#im like :) god i wish that were me

[flintbian]

There's a disabled angel in good omens 🥺

[inkskinned]

one of the things about the trends and the body image and all of it is that. you can't unsee it. and it doesn't matter that you know logically it's stupid and that logically any person who has a problem with your body can fuck off and die, but it's almost like gore. you flinch even knowing the blood onscreen is fake. you sense a pain that was invented. your body creates the phantom sensation - this thing should be avoided. so okay.

it's not that you won't wear the skinny jeans or the choker or whatever isn't "in style" anymore. and sometimes the demands are so buckwild that you can just ignore them, plain and simple.

but you do think twice sometimes. you do notice things about yourself you hadn't even considered. you notice the hip dips and the shape of your cheekbone and the skin over your eyes. it's been pointed out to you - so you notice. and sometimes it's like fuck you i look fucking amazing and sometimes it's like nobody even remembers that being a thing probably and sometimes - it's fucking devastating. like someone drew a bright red circle around each insecurity. on those days, you wonder - does anyone else see?

because the blame is on you either way. you have a terrible catch-22. if you want to fit in, it's on you to be sure that you look good, that your makeup isn't the "heinous" 2016 style (even if that's the style that flatters you), that your bodyfat settles in the appropriate landmap. and at the same time: it is also on you to ignore the programming. it is on you to get over your decades of social exposure to a trillion-dollar industry and just not care! about these things.

in the comments of course there are people who would advise you nothing with nuance. just ignore it! sure. nobody actually cares about these things. absolutely. this isn't how normal people look. of course not, you know that. you weren't born yesterday. you know about the photoshop and the pricetag and the brand manager.

but like. the media still exists. there are videos on how to manage your hip dips (your skeleton. you know it's your skeleton, and it doesn't matter, does it, because it has a name now, doesn't it?) and how to finally correctly wear the clean-girl-trend and how to have enough money to wear the latest "casual outfit". there are videos critiquing your entire generation for how you dress. how "cringe" it is to wear a certain style of necklace. an influencer says - let's be honest! nobody cares if you just have confidence!

but people do care. you've seen it. you know they care. you've been made fun of enough. it's not, like, a horrible sin to just want to fit in. it's not saying anything new to say i just don't want to be made fun of.

somewhere along here, you learn - your body is more like an accessory. not a home, not a sensation. it is an object like mom jeans or opera gloves. something to manipulate, not something to love.

[r0semultiverse]

MOMMY SORRY MOMMY SORRY MOMMY-😳

my soul is all yours 😳👉👈

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

misc oldish scribbles i found of these two being Sweet <3

[logans-mormon-blog]

Before my transition, I used to post on here abt how angry I was that I had a body, how I couldn't believe I'd agreed to it in the preexistance, how I couldn't understand how getting a body was part of the plan of salvation when it felt like a punishment. But now that I have transitioned and had top surgery too, my body DOES feel like a temple. It's the damndest thing. Is this what cis people have been feeling this whole time? My body feels like a gift, it feels loving and beautiful and it makes me confident. And not only that, but I can't shake this bone-deep feeling that transitioning, having top surgery, has brought my body closer to its eventually perfected state. I feel like I've glimpsed exaltation in the BECOMING of it, in the way it has changed from something so hated to something that feels so holy. I wish I could make some people in the church see what im seeing. It's like I've pulled away a curtain and behind it is the missing piece of the gospel, the part of the plan that I fit in. How could this not be what god wants when i feel him so strongly in my transition, to the point I get goosebumps to even think too deeply about it. If only they could feel what I'm feeling, they'd know how RIGHT it is! I want to stand on top of a building and scream it. All along, I WAS a child of god! All along, he had a plan for ME! These are not empty words!

[buwheal]

I'm sorry, Spamton. I know you won't believe me, but I'm sorry we hurt you.

[silverskye13]

I had a dream last night that me and Docm77 were trapped in a warzone and he tackled me to the ground to save me from gunfire and then together we took out like ten guys.

I'm sure this says something about my psyche and that something is that if I ever met Docm77 in real life I think we would commit war crimes.

[destructix]

study ft. some familiar faces ;-)

[spookythesillyfella]

i keep thinking about making digitaltime content but .. i don't know what to do ... :[

anyway that one text post made me think of my colin birthday art so yk . whatever . i am okay with that .

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[muzzlemouths]

people who draw art to go with their fics hold so much power

[dasinclair]

it appears it's just you, me, and science. shall we begin?

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

[mxdotpng]

the progression of events in this arc is so so good and great and i love how you can just clearly see where and how each characters thoughts begin and progress throughout each chapter as it goes on. while steven was probably set in stone about his view on how to handle the situation i earnestly believe zed and zapp set out to disobey steven's request. and then they make it very easy to understand leo's point of view and why hes doing what he is - its why they show us that flashback and don't tell anyone else, and why he speaks very little after zapp threatens him - and then immediately cuts to klaus, who knows absolutely nothing about the situation currently but he can figure it out just by looking at whats in front of him. and because klaus is so unflinching when it comes to upholding what he believes is morally right he does so without anyone needing to tell him whats going on. he sees this percieved 'monster' protecting someone else and immediately goes to protect it, too. and even though a lot of them disagreed with each other at the beginning there is still the scene afterwards where they all come together to try and catch each other when they begin falling. i think nightow should pay me for what its done to my mental health

[puppyeared]

i feel shy talking here when i dont have anything worth sharing but i cant help feeling like ive said things in the tags that could be brought up in court

[pothospant]

his default recall is so cool..........

[enhanced-operatives-division]

This blog is gonna end up posting purely Prism stuff at this rate ..good lord