#idk it just makes me feel discouraged

[ccuriousmischieff]

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[jojo-schmo]

Gently kisses you like you’re my greatest treasure, my most precious partner

bonus for top right doodle:

[rapidhighway]

gonna vent for a sec but im so tired of this "don't wanna be an inconvenience", people pleasing shit ngl.....do people who do this know that they just come off as really rude and like... it just feels insulting each time

[berryyuni]

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[thousand-winters]

Okay, yeah, I'm not 100% settled on that because it just feels wrong, but I think I might quit Dadrius week for real and just. Not write the rest of the prompts.

I was thinking about how I was regretting not having written an angsty prompt for day 2 because I know people like angsty prompts more but the friends I consulted like the fluffy one more and I did want to write fluff so I was happy with that, but then the whole time I've been worried about not having enough angst in my prompts for people to want to really read my stuff and... idk, man. That's just off. I used to write things because I thought they were fun, not because I was agonizing over if people would read them or not, you know? Literally my first Dadrius fic was just me going "oh, my god, I want to write this so bad" and coincidentially it did get a lot of attention but at the time I was just SO excited about the idea and the composition the fic would have and that was literally it. I wasn't thinking about anything else, I was just having fun.

And I guess it's because in the past, when I wrote fics for this fandom, people did interact with me and I liked that, it was fun to talk to people about these things and whatever. And I don't get that anymore, which is fine, of course, I'm not entitled to anybody's time, but it's just not fun anymore. It feels like I'm just throwing empty words out there and it's so... boring. Like I don't know, maybe my writing just sucks, maybe it doesn't. My friends are very sweet and do seem to like it but you know, they do like me, so things I do they might see with sweeter eyes.

Idk, man. I just feel like I've been doing so many things for so long that haven't been for myself but for what it feels like it's expected of me and that's all. And it sucks even more because literally nobody expects this of me, I'm not fulfilling anybody's expectations, I'm just stressing myself out for nothing.

So idk. It might be good to just NOT.

[hauntingsofhouses]

i think im gonna take a break from my fic to write my original work instead

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Not much has been shared yet for the Nicky day of the week which has me thinking that *I* wanna draw a Nicky to share but... That would require... Drawing and... Liking what I draw...

[littlefreakelio]

:')

[puckpocketed]

Hi! weird ask from that anon begging the question if you're lonely. I'm tumblr user odense and tumblr thinks I'm a bot bc I keep vpn hopping so I'll probably come through anon, but I'm real and I dig your style! fun>sad always, let's get silly with it, I love your energy. holding fins and we are splashing merrily through this deep blue internet!

oh, I don’t think it was weird! I like to assume good faith when I can and I don’t think they were implying that I’m sad or lonely (pretty hard to be when most people on here are so nice tbh) it sort of felt like they were asking for themself? (like maybe they’d found it a bit hard or discouraging posting about their guys when no one seems to care about them) and I just wanted to share how I approach that sort of thing. anon if you’re out there come out from behind the curtain !! let’s hang out ! give me brain worms about your special guys too 😎👍

anyway!! thank u for the vibe check 🥹 we are holding fins and hooves and tentacles and sinking into the deep dark bliss of the ocean ! yeehaw!!!!

[orcelito]

ok SO i went and got out Most of my knives (i remembered I have a nonbinary knife only after i took the photos & also idk where it is currently. just imagine all these plus a nonbinary flag knife ok? ok)

HERE ^ is the most of them, minus that nonbinary knife. look at that fuckin mess. 32 shown here (i think) plus my nonbinary knife makes 33 blades (minus cooking knives, i dont count those for these purposes)(also counting the swiss army knife as only 1 bc lol)

& some explanations for them! gonna put these under a readmore bc it got Kinda long on accident whoops. Read Ahead if u wanna see me nerd out about my knife collection.

STARTING WITH my big ones.

my spear (gifted to me), my cane sword (from anime convention), my shitty $20 sword (also from anime convention. low quality but cool as hell), my teal mini sword + matching throwing knives (from online), my decorative axe (from a local store), my twin blades (my sharpest blades, theyre actually kinda scary how sharp they are, but i love them bc of it. from online), red saber (from online),

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD my favorite hefty bitch of a machete that i sleep with in my bed frame on the very right (inherited from my grandpa bc i was the first one who spotted it at Family Claiming Day)(this thing really is as long as my leg & much heavier than Any of the rest of the blades pictured here. i love it)

another view of the blades so u can better see how long they are. the big boys. they're lovely. 2nd heaviest blade is the cane sword when it's in its cane, mostly bc that handle has some Heft. tbh id feel safer using it as a bludgeoning weapon than a stabbing weapon, but having a cane sword is just plain cool

AND my smaller blades!

i have a lot of pocket knives. starting from the top left: golden pocket knife (from online), rainbow dragon (from online), rainbow HEFTY boy (heaviest pocket knife, from online), spider knife (from online), stiletto jade (from online), pathetic army boy (from local store, this knife has NO redeeming qualities, but it's mine <3), black stiletto (from local store), plain dagger man (from online), my damascus steel knife (was a gift, probably my singular most expensive knife. fancy boy), Dull Dagger Man (first blade i ever bought, from anime convention)

& for bottom row: teeny black knife (first pocket knife i owned, gift from my dad), lil rainbow knife (from local store), plain steel knife (from sketchy shop in gatlinburg + one of my Favorite knives), green dragon knife (from online, a real beaut), triple throwing knives (also from same sketchy shop in gatlinburg), the baby throwing knives again from the Big Boys pic but i included them again bc they r so teeny tiny, my keychain key blade (from online), swiss army knife (from online), & the pair of claw keychain baldes (from online)

many blades, many stories, so little time. theyre great tho.

SOME FOCUSES:

^ these are all my spring-assisted knives, sorted from worst feel to best feel to open. based on quickness, ease, & general satisfaction. leftmost is leftmost bc i didnt even Know it was spring assisted, bc it doesnt have a nice lil tab on the back to press. no u gotta press on one of the rungs. but once u do it Does spring open, so i included it. next 3 are just Average in feel (these 3 are sibling blades anyways, nice of them to be together). jade stiletto is smooth and quick, nice to open. Hefty Boy rainbow has some THUNK to it when i open it. like that babey's got PURPOSE to it. added to the general size of it & it's just pretty great. AND THEN MY TWO FAVS, green dragon is a perfect beautiful knife & feels very great to open. and then Steel Sketchy Knife aka my 2nd pocket knife & first i bought for myself. it looks plain in comparison to the others, but she's anything But. quick, light, Sharp. it has the Best feel to open, bc it's just a fast SHHK. probably my knife that's seen the most use (aside from my small black knife) just bc of how great it feels to open. i love that knife so much for Real.

& the final highlight, somewhat related, are the knives I actually use the most in my daily life!

on the left are the knives I keep in my bag by default, & thus the ones I carry with me Everywhere i go. small black pocket knife bc she's Ol' Faithful, & a pretty lowkey knife for basic tasks when I dont wanna raise any eyebrows lol. silver knife bc as previously stated i Love using it so much. i take it out when i gotta breakdown a lot of boxes at work, & it Never disappoints. small rainbow keychain key knife bc it's cute & i like to keep it on my keychain. & swiss army knife bc Obviously im gonna keep the swiss army knife in my bag for if i need an emergency tool.

on the right are the three knives I keep out in my apartment. black stiletto lives on my bathroom counter, for bathroom knife needs. green stiletto i keep on my table next to where I hang out in my bedroom, for any couch time needs. & then green dragon beaut camps out on top of some shelves by my front door bc it's Great for opening boxes, aka something I will do for packages I receive after pulling them in the front door. it works for me.

all the rest of my knives live either in a box (for small ones) or my closet (for big ones). i may have a lot of knives, but somehow I never feel like i have enough. i just love collecting them so much <3

[zeninsama-moved]

Dad Aki would get up and find whatever you’re craving. (True story) woke up at 4 am craving sweet tea; and I imagine like in my experience, Dad Aki jumps out of bed, doesn’t even remember to put his hair up, grabs the keys and is gone and back with the tea.

Dad Aki gets sympathy cravings. He’s at work, goes into someone’s office just to grab handfuls of hard candy because he’s suddenly craving them.

He’s reading all of the books on pregnancy and infant care. Even goes on baby center.com but we have to pry him off of it because he’s getting so anxious over how much information (and horror stories) there are on there.

Sorry; I Can to on and on.. even with the breastfeeding. 👀

zell ;A; I HAVEN'T HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO ANSWER YET BUT I WAS THINKING OF THIS CONSTANTLY!!! the dadki brainrot has been insane @existentialisttrashh and i have been losing our MINDS over him! the sympathy cravings ;A; aki gaining some dad weight,, it looks so good on him

BUT CAN U IMAGINE aki rolling into the conbini in the middle of the night bc wife (gn) needed this very specific flavor of tea,, maybe with the good crunchy ice if u drink it iced,, maybe a little snack,, pretty please aki,, and he does not hesitate! gives your forehead a smooch before leaving and tells you in his sleepy voice to "let me know if you need anything else, okay?" before heading out. he doesn't care how tired he is, it's rewarding to see you sitting there all happy with your lil drink <3

ALSO U ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT THE ANXIETY HFJDK he is educating himself on every single thing that can go wrong during your pregnancy so the moment you mention feeling a little tired or sore he's already grabbing his keys to take u to the hospital bc obviously u are dying <3 i think he is very worried during the pregnancy but the moment it's go time, he knows to keep calm for you and ends up giving you the best reassurance and support when it's your turn to feel afraid.

[j-esbian]

you know. i have seen a lot of posts that say something to the effect of “adult friendships are going to be different” which i get because aging tumblr population etc. but it rly comes across as “if you didn’t have a certain kind of friendship (i have a specific idea in mind but i will not specify because We All Know what i mean [editor’s note: i don’t because your experiences are not universal]) before you hit your 20s, you’ve lost your chance because all of your friends are getting married and having kids and have less time for you” and like. idk does that really need to be said

[twcbelts]

*** no but listen ... what if i made a multi?

[kurthorton-moving]

I wish tumblr was. Easier

[soft-jihyo]

personally really hate the "devs should just make all characters bi so nobody feels excluded" take.

[g1rlonl1ne]

seeing how depop ended up is genuinely so weird. i’ve been on that app since 2018 and not only has it always been and is still the shittiest platform of all time but it’s also now owned by etsy and has a horrible reputation for … some reason