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ddocson · 1 year

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Hi ranchers community ............... i am thinking about them

#im posting so muchhh cause if i dont post after i finish the drawing ill never post #i loove you angst ranchers i love you uncontrollable emotional outburts and hurt/comfort #i love you jimmy felt so much pain that it doesnt matter #love you tango so crazy but so caring #anyway #team rancher #double life #double life smp #tangotek #tango tek #solidaritygaming #trafficshipping #forgot to tag that srry #i mean it doesnt have to be but to me it is #mine #Wooow ty guys for the notes on this one too ;; wtf #ddocson hits

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al-luviec · 2 months

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juvie buddies

#alek art #td duncan #td mal #total drama #total drama all stars #(if i want to get technical)#2024 #duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16 #ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different #duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt #scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it #duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here #i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a #gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because #i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont #see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo #but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it #duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his #privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in #juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike #is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon #madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together #duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault #mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a #lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he #knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt #matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify #had me messed up

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casualavocados · 2 months

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Why did you do it? I don't know what you're talking about. I was drunk that night, and you told me you would always look at me— You want to get back at me, right?

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 09

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #louis chiang #chaing tien #jiang dian #nat chen #chen bowen #userspring #userrain #uservid #userspicy #userjjessi #pdribs #*cajedit #*gif #WE LOVE WHEN AI DI IS A BITCH. 10/10 NO NOTES. just. be a freak about it why dont you i love this for him #its actually insane how good of a liar he is. like........he really truly seems so unbothered by everything #but no matter what he says the idea of something casual is the last thing he could ever want. its so painful for him #and he only pushes the idea because he doesnt think chen yi will ever ever love him seriously OR casually #as if the idea of being with him could anger chen yi. SHOULD anger chen yi. because of how preposterous it is #but he also feels like he owes chen yi. like. ai di literally thought that after prison chen yi would never seek him out #would never want to speak to him ever again and he thinks thats BETTER for them too bc he cant take back what he did AND #he cant take back his own vulnerability. but he cant take anything casual with chen yi so he hides behind this facade of being uncaring #that chen yi KNOWS is FALSE and that BREAKS ME. his face as ai di pushes past him.......ow.#a more openly expressive version of 'i know he's lying to me but i dont understand whats going on and that HURTS me' but Extra Painful #because ai di is all chen yi wants. and - 'an explanation'... he wants ai di to want him too

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vaugarde · 3 months

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im abt to rb a post on this anyways but tbh i dont know how you can finish isat and go “siffrin wasnt punished enough”.

the fella has killed themselves several times, what more do you want from him?

#ok yes thats an optional thing you dont have to get. but still #act 5 is basically dragging siffrin through the mud over and over and over and over and over again #what do you MEAN ‘’he wasnt punished enough’’#like yeah what he said was awful and he did do bad things during the loops but like #he was literally killed several times and had to watch bonnie die bc of him…. i think he HAS been punished enough actually #the game ending on such a sweet note after everything hes been through is what made it so impactful to me #also like speaking as someone who has been deeply hurt by ppl having a hard time mentally in a similar way the party was #and took much longer to forgive them… i think what the game gives us in terms of their reaction is just fine #they reserve the right to be mad. he apologized profusely. they all acknowledge that he was experiencing hell and give him some leniency #thats perfectly acceptable to me. if the game said ‘’oh their pain doesnt matter bc they didnt suffer as much as siffrin’’ then thatd be one #one thing #but no. siffrin IS held accountable. just not by going through even more trauma than they have #echoed voice #isat spoilers #suicide mention

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ribbittrobbit · 1 year

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just admiring boggy and being incredibly comforted

#can u tell im rewatching fhsy #bec i am and its hurting me #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #aelwyn abernant #d20 fantasy high #fhsy #ribbittrobbit #dimension 20 #fantasy high #i was really going for the vibes of gwen stacy's coloring but at some point its like... i can't keep tinkering anymore #i dont know color theory #cant u tell #also ik adaine is characterised as neat and stuff but teenage neat is relative #perspective doesnt matter here its al about the vibes #also the rickety-ness is very mordred manor so it could also be intentional #fanart #dropout

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seagull-scribbles · 1 year

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I want you to tell ‘em that you love the way that they don’t stick out like sore middle fingers

[Continuation of this]

#TMNT 2012 #casey jones 2012 #raphael hamato #rasey #this is platonic again but I’m not against romantic subtext or whatever #when I was in school being able to do this with your hand was super cool and I often still do it with both #but I’ve met both adults and kids who’ve never seen it before and it freaks them out ahaha #anyway I was jus thinking of hands again and this is a warm up sketch #but i do think thee two would have heart to hearts on rooftops sometimes and really open up #maybe theyre sat next to eachother and raph looks at his thigh next to Casey’s and gets self conscious #maybe one of them was hurt in a fight (probably Casey) and theyre patching eachother up and they just start exploring their differences #or maybe its something as simple as raph asking casey if he was Tarzan and the scene with the hands and Casey’s like yo we can do that #or even more childish theyre just doing it to see who’s hands bigger because Casey’s sister has been doing it a lot and its fun #because let me tell you it doesnt matter how old the kids i work with are they all love comparing my hand with theirs #but i imagine Raphs eyes for a second would give away hes upset a little cause he’s definitely the most self conscience about being a mutant #so Casey would do this and be like ahh look see we arent that different really #raph could bend his fingers to emphasise how much shorter Casey’s are #and cause would say something like these digits might be small but theyre mighty #leading to a shove or even a thumb war or something #anyway ill stop gushing i have a comission to do xxx #OH OH OH THE BITE MARK ON CASEY IS BECAUSE A MUTUAL COMMENTS ABOUT EATING MY RASEY ART SO THATS THEIR TEETH but im not naming names....

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pup-pee · 7 months

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pancake bunny pancake bunny boakcake buny

mmmmmm paper

#scheduled #everything hurts but yk what doesnt hrut?#drawign bart allen yay #i sitkl cant decide whether longer hair or slightly short looks better #h the eh r literally like the same length but it matters 2 me #i got dragged out 2 do shopping it was the worst im not bing 2 function sense #anywayd this should b skedruled bc i should b asleep by now #im throwing my phone across my room #if any1s 4 some reason rrading the tags gn <33 #sweet dreams or no dreams if thats better #hopefully im zoinked out & honk snoozin #mimimimimimi #i wanna post more but idk art hardd ;;#impulse #bart allen #dc #puppee art

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trashcreatyre · 2 days

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I think the main thing that pisses me off about like 90% of mephiles ships is that people will be like "how old is he??" Look that fanwiki says that he's ten and they RUN with it. Like they don't read further. I'm so convinced that most people don't even know the plot of 06 bc the shit I've seen people draw and write with the characters is just mind boggling.

#trash rambles #like yeah i understand thwt nearly all of the named sonic characters are either minors or unspecified #but like #even if he was actually ten #shipping him with other minor characters would be so weird 😭#plus i dont think it would even matter if he has actually a minor because that uncomfortable power dynamic would still be there with most #other characters #and like #god idk #the amount of dog shit mephiles ships i have to have blocked in my tags is extremely upsetting #LIKE. WDYM?#MARIA??????#STOP IT 😭#tikal makes more sense but that one still makes me uncomfortable #idk i dont even remember all the ones i blocked i just remember that find the maria posts was like #devistating #that and the one person who liked all my 06 posts and was a mephiles and elise shipper (theyre siblings to me so someone like that liking m #art of them is understanbly upsetting)#that being said how old do i think infinite is??? because he doesnt have an official age (that i could find)#personally i think hes anywhere from 19 (at the absolute youngest) to like. early 30s idk 💀#somewhere between thoes idk #the only version of him that has a 100% solid age in my head is for the ghost au and hes 22 in that (bc hes a junior in collage)#n e way #i just woke up so ignore if this is illegible #ugh idk i really try not to be gate-keepy about stuff i like because its annoying but like #i love 06 so much it kinda hurts tl see people just kinda not knowing even the basic plot or like. only going off the fandubs (which i #really enjoy but at a certain point you can only say mephiles is ur favorite and have people quote it at you or in the comments of your 06 #posts so many times before you just like. idk. (also ive had people irl tell me 06 sucks after i told them directly it was my favorite sonic #game??? like??? bro you asked ME.))

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shakingparadigm · 3 months

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In a modern au I think the wagyein would be like one of those gaint ass crocodiles that Ivan gets away with keeping because its technically a service animal. As long as its on a leash its all good and not a threat to the public!!

Ivan being rewarded with a more expensive and unique kind pet like a whole fucking crocodile honestly seems pretty in line for him 😭 especially since it adds a new "chic" flair to his photoshoots and his general aesthetic. Imagine Ivan's new photoshoot drops and he's in a suit posing with a fucking crocodile. Insane.

I really like the imagery of this large, scaly and dangerous looking reptile being tamed as Ivan's pet, something that could help boost his image and push that luxurious, enigmatic vibe. You know, like how stereotypical evil lairs have sharks or other rare and dangerous animals guarding the entrance or simply acting as accessory. That kind of vibe. I also like the imagery of this sharp creature being forced into submission and captivity. Forced to become a good, obedient pet, holding in its urges and keeping its teeth hidden. A being taken from the ruthless, grimy darkness, cleaned and maintained to perfection, forced to perform for the cameras. Ivan can empathize, he knows what it's like.

"Technically a service animal" is fucking hysterical. Ivan going Hello, sir! Please excuse my emotional support 12ft crocodile. Don't worry, he's very well-behaved.

I actually think Ivan would get along very well with his hypothetical crocodile. Just like the wagyein, he'd feel connected to it in a very personal way. Also just like the wagyein I think Ivan would be the only person it would never harm. In my head I have the mental image of Ivan petting and cuddling it as if it were a puppy.

#if ivan owns a crocodile luka would own a snake. like those unique kinds that could probably kill you #mizi would own jellyfish in a large aquarium....#i mean. in a modern au these people would literally be the nepo babies of high class rich people. endless possibilities #also you know that one interpretation of ivan and the wagyein where it's like #ivan embracing the wagyein symbolizes him embracing the idea that he is a “monster” (in his own eyes)#he can understand the wagyein on a deeper level because he is so fundamentally different from everyone else #the wagyein doesnt hurt him. even allowing him to rest in its maw unharmed #while it hurt till enough for him to literally be laying on the ground bruised in the og black sorrow storyboards. it frightens mizi too #thinking about ivans close relationship with danger. how he views himself as someone who can only hurt others #or someone who isnt even deserving enough for the pain he causes to matter to anyone (“you don't care about me”)#i think ivan embracing dangerous creatures while till fights back against them says a lot about both of their personalities #ivan is embracing and giving love to the part of himself that he knows would scare other people away. sharper. raw. intense and uninhibited #something that he has to hide or mask in order to be accepted. just like how the wagyein has to be hidden away from everyone else #SORRY MIGHT BE OOC im not in the best mindstate rn #this is just yhe thoughts in my head atm. no polish. my bad #alnst #alien stage #alien stage ivan #alnst ivan #asks

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rebellum · 1 year

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I feel like... Perhaps... Arguing that transphobia is defined by murder and that anything other than murder doesn't even matter... May NOT be conducive to fighting for trans rights.

Like... people want the right to exist as they are. They want to have access to hrt and surgeries and prosthetics. People want access to clothes that fit them and reflect how they want to be seen. People want access to medical care (eg. Getting screened and treated for sex-based forms of cancer can be impossible if you have the "wrong" sex listed to receive those tests). People want to be respected and treated well. People want to not be sexually assaulted and beaten and abused. People want to have access to housing and jobs, and the protection to not lose those things for being trans. People want access to shelters for homeless people or survivors of domestic abuse. People want name changes.

Acting like all of those things don't matter because at least they weren't murderered by an individual (and instead die of suicide or state violence, or survive and suffer) isn't okay.

#'hey people are forcibly detransitioning you and raping and beating you and you lost your job and are going to be homeless and #probably die of infection from being stabbed for trying to go to the bathroom. but at least you arent part of a demographic that has a #higher murder victim rate! shhh just ignore that we dont actually have data on the murder rate of your group.'#do ppl like. forget state based violence exists. and that thats most violence minorities face.#idk man im just. mad about people on here acting like youre only oppressed if youre a perisex trans woman who was AMAB.#cause i exist at the intersection of multiple minorities and being told hey u experience violence but at least you wont be murdered by an #individual feels like a slap in the face.#like it doesnt matter if i have to mask my neurodivergent behaviour bc if people see they could assume im on drugs and call the police and #i could potentially be really hurt but not die but hey at least i wont die just be horrifically traumatized by police brutality!#there are millions of people with mental illnesses similar to my own around the world who are institutionalized and forcibly medicated or #living on the streets or dependant on horrifically abusive caregivers #but hey at least they arent being murdered!#like. the way the transphobia discussion on tumblr rn discusses (and doesnt discuss) race and ability and class and health makes me #feel very invisible.#like if people had to choose who to believe about my experiences between listening to me a black/mixed mentally ill maybe disabled (used to #be disabled) hella nd trans nonbinary person #or listen to a white middle class trans woman's take on my experiences that theyd choose her. its such a weird weird microcosm.#its like a monkeys paw like people are finally listening to trans fems and finally recognising the violence they experience and finally #actually caring about them but for some reason decide that in order to do that its necessary to throw every other minority under the bus #like fuck man have you seen how 'anti transandrophobia truthers' discuss race? its NOT okay #we all matter we all are so similar and are part of the same groups and same communities we need to stick together #stop using trans fems as a battering ram to hurt other minorities challenge #cause like. yes its some trans fems. but its mostly NOT?#like its non trans fems telling other non trans fems that they arent oppressed #and even when many trans fems are like what the fuck dude of course other trans ppl matter whats wrong with you #the group of like 80% non trans fems 20% trans fems are like 'hmm if you are defending other trans people you must not really be trans fem'#like. denying trans fems their identity bc they disagree with them?? dude someone doesnt stop being a trans fem cause they recognise #people other than trans fems matter and exist #its just all so WEIRD its a weird little tumblr microcosm #i wanna stress. for those of you who dont have access to other lgbtq+ communities. how much it seems to be primarily a tumblr thing. to

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dayurno · 6 months

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most touching bit that has been going on recently is people including kevjean when they say there are ship wars being fought on jean's holy name as if kevjean is ever even remotely comparable to jerejean (famous) and jeanee (canon)..... there are five kevjean fans and two are me. i dont think we can compete let alone compare but i love the enthusiasm

#LIKE I GET IT. BUT I WISH #my friends my acolytes my sisters and my cousins how i wish. how i wish!#its seriously touching its like having your bumfuck ass small town shout out @ the international news #but unless kevjean is secretly super famous in an underground aftg fight club then we are truly doomed #realistically what do we have. jean's suicide and the 2 in his jersey #thats all #these whores dont even talk. kevin hasnt answered jeans texts in a year #its moreover (moreau + over like joever) and we know its moreover. but i love getting included so thank you #even if kevin is indeed jeans bi awakening its literally crumbs girl its crumbs #i mean i guess you never forget your first love BUT STILL. you understand that its moreover #let renee and jeremy duke this one out kevin has done his time he was cute and pretty when it mattered and now he gets to gracefully exit #also to be honest lowkey kevin doesnt even want jean which hurts me personally but anything for my princess....#im showing him picture after picture of jean holding puppies and helping old ladies cross the street and kevins asking me where andrew at #hes looking the other way hes checking his nails hes whistling #lalalalalaing even #txt #kevjean

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 3 months

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i hate doing laundry ough it's The Worst

#not only does leaning down to move my stuff hurt my back #but i have to touch dirty clothes and go into the dirty room and touch the dirty machines and i have to wear 2 pairs of socks (so my #normal socks dont touch the contaminated floor) and when i lean over the washing machine my clothes touch it <-the worst part of it all #tbh. now my current clothes are dirty but i have nothing to change into and i will have to wear them all day and it makes me SICK #and i cannot talk abt how dirty the garage (where the laundry machines are) it makes me nauseous that place kills me if i never #had to go into it ever again i would and i have to carry a laundry basket (dirty) and it touches my clothes when i carry it (disgusting)#and now my clothes are even more dirty and i feel like i cant touch any of my things bc i dont want to infect them but i cant just do #nothing all day when i have to do laundry but it makes me so SICK i need smth to cover all of my clothes but everything i've tried misses #some part and my clothes are ruined and it makes me SICK how am i supposed to do school or draw or anything when it's so bad #i have everything scheduled so i can take a shower and go straight to bed after i'm done but still it's so bad and it stresses me tf out #and i have to do laundry every 3 days because i only have 3 towels to use after showering and even if i did have more towels #i still would have to do laundry as often bc i couldnt handle doing multiple loads or having bigger loads my back couldnt handle that #w the system i have set up now it's just bad it;s all bad i hate doing laundry #i dream of one day where i can do laundry in a better way i think it'd involve not having the washer and dryer down steps bc that's #dangerous for one and for two not having them in a garage bc garages stress me out and three to have smth to cover all of my clothes #and 4 to have machines that dont need me to bend down idk if they have ones like that but it hurts #anyway that's it for listening to dux complain abt smth that ultimately doesnt matter and is only a problem bc their brain #chemistry is off #k bye i have to go do laundry *explodes* and take an exam *explodes* it;s an essay exam *explodes* and then im going #to like sit around feeling sick thumbs up emoji

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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hold on i need to get a thought and emotions out. so with Welcome Home, there seems to be a before and an after. obviously, we're in the after. the website is the after. and if it turns out that the story we see, the one where shit hits the fan and the show is practically erased, then... that already happened. whatever horrors we see, we'll know that there is no saving them. there is no happy ending - it happened, and it's tragic. the show is doomed to end and be scrubbed away. if any of the characters are revealed to be dead/gone by the website, then when/if we see them at an earlier point, we'll Know

and there's a special kind of dread and horror in that for us, the audience.

#im not articulating this the way i want to...#it's like going to see a tragic play. like romeo and juliet for instance.#we go into it knowing the end. they die. no matter what they die. every step they take leads to That End #every happy moment is undercut by the knowledge that it won't last #thinking about this makes me think that at some point learning more about the story/characters is gonna feel like digging up a grave #AGH I LOVE IT THOUGH I LOVE IT. IT HURTS SO MUCH BUT I LOVE IT #its a special feeling of dread/nostalgia/bittersweetness/resignation #and that is sensation in the chest that doesnt feel good but it also does somehow? it hurts but just enough to not be unbearable?#welcome home #welcome home speculation #welcome home puppet show #man i am so so so so scared for the puppets lmfao #i have some theories on the ways shit might go down. like little things. souring relationships and such #i also have a feeling that the story is really gonna hit home (ha) for me in Big Ways #like as soon as i saw clown say that it's kinda about 'when does a home become a house' and stuff #OOF. YIKES. WHEN DOES IT INDEED. i mean i know. ive lived it. im Living it.#this is gonna get unintentionally personal Real Fast in Several Fun And Festive Ways for me huh #i wonder if the story is gonna be uncovered linearly or not...#chewing on it chewing on it chewing on it #i can't wait to Understand the world/characters so that i can write fanfic. i want to so badly. i want to Explore #i want to hop into that grave and keep digging

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nobodymitskigabriel · 4 months

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I don't know where fandom got the idea that 5x03 is "just a destiel filler episode". Raphael's electric wings? Jessifer? SA-coded demon blood bar scene? Sam learning that he's Lucifer's destined vessel? All that only to be remembered as a destiel filler episode.

#if u like it for destiel more power 2 u but i dont even rly see it in this episode #the dean cas parts are just as sad as the rest of the ep to me #dean feeling so hurt and lonely and betrayed that he wants to escape with cas because he needs someone he feels like is on his team and #it doesnt matter if cas is just as much if not more to blame for the apocalypse than sam.#tw sa mention #sam winchester #spn 5x03 #supernatural

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persy-r-bozo · 2 months

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#Reds such a unique and sad character to me #No matter what he does he is in a loop somehow. both actually and mentally.#He wants change - but he's afraid of it - But he NEEDS it - but its too scary.#He wants to be normal - But normal is boring - But its safe.#Too weird for people - too normal for freaks.#He Likes those two - But getting attached hurts. - But he truly does love them - But what if hes the issue? what is HE hurts them.#and thats why i think transport was such a big turning point. because he does hurt them #He tries his best and does what he thinks will be best.#him being alone so he issnt an “Issue”#And them being happy and healthy in a place where thier needs are met. and they dont have to be scared anymore.#but he fails and he hurts them.#His torture here is feeling helpless and whenever he tries it fails to the point he feels awful.#He has such complex and battling emotions they loop in his head over and over. too the point he cant do anything #thus making him a neutral character.#But neutral issnt a Good thing #Yes he doesnt hurt anything. But he doesnt help or comfort either #He is in a loop inside and out.#Hes drowning.#SIIIGHH sometimes it hurts understanding him /hj. (i know theres like a gigillion ways to interpret him lmao.}#im actuly kinda sad i havent seen anyone else have the idea of him being torn apart inside and anxious tho.#or that he sees himself as a big monster. maybe even due to him leaveing before (trying to help but failing again)#or that hes easy to manipulate. thus creating danger for the other two.#But im just yapping and making a comic based on my thoughts :]#(as ive been a lil mentally ill about string man lately.#dhmis #dhmis red guy #dhmis fanart #dhmis comic #dont hug me im scared

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gojoidyll · 1 year

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"I love you."

"It'll pass."

It never did. Your heart only ever did beat for vash. And it didn't matter if it was during a hot day or cold night or a windy Tuesday, the words I love you still ricochet in your heart as you think of the humanoid typhoon.

And you wonder.

Your mind begins to wander.

If it'll ever pass.

It won't.

#trigun x y/n #trigun #trigun stampede vash #trigun stampede #vash #vash x y/n #vash x you #vash x reader #vash angst #hear me out #vash loves you too but he doesnt want you to get hurt so he tries to let you down easily #but you still love him no matter how much time passes #trigun angst

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