#idk how to tag this but WHATEVERRRR

[majorasnightmare]

being so fr i genuinely think that the dead three are an excellent case study in Divine Madness

like im not well versed in forgotten realms lore by ANY means but i DO enjoy veering into headcanon worldbuilding territory sooo. take everything with a grain of salt and only keep what u feel like skdjskdjsnfj

we all know bhaal is like. kind of COMICALLY self destructive and stupid, shooting his pawns in the foot at the drop of a hat seemingly just for the sake of pointless cruelty, and is obsessed with murder even to the point of sacrificing his other domain of ritualized death for the purpose of killing the world (orin should NOT be as penalized as she is for how strictly she does in fact adhere to bhaal's doctrine). and while this can be explained as differences in writers portrayal and sympathy for the character of bhaal (larian in particular seems to take a dim view of bhaal, and of gods in general), spinning it into a consistent character is a fun writing challenge

and personally i think its just a long form example of how mortal minds are not innately prepared for the leap of being an autonomous individual capable of making personal decisions and having complicated nuanced feelings about a variety of ideologies to becoming a Conceptual Embodiment responsible for a fundamental force present in the world at large. like you stop BEING a person, you stop being able to change your opinions on certain things because... well, you ARE those things. can the wind stop feeling like the wind?

so bhaal achieves divinity and inherits aspects of jergal and it utterly rends his mind asunder. his erratic behavior is a result of his human mind trying to cope with divine power, and so its no surprise that he turns to that same coping method many angry dissatisfied violent people turn to: familial abuse. bhaal has a direct line of connection through blood ties to his spawn, and its a line he can draw on whenever he pleases to influence their behavior or communicate with them. every progeny hears him as clear as a cleric, regardless of their will or feelings towards him, as long as that blood connection remains. its why hes so obsessed with producing spawn despite being a god of murder: on a personal level, he embodies those cycles of abuse and how they keep perpetuating themselves, not as a divine aspect but as a personal choice as a result of his own actions and the consequences bhaal experiences. on a broader scale, you CANT redeem bhaal, not just because he is an evil aligned god of murder, but because redemption would require bhaal to meaningfully confront that his ambition to pursue divinity has ruined his life, and that temporary relief like exerting power over his family cant actually solve the core problem that he isnt actually capable of handling the power and responsibility he sought out. so he would prefer to keep driving his spawn to slaughter and self destruction and ruining his own schemes because that maintains the illusion of bhaal being an influential powerful deity in control of his emotions. the success of his schemes actually doesnt matter nearly as much as that illusion.

it doesnt matter that the dark urge was on the brink of achieving his self described final goal of killing the world, because they acted outside of his control through allying with a baneite and enacted a scheme they came up with themselves. it doesnt matter that bhaal explicitly encouraged orin to betray them, bhaals goals are falling short of success so the dark urge needs to get it together and finish the scheme they started in his name. this is an absolute nonsense train of logic, because your punished twice over, first for making a plan that benefits bhaal, and then AGAIN for BEING PUNISHED THE FIRST TIME! if the end goal was actually achieving the death of the world via the absolute, this is a totally fucking stupid way of going about it, but it makes sense as an extension of an abusers inability to cope with life stressors outside of inflicting abuse.

we need to remember that there is no inherent series of personality traits that defines an abuser, only actions. there is no circumstances that make an abuser an abuser, and there is nothing a victim does to justify or deserve abuse. an abuser acts like they do because abuse benefits and rewards them, and they are unwilling to actually surrender those benefits to treat their victims with the dignity they deserve, because thats difficult and hard and not as immediately rewarding. and generally, the most common reward for abuse is stress relief. abusing a victim feels good for the abuser, it relieves anger, it passes blame away from them onto a subject they can act on (instead of taking personal responsibility or acknowledging depersonalized systemic forces), it relieves stress, its an exercise of power and control in a world where those things are not easily accessible. understanding bhaal as an abuser provides the thread of consistency that makes a series of incoherent actions and reasonings reflect a mindset a person could conceivably have, and the stress he is trying to relieve has an easy source in the form of the very divinity bhaal sought after so greedily

to a lesser extent, this aspect of ruining divinity is, i feel, present in all three of them, its just that bhaals manifestation of it is exceptionally explosive and violent. bane seems completely and utterly consumed by his aspect of tyranny, to the extent that little remains of his personality that isnt a cunning, ambitious power seeking manipulator who accrues and hoards power at all costs, even consuming his son in his entirety for his own resurrection. that myrkul inherited so much of jergals portfolio and has increasingly mimicked jergals personality is no coincidence. the three adventurers who challenged jergal all those centuries ago have been annhilated utterly, the people they once were swallowed entirely within their divine aspects. its ruined all of them, to varying degrees, but its bhaals obsession with maintaining himself at any cost, his awareness of his own precarious position and tenuous grip on his own divinity that has him acting out so aggressively

[pup-pee]

jokes @ night r not funny in the morning,,,

originally the blue was green but then i decided 2 b pan

[fairyfairyfairy]

oh hey its fem keith that snazzy

[sonknuxadow]

i cant get screenshots of it because my laptop starts shitting itself every time i try but "i find my magnetic personality quite attractive" "and yet when youre near me i feel repulsed" LOVE LOSES 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[neonsbian]

all these complaints abt chimons kissing and chemistry....starting to wonder what he would need to do for u guys to be satisfied lmao

[meowsticmarvels]

i want to answer asks on here...... send me any if you Wish... will get to ones i haven't responded to as well

[flxwer-thing]

And we’re caught in the crossfire

Of Heaven and Hell

And we’re searching for shelter...

Lay your body down

Next to mine.

[caruliaa]

tbh i think a lott of my problems wld b solved slash future problems tht may happen wldnt happen if i j stopped thinking abt nd mentioning [redacted blog] like yea i have a lot of issues w them but those slhd only affect me if im engaging w atl.a so like !! girl simply do not !!!

[dioderent]

picrew shoutout (2 in one day wow)

yes i know i did a picrew shoutout like an hour ago but

this is the best i think i've been able to make bozai (or at least, a version with more modernized clothing) in a picrew before

its got GLOVES

unrelated, but the default hair was almost perfect for either bozai's or hazamada's hair

ima prob edit this post with a hazamada version if i feel like it

Content Warning: on the section right before the background section, (2nd to last), there is items such as guns, cigarettes, knives, baseball bats, and syringes. putting this here just in case!

[p2iimon]

i do not accept criticism on anon if you think your argument stands you can get over yourself LOL

[koganphrancis]

Rules: Tag 20 amazing followers you would like to get to know better. @mickeys-coming-back-bitches tagged me and I'm gonna steal one of her answers ;)

•Name/ Nickname: Kate

•Gender: Female

•Star sign: Pisces  

•Height:  5' 4"

•Sexual orientation: ???

•Hogwarts house: IDK-I feel like I would've spent most of my time hanging out in Prof. McGonagall's office learning all I could from her.

•Favorite color: Green, but the pretty, soft ocean shades, not so much the garish ones.

•Favorite animal: Dogs.

•Average hours of sleep: 7 but I need oh so many more!

•Cat or dog person: Dog :)

•Favorite fictional characters: So many-Mickey Milkovich, Ian Gallagher, Anne Shirley, Amelia Peabody Emerson and her husband and son too, Buffy Summers, Spike, Jerome Valeska-I'm sure more will occur to me and I'll kick myself for forgetting to list them.

•Number of blankets sleep with: 3 right now when it's winter cold, but I prefer less.

•Favorite singer/band: Can't pick just one.  I just can't.  I really love Paolo Nutini-I'd say out of all the singers I've seen live, he's the one that really moved me in a way no one else has. 

•Dream trip: Sweden, England, Australia, Scotland, Banff, Hawaii (okay, that's more than one trip)

•Dream job: Noel Fisher's personal assistant

•When was this blog created: April 2013 (but I lurked over a year before starting it)

•Current number of followers: 1066 (wonder how many are porn blogs?)

•When did your blog reach its peak: Hmm, beats me-hopefully the best is yet to come?

•What made you create this blog:  An adoring couple that to this day acts awfully couply ;)

I tag @btrandkittens @rennerator @ivegotitbad @its-whateverrrr @loganshoneypie @ayyyymichele @youknowyoutried @loftec​ and anyone else who'd like to do it (I think the other people I would've tagged have already done this, and if I've tagged anyone who already has done it, I must have missed it on my dash)