#i'm supposed to be doing college shit rn. but i don't wanna

[placentaeater999]

As of this afternoon i have finally turned in the paperwork to add my major in biology.

This is something that I've talked about doing since i was a kid, and only recently seriously considered doing. I don't talk about my home life much because its fucking disgusting and i have a couple really debilitating psychological disabilities n shit, but I basically never expected to be here past high school, so ive kind of heen having an existential crisis as of late and dont wanna graduate yet (id be graduating college next year at age 21 which feels too early for me)

So i texted my ma bc i also have a big fear of spending money (i get loans for financial aid), and i had a nice talk that reminded me of that "ppl are supposed to be burdens" post, and i'm gonna be double majoring for realsies now and it's just kinda hitting me rn.

And im really scared

But im also really excited

But mostly scared

I just hope i do good

Anyways thanksnfor sticking aroundnto read my brain thoughts

[writing-fanics]

Yo, i think i wrote my essay wrong.. and over thought the topic it's supposed to be about a personal experience that we then take from and turn that into a classical arugementive essay..

my dumbass wrote about how the titanic movie got me into learning more about history. and how the film started people wanting to learn more about the ship..

its due tonight no way in hell I'm writing 1,500 words again. I'm tired I emailed the teacher she hasn't responded yet. I'm freaking out and probs about to have a panic attack. like my head is starting to hurt and I'm just freaking out that I did it wrong.

like its shit like this is why college ain't for me... i don't wanna go through this kind've stress every single god damn time. its the first draft due today. like I cant rn I wanna cry..

what should i do?

[marshmallowprotection]

So I don't usually vent to strangers on the internet, never have before at all actually. But your page is just radiating with amazing vibes and you're such a safe space. I always read your work and it makes me so happy.

Today was...yikes. and it's only really begun. For about two weeks now I've been going back and forth with a girl about working for her, she interviewed me and seemed to like me, and hired me. Well then I gave her my number and she took a while to text me even though she was supposed to the next day. Finally she says hi, I reply back and then I hear nothing when I needed to know what time I was supposed to come in on the day she set up for me to start ! Heard nothing. 6 days go by and she says sorry I have to reschedule you. I'm like no big deal! I understand and I look forward to working with you on the new day which was meant to be today.

Fast forward to this morning I'm running on 4 hours of sleep because I was so nervous last night to go to bed early, and I spend an hour getting ready. No texts, no calls from this girl, so I'm assuming we are still on. I drive all the way over there and get in 10 minutes early.

Immediately she sees me and ignores me, talking with her other worker and a customer who I could tell must have been a good friend of hers. I stand there for a bit waiting patiently when she turns to me and says I'll get you situated in a moment I have to use the bathroom. So I start chatting with the other worker, we talk about her necklace that I thought was cute.

And this is where is goes downhill.

The girl comes out of the bathroom and immediately starts in with "I'm so sorry to do this to you" and goes on to tell me that financially she can't afford me and that she has to send me home. In front of everyone, in the middle of the shop. First of all, if you can't afford me WHY LEAD ME ON?? WHY LET ME DRIVE THERE, WHY NOT AT LEAST CALL OR TEXT ME THIS MORNING??? Then she has the nerve to say in April she may contact me back if I'm still interested. Absolutely not.

I'm a disabled college student. Finding work is so hard and I finally thought I had the courage and ability to get a job and this was how I was treated? I'm embarrassed, angry and upset. She should have called, or maybe never hired me at all. And she certainly shouldn't have told me to go home in front of everyone there. I could actually cry rn.

Thinking so hard about how my amazing fictional bf Saeran would comfort me and how my bestie and future brother in law Saeyoung would crack stupid jokes to cheer me up and also help me find this lady's bosses number so I could be petty, call and tell them just how unprofessional she handles this business.

Anyways that's my little vent. You're such a light on this app and I really truly adore your work and how you treat others. You deserve a lot of good in your life and I hope it comes to you. I'll call myself 🧼 soap anon if that's not already a thing on your page, that way if I ever come back to chat with you (prob no more vents ??? I just wanna shower you in appreciation and Choi Twin brainrot) or even come off anon I can be identified. :)) have a wonderful day, please.

I'm sorry to hear that someone led you on, Soap Anon! It's hard enough to get by in our society when someone tells you that you didn't get a job. It's even harder when someone leads you on and makes you waste your gas money on nothing.

That stuff isn't cheap! If she knew there would be no way to pay you, she should've said it the very second she realized it for a fact and told you over the phone. It saves not only her time and embarrassment but your time as well.

That's no way to treat another person. I'm angry for you!

Being disabled is hard enough because society is designed to force you into poverty here in America by giving you things below the bare minimum. They nickel and dime you because they think they can and I hate that shit. Saeran wouldn't let that slide, you're right. Nobody is allowed to lead someone on for no reason. It's one thing if you think you can take on work, and it's another to realize you can't by the time you do the books.

Just be upfront with people and say, "I'm sorry, but I can give you this job right now. The business is tight. I might be able to help you later on if the money changes, thank you for your interest," over the phone! Literally. There was a way to handle this and this woman ain't shit. I can't suspect her motives or choices, but that was a horrible way to do somebody over.

Saeran would comfort you. He would wrap you in a blanket and bring you something warm to drink so you can cry and work through your emotions with him. He'd coax you into taking a day off so you can do what you need to. Cry and rest. Whereas, Saeyoung would waste not a second in getting payback for you. If you consent. He can make the world know not to work for this woman because she treats workers like that.

No excuse to lead someone on because they made some kind of mistake and don't want to own up to their mistake! Just be upfront! Don't make Saeyoung dismantle you to ribbons for treating his family like garbage. Because he can and will do that. You can always count on Saeran and Saeyoung to make you feel respected. If nothing else.

[l48yr1nth]

Rant about something [weather you like something or hate something or an oc just whatever]

im not much of a ranter, actually. me and my BIL get along well because he always has something to say and i'm always down to just listen LUL. under the cut so nobody has to look at a wall of text if they don't want to

but erhhh ummm.... its really pretty outside today! i live on a lake, and i sit in just the right spot in my living room to see out to the backyard. as we get into the summer months, the sun starts to shine directly in through the windows to blind me! but i like the feeling of the sun so it's alright. My cat's ear funk is back (smells smelly) so i have to clean them soon (she will hate me). right now one of our bunnies is in the neighbors yard cus she found a hole in the fence! we're waiting on her to come back cus they aren't home LUL. we're going to be getting another dog soon from one of my aunts. my aunt got cancer and doesn't want the dog to go to her absolute pathetic leech asshole of a son (she jokes that she's a little relieved she won't have to deal with him much longer. i could go on about this guy but it honestly doesn't matter). the dog itself will be a bit of a problem. she's completely untrained, and never learned to play nicely! we have two other dogs to hopefully correct the playing rough stuff, but we'll have to properly potty train her. probably some other behavioral corrections too. we're going to put up gates on either side of the house so she can't run away through there (our one dog, chico, used to get out that way. he stopped at some point). we were originally planning to fly the dog back cus she's a ways away, but the mutt would probably shit itself and constantly bark on the plane so we're thinking of roadtripping it. which. will. be. hell. i hate sitting in cars for so long! i can't sleep in them at all. hmm. on another note i don't think i'm going to do another semester of college once i'm done with this one. i gave it a go and, yeah! i still hate how school works! it's just high school with less classes, really. amount of classes doesn't matter i don't want to do anything labeled an "assignment". i haven't said anything to my mom cus i'm a little nervous abt it, but i feel like 2 semesters is enough of dipping my toes to know this isn't what i want to do for the next 2-4 years. i have some severe academic anxiety or whatever so it's. REALLY hard for me to have these kinds of conversations with anyone. especially my mom, cus she interrogates me like hell over this stuff. i'm thinking of getting a job or going to trade school instead. i think i could do a task at a job without having a meltdown every night fr! scoring a job is hard though so. hm. im incredibly lucky to have the freedom to make these kinds of decisions. i want to go to the beach soon, but it's been so cold out these days. i finished re-reading a medic tf2 fic recently so i'm going to get back to reading WoF! I also wanna download some mods for stardew valley but i'm really not sure where to start. i have 2 commissions to do! i wish i was high rn fr. OHH IM HAVING A BIRTHDAY FOR MY WATERMELON LATER!!!! ITS BEEN SITTING ON OUR COUNTER FOR A YEAR! isn't that insane? they're not supposed to last more than a month or two REFRIDGERATED. this thing has been room temperature just chilling for 12 months. we're still not sure if we're gonna cut it or not today so i'm thinking i'll make a poll later for it. ok thats all i can think of

[rrxnjun]

hiii I'm sorry it took me sm time to reply i miss sending you these asks and talking to you 🤧 my hols have been going crazy with just tution class after tution class hh i did go on a 2 day trip last weekend tho and it was a nice break <3 (minus the part where we got drenched in the rain for like 2 hours straight. weather forecasts are scams.)

also screw uni for giving you a hard time :( just so you know I'm so proud of you for having the courage to move to a new place and to work on whatever you're studying right now despite not liking the city <33 manifesting sm fun moments and things to look forward to for you 🕯️🕯️ the weekends coming so hope that makes you feel better !!

help i had to Google up fire and air signs my astro knowledge = pinterest memes lol hfhfj all ik is I'm taurus. so after extensive research I've learnt that I have a thing for * drumroll * aquarians and capricorns (and the occasional Aries and cancer <33) hfjjf i had to search up all of my biases' zodiac info. i literally remember only hoshi's gfdhj He's not my bias (yet ??) but i find it funny before he's like, the Gemini of geminis 😭😭

YOO SEHUNS RAPS ALWAYS, LIKE ALWAYS, GET ME 'thats right my type' from his part in monster is stuck in my head rn. monster by exo <333

(OMG also you can drive ?? THATS COOL i wanna learn it so bad i can only drive a bike rn lolll bc you can only learn to drive cars from when you're 18 here)

HFJKDJFBJ i have a couple more exo memes (half of them are cursed hope no one checks the gallery in my phone) but for sm reason I'm not able to send pics or link things here Tumblr do be getting nastier by the day

the ncit coding thing was jungwoo the mechanical engineer and the others era LMAOO but that concept was 🥴 ngl college aus are a guilty pleasure for me and the shit they did just made my imagination go wild lol THE SPIDERMARK AGENDA THOOO DIDNT THINK HED ACTUALLY DO IT but again mark is the most likely to do smth like that

Do not talk to me about Lee donghyuck from that era. Just. Don't. He hot. HEWASINSANEFORTHATLIKETHECABLESTHINGWASFINEBUTTJFHRHKFCOLOURPALLETTEANDTHELOLLIPOPFUUUUUUHFHHF.

2 baddies is the catchiest song there exists the title makes me crack the fuck up its so funny DJFKLA i love it tho!!!!! havent checked out the whole album yet but designer's been on repeat its so good!!!! if you listened already, tell me your faves and ill make sure to get to it soon so we can talk abt it :pp

2 baddies 2baddies 1 porsche stil makes me giggle ngkf i haven't checked out the album yet hh (damn i have this and brand new by xiumin but i chose 28 reasons by goddess seulgi over both of them shhh) but i did listen to designer and hmmm <333

p.s. ily bar take care !! and stay safe 💕

its okay!!! we are both busy and mentally tired, send asks whenever you want to! i miss talking to you too tho and i wish life wasnt such a bitch to both of us lately 😡😡 im glad to hear u had fun on the trip!!!!! I got drenched last week as well bc my dumb ass forgot to bring an umbrella with me so im kind of sick ever since and its getting on my nerves 😭

thank you!! i am really fortunate that for the first time in my life, im interested in what im studying and im actually having fun in classes, so thats whats keeping me going tbh <3 also i think im slowly making new friends so i feel a bit better now :')

AHAHA VALID im only like a 30% astrology hoe i only know the very VERY basics. and omg youre a taurus!!!! my best friend is a taurus :) i seem to be getting a lot with tauruses AHAHA also aquariuses 😭 90% of the kpop scene is an aquarius so its very valid but i get it bc i am weak for them as well.

SEHUNS RAPS >>> also BRO my tiktok suddenly decided im in my exo-l era i keep getting exo tiktoks on my fyp and its so funny bc its so random but i also love it ???? 😭😭

i cant drive! 🥰 thats one of the main problems bc im supposed to have the driving exam in like 2 weeks and bro am i not doing well. i keep making stupid mistakes and im so scared im not gonna do it AHAHA here u can get your licence at 17! they let u drive with someone 18+ with at least 5(?) years of experience until you turn 18 and then u can drive on your own :) i actually waited longer to get my licence bc i was scared LMAO but its weird that at 19 i was the oldest in my course

SEND THOSE EXO MEMES ANY OTHER WAY PLEASE I AM IN NEED OF SOME FUNNY CONTENT. LITERALLY DM ME OR GET MY DISCORD I DO NOT CARE

college aus!! my weakness!! jungwoo and hyuck in sticker era 🥴🥴 but also 2 baddies jungwoo?? i lowkey think him and yuta are my 127 biases now if we exclude markhyuck bc im a devoted dreamzen LMAO

also THECABLESWERENTFINEISTILLTHINKABTITSOMETIMESANDIGETALITTLEFERALBUTALSOYESTHECOLORPALETTEFUCKIMSOCRAZYFORHIM

i did listen to the whole album but only in the bg as i was doing an assignment so i wasnt really paying 100% attention 😭😭😭 bUT designer has been on repeat its so good!!! other than that one i really enjoyed time lapse, gold dust and black clouds! Let me know which ones u like when u listen to it!!

I GOTTA LISTEN TO SEULGIS ALBUM AAAAAA i havent had the time to yet!!! but i did hear the title track on tiktok and the "i kiss your brother" is all i needed to hear to know that this will be lifechanging and i need to listen to it soon

I love you a lot! :) thank you for always finding time to come here and talk to me. take care and tell me all about how youve been next time!! hope you have a good week <3

[natepat]

Matt gets sick one day and he has GT Live he has to do for the day and he starts stressing about it. He honestly can't afford to miss or have to reschedule this one. In comes Nate though, offering to do the GT Live for him. (It can be with Steph or Nate alone either is good) Matt hesitantly agrees and Nate is actually pretty excited. Matt almost feels relieved deciding to watch it streaming, and chaos ensues. (Bonus viewers want Nate to do this again loving this absolutely chaotic GT Live)

Tbh I’d love and Steph & Nate livestream

[callmearcturus]

You wanted fic recommendations and I thought of a couple that I've enjoyed.

So I miss the days of Homestuck before everything was finalized. Like obviously DaveKat is amazing and wonderful but I miss it when people would write crazy ass crack fics that turned out pretty good. Or just the concept of AUs would be out the ass with creativity.

Unwanted Free Ugly Troll- is an AU where the trolls are regarded as pets or basically enslaved aliens from some other planet. DaveKat doesn't happen in this one because Karkat is essentially a baby in this one but it's neat and it's charming in its own way. Again might be a lil weird.

Book Covers-by Robbiewrites717 is pretty good. Basically Dave is a college student trying to figure his shit out and get his baby brother Dirk out of a shitty living situation. Bro is an awful dad. No smut happens in this one either and Dave has his usual internalized homophobia but they get over it. Eventually.

Honey, Milk, Wine- is a Rosemary fic where Roses mother has passed away and she returns home to grieve. Cannot recommend this one enough because it's soft and charming and whimsical. It's a comfort fic. Girl meets cute af fairy. Kanaya is adorable.

All Dirt Roads Lead to Misfortune- is my absolute favorite rn. Might be forever honestly because fuck I do love cowboys and western themes for no good goddamn reason. When it updates I'm gonna fuckin' scream.

Your friendly neighborhood rapgod-...yeah it's Dave but he's spiderman. I really like this a whole fucking lot because of the whole family dynamic where Dirk is actually a good brother. Rose is just fucking amazing in this.

Demon Eyes- DaveKat but Dave is supposed to be killing demons like his bro wants and Karkat is a demon. Surprise surprise not all demons are bad. Bro is never good tho. I think this one has a lot of individual pieces attached that branch out from it so there's like "bonus" content.

I understand that everyone has different taste so maybe you won't care for what I have suggested and that's totally fine. These can all be found on archives of our own you should be able to type in the name and instantly get the fic to pop up.

Those are my suggestions. If they suck I'm sorry.

One more for spooky season. Dave gets addict to sopor slime. It's not a happy fic. I enjoyed it. https://archiveofourown.org/works/21173753 I just now realized I can just do links. Huh… You want me to link the others? I don't wanna like blow up your box.

nah you're good! thank you for the list!

[bordeleaubeau]

noo that’s literally my biggest fear. i’m currently a senior rn and i got into schools and i’m so afraid of wanting to transfer and hating the school that i will attend. do you mind me asking what school you currently go to?

babe do NOT stress about it! it's a very real thing, a lot of people end up transferring and changing their minds - there's nothing wrong with you if you end up wanting to do so:) trust me, i could tell you at least 10 people on only two floors in my dorm building of 300+ people that are transferring. and there's still 6 other floors.

so, i go a state school in pa! i don't wanna say because it's such a small school and with my chance someone that goes to my school will somehow end up seeing this lol. looong story short, my parents rent the house we're in, still paying off cars because we got new cars recently, and there's no one that i could ask to co sign for loans for me, so i couldnt ask my parents to cosign since no collateral and i dont have anyone close enough to me to sign. so, basically, it was tough shit for me when it came to schools! my parents did not have 30k+ to drop a semester for me. one of the hardest pains is getting into your top school and not being able to go because of financials. i got into virginia tech (top), penn state main, hofstra, and michigan state and i couldn't go to any of them ! i'm really grateful that my tuition is as low as it is, don't get me wrong, and we have a pretty decent media program and we're getting a new media center for the media and journalism (my major!) kids over the next year or so.

i just really feel like i'm not supposed to be here. i love my friends more than anything on most days, but i still feel like there's more. my circumstances are a little different considering my school was quite literally my last resort - but make sure you're making the best decision for YOU. if you know you wont like a big campus make sure you at least tour to 100% know, and then you know to not go to a big school. make sure your school actually has a good program for your major too!!!! and if you're undecided, make sure the stuff youre interested in has a decent program too:)

if you have any questions love please feel free to send them in ! i love talking about my college life to anyone that will listen:)

[sapphicambitions]

this might be dumb but like. theater is gonna come back eventually right? like it might take a year or two until after a vaccine has been developed and widely distributed, but I don't think the entire theater industry is over... right? sorry I dont wanna sound like im dismissing your struggles rn but... don't you think your degree will come in handy again, even if you have to get another job for the next year or two? I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now :(

Theatre will come back one day, absolutely. Theatre is the oldest art form and it has survived for thousands and thousands of years. If any art form will survive this, it will be theatre. If not any other than small college groups in basements, Theatre will survive. I know a lot of majors theatres are shooting for 2021 reopenings, even if they haven’t announced that to the general public. I think a lot of places will reopen slowly, with minimal staff and smaller audience, trying to cut back on the amount of people in the building.

That’s where I think I’m fucked.

You see when I say “I can’t use my theatre degree anymore” I’m not really referring to the death of the theatre industry and more about my own personal usage of it.

The theatre industry is not an easy one to break into, especially the level I was shooting for. When theatres come back and they’re hiring back minimal staff, and they’re only gonna hire people they know. I’m a 23 year old stage manager who was fresh out of college and moved to a brand new city to do a fellowship at a theatre, and my fellowship got cut short because of COVID. I missed a lot of networking opportunities I was supposed to get in the lass month of my fellowship. I emailed theatres in February asking for work, but because no one knew me and then the shut down happened, I didn’t hear back from any of them. I don’t know anybody in my city and when theatres start hiring back, there’s not a single theatre in my city who’ll be like “oh, somebody make sure we get Laynie” because I don’t have any connections. I don’t even have a connection at my fellowship theatre anymore because they’ve hired new production managers.

And like, I can’t sit around and wait and hope that someone will hire me. I’ve had to get a temporary job in order to afford rent and I’ve started looking for a more stable job (I’m hell bent on being a secretary) and after all the mental shit I’ve been through in the last two months and after making below minimum wage at my fellowship, I need a stable job I can be at for a while to save up money so I can live.

So like let’s say that theatres do a soft opening in January with smaller groups and they don’t get back up to full capacity for several months, let’s say I don’t have the chance to start job searching for a stage management position for another year, maybe two. I’m basically back at square one. I have no connections and minimal experience. Been out of the game too long. Like lmao I’m just not gonna get hired.

Others might try to spin this to be more positive and say my careers not dead yet but I need you to understand that I have been in a full breakdown for the last two months and the only way I’ve been able to pull myself somewhat out of it is if I tell myself that it’s okay if I move onto some other career and I let go of theatre. I have nothing to look forward to in theatre right now and I can’t look to the past without breaking down so I’m focusing on a future without theatre and trying to make it normal and okay in my brain

If I seem like I’ve snapped in this post it’s because you’ve hit a very sensitive topic for me and I have zero self control or chill anymore

Xoxo

[3416]

Why are you so angry @ people who want to pursue higher education//angry at the idea of higher education in general? I 100% agree with you the classism that the system perpetuates is a problem. But the way you phrase it just seems so... angry at the world that YOU didn’t get to have that opportunity rather than angry at the system. + I think that anger is valid, but the way you usually phrase it - with an incoherent keysmash and a focus on you rather than the collective - gives off petty vibes

did you send this to the right person?? i've talked about higher education in the past (keysmash sounds like me !) and honestly have a lot to say but i haven't made a post recently i dont think so i have no idea what you're referring to. anyway if this IS intended for me... here's my answer:

why am i so mad about the higher education system in america? bc it's literally a joke putting thousands and thousands of ppl in debt for a piece of paper that half the time, it doesn't even matter what it says ! i have so many anecdotes about people who got jobs just bc of the bachelor's degree and it wasn't even in the same field lmao. you work and work and work toward this "degree" that's supposed to mean something, and here, it honestly doesn't. i'm not angry at people who want to pursue a degree (i am literally one of those ppl) but i think from a young age, the system does a damn good job brainwashing you into thinking you HAVE to have one. we were thinking abt where we wanted to attend college from the age of like 8. that's fucked up and in school, they never even leave room for you to think.. oh maybe i don't want one. and we're not even talking abt the pressure it puts on people who have no fucking clue what they want to do. the job market is oversaturated with ppl who have degrees and no experience, so they have to settle for being underpaid. meanwhile, you've got debt piling up and up and up and you have to start paying on it. plus costs of school are rising but is the education itself getting better or more meaningful? literally no. and don't even get me started on public vs private and ivy leagues and all that stupid shit... you wanna talk abt something that perpetuates classism. i love the idea of continuing school, learning more than i have post 12th grade, but the united states has a FUCKED system of higher education and the disparities are gonna continue to grow until it collapses or there's reform, so. again, idk if this was intended for me as a message, but your questions prompt me to believe that... maybe YOU need to look at the system and how it operates in the real world rn. and if you're not from america, well... lucky you, probably. i've known plenty of people... with class and privilege and money.. who have gone to school and made a great time of it, but it needs to be more accessible to everyone and i think some people really need to examine their options before they pile on thousands, even hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt and then go into a work force that pays you $16 an hour. just doesn't cut it, it's all a trap, and it's the system's fault very OBVIOUSLY, not the peoples. anyway, it's not petty to want better for people or better for the system and culture as a whole. and maybe you should stop assuming you know where people's anger comes from internally, no matter who this was intended for, and look at why you yourself are bothered enough to send an anon, lol.

[punkscowardschampions]

Indie & Rio

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Indie: youre playing not to take me w to get a 👶 🎁 but you kno 💖💖💖 Rio: That is a good idea tho the price tag would have you shook Rio: [Pic] Rio: It's an engagement ring Rio: ahh I feel a bit sick Indie: YOUVE GOT JOKES MAN 😂😂😂 Indie: even mckenna aint that highkey he gonna proper wife you rn Rio: mad init Indie: serious? Rio: yeah Rio: promise Indie: 😲😲😲😲😲😲😲 Indie: bitch i aint wearing no dress to the 💒 tho Rio: i know Rio: but how you gon' be maid of honour if you don't? 😘 Indie: ill tax that best man role from other mckenna if you keep playing 💪😎😎 Indie: & i aint callin you mckenna now thatd be a madness of getting you caught up w that boy in convos Rio: Fine we'll discuss this later Rio: 'cos ain't like it's happening now so you know Indie: locked you down w out locking in a date i get it Rio: Yeah Rio: what do you think then Rio: honest Indie: its sick news Indie: the boy be acting right & appreciating what he got 👑👑💖💖 Rio: i'm so glad you think so Rio: thanks, babe Rio: ain't gonna make a big song and dance and tell everyone but i ain't gonna hide it either Rio: know everyone gonna have an opinion, again Rio: just can't get enough, clearly 😂 Indie: feelin the love that you spoke it to me Indie: the only opinion that counts b that he aint finding no better hoe here, in the 24 or anywhere Indie: facts Rio: You gonna make me cry and they gonna throw me out this boujee ass store Indie: wipe dem tears on 💸💸💸 so they kno you can hang still Rio: 😂 Rio: already gonna be out here wearing someone's college tuition on my finger like Rio: see why people do this more than once, get a nice collection going Indie: mckenna gon 😭😭😭 boy is soft Indie: dont let him hear you chatting bout no round 2 Rio: 😏 Rio: poor baby, don't be mean Indie: catch me getting married never i gotta live this thru you amp bitches Rio: Fair, didn't ever expect I would Indie: gon kick it old school like your nan 👶👶👶👶👶 but no 💍 Rio: 😖 Glad you out here thinking so highly of me bitch 😜 Indie: 😂😂😂😂 Indie: is you got the fear tho for reals or nah? Rio: It's weird Rio: I know it's what I want like I didn't even think about saying nah but Rio: you have every other voice in your head saying it's too quick or we shouldn't even be together at all, you know Indie: i feel it Indie: i got em in mine tryna chat against everything i tryna do all the time Indie: gotta just chat back that they bein dry Rio: Yeah Rio: you right Indie: how we celebratin this?? thats what i wanna be knowing Rio: we should go out for dinner Indie: catch me thirdwheelin over 🍝 soz baby boy 💋 Rio: shh nah, it'll be good, there are some fancy places that do food you'll actually eat so we can live lavish Indie: tell him bring a friend if he rollin w any still 😂😂😏💘😏 Rio: Not tryna get you NONE at my engagement party tah Rio: get you fill o the food tho 😋 Indie: it aint gotta be heavy Indie: been long since anyone meshed me tho so help a hoe out Rio: hmm don't be tryna play addickted Rio: i'll get you a vibrator, like Rio: not to say go fuck yourself but Indie: 😂😂😂😂 when your ma been out for the day & brings home 🎁🎁s like Rio: pah, he'd actually die of embarrassment Indie: when you out your man as vanilla tho Indie: o mckenna Rio: I just don't reckon he wants to think 'bout you meshing Rio: no offence, like Indie: back trecking like its your job baby Indie: 👀 you & his ways Rio: 🙈 den gurl Indie: too late to swerve dat 🏩 Rio: 🙄 just be thankful i never brought it to ours when we was sharing Indie: safe Indie: I kno you in your ☁ rn but when you back cos shit b testing me & dat 2 drink minimum Rio: What's up? Indie: ex-boy got a new 💘 so he tryna pass my shit back but cos i aint there hes @ the squad & they vexed @ me cos of Indie: 💔💔💔💔💔 Rio: 😔 Rio: Are the lads gonna get it or nah Rio: Don't suppose it's worth seeing if Drew still wanna be Dad of the year one last time, like Rio: may as well use him if he's offering, yeah? Indie: things been heated since the 🐕 & what of mine they are holding so like no beef to the lads but idk Indie: am i tryna text him ever tho 😒😒😒 Rio: Yeah, we'll go 'round the houses when I'm back Rio: someone will go get it Rio: don't worry Rio: we won't be long now Indie: & like not tryna still have love for that boy but aint it mad quick miss me for a few after you dash me Rio: It is Rio: but I ain't surprised, it's how lads, esp lads like that, do Rio: doesn't mean it didn't mean nothing to him necessarily Rio: could still be crying 'bout it in your inbox in a few, not trying to give false hope even 'cos fuck him Indie: i dont wanna be hurtin over this no more Indie: gotta get not bothered Rio: I know Rio: fake it 'til you make it, babe Rio: all you can do Indie: innit tho Indie: tell mckenna to buy me bling too thatll help 😂😂😂😂 Rio: 😂 Rio: 'course Indie: not saying he gotta drop a rents worth on the drip like Indie: just how much he feelin Rio: also not tryna be your sisterwife like Indie: no mood Indie: he vanilla but i aint tryna compete w your moves still Rio: Teach you but I'd have to charge Indie: hes on daddy hype too hard i cant be chattin like that to him or no lad soz boy Rio: Don't really put you in any mood but 😒? Rio: Fair Indie: why drop 💸💸💸💸 on therapy when you can spend on 🚬 its all good Rio: It ain't Rio: but we'll make it Indie: you reckon drews gon show w 👶🎁🎁🎁 or imma be repin for the fam? Rio: I don't know if that'd even enter his head Rio: tbh Indie: she could ⛔ us all in a big sweep Indie: me you & him Rio: She could Rio: I don't think she will you though, babe Rio: not like you've done shit wrong Indie: she just aint about me Indie: i feel it w her too Indie: itll b how itll b Rio: yeah but she can't be that petty Rio: even if she wanna Rio: she's a grown ass woman Indie: neither of em out here acting like they grown Indie: why she gonna start when she have this kid Rio: 'cos she'll have to Rio: unlike Drew she can't just pass it around and hope everyone else does it for her Indie: yeah but she know your ma in law got her back & your real Rio: She can't let Bea raise her kid for her Rio: or Ma Rio: anyway, she's got too much pride in everything not related to Drew, trust Indie: tru Rio: I promise, it's gonna be fine Indie: i got trust in you babe thats how im here Rio: 💘💘💘 Indie: dont be letting it slip now you got 💍 Rio: Never Indie: its chill then Indie: what we tryna wear tonite bitch? Rio: got enough trust in me to lemme pick you up some fresh garms or? Indie: hmmm Indie: cos you in a ☁ yeah Indie: theres your engagement gift ✌ Indie: do it how you gonna Rio: 😂 you know I'm good Rio: and no 👗s Rio: not taking the piss Indie: 👀 Indie: no 🤡ing Rio: would I do a thing like that? Indie: nah but mckenna will if he gets pissy you aint shopping for him 😂😂😂 Rio: We already had to treat him 'cos you know Rio: men don't cuffed 'til the day of Indie: you rode him in there say no more 🤐🤐🍾🍾 Rio: 😂 Rio: Not what I meant even but not gonna lie Indie: 😏😏😏 Indie: i been knew Rio: Keeping it unpredictable is our predictable, babe Indie: you out there vibin 😍😍😍 its a day when you can be extra Indie: make most Rio: As if there's a day when I ain't 😉 Rio: At least my Ma can't say shit to me, she was a marriage and 2 kids deep by now with Eds on the way so Indie: his gon get vocal tho man i feel it Indie: 👀 his dad @ me like 😒 how she livin Rio: I know Rio: Hoping they don't notice, like lemme forget which finger this meant to go on Rio: 😬 Indie: she gon be busy @ the business end of her sis when we hit dubs you all good 😂😂😂😂 Indie: & you could always swerve it so the 💎 not facing out when they 👀 Indie: ✌ hacks Rio: am I tryna stop a muggin' or 😂 Rio: you jokes Rio: also never wanna think about her business end thanks 😷 Indie: innit her drum not got dem thin walls like ours 🙏🙏🙏 or they aint vocal how you and mckenna do Rio: Literally can't imagine how this baby came to be Rio: but I'm chill with that, I don't wanna Indie: used that medical shit fr he aint been near her thats how i clue it Rio: i'm creasing rn and can't even explain 'cos nah Indie: serious she that bitch you tryna lips her & she gotta go shower Rio: I know Rio: Childbirth gonna break her 'less she got that c-section on lock Indie: hit her w all the good gear 🚀🚀🚀🚀 Rio: Probably wanna do it without for the brag idk Indie: o snap Indie: truuuuuuuu Rio: She gotta be ready to drop any day, like Indie: 👀 &👂 Indie: we turnin up if she want us or nah Indie: how many mckennas 👶👶s you gon have? Rio: We'll be about, can't avoid School forever Rio: and shut up bitch 😂 Indie: cmon man i kno you 💭 on it Indie: he a pretty boy Rio: nah Rio: i got a life to live babe Indie: your ma been proved you can have it all bitch Indie: birth dem 👶👶s give em posh names & send em to fancy school like they da Rio: yeah n she given me enough sibs to never need my own Rio: not to mention all your drama 😜 Indie: 😂😂😂 Indie: im a drama free zone now ty what you sayin Rio: whilst we in this postcode maybe Rio: but not for long babe Indie: nah for long imma be swervin that shit ✌✌ Indie: any postcode Rio: 👏 sounds good to me too Indie: got ink to jog me if i tryna slip Rio: yeah Rio: least you didn't get the M too Indie: like i been said id just put an a on it for that shoutout to my 3 mas baby 💖💖💖 all good Rio: there's always that Rio: if you really want you can add to it Rio: reclaim it, like Indie: hacks Indie: but i aint got no 💸💸💸💸 for Rio: I can pay Rio: or Ma would do it Indie: o yeah Indie: imma hit her up when we home Rio: Have you decided where you gonna be? Indie: mayb w bills cos she 😢💔 idk Rio: Yeah? Indie: if edie back then naaaaah Indie: or if drew been locked up can squat in the flat til it reclaimed Rio: We'll work something out Rio: I'll probably look for a new place Indie: you not gon move in mckennas dubs yard like you own that? Rio: Don't think the rest of 'em would appreciate that like 😏 Indie: other mckenna would rollin in that big drum solo gotta be dry Rio: Yeah still don't think I'm housemate choice no.1 Indie: thats her bad cos you 👑👑👑🔥🔥🔥👑👑👑 Rio: 💘💘💘 Rio: You biased Indie: nah i not Indie: im not here for drew just cos he blood Rio: Anyway, can't be presuming that's how he wanna be living, like Indie: is it? Rio: Yeah, he ain't coming here 'til October imagine if I'd legit moved myself in 😂 Indie: he put a 💍 on it how he not gon be down Rio: that's like rule no 1 init Rio: gotta make sure you've got your own taken care of in case everything goes tits Indie: safe Indie: 👑 moves be like Rio: If I really was probably shoulda said no shouldn't I Rio: kick it like his Ma Indie: if he wants a girl like his ma you need to have a convo Indie: that some freaky shit Rio: 😂 Rio: psych101 would blow your mind Indie: i aint even tyna kno what you mean Indie: old white dudes be cracked Rio: Yeah wouldn't have you buzzin' 'bout your daddy issues Indie: what they sayin bout? i wanna fuck drew now? plot twist fam Rio: you know Rio: we all do but clearly got it twisted 'cos my type ain't ever been my da Rio: no offence boy but Indie: your da be 😍😍😍 god bless Rio: have we swapped? 😂 Indie: he raised me higher than drew done so Indie: daddy caleb come thru Rio: 😷 Indie: 😂😂😂😂 Rio: Such a grown convo Indie: hoe im keepin you grounded Indie: livin that grown life 24 7 w mckenna Rio: tru Rio: it's a madness i should still be in school Rio: i feel so 👵 fr Indie: you is Rio: cheeky cow Rio: meant to hype me not wreck me 😂 Indie: he be too tho Indie: so tamed its a madness Indie: remember how he used roll Rio: well you know Rio: 😻 game so strong Indie: you no need my hype bitch Indie: you know what you done Rio: You reckon Indie: girl aint be gettin a callback you got 💍💎💎 & 💒 hype Indie: he kicked it long distance for you & he aint putting in effort no way fore then Rio: Yeah Rio: ignore me Rio: just the fear init Indie: get a new drink Indie: chase that Rio: 🍾 Indie: check your boy i bet he aint feelin no fear Rio: He wouldn't say if he was Indie: hed chat it to you Indie: that boy always talking Rio: 😂 thought you reckoned he was the strong silent type Indie: that was afore he was my new daddy Indie: now i 👀 Rio: 😏 Poor boy Rio: I'll keep it on the dl, protect his ego Indie: ill keep it uncommon knowledge to protect this roof over Rio: yeah, least wait 'til you safe in the 24 to be rude 😜 Indie: innit Rio: right, we heading back Indie: ✌✌ Indie: in a few Indie: less he wants you all to himself Rio: he already been had that Indie: he gave you 💎 you can give him a day 😂😂😂 Rio: is it? Rio: why you want air? 👀 Indie: jam ma im tryna do you & your mans a solid Indie: fore i 3rd wheel your nite like Indie: aint this bitch in your pocket & way when we rollin in the 24 Rio: hmm Rio: if you're sure Indie: trust Rio: then we'll be back with your garms and the reservation later then Indie: safe Indie: dont be doing anything i aint tryna Indie: 💖💖💖💖💖 Rio: 🧡🧡🧡

[foulserpent]

i'm going to high school this year ( still in middle skool 🤣💪👌😂👀💯) and holy shit was it that bad? I don't wanna ask for advice since i'm pretty sure you mentioned you hated high school, but..... i am not going to survive

ok if its any reassurance, the main reason i hated highschool was the people. and also i had gotten thru most of my life being labelled a “gifted child” and never having to study much at all, which came back to bite me in the ass in highschool, so that can be avoided.

so like biggest things off the top of my head:

dont take more than one AP class at a time unless you 100% know what youre getting into

however i recommend taking at least a couple AP classes if you can handle it. it looks good on college apps, and you get college credit (which you wont appreciate right away but trust me YOU WILL be glad about that later on). also it does give you some studying skills that will be really helpful in the long run

dont feel too pressured to join clubs, sports, etc unless you want to. yeah on some levels its good for you and will let you meet new people but it isnt vital as a lot of people say lol

i hate to sound like this but. really do your homework. study. dont skip class. you dont have to break your back over it but at least push yourself soph and junior years, bc thats when it matters most (for college apps.) 

talk to your teachers when you need help. that seems like a given but a lot of people jsut dont? most of them will be decent and willing to help you out

take advantage of study hall times, before school help, etc

sleep is important, which is a “do as i say not as i do” thing but really you will Suffer when you go to school on like 3 hours of sleep

TAKE ADVANTAGE OF WORK TIME IN CLASS. DONT JUST FUCK AROUND WHEN YOU GET FREE TIME. like fucking seriously it will save your life. whenever you get free time just use it to get homework done so you have less to do that night. you will thank yourself and you will get good at squeezing in homework during other classes. 

and for some reassurance, the change isnt as drastic as you might think. highschool is very different than middleschool, but its not like... Shocking. youll get used to it pretty quickly. 

i remember hearing some bullshit in middleschool about “the grade youre in is the number of hours youll need to study every night!!” which is. absolutely 100% untrue, (which i suppose is pretty obvious but yknow). your total amount of homework will probably average out to an hour or two, depending on the day. sometimes less.

sophomore and junior years are the hardest, freshman and senior years will be a breeze comparatively.

anyway im really tired rn so i might be missing some things but yeah there you go.