#idk wtf is up w tht

[caruliaa]

need to clean up my room so one last listen to speak now og version

[kamiversee]

SPILL ON UR LOVELIFE OMG WHAT 👀👀 I want fanfic moments too hsjjssj

Are you ready for a yap sesh…

Okay so do y’all rmb that 6ft tall guy I was talking to & said I MIGHT be in love w? Yeah so erm… He was wayyy to lusty for me, so much so that when we talked and he’d say how much he liked me— it just felt weird because it was like “wtf do you like about me aside from the fact that I’m nice & know how to dirty talk??”

And I thought it was ironic that he was too lusty for me even tho I write literal smut in my free time but y’all I’m not even exaggerating when I say nearly every convo w tht man was about sex. And if it wasn’t about sex then it was just about something pertaining to him in general.

Anything he knew about me was info I had to just throw out there to him yk? It was like he never really asked me anything about myself unless it was something sexual. Which irked my nerves so badly because, again, wth did he like about me? The guy didn’t even know my favorite color like ??

But in the beginning I was pretty blindsided by how good the conversations were and I was just happy to receive attention in all honesty.

Anywho tho, I told my bsf about the guy & he was telling me to stop talking to him because it’s going no where, or at least tell him that I want him to start asking things about me but uh…

I’m not that kinda person y’all. I dont want to have to tell someone to be curious about me if they claim to be interested in me. It was so apparent that he was only interested in the way I gave him a listening ear on his struggles & the way I engaged in sexual convos.

So, although I felt like shit for a while because I didn’t wanna be like his other exes tht just up & left him for no reason, I eventually told him I just couldn’t talk to him romantically anymore. NOW, this was damn there the icing on the cake.

While he was really mature about it ending & basically said he understood and wasn’t going to push me about staying or anything, y’all… he didn’t even ask why I wanted things to end. I wasn’t exactly looking for him to ask why but dude, if u claimed to like me as much as you did & were oh so infatuated with me, shouldn’t you wanna know why I suddenly wanna break things off w you??? 😐

Anyway, that ended & we decided to just stay friends. Our convos got shorter and shorter & nowadays he & I both moved on.

ONTO MY CURRENT LOVE INTEREST 😁

Guys hes so.

We started talking from me giving him advice abt his ex and stuff & I met him literally right after that first guy so he even gave me advice abt him and when I told him I felt so shitty about leaving guy numb 1, he reassured me even tho he didn’t know me tht well at the time ^-^

Then from there we just became friends and would talk a lot bc he noticed my lil sugu obsession and told me he looked like him (He does lowk) which led to him sayin I should be obsessed w him instead of Sugu since he’s actually real… he lowk gagged me there guys

Aaaand we’d just talk every day more and more, all on discord btw bc it’s so silly over there (server coming when??) And like, I dont rmb when exactly he caught feelings for me but at some point I could just kinda tell.

The only thing was that it just felt too soon so when he actually confessed to me or wtv, I told him I still wanted to know more about him as a person and whatnot. AND GUYSGUYSGUYS.

So rmb guy1 right? & how he didn’t even know my fav color? I told guy2 about that and he immediately asked abt it. I KNOW that’s smth so small but pls, it was so sweet…. is the bar in hell? Idk, I swear I have standards 🙏

We even had a whole convo abt colors & it was just super cute! >< Another time, I vented and told him how guy1 didn’t rlly put in any effort to get to know me but claimed to like me and guy2 went out of his way to say how he wants to know everything about me

When I tell y’all his confession was like smth out of a damn fanfic. YALLLLLL. And it’s funny bc MLN is actually based on events tht’s happened in my life soo…

Anywho, guy2 is amazing and ilhsm. He’s so sweet and silly, I wanna eat him yall ☹️

We talk everyday & I’ve ruined my sleep schedule juust a bit for him (it was ruiened beforehand tbh)!

That’s pretty much how things r goin for me rn. Guy1 & guy2 did interact w each other at one point and it was sooo messy yall, I was not feelin it but thats a story for another time frfr

I hope you guys enjoyed my podcast :3

[wooahaes]

i would just like to say, i almost missed the coming out as bi series (so glad i didnt oh lord id been waiting too long) but its so so so good

not just because im bi, but like, as a reader, i loved it. also got to explore how people might feel abt being bi or being percieved weirdly, because there is not a single person ive told in my life who has reacted badly— a couple people straight up went "wtf is tht" and i had to explain but, they were fine w it. which is kinda weird to me because being an indian, i used to expect a reaction yk? but no, im thr idiot who goes around parading it and literally nobody cares and i rly like tht, but its also kinda desensitized to how another bi person whos not as accepted might feel

wow idk why i ranted sorry 😅

nah ur good! i liked reading ur rant :3

i'm very open about my sexuality online and with very close friends, but not so much at all irl because (gestures towards homophobic immediate family who reacted badly when i even suggested it in the past, p much implying i'd be desperate for love). i'm glad my silly lil drabbles could show that other side of things for you though! i tried to have a variety when it comes to how reader approaches things where either she's incredibly open about it, semi-open about it, or more closeted since no one experience is universal y'know?

idk if this will mean much of anything but i don't think you're an idiot for parading it if you feel safe to. everyone's gonna feel differently about their own identity based on their own circumstances, and there's nothing wrong that as long as ppl aren't being dicks to how other ppl present themselves

im glad you enjoyed them tho!! i plan on finishing the skz ones at some point today and posting em to finish off the headcanons before pride month is over :3

[weightlessisthenewblack]

... I think my roommate is trying to gaslight me into thinking my bf is verbally or emotionally abusive, so that i break up w bf and go out w the roommate..

He has already admitted that hes into me so thats a fact

But wtf?

He was taking things out of context and spinning them into negatives.

He mentioned smth ab bf calling me a bitch so obviously i was like wtf are you talking ab does he call me that behind my back?

And he was like he said it to your face last night what do you mean he literally said shut up bitch

And i was like ?????? When tf did he do that

And HE GOES "do you block that out now or smth cuz thats not healthy??"

I talked to bf ab it too and he agrees w me that he never calls me names seriously. We fuck around and call each other names like fucker or bitch but always in a joking manner and we both know isnt serious. We've both set our limits for that kind of thing i gave him shit very early on for calling me a bitch seriously ONE time and he never did it again

Bf agrees that last night nothing happened tht warrants anything roomie has said? So either roomie is making a big deal out of nothing or hes manipulating me

i wanna give him the benefit of the doubt but idk i also kind of know the kind of person he is and how little he respects my bf so im at a point that like. Idk i feel like its smth he could do

Idk i just feel really icky and upset now

Im gonna talk to him when i can but im working two jobs so idk when I'll have time next to talk w him ab it

Im really over this

[angfdz]

i’m on my period & i have a UTI so tht means that i am sex-endorphins free & can “think” “clearly” re my crush. 

he’s leaving back to his state soon w no definite return time. I think it’ll be good for him to figure out wtf he wants to do...

idk when is like, a good time to bring up “what’s going on with us”. it feels a little premature 1 month into going out & it also feels like it should be a secondary question (for him) in terms of “what is going on with my life”. 

it’s kind of interesting going out w someone who knows & is friends with SO many people? Like there hasn’t been a day that he hasn’t met up with someone different. I am like, a complete hermit, I know very few people & get socially anxious easily so it’s hard for me to imagine wanting to do that on the daily.

as for me... idk, in some ways I feel a little “alive again”. I’m like, experiencing new people, experiencing desire, kind of opening myself up to new ways of thinking. I think I was static for a very long time... so it’s been a kind of awakening.

so anyway like, i think for myself i would like an average kind of relationship. nothing too fancy, just like... a normal ass... monogamous... sort of deal. eventually! honestly doesn’t even have to be right away. but yea idk if he’s down for that tbh like he’s mr anarchist so it’s like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... u just never know with artists. 

i fr think i might be too boring for the art world sometimes like. how complicated.

[garoujo]

hi emmie here’s my useless story for u 2day! my gf n i were out at dinner and this little girl was running around. her mom calls her name and my gf repeats it being like “wtf was that name” right?

the name?

tynder rayne.

my gf is LOUD AS HELL and the mom was like “yeah it’s so cute bc her dad and i met on tinder and it was raining when we found out and we felt adding the y to it made it so beautiful blah blah“ and idk i zoned out after that bc…

u named ur child… a living organism… after THE DATING APP??

my gf was cutting up on the way home n saying our cat should be cupid bc we met on okcupid lolol

no cause if my parents named me after tinder i’d literally have lifetime long beef w them like ajajajak ;;;_;;; why wud u do tht help ! well 2 each their own .. rename ur cat pls lmaoooo no cupid is such a pretty kitty name help <3 !

[anissapierce]

do you have any thoughts on the current r/usty qu!ll situation and the controversy surrounding the recent article written about them? totally understand if you don't wanna get into it. you just often have insightful commentary on stuff so i wondered if you had anything to say about this. personally i think it's a little absurd the lengths some people are going to to defame and discredit the article writers

Oh yeah i saw that happening on twitter..im like a leeetle bit biased bc yeah ive been following the fable n folly network since very on like when it was just alba salix n the space show and yeah i follow sean n eli (the cocreators of the network) on insta bc dog pics so ive formed a minor attachment

Ok now to get into the actual meat of it all, heres a link to the article

I was already seeing some of the claims of the article bubbling up b4 it came out, which ok you might argue are there to add credibility to some shit tht isnt true but the claim that this is a smear campaign just feels so off base, yes newt made a mistake in not saying they were a marketing director for fable n folly up front but like...

I dodnt wade deep into the discrediting happening i just viewed some qrt while it was happening bc i do often go through those. I think if you believe that rusted queels growth was totally organic w no growing pains n anybody trying to point out a problem w them is trying to smear them for the competition well... Thats dumb

RQ and fable n folly r such different networks FnF doesn't have anything to gain from "taking RQ down" like ok sure they both have actual play podcasts set in space but otherwise

I do think that trying to keep every criticism of podcasts n networks to hush networks like discord is doing more harm than good yes ppl involved in the industry should get to talk abt shit others have done even if its 'indie'

I guess theres a response now i skimmed it idk enough Abt the situation to weigh in either way but idk i didnt think the tone of the article was as harsh as RQ makes it out to b it n casting aspersions on a person who .... Made a mistake like the company is owning up to their mistake is just so...

Also i refuse to believe this happened in dec like wtf i thought the article happened in summer... Newt has not edited the article so i am going to their twtr rn to see if they had a response

Edited: there is a response from the editors of the first article

I read it and the one qualm i have is bringing in BLM into the explanation Abt journalism like yes the conversation abt journalistic impartiality harms pic n is built on white supremacy but it felt odd to esp focus on tht when ppl are trying to discredit your journalism as three white ppl .... Especially to specifically bring up BLM but otherwise this article literally addressed everything

[marybatson]

I forgot I never finished the day of vengeance final crisis continuation so I just did tonight. here r some highlights

this made me rly happy for some reason, even if I don’t know them all…isn’t it just soooo coool and refreshing for a huge specific hero cast to show up like this in a special occasion.. well that’s hero comics ig jddjjd. there r a lot of ppl here I wanna read abt too.. anyway how silly that only the marvels + traci13 have memorable logos to show off. makes them look mysterious…

“marvel clan” “miss zatanna” they r moeeee. I really love seeing zatanna at work in her natural leadership position bc this portion of the story where they were just rebuilding the rock of eternity felt smoothly run by her. just cool girl things

ok welcome 52 event I get it .. but anyway this kinda makes me..how many times is he gonna hear You Have To Go To SpaceTime Jail for the Sake of the Universe (Real This Time). cue black adam in his 52 reign of horror.. omg I do see the line straight to trials of Shazam but ugh..sorry u can’t make me like how tht was written guys.. idk I’m a hater ignore me

but also regarding this i think devotion is an interesting word to use for cap always doing this sacrifice thing..

random:

mary and traci 13 talking in ONE PANEL. ages ago I rmr somebody drawing up a teen magic dream team and u kno what in that moment I saw the vision

Aquaman giving back blue devil his trident hehe

Do u know how fucking often the seven deadly sins get out . move aside arkham asylum cuz the rock of eternity apparently has 0 lockdown procedures wtf!! very funny that the storyline/zatanna didn’t even have any of the marvels be in charge of tracking down the sins even if they can prob do tht w their eyes closed by now

phantom stranger calling captain marvel “captain” and detective chimp calling him “muscles” djejejdj

THIS WAH:

[youreyeslookliketheocean]

chap 5 review i finally have time lets go i hate school:

tommy learning asl just to fuck with wilbur lmao

also when wilbur stepped up for tommy after he couldnt speak was awesoem i love crimeboys

its so interesting the relarionship between tommy and his old coach bc its such a complicated mess that really fucked tommy up but it hurts more relaizing that the entire public saw it (or parts of it) too and nto saying anything until his mom was lkke hey thats gfucked up loike the public knew that old cheif only cared abt racing while phil cares abt tommmy

crimeboys are becoming friends <3

also damn wilburs accident was pretyy severe.

im kinda excited for when the new team figures out abt tomys trauma and insecurites (if they do lol)

also imagine walking into a pillow fight. phil be like "alright then"

also i like all th e side characters too especaillh purpled and aims

chapter 6 too bc yeah:

beach beach beach

also wtf why is wil tht good. he has no right.

toomy stop hating on urself phil cares abt u

give wil false hope lmao ope theere he is right thwre

stop. tommy stop. stop hating on urself being deaf is fine phil isnt gonna hate u anyway how u constanty compare everything to old cheif is very important bc it shows how its different

hes being kidnapped lets go i love beach scene beach (i actually ahve horrible memories from florida beaches we went at the wrong time of year)

george founder is an absolutely badass name good job on that one

dream isnt the old cheif relally???? im genuienly surprised but thats cool. nice to actually see him in a dsmp fic where hes actually chill. also sapnap i forgot he cuased the accident that must be awkward af (tommy stop blaming urself)

yeah no u show his lack of self confidence/esteem perfectly u take so many W

oh my god 🦀 makes an appearance hes such a celebrity

wait fuck all my brain proccessed was crab legs its a hermitcrab

mother of twitch prime. that is a tommy thing to say

yeah take em aids off that must be annoying as hell

is it just me or do i sense that tommy isnt accepting that hes HOH now hmm :/ | yeah losing smth as important as a sense must be scary if u've had it for so long

istg is wil gonna bully him into- and he did (also was it him 🦀? is he in the full throttle?)

hes learning asl im so happy oh shit not them waves i once got rolled by waves its scary af

oh no old cheif angst again ahh. and wil being concerned ahh this will be character development. this is crucial scene alret. oh they laughing awwwww oh he smile a /gen smile !!!!!!!!!1 crimeboys brainrotting full throttle version commence omg he likes wil now- ope nvm

"theyre different from his old crew. all of them are" YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

hes not that worried in sim. anymore abt being good

oh no his left ear but itll be ok

"hen slips away to his room to ruminate on the fact that never—not in his whole racing career—has he felt so loved by his team as he does now. He’s not worth it. He’s a fuck up, a failure, and he’s going to disappoint them.  He doesn’t want it to end." i will live for the moment when he fucks up. its gonna be so great for character development

ok this chap. is very long so im splitting to parts byeeee sorry this took so long school sucks :( but full throttle does not :)

Ahhh thank you!!!!!

Yeah, I don’t think Tommy really realized how much the public knew until that interview with Wilbur, either. The public saw and knew (to a certain extent) that something was wrong or “off” about Tommy and his chief’s partnership for a long time, but no one ever tried to step in and ask about it, or tell him that he should leave him and find a new chief, or say anything at all on Tommy’s behalf… Writing that part hurt.

Idk how far you’ve gotten by the time this response comes (lol sorry it took so long. University stole my soul for a little while), but… the moment he “fucks up” will definitely be coming 👀

Thank you for the message!!! I giggled at the hermit crab😂

[yumenosakiacademy]

im trying 2 edit a vid but every time i try 2 add another photo, it like.. pushes back the other photos in different visual tracks/rows (.. idk how 2 word it. like audio tracks but pictures) by a few seconds, thus fucking up the rest of the vid n its like what the fuck... this photo has nothing 2 do w the other 1s n isnt touching it in the editing overlay dont fucking softlock me out of my own edit??

edit: IT DOES IT ON A DIFF VIDEO EDITOR SITE 2 WTF?? cmon now.. what the fuck mate...... do i hav 2 put ALL my files on2 the editing rows b4 sorting them out thts So difficult

[caruliaa]

btw being annoying abt this thing that happened almost a week ago at this point bc had no tumblr then but i remember at one point when we were with our cousins and kinda just chatting and hanging out nd stuff my sibling just like. was repeatedly like being mean and insulting me for the most minor things and like it was rude but didnt rly hurt that much it was j whatever yk but they kept doing this but i was mostly like whatever even though they were being pretty mean nd at some point they were like "go walk of a cliff" and i was jokingly like "ill tell mum you said that" and then they were like "well you can tell that to her but i can tell her things too yk" basically threatening to out me or like. tell our parents about me having online friends and shit which is a pretty fucked thing to say and like. a completely inordinate reaction to me making a joke but we were around other ppl nd my i wasnt out to one of the cousins so i cldnt be like "hey what the fuck is wrong with you for threatening to out me over a joke" so i was just like "you kept insulting me and our cousins thats rude!" and then they got so sulky and was like "oh im not allowed to insult people but people are allowed to insult me?" even though that like. i never said that ?? and none of us were insulting them ??? and when i was like "i never said that its wrong for people to insult you too" they started talking about how im allowed to be annoying though and thats not fair when they cant insult me or whatever. hi.

[baekhvuns]

Omg i completely forgot to talk abt the most imp things 😭😭

YES THE CHALEYA DANCE IVE BEEN DOING THT EVERY DAY AND MY FAMILY IS TIRED OF ME 😭 but I still do it tho omg saammme i haven't watched jawan too.

I completely agree considering Asia is a little sophisticated but come on people don't hv to cross their limits and calling them strippers and stuff, PPL hv no chill. Ofc bcz it bp, bcz now jennie's getting hate bcz she did pigtails in her new performance ver of the song you and me 😭😭 WTF IS WRONG WITH YALL?!?!?! I did not like the idol or whtv it was BUT COME ON SHE GETS HATE FOR EVEN BREATHING 😭 wait- THEY HV WHAT AT CRAZY HORSE?!? 😭 NAHHHH THTS SO SAD

IDK ABT THE REEL VER OF THT SONG BUT EVERYONE IS GOING CRAZY ABT THE CHAMPAGNE CONFETTI PART 😭😭

OMG OMG OMGGGGGG IM- SEONGHWA IN TFMA 😭😭😭😭 LAWRD I CANT FIND HE PICS ON PINTEREST BUT I JUST SAW THEM ON TV AND AHHHH WHY IS HE SO VINTAGE VAMPIRE CODED AND THOSE LONG HAIR 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

Nd honestly me embracing my feminine energy more is much shocking to my brother thn me 😭 idkw but he's like "omg you're turning like them" BRUH-

Y'all are getting your hands read?!?! Thts dope, A RICH HUSBAND DAMN YALL WINNING IN THE FUTURE 😭😭

I'm literally on old kpop gg fever, snsd, wonder girls, t-ara, apink, and it was so much better, so much better. I'm not complaining abt the music kpop is making but the old music was like a slap of fresh air.

Dude were literally the same person BCZ I ALSO DONT HV MUCH FUNCTIONS OR WEDDINGS IN MY HOUSEHOLD but considering now all my cousins are growing up we bout to hv a blast 😭

Your bias in riize is wonbin NOW TELL ME OF HE REMINDS YOU OF SEONGHWA BCZ HE DOES TO ME, i heard someone say tht they look familiar and I was like nahhh but now tht hwa grew out his hair i cn def see where they were coming frm

LMFAOOOO AND THEY SHOULD HE CAME BACK AFTER YEARS WE HAVE TO CELEBRATE

nO LITERALLY i cannot go one post without seeing a hate comment abt them like???? just leave them be??? what’s it to you 😭😭 like aren’t u tired?? SORRY OVER PIGTAILS??? yeah they have that at the crazy horse bathrooms 😭😭😭 absolutely disgusting

i lOOOVE the part where he goes “u know how i like it girl” I DO BRO I DO FHWJDHWKHDKA

HE REALLY IS ISNT HE BFWJDHSK no omg i literally thought that photo was wonbin, ever since hwa grew his hair out they both look similar to me 😭😭😭

tell ur brother it’s high time yOU DO TOO

NO SERIOUSLY A RICH HUSBAND ME WHEN !!!!!

oh u kinda slapped w that list, was crying over mr taxi today 😭😭😭

stOP it bc that’s what’s happening w me!!! everyone’s off age and now it’s just straight up wedding season, it begins next year and it won’t end until 17 others get married fhskdhdk the get togethers are about to be a blast but so is the drama 😭

HE DOES REMIND ME OF HIM 😭😭😭 I CANT ESCAPE THEM BRWKHDWK

[protegetapaix]

4/10/23

1.20pm - morning,i woke up with puffy eyes,ikutkan hati nak duduk rumah nangis je but okaylah kuatkan diri,i deserve this trip. Im sti angry,hurt. I feel like you chose this trip over me by not even coming for me while youre still here. But part of me understands why ypu want it so bad,just that you couldnt understand on my end that,i let you go on the trip,but at that exact moment my emotions took over me my overthinking god. and you didnt came for me,you didnt understood me. im sorry for the hurtful words i said,but on my end i can still be angry,because you didnt came for me,you always do,you promised the lasy fallout we had would be the last where you didnt come for me.In the end i still came for you,i waited hours. I have to shower now bye

2.34pm - i reach jb alr sayang,so funny i uldated the gc i alr at checkpoint and they wtf and insisted to follow,tbh idw them fllw bcs got nad n ipan gf but im like wtv,part of me also thought if they came maybe youd come at night but my bad your bus is the next morning..

2.54pm - baru lepas custom sg now in bus to go jb

3.18pm - baru lepas custom jb now changing money den grab to sogo,our fav place

3.35pm - i reached sogo and bought my contact lenses alr rm500 worth of it wtfwtf hahahahah. I miss you

3.45pm - im at popular now to buy stationaries for my book hehe

4.33pm - idk how long i spent in there but damn i was pretty long your friends all waiting for me alr but idc. I didnt know which colours were nice,if you were here youd probably knew which one suits me right.. but i bought the rare beauty blusher ive always wanted and their lipstick too,i picked a pinkish shade smth i would nvr go for but the pink is quite subtle,cant waitt to show you hehe hopefully.

4.44pm - eventho da lambat.. i bought coffee HAHHAAHHAHA the one we bought at angsana but i bought the spanish latte yumyum

9.19pm - we reached the ikan bakar olace alr,the whole time we always infer about you here and there wishing you were here and allsz mostly me eh,cfm they annoyed sia lowkey but we hoping can come w youu.

Also ipan gf syirah spill sm tea sia.. even about nad…. HAHAHAHAHAHA

11.23pm - ok we at pasar karat now

1.13am - ok we home bebs i bought so much thrift shirt and i even bought for afiya n dania bubble bubblleee gun sehhhh HAHAHAH cant wait to show u,i walk around alone while they see see here there hehe healing siot

1.30am ok now i just at balcony smoking they karaoke all

1.50am im with them kat sofa they singing sad songs for me cb we even recorded a vid for u so u can watch when we go here tht next time. Why never see this airbnb sooner seh cfm fun sia with jusy you got board games ,karaoke projector all ohmyyy cant waitbfor your bday also seh

6/10/23

12.20am - im finally in sg sayang,my heart felt so heavy otw home knowing when i reach home i would break down god i miss you my amsyar

1.11am - i reached home idk what time im sorry for not updating,but i cleaned my thrash all to keep my mind off things,you specifically. Yet i still cried when i did all that.

3.28am - i love how im dking this,helps me cope seh its as though im talking to you but i have so much tea to tell you sia abiiii

11.50am - i in 187 now,i hope you enjoy your day today with your friends,jangan buat bukan2… i had major diarrhea jn damn and i also asked rusyd for off alr.

4.16 - i ended break already,i ate tangled hehehehe ok ttyl

8.48pm- I was smoking when she textsd me ,you broke my fucking heart. My love and trust for you. I ended things off with mama papa for real already,they kept asking convincing my heart couldnt take it in anymore i felt so numb till they just said,sarah sayang amsyar kan ? Sabar lah sikit ,sikit je insyaallah. I just teared and gave my salam and ended. I felt so bad they had so much more to say they kept saying eh eh dengar ni hahahaha,my heart cant.

i hope it was worth it my amsyar :)

[girltomboy]

My bf found out last week that he actually did end up passing the year and graduating, all he has to do now is to prolong his studies so that he can pass all the other exams he failed. Which is amazing news and I'm really proud of him and happy for both him & his family, but I can't help STILL being a tiny bit sad & disappointed for him that he didn't get to participate in the graduation ceremony. I mean I know he and his family try to act like just because it's symbolic then it's meaningless and useless, but I also know it would've meant something to just have that 1 thing. Idk. U mean to tell me his mom made a big deal out of convincing him not 2 cut his hair when he barely JOKED about it once because she wanted to see him with a graduation cap on his long hair. And now suddenly it's meaningless? Okayyyy. But anyway, he called me at work to let me know <3

And last week while I was out with my coworker my friend called me to invite me this weekend over at his apartment to hang out with him and our other friend. Long time no see, etc. So I was like cool see u Saturday. And Saturday comes and my bf tells me he had a talk with our other friend and he told me I can't know. It's about something I shouldn't know about. And I was like wtf?? Are we not all friends? Why can I specifically not know about it? And he kept playing serious and I got upset bc of it so he had to tell me tht my friends were planning a surprise for me :(((( bc 1 of them was not in town on my bday and the other one just didn't remember so they felt bad and wanted 2 do something for me. Which was like. Not necessary bc birthdays were not always super huge and important in our friend group, but lately they have been bc we have been making them so. And they made me a t-shirt with a meme I created on it and an inside joke of ours on the back which was so funny and I love the pic they chose :(((( and a grinder that's just like the one my bf has. And we had some drinks and snacks and had a nice evening and it was such a warm experience 2 have with my friends! I love my friends and tbh this rly solidified my trust in them. I feel bad for getting upset w my bf when he was just trying 2 preserve the secret tho. But I do NOT like getting treated differently in the name of a surprise, however well-intentioned it may be!

[cruisinmississippin]

"He's a prophet and a pusher, partly truth, partly fiction. A walking contradiction"

Martin Scorsese's Taxi Driver is a lot like a modern day interpretation of The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger almost. Idk if anyones noticed, if its purely coincidental, or if Scorsese was ever a big Salinger fan ka pa ka, but yeah thats my 1st impression. Theyre so similiar! So at the very least, I feel like Scorcese was probably writing a grown up version of Holden Caufield or something despite the impossibility of the logistics that might come up.

1. Both Holden and Travis live in a world peopled by phonies/scums. Both of them often repeated these words throughout their stories.

2. Both have scenes where they DELIBERATELY hire a prostitute only to REFUSE engaging in any sexual activities with the said prostitute for whatever reason

3. Both have come up w fake names at 1 point in their stories.

4. Both are lonely n lost young men. They dont know wtf theyre doin with their lives.

5. Both lived in NYC. Loool

6. Both are protective of a young girl in their lives? Holden's was his little sister Phoebe, n Travis' was literally a young girl who became a prostitute.

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But what I don't get entirely is that this is the movie tht Robert DeNiro got so famous for other than his performance in The Godfather I guess. This is the line that everybody wanted to replicate in jest. THE LINE:

My take on it is that if another director were to come up with a revised vers of the story in this day and age, I think it would be impossible to escape from portraying the character as an INCEL inclined character. The textbook vers of incels youd read about in articles n documentaries after mass shootings had occured.

But back to the quote, its rather convenient for us audience to associate the man with the quote because yeah

-its weird tht he goes out on his way to respect n protect women but also regularly frequents the XXX movie theatre??? Even going so far to bring his date into one pretty early in the film.

-the haircut he sports at the later part of the film would help signify n justify some hate crimes n anti establishments movements from him? But instead he mantains that he's patriotic n optimistic about CHANGE throughout.

-speaking of patriotism. He was a marine, claims to love n support certain politicians but doesnt pay enough attention to the policies presented, doesnt keep up with the news, but is strangely passionate n radical about change. Using firearms. How very American 😅🖖🏻🤣 violence first, questions later.

-im still not done on how both un-American and American he is. But lemme demonstrate in simple words using USA's own amendments:

1. The right to pursue happiness, no matter the gender, skin colour, yadayada every US citizen is ordained for that right first n foremost in their constitution

2. The right to bear arms. For protection purposes ofcourse. No comment on that, the news n the number of mass shootings tht continue to happen is nuff said.

But yeah, therein lies the contradiction within him. Him n whatever he chose to do at the end is both him exercising his rights as a fellow American, whilst he's also sort of denying his Other fellow Americans to their rights.

🤔🤔🤔

Also,

Id like to also point out how strange n unrealistic tht a young Robert DeNiro was casted to portray a guy who cant get any connection because he's socially awkward. He was way too cute to play tht part yall there I said it. 😀 Guy looked like that strugglin to get girls? Nice try Scorsese.

[mccarthymolly]

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