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forestgreenlesbian · 6 months

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

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chaotic-minds-think-alike · 1 year

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This is what Moon’s ost feels like and it still makes me so unbelievably emotional

(Wow the quality was butchered- click for full quality)

#myart #rainworld #rainworld iterator #iterator #iterator oc #so many things I wanted to say about this and it’ll never be enough #something about moon’s theme just makes me so emotional and idk why #I’ve talked about it before and I guess I tried to convey it here #like it’s some grand feeling like it sort of puts the perspective that iterators are SO much more than we think #idk I could just be mentally ill over robots #Guhh I love to listen to it at full volume (hearing issues speedrun) and just listen to all the individual parts like how you can hear #the iterator heartbeat in the background #it makes me soooo fucking emotional #Spotify #rainworldbuilding

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hanzajesthanza · 6 months

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“the hanza never caught a break, they were treated so poorly by the narrative, sapkowski tortured them terribly”

they stayed in beauclair palace as incognito nobility for three straight months of dizzying dancing, feasting, and pouring wine down their throats*. and eating a sumptuous breakfast for two to three hours every single day together, hosting lazy mornings together day after day. strolling around the gardens. flirting with the knighthood. being the darlings of the duchess.

what i mean to say with this post is that though yes, geralt’s hanza died tragically, they got a moment of paradise to themselves, which they intentionally shared with each other, enjoying each others’ company.

we specifically have a canon three months of geralt’s hanza hanging out together in the most fairytale-like, magical place on the continent. it’s not like they go directly from hiding in the bushes in the swamps of angren to stygga castle.

so it’s astounding to me how little attention their winter snowed-in in beauclair seems to get by the fans 😭 (this isn’t admonishing, rather i’m trying to lift all of our spirits) guys, we have a period where they were not only alive, with one another, safe, but living very well and in good health**. and because they are fictional characters and not people, they can live immortally on the page and in the mind. stygga is their narrative end, but these three months can be forever, they can live in beauclair in your mind eternally if you so desire to imagine them there.

though their tragic end shouldn’t be forgotten or ignored. yes, in beauclair, they caught the biggest break of their lives—but the point of their team of heroes is that they willingly gave it all up, eagerly and gratefully tossed it aside—because they valued their quest and their leader (!) more.

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* the wine thing applying to all except regis.

** yes, though their stay should be understood as being captive, they were captive in a paradise, which is a specific kind of captivity. it only began to really drive them mad by yuletide, when they had already spent a couple months there. i don’t think you cant say it’s the same as being held captive in the sense that, for example, yennefer was held captive—in a dark stone dungeon, tortured day-in-day-out.

#BC THEY ARE HEROES. THATS WHAT BEING A HERO IS ABOUT !!!#i mean it all depends on your perspective i guess #if half a century of poetry is the blink of an eye idk what three months is #the elbow-high diaries #f: a hansa’s a hansa

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apollos-boyfriend · 1 year

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there r a lot of little things i love about brazilian culture/portuguese but by far one of my favorite things is that instead of just saying bye we also tend to say kiss.... like yea it's most often follwed up with goodbye but it doesn't have to be..... u can just give a verbal kiss and it is accepted as much as any other form of farewell!!! idk i just think it's rlly cute :]

#icarus speaks #qsmp is just. wahhhhhh. it's making me miss home #but it's also like. weirdly giving me a new perspective on brazilian culture?#bc like. i don't Think about the things we do #bc they're just natural to me. like i don't think about beijos and and saudades and the versatility of swears #and how contextual the language/culture is #i just do it bc it's what i've done all my life without much thought!!#but now i'm almost seeing it in an outsiders perspective as non brazilians react to the ccs #and i'm like. huh. i guess that IS really specific to us isn't it. i never really thought abou tit #idk idk i am just full of Love for this server #oh fuck cellbit got further

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mamawasatesttube · 11 months

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sometimes im hit by the urge to do a massive overhaul on sotm and rewrite the entire first half of it now that ive read more comics and have more opinions. like i probably won't bc i have other stuff i wanna write but also im like constantly tempted by the idea of completely redoing ch3 bc i want kon & kara bonding augh

#the getting into comics experience is that there's always more comics to read i guess and so naturally one's perspective will keep shifting #BUT ALSO. I WANT....... KON & KARA............#and also tbh i kinda want to cut back on jason's role bc i kinda just assumed oh well everyone puts him back in the family so ig i will too #like i was just going uhhh if the rest of the bats are there at least in cameo he should be too...#but. with the perspective i currently have. actually i think it's better if he's not. i like it better with drama in that relationship #which of course is not at all even a little bit the point in sotm but i just. hm. cuts him out. adds in kara #generally i wanna lean further into like. kon's kryptonian feelings too. didn't do that bc i hadn't read much that wasn't sb94 #when i started writing it #but now that ive read new krypton. well i have THOUGHTS #maybe i should just commit and do a full sotm rewrite idk idk #much to think about #rimi talks

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doedipus · 5 months

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a large amount of time I've been spending on -untitled undefined scope original fiction project- since the last time I posted about it has been trying to develop the protagonist concept I came up with last summer or whatever into like, a character that would feel real and era appropriate.

it's fun research to do. naturally a lot of the details I assigned to her are things that I already think are cool, so it's been a lot of fun trying to trace her traits back through the relatively recent past, getting reminded of how much things have changed, or where the gaps in my intuition are, and then doing a flurry of reading to get a sense for exactly how someone like her and the people around her could have happened and what her life was probably like leading up to her present day. hopefully this results in some good good verisimilitude.

#I wrote a short story from her perspective over the holidays and then didn't know how to continue it #and then I got distracted by real life stuff for a few months #I forget if I posted about that #and then I've been picking through archive dot org for the last few weeks looking at this stuff #the last big rabbit hole was trying to get a better feel for era appropriate ts/tv subculture #the current one I'm looking at is how she would've gotten into language learning and how that would've worked #nettle has been prodding me about the setting thing lately so I've been thinking about that more too #probably the biggest hurdle by far is figuring out how I want to play that #and how I want the thing to be divided up #since the original coc scenario I'm developing this out of is centered on a flight from LA to honolulu #and the airport dungeon was definitely meant to be a hook for a larger campaign #some amount of it is going to cover protag lady's failed life in LA and some of it is going to be worse things happening in hawaii #but it's like. how much do I want to balance it one way or the other #and realistically how much does the aesthetics of 20th century air travel add to the story #besides me personally thinking it's compelling ofc #a lot of what I find compelling about hawaii is that it's an east/west cultural crossroads and realistically that's also true of socal #and I can wax poetic about socal as much as I want without worrying all that much about mishandling something #and there's also a lot of socal specific history along similar parallels to pull from that I'm more familiar with #I guess it comes down to whether curiosity re: 'doing it right' is enough of a motivator to do the increased amount of research #which I guess it has so far with the above character details. so hopefully that will continue #but it also feels like using machine translation a bit yknow. it's hard to know how effectively I'll be able to sanity check #although depending on where this goes I might be able to get other people involved to sensitivity read down the line #with most of the creative things I do I just have a tendency to always rely really heavily on figuring things out myself #I also want protag lady to have a Cool Car and idk how to get that from point a to point b narratively #this is like an entire second or third post's worth of tags but I don't feel like unfucking this so whatever. suffer. I guess.

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todayisafridaynight · 5 months

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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agueforts · 7 months

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sometimes i think when some of u talk about gorgug u forget zac isn't white

#aspen tag #it's not like a concrete thing i just get the vibe sometimes #like sometimes ppl phrase things abt his heritage and relationship to his rage #or how he fits with gnomish culture n stuff #in a way that kinda frames it as like..... passive #when there's obviously very deliberate themes being explored #or like. idk.#talk about him in a way that gives the impression they've never thought about it from the perspective of race #i'm having an autism moment or smth and the tone machine is like fully offline rn #but i guess i just don't get how someone could just. not consider it at all #it's not like it's a stretch it's very much like. baked into him #his parents don't understand his rage or how it's a part of him #their house isn't made for someone his size #he shies away from anger because he already knows the world wasn't made to fit him #he spends s1 looking for his bio parents-- people who'd be like him. who he could connect to with this part of himself #digby & wilma don't talk to the rest of their families because they thought adopting gorgug was a bad choice!#their parenting (well-meaning as it may be) is all about redirecting rage #and gorgug's teaching himself not just how to channel it constructively #but how to be comfortable with it at all #because the environment he's in doesn't offer security in expressing it. not for people like him #and so he's learned to control it and distance himself from it #in a way that he has to dismantle to fully engage with his barbarian class #it's just. it's there #i can't convince of a world where someone could look at him and just. not see it #idk how to end this. yeah 👍#d20

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kneworder · 8 months

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angry at the oscars barbie nominations but in an annoyinger way (i think nominating ryan reynolds makes sense but the best picture and best supporting actress noms are ridiculous)