#idc how dumb it is i will blind myself

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y/n: hi

tae: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

y/n: ?

tae: holy fuck ur so fucking funny😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️😭

jimin: i BEG you let that man hit

at this point it’s embarrassing

tae: pls

jk: i think ur funny too

namjoon: shame is free

tae: idk what that’s supposed to mean

jk: it means shame is free i think

y/n: is that why you’ve been at my house for the last 2 weeks??

cuz you wanna hit??

yoongi: 2 weeks??

jin: down so fucking bad

jk: i thought tae was here cuz he missed us?

tae: I AM I SWAER

but if y/n let me hit in the time i was here i wouldn’t be mad

y/n: ur sick

hobi: why have you let tae stay in ur house for 2 weeks?

y/n: he FORCED his way in here

tae: not true jungkook willingly let me in

jin: jungkooks not even a real person so that doesn’t count

jk: i’m real

i think

jimin: i’m telling you he needed that 100k for rent

yoongi: taehyung homeless era

tae: I HAVE A HOME

y/n: ur not acting like it

tae: home is where the heart is

and my hearts with you bbg

y/n: leave

jk: am i real?

tae: are you a construction worker?

jk: no

tae: cuz ur a building

namjoon: what?

tae: 😉

@y/n

not you namjoon or jungkook

y/n: it’s hard

the life i live

hobi: hard like a criminal hard like the beat

tae: my rizz is out of this world it’s actually insane

jimin: do you know what rizz means?

bcs you can’t be fr

jk: isn’t rizz a type of cheese?

yoongi: this is my competition…

y/n: ur thinking of swiss cheese kook

jk: I AM

how did you know that??

y/n: can one of you guys come a get tae from us pls im begging you

jimin: i can’t read sorry

jin: i’m literally blind

hobi: 🫣

y/n: i fear his stupidness is rubbing off on jungkook

yoongi: i think he’s just naturally dumb as hell

jk: who

yoongi: see

y/n: plS my biggest fear in this life is waking up to furry jk

tae: ummm

that would have nothing to do with my influence

yoongi: call animal control maybe they’ll help you with tae?

tae: ??????

y/n: NAMJOON PLS UR MY ONLY HOPE PLS PLS PLS

namjoon: i’m not here

tae: CAN SOMONE DEFEND ME LIKE OMG???

jUNGKOOK TELL HER HER GREAT I AM

jk: he’s great

tae: UR NO HELP FUCK U

i’m gonna kill myself in front of you all in the most horrific way and change ur lives forever and NO amount of therapy will help you forget or move on

jk: ok i’m ready

tae: i’m leaving

y/n: god bless 🙏🏽

tae: ur obsessed with me get help

i hate you all

losers

gosh

fucking bitches the LOT of you

L

AWOOOOOOO

lone wolf era

jimin: what the fuck

namjoon: are you done?

tae: yeah :/

y/n: do you feel better now??

tae: as better as i can be in a situation like this :/

hobi: what situation?

tae: wdym?

jin: he has to be brain dead or something

tae: right hoseok stupid as hell

jk: i think jimin is talking about you bro

tae: jungkook ur young i wouldn’t expect you to understand

jk: ur right

y/n: they changed the korean age system isnt that crazy

jin: DON’T TALK ABOUT AGE

jimin: it’s a sensitive topic for him cuz he’s still old no matter what

namjoon: please

jk: i’m 25

jin: IDC SHUT UP

y/n: yikes

hobi: jungkook has been 25 for like 10 years

jk: that’s not true that makes no sense

hobi are you bad at maths?

hobi: don’t speak to me

tae: jimin you smell the best in the group

y/n: why are you smelling people?

hobi: furry

tae: after the loml ofc

jk: jennie?

tae: SHUT UP

jk: did you break up again???

tae: KICK HIM KICK HIMMM

jimin: what do i smell like?

tae: like vanilla i love it soOOOO much

it’s like a sweet vanilla but not so strong it overpowers ur senses it’s just right

i could eat you

jimin: i wish bitches i wanted said shit like this

but it’s just you

thx ig

tae: ???????

jin: that’s frfr creepy as hell tbh

why is he actually sniffing people is that not insane

jimin: don’t be mad you don’t smell like sweet vanilla

jin: i’m actually glad

look at what ur attracting

hobi: furries

jin: right

tae: 𝖘𝖍𝖚𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖋𝖚𝖈𝖐 𝖚𝖕

jk: WOAH

CALM DOWN TAE CALM DOWN TAE ITS OKAY ITS JUST US 😰😨😭

jimin: again what the actual fuck

tae: ur right i’m sorry i didn’t mean to get like that guys

jk: it’s okay

namjoon: they’re actually insane oh my god

y/n: i have seen a real decline in jungkooks mental state since the arrival of tae at our home

yoongi: again i think that’s just jungkook

y/n: no i know jungkook

jk: yeah she knows me

i know her

we have a connection you wouldn’t understand yoongi

y/n: and i know for a FACT he’s not that dumb

hobi: dumb dumb

jk: right i’m not that dumb

tae: WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY RN???

jk: wait

namjoon: tae go back to therapy

jimim: begging you

jin: awoman🙏🏻

tae: NO

I TOLD YOU LAST TIME

SHE LAUGHED AT ME

THE THERAPIST

I WONT I WONT I WONT

you can’t make me

it’s a free world

jk: you can buy the world??

yoongi: what do people see in you?

jk: whom?

y/n: LMAOOOO

namjoon: jungkook are you high rn?

jk: am i what?

namjoon: high

jk: hello

work on ur spelling joon

jimin: who tf is supplying him with this shit

jin: bet it was tae

tae: NO LOL

LOL

LOL

yoongi: so it was tae

y/n: HAVE YOU BEEN GETTING JUNGKOOK HIGH THESE LAST 2 WEEKS TAE???????

namjoon: this explains a lot

hobi: this is why he’s been messaging shit to my phone at like 2 in the morning

crazy

jk: who

tae: NO

LOL

y/n: HOW HAVE I NOT NOTICED???

jimin: right you dumb as hell tbh

namjoon: does it not smell??

jin: namjoon drug expert

tae: MAYBE HES BEEN TAKING EDIBLES

FROM SOMEONE WHEN YOU GO TO SLEEP???

LOL

yoongi: why are you giving ur self away like that

you really are stupid

jk: yeah stupid

yoongi: don’t ever agree with me again

jk: in y/ns bed rn

hobi: fight fight fight

yoongi: been there multiple times

jk: um ur lying

im here every night

i haven’t run into you in the last 4 months

tae: DONR TELL ME YOU LET JUNGKOOK HIT BEFOR ME OH MY GOD I CANT BREATHE RNNNNNNNNNNN

LIKE JUNGKOOK

ARE YOU FR .:’sk

omGGGH

NOOOSODODOD

jk: i’ve never hit a woman in my life

it’s not right pls don’t hit y/n

y/n: he comes to cuddle sometimes

yoongi: he does?

jk: everyday actually

she’s lying

jin: i’m gonna kill 14 puppies in-front of taehyung and see what happens

tae: why me

jin: you’re n need of a personality change

tae: i’m fine the way i am??

love urself and others will love you for you

we made a whole album about it?

jin: i’m not loving you for you tbh

and a LOT of people would say the same

tae: you guys are lucky i’m not sensitive

y/n: i’ve always been a lucky girly

hobi: you literally live with jungkook?

jk: yes?

hobi: nothing

jk: if you remember lmk ^^

tae: y/n do you have ugly man syndrome or something?

y/n: ??

tae: idk you just seem to enjoy being friendly with ugly men

y/n: never once have i said i’ve enjoyed ur company

tae: ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY IM THE UGLY MAN??

y/n: you said it not me…

tae: anything jungkook can do i 110% do it better

unless it’s lack common sense

i’m pretty full of common sense

jimin: that’s actually not true

y/n: maybe that’s what gets jungkook cuddles?

jk: when?

yoongi: being stupid?

y/n: yeah maybe he’s a loser and i find it endearing

yoongi: lol

hobi: me when i’m jealous

tae: IM ACTUALLY THE BIGGESt LOSER AROUND

TELL HER GUYS

namjoon: the biggest!

jimin: HE SOOOOOO DUMB ITS CRAZY

hobi: i feel the need to kick him every time i see him type of loser

jin: he’s such a loser actually i still bully him to this day

tae: not too much now

hobi: okay i can’t do this anymore let’s address the elephant in the room

jimin: namjoon…

namjoon: wtf?

y/n: don’t be mean

jk: are you guys in all in a room without me?

tae: u-um >.<

jin: did he just stutter through text?

y/n: pls stop

jk: where is the elephant??

jin: jungkook go to bed or something ur pissing me off now

jk: sleep well jin

namjoon: gn jin

jin: don’t feed into his shit namjoon

jk: y/n are you with the elephant?

yoongi: y/N aRe yOu wItH tHE eLepHaNt

jimin: what the beef omg?

tae: what is this elephant hobi-senpai ?!!!

i’m sitting on the edge of my seat

♡ (⇀ 3 ↼)

jk: me 2

hobi: tae you need to learn how to get a fucking grip and shut the fuck up

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FYI JK AND Y/N ARE LIVING TOGETHER FOR THE FUNZIES OKAY? FOR THE GIRLIES THAT DO NOT KNOW

the rest of the members have their own houses and are lonely losers

[ameliasbitvh]

ahhhh! thank you all soso much for the 300 followers! i just hit 200 last week?! how are there 300 of you? i honestly don’t know, but i started this account as a place to just read smut and then i decided to post on here. the reason why my first post was angst was because i was being a slut for angst to feel something in those few moments- okay i’ll stop myself right there. for this milestone i’m going to do mutual appreciation for the moots i’ve interacted with the most so far! (if we’re moots and u wanna interact pls do, i’m not scary!)

okayy first up,

@underappreciated-spoon-321

i love you so much bby, i could not believe it when you followed me. i was legit crying happy tears and i specifically remember you followed me after i posted “needy” random lol.

your writing is immaculate, absolutely lovely. ur smut *chefs kisses* i love that you put up with my shit photos that i send you and that you actually ask for more- but it baffled me when you first interacted with me, this was my reaction

*deep breath* “omfg! (ur username) just interacted with me, wtf do i do?!” also ur nick name reminds me of belly from dear, draco.

i’m not writing a lot, bc for your sleepover i wrote you a damn paragraph 😭 but i love u sm belly!! 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

@dracoskinks

ARI! i love talking to you, bc i can talk about anything and when i say anything i mean anything. like kinks, porn, random draco scenarios, etc… you are one of the funniest people i have seen on this app.

ur blunt and funny at the same time, it just makes it more fun to talk to you. ur smut is soso good, bc i don’t find a lot of smut with a dom!reader and sub!draco.

i remember you followed me, so out of curiosity i checked out your blog and saw your piss kink fic and that did it for me. after that i followed you back and we became moots ajnwja. when ur first account got terminated you scared me so fucking much, because i thought you were going to leave tumblr forever. don’t. ever. play. like. that. again. i’m glad we became moots bc i fucking love you <3

@opalsheart

I LOVE YOU SM! i think u were the first moot that i interacted with in direct messages, bc you had tea to spill, and ever since than we’ve been #4lifers. you send me edits and hate on t*m felton with me on instagram. you were the first mutual to know what i looked like lmaoo. u r an absolute goddess, bestie, like what- i know that you can pull anyone you want, so stop playing when you talk about someone.

even though we have a fucking 12 hour time difference, we still find time to talk to each other. it is so fun talking with you and the fact that when we talk it’s night for one of us. you let me send that stupid tik tok of ed sheeran and t*m felton to you and it probably haunts your dreams now ajnwajsj-

i appreciate that you study ur MF ass off for your exams, bc i could never. and you even send me those cute memes when i wake up- also we better be watching those true crime documentaries, bc i’m still waiting. idc if we have a time difference :) anyways ILY SM ELLIE !! <3

@laceycallisto

okay- where do i even get started with this. we first interacted when i reblogged that draco fan fic and we reblogged talking about how desperate we were trying to find that iconic fic. and i forgot that the creator could see all the reblogging we were doing- you texted me directly about adding my name into your tags, which obviously i agreed to. then we just started talking about random shit like how we were superior because we were june geminis. or how we talked about being in love with remus lupin.

i have vivid flash backs of how your remus fic hurt me. i cried my false lashes off proof reading janajaj- bestie- you’ve seen me cry ajnwja- your writing is ethereal, i don’t know how you can see that? your so nice too, like girly u gave me ur netflix within like a day of knowing each other 💀 we watched bridgerton in two mother fucking sittings. we ate that bridgerton hoe up!

all ur input on the scenes were so funny like the “with child” and “dicking” comments 😭 i love how it’s so easy to talk to you about everything, like how dumb i am- even talking about the privilege of being poc and not burning in the sun. bruh u even let me tag u in dumb tik tok videos, like what?! and i think your the only mutual i have that’s in the same time zone as me… also we better binge the next season. but ily sm, ur like my older sister, even if u say ur life is shitty 😭 <3

@dracomalfoys-wh0re

honestly, kacia. i owe a lot to you for my account being “found” or whatever, bc you reblogged a fic of mine, i’m pretty sure it was “common room” and that’s when i started getting notes and followers najajwjwj- you might not know that but i do 💀 i will forever remember that.

you literally were one of the first accounts ever- to follow me. and i won’t lie, i went crazy when u followed me because i love your fics so much! you are so funny and blunt too i swear 😭

and can we talk about your tom riddle fic? like?!the fact that you really showed tom’s true personality and character. every world had me enthralled further into the fic, the way you wrote him is exactly how i think tom riddle would act towards his s/o. his toxicity and gaslighting is too accurate.

moving on from the discussion of your fic, which is amazing, ily sm babe!!

@yoooespinosa

we’ve interacted a few times and when u texted me directly saying that you thought i was sweet, i literally went, “omg- people think i’m sweet” in a good way, not bad jkwajjw- can i just get started on your writing, because oh. my. fucking. god. it is the most captivating and heart breaking thing i’ve ever seen- the emotions that you put into every word completes the entire fic. every angst piece that you have written, made me cry or made something inside me just twist with sadness. it is truly lovely and magnificent.

how do ur fics not get thousands of notes? because everyone should see what you write, it’s unfair that others haven’t seen your fics. when u explained your dream to me, i swear you practically wrote a whole fic 😭

i remember u said that you wanted to do a face reveal, but we’re scared. bestie what are you scared of? you look like an ANGEL!! and if anyone were to disagree, they are obviously blind. but ily bestie <3

@o-rion-sta-r

BESTIE BAE ORION i love you so much!interacting with you is honestly so fun. and i remember like literally yesterday we were trying to figure out ari’s time zone and we were freaking out. you, ari, and me all have a fucking time difference 😭 it sucks so much!

at least every day you ask me how my days been and i think that’s so sweet, because before i got on tumblr people didn’t ask that question. i appreciate that you ask me that and just random questions in general, because i love interacting with you so much. and you should start writing bby! i will reblog anything you write, also ily sm <3

@ilygw

we don’t talk a lot, but you seem like a fun person! i love seeing all the edits you post on here, bc honestly i need more ferret boy content. i know there is a lot, but i feel like i’ve seen all of them. until i see you posting a new edit and i’m like, “okay… i guess i haven’t seen every draco edit” but that’s all i have lol, ly!!

@arcaneslut

to be honest, you seemed so intimidating to me. i know you said you’re not, but to me you seemed really scary even though i knew you weren’t 😭 i just interacted with you recently and you are so sweet i swear! i love all ur fics, especially “and then i felt nothing” because when i read this fic you better believe i was crying so hard- to the point where i couldn’t breath- everything was written so beautifully, i couldn’t believe it.

i love how one thing we share in common is losing our phones 💀 but i just wanted to say thank you for explaining the whole sleepover and celebration things to me! even tho we just started interacting i already love u!!

moots bc i’m in love with all of them: @just-a-smol-spoon @dreamy-clousds @dracoskinks @unedibledaisyduck @thatsassyhufflepuff @a-aexotic @l0vely-lupin @gothboutique @wolfstar4lifee @littlemissnoname13 @deatthfairy @arcaneslut @ladyvesuvia @laceycallisto @dracossweetprincess @the-lonely-poet-loves-to-weep @realityblocked @harmqnia @yoooespinosa @opalsheart @lilscloud @cupids-crystals @mellifluousart @lunas-kisses @malfoysmainb @klauscarolove @crystxlss @beforeoursunsets @marrymetheonott @queeriacs @electriclocean @dlmmdl @o-rion-sta-r @sfdlm @ilygw @desiredmalfoy @underappreciated-spoon-321 @draco-and-tom @hellounicorn @mugglesthesedays @dracomalfoys-wh0re

if i didn’t tag u it’s bc i can’t tag more than 50 blogs :(

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 30+31.12.20 lbs

30.12.20

lmao ep starts off itself with vansh and kabir ka staring match.

vansh steady in first place, not having blinked for................ like 3 minutes now? this dude a fucking freak.

while riddhima gazes adoringly at him thinking bhagwaan ne mujhe itnaaaaaaaaaa achcha pati diya hai. pft. idk what the hell sins you did in your last life riddhima, to get a husband like this one in this life, but it had to be something reallllllllllll bad. like stealing from little orphans and kicking puppies or some shit.

thankfully dadi is here to put an end to this chutiyaapa.

countdown blah blah, no1 currrrrrrrrr.

itna pheeeeeeeeeenka happy new year. bhai-behen ho kya???

now we talking.

he just says some trite shit like new kahaani that will be remembered for ages blah blah and gives creepy looks. dude why can’t you be normal on oneeeee bloody day?

ahaana also giving random creepy looks seeing vansh/riddhima hugging. and she goes and............

i think i watch this show and rrahul a little too closely ki i instantly knew this isn’t his hand and thus it’s not vansh’s hand she’s holding.

yupppppppppp. bola tha na.

damn they make a hotass couple of shady bitches.

ok wow i’m really feeling it. wish kabir wasn’t a sociopath who is incapable of feeling attachment (“love” is too strong a word) for anyone but his mother.

lmao his reaction when ahaana tells him ki riddhima didn’t believe any of the pattiii she padaofied her about vansh.

ok but how do these two know each other??? matlab yeh le aaya hai issko? i thought vansh le aaya hoga?!!?

mereko kya kaunsa manhoos le aaya? i’m just here for the attractive ppl pressing their bodies up against each other. keep on keeping on, #KaHana

he’s warning her against ever double-crossing him and dude the angry/hate-sex vibes here are *~~~ExQuISiTe*~~~~

the way she’s confidently gazing at him all sexy tells me she’s a much more seasoned player than riddhima and i already love her more than the damn lead of the show.

damn. that’s a gnarly period you got riddhima. that’s an unusual amount of flow. go see a doctor about it, sis.

i’ve heard about ppl making art with menstrual blood and all, but this is fucking ridiculous.

anyway of course the dumbass goes investigating it. and got fucking attacked in the storeroom and SOMEONE HUNG HER UP. LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN THIS MESSED UP HOUSE DUDE????/ WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU STILLL LIVE HERE????

Chehra Appreciation Break

asadkjasldjlaskdjlsakjdlas the way he’s yelling for everyone and interrogating them of their whereabouts coz riddhima’s missing.

lmao ishani and ahaana’s reactions at this temper tantrum are fucking amazing.

dang what’s with the suuuuuper orange lower half of his face???? ugh. the foundation woes are back now that the beard’s growing back in.

anyway he went barrelling off to find her after some more chabaaya hua dhamkis at his fam. ahaana already regretting moving into this pagaal khaana.

this scene is so fucking disturbing to watch that i don’t even wanna fucking cap it. but she was legit getting HANGED and he managed to get there in the nick of time and save her.

how, you ask? BY SHOOTING AT THE ROPE, INSTEAD OF JUST.......... DOING SOMETHING NORMAL LIKE RUNNING AND PUTTING THE STOOL BACK UNDER HER FEET TO STABILIZE HER. THIS SHOW IS JUST FUCKING BATSHIT INSANE, MY LORD.

this poor girl, my god. i don’t think i’ve ever watched a tellywood FL be tortured to the extent that this one is on a daily basis. it’s fucking ridiculous. there’s no redemption for any of the raisinghanias at this point. she just needs to fucking leave (and file several domestic violence cases against each and every one of them, except dadi.)

anyway she tells him whatever went down today, starting from the period blood fiasco onwards and he’s........ vibrating in anger. cool i guess.

some promises and shit about how who ever did this will pay, time for “humaara khel” and .......... dude. you say this shit every single time. and nothing changes. i don’t give a fuck anymore about your stupid promises. move the fuck outta this hellhole with your wife if you really mean it.

seedha jaake ahaana ke sar pe bandook taan di. based on what evidence? only the Good Lord above knows, coz vansh and the writers sure don’t.

no literally based on what is he accusing her and pulling the trigger??????? idgi??????

almost shot her and is saying “riddhima pe kharonchh nahi aani chahiye, baat ishq aur vishwaas ki hai” and ahaana is giggling and literally what the fuck is going on i’m so confused.

ahaana saying wowwwww, you want revenge also, and she shouldn’t get hurt also.

MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE’S THE ONE WHO BROUGHT AHAANA IN!!!!!!!!!!!!

literally what the fuck is this dude on???? badla chahiye, par dard nahi hona chahiye. bhai, kya phoonk ke aaye ho, humein bhi toh thoda de do.

ok this is tooooo fucking convoluted a game. riddhima thinks kabir is the one attacking her. but it’s kabir + ahaana. kabir thinks ahaana is on his side and brought her into VR mansion, but ahaana is double agent who was actually planted in kabir’s nazar by vansh to fuck over BOTH kabir and riddhima. i think?????????

ahaana be like re devaaaaaa, what fucking madness have i gotten myself into????????????? the things i have to do for health insurance coverage during a pandemic.

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31.12.20

first 5 minutes is some new year ka naach gaana bs. fwding.

ok this fucker is a legit motherflipping crazy. he just wants to keep torturing riddhima for god knows how long.

even ahaana is alarmed.

did he do absolutely noooooo research after the cliff chhalaang? like....... this revenge shit is so dumb at this point, when he knows she brought in vihaan to stop kabir from ruining the family, and took a second fucking bullet for him?!?!?!?!?!?! they shouldn’t have written the second gunshot plot point, coz now he looks like a reallllllllll unappreciative fucker for whom literally no good deed is enough.

WHAT PYAAR AND VISHWAAS, FUCKER???????? LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?????? YOU’VE PLAYED THESE GAMES WITH HER FROM THE VERY START OF YOUR MARRIAGE AND MAYBE TOOK A BREAK FOR A WEEK OR TWO IN BETWEEN - WHEN SHE GOT SHOT THE FIRST TIME AND DURING ISHANI’S WEDDING. THAT’S WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT??????/ LIKE.......... THIS MAKES NO BLOODY SENSE. THIS CHARACTER IS JUST SUCH A SUPREME DOUCHEBAG, MY GOD. THERE’S ABSOLUTELY NO REDEEMING HIM WHATSOEVER.

also can’t say rrahul’s extra chabaaaaa chabaaaaaaa ke bolna is making this enjoyable to watch at all.

all i wanna know is what ahaana has on him that he’s indebted to her and thought her worthy enough to join forces with. SPILL SPILL SPILL SPILL!!!!!!!!!!!! what does ahaana get outta all this?!!?!?!!!!!!

riddhima on the other hand running around wondering whom vansh is gonna murder. SIS YOU JUST GOT STRANGULATED CAN YOU SIT DOWN FOR A HOT SEC AND REST?!?!!?!?

ahaana is like bro you gonna ruin riddhima’s life, and he’s like yeah, that’s what i want. jesus christ, dude. just divorce her then. why prolong this shit out like this????? truly psychopathic.

riddhima hears his voice and heads to the pool area..........

............. isn’t that his shoulder there behind the tree? is she fucking blind???????? HOW CAN SHE NOT SEE HIS 7 FOOT TALL HULKING ASS BEHIND THAT PATLA SA JHAADI?????? HE’S LITERALLY THERE LIKE........

........... she left. god. she’s really really REALLY stupid. like pretty sure these crimes against her count as extraaaaaaaaa bad....... like, pick on someone with your own brain capacity, vansh? leave the simple minded sis alone!

the only gift that’s acceptable from you rn sir, is divorce papers. and a self-filed restraining order promising to stay 3 whole districts away.

yikes, that beard is notttttt growing in well.

“tum mujhe apne saare stress de do.” BITCH YOU’RE HER BIGGEST STRESS. ASSHOLE. I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

“tumse door jaake jaaonga kahaan? abhi toh bohut kuch baaki hai.” fucking dieeee, you psychopath.

lmaoooooooooooooooo her face when she doesn’t understand wtf this gift is supposed to be. i’ve been there sis. trying to fake enthusiasm for some reallllll bad gifts from men is truly painful.

also she’s so dang cute when they let her use her face properly!!!!!! har waqt bechaari ko bass rulaate rehte hain iss show mein.

one ainvayiiii gift ke bahaane some random cuteness.

sis gazing at him some more thinking omg he loves me soooooooo much.

she remembered ahaana’s warning, and is like no she was lying to me!!!!!!!!! stupid stupid stupiddddddd. no matter whoever planted her, you should believe that sister over your haraami misters. motive jo bhi ho, bol toh behen sach hi rahi thi.

yuck that looks ugly af. why the hell would you want that on your bedroom wall? esp. when your bedroom is already so goddamn fugly.

anyway he’s gaslighting her some more about ahaana blah blah.

riddhima like i’ll prove it. le, iska jee nahi bharaa. she wants to do more jasoosi and go get stuck in random traps that try to kill her.

vansh promising he’ll throw ahaana and her partners out if she can prove it. meaning you’ll........... throw yourself out?????

whatever man, idk and idc anymore what this fucker does. i’m just here for the faces.

threatening notes planted in all these ppl’s rooms. everyone instantly like OMG VANSHHHHHHHHHHH DID THISSSSS. lol coz who else does this chutiyaapa of leaving random messages around like this.

but nope. chachi saw riddhima’s earring lying there and knows it’s her.

isko bhi mila.

lmao kabir rueing the day he set eyes on riddhima coz jeena haraam kar rakha hai ladki ne.

riddhima like mwahahahahhaha they must have got my notes and now they’ll come attack me! behen, woh toh note ke bina bhi roz karte aaye hain...............

there. promptly got jumped.

surprise, surprise.

lol attitude toh dekho behen ka. wish she was the lead of the show instead of riddhima.

[zombies-aliens]

I don’t recommend reading this it’s super long lol. I’m ranting here as I do. Read if you want but I’d move along. It’s a LOT of reading and me expressing my thoughts.

Dude I can’t get over how my mom was passive aggressive with the waitress at a restaurant 😅😅. I still stand by most if not all of what I say about her, she really has deeeep problems and if she was an animal she would be a serpent. I find it hard to feel bad for her because of her behavior. The crazy thing is I know why at least. Or have a good ass guess! You see, this waitress was very kind and very gentle and it’s kind of obvious she was even gentle in her speech and talked slow like she’s talking to a young person but without being condescending. She is a sweet thing. It’s awfully similar to my brother who is also a soft person like there’s not an aggressive bone in his body. Like so soft that it kinda pisses you off to see when someone is mean to them but they will not defend themselves and blame themselves.. which pisses me the fuck off bc.. you’re thinking really dumb it’s not your fault you idiot. Stand up for yourself. You’re a fucking person too. Yeah that’s my brother. And he and this waitress had the same “spirit” the same soft selfless easy to exploit persona to them. And my mom was testing her kinda like sizing her up or even grooming her and it was disturbing to see. Each interaction was a little more passive aggressive than the last. It’s easy for me to see this thing because I’m around her a lot unfortunately but at least I can recognize it. I told her she’s being mean to her and looking back at it I should have said aggressive but I said mean and she scowled and said no I’m not and said she’ll be nicer next time she sees her and she came and tried to be nice.. it sounded so fake on my mom’s part like god can your fakeassness be any more transparent just stop already. It was getting embarrassing. Idk what the hell was with my mom today but it’s not the first time. Or the second. Or the third. Or the fourth or the fifth. You get where I’m going with this? This has happened A LOTT. I think she just saw my brother, her own son, in her and started testing her… while she’s on the job. My mom was like a Karen but Karen’s are obvious and usually yelling. My mom was kind of building up a Karen attitude with her lol. That’s my mom’s problem tho, I’m pointing out something about her, and she immediately denies it instead of being open to it. Really we should have left a long time ago and took the L. I took an L too just for being associated with her smh. Idc if she’s my mom, she’s toxic af and there’s more under the carpet than what I’m saying. She’s so serpent like. A slithering snake in tall grass only I can see because not to sound arrogant but well I’m not a fucking dumbass. I don’t have a blind faith to my mom and you know what I think my mom hates me for that because she brainwashed my brother and my sister and my dad too but didn’t get me because I caught on to her manipulative snake ass ways. I think she’s this way when she feels like she can get away with it. I put it on god I’m not even lying. I’ll put my left hand on the Bible put my right hand up. My story about mom stays the same bc moms toxic self stayed the same. Her story switches up about me I don’t even know what she’s saying about me most of the time when we butt heads. She loves being seen as the good guy, but does not give a single fuck about being the good guy. I hope one day I can expose her at no costs to myself or my world. She gives me Hillary Clinton vibes. I’m like Donald trump the way she got the whole family to side with her and deem me as the bad guy. My mom can be so aggressive/passive-aggressive to him and my brother just sits there and takes it up the ass. They’re in a toxic relationship together. And it’s not my brother. It’s my mom. Me and my mom are in a toxic relationship. And it’s not me. It’s my mom. My mom and dad are in a toxic relationship. Is it my mom again? Well I really don’t know. I really think neither love one another if I’m keeping it real here.

[griffxnnage]

hi!! congrats on 100 followers!! may i have a matchup from the marauders era and percy jackson? an intp, and i love astrology, science and art! im average height tho my friends would say short, i have frizzy frizzy messy brown hair and brown eyes. i have an athletic built due to numerous years of different sport but now i just regularly work out! my friends would describe me as funny, obnoxious, mom friend and very mature as much as im a dumb dumb. a fun fact about myself is that like.. if im good at everything? like i catch up with stuff quite quickly and get stuff very easily ; im not the best at it doe i need practice. and i can read people like open books and understand their feelings very well. im italian-romanian, my bones can pop really easily and loudly, i love bacon and cheese but fish is gross imo. i never reply to texts unless im interested but even then i forget too. also im supposed to wear glasses but i hate them. chronically insecure about everything and have major mood swings but they’re getting a lot better. will fight you about anything and win. idc im right. also have a freakishly good memory but also can’t remember what color was my moms car. also my friends voted me most likely to rule the world one day and most likely to change the world. tysm and have a nice day!! (also i couldn’t find ur rules anywhere :(, im sorry if they’re closed!)

i’m sorry love, but i don’t do ships for percy jackson! you can find my guidelines here, or at the bottom of any of my ships! i can still do the marauders ship, though! if you want another ship from the fandoms in the guidelines, feel free to request!

i ship you with sirius black!!

absolutely loves your hair; running his fingers through it, getting them tangled in it ;)

jumps whenever your bones pop, and doesn’t ever get used to it.

“bloody hell, what was that?” “it was my back, pads,” “how are you not dead???”

whenever you need to wear your glasses, he puts them on, and says that you’re ‘blind’.

also agrees that you’ll rule the world one day.

likes that you understand him, as his situation is unique in it’s own way.

join my 100 followers celebration!

[anoverflowingsea]

dear my friend

we just talked but, i feel like so much was left unsaid because i’ve just never been that good at functioning in the present. the only thing i’ve ever could tangibly grasp is words so i’m just want to flesh out the palpable words from my veins and i hope they reach you.

a lot of the happiest moments i’ve ever had in my life were with you. from waking up from my exhausting days at school to you humming alot to gta radio cruising down the los santos streets. to all the times we would meet up at the university cafe during our ungodly gaps between classes sophomore year. to all the music videos we used to play in the background upstairs in your media room.

now that i look back, i think we were both so lost. and we both had such an innate, pain we could never fathom to console. but in the small void that we were together, it was a safe space away from the world that i always felt like i could just--be.

and i found so much solace in you. i know you can never build a home inside someone else--that has to manifest inside of your own--but you, you were the flowers to the garden, the record player that filled the walls of my rib cage. you gave me the power to build my home. people can never be your home, but you were the sun that seeped warmth through the blinds and made me experience life in ways i never did before you. well i love the house that we live in. i love you always is it the same for you?

change…change wears me down. when you constantly feel so lost, like your existence is weightless, like everything you grab a hold of slips through your fingers, and you actually find rocks to keep you grounded, finally trust something enough to let them be there for you, just for things to slip right under you again, it’s devastating.

forever is a sandcastle.

paths diverge, people grow apart and i think that’s more painful than heartbreak. (i guess it’s technically just a different kind of heartbreak.)

time felt so abundant back then. you’d just come over whenever for however long. mindless hours. nothing to do, doing everything on a whim. it feels like nobody has that luxury anymore. you have careers, work, your significant other or other things to think about. like everything has a designated time slot and that’s it.

i ain’t a kid no more, we’ll never be those kids again.

(it’s okay though. i’ll never stop trying to be an existence in your life. even if the change hurts.)

we both were dealing with so much that we stopped having as much time as we used to for each other. i became more insecure, but i never once blamed you for the way we drifted. today you cried and told me how scared you were to be in a relationship because of the terror of losing that special era of our lives. you cried tears that mourned for friendship and lost friends. my voice was rattled when we spoke about it, but i just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. that excerpt from above was something i wrote a couple of months ago when the weight of that mourning hit me the hardest.

i know this is dumb and kinda off topic, but like my favorite bts song is called “spring day” and it’s about missing a friend. a couple of months back they were live streaming marathoning all of their old concerts and during the wings final concert, the last song was spring day. i miss you, saying it out loud makes me miss you even more. the moment i heard these opening lyrics, something just broke in me. like all the pain and sadness i felt reflecting on all of my platonic relationships that i’ve been brooding on for what it feels like a lifetime, feelings i was too scared to admit to myself, feelings that were kept at bay as whispers in the dark, were the waves that carried me in the rain. my tears were tears that mourned for lost time and the chains of change with all of my loved ones.

you know it all you’re my best friend past the edge of cold winter, until the spring day comes again, until the flowers bloom, please stay there a while longer please stay

it’s been so long, but we were able to hang out again. i had a lot of anxiety going into it, but i learned quickly enough that nothing had changed. we still laughed like our lungs were giving out and vibed to the silence of the night. after fearing for so long we were growing apart, you showed me that the strings of fate never let us go. and it gave me hope--it gives me hope.

and from this all, if there’s some kinda truth that i’ve found for myself, it’s that no matter how turbulent and heartbreaking change can be, nothing to me is as powerful as facing change with someone--to grow with each other. and this is why i have complete faith in us. as much as i mourn the past, you were never in my plan to be a small part of my future. so i want you to embrace this new era, because you don’t have to close a door in order to open a new one. time never ceases to stop, change is inevitable, but as long as our hearts still have the compassion to listen and care for another, there will always be path full of warmth for us. I still plan on bugging the shit outta you, even if that means crashing at your future house or we do grown shit together like grocery shopping or cruising on the road together idc. Your significant other will probably be good for you and a beautiful light in your life (because first of all, you deserve nothing other than the best) but you are the sun that deserves a sky full of love.

we're still the kids we used to be, and nothing hurts anymore, i feel kinda free

i love you always.

[stardustandbucky]

psa

look. im sick and tired of the amount of disgusting people in this world.

i know i dont have that many followers, and im not hot shit on here or anything, and im not killing myself for followers.

i've been on here for so many years and i've seen so much shit. but. i try to be as unproblematic as i can. so i see shit and i turn a blind eye; i neither want the negativity on my blog or my life nor do i want to spend energy and effort on more-often-than-not hopeless causes by arguing and trying to convince them of what's right and what's moral. so.

im not dumb enough to go looking through my whole followers list though and see what kind of person they are, what they support and what they stand for. neither do i have the time. but. for my own sanity, i dont want anyone who - to me - stands for or supports something so wrong that my mind cant even comprehend how they even justify it's existence.

that's where the following list comes in. if you support any of these things at all, im civilly politely asking you to unfollow me immediately.

if you support any of the following:

ped*phelia (whether irl or in fiction - starker and any similar ship)

and everything that comes with it - child sexual abuse and everything else

if consent isn't a fundamental to you (im literally every single situation in life btw, not just in a sexual one)

incest (irl or in fiction)(yes thorki too)

hate of any kind against minorities (islamophobia, homophobia, transphobia, biphobia, racism, animal abuse/cruelty, even if youre a rich kid hating on the less fortunate - just get the fuck off of my blog) etc. - hell, even toxic relation/friendships, that shits horrible

if you support trump or whatever dumbass white men who follow him or are similar to him in any capacity

if you've ever defended a rapist, or someone accused of rape

if you blame rape victims or abuse victims for what they have been through

if you've ever tried to sympathize with any monster who has done either (raped or abused)

if you dont believe in domestic abuse, emotional or mental abuse (because they're not visible or however the fuck dumbfucks justify that it 'doesnt exist')

if youre against feminism, and idc if it's because the only kind you've seen is radical feminism or white-woman feminism

if you belittle any kind of trauma or issue someone has, if youre a bully in any way or form, whether it be towards someone who 'deserves it' or not

if youre the kind of person to use ad hominem (attacking the person as a person instead of what youre really there for, which is attacking the thing they do) while in an argument. review yourself or whatever

if you belittle victims of any kind of abuse

literally, if you send hate (anon hate or not) gtfo you coward

please. unfollow me. right the fuck. now. i will not tolerate anything associated with things like that. i dont want myself or my blog to be associated with any of the above.

[seonfhwa]

you said no one asks you about your biases so klj;alkdjfs here I am because also love when people talk about their biases!!! name your top five biases luna and why they are your biases

oh my god mini you’re enabling me ehrbjhgbek okay here we go look away folks this is gonna get annoying

edit: so i went back and slapped everything under the cut because oh my god i kept talking im so annoying

1. cha hakyeon/n of vixx

this man hits everything i love about a human being. he’s very motherly and very open about such things, he’s a true sassy diva who always wants the attention on him (i don’t blame him), he has a really big heart and always does things like donating to charity and the like, he has seen SO MANY ups and downs since vixx debuted in 2011 and honestly?? he deserves the world. he’s a really hard working leader who goes to all of his members solo activities to cheer them on and make sure they know he’s there supporting them. i have never seen anyone as beautiful and ethereal as cha hakyeon in my entire life. he’d be a wonderful dad, a perfect husband, and a caring friend. he’s loving, kind, and affectionate, and he’s the sweetest bean. though he gets bullied the most by everyone else. honestly, too, i know we don’t really know most idols’ sexuality but cha hakyeon imo is one of the strongest icons in terms of exploring sexuality and shattering gender expectations and i can’t wait for him to slay some more when he gets out of the military. also?? dancing king?? like pls stomp on me i love you. literally he’s just… his duality… he’s so soft and gentle as hakyeon but as n, he’s a fiery demon ready to go. either way he’s my number one and he will always be my number one and nothing will ever change that.

2. no minwoo of boyfriend

so honestly, boyfriend really is my #1 group ever, but with the lack of content for the past year or so (after star they disappeared again into japan) it’s been really hard :(( so lack of content causes me to ult different groups during hard times but!! yeah. minwoo is my tsundere baby, my maknae on top, my bratty baby boy. he’s the quiet one of boyfriend who kinda just wants to kill everyone and he’s donghyun’s Baby and no one (not even jeongmin) can touch him hejhegbre he’s honestly one of my biggest sources of sunshine. he’s honestly where my type started (dancer rapper) and i love him!! so much. he’s a talented little bean, who’s super great with what’s given to him and his dancing is no joke!! i hope he can capitalize on that one day. also!! he’s a part of 95 line (jo twins, him, ricky of teen top, sungjae of btob, hyuk of vixx, and i think a couple others idk) and i literally love that friend group so much ;;;; minwoo is honestly the #1 prettiest baby boy ever, he’s got so much love pent up inside of him but being the bratty tsun introvert he is, he doesn’t know how to show it so he just hbjehbrgj suffers. but that’s why he has mama donghyun to take care of him, idk man starship is just shitting on the talent they have, pls let boyfriend out of the korean basement.

3. song mingi of ateez (duh) putting my own gif of mingi bc its my fave gif

and here she goes, gonna rant and rave forever. okay so mingi, right? you all probably already know this but he’s literally the biggest and best source of sunshine and happiness in the whole wide world. literally when i first got into ateez i was like hongjoong!! he’s my bias!! and then idk what happened i accidentally floated around for so long and it wasn’t long after say my name that i was officially attacked by mingi and i claimed him, he is my sunshine and my everything. i really thought seonghwa would end up my bias if not hongjoong but then mingi came around with his full-body laugh. i honestly figured out mingi was my bias when i was making my original blog and i was like?? softmingis?? that works!! rather than any other url (though idk i did try a couple of san urls). ever since i solidified mingi as my bias, i’ve found countless things about him that i love. his seal claps when he tosses his whole body as he laughs, his deep af voice, how th*cc he is, the way he interacts with all of the members– honestly i love this whole big baby boy with every fiber of my being. one day i wanna hold his hand and see his smile and (it wont happen ever but) give him just a lil smoochie on the cheek. honestly, he’s just ;;; so perfect. he may be a year younger than me but idc he’s the most lovely human bean i’ve ever seen ;;;; i wanna give him the world.

4. kim hosung/lou of vav

listen it took me a while to get here and it’s a struggle to stay here as a lou biased bean (yes ace i’m looking at you) but honestly ;;; i’m kinda sorta maybe in l*ve with this man. he’s a whole softie even though normally i’d look at someone like him and go “wow he looks really intimidating” but like?? he’s a big softie! like he’s all tall and deep voiced but he’s (another) introverted bubs. he’s all mysterious tbh like he’s so boring he wears all black and white and gray clothing if he’s not in stage outfits ekrhbejgh but he’s like!! a cutie. he loves his girl group dances and he can be super quiet at times and really grumpy but like?? he’s so handsome. he’s a confident chaotic gay and we love our very own confident gays. idk man he’s literally so gorgeous just look at that gif up there– okay not to mention he’s such a salty guy like never tell him someone else is your bias he’ll be all pouty pouty grumble grumble. really he needs to be babied but he’s probably the best boyfriend material he’d be so sweet ;;;; idk man like?? i honestly think about him every night he deserves the world and he may not be the most loud and obnoxious person in vav (that’s ziu) but he’s the most charming and i love him to death ;;;

5. kim jaejoong of jyj

other than gd of big bang, i think?? jaejoong is my longest-running bias. he’s had my heart and soul for so long. other than being the king of japan while sm still has him under dumb laws, he’s done so much for me as a human being. he’s really shaped how i look at the world, truly. i remember there was a fansign he had where a blind girl came to him and said that she loved him, not for his looks (although he is gorgeous) but for his music, his lyrics, and his voice. and honestly watching him go through so much over the years, watching him be shaped by all good and bad things, has made me so happy. he’s grown as a person, he’s learned from mistakes and he’s had to walk down rough roads to get to where he is now. honestly someone asked me recently who my role model is and i think?? after some honest thinking? i’d have to say it’s him. i look up to him. i admire him, everything he’s done for everyone in his life and for himself. he’s a strong man. i love him, and i want to give him everything i can, even though i can hardly even provide for myself. he can be a grumpy old man at times but i think that’s just the relatable shit, you know? he’s a grumpy old man while a heart of gold and i owe him my life, especially because 5 or 6 years ago i was in a really bad slump and it was him, his music, that pulled me out of it.

okay so now that i’ve talked so much and took so long to answer this… the end! literally there are so many more people i could ramble about but those were the top 5 that came to mind who are always super prominent in my head like… aLWAYS 

also if you read all of this… you guys are insane idk how you did it.

[m3gp0idremade]

pro-winter argument: at least it's better than summer!!!!!!! SUMMER: sweating, ppl be smelling, so hot, can't wear comfy clothes, should I risk blinding myself or looking dumb in these sunglasses?, not able to eat nice hot stuff like soups and spicy things and god i miss eating a good spicy ramen without suffering, no blankets anymore, lots of bugs, drunk ppl/ppl sunbathing in all the parks, if you have dysphoria/wear a binder,,,,, you are gonna just die,,,, that's it, tourists,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

1. sweating is gross but it’s also like... cool2. true3. also true. but once again its like.. cool.4. the comfiest clothes are the ones where you’re the least covered up5. how bout you wear the dumb sunglasses because you have to and they actually look epic? how about that?6. yes you can, coward7. true but idc8. true and its hell when youre down south in the swampier places in the us. mosquitoes.9. VERY TRUE. its annoying but also i do not care cuz zummer gud10. also true!!! and it’s terrible. that’s a negative of summer, if you have body image issues/dysphoria you’re. Fucked11. i dont get tourists where im from so i don’t care

[phoenixrisingwoman]

1-102. You should have known I was gonna do this.

This friendship was a mistake.

1) what’s a song you depict with your childhood? any HSM song brings me back to my childhood & also oldies that my parents used to play in the house like stand by me by Ben E. King, unchained melody by the Righteous Brother,….

2) did you have a memorable childhood pet? I think every one of my pets is memorable. one that specificly comes to mind would have to be our Tervuren. We took him in because his owner didn’t take care of him and was planning on ditching him in the middle of the woods. the poor thing got treated like some kind of monster when he only asked for the bare minimum, to get treated with respect and basic kindness. I still remember how easily he trusted us. We were a family of 5 so to have 5 strangers around you all of a sudden and not get defensive and lash out especially after getting treated so badly by humans is one thing but to completely immediately trust us wow. He was such a gentle and sweet dog and it hurts my heart when I think about how he died. He had cancer. Fucking dogs man i know i say this about all dogs but he really was an angel. What a pure soul.

3) have you ever been drunk? yes

4) have you ever tried drugs? i’ve only eaten space cake and that’s it. but i don’t really have any desire to ever try hard drugs.

5) have you ever completely regretted what you’ve said? 99% of the time I regret what I say because I am dumb and say some real embarrassing shit

6) have you ever made someone cry? I hope not, unless they were happy tears!

7) has someone ever made you cry? most likely yeah i’m just very sensitive and take a lot of things to heart.

8) have you ever been in love? if so, describe the moment you knew it. i've never been in love9) which came first the chicken or the egg? The real question is where does a circle begin and where does it end?

10, 11) already answered

12.) have you ever been in love with someone you couldn’t love? read the answer to question 8

13) are you a good cook? i mean i’m not the worst but there’s always room for (a lot of) improvement.

14) already answered

15) what is the last movie you cried during? i can’t remember but hatchiko is a movie that can always make me cry.

16) what are songs you’ve cried to when you first heard them? (if any)

It’s such a long list so i’m going to narrow it down to a few: Skillet - Would It matter, DNA - Lia Maria Johnson, you don’t know - Katelyn Tarver, Adam’s song - Blink 182 , 24 floors - The Maine, Sleepless nights - Faber Drive, Just a little bit of your heart - Ariana Grande & I can’t make you love me/ nick of time - Bon Iver. That’s some real sad shit.

17) do you have a middle name? Nope18) have you been out of your country? yes, I’ve been to Italy, England, Turkey, The Netherlands and Germany & this summer i’m going to Spain.19) are you a chocolate fan or not? I am a huge slut for chocolate always20) how many people have you kissed? only one because I have no game21) already answered22) what is your dream car? don’t have a specific one in mind but a range rover looks nice. as long as my car is big enough to take all my dogs with me to the beach, i’m satisfied.23) what is your lucky/favorite number? don’t have one24) what is your favorite flower? i like water lilies a lot25) books or movies, why? Both. Depends. you can get lost in books and imagine the characters/scenery more and the words just stick with me more when i read them? But movies are also nice if a certain character gets played by a good actor and really brings it all to life.26) have you ever been on a blind date? I’d rather not get murdered on my first date. so to answer this question no.27) has one of your friends ever backstabbed you? yeah in my teenager years 28) have you ever backstabbed one of your friends? don’t really see the point in hurting a friend? If a friend betrays my trust i’ll cut them out of my life immediately and never speak a word to them again nor will i waste any more energy on them or be willing to listen to whatever bullshit excuse they want to try. I’m very loyal and loving but if someone takes advantage of that and betrays my trust then I have no problem with cutting them out of my life and continuining as if we were strangers all along. i can take a lot but i don’t fuck with fake people.29) what thing do you symbolize love with? many things really but that’s because i think love comes in many forms. friendship, hobbies, pets, lovers, family,…i think love is all around us really. a tiger playing with her cub, puppies play fighting a lil too rough with an older dog but the older dog allowing them because they still need to learn their boundaries, strangers pulling funny faces at babies or playing along with a game a kid made up, someone giving up their seat and so on. I think all of these acts symbolize love. Once you stop seeing love as this strictly romantic thing i think it’s easy to find it everywhere you look. no matter how small the gesture.30) do you have neat handwriting? It’s not too bad i think. 31) do you have a friend with benefits? nope32) do you want a friend with benefits? I don’t really think i’m cut out for that type of thing. I mean whenever someone holds the door for me i think about it for like days after so I really am not sure if I could trust myself with seeing it as only a friendship with benefits and nothing more.33.) if you could be anything in the world, what would you be? a siren, a wolf, a forest nymph, harry styles’ next gf haha34) have you ever been blackout drunk? yeah35) have you ever met someone famous? no :(36) how many concerts have you been to? uhh i think 13-ish37) which concerts have you been to? first ones were Justin Bieber (don’t judge), 1d, 5sos, ed sheeran, the script, dua lipa, harry styles, lord huron38) do you have a hidden talent? i can go trough 10 different emotions in the span time of an hour39) what do you do when you’re stressed? shut down, cry, get angry or all of the above.40) do you think money can buy love? money can buy things you love and that make you happy so i guess in that sense you can buy ‘happiness’ & ‘love’, but if we’re talking about real, true, genuine feelings then no that kinda love can’t be bought41) how old would you date? the oldest like 24 but for a sugar daddy i am always willing to make an exception42) have you ever done something illegal?  jaywalking is illegal but most of us have done it at some point so like nothing too illegal43) what is your biggest fear? for my loved ones? that they wil never get all the goodness in life that they truly deserve and that life will treat them like shit and inflict pain upon them that i’ll never be able to undo. for myself? i’m scared i’ll never truly feel like I belong and will never truly feel happy and that once I’m close to dying i’ll be faced with the fact I’ve wasted all my time.44) what is an unusual fear you have? having a doppelganger that’s a real piece of shit and people thinking it's me that has done all that nasty shit to them and me eventually being sentenced for it while the real demon is still out there...yea idk 

45) can you drive? no haha i really need to get my license46) do you believe in supernatural creatures? yes but i’m not sure to what extend but I do believe there are certain things living on this earth unbeknownst to us. 47) do you believe in karma? i think what goes around comes around. or so i truly hope.48) what is one quality you need in your partner? above all my partner needs to be kind. no matter what.49) do looks matter? i’m not going to be a hypocrite and say no because there does need to be a certain level of attraction but it’s not like looks are the most important thing about someone.50) does size matter? which size are we talking about here. but no idc if you truly love someone, you take them as they are. not a single cell in your body would even think about changing anything about them because they already are perfect just the way the are.51) who is the last person you forgave? myself for being so dumb52) what is your favorite ice cream flavor? strawberry and chocolate53) already answered 54) ever been on a plane? obviously55) ever been on a boat? yes56) is there anyone you’ve lost touch with that you wish you hadn’t? yea a highschool friend that i haven’t heard in years.57) are there any friendships you regret? yes, this one58) are there any friendships you wish you could make? yes @harrystyles if you ever wanna hang out hit me up. i am free almost always so we can hang out whenever you are free too. thanks my dude.59) have you ever stayed awake for 24 (+) hours? no60) have you ever walked outside after 12 am? yes61) have you ever seen a sunrise completely through? no but one day I will!62) are you scared of rollercoasters? yeah and i wish i wasn’t. but i always imagine some final destination type of shit when i’m on it so i tend to avoid rollercoasters and such. I’m a paranoid bitch.63) on a scale of 1-10 how stressed are you usually? 664) do you have any plans this weekend? yes 65) do you miss anyone right now? not really66) who do you wish you were talking to right now? the ghost of Christopher McCandless. I’d like to hear his stories and thoughts. he seemed like a very interesting individual.67) already anwered68) who is your favorite superhero? catwoman? idk i don’t really have a fave superhero69) are you dirty minded? me? an angel? of course not.70) what is your favorite song from every decade starting at the 80’s? this question should be illegal. how am i supposed to choose one? there are so many bops.71) how many kids, if any, do you want? at the moment i don’t want kids but if that ever changes 2 would be enough.72) who is your biggest OTP? don’t have one73) what is your favorite food? lasagna & pizza. other than that cake/chocolate/anything cookie or candy related. I have a sweet tooth okay 74) do you want to be married one day? idk I don’t really feel the need to get married but if someone is willing to marry my annoying ass then I’m grabbing that chance with both hands.

75) dogs or cats? both but unfortunately i’ve only owned dogs till now so i’m hoping that will change soon!                                                                   76) already answered77) have you ever seen a shooting star? nope78) if you had the opportunity to go to the moon, would you? No, unless the aliens are there too. then sign me the fuck up79) how many best friends do you have? 380) when was the last time you cried? 2 weeks ago81) have you ever laughed so hard you peed yourself? mind ur own bussiness82) have you ever made anyone laugh so hard they peed? yeah83) if you could travel any where in the world, where would you go? countryside of Ireland, Sweden or Northern Wilderness84) what are 3 words you would use to describe yourself? gentle, dreamer, stupid 85) do you consider yourself a loyal person? yes, very loyal until you give me a reason not to. but even then i won’t badmouth you i’ll just erase your whole existence from my memory.86) what is your favorite season and why? summer bc i need that vitamin D to beat the sad bitch in me. but also autumn because SWEATER WEATHER87) have you ever told anyone you loved them, and didn’t mean it? no, i don't easily say i love you to someone 88) do you know how to play any instruments? no :(89) already answered90) what are you allergic to? pineapple. i might have other allergies i’m unaware off.91) already answered92) if you could be any character from your favorite tv show would you, and if so, who would you be? I’d wanna be Daenerys Targaryen because I want to have dragon friends who will fly me anywhere I wanna go. also talk about an entrance when you arrive with your fucking dragon somewhere.93) if you could be best friends with any celebrity who would it be and why? harry styles, niall horan, BØRNS or Maggie rogers because they seem like fun people to be around that will just brighten your day by being in their company.94) are you outgoing? nope, unless you catch me in those rare energetic moods or if i’m drunk then I do shit even I don’t want to know about.95) have you ever wanted to kiss someone, but weren’t brave enough to? no96) are you a good flirt? probably not because i always say some weird shit and kill the mood haha97) have you ever been turned down, or have you ever turned anyone down? nope98) already answered99) are you superstitious? not really100) are you a good listener? i like to think so101) are you a good kisser? who knows102) would you kiss any of your friends? depends how much money is involved

[cheezybiouwiou]

archived from that secret q account.

ghosty boiyou are my world, and no matter how shitty the world gets i can't imagine one without youJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou are a part of me, and i know whatever happens, you always will beJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii love you, but the more we're apart and the less i see you, the more i remember all the painJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiwhatever you say, what your family does, it affects me, and when im with you it will always be like that. i dont know if i can cope, and im breaking inside because i love you, but i know you've hurt me so much and i dont know what to feelJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boisome part of me wonders if its too late. you broke me. you hurt me so bad, and ive forgiven you so many times for things youve done that you dont even know you haveJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii cant help but feel you dont love me anymoreJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii cant help but feel you dont careJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boingl it kinda hurts me that you care so much about him? i know not in a loving way, but like you caring so much about him makes me feel like you care less about me, idk maybe im just jealous and selfishJuly 14, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii dont want to read anything on this acc bc it will just bring up old pain. nd tbh if anyone found this there would be a lot of painJune 26, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boilmao so i just found out the reason i'm suspended is bc my boyfriend ratted my mum out to his parents and my best friend ratted me out to him mum and the teachers and then my mum went ape shit and then they all pretended they didnt?May 5, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boireally fucking hurtApril 15, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiand u have the nerve??? u cant remember me or anythin and uve been in such a bad place what since december?? thats 5 fuckin months man that ive been workin my ass off to support u nd help u get through so u dont fuckin die and this is what i get back? honestly im not mad im just really really hurtApril 15, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiiodk now that u throwing this shit abck at me its like u blamin me? like boy u were so much worse than me already u were one of the ppl who dragged me into a darker place but i stuck w u bc i loved nd cared nd now ur saying it my fault that u cut and that ur more depressed? bitch i try fuckin hard for u man and this is what i get back? u say i dont care that u alwasy comfort me when i work my ass off to get through to u and help u, when u just then reject me anyways - and proceed to say i dont try and that you want the help?? if you want the help then fuckin accept it ive tried so hard for u man?? vbut u dont see it do uApril 15, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou dont actiually want to be with me do you?March 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou make me happy but im sad atm bc i dont wahnt you to dieeeeee nad i just want to be happy and you to be happyMarch 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou make me so happy but i know i dont do that for you. my own insecurities mean that whenever any1 jokes abt anything i take it as real,, im insecure abt everytihng so every joke from everyone hurts me,. i care too much abt what ypu thinkMarch 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii dont know do you want me??March 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boilitearlly no one caresFebruary 23, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boino one wants me haha!February 23, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiha im so unwantedFebruary 23, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim not funn yim not smart im not useful im not talented im notmusical iumd fucjkign rpirdjbialedgesd im not a figood friend im nbot wirty i cant do anyithng im depresy wtihotutht e humoisr im eneddy im annoying i dongt get it im a fuckifng burden wso why are yioui still here whenvrber you see these things inothe rpsoelpe you hate htem gfor it wahyt fucking makles m efidferntFebruary 21, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boioyu literally dislike ebverything abtou me tyour jsut blind i dont get tiFebruary 21, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim evenrwyihtg you hate abtout this worldFebruary 21, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boihs ill never be fuckign fgoos enoughFebruary 21, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiha lmao u didnt see me crying uwuFebruary 8, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiu ran awya from meFebruary 8, 2019 ·Comment 3 · Like ghosty boihehe im terrified of losing you for a different reason now but ig it doesnt matter bc u dont wannt me anywasyuFebruary 8, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii love you so much i just wnat to help i dont i can tlose youFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boihow can oyu say you dont feel and say you love me? i know you feel, you just try not toFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii dont want you to hurt me but yousoFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment 1 · Like ghosty boiyou lie to me. you dont call it lying but it isFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiwonder what it's like to be okayFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii can't carry this anymoreFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyin and yang, happiness always comes with sadness. if you have one you have to have the other. whats the point in feeling and living at all because even if you achieve happiness you will always have sadness. it is always htereFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boione day of warmth isnt worth a year of coldFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boihappinesss is fleetingFebruary 2, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiwhy am i always the one who hads to repaireFebruary 1, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii wihs oi culd he good enoguhFebruary 1, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiic ared about you but all you do is hurt meFebruary 1, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou just use me i dont understand i thought we were friendsFebruary 1, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boievent eh ppl eho care about me thinj uim worhtless, useless, dumb, stupid, weird, fucking djsfhalkdjfhreesstardsedJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiwhy do you keep reminding me of my insecuriteS? i think everyone does. i shoulf tlak to you about it, but i d onnt want to make you walk on eggshelslsJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment 1 · Like ghosty boiwer both yknow you cousdl do so m uch better htan meJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii see it in your eeys, i sese the dissapointment, the 'what the fuck', youer crazy, ur weird, ur rude, ur pathetic, why can yt you be normlak, youe fake, you re not ogod enogumJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiur gonna brkea up with me one dya becaues liets be real inm not oging to do it but you wilwl get sick of me you jsut put up with me atm ur blifnefd by emptions - despite that you can still see im fuvkignJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim just not finny or smart or nice or anyinthig gim jstu not good enoguh nd ikjwo i never will neJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiill never be good enough icoulndt even last a dayJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boilmfao i m actually fucking discusintgnJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii knwo im just annoying, no one realyt wants me aorundJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim getting sicjk of peoplke using meJanuary 29, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii will never be good enough, i will never be good aerat anythingJanuary 28, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim fugcking sfisdudcisigng im such asuhit firend i dont know anyithng i dony care abt eanyone arenough i dont remmebe ran ythonig im never good enouhgJanuary 28, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boidespite how i present muself i dont feelsihlike a girl i jhate hit it hahtkljeshrkljsdfxklsjg bJanuary 28, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou will never be able to see past being sad that im not talking, see that there may be a real reasoon, because you will be too self absorbed to even realise that im not okayJanuary 27, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boithing is though if i dont help you you you will get all sad and upset (despite ignoring me) and wont even give me the chance to give a reason why, beacuse the reason is im struggling atm as well and need support myself but youre too stubborn to get your head out of your ass and realise that i need help toJanuary 27, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou always ignore me its pissing me off you just use me for when you need me and thats itJanuary 27, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii dont think ill ever be good enoughJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boimonths. it took monthsJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boior is that just an excuse?January 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiits so goddamn sad how you always pull away, but now isnt the time to mention itJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii feel like you dont actally want me around idk it just hruts when you distance urself rom meJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boino one really truyts meJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boino one caresJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boisighsJanuary 24, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiyou try and hel[p fuckignf ocus on yourself i want you to live ghoddamnihntJanuary 21, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiwhats tyhe point in all this imf im judt going to lose you anyayJanuary 21, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii want to be better, and seperately i just want them to be happy nd idc howJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii never actually help lmao they were there for me yesterday when i was falling appart but i cant even help when they are sad or downJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boisighs now im wondering if im not good enoughJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii wish i could be enough, but i know i never will be. i know its not personal and i am not upset as such by it, i can accept it. i just am upset for them because i want to someone, something to be enoughJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii dont even know whats real anymore i cant tell what happened, what i thought happened, what was a dream, what i was hallucinating, what was flashbacks, what i wish had happened i cant even trust myself so how can i trust anyone elseJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim so done. im so tired with trying im so tired with everythingJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim so sadJanuary 16, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii got down bc of ehta they did but that didnt change anythgin they got fuvkin down otooJanuary 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boii never helpJanuary 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like ghosty boiim nfuckin uselessJanuary 3, 2019 ·Comment  · Like

[moonprincessx]

92 truths tagging game
rules: once you’ve been tagged you’re supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. i was tagged by @triangleankle

last: 
 [1] drink: agua [2] phone call: mom [3] text message: leslie [4] song you listened to: keep me
by khalid [5] time you cried: uh like a few months back??
other
[6] dated someone twice: na [7] been cheated on: na [8] kissed someone and regretted it: kinda [9] lost someone special: my hamster,
my sister and brothers hamsters and my mom’s dog [10] been depressed: 24/7 365 days [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: i’ve gotten tipsy but never drunk lmao
 list 3 favorite colors: 
 [12] yellow [13] pink [14] green 
 in the last year have you:
 [15] made new friends: not really but i wish i had i want more friends lmao [16] fallen out of love: nope [17] laughed until you cried: yeah [18] found out someone was talking about you: if they did i honestly don’t care [19] met someone who changed you: nope [20] found out who your true friends are: i found that out years ago [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: i deleted my facebook years ago so no 
other: 
 [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: none, don’t have a facebook [23] do you have any pets: yes 5 [24] do you want to change your name: no but i get annoyed with the “haha like angelica from the rugrats” or when the mispronounce it [25] what did you do for your last birthday: ate pizza and hung out at home because i have no friends [26] what time did you wake up: today my fat ass woke up at 11 [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: watching friend trying to fall asleep [28] name something you cannot wait for: um to see harry’s bitch ass in concert [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: like 25 minutes ago when she came to tell me to go to sleep [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: there a lot of things i wish i could change i can’t pick just one [31] what are you listening to right now: 8TEEN by khalid [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah my boss’s husband when he comes through my line to buy stuff he’ll tell me about my boss’s dog [33] something that is getting on your nerves: white people, the “president”, littering, animal testing and a bunch more [34] most visited website: instagram [35] elementary: what about it?? my experience?? it was good [36] high school: same?? um i hated it i wanted to throw myself from the flight of stairs [37] college: don’t go but i wanna [38] hair color: right now it’s brown with faded green but natural it’s black [39] long or short hair: short [40] do you have a crush on someone: na i ain’t got time for that, next [41] what do you like about yourself?: nothing [42] piercings: my stretched ears and second ear piercing [43] blood type: idk [44] nickname: um so like i never tell anyone because i’ve never been asked but my whole life everyone has
called me helos [45] relationship status: single [46] zodiac sign: sagittarius [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show(s): bob’s burgers, unbreakable kimmy, the office, parks and rec and many more [49] tattoos: a moon and tombstone [50] right or left handed: right 
first:
 [51] surgery: my ears because apparently when i was younger or born my mom said i was like on the verge of being deaf?? idk [52] piercing: ears [53] best friend: cynthia a friend from my childhood [54] sport: none [56] pair of trainers: idk what that isn [57] eating: food [58] drinking: water 
other:
 [59] i’m about to: go shower [60] listening to: american teen by khalid [61] waiting for: my fat ass to get sleepy so i can knock the fuck out [62] want: to die [63] get married: no thanks miss me what that dumb shit [64] career: i’m very indecisive about this 
your type:
 [65] hugs or kisses: hugs [66] lips or eyes: both [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: older [69] romantic or spontaneous: both [70] nice arms or nice stomach: idc [71] sensitive or loud: loud i’m already the sensitive one we good [72] hook up or relationship: uuuuh?? [73] troublemaker or hesitant: both
have you ever: 
 [74] kissed a stranger?: no [75] drank hard liquor?: na [76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: i lost my glasses when my fat ass was younger and i’ve been blind ever since [77] turned someone down?: na if anything it’ll probably be the other way around lmao i’m ugly [78] sex on first date?: na [79] broken someone’s heart?: nope [80] had your own heart broken?: yeah [81] been arrested? : nope [82] cried when someone died? : i don’t like showing emotion so no [83] fallen for a friend: no 
do you believe in: 
 [84] yourself?: lmao na [85] miracles?: ?? i guess?? [86] love at first sight?: na as cliche as this sound this literally only happens in movies that’s where it’s so romanticized [87] santa claus?: when i was little [88] kiss on the first date?: i guess [89] angels?: i don’t wanna say no because when i say that to my mom she’s like “síguele y vas a ver se va a aparecer ” 
other: 
 [90] current best friend’s name: i don’t have one..?? na lmao it’s leslie ilu bitch i ain’t ever gonna stop loving u, bitch [91] eye colour: brown [92] favourite movies: biiiitch kiki’s delivery service is my shit and so many more lmao i fucking love movies

i forgot to copy and paste the bottom half omfg i hate my dumb ass self but if i’m supposed to tag people i tag @faeves @e-lizards @1chiquita @bluesoupie and whoever wants to do this i’m sorry i suck

[ka-go-me]

OutofTomorrow:     HOLY SHIT am I soOO PISSED OFF right now...These two little BLIGHTER boys that I met...Never in all of my 31 years of life have I EVER met anyone so ignorant and blind to the truth as these two little fools were!!      One told me to just go die - because I said that I couldn't get into the anime Mirai Nikki, he said it as a joke--but I rebuked him for it anyway-cause as we ALL know--cyber bullying has gotten to a point where if that's said to the wrong type of person--they could take it the wrong way and try to actually go commit suicide because they're clinically depressed...So-they both said I was stupid--and that that doesn't and wouldn't ever happen and that they don't believe in depression as a medical condition. And they MEANT it. They ARGUED with me about it!!        I kicked and banned them from the place we were in--but HOLY GODS. The argument is below the cut if you wish to read:

Me: Sorry-I'm kinda multitasking...What'd you ask? Guy 1: did i hurt your feellings last time honey? Me: Feelings? No. You didn't. But I don't look kindly on people telling anyone that they should go die for any reason. Guy 1: you know...that death it's dont have to be something bad....when you die we can say you just rest 4 ever so it's nothing bad to tell people to die Me: No its not a bad thing, I know. I work as a Nurse's Aide. I know its not first hand...But--nonetheless--things like that can have really bad effects on depressed individuals. And Idc if it was meant as a joke, it could be taken not as one and send said people off to commit suicide. Me: And that's not a good thing. Guy 1: ammmmmmmmmmm we talking inside a game? why someone will suicide from strangers? Me: Cyber Bullying is a HUGE thing. Guy 1: ok i going to die because of a man that i didnt even meet or talk to much =_= is this sound normal for you? Me: Ask the people who have tried to commit suicide due to it. Me: I'm not depressed, I wouldn't dream of it myself, but there ARE people out there who take it to those extremes.. Me: Sad as it is to say. Guy 2: i dont think so Guy 2: ppl dont give shit XD Me: Get on tumblr Guy 2: most of the time Guy 1: but they did it because this is someone how the see everyday or evem saw in real life but really inside of a game? no one ever die from stranger just because he told him to die Me: see how wrong you are. Guy 1: if you have no logic so just try to sound like you have some logic!! Guy 2: O__o Guy 1: no one Guy 1: will ever Guy 1: die Me: People have, Guy 1: from stranger Guy 1: from stranger?!?!?! Guy 2: mybe those ppl had some problems XD Guy 2: in there head Guy 1: and even game?!?! Me: Yes, Me: DEPRESSION. Guy 2: lol srsly who would die from one talking chat Me: That's the problem. Guy 1: but if this a game you dont even know who you are talking to Me: They don't care. Guy 2: depresion came when u lost ur family or having war in ur country not having Guy 2: food Guy 2: but Me: Wow you guys are so extremely, extremely ignorant... Me  shakes her head. Guy 2: go suisicede depresion from somone who just say in a game go die loLXD Guy 1: XD sound wierd Me: You guys are still young...and new... Guy 2: mybe young Guy 2: but mybe went more tru hard things then u Guy 1: maybe young but smarter then you =_= Guy 2: ppl will never die from some random person from the game Me: You just keep having those rose colored glasses on over your eyes... Guy 2: ppl who dont have legs and ppl that leave in a war always they fight to there lifes Guy 1: people wont just go to die because of someone that they just meet and game and go die because of a "man" that told them to die Me: I hope you can keep that view... Guy 2: why someone so stupid will die from a game Guy 2: chating Guy 2: Miss u leave to much sweet life Guy 2: a person whop die from internet its dumb thing Me: You are both sweet summer children... Me: and know nothing.. Me  shakes her head again Guy 2: belive me Guy 1: i know right i am sweet Guy 1: and somehow smarter then you Guy 1: XD Guy 2: we gone tru worce things Me: I doubt it. Guy 2: maikel stop Guy 2: not mater if somone smart or dumb Guy 2: just ppl leave so sweet life Me: You are both fools. Guy 2: that they not notice even tru hard time how need to fight for ur life Guy 2: and dien from just chating on internet its discusting Guy 1: the one who saying that die from a game because someone who you told you to die it's a real fool Guy 2: yep Me: Overly depressed people can take what someone says the wrong way, and can feel like their lives are worthless...and a shove from a Stranger-joke or not-telling them to go die--could cause them to snap and actually attempt suicide. Me: It *has* happened. Guy 2: i dont belive in depresion Me: Then you are an idiot. Guy 2: those ppl who get depresion so easly Me: Depression is a real thing. Me: And people often need to take medicine to control it. Guy 2: they leave sweet lie and dont care about it they only see bad Guy 2: in it Guy 2: they need respect more Me: Its an imbalance in the chemicals in the brain Guy 2: Miss Guy 2: from ur talking Me: I know what I'm talking about. Guy 2: i can understand u never went true life strogles Me: My sister has it. Me: And my Best friend. Guy 2: that is in the brige of life and death Me: My Best friend has attempted suicide a few times already in her life... Guy 2: where u leave? Me: Because of depression. Guy 2: live Me: I live in the States. Guy 2: oki Guy 2: whats made ur sister life so bad Guy 1: but did she done this because of someone from game that told her to die?? Guy 2: that she got so depresed Guy 2: about? Me: Nothing. But she's depressed. And takes meds for it. Guy 2: oki depresing from nothing? Me: Chemical imbalances in her head. Guy 2: ppl in war strugle to fight there life and they never get depresion from it they still will fight for it Guy 2: beacuse they see Me: Its a medical condition. Guy 2: what good at life Me: The chemicals in her head aren't right--so she gets depressed more often than not. Guy 2: and selfish ppl who live sweet life from there birth cry about 9how u calling it depresion from nothing) Me: And she needs the meds to balance out those chemicals. Guy 2: blance what Guy 2: the depression from nothing? Me: THE CHEMICALS IN HER HEAD. Guy 2: i understandet Guy 2: if she lost her family Guy 2: and it been jkilled on her eyes Guy 2: or she seen how ppl ripd off there parts Me: Clinical depression is a chemical inbalance in your brain!!! Guy 2: and have a truma Guy 2: no Me: YES Me: IT IS. Guy 2: she just selfish Guy 2: she dont respect life Guy 2: and Guy 2: honestly ppl weak like this need to die Me: You are a damn idiotic fool. Guy 2: if they cant respect there life Guy 2: im not fool Guy 2: now i see Me: And now you can gtfo. Guy 2 has been booted from the chat Guy 1: omg Guy 1: you so stupid Me: You too. And neither of you will be able to come back this time. Guy 1 has has been booted from the chat

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1.) what’s a song you depict with your childhood? two step by ciara 😩 2.) did you have a memorable childhood pet? WAFFLES the dog 3.) have you ever been drunk? like once and it was p lit 4.) have you ever tried drugs? YEAH LMAO a few times ive smoked weed and it was chill but eh 5.) have you ever completely regretted what you’ve said? umm not ever really 6.) have you ever made someone cry? uh duh 7.) has someone ever made you cry? UH DUH 8.) have you ever been in love? if so, describe the moment you knew it. um only two times, and i only knew because it was the strongest feeling ive ever felt and its too familiar 9.) which came first the chicken or the egg? dis dick 10.) are you part of the lgbtq+ community? do you support them? im bi B so uh yeah 11.) how many siblings do you have? 3 but all have one different parent 12.) have you ever been in love with someone you couldn’t love? umm thats a weird way to put it 13.) are you a good cook? i probably am but i never really cook 14.) what is your favorite tv show? big mouth but theres only one season /:

15.) what is the last movie you cried during? a REALLY sad korean movie called Hope

16.) what are songs you’ve cried to when you first heard them? (if any) Praying by Kesha for some reason

17.) do you have a middle name? Christine

18.) have you been out of your country? nope

19.) are you a chocolate fan or not? not really lol

20.) how many people have you kissed? two but if someone asks i say one because one makes me uncomfy

21.) what is your favorite album? Starboy or Digital Druglord

22.) what is your dream car? a jeep buf i forgot the exact type

23.) what is your lucky/favorite number? 7 cause my bday month

24.) what is your favorite flower? i like poppies and pink roses

25.) books or movies, why? movies because i dont stay focused enough to read

26.) have you ever been on a blind date? no n it sounds scary

27.) has one of your friends ever backstabbed you? a couple times but i left those bitches

28.) have you ever backstabbed one of your friends? NO

29.) what thing do you symbolize love with? sometimes music

30.) do you have neat handwriting? SOMETIMES LMAO

31.) do you have a friend with benefits? nooope

32.) do you want a friend with benefits? not rly

33.) if you could be anything in the world, what would you be? a famous animator

34.) have you ever been blackout drunk? NO LOL

35.) have you ever met someone famous? i met a local celebrity but not rly

36.) how many concerts have you been to? like 4

37.) which concerts have you been to? dont get me started

38.) do you have a hidden talent? no bc everyone knows all of them bc im a showoff

39.) what do you do when you’re stressed? scream, cry, sometimes eliminate whatevers stressing me out

40.) do you think money can buy love? if the persona dumb enough ya

41.) how old would you date? like 5 years older is a good stopping point but never younger unless its by months then idc

42.) have you ever done something illegal? smoking weed before im 18? or 21 ya

43.) what is your biggest fear? heights and rejection :3

44.) what is an unusual fear you have? that ill lose something important to me but ig thats not unusual

45.) can you drive? i can but i dont have a license

46.) do you believe in supernatural creatures? not really but ghosts can hmu

47.) do you believe in karma? HELL YEAH

48.) what is one quality you need in your partner? humor or quirkiness

49.) do looks matter? sometimes

50.) does size matter? not really

51.) who is the last person you forgave? my stepmom ig

52.) what is your favorite ice cream flavor? mint chocolate or coffee

53.) what languages can you speak besides english? spanish and sign language

54.) ever been on a plane? when i was 4 so technically no cause i dont remember

55.) ever been on a boat? when i was like 8 ya n i got a gnarly tummy ache

56.) is there anyone you’ve lost touch with that you wish you hadn’t? not really

57.) are there any friendships you regret? heck yeah

58.) are there any friendships you wish you could make? not really

59.) have you ever stayed awake for 24 (+) hours? no im not a maniac

60.) have you ever walked outside after 12 am? yeah just around my block tho

61.) have you ever seen a sunrise completely through? yeah im up at 5:30 errday

62.) are you scared of rollercoasters? not as much anymore

63.) on a scale of 1-10 how stressed are you usually? 6

64.) do you have any plans this weekend? just practice

65.) do you miss anyone right now? kinda not rly

66.) who do you wish you were talking to right now? no one idk no one in particular

67.) if you could have any superpower, what would it be? invisibility

68.) who is your favorite superhero? batman b

69.) are you dirty minded? no lol

70.) what is your favorite song from every decade starting at that 80’s? dont

71.) how many kids, if any, do you want? 000000

72.) who is your biggest OTP? me w myself

73.) what is your favorite food? sushi

74.) do you want to be married one day? yeah but it aint a big deal if im not

75.) dogs or cats? cats

76.) do you drink enough water daily? NO LOL

77.) have you ever seen a shooting star? nop

78.) if you had the opportunity to go to the moon, would you? no that shits scary

79.) how many best friends do you have? 3

80.) when was the last time you cried? idk tbh

81.) have you ever laughed so hard you peed yourself? MULTIPLE TIMES BUT IT AINT EVER FULL ON ITS LIKE oh shit

82.) have you ever made anyone laugh so hard they peed? probably (;

83.) if you could travel any where in the world, where would you go? japan or hawaii

84.) what are 3 words you would use to describe yourself? stubborn, generous, witty

85.) do you consider yourself a loyal person? of course

86.) what is your favorite season and why? fall bc its not too cold but its not freezing n pretty colors

87.) have you ever told anyone you loved them, and didn’t mean it? yes and yes bc i wouldnt say it if i didnt mean it which goes for everything

88.) do you know how to play any instruments? violin but i aint good

89.) do like like falling asleep to music or not? no i find it distracting

90.) what are you allergic to? cats and chlorine

91.) have you ever wanted to be someone else for a day just so you could see what there life is like? yeah but idk about what specific person

92.) if you could be any character from your favorite tv show would you, and if so, who would you be? i dont want

93.) if you could be best friends with any celebrity who would it be and why? taylor swift idk why

94.) are you outgoing? kinda

95.) have you ever wanted to kiss someone, but weren’t brave enough to? um ya

96.) are you a good flirt? probably idk

97.) have you ever been turned down, or have you ever turned anyone down? yes and yes

98.) which planet is your favorite? neptune

99.) are you superstitious? a little but not rly.

100.) are you a good listener? yes

101.) are you a good kisser? IDK

102.) would you kiss any of your friends? NO

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April 6, 2017

I know that what I am about to do is very wrong, but please understand. I just grew sick of everything until I’ve had enough. It wasn’t easy to deal with all the shits I had to encounter in my life. Is this really how life works? It makes you feel miserable for existing until it makes you give up on it? I guess so. I’ve been holding on for so long but I’ve had enough. I don’t want to deal with anything anymore. I want to escape and if you think what I’m about to do is an act of cowardy and selfishness, I can’t blame you. 

I know that I used to be the one who tells people who feels miserable that there’s so much in life to live for. I’m sorry for swallowing my words. It’s just that I really can’t deal with these. 

First, it’s back. I thought I’d still be free from it for four more years but no, it came back so easily. Why did I even expect for something good in the first place? I hate the optimism that I had before. Because of the high hopes it gave me, I’m so much hurt right now. I’m sorry for the people whom I once told to be always positive. Optimism hurts you so much, especially when it doesn’t go with what you hoped for. 

Second, my father did the same mistake again. I know that he has the money but why does he have to do it again? Why does he have to be dumb and not think of the feelings of his family? A large amount of money was needed for my therapy and all, and fooling around with someone else is not a must for the moment, not even for ever. Now, your bitch is hunting us. It seems like none of us is affected, like we were already blinded but deep inside, everything hurts. It even affected my health. I disregarded the fact that I must stay healthy because I allotted the time to keep my health to deal with your shit. I cry every night because the pain is really killing me, plus the pain that follows because I didn’t take the meds. Just so you know, you are the reason why all of a sudden I lost myself. I lost the health, hope and faith in everything.

Third, I just lost my friends. I can feel it, you don’t have to tell me that you don’t want me in your life anymore. Don’t worry, you’ll be shit-free in a few days, just give me the time to tell you these:

Ate Queencess, sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry. Sorry for making you obliged to do something that night. I’m sorry for making you feel bad for not being able to do something. It was not your responsibility, it was mine and I’m sorry for involving you. Please, do have a good life ahead. Once I’m no longer here, your thoughts are already free. I won’t be there anymore, contradicting what you’re thinking. Do whatever makes you happy. I’m sorry for this. I’m sorry for sharing you my problems that I can solve alone. I’m sorry for being so inconsiderate. I’m sorry for not being beside you all the time. I’m so sorry. I love you nay, I wish you all the best. Thank you for everything. Happy anniversary.

Hannah, hello. I can’t believe that we’ve known each other now for a year last monday. I’m sorry for not being able to greet you. I just didn’t want you to talk to me anymore because I know that I was going to hurt you anyway. I just wanted to leave things the same way, and I didn’t want you to get hurt because of me that’s why I already distanced myself. Like what I said before, I’m setting you free instead of leaving you but our friendship is just so strong that’s why we were friends again. This time, please consider me as an enemy for breaking what I promised. Please hate me and all. Have you watched TFIOS? I’ll say the same words that Hazel said. I’m a grenade, I can explode anytime and I think it’s my responsibility to minimize casualties. I love you, wishing you the good health and a happy life.

Ate Cri, I’m so sorry for being such a huge burden. I am sorry for having to tell you all my shits. I understand that you’re tired of me. I am really sorry for that. You already know almost everything about my life and I’m sorry for making you feel the guilt because you weren’t there to answer my calls and accompany me all the time. I love you mum. You’ll find someone better someday.

Ate Danica, I’m sorry. I can no longer live. I don’t want to anymore. I’m sorry for having to give up. I love you. I’m sorry for the huge burden I left you, you can burn that.

Mariz, hey. I know that we’re really not that close but thank you for being a part of my life. I will forever be greatful. I love you as well.

Ate Aira, hi lola. we haven’t talk for so long. I want to say I’m really sorry for not reaching out first. I’m sorry for waiting for you to talk to me before I talk to you first. I love you lola, and I’m sorry for giving up.

Ayessa, you’re my first internet friend. I’m sorry for not telling you anything. I’m sorry for not being able to come there last year, bc I know that you were waiting. We’ll meet somewhere, soon. I love you.

Ate Pey, hi idol, sorry. I’m sorry for having to do this. I know that I once said that you will never lose your fan. You wouldn’t lose me anyway, I’ll still be supporting you, not just physically. I love you.

Ate Jaime, thank you for the times we talked. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for being the reason why someone lost her trust in you. I’m so sorry. I wanted to talk to you everyday but I sensed that you aren’t interested so I just didn’t. Thank you for everything, I love you.

Andrea, hey. Thank you for being my sister. I know that we don’t talk that much but you became a part of my life.

Ate Danielle Clarisse, it’s been so long since we last talked. Do you still remember me? I hope so. Thank you for your efforts in helping me ate, I love you.

Ate Danielle Espinosa, we live in the same city but we never got the chance to meet each other, as what we planned for two times but I saw you a while ago. I know that that was you because of the hair and your face. I don’t know if you saw me. I was about to come to you but for what, right? We weren’t given the chance to meet now, but we’ll meet someday, somewhere. I love you ate. 

Cailey, hey. It’s been a while. Thank you for everything. For always helping me. I don’t know why all of a sudden we grew apart but I guess that’s better. Thank you once again, I’m so sorry and I love you.

Ate Kyle idol, I don’t know if I am a friend of you, idc. Thank you for talking to me. I don’t know what to say anymore, thank you and I love you.

Nerriah, sorry for breaking my promise. I’m sorry for not being able to be there on your birthday. I love you no matter what. Don’t leave the 1D fandom, please. Ate Camille, I love you. I’m sorry for leaving. Thank you for everything.

ML, milliliter, hi. This alien is now giving up and I'm sorry for not telling you. I just had enough. Thank you for the friendship. I love you, and I'm so sorry. -

Fourth, I lost the only thing that’s left for me and I can no longer find any reasons to continue. I don’t know what will happen next. I already committed an unforgivable sin and I’ll do another one bc there’s no place for me up there, so why will I try to correct it anymore anyway? I’m do done.

Fifth, I already have no one. I lost everyone. My friends, family and myself. I was trying hard to reach out but no one was willing to. I just wish that no one will say “I wish you opened up and I could’ve helped you” because in the first place I was reaching out as I said and no one seemed to be interested. I understand anyway. Thank you for this life, thanks to everyone.