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⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ 𝐓𝐔𝐍𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓.
゛star-crossed lovers. they, who shall defy the stars ⸝⸝.ᐟ⋆
“love can be just as fickle as fate itself my child. but some day, you may very well come across a wrinkle amongst this finely woven tapestry that is your fate. it won’t be something you notice at first, and you will simply carry on with your days as usual — perhaps they’ll feel a little brighter. the moon always does appear more luminous when it’s accompanied by the stars after all. but when you do take notice of that wrinkle, that loose thread, i wonder … will you sever it as though it were nothing but a flaw in the fate’s design? or will you unthread your tapestry and weave a new one from that single thread?”
ah … i think i finally understand what you meant by those words now, master. to be honest.. i was scared. fate has never been a kind friend to me and so out of fear, i wanted to sever it—sever this. but now that i’m standing here in his arms, melting from this kiss and how it deepens ever so slightly, not with urgency but reverence, each soft press of his lips a whispered oath … i won’t just weave us a new tapestry, i’ll weave our entire future together.
i can no longer imagine a world in which this precious star of mine burns out. i love him — unbearably and so very, very tenderly.
🎨 →⠀﹐⠀╱⠀that wonderful illustration you see above there was created by the lovely artist Pengu1nHero on vgen!! aaaa honestly they equally surprised me with informing me these piece was finished🥹staring at it has me kicking and giggling my feet along with making my heart flutter ?? TYSM ONCE AGAIN TO THE ARTIST GO CHECK THEM OUT AND SUPPORT <3
#`✧. 𝓣𝐔𝐍𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓. ╱ ❛ amethyst dreamt.#divider creds: strangergraphics !!#06/06/2024 ♡#SURPRISE !! HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THE STAR-CROSSED LOVERS 🤍💫#uwaaaa.. honestly there’s so much i want to say🥹one year ago this little troublesome star boy wandered his way unexpectedly into my life ..#and has not left since ( everyone who remembers the sethos incident will take my word on this LMAO )#it’s hard to believe a year has past since his release already 0.0 just a few months ago i was reeling over the fact we ..#were finally getting his official birthday art soon and now here we are with amethos’ one year anni#the moment i received the art i instantly found that boost of inspiration and motivation i feared not having for this day hehe ..#AND IM SO GLAD I DID BECAUSE I REALLY LOVE HOW THIS SMALL BLURB TURNED OUT <3#to give a bit of context ;; the person speaking at the beginning is andersdotter! a mage of the hexenzirkel who was amélie’s master ..#growing up and was a conversation they both had in the past when she was much younger than now mostly around her early teen years#i love talking about fate when it comes to genshin because it has such a unique take on it but also .. i love amethos as star-crossed lover#following that quote is of course amé speaking ! all of this is but a small peek into not only their first kiss but also their confession .#which as i mentioned in their selfship chart was a very stressful moment for them going from a fight to the confession ultimately in the en#gosh.. the way he’s holding her .. I LOVE IT WHEN THEY DO THE GRABBING THEIR CHIN/NECK THING DURING KISSES ..#IT MAKES ME SO UNWELL AND GIDDY >///< yet when it comes to describing a kiss in writing i struggle ;-;#hopefully that isn’t noticeable in this case i tried chat 💔#also major thank you to ayame for helping me come up with a title for all this! <3#raising my glass to these two lovers .. here’s to many more joyful years to come for them 💕#proposal art next year chat? /j … maybe ?👀#REWRITE THE STARS IS SO AMETHOS CODED BTW UEUEUEUE🥹
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really really crunchy to me that calienne, who is bastien's daughter and gaspard's wife, is 1) in the same age range if not the exact same age as vivienne and 2) is responsible for the deaths of both of celene's parents. bastien was also a gaspard supporter when it was still being decided on who would take the throne. vivienne was made court enchanter the same year celene's parents were killed, calienne was killed in retaliation, and celene became empress. much to think about.
#kicks feet. do you think it was a powermove on celene's end to get vivienne on her side. what do you think bastien felt about it. how do you#think vivienne felt about it. much to consider#i have the personal hc of both vivienne and calienne being 20 when vivienne first met bastien- making them both#24 when#calienne dies and vivienne becomes court enchanter- give or take a few months or so.#laurent in my hc is two years younger than them. trying to build off of the canon dates we have and give them some inch resting#parallels with vivienne and calienne being the same age and both being involved with much older men.#can you tell im reading masked empire again#vivienne#vivienne de fer#celene valmont#bastien being a gaspard supporter and vivienne then allying herself with celene..... drama.#scheduling this post for tomorrow heart
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also i have learned as my kid grows up that being a parent if you are traumatized by your own parents lol it actually is so hard because you can’t hide anymore from anything that happened to you even if you think you forgot it. it will come back as you watch your kid grow up, talk back, try to assert themselves, become people. i think i forgot something and it comes back as i parent my own kid. and that means that when i was a kid my parents also had to work through something similar but instead of actually working through it they just kicked the can down the road and never looked at it and kept repressing and suppressing because it is easier than looking directly at ugly trauma and actually thinking about it. i think trying to be a good parent is more important than hiding from the things that have happened to me even though it’s really hard and i wish my own parents had felt the same
#rowan trauma dump#sorry!! it’s 7am LOL#also I’ve been ignoring my parents for like maybe a whole month now because every time i think i guess i should call them#i remember something#and then im mad#i wish I never had to talk to them again#but i think there will be a time soon when i wont have to#so maybe i can just bear this for a few more years until the lord takes care of the rest for me or whatever lol#maybe i should write a poem about this#i used to write poems in my diary when i was younger but then I had to throw it away#i think ill never stop being angry about all this#im 33 soon and i just keep getting angrier#i thought I would achieve grace when i was older but its just getting further and further away from me
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finding out ur coworker is way older than you thought and having to very quickly reorient how you talk to them
#art#traditional art#watercolour#fanart#synthv#synthesizer v#genbu#kasane teto#rikka is also here :) i think she likes to cause problems sometimes. because all the adults in her life are dweebs#and very easy to cause problems with <3#anyone else have this happen before. im older than a lot of my university peers and i always have been#because i took 5 years in highschool and my undergrad has been like 6 years and counting#(hashtag learning disability <3 ) and like thats chill to me i dont mind#but now i usually assume everyones way younger than me and i get shocked when theyre not. a buddy in some of my classes#when i first met her i absolutely and completely assumed she was like barely 19 and talked to her as such#like i dont talk down to people or anything but i do soften the way i talk a bit and give a bit extra patience with younger peers#cause yknow. i remember what it was like being 19. being 26 is WAY easier lol so i wanna give em a bit of leeway yknow#anyway a few months after meeting her i found out she was actually a year older than me and a grad student when she ended up as a TA in#another class i took. i felt so bad. we bonded tho and she didnt mind she thought it was kinda funny when i was like WAIT UR A GRAD STUDENT#i thought she was like a first or second year undergrad..............#also yeah im a 31yo teto fan. i dont mind the popular fanon that she has a separate age that makes her actually 15 and#i dont mind that more interpretations have her like that BUT for my internal canon she is a grown ass woman because i think its fun <3#she pays taxes. she goes to work parties. she can rent a car. i love it#let teto rent a car. let her rent a car.#yknow im exicted to be 31. i still got a few more years of being a 20 something which is fun. but being a 30 something sounds like it rules
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hilbert and hilda's baby brother, colress's naive apprentice, interpol's little tool, what can't this guy be! well-adjusted, apparently.
#pokemon#trainer nate#pokemon bw#pokemon bw2#unova#nate#art#how he appears circa 2017#and his middle name is tobias#the arm pictured here was made by colress hence the overloading with tech. didnt draw it here but im leaning towards the idea that a large#blade or sharp-edged shield can extend from the outer side of it. maybe you can imagine what that arm was modeled after with that in mind#nate smashes it and replaces it later with a more standard prosthetic towards the end of/after the kyubert arc#AND rosa is also his sister. younger than him by a few months. but their clashing extreme mechanisms of coping led to them falling out#this will be remedied after hilbertverse's canon concludes. thumbs up emoji
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me when im jealous of a fucking fictional character’s ed like a dumbass
#they gave his weight and height bruh i can calculate his bmi#its like#kinda crazy low#like i think 10.9 when he gets hospitalized fr#although he eats more than me and lost less weight than me lol#cuz bro was legit always underweight#uh#he was like 121 initially and then ended at 74#wait nope nvm thats not less than me fuck#uh time to get competitive! yippee (fuck me)#wait nvm im fucking stupid#thats a comparable amt of weight to the amt i lost in a somewhat comparable time frame#like its 3 lbs more than me in around a month less but tbf i spent 6 months in quasi recovery/high restriction so leave me alone#so this is one of those ‘its only an ed if ur sickly underweight’ moments#like#comparing myself to him#weve had eds for comparable time frams (his is on and off for 6 yrs mine for 5 but with the same onset time)#(actually i was younger by a few months lol)#wait nvm i forgot im entering my 6th yr of being mentally ill yippee happy birthday to me ig#lmao#uh similar onset ages similar amount of time with restrictive behaviors similar pattern of on/off restriction similar amount of weight lost#similar lvls of restriction/caloric intake (mines actually like 1/4 of his but that doesnt mean much cuz hes eating like 600 calories a day)#so yeah its a fun ‘eds are only real if ur skinny’ moment lol (hit me with a baseball bat)#hes not fucking real i cant be comparing myself with a fictional guy fuck this#ugh
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I'm glad some of y'all got pissed at me for saying that defending incest is disgusting because I will stand by that wholeheartedly until the day I die.
I'm glad I know which of you have a few cogs that ain't turning correctly. If your immediate reaction to finding that kind of stuff isn't disgust then I'm sorry, you and me are wired differently and I want nothing to do with you.
#where do you draw the line with fiction? cp? fuck oooooffffff bro#especially with the way theyd draw it#with mario just very blatantly taking advantage of luigi thats disgusting#that kind kf shit destroys familys btw!!!#destroyed mine even worse than it already was. how fun. oh but! its only fiction guys#and. this is the mario fandom. yall were mutuals of mine for a long time and i KNOW how many minors follow all of us#youd think with a few of you pushing 30 youd be more inclined to want to keep the younger folk in the community safe#but choosing to engage with the people whove showed very little remorse for their actions really. in fact#has straight up said they don't care about peoples concerns really shows yalls trues colors#and theyre fucking muddy#sorry to dig up dirt from a month ago but unlike them. im not chronically online enough and apparently missed the fact that some of-#-the folk im following are okay with that kind of content 👎
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Lloyd would make fun of all the ninja for being older than him he would make constant jokes about them being fossils, needing coffins, or being old and wrinkly and they'd retaliate by making fun of him for being younger
#lego ninjago#ninjago#lloyd garmadon#ninjago lloyd#im saying this bc i make fun of people even just a month older than me#i also make fun of anyone younger btw#i will either call you a fossil or a fetus theres no in between#by people btw i mean my moots on twitter I'm always bullying them for their age#ik wyldfyre canonically made fun of kai for his age but they have a larger gap than lloyd would have#and its funnier when someone within a few years age range bullies u for ur age
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a singular comment left on Things Bloom has kicked me in the ass to finish this chapter and im reminding myself that sam GREW UP in the midwest and therefore he is able to clock all this passive aggression from this woman. rewriting segments with this in mind
#1. psa to always leave comments. its been almost 2 months and a singular person going 'o wow' made me go AH I SEE#2. im talkin shit like 'she's older than me but she's calling me 'miss' in order to 1 make a barrier between us being friends and 2 to show#that im younger than her and therefore below her and 3 because i had a child out of wedlock and she doesnt like that so shes pointing out#that ive never been married'#like sam would clock ALL that just from being called 'miss o'flanagan'#maybe he wouldn't have when he first got here. but hes been here a few days and being re-steeped in it he DEFINITELY would now
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Being the middle child goes so hard 🙃
#noone thought to invite me to my brothers birthday dinner#just thought to ask why im not there#maybe because no one fucking told me about it?#havent seen my mum since Christmas and have changed maybe ten messages since then#yet she has all the time in the world to go see my brother and younger siblings#last month i was supposed to go to my younger siblings flat to catch up but one said they were super busy so it would have to be in a -#couple weeks time which was fine but then they invite my flatmate over for drinks the next weekend and not me and it was still about a -#month till i was invited#i aleeady live a half hour drive from them all but fuck me do i feel like putting a few hours between us#like genuinely whats the point?#im not even angry im just so sad#anyways you lot dont need to deal with all that#least i have this page to put this sort of stuff on though
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this is so funny to me actually bcuz this is 100% how i talk abt my characters ages. i know what YEAR they were born and i know what rheir ages are supposed to be at the start of the story but i dont actually know when it takes place?? im really bad at math. There was a moment where rainbow was supposed to be 23 and i somehow accidentally made her 17 lmfao
#theoretically it would take place in 2021 bcuz thats when i created my object ocs but the more time passes#the weirder it feels to have it take place years in the past#i considered moving up their birthdays by a few years but like. idk i like their birthdays theyre cute :3#bubblegum is SUPPOSED TO BE 15 and she was born july 2007#watermelon is supposed to be 7 and he was born june 2014#etc etc#starr is 27 and she was born september uhhh 1995 or 1997 i actually dont remember. whichever one makes sense#also that would mean building block was born in 2020 and since she's always gonna be a baby the furhter away we get#it means that she wouldnt have even been born when the story is actually supposed to take place. Like#i know their birthdays and their ages and what year they were born everybody else has to do the math#to figure out wtf is going on because I DONT KNOW#also that means that building block would be a pandemic baby lmao 😭#what was rhe vibe in nigeria in august 2020 during the pandemic. well i say that like it even happened in their universe#which there really isnt any reason for that to be true#it isnt historically important to mention like..... world war two or slavery or whatever. fucking obviously. in the context of objects#it gets messy so its better to just Not#also the months the characters were born really fuck me up bcuz jayden was born in late december#so for most of the first year that they met he would be.... younger than he actually is being born in 2003#but since building's block birthday and exact age is the most important timeline-wise#and she was born august 14th 2020 and she's seven months old when they first meet#then it canonically would take place in march 2021 which was my original intention#bcuz that is the actual date that i first created my object ocs#ANYWAY. boring character age ramblings#but its hard to keep track of so i dont even blame the author!!!! birthdays are weird and hard to keep up w/#when you dont know exactly when your story is supposed to take place#assuming its in a normal-ish world im sure fantasy ocs dont have this problem#txt#object ocs
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the vet today really tried to talk me into paying $600 for the same service they provided for my mom and her dog a few months ago for under $100
#they told me the urine sample i got from my dog at home for a uti test wasn't sterile enough#but it was not an issue in the slightest when my mom did it#THEY told me to get the sample and then i got there and they were like#'um actually 🤓 we'd prefer if you let us use an ultrasound to find her bladder and extract the sample with a needle ourselves'#'we only have to use anesthesia if she struggles too much' kay well she will struggle bc she hates being put on her back#and you can't give her anesthesia cause she's an old dog with cancer#and also im not giving you 600 fucking dollars when you did this exact same test for my mom a few months ago#using a sample she brought from home#what the fuck?#text post#and the more i denied it the more it was like 'well....'#'well we're really just looking for the presence of red and white blood cells alongside bacteria so it should be fine i guess'#'well we'd really want to do that test to find out the specific bacteria but since this isn't a recurring problem it should be fine'#'well if it comes back after she's done with the antibiotics then we'll know it's more complex but we don't have any reason to think that rn#THEN WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO PAY $600#AND WHY DIDN'T YOU PULL THIS SHIT WITH MY MOM?!#is it cause im younger? you think you can convince me bc im young and niave?#my dog is 12 years old and 3 years into a terminal cancer diagnosis#i just need to know if this is a symptom of her body finally shutting down of if she just needs antibiotics
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People are finding out I’m the fakest Pokemon fan ever /hj
#me when I tell people I only started playing X the last few months despite the hyperfixation starting (technically) last year#also when I tell them that this is my first playthrough of it#me when I tell people SWSH was my first Pokemon game 🤯#in my defense I never had a 3DS when I was younger#my sis had a ds but we never got any Pokemon games#I have completed ScarVio and need to finish Platinum#WORKING MY WAY BACKWARDS 💪💪💪#I take my ‘fake’ pokemon fan-ness with PRIDE#I CANT TELL U SHIT ABOUT A POKEBATTLE#BUT OH BOY CAN I TELL U LORE#also like I have a few of the mangas and have seen a good amount of the anime#so I’m mostly kidding when I call myself a fake pokemon fan#also don’t underestimate my neurodivergent-ness when it comes to finding out lore#(also cause there’s so many ways to be a pokemon fan)#LIKE I WILL RESEARCH LORE IF IM INTERESTED IN IT#so I like to think I have a general-ish understanding of the goobers even if I haven’t played against them#what being neurodivergent does to a mf 😪#rainbowpufflez rambles
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catie hello :))) roman empire seb nando au?? saw the sketch you made during suzuka & would love to hear your thoughts!! <3
Aaaah Claire hello!!!! I think you're talking about this one, right?
I joked in the tags "Hadrian and Antonius who?????"so I guess that would be the basis??? Seb is a favorite lover of Fernando's and when he dies, Fernando deifies him 😥
This Seb is obv from a different au, but this would be how I'd vizualize them:

#GODDDDDDD ALTERNATE UNIVERSE - AGE CHANGE#could you imagine Aston Fernando with Toro Rosso Seb?????????? 🫠#but Fernando would be like an older emperor whos very settled in his rule#and then this little twink comes out of nowhere and he falls for him#and then seb dies(retires) and fernando misses him so much AAAGGHHHH#sorry idk if you intended this ask to be made angsty but now it is :)#im just so obsessed with how fernando acted during the last few months of seb's career#hes used to this common presence in his life and he doesnt think too deeply about it#in au: hes had many lovers. how could this one be any different?#but then when its taken from him. thats the moment when he realizes just how important it was#in this au younger seb would revitalize him ig!!#hes a young senator and fernando sees himself in him#and wants to take care of him and treat him like he never was sob sob sob#anyways uh yeah yes those are my thoughts :) i am too tragic today#sorry i domt know why i always put all my deepest ideas and thoughts in the tags ajdkkf#catie.asks.#catie.rambling.txt#vettonso
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I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away
#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd#ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding.#i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way#when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee#but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo#and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards#not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony#my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like#marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there#i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my#parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL)#but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school#nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is#same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL#i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not.#i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds#but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice#i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring#that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases#and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason#you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident#im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like#i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS#i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3#i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔
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ONE MONTH UNTIL I MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#im excited. delighted. screaming. crying. throwing up. etc#i need to work on packing and stuff bcuz now the timer has like officially started#i have a place. im moving to the place. in a month#i literally just got unpacked in my current place but such is life#i currently live with my parents and it is BAD folks#idk how i did this when i was much younger with much less autonomy tbh#but im going!!!!!!! im moving to a very cute. surprisingly queer friendly. very small. town!!#away from my parents. second floor to myself. lovely lady on the first floor. big room! two closets in the room!!!!!!!#closer to the people i love. further feom my parents who i will be going no contact with#i am going to be okay. its like a light at the end of the tunnel but in a good way not a death way#breathing easier knowing that in one month!! just a few weeks!! im gone!!!!!!!#holy cats thats insane#im sure yall will be hearing about this quite a bit for the next month because its all i care about right now#and its looking like (but no guarantees) i can keep my current job remotely! until they find my replacement#which takes a lot of stress off of me. to still have a bit of a job#ill need a second one but at least i might still have this one#its gonna be good. a new beginning. a new place. new people#yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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