#it's almost spring

[stargazing15]

[everything-is-as-it-was]

Just finished rewatching We're All Doomed

And DAMN does it hit hard on the second watch.

Something that really resonated with me was the idea of consistently not being happy, but not being devastated. Of always waiting for the future. Of essentially being the "meh" emoji. And I used to really suffer with this, then I transitioned (yay), and was fine, for a while.

But recently it feels like I'm grasping at straws to find anything that will keep me going, just these last few months until I finally finish school and move out. I can feel myself sinking further and further into this hole and what's worse is that I know I'm sinking, but don't know how to prevent it.

So I've taken to creating. I'm consistently writing 1000 words a day, almost every day. I'm starting to make videos. I'm doing whatever the hell I can to create something worthwhile while I'm here, because I don't feel like I'm doing anything of worth unless I'm creating. And that's helping, a bit.

But Dan reminded me of something essential that I think I'd forgotten, and it's that we need to find the beauty in everyday life. And yeah, it's cliché. Yeah, everyone says that. But it's true.

Nobody is measured solely upon their production. I am not worthy just because I create things, even though it makes me happy. While it's tempting, it's not healthy to shut myself in my room and work myself to death until 2am every night.

Taking walks helps with this. Participating in school activities helps. Playing music helps. Reading helps.

I think it's healthy and productive to find a project to work on, for my own sake to have something other than school work I can feel productive about. I've realized I will never be happy in life unless I am creating.

But I'm sure Dan's been there, and I have a feeling he came out the other side a little worse for wear. I can't create things unless I care for myself and find the joy in everyday life, which can be so hard when every day feels the same, every day feels like I'm just waiting for the next thing.

Being alive is a gift. And i thank We're All Doomed for reminding me of that because I needed to remember.

[heart-of-the-morningstar]

Mike getting absolutely BODIED by Spring Bonnie

[sheylin66]

He found the solution to Oswald running around the house

..Oswald's not happy about it

[toneelspeelster]

now a soft kiss - aye, by that kiss, i vow an endless bliss.

[artsymeeshee]

Thank you all for the very much needed love, support and reassurance after my last post. Seeing that accusation made me unbelievably shocked, disgusted, and upset beyond relief. I understand some would like to know who it was that said such vile shit about me but I believe it best to leave it. Since I’ve had time to calm down, I don’t want to waste time and energy getting so wrapped up in it. I did have a moment where I really thought I did something wrong but you guys have reassured me time and time again that I did nothing wrong. I won’t lie, it’s going to take some time for me to get comfortable posting more affectionate art again but I’m hopeful I can get back to it. I really can’t express how grateful I am for all the support and love. Thank you. ❤️

More silly, wholesome stuff with the favorite family soon :D

[oddestishottest]

04/04/25

[todayis-snowy]

mummy? sorry. mummy? sorry. mu

[sword-wielding-sapphic]

[mother-lee]

a quiet life

[sophriac]

Drew the pookie bear meow meow cakes again🤞 that’s it that’s the caption

[miamiaaaaaaa]

[meru90]

kissss

[sheylin66]

Some Whiteboard doodles!!

Cause actual art is going slow..

Just some good old grocery shopping with dad

[failsquirrel]

tama the weeb kitty, i gave her bunny ears :3 (like how a human would wear cat ears but she’s already got those so she wears bunny ears)

[kidovna]

always down for some gay colour theory💙💚💛