Like the guys walk in on Girls Night and they get pulled into the hair/face masks, mimosas,..

After missions, Bucky ran

That was how he decompressed and cleared his mind

Steve usually went with him. Sometimes Sam too

Then he walked back into the compound, covered in sweat, to hear a groups of giggles

He smiled when he instantly recognized one for yours

But then he wondered who was stealing that sound when he wanted it to only be directed toward him

Him and Steve walked into the living room to find you, Wanda, and Nat lounging on the couches in yoga pants and baggy sweatshirts

You were wearing one of his favorites: a black hoodie of his

But then you turned to face him and he stopped walking

“Nat, what did you do with my girlfriend and who is this green monster?” He asked

You giggled at his antics

You were wearing a bright green mud mask. Despite that, you jumped up and gave him a quick kiss and added, “Hey, handsome.”

“What in god’s name are you girls doing?” He asked as you returned to your spot on the couch

The three of you break down what a spa day is

Mimosa, Bloody Marys, sheet masks, mud masks, pedicures, manicures, tea, and utter relaxation

“I thought we were going to hang today, doll…” Bucky mumbles to you

It’s practically a whine. The poor puppy that just wants you

“You’re more than welcome to join us, Barnes.” Nat replies

Which leads to Bucky plopping himself on the couch next to you and letting you and the girls put whatever on his face and pouring him a mimosa

“Man, you are so whipped,” Sam interrupts an hour or so later when he finds the sight before him

“I don’t understand how self-care and relaxation has been dubbed as a feminine act by society,” you snap back. “Just admit it, Sam, you want in. Stop robbing yourself of these pleasures.”

“I don’t get how taking care of one’s self – especially hygienically – is such an attack on masculinity.”

Bucky always smiles proudly and lovingly at how you can always put anyone in their place with your clever retorts

Sam begrudgingly realizes that you’re right and joins in

Then he wrangles in Steve, who returns to the living room just after getting out of the shower

Soon you, Wanda, and Nat are guiding the three men on all the products and teach them the art of pampering

After that day, Bucky and you start a habit of doing sheet masks when either of you are stressed out…or just bored

Bucky is amazed that he can actually see a difference in his skin and even hair (after you convince him to use a hair mask or two)

It becomes common for the team to walk into your apartment to find you and Bucky watching a movie with face masks on

They make fun of you two, but secretly they think it’s adorable  

Then you had the brilliant idea of getting him a whole spa package for his birthday including an hour long facial and message

But his reaction confuses you

“What’s wrong, Buck? Do you not want to go?”

“It’s just – Are you gonna be there?” He asked

“No, it’s a treat yourself day! You get it all for yourself,” you beam.

“But… the whole reason I got into this stuff was because it was something to do with you and it makes you so happy that it started making me happy. Can you come with?”

His sincerity nearly ripped your heart right out of your chest

“Yeah, Bucky…Of course I’ll come with you.”

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Unexpected Arrival - 7

Pairing: Bucky x Reader, Possible Steve x Reader

Summary: As if working with the Avengers wasn’t exciting enough…. an unexpected visitor is about to change your life forever.

"You’re holding back on me Steve" i smirked at the Captain as i got back to my feet and took my stance again.

"Is it that obvious?" He laughed shrugging a shoulder "just thought you should ease back into training"

"Im fine! its been 6 months since i had Evie and Ive already been training with Sam and Nat a few times a week"

"Still, i think we should take it easy doll"

"Scared i'll kick your ass Captain?" I taunted him, he grabbed me suddenly and swept my legs from under me. We both landed on the mats laughing with me pinned beneath him.

"Im not concerned about that...you’re harmless" he winked before laughing again. I suddenly wrapped my legs around his head catching him off guard and flipped him over.

"Huh, would you look at that.... not as harmless as you think" i shrugged sitting on his chest with my thighs still round his head, it was only then that i realised i was practically straddling his face!!

"Apparently not!....Nat teach you that move?"

"Of course she did" i laughed before standing up and going to grab my water bottle from the side. As i turned i saw Bucky standing in the doorway with his arms crossed across his chest.

"Hey baby" i smiled, i was always happy when i saw Bucky.

"Hey" he gave me a tight smile before looking over at Steve "you two looked like you were having fun".

"I was just proving to Steve that im not to be messed with. Called me harmless can you believe that?? Me!" I told Bucky while looking at Steve, it was then i noticed the looks between the two super soldiers, i'd have to ask Bucky what that was about later. "Ive been trained by The Winter Soldier, The Black Widow and good ol' Captain America himself and you call me harmless?? Shame on you Steve" i shook my head acting disappointed in him.

"Im sorry okay, i take it back" he laughed holding his hands up in surrender.

"So you should" i nodded smugly before walking over and wrapping my arms around Bucky's waist "I missed you" i said looking up at him lovingly "please dont leave me again"

"Doll i only went into town for a couple of hours" Bucky laughed pulling me closer.

"I know but it was too long! Let me go take a shower and then we can curl up and watch a movie while Nat has Evie"

"Sounds like a plan, maybe i should join you in the shower?" He mumbled before pressing a kiss to my lips.

"Mmmm maybe you should" i nodded quickly liking that idea a lot! "Thanks for the training session Steve, same time tomorrow?" I said over my shoulder as we headed towards the door.

"Sure thing doll, i'll be here" he said with a slight smile as he nodded.

"See ya pal" Bucky called to Steve before picking me up and rushing back to our room.

"Hey babe?" I said walking over to the sofa with my glass of wine and Bucky's beer "can i ask you something?"

"Of course you can, whats on your mind doll?" Bucky asked taking his beer and lifting his arm up to allow me to cuddle up to him.

"Whats going on with you and Steve lately?" I asked, i felt his body tense before he looked down at me looking confused.

"What do you mean?"

"You've both been acting weird, I've noticed these looks between you.... like you’re pissed at each other"

"Really?? When?"

"Ive noticed it a few times, but i saw it today in the gym"

"You mean after i saw you straddling that punks face?"

"That was an accident! I didn't think that move through, instinct just kicked in" i shrugged laughing.

"Well don't do it again, my face is the only face aloud between your legs doll" he said burying his face in my neck and kissing me.

"Bucky Barnes! Did you not get enough in the shower??" I giggled as he continued his assault on my neck, his metal hand sneaking under my jumper making its way up to cup my breast.

"I can never get enough of you sweetheart, you drive me crazy" he mumbled "I'm the luckiest guy in the world having you as my girl"

"Im the lucky one Buck, but we might have to finish this later" i told him running my fingers through his hair.

"What? Why?"

"Nat will be bringing Evie back any minute"

"Cant believe I'm being cock blocked by my 6 month old...... can we at least make out until they get here?" Bucky wiggled his eyebrows before practically pouncing on me.

"Mom, dad we're home!!" Nat called 5 minutes later as she entered our shared apartment carrying Evie on her hip, Bucky and I had quickly parted hearing the door open.

"Hey, how was your day?"

"It was really good, little miss is exhausted but she wont give in and go to sleep"

"Yeah she's a proper daddy's girl at the moment, wont sleep until she's cuddled up to him"

Bucky walked over and as soon as Evie saw him she was reaching for him, Nat grumbled something as she passed Evie over to him.

"Hey my beautiful girl" he beamed at her and pecked loads of kisses on her face. Evie laughed before burying herself into Bucky's neck and starting to fall asleep.

"Nat why is my baby wearing a horse suit??" Bucky asked her raising his eyebrows as he looked Evie over.

"Its a unicorn! And she looks cute thats why" Nat shrugged her shoulders.

"Its cute Buck i gotta admit"

"Shes always cute no matter what shes wearing"

"Well i'll let you guys get lil miss to bed and enjoy your night, thanks for letting me spend time with Evie today" Nat smiled, she loved Evie so much and would often ask if she could take her out for the day. At first we found it hard to part with our beautiful girl but we soon appreciated the time it gave us alone, where we could enjoy being together as Y/N and Bucky and not Mom & Dad. We knew Evie was in good hands with her auntie Nat, the woman who would kill anyone who even looked at her funny.

"Thanks for wanting to spend time with her Nat it means alot to us"

"Anytime, you know i love that girl"

I gave Nat a quick hug and then she turned and left us to get Evie to bed.

The following morning i woke up early,  showered and dressed ready for my training session with Steve all before Evie or Bucky woke up.

"Buck?.... baby I'm just going to train with Steve for a hour or so" i said gently brushing his hair back from his face, he slowly opened his eyes.

"huh? Where you going?"

"Training with Steve, you okay with Evie?"

"Yeah sure"

"I wont be too long"

"You wearing that?" Bucky suddenly asked sitting up looking me over, i was wearing yoga pants and a sports bra with Bucky's black hoodie that i had laid claim to months ago.

"Yeah..... why?"

"Dont you want to put on a shirt?"

"This is what i always wear to train" i said looking totally confused at what he was saying.

"Why dont you train with me? Give me a couple minutes and i'll come with you. Nat can watch Evie"

"I cant Buck, Steve's probably already down there waiting because I'm running late"

"You dont wanna train with me?"

"Yeah of course i do! But i cant just leave Steve waiting for me. We can train tomorrow i promise.....I'll be back before you know it" i quickly kissed him before rushing out before he could say anything else about me training with Steve.

It was safe to say that i was a little distracted while training, i still couldn't shake the feeling Bucky wasn't telling me something and that something had to do with Steve.

"You okay Y/N? You seem a million miles away this morning" Steve suddenly asked as he held the punching bag as i carried out the combo he wanted me to do.

"I don't know" i stopped my punches to look at Steve "whats going on with you and Bucky? And don't say nothing!"

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know what it is but i can tell theres something going on! You two were always so close and now i catch you throwing death glares at each other when you think no ones looking!"

"Its nothing you need to worry about, we're just butting heads over a difference of opinions..."

"About??"

"Its not important doll, you know how stubborn we both can be...."

"Steve Rogers you are a crappy liar!" I pointed a finger at him "Now tell me what its really about".

Steve shuffled around on the spot avoiding eye contact with me.

"It doesn't matter...."

"It does to me! I hate whatever this is between you two. He even asked me to train with him this morning after questioning what i was wearing..... wait... is he trying to keep me away from you?" I asked Steve even though it sounded absolutely crazy that Bucky wouldn't want me spending time with Steve, Steve was one of my best friends!

"Its possible, yeah" Steve nodded.

"But why?"

"A couple months back Bucky asked me a question" Steve started to say but stopped suddenly looking nervous.

"Okay.... what did he ask you?"

Steve looked up at me, finally meeting my eyes as he took a deep breath.

"He.... he asked me if i had feelings for you".

[multiphandomunnies]

Warm up||Sua

Requested: Uhh can I get a little scenario with either DC's SuA or Handong, "umm I can come back later if you want me to, I mean..." With the reader crushing really hard on them?

Admin: Heather

A/N: It took me WAY to long to fill this prompt, but here it is! (Pst.. I will do it also for Handong ❤)

"It will be fun!" Your friend assured, dragging you towards the gym. She kept talking about signing you up for a yoga class for two weeks now and you finally let her take you there.

"I guess." You mumbled unconvinced. "Since when are you so keen on exercising?"

She didn't answer immediately and a blush colored her cheeks. Interesting.

"There's this girl I met on a party..."

Of course it was about some hot girl. Your friend has been moping about being single and miserable for ages.

"She attends the class?" You asked.

"She is the instructor."

You turned to her with raised eyebrows. So you were just a lame third wheel that had to suffer extreme muscle stretching while your friend thirsted over the instructor. Typical.

"Oh come on, Y/N. Don't look at me like that!" She huffed defensively. You just rolled your eyes and kept walking. After a minute, you found the locker room and changed quickly into workout clothes. You didn't even want to think about the pain you will feel on the next day.

"Maybe you will find someone interesting here as well." Your friend tried to convince you and save the remains of her desperate dignity.

"Yeah, sweaty dudes in too tight shots. Amazing." You responded sarcastically.

You finally got to the training room and took a yoga mat. Your friend couldn't stop talking about the benefits yoga had for body and soul as if she didn't attend the class only because of a hot instructor. Zoning out, you planned an escape route when two girls entered the room and your breath stopped for a moment.

"She's beautiful, right?" Your friend whispered as a tall girl greeted everyone and introduced herself to the new participants.

"Hi everyone! I'm Minji, but you can call me Jiu. Thank you for coming today." Her smile was dazzling and you had to agree with your lovestruck friend. Jiu was crazy beautiful. However you couldn't take your eyes away from the other girl.

"You didn't tell me Bora worked here!" You whispered back. Your friend's eyes got wide when she realised that Jiu's companion was your longtime crush.

"I had no idea, Minji was our only instructor..." she quickly explained.

Jiu smiled warmly at everyone and motioned towards for her friend to come closer. Bora took a graceful step forward and bowed a little with a laugh.

"I'm Bora, but most people call me Sua. I will be your co-instructor today." She informed in a confident tone that seemed too big for her tiny frame.

"Sua usually teaches the fitness class, but she agreed to help me today. We have many new members, so we'll have to split into two groups." Jiu explained.

You stood there frozen as the instructor divided everyone. The newbies were told to follow Sua to a different room, while more experienced people stayed to train with Minji. Your friend was over the moon because of that.

"Have fun!" She shouted with a wink and you wanted to rub that smug smirk off her face. Now you had to exercise for who knows how long with your crush watching. Amazing.

The room was smaller as your group had less members than the advanced one. Sua put her own mat on the ground and stood in front of you all.

"As Jiu told you, I usually teach fitness. So I'm definitely not a pro." She informed with another giggle and everyone smiled with her. Her laugh was so contagious, you had to join in. "We'll learn together."

You shruddered a bit at her words. You could only dream about any "together" with Sua and now you were in the same room, exercising together.

She started with some simple breathing techniques and basic stretching. You tried to focus on your inner voice or something like that and stop looking at her beautiful features. Closing your eyes helped with that and you breathed in and out. You were almost there when two small hands appeared on your shoulders, making you tense.

"You are way to focused." Sua's low whisper rang in your ear. "Just relax, Y/N."

It was hard to relax when you could still feel her burning touch after said your name like that. And how did she know it in the first place?

The rest of the class passed on trying some basic positions and more stretching. You tried to get Bora out of your head and stay proffesional, but it was difficult when she was stretching on the mat in front of you. Who knew she was so darn flexible?

"Okay, we should end for today!" Sua finally stood up smoothly and looked at the group with a small smile. Everyone was tired and covered in sweat, but you had to admit the class was entertaining. Not only because of the pleasant view.

Everyone thanked Bora for guidance and she took another bow with a loud laugh. You reluctantly left the room, dazzled by her laugh. However your daydream was quickly interrupted by a body colliding with yours.

"How was it?!" Your friend squealed into your ear and grabbed your arm. You glared at her a bit, but couldn't make it intimidating when a soft smile lingered on your face. "Damn, Sua got you good."

You smacked her and she protested innocently, as if she wasn't teasing you seconds earlier. She was right unfortunately. You were attracted to Sua for almost a year now, ever since you borrowed notes from her for a Chemistry test and she told you that "Chemistry can mean a lot of things". Needless to say, you had no chance with a girl like her.

"Crap." Your friend suddenly stopped in her tracks. "I left my water bottle there."

You rolled your eyes at her as she looked at you with puppy eyes.

"Please, Y/N. Get it for me!" She asked. "I can't make an idiot out of myself in front of Jiu."

You agreed with a sigh and moved back towards the room she trained in before. Opening the door, you froze. Minji was nowhere in sight, but Bora stood in front of the mirror and stretched. You felt like a creep watching her like this, but you had to take that freaking bottle.

"Oh, Y/N. I didn't see you there." Sua said nonchalantly and continued pulling her tone leg up, head leaning on the mirror. "Jiu let me use her room. It's much bigger than mine."

You nodded dumbly and felt more awkward with every moment. Sua was stretching her leg impossibly and it was torture to keep your eyes away.

"I-I came here to get my friend's bottle. Umm, I can come back later if you want me to. I mean.. " you took a deep breath. "I don't want to interrupt."

Sua let out a low hum and put her leg down. She turned to you and sized you up with her piercing gaze. It left like the room got suddenly hotter.

"Maybe you can help me?" She suggested with a small smile. You looked at her cluelessly.

"Um, I can try? But.." Sua nodded and motioned you to come closer. You obeyed, because who were you to deny her anything.

"Just pull my leg up as much as you can." She requested simply and put her hand on the wall.

You almost tripped while standing. Guess she didn't consider it awkward, you two knew each other after all and Bora was never the one for shame.

Not wanting to keep her waiting, you carefully put your palm on her knee and put some pressure to bend it upwards. It was a struggle to keep your eyes away respectfully. Especially when Sua kept telling you to keep going.

"Good." She finally stated. "Hold it like this."

You did as she ordered and decided that avoiding looking at her would seem like you were ashamed to properly look at a girl. So you strategically moved your eyes to a safe area that wouldn't make you a pervert. Glancing at her arched back seemed like a safe bet. Just ignore how tight her outfit was.

"Did you like the class?" Sua took you by surprise with a question. You noticed she was staring right at your face in the mirror. Well, you were screwed. "I've never seen you here before."

It took you a minute to compose yourself.

"Yeah, yoga was never my thing. It was my first. Class! My first class." You blurted out like a disaster you were. Bora nodded a little.

"Well, lucky me to be your first. Teacher." You could swear she smirked at you as you blushed furiously and your hold on her leg weakened a bit.

In a blur she was standing on both legs, her face inches from yours. You stood there like a deer in headlights and almost not breathing.

"Maybe you are more of a fitness person." She wondered in a low tone. "It's more dynamic."

"M-maybe." You stuttered.

"So, we will see each other more often?" She inquired in the same tone, her gaze never leaving your eyes. You just nodded mechanically.

"Good." How could a simple word make you feel like that. "I can teach you much more in my class."

"Can't wait." You managed to say and something like approval shined in Sua's eyes. And then she turned around and walked towards the door. Your eyes followed her in awe, everything getting hazy.

"Y/N." Her voice make you snap back to reality. She stood in the door frame, her gaze much more playful. "Don't forget your water."

She winked and slid out to the corridor. You could finally let out a deep breath that you were holding. Sua was right. Yoga wasn't intense enough for you.

[pbandjesse]

Today was a pretty excellent day. I was still very tired and I feel frustrated with some stuff but in general it was great. Just hot.

I slept okay last night. I woke up at 7 without an alarm. And James made us pancakes. I got dressed and I felt very cute. Let me cup was very good and I left on time.

I had to wait a little while for the bus but I still got to the school before 8:30. I ended up being on the bus with two other people going to Wildwood so I had a nice chat with them. Joked about how we are the bus crew. And then headed upstairs.

I felt frustrated because we had made the lesson plans for stem literally the week before Camp started which was weeks ago. But for some reason every morning we're having a discussion or an argument about what's going to happen that day. And there's no reason for it. All we were doing today was tissue paper art. Yes it's kind of messy. But it's not that big of a deal. Things can be messy. We can clean up afterwards. And just the whole sucking out of all the fun is no good. It is not fun for me it's not fun for everyone else. So I just had to smile and walk away. Because honestly it's not that deep. And I am sick of having the same conversation every day. So I'm not going to ask for permission anymore. I'm just going to do my thing and just let the people who want to complain complain.

It was a very fun day though. We did yoga. And I did ballet stuff with the older kids. Art went pretty good. We couldn't find our laptop. No idea where that could have gone. So instead I just drew examples on the board and the kids got it. They did drawings of symbols that represent of themselves and then I had them all sit around while we guessed what the symbols were and who they belong to. It was fun.

Reading was nice. I got to read some of the book to the kids. And I enjoyed that even though I stumble on my words sometimes.

Lunch and recess were no big deal. I came in early from Recess to set up stem. Got all the tables covered with plastic. And got everything ready. Basically you take the watercolor paper and you draw a picture. And then you take your tissue paper and different colors and you wet it over top of the sections. The ink and the dye from tissue paper then stains your paper. It's basically painting with a non liquid medium. Well liquid and non liquid because of the water. Honestly it's easy it's fun and they get to learn a couple simple science stuff. I just have to deal with sour puss face for a lot of it but you know what kids show had fun it was only slightly messy and all of our hands got stained a bit but wash it with hot water a couple times and I'll come right off. Close I don't know but I am going to continue saying that you shouldn't send your kids and something you don't want them to get pain on to an art summer camp. I hold no responsibility to that.

We played a two truths and a lie at the end. And I wasn't thrilled with my co-teacher because she admonished me for not getting the entire class quiet before I spoke to them. And I just had to be like dude. I work at museums. The whole group is not always going to be silent and that's my teaching style and that's just the way it's going to be. I understand what you're saying. You want them to all be silent but how about we just worry about that when it becomes an issue. If we're playing a game it's not that big of a deal. And again I just had to walk away because it's not that deep. It's summer camp. Organized chaos is the name of the game and they should be having fun. And the game was fun until you started screaming.

I just had to walk away. I took my break a little bit early because I was just disgusted. The screaming is breaking down the trust in a relationship with these kids and it does not need to be happening. I have fun with them we're having a good time and then all of a sudden they're screaming. And so I'm out in the hallway and one of the little girls who is usually a monster in class is leaning on me because she's upset because she feels like she's being screamed at for no reason. And she was she didn't do anything. She was giggling with her friends. And honestly that's not a big deal! She should be allowed to do that at summer camp! I'm just going to have to keep pushing against it and fighting the good fight.

We ended the day with snacks and hanging out. We did some vocab. And soon enough it was time for everyone to go home. I was outside with the kids and chatting and stuff and then I remembered I had to get James HDMI cord so I went upstairs again. Still can't find my needles which is annoying. I did end up finding them when I got home which means I could have been sewing yesterday. But that's fine! I guess! And then I went to go get the bus.

Which didn't come from was 25 minutes. I was not happy. I'm so hot and uncomfortable. I just wanted to go home. Bus came around 4:15 ish. And I went to streets and got a few things. I got back here and I took a shower. Felt a lot better after that. I made a quesadilla for dinner and I've just been hanging out since then. James has D&D tonight. People are supposed to start getting here soon. But it was James's first day of work at his new job and he gets out and about 7:30. It sounds like it's a lot of remembering numbers and products and things. But he'll pick it up. He's got a big big brain. I hope you guys all have a good night. Tomorrow is another day. We're going to start working on posters and we're making tote bags out of t-shirts. It's going to be good. Hope you all have a great night. Sleep well.

[maji-matchups]

May I request a match-up? I'm a reserved Capricorn girl, ace, a disaster polyglot in the making (fun over practicality^^;), and I love to draw (trying to get better), listen to music, and rekindled an appetite for reading. Don't mind a sense of humor to keep me from feeling depressed. Also love tea, museums, yoga, & walks to clear my head. And learning new things. Around 173-175cm tall. And would like to travel if I could. Thank you kindly~~ ^-^

Hello nonie! Thanks so much for stopping by! Good luck on your art I know it’s not always easy (writers blocks suck and I totally haven’t been in one for the past like five weeks and I know art blocks are a thing too) I feel so so so bad for the anonymous asks because I know you guys probably don’t see this as soon as people who requested using their blogs would see theirs and it so late and ahhhhh I’m so sorry!!

I match you up with~~~ Cecil Aijima!! You both share that same passion for traveling, him probably a bit more so than you (I can show you the world~~~ shining shimmering splendid!! Don’t tell me you can’t see him singing that to you). He finds it so cool how you know so many languages and begs you to teach him some. He’s always been pretty interested in culture and such and language says a lot about a country’s culture in his opinion. He’s so so supportive about you being ace when you come out to him! Of course this boy would never ever try to force you to do anything you don’t like/aren’t comfortable with, that’s just a big no no to him. He’s one of the goofier members of Starish, compared to Tokiya or Masato, and would 1000% be there to shine a little bit of light into your world with his corny jokes and music.

Other possible matchups include Reiji Kotobuki!! (Again, another more goofy boy to bring some fun into your life, he also would be so down to go on long road trips around the country with you and any friends you want to bring along. I feel like he could also work well with your reservedness since he’s Reiji “I can befriend anyone” Kotobuki) or Otoya Ittoki!! (The sunshine child is just such a perfect match for anyone, and with you i feel like you guys would really balance each other out nicely, with a contrast between reserved and outgoing)

I hope this didn’t disappoint and as always have a lovely day!!

Mod Ai

[twistednuns]

February 2022

Noticing how I sat up straighter on the subway one morning due to a muscle relaxant injection. And how positively being pain-free affected my mood. So perhaps I'm sometimes just a reactive bitch because I'm in constant pain?

Girl talk at school, hugs from Sandra. Teaching Leonie handlettering.

New Zealand will reopen their borders in October! So excited!

Learning about RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria).

A morning with an interesting yellow mood of light right after sunrise.

A Saturday walk through the forest with Michi, Lena and Christian; lots of sunshine and lunch at the Chinese restaurant (eggplant on rice is my favourite); spending the afternoon together, making plans, fun conversation and rum-flavoured biscuits.

Finding Graffiti Tofu at Alnatura when I'd thought they'd discontinued the product. / also: their museli spelt cookies and lemon sablés.

In November they'll open a huge Ghibli Park in Nagoya! I need to go back to Japan!

Sunny weekend mornings. A pot of coffee. Working on the computer, writing, organising, creating the illusion of getting my life in order.

Vaguely planning trips to Israel and NYC.

Dinner at Goldmarie with Becky. Noticing how most guests looked like extras on a movie set due to their uniform clothing.

Endlessly scrolling through tumblr, waiting for an image to speak to me (is it 2011 again?)

I'm still not over that edamame song #clingclang

Pistachio nails with tiny diamantes.

Making friends at choir practice. Singing Oh Happy Day (one of the very few songs in the repertoire I've actually heard of before).

My first yoga lesson in years. Wearing an appropriate outfit (swirly marble leggings, a long green cardigan and a big scarf); the smug feeling of being more balanced and flexible than the other ladies at quite a few asanas despite my long hiatus.

Fiery sunsets. Blue hour. The time of the day when the sky is still light blue in the southwest but there's already a dark night sky in the east.

Making ESL worksheets. Finding a very useful website with free PNG icons. I still kinda wanna be a school book designer when I grow up...

Thorough girl crush research on Michelle Zauner and Zoe Kravitz (they're both super cool and have pretty good bands and lots of tattoos). Nursing my growing obsession with South Korea after reading Crying in H-Mart (which made me cry on the subway). There even is a Munchies episode with Maangchi and Michelle Zauner.

Most characters in Superstore. I can't even decide who I like best.

Pink heart-shaped post-its.

More pink: lunch with the very gorgeous Anika (major hair envy) at Vegan Junk House Club (the perfect place to be for pink-appreciators like me), walking through sunny downtown, stoppping at Eataly and &otherstories. Coffee and matcha cheesecake at Gartensalon.

I survived my first MRT despite my claustrophobia. The images were really interesting! I love learning about what's inside of me - physically as well as mentally.

A cute comic. Happy Valentine's to me - again...

Thick, luscious milk foam. A mild coffee obsession.

Learning all kinds of new English words all of a sudden. There are just so many. Caustic, baffling, indictment, to misconstrue, to efface, the very small difference between contraption and contraction, to pummel and to plummet. Related: two new kinds of tumors on my radar; saree cancer and squamous cell carcinoma (yes, the variety of things I find interesting is astounding).

Ya-Yah is back! She's such a talented masseuse.

Another case of reassessing something that made me super grumpy initially. In this case I'll have to spend the whole morning at school even though my class isn't there and it feels like a total waste of time. But then I thought... why not use that time for a creative project instead? So now I'm actually looking forward to it. Magic. I think this is called mental reframing and it works like a charm.

Vegan ramen at the new Takumi branch with Franzi (who I really don't see often enough).

Three compliments for my very elegant outfit (it was just the gemstone/marble turtleneck with paperbag trousers but I think my pencil updo must have made it look chic) / a compliment for my voice - worthy of voice acting, apparently. Not mad about that.

Innocent Blue Break juice. Yum.

Talking to more people at the choir. The soprano lady who welcomed me, Monika, and Peter - who turned out to be my neighbour. Getting the hang of some of the songs now that I've sang them once or twice. One was even stuck in my head for a few days!

Dark chocolate with candied orange peel (which is so weird because I used to hate orange flavour).

A date with myself. Massage, ramen noodles at SAM, shopping, Like Lovers Do at Kammerspiele (a very colourful play; I had fun even though it was very eccentric).

Using oven spray for the first time. I never knew how effective it was!

The letters my students had to write during social skills training. They wrote thank you letters to kids who make them feel good about themselves and "I wish you would..." letters to those who they're having a hard time with. I loved how deliberate most of them were!

J-Bone and A-Hole (Jonah and Amy finally starting to date #superstore)

Fresh pineapple. Mango. Strawberries. I love the day of the year when strawberries are finally available again.

Evening walks along the Isar Hochufer two nights in a row - first with Raphael, then with Sebastian. I'd never been there before. I loved the lock keeper house, the little chapel with the frogs swimming in the basin and the seemingly orthodox paintings; I discovered a sizeable garden gnome collection and a nest swing at the playground. Raphael gave me very late Christmas presents (two books and a tasting box of bean daals); and with Sebastian I ended up at FLEX.

Voice training. Hitting the high notes I thought I'd lost forever after a few hours.

Raclette and board game night with Margit, Dennis and Frank. Playing Beatsaber and an exit game.

Palindrome Day with my favourite number. 22-2-22 <3

A fun evening at Augustiner with some colleagues. Meeting Nick, a former student with whom I played beer pong a few days later.

Lying down in my own bed after a horrible evening and a taxi ride.

Making pancakes with Frank. Sitting on the sofa, reading to each other from a book about 60's song lyrics without any rythm or tune; trying to guess the songs.

[laurelwinchester]

it's depressing to be a dean stan in the supernatural fandom right now. this fandom pays him dirt. it's even worse to be a laurel stan. i'm both rn and i feel like there's nothing positive to look forward to. do you have any fluffy or cute headcanons about daddy!dean and mom!laurel from your fic with little mary beatrice?

i’m sorry you’re feeling down, anon. it is a pretty rough time for dean stans right now. and, well, it’s aways been rough for laurel stans. but yes, i always have headcanons for mary bea and her adoring fans parents!

- so, as mentioned in the fic, dean was a stay at home dad for the first three years of mary’s life. they spent all day every day together. if you ask her who her best friend is, she’ll say, always, “daddy!” that’s why they were both so lost when he eventually had to work and she had to go to preschool. they had never been away from each other for that long. for a lot of things, he is the first one she runs to. he is her default setting and she is his. mary definitely skews towards the “daddy’s girl” side of things. however, with that said…

- laurel was mary’s hero before she was anyone else’s. not because she’s the black canary but because she is her mom. mary worships her mother. anything laurel does, mary wants to do too. if laurel is out in the backyard gardening, mary wants to help. if laurel is outside doing yoga in the sunshine on sunday mornings, mary drags out another yoga mat and tries to do the downward dog. mary would follow her mom anywhere. black canary may belong to star city, but everything laurel lance does is for mary.

- dean and laurel are 99.9% sure that mary was conceived in the hallway between the living room and the bedroom of her old apartment. it’s not something either of them obsess over because why would they but at the same time he does find it amusing that out of all of the times they had sex, the one time they made a baby was “the time we fucked in the hall ‘cause we couldn’t make it to the bedroom. course that’d be the time.” and by amusing, i mean he has had literal full body laughing fits about it. laurel just does not get what’s so funny about it???? he does, however, complain about the song that was playing (bittersweet symphony, one of laurel’s favourites) because “ugh that song’s fuckin’ obnoxious.” and then laurel takes offense to that because “honestly how dare you speak ill of one of the greatest hits of our generation.’’

also, okay, this got long so i’m putting the rest under a cut.

- because mary is deaf in one ear, she has some issues with vertigo and balance so she occasionally suffers from headaches, dizziness, and nausea. it’s not a huge deal, she’s in physical therapy to help her with it, and it might lessen as she gets older. but aside from it making her a bit clumsy and more susceptible to motion sickness, her balance issues have made her a REALLY terrible dancer. she has zero problems with this because she loves to dance so she’s going to dance regardless of how bad she is at it. dean never misses a chance to say, ’'maybe it’s not her balance, maybe she just inherited her mom’s dancing skills” because surprise! laurel is an awful, awful dancer.

- no, seriously, laurel is a really bad dancer. she’s okay with slow dancing but anything more than that and she is flailing. which is strange because she’s usually quite light and graceful on her feet. back when she and dean were planning a real wedding, tommy tried to teach them how to do the mambo and it did not go well. as dean likes to say, while laurel turns red in embarrassment, “it was like that dirty dancing montage except she never got better.” (for the record, no, dean is not an amazing dancer. laurel is just that bad.)

- mary is a naturally shy kid. that’s just her personality. she’s okay once she warms up to you, but she’s shy. people always comment that they don’t know where she would have gotten that from but, like…her parents? she clearly got it from her parents. laurel wasn’t necessarily shy when she was a child but she was definitely a wary and somewhat hesitant kid. her parents said she was an “old soul.” dean, on the other hand, was totally a shy little kid. before the fire, before he was forced out of his shell and could no longer afford to be shy, he preferred to spend his days at home with his mom and no one else. she was his best friend. and now he’s his daughter’s best friend.

- laurel introduced mary to the spice girls as soon as she could. in retaliation (because there’s only so many times he can listen to mary screeching at him to, “spice up your life, daddy!!!!”) dean got her into led zeppelin. mary’s favourite song is sea of love because that’s her and her mom’s song, and one time she listened to out of the woods by taylor swift on repeat for two hours until her dad finally managed to bribe her into turning it off, but her first request in the car will always be “d'yer maker” by led zeppelin. dean is super proud of that. she has never once pronounced it correctly. also, she tells people to listen to the spice girls when she thinks they’re sad.

- social media is, for the most part, not a part of their lives. laurel has an inactive facebook account that she hasn’t updated since 2012. charlie made dean make an instagram account but he’s never used it. but they both have snapchat accounts. not because they’re at all interested in it but because mary thinks it’s hilarious. the dancing hot dog makes her giggle hysterically. not that it’s hard to make her giggle hysterically, she just really loves that hot dog.

- if you were to ask dean and laurel about the moment parenthood became real to them, dean would talk about that one time when they were driving to kansas and mary inevitably got car sick and he had no choice but to dive into the back and catch it in his hands because they had forgotten to bring a bucket with them. laurel would most likely say, voice dry and sarcastic, “i dunno, man, felt pretty real when she was crowning.” but both of these things are lies. the realest moment, for both of them, was the day they were told that their daughter had pendred syndrome. that she was most likely going to lose some, if not all, of her hearing and that she was facing other potential health issues. the day they learned that their baby girl was going to life a different life, possibly a harder life, that all their plans had been blown out the window, was the day the reality of parenthood really sunk in for them.

- most people assume that dean is the fun parent and laurel is the stricter parent but nah, it’s the other way around. that’s not to say that dean isn’t fun, of course, because if the floor is lava or she wants to jump in puddles wearing the nice dress her grandmother sent her for christmas then he is all for that. but laurel is the one who told her about the puddles in the first place and waved a plastic magic wand and said the floor was lava. she’s the cookie sneaker, the best fort builder in the world, and the spontaneous picnic planner. laurel is the one who says, “hey, let’s go on a weekend trip to coast city and take mary to the beach.” dean is the one who gapes at her in response and says, “it’s eleven o'clock on a friday night and you’re telling me this now?” and she’s just like, “yeah, we’ll just throw a few bags in the car and leave tomorrow morning!” and then his brain explodes because that’s not how it works?????

dean is the one who’s got all the lists and charts in his head because he wants mary to have the safe, normal childhood he didn’t have and he is trying his hardest to make it perfect. he’s trying to recreate the pieces of the mother he remembers in every pie he bakes for his daughter, every trip to the park, every night he reads her where the wild things are. laurel is the one who wants to make the magic and the whimsy that her grandmother gave her, put the galaxy on her daughter’s bedroom ceiling the way bea did for her, and create the warmth and the fun that her mother never managed to get the hang of.

given that mary is a joyful, happy, always giggling, remarkably well adjusted little girl, they must be doing something right.

[fangirlfitness]

Hi. I'm not sure if this is really what this blog is for, but I'm a young girl and I'm struggling a LOT with body image issues. My family hasn't been much help, making fat jokes about others. I'm looking at other girls around me to see that I'm doing fine, but they're all skinnier and stronger than I am. I've recently been not eating(just a few meals here and there, I'm trying to keep it under control) and I'm just worried. Are there any safe ways to lose weight and gain muscle? Please help!

Omg hi!!! I’m a certified personal trainer and a body-positive feminist who wants more than anything to help other women and girls love themselves so I really appreciate you asking for my advice on this!!

First of all:

Body image issues are never just about your body. Everyone has insecurities, and our culture teaches women and girls to project all those insecurities onto their own bodies. How many huge companies would go out of business immediately if all women decided they loved their bodies? Exactly.

You’re a smart, strong, creative, beautiful person, too smart to let patriarchy ruin the most sacred relationship you have - your relationship with your body.

And also, I know loving your body is so much easier said than done. Because the insecurities hiding behind body hatred are real. You might be feeling insecure about your place in the world (sooooooo many people feel this way too), and/or specifically insecure about your social experiences (also very common)… Whatever your true insecurities are, I promise so many other people are struggling with the exact same feelings. You are not alone. If there is an adult you can talk to, it can really help. At the very least, take some time to yourself, listen to music you like, and journal about your feelings and where they could be coming from… Also, just journaling in general can be so healing and helpful. You are not body insecurities. You are so much more. Get to know all those parts of yourself.

As for your family members making nasty comments… People who look down on other people do that because they feel so insecure and awful they feel they need to put others down to feel better. It’s really hard to grow up with that negativity, but remember that you have the potential to be stronger, wiser, kinder, and happier. You can be happier than your family members. You can be happier than the people you’re currently surrounded by. Because all you need to feel peaceful happiness is self-love. And the fact that you’re messaging me now about this indicates to me that you’re ready to start loving yourself.

As for the cutting back on meals, I want so badly to give you a massive hug, and then magically telepathically communicate to you how important it is for your growing body to get enough calories and nutrients. I promise you that eating less is absolutely not the answer. Starting to eat less at the age you are will only lead down 1 path, a path full of sadness and pain. It is so important that you understand this, so I’m repeating it: Eating less is not the answer.

Health, and body-love/self-love, is connected to eating nutritious food (lots of fresh fruits and vegetables, protein, and whole grains like whole wheat bread and brown rice) and moving your body in ways you enjoy.

Happiness is not in numbers. There is no number great enough to give you happiness. You have to make happiness for yourself, by loving yourself. And your body is part of you

As for getting stronger, I love working out at home and there are 2 instructors on Youtube who are absolute amazeballs:

Yoga With Adriene - the sweetest and most knowledgeable yoga instructor I’ve ever seen

Blogilates - literally if a Disney princess was a pilates instructor

Their videos are beautiful and lovely and really fun to do and they seriously work. They’re basically my favorite way to get stronger for free.

I really hope you’re able to see this post and that it helps you on your self-love journey

[scary-senpai]

:: squints :: Wait a minute... that's a fist-bump, isn't it?

I mean... it’s just gotta be, right? You’ve got to keep your wrists/forearms straight when you throw a punch, don’t you? I mean, that’s how it looks in the other panels:

See? Straight wrists.

213 Cover has none of the typical, Earth-shattering aftershocks we’ve come to expect from Sai and Garou squaring off--just a happy little cosmic haze that vaguely resembles a heart. Also, their two hands come together much in the same way Blast brings his hands together, resulting in an infinity symbol.

I dunno, man... I looked at the raws this morning and just seeing the cover made me feel calmer. Like, “Oh, thank God--everything is gonna be okay even if I can’t explain why yet” and I think it was that little detail subconsciously cuing my brain.

Maybe the true Saitama mode was the friends we made along the way.

Edited to add: aaaahhh oh my goodness, those little pieces of Garou falling apart, I can’t even... T-T

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: How's the damage looking in the cold light of day, babe? Ali: Want me to put a hex on her? Carly: yea Carly: didnt remember her going hard but feel it now Ali: 😤 Why'd she have to turn up just to pull up Ali: Got actual issues that one, like Ali: I'll work on something particularly wicked whilst we waiting for karma to smack her one Ali: is you okay boo? Carly: dont need to eye her bf i kno hes not special Carly: fucked some of his mates but not him Carly: you kno made the hanging feel more drastic Ali: Right? Even she don't reckon him that Ali: Just herself, like 🙄 Ali: I'll make you a remedy whilst I'm at it, like Carly: youre too cute to handle this early Ali: Well, lost major points not defending your honour from the ginja ninja last night so Ali: gotta claw it back, ain't I Carly: cant fuck you if youre in prison Ali: Truuuu, ain't my prison wife, this the real deal Ali: did you spot any talent tho? before she tried to claw ur eyes out Carly: nah Carly: you? Ali: caleb cavante was there Ali: he's so fine Ali: but so was his gf so meh, appreciated the view but no more than that Ali: too busy dancing w my main lady of course 😍 Carly: who was he w other than his bf Carly: in love as hard as we Ali: Ain't that the truth 😂 Ali: only got eyes for each other boys, don't front Ali: cute Carly: hes got eyes for me too Carly: 4some? Ali: Yeah? Nice Ali: Not even jealous, get you some wifey Ali: bit of a knob but not as bad as some Ali: I think they're like brothers tho babe??? awks 😂 Ali: otherwise, hell yeah Carly: my bad Carly: spoke to your gf today? Ali: Not yet Ali: She's sulking still Carly: if she wants to take a swing she knows where i am Ali: 😬 your beautiful face, noooooo Ali: she only mad at me anyway, catch us in prison, can't escape each other then, like 😏 Carly joined the chat 2 hours ago Carly: only working to get you to kiss it better tho Carly: could be her way of dumping you w out doing it Carly: sorry Ali: ha, good luck, honey Ali: don't she know I stick like glue? Ali: I'll roll up with all the arrogance of a bitch who's man ain't shit, like Carly: ill let her kno how loyal you are Carly: too bad its only to me like Ali: 🙊 Ali: don't, confirming her argument lowkey Carly: sorry Carly: anything i can do for real Ali: nah 💋 Ali: its sweet, i just gotta stop hiding and tell her how it is Ali: but i'm hiding 'til my head feels better, facts babe Carly: ill whisper Carly: fun tho Carly: w the assault & everything Ali: yeah, what's a decent party without a scrap Ali: tho if my boo gotta be involved imma haffta teach you a few moves, yeah? Carly: im not trying to kiss her while she kills me bitch Carly: whats a sweet girl like you gonna tell me Ali: i know, i'm a lover not a fighter by nature but i'm tough as fuck Ali: trust 🥊 Ali: show you when ur feeling better tho Carly: yea? Carly: aw you gonna protect me Carly: my da will be thrilled Ali: 'Course Ali: let him know just 'cos there's no bloke, can still fuck up the competition and co Carly: we could be renewing our vows at the kitchen table and he wouldnt know it was going on Carly: hes that bloke behind a fucking big newspaper who nods Carly: my ma's the mouth Ali: You're dead good with words Ali: fully got the picture there, like a film or some shit Carly: my life inspoing hollywood, bitch Carly: facts Ali: fr tho Ali: leading lady material defs Carly: you just want that roll credits kiss Carly: come get it any time Ali: only if there's an audience, yeah Carly: aw Carly: you want me all to yourself babe Ali: 🖕 Ali: lose any queer cred I've got if I fuck a straight girl purely for male gaze Ali: hmu when ur feeling it babe 😉 Carly: im always feeling you Carly: honeymoon period not over Ali: 😳😌 Ali: when ur living the bit so hard you can't tell where it ends no more Carly: you want me you got me Carly: thats how it go when you put a ring on it Ali: okay Ali: imma rock ur world then Carly: yea? Carly: good confidence babe Ali: deserved 💪 Carly: ill let you kno if i agree after you hit it Ali: go for it Ali: love ur brutal honesty and I've not got a fuckboy fragile ego like u used to Carly: yea true Carly: whats that like Carly: weird Ali: highly recommend Ali: love knowing what i'm worth 💎 Carly: gotta recommend being treated as a skank Ali: like all the time or in the bedroom 🤔 Carly: interchangeable when you're dtf constant Ali: Oh, babe Ali: you're a princess too tho, you can be both Carly: never been this complimented Ali: You gotta be knowing Ali: all about the balance Carly: aw Carly: what you doing today Ali: Gotta take my lil bro to the park or some shit Ali: he's already driving the 'rents mental Ali: come with? might get u both a 🍦 if you behave Carly: you want me round your littlest bro serious ? Ali: you won't sound so shocked when you meet him Ali: little 💩 Ali: but a laugh, you'll like him Carly: i been in a bitch fight & look it Carly: thinking of him Ali: Fair, if you wanna hide behind your biggest sunnies today and chill, I don't blame ya Ali: he'll think its cool tho, swap war stories with him Carly: im down to come Carly: just making sure you want it Ali: You wanna hear me say your my fave again? Ali: cute 💋 Carly: you kno Ali: swing by when i can convince him to put some clothes on Ali: feeling like a hypocrite lowkey Carly: k Carly: catch me outside trying to clear my head Carly: low key your fault for that image Ali: 😏 i'll take it even though i know its all about last night Ali: get ready to swoon tho 'cos its way too hot for normal clothes, but I do insist on at least partially covering our junk, lil rock Carly: 😍 Ali: you'll be proud, whored it up on my story and everything Carly: I saw and I was Ali: Mission accomplished then yo Carly: your hair is cute Carly: cute isnt the word for that yoga outfit tho Ali: 😘 aww, thanks babe! i was feeling it Ali: you gon' take me up on my yoga offer now? 😉 Ali: show u how flexible i am Carly: might do Carly: not just chat Carly: impressive wouldnt it be Ali: 👏 Ali: never doubted you, babe Carly: catch me in a baby class until i catch up Ali: nah, ask anyone, I'm a great teacher gurl! Ali: and you can be my pet 😻 Carly: aw Carly: you're getting so creative w these dates too Ali: gotta keep it fresh Carly: 💋