#idk maybe ill delete this later

[ab-arts]

I'm gonna get salty

So I finally got to playing the game (more like watching my sister play cuz my computer is too ass to run it without 5 billion lag) and like

It's so fucking neat??? And yet I've just seen post after post of everyone being angry and dissappointed about it??

Idk it's getting to a point where it's genuinly disheartening how negative people in this fandom have been in the last few years, even if they have a point. I've been wanting to say something all this time, but didn't cuz I thought maybe it would pass.

I've pretty much never been disappointed with Bendy content, ever. Like, I think it's just getting better, BatDR was so worth the wait, and Secrets has me even more excited for what's coming next.

I don't think they're without flaw, obviously, that'd just be naive of me. I don't care for Mike, and I think they'd benefit greatly from sitting down and working out what their story actually is, but idk I still think everything they've made is FUN. I love Bendy, and even if I'm not exactly in the fandom anymore, I'll always love it.

Idk if there's any point to what I'm saying, maybe I'm just stupidly easy to please, but Bendy just means a lot to me, and the things people have been saying about it, even if correct, just hurt.

I want to be able to enjoy Bendy without feeling like I shouldn't.

[doostyaudi]

//suggestive images

Made these cuz uhm. Uhm. Im not sure actually. For funsies or something. Eroticisim of the machine or something idk im new here

God i am SO CRINGE but i am... Free?

[todayisafridaynight]

journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

[sunbratz]

is this the point where i make a post looking for new ppl to follow bc i want friends in the fandom for the new thing i am hyperfixating on? are we at that point yet?

[jeliwyre]

i feel comfier posting sketches and talking about them here over twitter so

a wip for some really cool gameboy cartridge based merch im gonna try and make :) im not making the csm one im sorry im lazy and i dont want to draw three chainsaws…. please understand

[hws-lceland]

It's been a long year but i am happy to finally be able to post my Polaroid for the @hws-anthology ! This was my first ever zine and I'm honored to have been part of it since Hetalia has been part of my life for 10 years now. And I've made some incredible friends due to it

[starrysharks]

tried to test the waters by asking my mother what she would do if she had a gay child and she said that she'd have them sent to ghana (home country) to be purified. ok

[speremint]

if i see spoilers for GO s2 im going to sob

[not-poignant]

every now and then i forget how bad my chronic illnesses are and every now and then my body is like 'hmmm you seem to have forgotten what it's like to be cripplingly bedridden and disabled and we don't want you to forget' and then i'm reminded and it feels a little like being yeeted into a granite cliff wall at full speed and leaving a dent

[natsmagi]

sorry for making yet another textpost but i came across that post saying they dislike transfem natsume because he "canonically hates being perceived as a girl and tries to erase all sorts of memories related to that" and also went on to shame genderbends of him aswell. So, as someone who not only draws genderbends of natsume but is myself someone who is nonbinary and hates being perceived as a woman, i thought id offer my two cents

first of all; i think its important to note that natsume does NOT hate his childhood. in fact, hes quite happy that he had such an unusual upbringing!

what natsume hates is being perceived as weak. thats why he was raised as a girl after all, it was his mother trying to protect him from evil spirits. he doesnt hate the whole "-chan" or "wearing dresses" thing because he has a hatred for womanhood, its because due to his upbringing hes now come to associate those things as being weak. he begs tsumugi to forget about it because that means tsumugi remembers natsume being weak, and natsume thinks tsumugi still referring to him as "natsume-chan" means he still sees natsume as weak. (iirc natsume did however once say that he is a little sad that he doesnt really know how to relate to young boys due to this in poltergeist, but i couldnt find the exact quote. either way that just adds to the complexity of natsumes relationship with his childhood, because while he is happy to be "abnormal" in that sense, it has left him lacking in some areas)

i have to ask though, should this conflict of his not be something we hope he overcomes? should we not want him to develop a healthy relationship with various gender expressions? should we not want natsume to overcome his belief that feminine things = weakness? i want natsume to reach a point where he can wear feminine clothing and not feel like some damsel in distress because of it. i want natsumes character to grow. i want him to develop a positive relationship with his gender because natsume DOES enjoy some more typically feminine things, like baking! he used to bake with his mom when he was little! and i want him to feel like he can indulge in that side of him without feeling insecure.....

i LOVE transmasc natsume, my primary hc for him is transmasc nonbinary after all, but with all these things considered, shouldnt people be allowed to headcanon him however they want? if they hear his story and negative relationship with femininity and how that resonates with them and they themselves are transfem, should they not be allowed to hc him as such too?

which brings me to my next point; my own personal relationship with gender and femininity. i was raised as a girl and i fucking DESPISED womanhood. i hated everything about it. i hated how i felt forced into a box i didnt want to be stuck in, and i hated how it felt like my whole life had already been planned out for me due to societal expectations, aswell as me needing to present a certain way. i was peak "tomboy" growing up, constantly wearing super baggy clothes and wouldnt even brush my hair alot of the time. but despite that i remained miserable. i frankly hated how i looked and would constantly dye my hair vibrant colors in an attempt to make me like myself a little more. it wasnt until i realized "wow, im actually not a girl at all" that i finally let go of believing i needed to look a certain way (and thus, defying it) and started to dress for myself. i started to dress in clothes that made me happy and feel pretty! alot of which leans feminine, but clothes doesnt have a gender, and how you dress doesnt define your gender either, but it can still be a bit scary yknow? especially since i dont want people to think of me as a girl, and drawing a bunch of femstars has really made me learn to love myself more in a funny way. i can put these characters in clothes i think are beautiful, i can explore the more feminine parts of me that i adore but dont want to express in public due to how i want others to perceive me, but it has also warmed me up to femininity even more. because femstars to me feels detached from the expectations of society because its not a real thing!! there are no canon femstars designs!!! i can do literally whatever the hell i want with it and its been so liberating to me!!

all this to say; i think it really sucks seeing the way this fandom treats transfem hcs and explicit genderbends, because like ive said before; they can truly be something so personal. you dont know why that person is drawing what theyre drawing, so its a little unwise to make assumptions based on ........ Well, whatever it may be. i know very well that women dressing the way society expects them to SUCKS, esp if you have personal ties to it, but you have to realize the issue isnt femininity, but misogyny.

[teknikolor-walters]

Does anyone else feel a debilitating fear of getting better? Is this normal? Does it secretly prove I'm just faking everything for attention? Probably tbh

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

i dont usually post random snippets like this but everyone PLS listen to chii she is adorable 🥺🐟

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

i think being alive is a lot like learning how to cook for the first time while living alone. you fail and make mistakes a bunch because you don't understand what your doing. you take advice from directions but you dont think it looks the best. you try and make improvements slowly, and its fun because its all so new and you feel proud when you finally figure it out but the journey is a lot like living. its the journey of things and realizing you can do it once you build your own skillset to substitute your confidence in the lack of understanding. you innovate your goals and take those scary risks but eventually with all the failures and "not turning out how its supposed to" you learn to enjoy the journey. it doesnt matter as long as it tastes good and it fulfills you.

[bittsandpieces]

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[todayimfour]

The neurodivergent feeling of: hungry but nothing is edible and if you eat you perish™ has been really kicking my booty lately

[suddencolds]

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