#im so sick to my stomach

[prettyboykatsuki]

BY THE WAY. THIS IS THE DIALOGUE WHEN YOU ASK WHAT YOU ARE TO HIM IN ACT 2.

[god-has-entered-my-body]

im so glad mpind matty exists otherwise i wouldve left the fandom about twelve minutes ago matty healy when i catch you matthew timothy healy FUCK

[hotgirlstiles]

even in stiles dreams he is sad and vulnerable and small and lonely but derek will always come.. derek will always be there for him…. In every universe derek will always be there for him and to comfort him and to love him…………..

[patheticrafeenjoyer]

a (kind of) brief analysis of the ward-rafe comparison, it's truth, and it's impact on rafe from this scene/ep (cont'd below the cut)

no bc the like mouth gaped open in shock and disbelief at the comparison.... like he looks both so thankful to hear that and so shocked about it. and this is the first time he meet carla, and it's the first thing she says to him..... like i'm certain she doesn't know rafe's psychological odds and ends, but that being rafe's first impression of her immediately warms him to her.

all he wants is to be like ward, to make him proud, to look up to the man who he fucking idolizes (and so many other things but those things are not pertinent to this post), and this person who doesn't know him immediately says "you look a lot like your father" (the subtext of that is "you're a lot like your father") and rafe is so clearly floored.

being like ward means that ward will finally be proud of him, will finally see him, and it's all rafe fucking wants. (and here's the thing, they're already so similar in so many ways, evident from the viewer, but less from the characters themselves i think).

and i can't even talk properly about the implications of grief that rafe's dealing with here. he's lost his purpose in life, he can't see his dad anymore, but he's dressing like him in a very ward-esque shirt, just to search him out in the mirror. and before this he dons ward's jacket, promising that "i'll step in. i'll do the job" before he crumbles and sheds the jacket in realization that he can't fill ward's shoes with Cameron development in shambles like this, but with carla's comment it comes back again). i doubt he can see it himself (dad's shoes that are just impossible to fill), but someone else points it out, so maybe his connection is not all the way lost.

it's just like, the way his gaze goes straight to carla's face like he's searching out a lie (or trying to search out the truth behind her words), and there's clearly this crazy conflict going on in his mind. it's hearing the one thing you've waited forever to hear unexpectedly, he's completely taken aback.

[and i think this is a lot of the reason rafe works with them, and once the cross is on the table he's like 'wait, dad loved money and he was so happy with the gold, imagine what he'd think when i get the fucking cross!' and it gets him even further on their side.]

i'll have to watch the limbrey/rafe interactions in s2 more closely to collect my thoughts on the breaking of their partnership, but here's some of my more general thoughts on it:

i think to some degree maybe carla figures out that the ward comparrisons will keep ward loyal to her, so in the hanger before everything goes to shit, she tells him "you really are your father's son" and he is.

rafe is attracted to them because what they're offering will get him in ward's good books (even post ward-death, he can't shake that desire), and once that's threatened (in the airplane hangar) things start to sway. he's interested in their power and their ability to get him his share of the cross. first, renfield sort of takes charge and rafe gravitates towards him because he holds the most power in the situation, and then carla shoots renfield and that power just disappears, so rafe looks for the next closest source of that power; which, in this case is carla. initially he starts going back to her, then it clicks that he can just take the power for himself. carla is stuck on the floor, and the cross is just his to take, so he takes it. bye bye carla and bye bye renfield. rafe now just doesn't have a share, he can have the whole thing!

and ward was their provider, their protector, their everything. but he's gone now, and the family is in debt. ward isn't around to dig them out of this hole. rafe has to step up here. getting the cross will solve all of their financial problems and then some! rafe can take the whole cross and get all of it for them, finally filling ward's shoes like he wants to.

back to when carla says in the hangar "you really are your father's son": i don't think rafe knows about the ward-big john drama and i don't think he knows about whatever betrayal ward did to carla, but by emphasizing about "remember our cut of the deal" and then just taking the whole thing is him really really being like ward. and it's a completely a thing he does unconsciously.

but regardless, he takes the cross and gets it back to the family, so in his mind he's filled ward's shoes, and he's like giddy about it to rose on the phone. he got it all sorted for them, just like ward would. rafe's done it!

i just love this tiny little moment so very much and i feel like it says so much about rafe and even ward.

i will note that after all of this, the fact that we didn't get to see rafe's reaction to finding out that ward actually was alive is so upsetting. (like, when they're loading the cross on the boat, i'm sure he doesn't know ward's alive, but by the time sarah wakes up, rafe knows, so it happened at some point between these two moments and the fact that we didn't see it fucking blows). drew would've bodied that i'm so sure about it and we were ROBBED!

[it also would give us way more insight into rafe's psyche, because not much time has passed from when he's had to fill the ward role, and even less time has passed since he finds out ward's alive and we see him again, but we don't really get to see much of his shift. i guess it would just end up being a lot of flip-flopping of filling ward's shoes, to having ward back, to then having to step up again once ward's injured. so, i guess it'd just have to be a lot of rafe focus that takes away from the pogues, but i'd love to see how the back and forth fucks with his head even more than normal.]

i guess this is ending on a pretty ambiguous note, but if anyone has some other insight and ideas i'd love to read or talk about it.

[dumbbunnii]

accidentally streamed my tumblr to my friends and they saw the terrible stuff I'm into LOL I'm so sick to my stomach

[mossmotif]

the place i work at has streaming websites blocked...im going to scream

[ilostyou]

thinking of any relationship ending as "it had just run its course" makes me so physically ill

[thestrongestjewel]

doodles of them!

they are so important to me i dont think you guys understand- how insane I actually am about their friendship and how it just

broke

it was never meant to happen but it did anyway,,,, ahhhh i gotta love when a character's relationship is doomed by the narrative whahhh

their friendship- auhgrh THE POTENTIAL THEY HAVEEE I NEED MORE PPL TO TALK ABOUT THEM

[threadsoflacee]

love it when hannibal is so obviously about to cry but he bites his lip to keep it in . and this always happens when he is looking at will. very good example down Below :

[buckysbarnes]

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[cryptcoop]

Boo

[ef-1]

Everyone moved on but I stayed there

[hushedclan]

so um. moon 9, huh? what? i’m not crying, of course not! just have a little something in my eye, that’s all

back first next

[lgbtiwtv]

he didn’t even think she could dream.

he spent 70 years thinking she didn’t dream. he believed the lies she told herself just like he believes the lies he tells himself. he didn’t think she would lie. he didn’t think about how she suffered too, how she needed the stories too. how she’s a complete person with fears and hopes, how she would lie to herself to get through the pain of life just like everyone else. he forgot so much of her, so much of the realities of everyday life that he believed her when he himself witnessed otherwise. he didn’t even think she could dream

[claudiadpdl]

madeleine choosing to die with claudia rather than live without her, hearing claudia cry for louis as he was dragged away, watching claudia and madeleine burn to death on that stage, holding one another tight and having whispered their last loving words only loud enough for the other to hear, claudia refusing to let any of them see her in her weakest moment....lestat's face being the last thing claudia fucking saw as she held madeleine's ashes in her hands and succumbed to the sun's rays........

[wntryoongs]

I'm so mentally unstable rn I need my parents back.

Bonus— cat dad Bucky: