#it’s fine i’m just fucking lonely !!!

[bixels]

Bit of a weird question, but what is your overall least favorite thing about MLP? 

Sparity.

[gregmarriage]

this was meant to be a funny post, but then it got deep imao

not a relationship person, but i believe in their beliefs

[twelveisgay]

the lonely girl urge to cry when put into large groups of people you don’t know–or worse, do know

[i-am-a-fucking-nerd]

Embarrassing time in the tags

[blurglesmurfklaine]

and if I moved back to my hometown????

[yay-depression]

the repressed neurodivergent experience of thinking “no one will ever love me with all of my neurodivergency the way i love them with their neurotypical-ness.”

[tendergore]

okay im literally never going to a wedding again i am distraught and i still have to drive two and a half hours back home

[yaminerua]

my mum: stopped me at every opportunity I asked to come see my dying grandpa bc ‘you don’t want to see him like this’ even tho I already had seen him and he had been happy to see me after years estranged from that side of the family and I very much wanted to fit as much time with him in as possible before it was too late and in the end she blocked me from all of it

also my mum: you never came to see your grandpa, you don’t give a shit

and now my mum yet again: won’t let me come see my gran who has been losing weight and falling and breaking bones a lot and been in and out of hospital since being on her own. Didn’t let me go talk to gran when we were both at my great aunt’s funeral last year and so I never saw her and she only found out I was there through other people who saw me. Refuses every time I ask to see my gran, including now when I’ve got presents for her

also my fucking mum right now in the same breath as refusing to allow me to come over: you never come to see your gran, you don’t give a shit

make it make fucking sense jfc

[beetlejuicesgraveyardrevue]

haha it is so cool and not at all depressing that I’m genuinely terrified of meeting dudes through dating apps now because Florida is such a transphobic and homophobic state that I’m just like… hmm what if someone purposely matches with me to kill me when all I wanted to do was to go on a date?? you know. the horrors. like the likelihood of that is so very slim but also. anxiety.

[fakeoutbf]

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[teruthecreator]

me most days: sure my job is nice but it’s kinda isolating like i’m basically in my own bubble because i struggle relating to my coworkers that are all at least a decade older than me and working in an office kinda of just numbs me to life like i’m just idly passing through it

me when the office provides free breakfast: FUCK YEAH I LOVE MY JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[clehame]

i’m pretty sure studying abroad was a poor decision with regards to every single aspect of my life, but i’m saying this sick and tired and after a long day of being on a mandatory field trip i’ve been dreading all week so. grain of salt etc

[whorenerdking]

boy oh boy do I love random anxiety attacks that hit me full force at 4:30 in the god damn morning

[someabsolutenonsense]

Wish somebody would call me an evil stick

[dreams-in-daylight]

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[fearthedietcoke]

Rant because I feel uncomfortable talking to people in my daily life because of various reasons:

My own personal lack of a queer community in the area I currently live in makes me want to peel the lead paint off the walls, eat it, chip at the dry wall, crush up the dust, snort it, and then roll around naked in the insulation.

I just want to find a person, literally anyone, to relate to, all I want is a community…every time I think about the one I left behind it makes me tear up, I miss having that chosen family.

Trying to find people on apps is useless, I’ve tried for the last three years every time I’ve moved home with my parents, and I just feel so defeated. I know it’s partially on me cause I suck at messaging, but I’ve been ghosted for the umpteenth time, literally just for asking if they’d ever like to call or video chat instead of texting.

I don’t think it’s all on me though, however, cause when I’m in other areas I have made more queer friends than I can stick a shake at, it’s like a fucking queer desert where I live.

The only thing that’s keeping me even partially sane is the thought that one day I’ll be gone and with people who want to talk to me. One day I’ll find the love and happiness in my life that I deserve but holy fuck actually waiting and waiting and just sitting here alone in my home while my family members go and hang out at the bars and have fun with friends while I just desperately am trying to meet someone online to talk to feels so fucking depressing. But it’s gonna get better.