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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 10 months

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With the modern au, can we learn more about how Frank and Eddie got together? If that's alright with you!

i. i'll admit. i kinda. forgot to think about them

#LMAO OH NO #the au started as me thinking 'ooo franklydear centric - eddie's new in town ooo etc'#and now its. well! Look At it!#check back in later...#well! i mean! ive thought about it a Smidge #its more classic love story yk? kinda? sorta. not really-#its slow going ill say that!#i like to think that popstar and laughingstock are Established before franklydear in this scenario #but its cute!#theyre both nervous about it and its very Pining yk yk #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #ok seriously though check back later lmao ill think on this more #id like to. hm. Speculate! of a sort!#i need to make sure it feels Right

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puppyeared · 3 months

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started stardew valley for the first time. born to remember villager likes and dislikes forced to immediately forget it the moment i take my eyes off thw wiki

#HELP. HEEEELPP <- THE FORGETTER #i have 18 different tabs open and im pretty sure half of them are duplicates. i have not made anything past 5000G i am so cooked #rn im at summer 11 ish?? i cant remember dates in real life either jesus christ GRIPPING THE COMMUNITY CALENDAR WITH MY BARE HANDS #my ass really went into this like “ill just take it easy and go into it blind so i get the newborn baby deer experience" completely ignoran #to the fact that i get anxious disappointing ppl and not having any background knowledge going into smth new. like a FOOL #also the walking speed is just slow enough to make me space out and forget where i was going and what i needed to do head in my hands #ive had to backtrack all over pelican town so many different times im in fucking adhd hell. resource management hell #im saying this like i hate it but its actually pretty fun and engaging when im not gripping my head trying to remember what i was doing #i got linus' 2 heart event and it made me whimper a little. LINUSSS LINUS I LIKE HIM. AND WILLY AND MARNIE THEYRE SO NICEYS #marnie kinda like.. reminds me of my friends mom even her face is pretty similar. shes sweet i like her. also willy calls me lad hes cool #i think im just gonna start a new save and NOT rely on the fucking mixed seed forages bc my ass was too stubborn to buy seeds #i just got sebastians 2 heart event too ughhh ive never had to work so hard for an emo boys approval. but it was satisfying #corn will fix me. its a replenishable summer-fall crop corn has to fucking fix me PLEASE #i also. made a stardew valley farmer. the one im playing as. their name is cosmo they have a backstory and everything im making #him a ref. his backstory is so fucking funny just wait #yapping #diary #puppy plays sdv

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luck-of-the-drawings · 8 months

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OOH YEAH BABY! PARTY TIME BABY! MUSIC! DRINKS! SOCIAL PRESSURE & A PSYCHEDELIC BREAK DOWN! WELCOME TO VAMPIRE SOCIETY MOTHERFUCKER! ARE YOU SCARED? DO YOU UNDERSTAND YET? ITS OKAY IF NOT. FIRE DISSOLVED IT! ITS ALL GONE NOW. HAVE FUN!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #RRAAHH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW SOOO GOODDAMN MUCH!! each o these characters has STOLEN my HEART!!!#LIKE EMIZEEELLL i love emizel so much.. runnin around announcing that HE isa PRINCE while shiloh FINALLY quietly clicks the pieces together #nathan hanover you MADMAN!!! that slow dramatic guitar riff as emizel makes that announcement was so fuckin COOL UGHHHH #MR HANOVER DOES IT AGAIN just creating tracks that absoultely WORM into my MIND and HHEAARRT UUGHHGHH #emizel is so cool and so funny and so adorable UUGHH ill gush abt him more when i finally post my emizel n soda doodle page #ARTHUR FUCKING BENNET. i totally get why grizz has a hard time playing him. hes cool and stoic n its not easy to play a man o little words #BUT BBOOOY DOES HE DO IT WELL!! arthur DOES come off as so stoic n cool & it just makes his lil misfortunes all the more charming #like falling into the red fear or confrontin edward twilight or accidentally doing lsd. I LOVE THATS HES THE BAD LUCK GUY.#okay uhhu uhh i have limited room here what else should i say uhh. THE NPCS. MY GOD THE NPCS. CHARLIE U WONDERFUL MADMAN #edward twilight is SUCH a funny fucking antagonist. and supposedly his magic stuff is super scary?? SO EXCITED TO SEE MORE OF THAT #ill ramble abt mr deacon keller later eheh i have a. uh. a doodle page in the works. so in the meantime DAYBRINGER SOLOMON!!#“HERE COMES THE SUN MOTHERFUCKER!” “ILL SEE YOU IN HELL. NOT. IM GOING TO HEAVEN. BITCH.” like come on now. oh my god. i need him #BIG POWERFUL BEAST AND EVERY WORD HE SAYS HAS ME CRACKING UP. THE MUFFLED VOICE IN THE DARK BROKEN BY “LIGHT!”#TRULY HILARIOUS AND YET TRULY HORRIFYING. I FUCKIN LOVE CHARLIE NPCS SO MUCH. I HOPE WE SEE HIM AGAIN OHH MY GOOOODDD #OKAYokay. im normal now. ill talk abt the piece. if u read my tags this far then u get special secret knowledge abt the artistic process #IM VERY HAPPY WITH MY COLORS! i know they were hallucinating on drugs so i just recalled the times i did drugs & used that as my influence #REMEMBER KIDS! acid is totally fine if ur safe and responsible about it. do acid and then stare at my art for a bit trrruuust me. IT MOVES!#anyway i think thats all my thoughts here. thank you for looking at my art n thanku if ur one o the ppl that says nice things in the tags #U are LITERLY my life blood i pick up each of u n kiss u so sweetly on the head. remember to try acid!!!!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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xannerz · 8 months

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its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

#centaurworld #centaurworld critical #<- a tag i never thought i'd use lol #ok EDIT: fuck it im tagging this maybe there are others who'll also see their own viewing experiences in this post too #dont mind me rambling #but i got an ask on my thoughts abt cw a long time ago (hi!! i still have it 😭) and ive been wanting to write a detailed response since.#debating tagging this since the fandom's already p small and i dont wanna bump the tag with negativity #even if it is (what i feel is) p fair criticism. but idk people are sensitive and conflate it w hate idk idk #ive seen thinly-veiled hate posts in the t*ngled the series tags and it's always bothered me.#bc you can tell op just like hates xyz character or the show entirely and its like can you just come out and say it LMFAOO #but i genuinely like cw. i so so very much do. so i get bummed out! gf and some other friends and i were so excited for s2 and #when it rolled out ep by ep we were like 'it'll get better right? right?'#also tempted to just draw more cw fanart in general bc the t t s fandom is slow and if half the people dont have each other blocked #theres simply 0 overlap in fave chars or interpretations so lmao #im going back to work i just feel sour LMAO #also adding that i think a lot of people conflate a story eliciting an emotional reaction from you = its good #but ill revisit that and all these thoughts again eventually in another post. we'll see.#and i STILL want a nwk tattoo lmao. or at least an elkie. gf and i love elk bc of this guy! the impact that he has!#xangoeswah

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halfbit · 2 months

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fingers crossed that i've been home alone this whole time because i think i was but if not i was loudly singing in a conlang and that might have sounded a bit odd

#part conlang part gibberish since i'm still figuring out how i want conjugation to work for this one #but i'm trying to get the vibes for a hunting song they would use #conlangs #so basically the same method i use to practice my japanese 'instinct??' like i talk to myself using words and phrases i know #and just fill in with gibberish that sounds similar so i don't have to slow down and check how to say something #which is probably a weird and not great practice method but its better than nothing and i feel like it makes it easier for me to #just say and understand/not have to actively translate in my brain #at least for conlangs it also gives me ideas for new words #and sometimes for japanese too ill go 'oh wait i think ive actually heard that one before/sounds like a real word' and then look it up afte #to figure out what it actually means

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watery-melon-baller · 3 months

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its so fun :)) and awesome :)) that i cannot fucking make my brain focus on my homework :))) holy shit im gonna kill someone :)) why can't my brain just work for five fucking minutes :)) this is easy homework too I just can't concentrate on it at all :)) and it's due tomorrow morning :)))

#yes I AM bitching about physics again #having a hyperfixation is stupid and awful and fucking sucks #Jesus Christ stop thinking about toh for FIVE MINUTES #and physics is like. I struggle with it. I'm slow #I need all of my brainpower to focus and problem solve but I genuinely!! Cannot!! Focus!!!#It's so insane. All comprehension skills go out the window #if I fail this class then I'm genuinely fucked like. I can't even begin to describe how screwed I am if I fail this class #Or even if I pass this class but barely understand it #and it goes so fast and i don't have anyone I can go to for help #with calc 2 I was going to the tutoring center every week!!!#but I can't do that!!! And I don't know anyone who knows physics #and it's not like I have friends in the class :))) because I'm so socially stunted it's embarrassing :))))#Jesus fucking Christ I can't function like a normal person #my brain has just been completely rotted from two years of doing nothing but bullshit art projects and now I've lost all critical thinking #im just frustrated because this isn't even the difficult part #SHE LITERALLY TOLD US WHAY TO DO IN CLASS #I JUST FUCKINH. CANNOT. FOCUS OR EVEN COMPREGEND IT #AND I WROTE DOWN EXACTLY WHAT SHE SAID AND IT MADE SENSE IN CLASS #BUT NOW MY BRAIN IS ALL FUZZY AND I CANNT UNDERSTAND A WORD #AND I PROCRASTICATED ALL WEEKEND BECAUSE. I COULD NOT FUCKING FOCUS #BECAUSE OOOOHHH MAYBE ILL JUST MAGICALLY START FOCUSINH IF I WAIT LONG ENOUGH #NOPE!#FUCK ME I GUESS #THIS IS DUE TOMORROW SO I HAVE TO GET THIS DONE #ITS LIKE MY BRAIN IS SLUDGE I CAN'T THINK CLEARLY AT ALL #if i can't do well in this course then. um. i don't wanna say my life is ruined but. it fucks up so many things for me #I don't know dude I just can't wrap my head around this kind of stuff and I'm stressed #lilac post #im aware im being self pitying and this won't help me but im feeling bitchy 2nite

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always-a-joyful-note · 6 months

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Well, it looks like I've caved and started with the Korean TLs of the i7 story from 6.10. It's (pretty) slow progress, but I'm managing more or less okay. The question I have to the fandom is....while I'm not confident enough in Korean (like at all) to give direct TLs from that, nor do I want to since the translator has password protected their TLs (and I don't feel comfortable doing translations from a translation, anyway), I wouldn't mind giving summaries of each section after I finish it if people want it

#fandom spamdom #idolish7 #i7 #<-putting it in that tag too because its a genuine no pressure offer #i also understand if people would rather wait for the full story too because i know i sure would #of course another option is that you all can just feel free to dm me for the link to the TLs (its available publically)...#...and also their (also publically available) instructions on how to unlock the chapters #at least for those who know kr better than me #id say im lucky that i didnt have to do this for orv but orv was also kind of the reason why im going for korean anyway #that also reminds me that i should read up on the portuguese translation for butai ni sake and maybe offer a summary for that too....#....so many languages so little time #also while i do have more stable free time now ill still be slow so....#note's notes

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flyingspicerack · 1 year

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Okaaaay daydreaming time then sleeby nienie eveyone!!

#spice.txt #i think maybe im gonna start when i say night night what im gonna daydream abt before bed #on the menu tonight im cooking up a new maoichi fic chapter #hehe its very good i think #its actually gonna go in between two already planned out chapters #so now after i figure out all the story beats for this one ill have 25 chaps planned so far #also thinking of making a poll to vote on whether or not i should make a public list of all my plans #like imagine it as like.... episode title and synopsis but instead its list of future chapter themes???#like... idk if people would like that or want to be surprised #oh maybe i could post it under a readmore so then people have the choice to look at it or not!!!#i also wanna make a blog directory pinned post.... im too lazy to edit a theme so a pinned with links is the best ill do #this is just turning into a list of things i need to do this weekend #uhhh laundry!! you have no underwear you loser #and draw maoichi slow blink in stream tomorrow #thanks future aero #anyway #looks at you reading this post #hiiiieeeeeeeee!!!!#if u read my fic and want a post for future chaps lemme know bc if I am encouraged i will probably make it lawl #tee hee ok nie nie for realsies

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vamppvania · 1 year

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Thinking about how Barry is a horror show. Bill Hader drawing you in with dark comedy just to shatter the fantasy, trapping you into a lynchian tragedy about the nature of violence and all its forms. The dark spector of abuse will follow you everywhere and affect everyone you touch, and if youre not careful, you become that spector. Whats worse, what makes you ache and greive, is what these people, these characters you can't help but See and Understand, tell themselves to justify trapping themselves and others in this continuous cycle. Glorified war stories written with the blood of occupied foreign territories. Media and its role in facilitating violence. Guns sold across the toys aisle. Bronze effigies, emerald fantasies, false memories, desolate families. This show is terrifying its a ghost haunting my TV and I want to shake Bill Hader upside down so I can collect the fucjed up ideas that fall from his pockets like candies

#im not lying when i say that fucking #scene. where were in hanks pov listening to the slow. desperate. revolting. slaughter of his friends on the other side of that wall #eaten by this beast unleashed by an invisible laughing authority #and we just sit there with him in this dark room listening to his friends be torn to shreds while they beg for their lives.#what haunting audio. ill be thinking about if until i die #and i love it #barry #also i cried when this apepared in his nightmares but barry was in that room eitb him chained and helpless #and he woke up and said. i think i understand him now.#god jesus. its a cycle innit. like love but worse #ok sorry i need to go and do somwthing

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caninecowboy · 2 years

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crying screaming throwing up etc etc etc