#it makes everything better

[coquettedreamygirlblog]

Me: *going about life, minding my own business*

Delusional, beyond insane thoughts that make sense to me only: Hi!!

Me: *Smiles and laughs to self like a goddamn maniac, probably looks like a fool*

[balkanradfem]

So, I know this is a bad idea, but I had a dream. And in the dream, I was trying to go swim in the cold river. I remember just standing above the river, looking at it, thinking 'Why am I afraid? This river would never hurt me.' before giving up fear and diving right in.

And now it's daytime, and all I want is to go to the river and get inside. But, it's January. But it's not like, a super cold January, the forecast says it's 5 celsius, feels like 10 to me. It's warm. And I've been in rivers as early as March, why not now? It's not like I can walk. And I wanna see if it hurts my neck or not.

So I've been debating this in my head all morning, and now I've lost the battle. I'm going to the river. A friend already told me not to do it, so I'm going to not tell her about this. Also I'm pretty sure my mental health is in a bad spot, and swimming in cold water would fix that right up. So it's like, a win-win. I even took some elderberry syrup to make sure I don't get sick. I'm going. See you all later.

*later*

I’m sure you’re all wondering how that went, and let me tell you! I got up to the riverbank, and the water is huge, it’s been raining, the current is strong, the trees are half-underwater, the riverbank is steep and slippery. I’ve been to my garden first, and I noticed the top of the water in my bucket there, has frozen over, and hasn’t even melted yet, which had me wondering if this was, indeed, a good idea. But as soon as I saw the river, I was absorbed by unlimited lust to be submerged in it, and I knew I would not be able to go home before I do it, I could not resist.

I walked around the riverbank, looking for a safe place to access the water, and I found one relatively safe-ish spot, and tapped my way carefully down thru the mud. Then I saw a m*n on the other side of the river, staring at me. No thank you. I picked up my stuff and went to look for a decently secluded place, for heavens sake. I want to have a good time, not a self-conscious-I’m-being-stared-at time.

I found another spot that was, way less safe, and I’m standing there and thinking ‘This is actually so unsafe it’s ridiculous that I’m still doing it. I could slip and hurtle down this bank and fall into the water at any moment and it would not be surprising.’ So I wisely took off my jacket and left my phone in it, so it wouldn’t get ruined if I fell.

I didn’t fall. I put my hand in the water, and it felt amazing. My hand decided that it was the exact correct temperature and I loved it. I took my clothes and my shoes off, and stepped into the water, with my bare feet, in my swimming gear.

My feet didn’t like the temperature of the water so much! They were quickly going numb and pained. I started to get a little worried, because my instincts were now telling me ‘too cold, you’re gonna die’, but that didn’t make my desire any less! I stepped out and waited for my feet to get their stuff together, and then I stepped back in the water, and found there was a great spot where I could be submerged and holding on to a tree, so I don’t accidentally float away or lose my footing. And I went for it. It was just like it was in my dream, I was submerged up to my neck within a second, and it was amazing, and then the cold shock hit me so I grabbed the tree and got myself back out. At this point I was feeling incredible, my body was searing with heat and excitement, and I realized, oh, I need to go back in!

I went back into the water, but this time I stayed in, holding onto the tree, forcing my body to breathe slowly thru the cold shock, unlocking my limbs and making me feel at home in cold water. I was only in for a few seconds, then I pushed myself out again, feeling dizzy with satisfaction. I was inside of a river in January! I had never done that before.

The cold water released so many good chemicals in my brain, I ended up feeling excellent for the rest of the day. Even my chronic pain was all cancelled, and my mental health was temporarily fine. The only setback was, that after I got home, I found several nasty bloody scratches on my legs, and one of my fingers was bloody too; I didn’t remember getting those. It’s very likely I got them in the water, because I was too cold to notice that I’m catching onto thorns and branches in there. I’m not worried, if they refuse to heal quickly, I have my wound-healing herbs that can take care of that.

I can’t say I would exactly recommend this, because this is, in reality, a result of bad mental health, and I’ve been known to do these things before, and I never got sick, so I know my body is resilient to the cold shock. I will often walk barefoot in the snow just to get a bit of that cold shock to fix my mood. So while it does wonders for me, don’t do this in January, it’s probably bad. (I know because my friends yelled at me when I told them afterwards and told me I would get sick.)

[dummerjan]

i keep starting shows and dropping them soon after. i don't know if they actually aren't for me or if i just don't have the capacities to enjoy them right now.

i dropped first note of love after five episodes and while that song did get on my nerves it wasn't enough to actually drop an entire series i was enjoying otherwise. but out of nowhere i thought nah let's not do this. i barely made it through the second episode of affair which might have something to do with being terribly critical and much more nitpicky with gl than i am with bl (and tbf the show is badly done in a lot of ways and visually just so boring and i had just watched love lies bleeding twice in a week and was just so blown away by that). but i really liked the premise of it and wanted to give it a chance but i just wasn't feeling it. i watched two episodes of kidnap bc it seemed like light enough entertainment for me even after a draining week of class and i really like ohm but then i once again went nah let's not do this during episode three and dropped it. i am intrigued by the on1y one but i hesitate to start lest i drop it bc i just don't have it in me to enjoy something i would otherwise adore. i could rewatch something or maybe i just need to take a break from bl. maybe i have overdosed…

[shaniacsboogara]

editing my little brother's speech today desperately trying not to insert a well placed "hoo boy" here and there

[calicoquinn]

' “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he denied, naturally defensive... "You look at him the same way you look at me,” she said simply. '

Art based off a scene from 'Unexpected' by @malkolina as part of the @grishaversebigbang's Mini-Bang!

Etherealki: @malkolina (Read 'Unexpected' HERE)

Materialki: @mfrov95 (See her awesome companion art piece HERE), myself.

[fromjannah]

a pair of jeans that fit you well can literally save lives

[spiffyspidr]

Finally re-did my native ecosystem terrarium!!!!! So glad I was able to do this today!!! :D

[vaniloqu3nce]

im so glad im friends with stoners it means i have like 6+ extra incomes towards weed it’s literally ALWAYS beneficial to be kind to stoners they will just come over and smoke with you if they love you enough 😭

including me i dont not offer weed to company thats wild we need to be high together sweetie im never sober

[conspiracyravens]

Almost sliced my finger while minceing garlic for dinner and had violent flashbacks to about 2 years ago when I sliced up my finger while using a chainsaw like thing to cut back blackberries and my very normal friends at the time decided to make and send me memes about it.

[loopnoid]

that loustat redraw meme that was making rounds a few weeks ago but i made it claudeleine

[chloesimaginationthings]

The Afton kids deserved better in FNAF..

[surrenderonvinyl]

i think more songs should have a saxophone in them

[hellspawnmotel]

I can't think of a nutcracker pun

[opalmelon]

listening to neo-psychedelic tunes while drawing gotta be one of my favorite acitivities

[hypewinter]

During a press conference for the newest Justice League member, Phantom, a reporter asks him "Do you have anything to say to all the children who aspire to be like you?"

Phantom looked at the reporter puzzled before saying, "Children wanna be like me? Why? I'm a bad influence."

[egophiliac]

like mother, like son, but less wholesome this time?

(I couldn't decide whether or not to put them together, so have them in all the different ways!)