#idc if someone did this already /im/ doing it and /im/ making it purple <3 FGSHJBFLS

[energyanon]

Surprise reading as I can’t seem to shake off the curiosity. Ok, I’m gonna set them up in relation to this drama. Personally, I don’t believe it. NV would have to have various personality disorders in order for this to be true, among 5000 other reasons why that is not normal, sane human behaviour. But the Instagram.. so many things don’t match up. However, both me and another anon felt fuzzy headed when we were representing her.. maybe it’s not just her overthinking, maybe it’s something more relating to some kind of disorder, but that’s not my place to say. Let’s check it out. Once again I’m gonna type as I go.

I’ve decided for three set ups here: 1. NV, 2. The group chat as a whole as cited on said Instagram, and 3. Henry.

Set up 2. (The GC) first. I picked up NV and got a headache.

First flag: Natalie wanted to be on top of the GC… that’s weird..

Henry is at a distance but he is staring at them both. Starting to feel like I may have been wrong in my judgment here ha.. 😬 I’m really hoping it’s not true cause otherwise that’s fucking sad and NV has genuine issues. But, I’m ok with being wrong.

Alright, let’s start as NV (cause GC, I feel I already know their feelings regardless of if it’s true or not) FYI, I have moved NV to being close but not on top, as one energy on top of - group of energies would be much too hard to decipher.

NV:

Immediate dizziness. I feel very hot and my air con is currently blasting down upon me so it’s not me. The group chat feels very little to NV. like tiny, as in I could step on them. (1. This can mean they’re not even being seen, she barely cares about them, or 2. Can feel more powerful than) as we know in the screenshots the latter was supposedly the case, so I’m not going to cross that out just yet, but it feels more like I’m just not even seeing them. they’re dirt under my feet. They don’t really have her attention and she’s not super bothered by them, but once I brought her attention to it She does want to stamp it out, it’s a complete nuisance. She wants to cover them up. I gave them a little tap, which ended turning into many taps which turned into actually wanting to destroy their rep all together. so she’s angry about it. (At this point I don’t know if she’s angry about This situation being a lie, as in she’s sick of these people doing this to her, or if she’s genuinely angry at the group for exposing her) the tiny dirt now feels a bit bigger but more like a basketball sized nuisance. She still feels bigger than them, it’s just that this is so ANNOYING. Still wants to rip them up into little pieces, she’s annoyed, she’s moving me around a whole bunch, she’s angry, she’s frustrated, she’s tying her hair up, she’s not having it. like it’s fucking annoying. this is all so ANNOYING. She’s stressed, she’s annoyed, she wants this over and done with.

No more energy shifts. Incoming questions.

Q: do you know them?

No I don’t fucking know them

Ok do you think that was a friend who exposed you?

I don’t know I can’t think I- (just a bunch of profanities) [note: it’s like she’s keyboard smashing in my brain right now it’s REALLY annoyed]

Jaw clenched, I’m swaying from side to side my hands are on my hips, hair away from my face I want to move somewhere else but I need to deal with THIS FUCKING THING FIRST ISHDJFKSJXJDSNX.

god it is SO ANNOYING like if you guys were all in front of me right now you’d be heading me yelling and screaming and So irritated I’m so I’m SO Annoyed. I can’t even think of any other questions to ask cause I’m too busy getting keyboard smashed atm.

I’m gonna move to the group to just see if the intentions there are legit. I need a break from NV.

Ok the group:

the group have some anxiety, stomach dropped. They’re not angry they’re just looking at NV. None of them can be sure if It was NV - I think some of them doubt but it was a “get it out just in case” situation. At least one of them feel bad. Nervous jitters from my right leg. You know how you fidget when you’re waiting to get in trouble?

Q: do you believe it was NV?

There are many of them so I’ll just say it as it came up. No (1) I don’t know (majority) one of them is a yeah, feels like the leader of the group but even then the yeah isn’t a solid resounding yeah. But it’s also not like a “yeaahhh?” It’s like I’m just gonna make a decision and it’s yeah.

Q: are you mad that nv is with Henry

I’m not mad (1)

We’re not mad, we just think he could do better. (Majority)

Q: why did you do this

To expose her

Q: why to expose her if you didn’t truly believe it was her

There is a very weak “it was the right thing to do” like.. when I say weak it feels like they don’t even believe that, but they’ve convinced themselves it is..?

Q: at any point did you lie or fabricate the screenshots?

Resounding no, but one solid yes from someone.

Q: Yes?

One of them.

Q: which one

(I was shown one of them, it was one of the purple and black ones, one where there isn’t much purple - I’ll have to check it after)

Ok, my leg isn’t going crazy anymore - there is just an expectant waiting. They’re looking at NV, she’s taller than them but not much taller (not like they’re a basketball being looked down upon, just normal human heights) the feeling is just waiting. Waiting to see if there is a response. That’s it, that’s all I’ve been given I can’t even conjure Up another question. (Sometimes when the energy is done sharing its just done, I can’t force it past that and I’m not in my right to)

Checking Henry:

Henry is tired, he’s disillusioned, he’s just staring into space. The other two are in front of him (facing one another) but he doesn’t see them. Genuinely no thoughts from him it’s complete disassociation. But I did ask if he knew about this situation, he doesn’t seem to know yet.

And yet he’s still disassociating.. the thought “I don’t know what to do” came up, but it was so slow and fractured it was like… you know that video of that kid who’s trying to say have you ever had a dream that you could do anything but he muddles it up for 20 seconds before getting to it? It’s like that (I’ll link it when I’m done)

“I don’t kn- I just I - what do I ev- wh-“ and it keeps going but imagine it taking FOREVER for him to say it.

He’s stuck in the disassociation. Weird choice, but I need to do it. I’m gonna slap him. (Which yes, means slapping myself)

Ok, that didn’t make much difference, he’s still super tired, he still didn’t see the other two but I tried to bring his attention to NV and he was already turning around to leave “I don’t care, I don’t care I’m too tired” and then he turned back and said to NV to clarify “I do care, but I don’t, I’m tired” and I took him out cause he was walking out of there anyway.

Back to NV one last time, and then I’m doing other stuff with my day and then I’ll do CE tonight.

NV

It’s always dizziness with this chick, I swear. Everytime im with her I’m dizzy, I’m losing blood pressure. She’s calmed down at least but fuck I’m dizzy more dizzy than I usually am (can be her, could also be me continuously going into different energies, I don’t tend to feel like this though but don’t rule it out)

Dizzy, Im not tired, but fatigued like I don’t need to sleep, I need to just lay down. I see the GC but they can fuck off I don’t care. She wants to kick them out of the way. As soon as she does she wants to leap out at them and tear them to shreds. She goes from 1- 100 real quick. I don’t want her to destroy my representative for the group, cause I don’t want anything to accidentally manifest in real time for the actual group, so im going to create a little thing that she can destroy instead - just in case there are any energetic consequences of her destroying the representation of the GC. Found a little piece of paper I called it placebo GC and we’re tearing it up.

Ok so, I got her to tear up Placebo GC. She got raveonous with it. I am now coming to believe that NV has some major anger issues. To be fair, im feeling how annoyed she is and I get it honestly it’s the only way to get out this level of emotion. It’s not healthy, therapy is needed for sure, but I’m not gonna sit here like this and say that she’s overreacting cause when you’re feeling like she is, there’s no where else for this to go

She ripped them up, crushed them, tore at them with her teeth, crushed them into a little ball again and chucked them away and then we just screamed “FUCK!” For literally about 3 minutes and she was LIVID. I’ve sat her down now while I write this, she’s still annoyed, she’s not livid.

Interesting to note though, all throughout the screaming there was never a single thought that came up that was like “why can’t they just let US live, why can’t we just BE together” she really doesn’t seem to care about the affect it has on her and Henry’s relationship, she’s just annoyed people are talking shit. Like she just doesn’t care that people won’t accept them.

Oh! I haven’t checked on her vs. HC so lemme do that. I wanna see if she checks up on him too, cause from a normal relationship perspective, this would affect him too. But let’s see.

Yup, ok, nothing from her end, if anything she’s giving him the silent treatment. Like she’s looking at him in the way you do when your partner has said something stupid and you’re too angry to answer. But she doesn’t care that he’s there. I went to him also to see if he would comfort her and he was just a brick wall, kind of more like “here I am I’m showing up but idc. I really idc. Sorry that you’re going through it I guess.” Both of them had the ~aura~ (I don’t know how to explain it on text) of “this did not go as planned” however, they didn’t SAY that, just as an FYI, it was just a bit of a shared feeling translated into words.

That’s it. I’m ending it there. I’ve got life admin to do, be back later for a CE reading as promised. :)

[jwywrld]

voicemail

genre: fluff & slight angst

pairing: jung wooyoung (ateez) x fem reader

word count: 1900+ words

warnings: mention of loss of loved ones

summary: you don’t like phone calls but your history partner, wooyoung, insists on calling you for your project. frankly, he just wants to hear your voice.

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a/n: hii i’m rly new to writing and this is my first post :) i’m rly nervous shdjs hope you like it! if i made any typos or errors i’m so sorry (also the title sucks im so sorry i really didn’t know what to name it)

-

ring! ring!

with a roll of your eyes, you pick up your phone. “ugh who is it. don’t they know i hate phone calls?” looking at the caller id, you saw that it was your history partner, wooyoung.

“hey! i heard we’re paired together for the history project!” a black haired boy chirped, bouncing up to you. “yeah.” you replied with a sigh. it was wooyoung, the nicest and most cheerful boy in your class. he seemed nice but you thought it was all an act. how could anyone be so nice to everyone all the time? it’s probably just to gain popularity. he was kinda cute though you had to admit. “great! just give me your number so we can work on it together.” he smiled, handing you his phone. after you keyed in your phone number, you turned and left, asking him to text you when he wanted to work on the project.

feeling your phone vibrate in your hand, you looked at it, seeing it was a text from an unknown number.

Unknown Number: hi! is this y/n?

y/n: who are you?

Unknown Number: it’s wooyoung, your history partner

y/n: oh

ok

wooyoung my history partner: can we start on the history project now? i wanna start on it earlier so we don’t have to rush it

y/n: can we start tomorrow

kinda tired now

wooyoung my history partner: sure! :)

“hello?”

“hi y/n!”

“why did you call me?”

“um.. because we have to work on the project?”

“wow didn’t know that. i meant why did you have to call me. can’t we just text?”

“calling is waaaayyy easier though!”

“i don’t like phone calls.”

“wha—”

you hung up.

about 3 seconds later, you got a text from wooyoung.

wooyoung my history partner: HEY!! why’d u do that! >:0

y/n: i told you. i don’t like phone calls. can’t we discuss over text?

wooyoung my history partner: No.

y/n: ugh

fine.

wooyoung my history partner: :D

immediately after, you heard your phone ring again. you sighed and picked it up.

“so... we have to choose between the mexican-american war or the cold war right?” you asked.

the two of you talked about the project for about an hour, researching and sharing the information you had found with each other, then collating it. in between, you guys made small talk and he told you a few jokes, causing you to let out small chuckles.

“ok that’s it for today. i still have work to do.” you said, your brain not being able to take any more history.

“ok bye—”

that wasn’t that bad! maybe phone calls weren’t as bad as you thought they were.

-

about 3 days later, you were practising some math questions. however, no matter how many times you tried it, you just couldn’t understand it. you decided to move on to the next question, only to find out that you were stuck as wel. frustrated, you felt the wet hot tears build up in your eyes. why do i have to be so dumb? why can’t i understand it right away? to make it worse, your exams were in two weeks and you had so much to catch up on. sitting at your table, you sobbed, the tears streaming down your cheeks uncontrollably.

feeling your phone vibrate furiously on the table, you saw that wooyoung was calling you. you declined it, wiping the tears away from your face.

wooyoung my history partner: why did you decline my call :((

y/n: do we really have to call???

wooyoung my history partner: i don’t understand! why do you hate calling people so much?

“y/n, your dad and i are going to be staying in New Zealand for a while to take care of gramps. i know you’re only 16 and it’ll be hard to be living alone but we’ll try to be back as soon as possible. we promise.”

“mom... why do i have to be left alone here?”

“sweetie.. we don’t have a choice.. gramps is really sick and needs someone to take care of him. i promise we’ll be back as soon as we can.”

those were the last words you had heard from your parents before they had gotten into a serious car accident right afteryour grandpa had passed. you had prayed for them to be okay for days, but to no avail. they had passed, leaving you, a 16 year old girl to fend for herself. after that incident, phone calls only reminded you of the day when the nurse had called you, informing you that your parents didn’t make it. it was one of the hardest years of your life, having to cope with the loss of your parents, grandpa and also having to get used to being alone. it had been 2 years and your aunt had been paying for the bills, insisting that you only repay her in the future when you had a stable job and income.

y/n: idk

wooyoung my history partner: wtv i’m still calling you idc

accepting defeat, you picked up the call, trying to calm your shaky voice.

“hi.” you said softly, your voice quivering.

“y/n? are you okay?” the concern in his voice genuine.

how did he pick that up from one word???

“yeah i’m fine. let’s just do this.” you sniffed.

“i’m not stupid y/n. but if you don’t wanna talk about it that’s okay.”

“thank you.” you croaked.

you let him do most of the talking while you typed down the points. after the discussion, you completely broke down again. not only because of stress but also because wooyoung’s question had reminded you of your parents.

“mom... dad... why did you have to go... i miss you so much. when can ever be happy again?”

-

after a week of calling wooyoung on the phone and discussing, you realised that you actually enjoyed talking to him. you also learned some things about him like how he was afraid of bugs and loved puppies. you also heard him talk about his younger brother and how much he missed him while he was staying at the dorms in school.

wooyoung my history partner: helloooo do you wanna meet tmr after school at the library to do the board

y/n: ok

wooyoung my history partner: can you bring the board & markers? i’ll bring paper & glue.

y/n: ok

wooyoung my history partner: ugh you’re such a dry texter

y/n: what did you expect me to reply to that???

wooyoung my history partner: ...

idk

y/n: exactly.

wooyoung my history partner: ok wtv see you tomorrow!!! :))

y/n: c u 2

why did you feel so nervous at the thought of meeting him tomorrow?

-

“hey woo” it was a nickname you had given him in the past week, thinking it was short and cute.

“hey y/n! did you bring the stuff?”

“yup”

“ok great”

you worked side by side, writing down the different notes and points, blushing when your hands accidentally brushed and mumbling a small ‘sorry’.

after two hours, your board was finally done!

“all that’s left to do is present”

“ugh that’s the WORST part”

“come onn y/n you know it’s graded! so let’s just do it properly”

-

a day later, before you called to practise your presentation. a thougut you had been pushing back popped into your head.

what happens to us after this project? i still want to stay friends. will he just pretend like nothing happened?

worry creeped in at the thought of being alone again without having anyone to talk to, even if the two of you did not talk much in school. however, others had noticed him occasionally staring at you during classes or breaks.

halfway through practising the presentation, curiosity and fear kicked in and you couldn’t help but blurt out

“woo what’ll happen to us after.. you know.. this?”

“what do you mean?”

“are we still gonna be.. friends?”

“why shouldn’t we be???”

“i don’t know.. i just thought.. maybe you wouldn’t have a reason to hang out with me anymore..”

“what?? you’re crazy. of course we can still be friends!! anyway let’s drop this subject and continue from where we left off.”

after hearing his words, you felt assured and relaxed. when another question popped into your head.

“woo? why do you like calling me so much?”

“i just... it’s just... weren’t we talking about the first phase of the cold war?” he cleared his throat.

“wooooooo~ you didn’t answer my question” you whined.

“how about we just focus on the project y/n?”

-

about half a year passed and you and wooyoung had soon become best friends. you facetimed each other everyday, talking about how your day went or ranting about the annoying teachers and classmates. you had told him about your parents, explaining why you were awkward and dry with people

what he didn’t know was that you had quickly developed feelings for him, but hiding it because you were scared of how he would react and afraid that you might lose your relationship with him.

it was one of the rare occasions when you were at his dorm, seated beside each other on the purple velvet sofa, just enjoying each other’s company while watching a movie.

“woo, remember when i asked you that question like. a while ago?”

“what question”

“why did you like calling me so much?”

“well... i... i... i guess i just had to do the history project with you?”

“we both know we could have just made a google document... so... why? i’m honestly soooo curious so just tell meeeeeee”

“fine. ijustlikedhearingyourvoiceiguess” he replied, cheeks turning pink.

“... you what”

“i just.. wanted to hear your voice you know?”

“oh”

“anyway y/n. what i’m trying to say is. i like you. a lot. i- i was scared to say this to you because i don’t want to lose our friendship but.. i don’t think i can keep this in anymore. i like you, y/n.”

gasping at his sudden confession and not knowing how to react, you just stared at him with wide eyes.

“ah shit i’ve screwed this up. i’m sorry y/n just. please ignore what i said.” he bit his lip.

“i... i- may or may not like you too?” you managed to squeak out, cheeks rosy.

suddenly, you felt a pair of lips on yours, eyes widening at his sudden movement. it was a short but sweet kiss, causing you to turn even redder than you already were.

“oh god y/n you don’t know how worried i’ve been about this. i’m so glad that you.. feel the same away about me!” he babbled.

“i..i’m afraid though, woo. what if... what if i lose you too? like i lost my parents.” your voice started to shake and tears welled up in your eyes at the thought of that.

he cupped your face in his hand, wiping your tears with his thumb.

“hey.. don’t say that alright? i’m here. i’m right here. i’m not leaving you.”

he pulled you in for a hug while you cried into his chest, letting the tears run. he held you in his arms until you stopped crying.

“how ‘bout i take you out on a date this saturday hm? how’s that sound?” he said, lifting your chin up so you would meet his eyes.

“great!” you smiled softly, melting into his gaze.

the next two hours were just spent cuddling, your head pressed against his chest, breathing in his scent while your legs were tangled up and he played with your hair and left little kisses on your head. it was the first time in a long time you had felt so happy, heart fluttering and exploding because you knew, finally, you weren’t alone anymore. wooyoung was here. and that was all that mattered.

[gothicmangos-blog]

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

(This tag was not created by me, it’s by @marcymakemagic​. I wan’t to do it since it seemed fun.)

PLEASE DON’T LET THIS FLOP AHHHH

1. What is your middle name? - Nikole

2. How old are you? - 21

3. When is your birthday? - June 17

4. What is your zodiac sign? - Gemini

5. What is your favorite color? - Army Green

6. What’s your lucky number? - 13 

7. Do you have any pets? - Nope

8. Where are you from? - Missouri, USA 

9. How tall are you? - 5′8″ (172.7 cm)

10. What shoe size are you? - 7.5

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? - 15 I think

12. What was your last dream about? - I was kissed by Jungkook :]

13. What talents do you have? - drawing, singing, writing lyrics, just being creative.

14. Are you psychic in any way? - Not really, but there’s been times when I’d predict something would happen, or I’d have dreams about something and then it would happen later that week it would happen. I’m also known go be very lucky.

15. Favorite song? - “Ooh La La La” by EXO

16. Favorite movie? - Ride Along is a funny one, but I don’t really think I have a favorite. As long as Kevin Hart is in it, I’m happy.

17. Who would be your ideal partner? - Someone I’m not afraid to be goofy with and treats me like a princess.

18. Do you want children? - Not really. I’m kinda terrible with kids. Now if you mean children as in dogs, then yes, I WANT THEM ALL!!

19. Do you want a church wedding? - I’ll just do whatever feels right, but honestly that’s probably what’ll happen anyways.

20. Are you religious? - Yep

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? - Who hasn’t? I mean we’ve all been born right?? :]

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? - Nope, I’m an angel

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? - Yes, I met Christina Grimmie 2 years before she passed. The day I met her was one of the best days of my life. R.I.P, love~.

24. Baths or showers? - Showers

25. What color socks are you wearing? - Black and yellow, black and yellow, black and yellow, black and yellow.

26. Have you ever been famous? - pfffffffffffffttttttt..... no

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? - Maybe not huge where people are stalking me and paparazzi are everywhere, but a lil fame is alright c:

28. What type of music do you like? - K-Pop, Indie pop, rock, acoustic shit <:

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? - nope, but maybe it’ll happen someday ;)

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? - 9

31. What position do you usually sleep in? - curled up on my side

32. How big is your house? - 3600 sq ft... i think

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? - nothing... because I don’t wake up till the afternoon.

34. Have you ever fired a gun? - nerf

35. Have you ever tried archery? - I want to

36. Favorite clean word? - Fudge-nuggets or oof

37. Favorite swear word? - dick? Is dick a swearword? Nah? okay then, i don’t have a favorite because I’m an “angel” c;

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? - 26 hours

39. Do you have any scars? - This past summer I cut my finger on a can of soup and there’s a weird bubble of re-attached skin on my ring finger where it happened. 

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? - Stalkers? Oh yep, plenty of those.

41. Are you a good liar? - I can’t lie to save a life.

42. Are you a good judge of character? - most of the time.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? - English accent, a bit of an oriental accent, pikachu, stitch from lilo and stitch, goofy..

44. Do you have a strong accent? - nope, i don’t even have one.

45. What is your favorite accent? - As long as i can understand you, then that’s good

46. What is your personality type? - sarcastic, funny, lazy, shy sometimes but crazy other times.

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? - My DAY6 Youth Tour Hoodie.

48. Can you curl your tongue? - Yep, I can turn it upside down and also touch my nose with it too.

49. Are you an innie or an outie? - innie

50. Left or right handed? - Right

51. Are you scared of spiders? - yes

52. Favorite food? - Cake

53. Favorite foreign food? - Korean BBQ and Gyoza (Japanese dumplings).

54. Are you a clean or messy person? - messy tbh

55. Most used phrase? - I’m okay, I’m good, Okie dokie.

56. Most used word? - Oof, hellurr, idk, lmao

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? - like 2 hours lol

58. Do you have much of an ego? - kinda-ishhh. My ego is bigger on the internet.

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? - suck and lick >__>

60. Do you talk to yourself? - All the time

61. Do you sing to yourself? - I sing what I say to myself cuz im a weirdo

62. Are you a good singer? - I’m aight.

63. Biggest Fear? - Stage fright, airplanes, moths, absolute silence, losing friends and loved ones

64. Are you a gossip? - not really. idc about gossip anymore

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? - I honestly have no idea.

66. Do you like long or short hair? - both are fine. I prefer long on me though.

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? - yes, and in alphabetical order too.

68. Favorite school subject? - Art, astronomy, photography.

69. Extrovert or Introvert? - depends on the situation, but a little bit of both.

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? - nope

71. What makes you nervous? - confrontation, going places alone, public speaking.

72. Are you scared of the dark? - a bit.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? - One of my pet peeves. 

74. Are you ticklish? - please don’t tickle me... it’s torture ;~;

75. Have you ever started a rumor? - nope

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? - nah

77. Have you ever drank underage? - once

78. Have you ever done drugs? - nope

79. Who was your first real crush? - Andrew from fourth grade

80. How many piercings do you have? - none, except the one in my heart when someone says that they hate BTS.

81. Can you roll your Rs?“ - nope, but my friend can purr and I’m jealous.

82. How fast can you type? - pretty damn fast, thank you very much.

83. How fast can you run? - I don’t

84. What color is your hair? - Brown

85. What color is your eyes? - Grey Blue; sometimes they can be green too.

86. What are you allergic to? - Exercise xD 

87. Do you keep a journal? - Yes, it is dedicated to Kpop c: I’ll show it someday

88. What do your parents do? - dad works at the city waterplant, and mom stays home taking care of my brother, me and my grandmother

89. Do you like your age? - It’s a good age, except I hate responsibility

90. What makes you angry? - Lots of things

91. Do you like your own name? - Yeah it’s fine

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? - kinda, but for dogs xD

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? - girl tho

94. What are you strengths? - bowling and being lazy

95. What are your weaknesses? - not eating... don’t want to talk about it

96. How did you get your name? - ... my parents gave it to me?

97. Were your ancestors royalty? - I’m somehow related to Isaac Newton, but he aint royalty.

98. Do you have any scars? - ... I THOUGHT I ALREADY ANSWERED THIS QUESTION?? ABOUT MY BUBBLE FINGER.

99. Color of your bedspread? - Purple and black. 100. Color of your room? - Purple.. 

I PURPLE YOU!!!

Thanks for reading if you did. :*

[funloving16]

Get to Know Me Uncomfortably Well

1. What is you middle name?

elyce

2. How old are you?

21

3. What is your birthday?

96/10/25

4. What is your zodiac sign?

scorpio

5. What is your favorite color?

blue or like a green

6. What's your lucky number?

16

7. Do you have any pets?

got a cat and a puppy 

8. Where are you from?

canada

9. How tall are you?

5′1

10. What shoe size are you?

depends usually a 4 1/2

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

10 i think..

12. What was your last dream about?

it was a cute dream. it was about a date that me and my boy went on and we went for a walk and held hands and talked and laughed then we got some hot cocoa and cuddle in bed with each other and it was perfect endless night. 

13. What talents do you have?

being annoying haha 

14. Are you psychic in any way?

nope.

15. Favorite song?

not too sure but i guess i’ll pick Hunter Hayes’ song ‘Amen’. It’s just super cute and yeaaa.

16. Favorite movie?

This is a hard question cause I hate movies but i guess i’d go with either Cinderella story, fault in our stars , or the other woman. really into romantic stuff.

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone that can make me smile all the time and laugh and that can have fun and isn’t super serious but is still someone you can talk to. and who’s hot with a nice body and that cares for you and lets you steal all his clothes. someone who you can be comfortable around and doesn’t keep you a secret. and that compliments you all the time and makes you feel special and liked. 

18. Do you want children?

someday. but definitely not a lot. 

19. Do you want a church wedding?

as long as i marry the guy of my dreams idc what kind of wedding it is or even if we get hitched. 

20. Are you religious?

nope. 

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

hahahaha. like every week I'm there. 

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

yes. 

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

just James Franco. 

24. Baths or showers?

I usually only take showers but i feel like taking a nice old bubble bath with someone special would be nice. 

25. What color socks are you wearing?

gunna go with purple cuz I'm too lazy to actually check. Nvm . My socks are yellow. 

26. Have you ever been famous?

No? if I was ever famous wouldn’t I still be famous? 

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

yeaaaa. i feel like everyone would like to be a big celebrity . 

28. What type of music do you like?

Pop and country. 

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

only once. 

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

i have 6 on my bed but i don't like sleeping with them. 

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

on my tummy or curled up on my right side.

32. How big is your house?

not big like a normal sized house. 

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

ew who eats breakfast. 

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

no.. unless like nerf guns count .

35. Have you ever tried archery?

yes and i love it ! 

36. Favorite clean word?

And or Like 

37. Favorite swear word?

Fuck

38. What's the longest you've ever gone without sleep?

2 days. 

39. Do you have any scars?

like 12 tiny scars. 

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

probably not. 

41. Are you a good liar?

no I smile too much when I lie so its obvious. 

42. Are you a good judge of character?

with girls yes with men no. 

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

i can just not well .

44. Do you have a strong accent?

i actually wish i had a southern accent. 

45. What is your favorite accent?

southern. 

46. What is your personality type?

shy but very outgoing and bubbly. 

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

my jeans.. 250$

48. Can you curl your tongue?

just tried.. no i can’t.

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie.. kinda wish i was an outie thoooo

50. Left or right handed?

left handed. 

51. Are you scared of spiders?

:( yessss

52. Favorite food?

chicken nuggets 

53. Favorite foreign food?

im very basic so i don’t like to try new things.. so like spaghetti ?

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

more messy than clean. 

55. Most used phrased?

idkkkk

56. Most used word?

like

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

5 minutes

58. Do you have much of an ego?

yuppppppp

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

suck for a bit and then bite 

60. Do you talk to yourself?

i feel like everyone does so yes.

61. Do you sing to yourself?

i sing alone if thats what you mean..

62. Are you a good singer?

heck no. 

63. Biggest Fear?

being alone or dying. 

64. Are you a gossip?

sadly yes. 

65. Best dramatic movie you've seen?

fault in our stars. 

66. Do you like long or short hair?

on men short on women depends. like i enjoy medium length hair on myself. 

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

i could try and miserably fail at it. 

68. Favorite school subject?

gym or english or drama

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

nooo but i sooo badly want tooo

71. What makes you nervous?

big groups of people. 

72. Are you scared of the dark?

yea.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

if its a really stupid mistake then yes. 

74. Are you ticklish?

hahahahaha yessssss

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

mhmmmm

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

no . thats okay tho. 

77. Have you ever drank underage?

no I'm a goodie soooo

78. Have you ever done drugs?

yes.

79. Who was your first real crush?

w*****

80. How many piercings do you have?

zero. but i really want my nipple pierced. 

81. Can you roll your Rs?"

no.

82. How fast can you type?

fast

83. How fast can you run?

real fast 

84. What color is your hair?

an ugly colour. ask me in like a month and i’ll say blonde

85. What color is your eyes?

brown

86. What are you allergic to?

lets just say shellfish so i don't have to list everything else.

87. Do you keep a journal?

no.

88. What do your parents do?

work?

89. Do you like your age?

yeaa its a good age i think. like not too old and not too young. 

90. What makes you angry?

people who don’t respond back and make you feel unwanted. 

91. Do you like your own name?

somedays

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

yes so for my boy it’ll be Xavier and for my girl it’ll be Mia

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

both. boy first then girl. 

94. What are you strengths?

annoying people. 

95. What are your weaknesses?

annoying people.

96. How did you get your name?

my parents needed a english name and came up with that. 

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

maybe, i should ask. 

98. Do you have any scars?

you already ask this. yes. aha. 

99. Color of your bedspread?

red. 

100. Color of your room?

baby blue

[beachsequence-blog]

I was tagged by @sevenseasofbri to do this tag thingy so here we go 😎

LAST:

1. Drink: water

2. Phone call: work

3. Text message: the bf

4. Song you listened to: pocket calculator by kraftwerk

5. Time you cried: yesterday at like 4 am bc i had a terrible dream/nightmare :(

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: no

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no

8. Been cheated on: no

9. Lost someone special: do celebs/musicians count, if so then yes

10. Been depressed: lmao u bet

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never even been drunk homie

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue

13. teal

14. purple ??

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yesssss!

16. Fallen out of love: nah :)

17. Laughed until you cried: hell yea

18. Found out someone was talking about you:  no im not interesting enough for people to talk about me behind my back (i hope)

19. Met someone who changed you: i dont really think so

20. Found out who your friends are: i already knew

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no lol

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: the majority, though i have a lot of u2 peeps from twitter on there too

23. Do you have any pets: a cat!

24. Do you want to change your name: not at the moment, i quite like what i’ve chosen :D

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: went to my sisters’ graduation and went for dinner

26. What time did you wake up: 6:30ish am...with the intention to finish reading for design history, guess what i didnt do LOL

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping bich

28. Name something you can’t wait for: i dont really have anything to look forward to rn tbh...

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: yesterday

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: the fact that im too anxious and shy to fully be my real self and come out and stuff

31. What are you listening right now: a class outside

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: all the bullshit writing i have to do for my classes

34. Most visited Website: twitter, tumblr, facebook (for some reason)

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: i have some small ones but nothing super noticeable

36. Mark/s: ?? no? i used to have a pink birthmark on my forehead as a kid

37. Childhood dream: being a singer in a band

38. Haircolour: red

39. Long or short hair: short!!!

40. Do you have a crush on someone: ya and im dating him how #wild!!!

41. What do you like about yourself: i dont often make super rash decisions, im too anxious for that lol

42. Piercings: just my earlobes, i dont even wear earrings tho

43. Bloodtype: idk fam

44. Nickname: chicken wing

45. Relationship status: taken ehehuehuehe

46. Zodiac: taurus

47. Pronouns: they/them

48. Favourite TV Show: stranger things, been trying to get through shameless too

49. Tattoos: i dont have any currently but i really wanna get my astrobaby tatt asap

50. Right or left hand: right

51. Surgery: just wisdom teeth removal

52. Hair dyed in different color: i’ve thought about bleaching mine when it gets a little longer but idk we’ll see

53. Sport: NO

55. Vacation: i wanna visit my bf again :( and i wanna go to berlin

56. Pair of trainers: i have a black pair that i wear only for work lmao

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: i just ate some fried rice in taco shells because college kid

58. Drinking: water...

59. I’m about to: work on some homework for design history

61. Waiting for: a fuckin break

62. Want: to not dislike my body and to be less insecure

63. Get married: uhhhhHhhhHHh i really dont know if i wanna get married or not tbh

64. Career: studying to be a graphic designer

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs since i aint been kissed yet

66. Lips or eyes: eyes

67. Shorter or taller: taller :-)

68. Older or younger: idc

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: i dont really care about either

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: a little of both

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: hEll no

75. Drank hard liquor: no lmao

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i dont think so

77. Turned someone down: a few times tbh

78. Sex on the first date: what do u fuckin think

79. Broken someone’s heart: YIKES idk...hope not!!

80. Had your heart broken: i dont know

81. Been arrested: no im a goody two shoes

82. Cried when someone died: absolutely

83. Fallen for a friend: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA did you mean, story of my FUCKING life

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: PFFFFT

85. Miracles: the universe is just random my dudes

86. Love at first sight: not for myself

87. Santa Claus: no

88. Kiss on the first date: if it happens it happens

89. Angels: no

OTHER:

90. Current best friend’s name: alex <3

91. Eye colour: blue

92. Favorite movie: basically its whatever movie i watched last lmao so pride

i tag whoever wants to do this bc 92 questions is A Lot™

[apocalypto12related]

Do all of them!

1: is there a boy/girl in your life?

Ye! Sammy! @deziac

2: think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

Um... My family, probably, and no.

3: what do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”

Kitty! I love kitties!

4: what’s something you really want right now?

an apartment. on a less serious side, um, glasses???

5: are you afraid of falling in love?

Nope! I already have and since we’re poly im sure i will again owo

6: do you like the beach?

so/so. depends on my mood.

7: have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

um... a pull out sofa, does that count? i have a hard time sleeping unless i can fully lie down.

8: what’s the background on your cell?

my old phone was tony my new phone is space. not sure what it’ll be soon. >w>;; considering i need to redownload all the stuff i got off tumblr. :’( i lost all my snapchat stuff, but i moved all of izaya to my computer so that’s fine.

9: name the last four beds you were sat on?

what??? O_o; um... a homeless shelter’s bed and other than that they were all my own??? (not counting the “bed” made of sheets at the one place.)

10: do you like your phone?

i just got a new one!! uwu It has 32GB with it’s own internal storage and I have a 32GB sd card. nwn;; So I have a lot of space~! plus it has a fingerprint sensor and im in love with unlocking it like that owo

11: honestly, are things going the way you planned?

prolly not, but when do they?

12: who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

sammy! bc we both got new phhones!

13: would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?

i heard poodles have bad temperaments!! idk about rottweilers!! whichever one is nicer??/

14: which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

emotional!! physical heals!! short time span for pain! emotional might not go away!

15: would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?

DONt mmake me chosoelk??! i love both!!! i lovemy fluffy butts and i went to the met in new york!!! it was so cool!!! swords!! armor!! egypt!! aahhhh!!! i cant choose!!

16: are you tired?

im always tired!!!

17: how long have you known your 1st phone contact?

um... well it’s sammy

so uh, ten years in march owo (technically december was the first time we met!! but we count it as march since that’s when he started talking rly)

18: are they a relative?

no!!

19: would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?

it depends on if they changed their personality!! if not then no!! i mean i did get back with sammy but yknow we just count that as a break since we did actually get back together lmao

20: when did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

this morning!! she is at work so she’s not too talkative rn!

21: if you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?

we’re fine with what we’re at!! i don’t need to marry her to make it ‘official’!! we’ve lasted almost 9 years and through some big hardships!! both of us unmedicated and dealing with new medication changes, so i think we’re fine!!

22: would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

of course!! :P

23: how many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

two!! my blue sylveon bracelet (i love sylveon, i would wear umbreon but i think i packed it!!!) and my pride rainbow bracelet! i took them off when we were looking for a shelter bc i was scared we’d get denied if they saw obvious gay signs :(

24: is there a certain quote you live by?

not directly!! something along the lines of that there is no set path in life you have to choose which ways you want to twist and turn and they’ll lead you onto new and bigger things.

25: what’s on your mind?

music! stuff for my phone! i have a lot of stuff i need to add to eeet!! it’s only a day oolllddd.

26: do you have any tattoos?

yes! it’s for my kitty who passed away! Her name was luna. I’m sure i’ve posted a picture somewhere.

27: what is your favorite color?

#00C5FF

28: next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

prolly tonight. owo

29: who are you texting?

Sammy owo

30: think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

probably?? lol what.

31: have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

YES ACTUALLY D: idk if it happened any other time, but when we got into the car accident when I told our one friend we were joking about her coming up and hanging with us all my brain said was ‘You shouldn’t have done that. I shouldn’t have done that.’ and again when we went out to the car and it was pretty heavy snow fall. I was like ‘I shouldn’t go.’ my problem with that one was I didn’t want to go, but I didn’t think ‘we shouldn’t go’. but... what can you do now?

32: do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

um. i don’t think i have a super close opposite sex friend. closest would probably be @h0bsyrup

33: do you think anyone has feelings for you?

I’m sure Sammy does. >w> I’m not sure otherwise. My followers don’t tell me that stuff.

34: has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

Yes omg. Sammy was staring me in the eyes the other day and was like ‘your eyes are pretty’ and i’m like ‘omfg shut up >//

35: say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?

if they’re not dating then she’s gonna punch their lights out, so i don’t have to worry.

36: were you single on valentines day?

November 24th, 2008 is when I started dating Sammy. You tell me.

37: are you friends with the last person you kissed?

... of course?? wtf is with these kiss questions.

38: what do your friends call you?

Kiki :D

39: has anyone upset you in the last week?

lil bit.

40: have you ever cried over a text?

Um... probably. I can’t remember.

41: where’s your last bruise located?

omg... um i guess undermy belly button is the latest bruise??? i have a lot atm from surgery and being motionless for four days!!

42: what is it from?

Sammy actually like harshly pushed on that area. like when you go to land somewhere with your full weight then you go ‘oh fuck’ yeah.

43: last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?

um... recently??? but i guess not as bad as with my mom.

44: who was the last person you were on the phone with?

Sammy owo

45: do you have a favourite pair of shoes?

Nah.

46: do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

No.my hair style is like 99% bun.

47: would you ever go bald if it was the style?

i dont follow trends i set them.

48: do you make supper for your family?

not recently but i would for sammy and i usually

49: does your bedroom have a door?

i don’t have a “bedroom” atm e.e

50: top 3 web-pages?

tambo.c0m (tumblr), archiveofourown.org (ao3), youtube.com (the three i use the most anyway)

51: do you know anyone who hates shopping?

Sammy. xD at least food shopping.

52: does anything on your body hurt?

Abdomen. (:

53: are goodbyes hard for you?

it depends. if it’s unnecessary then prolly. if they’ve fucked me over idc. (i.e. my family trying to replace my mom’s abusiveness, fuck them.)

54: what was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

prolly water owo

55: how is your hair?

it’s feeling fine, thank you for asking!

56: what do you usually do first in the morning?

it depends! if it’s my “morning” i wake up and usually bathroom.

57: do you think two people can last forever?

sure but it takes work. it’s not gonna be perfect 24/7 without communication or compromise.

58: think back to january 2007, were you single?

ye. omfg why would you give me nightmares. that’s when i started the rping side of myspce and met that douche wesley. his lying ass made me start self harming. fuck him.

59: green or purple grapes?

i don’t eat grapes .w.;;

60: when’s the next time you will give someone a big hug?

sometime in the future! prolly sammy!

61: do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

in an apartment. >w> or at the pompeii exhibit!!!

62: when will be the next time you text someone?

possibly today

63: where will you be 5 hours from now?

lying in bed. :D

64: what were you doing at 8 this morning.

struggling to be alive. (eating chocolate chip muffins)

65: this time last year, can you remember who you liked?

oh god. w8 no. i didn’t like anyone yet. that started like october or shit. ugh my ex. he became an ass. (aside from sammy obvs)

66: is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

sammy!!

67: did you kiss or hug anyone today?

um... i don’t think so. i think we were both too tired and stressed. we didn’t get into bed until like 1 and the shelter has us be out of beds by 8:30 x3x;

68: what was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

um... ‘i should go back to sleep’ after waking up a third time and distracting myself with the phone

69: have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

yeah,but at least i tried.

70: how many windows are open on your computer?

it’s not *my* computer, so it doesn’t count! ;D (8 but im downloading music stfu)

71: how many fingers do you have?

i have 10. my one pinky counts as a half finger sometimes though. i broke it and bc i didnt have insurance i never went to a doctor to get it fully take care of so it healed up all wrong.

72: what is your ringtone?

default at the moment!

73: how old will you be in 5 months?

oh fuck i’ll be 24. man if you asked me that back in june i’d be like ‘still 23 (;’ but no. my bday is december

74: where is your mum right now?

She passed away. :/

75: why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?

I realize that as much as I wanted to believe it was love, it never fully blossomed into that until I was with Sammy. I don’t think I’ve truly ever gotten to love anyone else, but that’s okay.

76: have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

of course owo sammy and i are hella gay don’t u know.

77: are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

i believe so owo we just don’t talk as much bc im a lazy sack of shit.

78: do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

fuck. i think i had a minor crush on some dude who also liked green day but never fuckin talked to me so i never bothered. that might’ve also technically been when i started liking wesley. does billie joe from green day count?

79: is there anyone you know with the name mike?

personally? uh.... i’m not totally sure o-o; fuck me man.

80: have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

probably wait yes. sammy. spooning is our fave position.

81: how many people have you liked in the past three months?

e.e no one that wasn’t a celebrity. 

82: has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

no bc shelter e.e

83: will you talk to the person you like tonight?

:P i talk to them everyday.

84: you’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

i wouldn’t get drunk! i wouldn’t scream at ppl! that’s rude! ppl usually can’t even hear you when you yell at the window! we hear ‘whoosh’ with your voice in the middle’

85: if your bf/gf was into drugs would you care?

i would be concerned since she’s said she doesn’t like them!!

86: what was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

um... oh! a conversation started and a lil girl asked if we were in a certain theatre and I said ‘no we were in theatre blah’ so I asked what they went and saw. She said “Wonder Woman” “hey we just came out of that, too!” :P

87: who was your last received call from?

.3.; sammy

88: if someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

i-i’m torn??? i needm oney but poor butter-san... ;____;

89: what is something you wish you had more of?

money. clothes maybe

90: have you ever trusted someone too much?

yeah. lmao.

91: do you sleep with your window open?

i usually do! esp in the winter/summer! need air and love cold!

92: do you get along with girls?

ye!

93: are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?

no. owo

94: does sex mean love?

no! sex is something that can bring someone closer, but it is not necessary for a relationship! 

95: you’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

>3>;;; again, no.

96: have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

owo; indirectly. i shared a drink with someone who had one. xD

97: did you sleep alone this week?

not this week! :D last week. ;~; at the hospital.

98: everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

yes. >3>

99: do you believe in love at first sight?

no!!! that’s not love!! you might end up loving them but you can’t love someone unless you know them!! :c otherwise it’ll lead to some bad decisions!! D:

100: who was the last person that you pinky promise?

OwO Sammy I think.

[dilyndoesit]

Hamilton Songs: A Summary of Sorts

Yes it's been done. Yes I'm late. But??? I'm?? Doing it??? Act 1: Alexander Hamilton: Man have I got a story to tell you, bout this one bastard-orphan-son-ofa-whore (apple doesn't fall far lmao) ft: many people and lots of tea to be spilt Aaron Burr, Sir: Hi! Omg I totally idolize you, actually I'm quite the scholar mys- HOLY SHIT LAURENS U FUCKIN LAD My Shot: hey 💁🏽 it's me ☺️ and not 2 brag but I'm 😇like the best writer✍🏽and 😩an orphan, so I'm extra special ☺️💖😘😇😍👅😏 The Story of Tonight: Crackin open a cold one w the boys The Schuyler Sisters: Women??! Have valid opinions and rights?!? (Bonus: the one ((1)) song that has Peggy in it) Farmer Refuted: *clears throat* hey uhm maybe no revolution guys? I mean it could go really wr-FUCK YOU KIDDO FUCK THE KING LETS FUCKIN FIIIIIGHT You'll Be Back: I nvr meantt to lose y, ou,, I jsut wantsde to spend ur moneyee... Right Hand Man: hoLY SHIT GUYS ITS THE GENERAL OMG CAN I HELP I HAVE LIKE SOLID PLANS-oh hey alex what are u doin here-wait-nO DAMNIT Winter's Ball: lADIeS!! rIc H LadIEs!! Helpless: fuck. Satisfied: fuck (with more fervor) The Story of Tonight (reprise): hEy aLe X ur geTTin hEterO maRRieD lOl geyyyy Wait For It: I'm basically alone in this world, nothing I have was done for me or is completely mine, because I'm gonna take my time and not just douche my way through life??? Stay Alive: dear diary,, I'm cold and hungry and dad won't let me be leader and Charles Lee is a meanie but dad said no shooting him Ten Duel Commandments: Laurens, don't do this (but like, baby, pls, do this for me) *pew pew* Meet Me Inside: ooooOOOH YOU IN TROUBLEEEEEEEEE That Would Be Enough: hey, it's me ur pregnant wife, can u just stay home and love us? No? Okay 🙃 Guns and Ships: LAFAYETTE imtakinthishorsrbythereinsmakinredcoatsredderwithbloodstains History Has It's Eyes On You: my son, my boy, my child,, pls be careful, ole dad just wants to make sure ur okay Yorktown (The World Turned Upside Down): lol bye Eliza I GET TO PLAY WAR AGAIN PEW PEW HON HON HON What Comes Next: oh cool. U moved on. Well whatever, idc anyways, I have my silk and money and ur probs gonna fuck up anyways Dear Theodosia: wow, I have a beautiful, beloved daughter, to love me and be loved, I will do my best to pro-LOOK AT MY SON BURR LOOK HES GOT KNEES AND EVERYTHING Non-Stop: AFTER THE WAR I BECAME A LAWYER AND A DAD AND WROTE 51 OF THE FEDERALIST PAPERS AND LOWKEY STRUNG ANGELICA ON AND IGNORED MY WIFE AND SON AND BECAME SECRETARY OF THE TREASURY WHAT DID YOU DO BURR?! Act 2: What'd I Miss: Hey yaaaaaall, purple pimp daddy is back and ready to attack! Me-OW! 😏😘👅💦🍑 Ft: 🤧🤓✍🏾 Cabinet Battle #1: alexs shoe?? In my me?? It's more likely than you think Take A Break: Babe, lets go spend time together as a family, Angelica's coming all the way from England, your son is already 9 years old and everything. Oh, no? Okay, well fuck you too then. Say No To This: u wnt sum fuq The Room Where It Happens: *burr breathing heavily on glass window* fuck is that macaroni Schuyler Defeated: *aaron finally doing something for himself* yOU HAVE SOILED OUR FRIENDSHIP GARDEN BURR, SOILED IT Cabinet Battle #2: Statement of Neutrality? Never heard of her 💁🏽😶 Washington On Your Side: Alexander, you obviously have daddy issues *or a kink* and so does GWash and that's cheating One Last Time: cmere kiddo, let's play one more round of catch 😀😭🤧 I Know Him: *sipping tea* I give him 3 weeks The Adams Administration: Alex needs to chill™ We Know: we originally had matching leather jackets and our snaps choreographed but Madison sneezed on his so *clears throat* u got sum fuq? My god Hurricane: my life has been shit so lemme add another pile The Reynolds Pamphlet: aLeXanDEr HAMilTOn haD a TORid affaIR Burn: u realize that when u die, only I can save ur legacy? What a shame 🔥 if something 🔥🔥 were to happen 🔥🔥🔥 to the love letters 🔥🔥🔥🔥 💁🏻📜🔥🔥🔥 Blow Us All Away: can I get blown 😏👅💦 by u lovely ladies after I shoot this dude? One, two, three, four, five, six, seve-PEW PEW Stay Alive (reprise): fuck Eliza I thought they came bulletproof It's Quiet Uptown: Hark, is that?? Forgiveness?? Could you?? Imagine?? The Election of 1800: I haven't fucked over Burr in awhile so 😘😃 Your Obedient Servant: ✍🏾"Dear Alex, you've spent literally 30 years of fucking up my life path, can u say sorry?" ✍🏽"UHM!!!! NO!!!!??" "🙃🖕🏾" The World Was Wide Enough: NO ONE SAID THIS WAS NO TAKESIES BACKSIES (ft: Alex's tiring ass) Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story: he may have fucked up, but he was still a genius, the love of my life, and I will immortalized his name. Lol but the letters are still gone forever u fuck THE BONUS SONGS IVE LISTENED TO: Congratulations: BOI IM BOUTA 🔥🔥🔥 FLAME YA 🔥🔥🔥 SCHUYLER STYLE Cabinet Battle #3: hey slavery is wrong? When did that become a thing?? Valley Forge: someone fuckin end me, war is hard Laurens' Interlude: 🏳️‍🌈👻😭😭😭 Ten Things One Thing: man, there is no way Burr will kill me 😀 I mean 😀 sure I was a dick😀 but 😀 cmon 😀😀 it's Burr 😀😀

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A thing???????

Rules: Answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST

1. Drink: water?

2.- Phone Call: wot

3.- Text Message: Im not answering this one

4.- Song you listened to:  Does splatoon count?

5.- Time you cried: You mean there’s a time when i don’t?

6.- Dated someone twice: i don’t believe in homosapians sorry

7.- Kissed someone and regretted it: not really????

8.- Been cheated on: whats a relationship

9.- Lost someone special: i dont think so????

10.- Been depressed: *nervous laughter*

11.- Gotten drunk and thrown up:  whats a drunk

3 FAVORITE COLORS

12.-  green

13.- purple

14.- silver

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15.- Made new friends: Heck yeah

16.- Fallen out of love: I don’t believe in love sorry

17.- Laughed until you cried: Not that i can remember?

18.- Found out someone was talking about you: Everytime someone talks about me behind my back its typically good things??????

19.- Met someone who changed you: the trombone section made me more social

20.- Found out who your friends are: i’m not really sure????

21.- Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Dont have a facebook

GENERAL

22.- How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: See 21

23.- Do you have any pets: I wish

24.- Do you want to change your name: yes so much omg

25.- What did you do for your last birthday:  i cant really remember????

26.-What time did you wake up: today? 8:35 i think

27.- What were you doing at midnight last night: texting my bud

28.- When was the last time you saw your mom: just now

29.- Name something you can’t wait for: The day i get a switch/splatoon 2

30.- What are you listening to right now:  nothing really

31.- Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i dont know???

32.- Something that is getting on your nerves: what isnt

33.- Most visited Website: Tumblr probably

34.- Hair color: dark brown/black

35.- Long or short hair: l o n g 

36.- Do you have a crush on someone:  i wish to crush a lot of people

37.- What do you like about yourself: good question

38.- Want any piercings: i already have some

39.- Blood Type: I got no clue

40.- Nicknames: trev

41.- Relationship Status: dont have one

42.- Zodiac: virgo

43.- Pronouns: He/Him

44.- Favorite TV show: i have far too many

45.- Tattoos: no thank you

46.- Right or left handed: Right handed

47.- Surgery: none?????

48.- Piercing: ear

49.- Sport: marching band

50.- Vacation: france or netherlands

51.- Pair of trainers: well i don’t really wear sneakers so........

MORE GENERAL

52.- Eating: last thing i ate was a poptart

53.- Drinking: Water

54.- I’m about to: watch/play splatoon 

55.- Waiting for: when will school return from the war

56.- Want: mostly materialistic things sorry

57.- Get married: ew gross

58.- Career: game designer or actor

WHICH IS BETTER

59.- Hugs or Kisses:  both please

60.- Lips or Eyes: Eyes

61.- Shorter or Taller: idc

62.- Older or Younger: within my age range????? if that makes sense

63.- Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach

64.- Hook up or relationship: either

65.- Troublemaker or Hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER

66.- Kissed a Stranger: no

67.- Drank hard liquor:  no

68.- Lost glasses/ contact lenses: no

69.- Turned someone down: Yes

70.- Sex on the first date: No

71.- Broken someone’s heart: I don’t know but probably (i’m sorry)

72.- Had your heart broken: no?

73.- Been arrested: no

74.- Cried when someone died: Yes

75.- Fallen for a friend: huh

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76.- Yourself: depends

77.- Miracles: not really

78.- Love at first sight: no

79.- Santa Claus: and if i do?

80.- Kiss on the first date: Yes

82.- Angels: dunno

OTHER

83. Current best friend’s name: tyrell

84.- Eye color: Brown but i’ve been told they’ve gone completely black before? i think the kid was lying but he called me a demon for the rest of the school year so

85.- Favorite movie:  can’t pick

ya’ll really expect me to tag 20 other people? i don’t know anyone who hasn’t already been tagged so uh no thank you

[sixofdemigods]

Tag game!

I was tagged by the wonderful @kcznej! I’m tagging (most of you probably already did this or don’t want to share your entire life online but anyway):

@acciolunalovegood, @blueeyeschina, @bookgal24, @brehker, @heypottcr, @karkaroff, @nina-waffles-eater, @osarons, @protegototalumprotegomaxima, @quirkyreader (i’m well aware this isn’t 20 but isn’t ten enough?)

rules: you must answer these 83 statements and tag 20 people

Last…

1. drink? alcoholic or just in general? that would be prosecco / water, i’m lame 2. phone call? mum 3. text message? happy birthday message to a friend 4. song you listened to? stromae - tous les mêmes 5. time you cried? a week ago

Have you ever…

6. dated someone twice? no 7. kissed someone and regretted it? yeah 8. been cheated on? no 9. lost someone special? kind of? 10. been depressed? no 11. gotten drunk and thrown up? nope

Favourite colours:

12. turquoise 13. lavender, pastel purple 14. all shades of blue

In the last year, have you…

15. made new friends? yeah! quite a few :) 16. fallen out of love? no how does one do that please teach me 17. laughed until you cried? dude that happens like ten times a day 18. found out someone was talking about you? i don’t think so, no 19. met someone who changed you? nope 20. found out who your friends are? uhh what does that mean? no? 21. kissed someone on your facebook list? i don’t have a facebook and i haven’t kissed anyone so double no

General:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? again no fb 23. do you have any pets? two guinea pigs! 24. do you want to change your name? i mean i’m not very fond of it but i wouldn’t go as far as to change it 25. what did you do for your last birthday? long story lol, i was on a school exchange program in st. petersburg and we did some fun stuff! it was cool! 26. what time did you wake up? 5:43 am don’t ask why 27. what were you doing at midnight last night? sleep 28. name something you can’t wait for: meeting a nice girl who’s not straight, settling down with her and founding a family of five cats (idk man) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom? uhh five minutes ago or smth 30. what are you listening to right now? nothing 31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom? i’ve talked to a lot of people named tomasz or thomas but no never tom 32. something that is getting on your nerves? right now? nothing in particular; in general? sexism, racism, homophobia, donald trump... the like 33. most visited website? idk man? maybe youtube? google? gmail? goodreads? pinterest? tumblr? actually scratch that it’s probably ao3 34. hair colour? blonde 35. long or short hair? so long people call me rapunzel (it’s not actually that long but idk) 36. do you have a crush on someone? yeah 37. what do you like about yourself? my intelligence? i guess. i made this positivity post once with ten things i like about myself but i forgot 38. piercings: none but i want some 39. blood type: i have no idea 40. nickname: my friends like to call me jar-jar because mesa clumsy xD 41. relationship status: single 42. zodiac: libra 43. pronouns: idgaf about gender and pronouns honestly, you can use whatever you want, my assigned pronouns are she/her 44. favourite tv show: in case anyone didn’t notice... i love skam :D 45. tattoos: none but i want some 46. right or left handed: right 47. surgery: i had my leg stitched once?

48. sport: i like watching it, but i don’t like playing. favourite: handball

49. vacation: like where i would like to go? india definitely

50. pair of trainers: uhh i don’t really have a preference?

More General:

51. eating: not currently eating anything but the last thing i ate was honey loops for breakfast 52. drinking: still water 53. im about to: try to make my edits for next three days of skammonth because i won’t have access to a computer these next few days 54. waiting for?: uhh nothing in particular? 55. want?: to travel around the world 56. get married?: yeah! did i mention i need to meet a nice not-straight girl 57. career?: i’d love to be a translator but translating doesn’t really have a future so teacher maybe? or i could work in the foreign office or something

Which is Better

58. hugs or kisses?: hugs 59. lips or eyes?: eyes? ~the window to the soul~ 60. shorter or taller?: i like to be the tol one 61. older or younger?: well age doesn’t matter as long as it’s not a big gap 62. nice arms or nice stomach?: ?? idc about either 63. hook up or relationship?: relationship! 64. troublemaker or hesitant?: a good mix of both preferably

Have You Ever

65. kissed a stranger: no 66. drank hard liquor: like vodka? yeah 67. lost glasses/contact lenses: ALL. THE. TIME. 68. turned someone down: hahaha nope 69. had sex on the first date: lololol no 70. broken someones heart: not that i know of? 71. had your heart broken: that sounds so dramatic? but yeah kinda 72. been arrested: nope 73. cried when someone died: no 74. fallen for a friend: more than once unfortunately

Do You Believe In:

75. yourself? uh i guess? kinda? 76. miracles? yes 77. love at first sight? no 78. santa claus? no 79. kiss on the first date? yeah 80. angels? yes

Other

81. current best friend’s name? sorry i only overshare about myself online 82. eye colour: blue 83. favourite movie: mhm i don’t really have one?

[sugarcomatosed]

tag memeeee

@fangmich gave me a tag and it’s been forever since i’ve done one of these so here we goooo

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST:

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: i was on the phone with @doodlemoogle‘s mom on speaker phone while they talked 3. Text message: to @akingofredlions about sailor moon and swords. 4. Song you listened to: Bloody tears bc @hymdall is sending me castlevania songs 5. Time you cried: aaaa....i think it was last Thursday. I’m an emotional person and life is tough.

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: not so far 8. Been cheated on: Not that I’m aware of :P  9. Lost someone special: That’s just part of life, right? 10. Been depressed: Uh yes. Very recently and in the past.  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t like alcohol’s taste, so no. 

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Pastel Pink, Teal, and a light purple. 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes! 16. Fallen out of love: Nope. 17. Laughed until you cried:  Think so? 18. Found out someone was talking about you: ...in a good way? yes? no one in a bad way. 19. Met someone who changed you: Many wonderful people who bettered me. 20. Found out who your friends are:  i learned that i have many kind supportive friends. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes, two of them under different contexts. 

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them, even @quinntheshiki bc we’ve met in person.  23. Do you have any pets: ...not techincally because I just moved out of my mom’s and this new place doesn’t allow pets. At her house, two dogs and a cat. 24. Do you want to change your name: Nope, not even if i get married. I refuse.  25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I got sushi with my dad, his gf, my roommate and made myself a birthday amv 26. What time did you wake up: depends on my work shift but im up by 9 normally. 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: falling asleep.  28. Name something you can’t wait for: to get to see two people who are very dear to me! I get to see them basically back to back and one is coming from very far and being very brave.  29. When was the last time you saw your mom: ....two Sundays ago now when i moved out.   30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: 31. What are you listening right now: The white noise of fans in the apartment. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Ye, he’s a photographer and a little older than me.  33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Feeling aimless right now. 34. Most visited website: Tumblr or youtube tbh. Twitter is getting up there.

RANDOM INFO:

35. Mole/s: i have tiny beauty spots like on my arms.  36. Mark/s: i have a birth mark on my left wrist.  37. Childhood dream: ..i wanted to ride elephants in the circus.  38. Hair color: dark brown 39. Long or short hair: my hair’s kind of long? 41. What do you like about yourself: i’m really multitalented and well rounded honestly.  42. Piercings: ears and im trying to get new earrings 43. Blood type: O- 44. Nickname: I use Rita at work, Sugar is one, and sometimes it’s Mina.  45. Relationship status: Taken! For just over two months now.  46. Zodiac: Libra 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: ....right now I’m just watching My Hero Academia so. and that is RLLY GOOD.  49. Tattoos: None, i joke about getting an ouroboros.  50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: I’ve had my bottom wisdom teeth removed and my tonsils.  52. Hair dyed in different color: i considered getting purple/pink through it at one point.  53. Sport:  I used to figure skate and i was actually pretty good I did fencing last fall too. 55. Vacation: I was supposed to go to Atlanta this week but I did not because I moved and that costs money.  56. Pair of trainers: I need new sneakers tbh.

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I had a milkshake and pizza bites i left at the resturant on accident earlier.  58. Drinking: Gatorade right now so I get electrolytes and stay okay but watter at the moment.  59. I’m about to:  go help a family friend move some stuff or watch a video, what happens first idk.  61. Waiting for: my dad to get home 62. Want: to do fun things with all my friends!! 63. Get married: I’d like to one day. I have some personal baggage do to my parents thought that makes me...get anxious about this kind of thing. 64. Career: I’m planning on getting my PhD and teaching Sociology!

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: Both are nice but I like snuggling.  66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller!  68. Older or younger: doesn’t matter?  70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ....arms. @woodland-knight is going to see this and laugh.  71. Sensitive or loud: this is dumb 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: this is  also dumb

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger:  Nope.  75. Drank hard liquor: Not for me! 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: ...yes. it took me forever to find them.  77. Turned someone down: Yes, repeatedly so they’d get the hint.  78. Sex on the first date: no no no no no no. noooo.  79. Broken someone’s heart: once.  80. Had your heart broken: it’s actually a very bitter sweet story but yeah. 

81. Been arrested: Nope. 

82. Cried when someone died: uh...yeah? That’s pretty normal.  83. Fallen for a friend: yeaaaaaaah. It’s a dumb cute story and we’re dating. I’ve also fallen for someone then become their friend. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Usually! It’s one of my few redeeming things is that I have a decent amount of self confidence. I just chew myself out for tiny mistakes.  85. Miracles: I like to try to. 86. Love at first sight: Nah. You can be attracted though.  87. Santa Claus: the idea of santa is cute but also terrifying  88. Kiss on the first date: depends? 

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: i have many best friends and they’re all beautiful 91. Eye color: brown like almost black i’ve been told.  92. Favorite movie: uhhhh. i have no idea right now.

if you got tagged in this already idc if you do it you are relevant people in my life who can do it if they want, but i’d like to hear from these people specifically because I want to know more about theeem (or get a life update). Most of these are loyal followers I notice and then some mutuals.  

@denizenhardwick @shakacon @misora-reiki @flamingopuuuunch @touyea @teamlobster @the-cyanide-exploder @sakialumei @songbirdo and uhhh @blank-chalkboard and i cant spell the last url and cant find them in my notifications even though i know we’ve interacted recently so...do it if you want idc. 

[vettelcore]

               Tag Game            

I was tagged by @avengersdeathnote thanks you <3

rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

the last…  

1. drink: water

2. phone call: my mother to tell her about the dead pigeon in my living room

3. text message: My cousin

4. song you listened to: Exercises in Futility by Mgła but the live version, its a billion times better

5. time you cried: Today i think

6. dated someone twice: No

7. kissed someone and regretted it: No

8. been cheated on: No

9. lost someone special: no

10. been depressed: Yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no

favorite colors:

12. Black

13. Grey

14. idk if it is a colour, but velvet red?

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes

16. fallen out of love: no

17. laughed until you cried: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you: No

19. met someone who changed you: no

20. found out who your friends are: no

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: No

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i dont have facebook

23. do you have any pets: two asshole cats

24. do you want to change your name: mayyybe

25. what did you do for your last birthday: ate chinese food with my mother and aunt

26. what time did you wake up: 3pm lol

27. what were you doing at midnight: arguing about f1 on reddit i think

28. name something you can’t wait for: All Time Low’s concertttt

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: after dinner

31. what are you listening to right now: my computer’s fan

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: no

33. something that is getting on your nerves: that i cant fall asleep

34. most visited website: tumblr

35. hair colour: red? purple? i dont know

36. long or short hair: Long, even though i was short hair now

37. do you have a crush on someone: no

38. what do you like about yourself: My hair when I actually try to make it look nice

39. piercings: None yet

40. blood type:I have no idea

41. nickname: ?

42. relationship status: lonely

43. zodiac: sag

44. pronouns: she her

45. favourite tv show: supernatural, vikings and rick and morty, i cant choose :(

46. tattoos: none yet

47. right or left handed: Right

48. surgery: nope

49. piercing: ive already answered this question?’

50. sport: Formula 1

51. vacation: if lying in my bed doing nothing is considered a vacation...

52. pair of trainers: vans

more general

53. eating: nothing

54. drinking: Water

55. i’m about to: put on lip balm

56. waiting for: being sleepy

57. want: to sleep

58. get married: N.O

59. career: f1 photographer

60. hugs or kisses: hugs

61. lips or eyes: Eyes

62. shorter or taller: taller

63. older or younger: Older

64. nice arms or nice stomach: idc

65. hook up or relationship: none

66. troublemaker or hesitant: idk

67. kissed a stranger: No

68. drank hard liquor: on accident yeah

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: No

70. turned someone down: Yes

71. sex on the first date: No

72. broken someone’s heart: i’d like to say yes but im not sure lmao

73. had your heart broken: no

74. been arrested: No

75. cried when someone died: i only cried when my pets died

76. fallen for a friend: Yno

do you believe in …

77. yourself: No

78. miracles: no

79. love at first sight: no

80. santa claus: reyes magos ftw

81. kiss on the first date: idc

82. angels: nah im more of a demon person myself

other

83. current best friend’s name: lol

84. eye colour: brown

85. favourite movie: the handmaiden

[ghoulstars]

ok ive been tagged a lot over the past like month and i havent done like any of the tags because im a horrible procrastinator but ive gotten tagged in this specific thing 3 times today so im properly motivated to actually do it in a timely manner LOL here we go

Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

THE LAST:

1. drink: water that im slightly skeptical of 2. phone call: my friend Robi 3. text message: @shelteringskyy ??? i think?? yes probably 4. song you listened to: the fool by dead soul 5. time you cried: i think last month 6. dated someone twice: ive never dated anyone ever LOL 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yeah probably 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: i think so 10. been depressed: in certain contexts yes 11. gotten drunk: once and never again LMAO

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. purple 13. bronze 14. brown

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: yes and i love them ALL DEARLY and i re-iterate the sentiment THANKS GHOST LMAO 16. fallen out of love: maybe??? idk 17. laughed until you cried: YEP LMFAO 18. found out someone was talking about you: sort of but this person also told me straight up she was gonna talk about me and it was all in good fun so LOL who cares 19. met someone who changed you: YEP. 20. found out who your friends are: yeah 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: no

GENERAL:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like basically almost all of them except like 6 or so ppl? 23. do you have any pets: YES!!! i have three cats and two dogs and i love them all so much!!! 24. do you want to change your name: no 25. what did you do on your last birthday: my last bday fell on the night of prom so like i got up, got my hair done and then went to prom that night LOL prom itself was sorta shitty but i got to hang out with my friends who were all gorgeous and i got to look hot too so like win/win 26. what time did you wake up: 10am then fell asleep and woke back up at 12:30-something 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: skyping @shelteringskyy ,'^) 28. name something you can’t wait for: halloweeeeeeeen 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: a couple hours ago maybe less 31. what are you listening to right now: vinny vinesauce playing some weird ass game and myself typing 32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i actually don't think so 33. something that is getting on your nerves: it being so sunny recently (i like clouds fight me), my sleep schedule getting FUCKED up and me struggling to fix it, mysterious bug bites, the lack of motivation to study that has been haunting me since 2 months ago 34. most visited website: probably tumblr, youtube and facebook tbh 35. hair colour: naturally im a fucking ashy dirty wishwater blonde and im fucking tired of it so now i dye my hair dark brown LOL ;_; @my body please hurry up and make my hair darker 36. long or short hair: mine is long 37. do you have a crush on someone: only fictional characters as of right now 38. what do you like about yourself: my ass, my unibrow and my stomach hair 39. piercings: i started out with four when i was younger, one in each cartilage (partially) then one in each ear lobe. the cartilage ones closed up to due lack of usage and my lobe piercings closed up a bit but just cleaning them out returned them to normal lol. early last year i got my partial-cartilage piercing redone as well as two additional holes making eight total but i was a fool and took out all my earrings over the course of prom and left them out too long and they ALL grew back over except my redone cartilage holes and my lobes -_- i plan to get one more additional hole in my ears to make up for this fucking travesty and i also want a nose piercing. 40. blood type: no idea mate LMAO 41. nickname: shebby, shebs, shelbs, shelbles, shelbilly, bee and im probably forgetting more tbh 42. relationship status: single and content 43. zodiac: aries, aquarius rising and sagittarius moon 44. pronouns: she/her/hers 45. favourite tv show: uhhh like........bobs burgers maybe???? twin peaks??? always sunny?????????? 46. tattoos: none but FUCK do i want a grucifix or a mother/daughter tattoo 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: none so far 50. sport: no 51. vacation: honestly ill go like nearly anywhere in the world, im not picky tbh take me over the ocean or just three hours away and i think ill be happy 52. pair of trainers: do converse count....also my moms fucked up ancient grungey tennis shoes she has that i love to wear

MORE GENERAL:

53. eating: nothing but dinner was steak, steak fries and some yeast rolls. might eat this smores poptart here in a second 54. drinking: nothing bc that water was Skeptical 55. i’m about to: either attempt to study or watch more youtube vids idk 56. waiting for: the rain that appears to be gathering in the sky and winter 57. want: papa 3 to never ever leave but also papa 4 to come and decimate us (and also possibly decimate papa 3), to not potentially have mono, to draw, to get our bulldog fixed so he can come inside, to stop being fucking squeamish when i study about internal organs 58. get married: no...nono 59. career: veterinary assistant if i can handle assisting in injection administration LMFAO or an artist 60. hugs or kisses: kisses 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: ehhhh im not picky so idc 63. older or younger: O L D E R LMAO DAMMIT PAPA 64. nice arms or nice stomach: arms 65. hook up or relationship: neither in real life 66. troublemaker or hesitant: depends on whats happening lmao

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: yes 68. drank hard liquor: NO LMAO ABSOLUTELY NOT 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 70. turned someone down: YEP. 71. sex on the first date: i have never been with anyone in real life ever so neither 72. broken someone’s heart: probably 73. had your heart broken: sort of?? 74. been arrested: no god LMAO 75. cried when someone died: well yeah 76. fallen for a friend: not really

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: depends 78. miracles: in some cases 79. love at first sight: only sort of. 80. Santa Claus: who the FUCK is santa claus 81. kiss on the first date: ...ehhh??? 82. angels: probably

OTHER:

84. eye colour: hazel 85. favourite movie: I HAVE TOO MANY OF THESE LMAO MY FAVORITE-FAVORITE FLUCTUATES A LOT AND IDK WHAT I WOULD SAY MY CURRENT FAV MOVIE IS....

anyway i tag @cloyterus and....i think everyone else i'd wanna tag has already been tagged or done this so here u go

[dong-hyucks]

92 Truths

I was tagged by @btsgroupchat​ ^^

I apologize for not posting your requests several times in a row, but I thought that I would just do this now~

Rules: you gotta answers questions and then tag 20 others (i don’t talk to like anyone riP--)

THE LAST… 1.Drink: Water

2.Phone call: Grandma

3.Text message: ‘My house smells like smoke. My mom may or may not have set the grill on fire.’ to my friend... do i need to explain this one haha

4.Song you listened to: BTOB - Movie

5.Time you cried: Earlier today because I was annoyed and had a headache, which usually makes me cry (im a crybaby lol)

6.Dated someone twice: no lol

7. Been Cheated on: nope ^

8.Kissed someone and regretted it: yes actually ><

9.Lost someone special: two people this year

10.Been depressed: sadly

11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: i mean-- i’m fourteen so, so no i’d hope not

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Purple [violet / lavender]

13. Black

14. Blue [baby / electric]

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15.Made new friends: surprisingly yes 16.Fallen out of love: romantically, no 17.Laughed until you cried: there is actually something wrong with my eyes and they water a lot easier than they should so... like everyday 18.Found out someone was talking about you: yeah >< they were insulting me oops-- (psst i can hear you) 19.Met someone who changed you: absolutely 20.Found out who your true friends are: i hope i do 21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no?? thats awkward lol GENERAL… 22.How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all 81 of them 23.Do you have any pets: a dog (she’s an adorable shih-tzu/maltese poodle <3) 24.Do you want to change your name: sometimes, since there are like seven annoying people with the same name at school, but i would just be knocking off the ‘n’ so there isn’t really any point 25.What did you do for your last birthday: went to the movies with my friends then hung out at my house (choked on food like twice oops) 26.What time did you wake up: 6:30 AM like always 27.What were you doing at midnight last night: writing 붙잡았어야 해 lyrics in a notebook while watching sensory couple 28.Name something you cannot wait for : my brother’s grad in a few months... i’m actually proud of him but he doesn’t need to know that lol 29.When was the last time you saw your mother: like fifteen minutes ago 30.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i can’t name just one thing tbh 31.What are you listening to right now: Monsta X - Beautiful w/ the voice playing in the bg 32.Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yup 33.Something that is getting on your nerves: grades? stress? school? peOPLe? 34.Most visited website: tumblr i have no life 35.Elementary: ‘graduated’ last year 36, High School: in my first year atm 37.College: x 38.Hair color: brown w/ blonde streaks (i regret bleaching it so much) 39.Long or short hair: long 40.Do you have a crush on someone: nope 41.What do you like about yourself: getting into kpop three years ago (thx me) 42.Piercings: two on my ears but I kinda want helix/upper lobe piercings 43.Blood type: i honestly don’t know but it might be A idk 44.Nickname: Jade 45.Relationship status: single, as it always will be ^^; 46.Zodiac sign: : aquarius [feb. 18] 47.Pronouns: : she/her 48.Favorite tv show: i love watching ncis 49.Tattoos: none 50.Right or left hand: Right FIRST… 51.Surgery: i was like two and it was for my teeth but i don’t know what exactly 52.Piercing: just my ears 54.Sport: i do volleyball and snowboarding 55.Vacation: vancouver most likely we go there like once/two times a year 56.Pair of trainers: idk 57.Eating: i just had dinner 58.Drinking: water 59.I’m about to: go read 61.Waiting for: nana [jaemin] to come back healthy and well rested 62.Want: chocolate, pain killers, money to buy albums... 63.Get married: in the far, far future if im lucky 64.Career: i want to be an english professor [says the one who is too lazy to capitalize her words] WHICH IS BETTER… 65.Hugs or kisses: hugs~ they’re warm >< 66.Lips or eyes: eyes 67.Shorter or taller: idc about other’s height 68.Older or younger: i still don’t care as long as it’s legal lol 70.Nice arms or nice stomach: : wha? 71.Sensitive or loud: i can be both, so both 72.Hook up or relationship: Relationship 73.Troublemaker or hesitant: both HAVE YOU EVER… 74.Kissed a stranger?: yes, it was weird 75.Drank hard liquor? : foUrTeEn yEarS oLD 76.Lost glasses contact/lenses? : yup... my glasses and they were on my head 77.Turned someone down?: yes... im sorry >< 78.Sex on first date?: uh no?? 79.Broken someone’s heart?: unfortunately :( 80.Had your heart broken?: yup :( 81.Been arrested?: no 82.Cried when someone died?: yes 83.Fallen for a friend?: no DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84.Yourself?: eh 85.Miracles?: sure 86.Love at first sight?: attraction** at first sight, no 87.Santa Claus?: yAs it’s finland (says the person who has not watched hetalia) 88.Kiss on the first date?: sure?? 89.Angels?: i guess OTHER…. 90.Current best friend’s name: ares + sam 91.Eye color: dark, dark brown 92. Favourite movie: i loved the conjuring

That’s it~ I tag: (idk if any of these people have done it, so i’m sorry if i tagged you if you already have~ these are just mutuals that i/past admins have followed)

@jungwoosnatchedmyweave​, @mile-ruichi​, @baekhyun-hanburger​, @marksmushroomhair​, @koreanscenes​, @armygirl1707​, @the-tiny-2j​, @yoongiismydrug​, @kpopscenariosreactsshipping​, @shitbtsreactionsandtexts​, @swervingkpoptrashcan​, @kpop-text-messages​, @hinarashimawara​, @whatifwearefiction​, @beaniechiminie, @ham001s, and since i don’t have anymore mutuals imma just tag anyone who wants to do this :) just tell me so i can check your blog out~

i dont talk to any of my mutuals (unless im on anon) >< im sorRY YOU FOLLOWED A SOCIALLY AWKWARD PERSONandwiafwahfihw-- i love all of their blogs but idk how to speak ^

bonus:

93. Ultimate bias: LEE DONGHYUCK / DONGHYUK / HAECHAN / BEAUTIFUL BOY OF NCT

[splashofbi]

1-100

Ummmmmmmmmmmmm… I just found this…..and I have no idea how long it’s been here……soooooo I’ll just respond to the last ask game I reblogged that has 100 questions? I’m sorry that my inbox hates me……

1. What is you middle name? - McRae

2. How old are you? - 17 and a half

3. What is your birthday? - June 28

4. What is your zodiac sign? - Cancer

5. What is your favorite color? - Blue, or Green, or Purple depending on my mood

6. What’s your lucky number? - i don’t really have one? 7 i guess??

7. Do you have any pets? - yup. 2 dogs

8. Where are you from? - Atlanta, GA

9. How tall are you? - 5′0″

10. What shoe size are you? - anywhere from 5 ½ to 6 ½ women’s

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? - too many and yet not enough. i cycle through 5 pairs regularly

12. What was your last dream about? - idk anymore, but it must’ve been good cus i was upset when my mom woke me up from it. or that could’ve been cus it was 6am on saturday.

13. What talents do you have? - i have been told i am shaped like a friend, p gud at singing, a great director, and fairly good at drawing stuffs

14. Are you psychic in any way? - i get deja vu sometimes?

15. Favorite song? -  right now Besides by Sam Behymer or Shiny from Moana

16. Favorite movie? - Grand Budapest Hotel

17. Who would be your ideal partner? - someone funny and super caring and patient and sarcastic

18. Do you want children? - yes? probably????? kinda on the fence

19. Do you want a church wedding? - nope

20. Are you religious? - HA nope

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? - like every month

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? - no

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? - I’ve met authors? not like Celebrity celebrities

24. Baths or showers? - showers

25. What color socks are you wearing? - flesh….as in im not wearing socks

26. Have you ever been famous? - ummm……no?

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? - yeah, kinda

28. What type of music do you like? - indie punk rock alternative? its an amalgam of styles. just never country.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? - no, but i have gone in just panties

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? - 3 under my head, 2 beside me

31. What position do you usually sleep in? - stomach or side

32. How big is your house? - 3 stories, 3 bathrooms, 4 bedrooms

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? - cereal in almond milk

34. Have you ever fired a gun? - no

35. Have you ever tried archery? - YES

36. Favorite clean word? - penultimate

37. Favorite swear word? - shit-fuck

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? - 36 hours

39. Do you have any scars? - yes

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? - not that I know of

41. Are you a good liar? - eh, i’m an okay actor so…i guess??

42. Are you a good judge of character? - yes

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? - YES

44. Do you have a strong accent? - I dont think so

45. What is your favorite accent? - Irish or Scottish

46. What is your personality type? - like myers-briggs?? ISFJ/ISTJ

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? - $108 dress

48. Can you curl your tongue? - no

49. Are you an innie or an outie? - innie

50. Left or right handed? - right

51. Are you scared of spiders? - as long as they’re a couple feet away from me its fine, but if its on me i WILL scream

52. Favorite food? - Honeycrisp apples

53. Favorite foreign food? - Sesame Chicken

54. Are you a clean or messy person? - messy cus Depression

55. Most used phrase? - well fuck

56. Most used word? - no

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? - 15 or so minutes

58. Do you have much of an ego? - HA no

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? - both

60. Do you talk to yourself? - yeah, sometimes

61. Do you sing to yourself? - oh god yes

62. Are you a good singer? - i like to think so

63. Biggest Fear? - never finding love

64. Are you a gossip? - occasionally. i try not to be though

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? - The Revenant

66. Do you like long or short hair? - umm, on myself, i prefer short, but in terms of other people idgaf

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? - yes

68. Favorite school subject? - music theory

69. Extrovert or Introvert? - ambivert, bitches!

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? - no

71. What makes you nervous? - HA HAHA HA EVERYTHING

72. Are you scared of the dark? - not really?

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? - yeah, sometimes too much

74. Are you ticklish? - yes

75. Have you ever started a rumor? - no

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? - yes

77. Have you ever drank underage? - nope

78. Have you ever done drugs? - prescription ones. no

79. Who was your first real crush? - what the fuck does “real crush” mean? the first person i can remember confessing to liking was this kid named Matthew in pre-k and kindergarten

80. How many piercings do you have? - one on each ear

81. Can you roll your Rs?“ - yup

82. How fast can you type? - average speed?

83. How fast can you run? - slow.

84. What color is your hair? - ginger and this weird ass green/seafoam/golden color

85. What color is your eyes? - blue w/ green undertones god that sounds so fucking pretentious

86. What are you allergic to? - lactose

87. Do you keep a journal? - nope

88. What do your parents do? - one is an actress and the other is the art director for a local tv station

89. Do you like your age? - yeah i guess

90. What makes you angry? - ignorance

91. Do you like your own name? - yes

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? - I know I really like Evelyn

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? - idc

94. What are you strengths? - im very caring and empathetic, determined, will not take ur shit, good at being the mom friend

95. What are your weaknesses? - indecisive, distant, master of surpressing feelings

96. How did you get your name? - my mom thought it was pretty and liked that it means sea

97. Were your ancestors royalty? - i don’t know

98. Do you have any scars? - yes

99. Color of your bedspread? - aqua

100. Color of your room? - seafoam

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #8: "The fajitas are truly guiding me" - Matt

OMG i made it to the merge. Im so happy but now let the game begin.

im so sad. dennis was such a king. and to be taken out by nick... like idek what to do with this merge. ppl i want to work with: nathan, maynor, brian, anna?, matt? idek if i wanna work with brian its just i like meeting new ppl NNN i wanna work with sharky too. but like nathan loves nick apparently. like... no ty!!! nicole... keaton? no ty! my preferred boot order is just keaton. nick. nicole. thats it idc!!! i dont wanna work with like og absolem tho bc theyre all tight without me but the other options arent good either EFKJDSAHKJ. i am waiting for redemption island twist pls and ty although my luck jaydne comes back NNn well these are initial thoughts woohoo

PHEWWWWWW I MADE MERGE BITCHES!!!!!! Honestly that tribal was so fucking cracked and all kicked off in 20 mins at the end with nick revealing he had an idol. and YEET i was so close to playing my idol as well. The fajitas are truly guiding me (even tho i am eating them tomorrow for lunch and I am very excited hehehe) Brian, myself and sharky are gonna align (tho not telling about the idol tho) so woooo lets go merge!

I hate my life. a forced self vote? no thanks. UGH TIME TO DIE!

WE FUCKING MERGED! And I got rid of Dennis. Which I do feel slightly bad about it but it was time to make a move. I playing loose this season and I'm going to see how far it takes me. I have alliances with Maynor, Brian, Nathan, Annabelle, Matt, Nick, and sort of Nicole so that puts me in a pretty good spot as long as I don't overplay and show my cards too soon. I've got to walk the line very carefully. And ngl careful is not my strong suit.

Ok now Let's rank my mergemates. 1) Brian- husband. 2) Matt- second husband. 3) Maynor- best man at my double wedding to Matt and Brian. 4) Annabelle- my fave underrated queen. 5) Nathan- I love him but check back in a few rounds ok. 6) Bryce- we barely talked but he loves Chi Chi Devayne so...I love him. 7) Nicole- ...every season needs a purple edit 8) Nick- cool kid but I'm sooo bitter about wanting him gone 3 tribals in a row 9) Keaton- who?

Well, merge is finally here and i get to reunite with Sharky. Which is great because he was my duo from the begining and now i have Keaton as my other duo.i also have Bryce as well. Nathan wants to work with keaton and I so thats good and i believe he’s tight with Annabelle so shell come along as well. Thats already 5 with me is 6. As long as none of them are targeted first vote and others are. Ill be sitting in a good spot. From here the first vote, i wouldnt mind voting out Nicole. Only one to yet to talk to me besides saying hi.

WEELLLLL!!! I merged, ladies (and lads)!  I cannot believe it, but I have made it!!  I think I know what my strong points are right now in my game and I just have to keep playing on them.  I'm a lot stronger socially now and I want that to continue going into the merge.  I have allies in every single little aspect of this game, and I want to ensure the people I'm not working with go first.  So less than half of these hoes better watch their backs!

Now that I've merged and have freedom with who I want to work with, I'm definitely going to try and solidify my quad-some with Sharky, Nathan, and Annabelle as a final 4 alliance and also make sure that my other final alliances (one with Bryce, who I just met up with, and then one with Matt) also are stronger than ever before.

I usually do like cast run-downs and... idk... I haven't yet in this game, but I guess I will now going into the merge!!

Annabelle - A queent!!  I absolutely love her and wish that a trio of Ariana stans (with Marie) could've gone through!!  I can't wait to strengthen my bond with her and for us to slay this game together! Bryce - I may have just met Bryce in game, but I've known him for a little bit!  We have never really had a full-on conversation, but we have talked in passing and in some League games.  I've talked to him for like... 30 minutes so far... and he's already a top person in this game for me.  Love him! Keaton - idk him, but he's already trash talked Marie to me... so .... bye ! Matt - I adore him... he's... an angel!  I see myself working with him for a long time in this game, and I have to hope he feels the same hehe... Maynor - eh!  I like him, but we don't.... click... so if he goes home... he goes home... :S... Nathan - LOVE HIM!  He's so funny and so nice and he says we have a final 2, but girl... if we get to final 2 together it's by sheer luck because I shoreeee as hell know he's going hard or going home.... and I'm not playing that same balls to the walls type of game! Nick - LOL OK??? Idols replace social play and gameplay ig!!! Nicole - I just wish she was more active because I'd love to really put all my trust in her, but I don't really ever talk to her! Sharky - ANGEELLLL!!! Das my game hubby... I adore him so much... I really thought I was going to go into this game wanting to fuck him up with a lawn mower, but here I am putting all my eggs into his basket and trusting him completely... I hope I'm making the right decision!  I know he's a big threat, but I just lahva him a lot! Ugh..

This challenge is very interesting. Im just hoping that I somehow get enough points to get the high amount. Immunity would be great. Still working out who i could work with and who i would target. I know for sure that im going to be with Keaton and Sharky. Still dont know about the others yet.

I do not want this immunity. There's like weird touchy subjects vibes. If I win it means a lot of people wanted me to get immunity so I'm well liked which will translate to "Threat". I told the jock destroyers to give me negative items. So hopefully if my other allies give me positive scores it will even out to a smooth 0 and I can stay relatively under the radar.

So I went idol hunting and I got closer than I had ever gotten before. I could just tell. So I gave Brian the info and told him where I went wrong. And he didn't find the idol but he DID find a steal a vote advantage! So Brian and I are getting a nice little tool belt around our waists. Now we just need to get all these people to do what we want.

Everyone is being really quiet. But thats okay because this gives Maynor and I a great opportunity to strategize. To my surprise he threw out Nicole's name! Which is great. It might be too soon to go for her because I've been talking Dinah strong for a few rounds now (even though I voted Dennis out). But it's still good to know that she's on his radar. Now the goal is just to set up a F5 alliance that Brian and I can ride to F6. Maynor and I still have The Scream Team alliance and I'm loyal to that. So if I can move forward with Maynor and Brian then I can just fill in the others as we go.

Okay SWIFT UPDATE. Maynor brought up Matt's name and I was basically like "Um...I don't want to do that" and then discovered that he doesn't think Nicole has his back at all. Which would undermine any Dinah strong stuff. And I'm not going to stick my neck out to save her over a vote on my side for a few more rounds. Especially if she might flip anyway. Hmm…

Now I'm getting a chance to talk game with Anna! This night is really picking up. Unfortunately she seems to have some animosity towards Matt. Why does everyone hate Matt? I think he's bloody awesome! Oh well. She also isn't a fan of Nicole or Keaton so I can direct her target that way for a few votes and for now we seem to be on the same page minus the Matt thing.

Sharky and I are still up at midnight. We came up with a tribal vote plan which is awesome. The target tonight is going to be Nicole. I feel like shes a threat and needs to go. Sharky and I created an ideal final 5 which is me, Sharky, Brian, Matt, amd Bryce. My side alliance is Keaton and Nathan. On the outs is Nick, Annabelle, and Nicole. We are saying that Keaton said Nicole’s name and that Nicole said Keaton’s name. But main targetbis Nicole. Hopefully this plan works and Nicole goes tonight.

Things are falling into place baby! So Maynor wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. He thinks he can get Bryce on board. Annabelle also wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. I know from The Jock Destroyers Alliance that she (and I) have Nathan's vote. Anna also says she wants to work with Bryce. And Bryce told her that he feels close to Maynor. (I'm realizing Bryce is a HUGE social threat and I'm not going to be able to keep him around for too long but for now he's a number on my side.) Now, both Maynor and Annabelle also love Brian. They both also know I can bring Nick to the table because Nick trusts me. So right now I perfectly situated in the middle of a 7 person voting block. Am I a mastermind?

CLASSIC ANNABELLE. I set up this whole majority situation and told her to choose Keaton or Nicole and we can make it happen. BUT SHE WON'T CHOOSE. I love her but she always does this. She's so about being quiet that she refuses to ever make a move. Last time we played together she said I was a bully and never asked her what she wanted. Now I'm trying to be a better ally and listen to her moves AND SHE WON'T MAKE ANY. So frustrating.

Having Keatons name out was good cuz now he wants to target Nicole because she is the other name thats been thrown out. My alliance of mkn is helping get the votes for Nicole which is great.

so the names thrown out are keaton or nicole and its looking like nicole is gonna go bc ppl think shes a better player bc she gets far in tumblr games which like i guess is tea but its just sad that meta has a factor :( esp when shes like irrel in this game noah fence KJFADSHKFJAS. and like maynor prob has f2 with keaton.. but idc i guess she ghosts me all the time so w/e. im just hoping next round we can get like someone whos actually a threat out.

I WON IMMUNITY which means I made single digits!  I'm so happy with myself... I didn't really do much to deserve it, but I'm so happy I won because it means I can be a little more ballsy this round with throwing out names and whatever!

I'm thinking of voting Keaton out as a sort of revenge for Marie, but Nicole's name is out there, too, and I just really want to make the right move to launch my game into the next round in an even better spot!  I feel like the top of the world right now, and I want to keep that high.  The immunity challenge showed that even though I think I'm a fucking mess, I'm doing well enough socially.

As for that, I want to quickly add in that I love all my allies so much.  Sharky just helped me find a vote steal power which will be so useful for the long run of this game, and I cannot wait to use it to hopefully slay.  Nathan and Annabelle are angels and are also really nice for me to bounce ideas off of.  Bryce is just amazing to talk to and I really see him in my longterm plan.  Matt's another person I see in my longterm plan.  Ideally, this is probably my top 6... and I've since grown closer to Nick and we are working together "for the sake of Sharky", but I think he's more-so a side piece for me in this game!

So....I’m pretty certain I’m leaving because nobody wants to talk of anything of substance with me. It’s hard because I know I deserve to go, I haven’t been in a place mentally to give everything I need to, to this game. But that doesn’t mean I want to leave. It’s just hard, Dennis was my number one ally and now that he is gone it’s gonna be hard to reform my trust and alliances with everyone. Oof. It’s alright. Hoping that someone can use me as a vote about now but, don’t think that’s a possibility.

So I am keeping VERY quiet about my disadvantage, as I don't want anyone to know about it and jump on a bandwagon to use it against me! Like no thanks I'll pass. It looks like it'll either be Keaton or Nicole, would much rather it be Anna but she's immune smh. As long as my name ain't mentioned I'll be Gucci I hope. REEEE

Now that everyone is awake it's time to put in some work to execute the plan Anna/Maynor/myself made last night. We need to get everyone on board with voting Nicole. But I also need to make sure Nicole feels safe just in case she has an idol. I'm going to talk to Matt and Nick. As long as they vote Nicole we should be solid. I'm also going to start an alliance chat with the OG Dinah members so that we can talk about strategy and make sure Nicole feels safe with us. Then as long as everyone is telling the truth (cause no one ever lies in Survivor) it'll all be good.

Can i say that Sharky making a fake alliance chat with Nicole when we are planning on voting her out is very cold blooded. Like honesty doing it to try and throw off her scent of the vote is perfect.

I’m so glad sharky seems to be much more transparent with me. I’m really excited to see how this goes tbh I feel like we’d make a good pair. We be played together before and I thought he would be made at me for like wanting him out in canadienne but yeah I’m excited for merge!

Okay the alliances just keep piling up. It's definitely going to cause an issue later on. But for now it's good. And the newest one, The FB Bois, is one I actually do plan on staying loyal too. I really trust Matt and Brian. I like them both a lot and I want to work with them. Hopefully they feel the same. F4 with Brian, Matt, Maynor is my goal.

We are coming close to tribal. Its nerve wracking cuz it looks like nicole hasnt scrambled so she might have an idol. Im going to see if my side alliance would vote for Matt (keaton and nathan). Just in case there is an idol played. But as far it looks like Nicole is going.

For once my name hasnt been a top priority! its crazy... I really dont know what to do about it but im loving it so much... lets just wait though until I get out in about 30 mins...

Nicole is voted out 6-3-1.

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Rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people I was tagged by: @ximajs Thank you! :D I tag: anyone who wants to do it

the last… 1. drink: a 1:4 mix of coke and water 2. phone call: the bank (mainly bc i’m dumb) 3. text message: my south korean friend (I was bored in class) 4. song you listened to: I write sins not tragedies by patd lol 5. time you cried: last night rip 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: special? important to me yes 10. been depressed: yup 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope, i threw up in the gym though lmao

favorite colors 12. green 13. purple 14. blue (pink has also really been growing on me i think they’re tied tbh)

in the last year have you… 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: don’t think so 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: yup, the time that comes to mind was when my dad apparently told my brother i go through “morbid phases” and it’s “nothing to worry about”, still pissed about that 19. met someone who changed you: definitely 20. found out who your friends are: ?? I like to think I already know when I consider them my friends 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

general 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I’ve definitely known them all irl at some point, but I don’t keep in touch with everyone  23. do you have any pets: not anymore :’( 24. do you want to change your name: I’m happy with my name but I’ve been considering adding a middle name 25. what did you do for your last birthday: had some friends over for tapas dinner 26. what time did you wake up: 08:00 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Lisening to a podcast (/crying) 28. name something you can’t wait for: Not to be a Complete Nerd but i’m excited to get started on my subjects this semester 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: july 21st (exactly 1 month wow) Where is number 30 tho??? 31. what are you listening to right now: Loser - falling in reverse (mood) 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: several 33. something that is getting on your nerves: the holes in my leggings that keep coming back even when i repair them because they’re so good i don’t want to get rid of them :( 34. most visited website: probably tumblr how sad 35. hair colour: dark blonde/light brown 36. long or short hair: two people have actually told me my hair is getting long today so i guess it’s pretty long now 37. do you have a crush on someone: yeah 38. what do you like about yourself: my eyes and adaptability 39. piercings: none 40. blood type: A- 41. nickname: elli (my dad has started subconciously calling me this too now, my sister has influenced him ahah) 42. relationship status: single 43. zodiac: aquarius 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: pls no favourites today i’m not in the mood to make decisions 46. tattoos: none (don’t mind them though) 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: I’ve pulled out a tooth but that’s it 49. piercing: still none 50. sport: i did track and field for 5 years and played tennis & basketball but atm I just go to the gym twice a week (I’m trying to do a pull up I’m getting there) 51. vacation: just stayed at my parents’ cabin this summer but last trip abroad was Paris in april/may

52. pair of trainers: I got them 50% off this spring because the colours are so ugly (I think) but idc they do the job

more general 53. eating: had some tomato soup for dinner 54. drinking: nothing atm 55. i’m about to: repair those damn leggings again 56. waiting for: the courage to call the doctor but who knows if it’ll ever come (im ok it’s just my stupid skin that hates me) 57. want: to be a little happier 58. get married: not that important to me but not against it 59. career: I really want to work for doctors without borders but that requires about 10 years of experience so first just a regular lab technician job (preferably in microbiology or haematology) 60. hugs or kisses: hugsssss (but only from people I know) 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: idc 63. older or younger: idc 64. nice arms or nice stomach: idc (can you sense the pattern here) 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant 67. kissed a stranger: nope 68. drank hard liquor: nope 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 70. turned someone down: this guy at a summer camp asked me for my skype but I just gave him my old one bc didn’t want to be awkward 71. sex on the first date: never 72. broken someone’s heart: I hope not (and I really don’t think so) 73. had your heart broken: nah 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: yup

do you believe in… 77. yourself: ?  78. miracles: nope 79. love at first sight: nope 80. santa claus: never did 81. kiss on the first date: not for me 82. angels: nah

other 83. current best friend’s name: im confused about this one 84. eye colour: green/blue a little yellow? 85. favourite movie: no more favourites pls