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So wrong yet so right part 4

contains- smutt , Dom matt, sub y/n, rouuuuugh, hairpulling, chocking, spanking, dirty talk, praise kink, degradation , use of names like~ baby, slut, sweetheart , good girl. (not proofread )

Y/n pov-

I wake up early today and went to a water fall with some friends since it so nice outside and we all wanted to have some chill time .

We smoked a bit and just listened to some music .

after a couple hours I had to head home so I could be ready for class tonight. All my friends tried to convince me to skip and hang out longer but I told them that if I skip this class id have to retake it next semester which is the truth but just not all of it .

The full truth is i'm way to excited to see Matt , I haven't stopped thinking about the way he made me feel and how good he looked between my legs . Ive had wet dream about it every night and the build up to seeing him in class today has been eating me alive.

I showered once I got home and threw on a cute but comfortable outfit.

I hopped in my car and sped to class since I didn't realize I had taken such a long shower and am gonna be late for class.

i'm gonna be honest i'm still kind of high from the waterfall earlier. I smoke with friends but my tolerance isn't super high so my highs tend to last longer than my friends.

I grab my bag and speed walk into the building and into the lecture hall . Matt is sitting at his desk as all the students are typing away at their computers .

I sit down a couple rows down closer to the middle of the room and take out my computer .

my phone buzzes in my pocket startling me a bit since the room is so quiet other than keys clicking .

I take it out and check it seeing its a text from matt

I look up at him before I look back down at my phone and open the text

"late to my class thats a call for punishment" it reads my face heats up as I gulp and look at him his eyes study me as his brows furrow .

"are you high right now y/n" my eyes widen . I didn't think it would be noticeable but I guess I was wrong.

I decide to text back and tell the truth .

"just a little bit i'm sorry for being late I lost track of time "

I look back up at him as he stares coldly at me and sets his phone down and looks back at the work on his desk .

I sigh as I start to write my next story.

i'm so entranced by what i'm writing I don't realize Matt is talking .

ms y/l/n I hear a stern voice snap .

my eyes snap up from my computer and I see Matt looking at me I slump in my seat feeling awkward

sorry I say before he starts talking again

so as I was saying class next Tuesday is cancelled so have two stores ready and submitted on Friday the deadline for turn in will be 11:30 okay have a good weekend guys ill be checking my email over the weekend if you guys have question or need help .

he says as everyone packs up and heads out . I sit at my desk about to pack up when I get a text from matt.

"stay in here I want to talk too you"

I sigh as I set it back down and wait for everyone to leave before I get up and head down to where hes standing.

so y/n would you like to tell me why you came to my class not only late but also high he says stepping closer so I have to look up at him.

I- well I went to a waterfall with some friends earlier and we smoked and it lasted a lot longer than expected so I lost track of time in the shower I got here as fast as I could I try to explain but he has an unimpressed look on his face.

hmm well your coming home with me so grab your stuff he says as he goes to his desk packing up his things.

I gulp

w-what why I -

he cuts me off

don't talk back just do as your told he looks at me with a stern look on his face and I instantly make my way but up the steps to pack my things.

he walks up the stairs as I finish packing my stuff and walk over to him and follow him out of the lecture hall .

we make it outside and he leads me to his car . My jaw actually drops .

his car is actually a fucking motorcycle . I never thought he'd be the type to ride a motorcycle but it makes him even more attractive .

you ever ridden one before he ask turning back to me with a helmet in his hands .

I shake my head no as he steps closer slipping the helmet over my head and fastening it tightly .

well don't be nervous you'll be safe I promise he says as he smiles at me .

he throws his helmet on and puts his bag in a compartment he has attached to the back of the bike .

he gets on first and turns to me

okay step up on this part and hold onto my shoulders and swing your leg over so your sitting on this part he says patting the leather seat on the upper back part .

I nod my head and do exactly what he said as I situate myself on the seat.

okay when were actually riding wrap your arms around my waist tightly okay he says as he looks back at me and I nod slowly wrapping my arms around his waste and locking my hands together against his stomach.

he starts up the bike kicking up the stands and pulls out of the spot.

we hit a stop light as we sit waiting for it to turn green I move my hand to his chest gently rubbing up and down feeling his muscles under his black dress shirt.

he groans and leans his head back for a second before looking back at the light .

after a second it turns green and we're off again .

we reach the backroads after about 10 minutes and I hold on tighter as we take the dark windy roads.

I always thought riding a bike would be scary but its actually very calming . The warm breeze feels nice as I blows over us .

I rest my head on his back as I watch the trees blow by .

we reach the turn into his long driveway and we make our way up the hill and reach there front of the house.

He reaches into his pocket and clicks something that opens up his garage as he rides in and comes to a stop turning off the bike .

he puts the kick stand down then helps me off safely and then gets off himself then takes off his helmet then helps me with mine.

so how did you like that he asks smiling as he smooths out my hair

its was actually pretty nice I say smiling up at him

yeah! not so scary as it seems huh

no not at all

good now lets go inside he says as he takes my hand leading me into the door from the garage.

We make our way into the kitchen and he grabs us both a water before handing mine to me and opening his chugging it .

I take a couple sips of mine before setting it on the counter .

soo... why exactly am I here I ask a little confused because I wasn't prepared to be coming here tonight let alone leaving my car on campus.

well I thought it'd be nice to spend time together he says smiling at me

oh I say as a smile creeps onto my face

is that okay

yeah more thank okay I say as he steps closer

good he says before leaning down capturing my lips with his in a sweet slow kiss

he pulls away smiling down at me

so wanna watch a movie he asks with raised brows

yeah sure I beam with a smile on my face .

he takes my hand leading me into a theater room with nice recliner chairs . This house is so nice there is no way the university pays him enough to afford this .

if you don't mind me asking is teaching the only job you have or do you have others cause this house is reallyyyy nice

I teach but I also own a business with my 2 brothers he says smiling at me as he looks through movies trying to pick the right one.

oh cool what's the business I ask as I sit down in one of the chairs .

um well we own 5 hotels , 4 apartment building a couple restaurants and some office buildings.he says nonchalantly like its no big deal.

wow thats... impressive I say as I smile at him

yeah its nice I guess I mean I wouldn't be able to own this house if all I did was teach

I hum in response.

so do your bothers live around here I asks as I lean back in the chair

yeah they have houses close by but they travel around for work so they are back and forth a lot he says as he pops a movie into the player and it displays on the screen.

I gasp when I see he's put 50 shades of grey on . Ive watched it many times but never in the company of anyone else for obvious reasons.

do you have any siblings? he asks as he comes over to me standing in front of me

yeah I have a brother he's around your age

oh nice you guys close?

mmm somewhat we don't talk that much but were as close as brother sister pairs usually are I answer as I look up at him

stand up real quick he says as I borrow my brows but do what he says

he sits down on the chair and pats his lap

sit he demands and I do .

I get comfortable as I lean back into his chest and he reclines the chair back and the movie starts.

halfway through I start to wiggle around getting comfortable but also from slight arousal setting in when the first sex scene plays.

mat groans as he grabs my hips stifling my movements .

Stop moving so much he grumbles into my ear. His voice so low and gravely it has me clenching my thighs.

sorry I say apologetically as I settle back against him .

as the movie goes on the more turned on i'm getting and sitting in his lap is driving me crazy. I shift back as I spread my legs over his own getting comfortable.

his hand moves to my thigh rubbing up and down gently causing me to sigh and lean my head back on his shoulder.

he nuzzles his face in my hair as his hand slides up closer to where I want him most.

doing okay he asks in a tone that tells me he's smirking

mhm I hum as his hand slides up even higher as his fingers graze my clothed pussy.

his hand moves up to my waistband and slides underneath as his hand reaches my soaked pussy.

I whimper quietly and he chuckles a little at my reaction

so wet he says as his hand slides into my underwear and he starts rubbing small circles on my clit

I whine and squirm on his lap as he slides two fingers into me and I cant help the loud moan that escapes my mouth. His fingers speed up pace as i'm panting into his neck .

f-fuck feels so good

yeah am I making you feel good he says in a cocky tone as his other hands goes to pull off my pants and underwear.

mhhhmm I whine as I sick off my pants and spread my legs wider.

he curls his fingers hitting the perfect spot that drives me crazy

f-fuck m-matt oh god I whine as squelching sounds fill my ear signaling i'm close.

yeah that feel good baby he whisper in my ear as he places a kiss on my exposed neck .

s-so good mmm I moan as he keeps moving his fingers expertly

f-fuck im go-gonna cum I moan out as I feel the pressure close to breaking.

you got it baby come on he whispers to me in a husky voice that has the pressure instantly breaking and my juices to squirt out all over the chair , his lap and hand and my thighs.

fuck thats so hot he groans as he works me through my orgasm

je-jesus christ I whine as I come down and he stops his movements pulling his fingers out .

be a good girl and clean them off for me he says placing them on my lips I open my mouth and such my juices off of them with a moan.

stand up he orders and I do . He pulls my top off then his own shirt and pants.

he sits and pulls me onto his lap as his large hard on pulses under me

I pull him to me by his hair into a hot and needy make-out . His hands move to my ass making me grind onto him making us both groan into the kiss.

The pressure his dick is putting on my clit has me whining into the kiss since i'm sensitive from my last orgasm.

we both pull away panting .

think you can handle riding me sweetheart he asks in a sickly sweet voice .

I nod and pull myself up so he can slide his boxers down

he slides then down as his dick slides out slapping his lower stomach as mine drops from the size of him. He's thick and pretty lengthy a lot bigger than anyone i've had in the past which makes me a bit nervous.

what's the matter he ask as his hands move to his base

n-nothing your just really big I say as I look into his eyes

he smirks at me as his eyes glisten with lust

I know you can take it baby come on he says as he spits down onto his dick and spreads it around then lines the tip to my entrance .

I slowly slide down with a hiss as I stretch around him . He groans as his grip on my hips tightens.

fuck your so tight he says as I whimper when I slide down over the thickest part . Im still shocked he isn't fully in yet given I already feel so full but after a couple more second I reach his base and gasp.

f-fuck I whine as I try and move my hips but the stretching pain still hasn't settled yet

its okay baby take your time he says as he rubs softly on my hips soothing me a bit.

I stay still for about a minute before I start slowly bouncing and the pain is gone and all I feel is pure pleasure

fuck so deep I moan as I bounce harder and skin slapping together can be heard

fuck just like that doing so good for me he groans as his hands move to my ass slapping it adding more pleasure .

I continue bouncing on him as I feel my orgasm rushing in and the pressure builds in my stomach.

fu-fuck im so close I whine as my hips stutter and my breathing execrates the closer I get.

yeah feels good fucking yourself on my cock like a good little girl he asks in a gravely voice that has me getting even closer as my legs start to shake .

so good fuck so fucking good oh god I moan as I lift off and my juices squirt out of me all over his dick and down my thighs .

good girl fuck cumming already he teases in a low voice .

I whine as I sit back down on his soaked lap .

legs tired sweetheart he asks as he tilts his head and smiles .

I nod my head and he picks me up and walks to to the door opening it then making his way down the hall to stairs leading up .

he walks carefully up the stairs then reaches another hall leading to double doors . Opening them it enters into a master bedroom .

he walks over to the bed laying me down on my back and pulling me so my ass in right on the edge .

He slaps his dick on my pussy causing me to moan .

He slides back in slowly before slamming himself into me deep and rough causing me to scream.

J-JESUS CHRIST

he smiles down at me as he pounds into me hitting my spot every time .

such a little slut taking my cock so well he says as he leans down to suck on my tits.

I feel myself getting close to squirting again and try to warn him but no words come out just desperate whines and moans.

I grasp his arm tightly as I feel my juices pour out of me and he groans

such a slut squirting all over my dick like that he mewls as he lifts my legs over his shoulders hitting even deeper .

FUCK - I-C-CANT YOUR TOO DEEP I scream out as he continues slamming into me so hard you can see a bulge in my stomach . I try and push him way by his chest but he just grabs my arms and pins them down easily overpowering me .

nah uh your gonna fucking take it like a good girl until i'm filling up this pretty pussy he growls as I moan and whine under him and my legs begin to shake before I release all over him again.

good girl keep fucking cumming only makes me wanna fill you up more he groans as he drops my legs and pulls out flipping me over so im laying flat on the bed he comes behind me slamming back in as he grabs my hair pulling my head up.

im moaning and whining unable to speak as overstimulation settles over me and tears well in my eyes.

who's pussy is this he groans into my ear as his thrusts get harder.

y-yours FUCK MATT -all yours I moan / scream out as he hits deeper and my ass presses back into him.

mmm that fucking right your all mine he groans as his hips art to loose rhythm and he smalls into me a couple more times before filling me up.

he pulls out groaning at the sight off his cum spilling out of me

you did so good baby he says before kissing my head and walking to the bathroom and coming back with a rag to clean me up.

you okay he asks as he cleans my legs off

mhm im great I say with a smile . He chuckles before he stands back up and throws the rag In his laundry .

he comes back and lays down pulling me into his chest .

tired sweetheart he asks in a sweet and soft voice .

yeah exhausted I say as I nuzzle into his chest .

lets get some sleep well shower in the morning he says before he shuts off the lights by the bed and we drift off to sleep.

tags~

@sophia-77n @riasturns @milasturniolo @junnniiieee07 @blahbel668 @sturnsjtop @skyslondon

#matt sturniolo #smut #fanfiction

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fairuzfan · 4 months

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ahlan. maybe ignore this if you’re not american, but ive seen what you’ve said about biden and i obviously agree hes a bloodthirsty motherfucker who doesn’t deserve a single vote from people who claim to care about palestine. but as a palestinian myself, what do you say to these americans that are like “well what else are we supposed to do, vote for trump?” cuz i genuinely am not sure myself either.

my first thought would be to just not vote or vote for a third party and focus on calling represantatives and marching in the streets until some semblance of change can occur. But I wonder how practical that really is.

A part of me is screaming very loudly about how idgaf about practicality and if they really cared then they would act in a more direct manner because it seems very whiney for them to be like “we dont have a choice :(( hes the lesser of two evils” (the dude whos playing a huge role in committing a literal genocide) when people in gaza are going through literal hell. it boils my blood but im trying to think of what they can do really and set my emotions aside for a second.

Do you have any thoughts on this? and thanks for taking the time to read btw.

No problem, Ahlan to you also!

Honestly I'm not voting on a federal level. Congress, senate, and the president have blatantly shown us they don't care about our opinions. We have been calling and emailing for months and they just flat out ignore us. So what's the point in voting if they're not going to listen to us? I told them that I won't vote for them unless they call for a ceasefire and I mean it!

I see Claudia de la Cruz seems to be popular, I'm not especially motivated in voting for anyone for president but you personally might be interested in looking into it.

I just genuinely don't see the point in voting for president since I think the whole system is messed up and I'm not sure anyone can fix it. So I choose not to participate beyond local elections. But that might not feel like it's helpful, and again, I don't think you should take my word for it lol but it's just my perspective. I don't think people who vote for Biden are necessarily.... bad people all the time but I do think people who pretend like they're doing a great service to others by voting for him are objectively bad. Like I don't care, if you're trying to pass off the genocide of Palestinians and the third nakba as a "necessary evil" then I think you're a bad person and I will never take what you say about politics seriously.

People pretend like we are protecting democracy by voting blue but when democrats just blatantly ignore us as we overwhelmingly participate in dissent in the ways our "democracy" allows us.... then sorry we don't live in a democracy. Full stop.

I'm not sure if what I said was reassuring or anything, and again, I think you should still look into the candidates and arrive at your own conclusion but I am thoroughly disillusioned by the entire system and I don't think anything will change that anytime soon.

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 9 months

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AITA for not giving my mom my old facebook account?

This may sound like validation bait but tbh she has a way of making the things she asks for sound so normal that i feel crazy for questioning it, so maybe i need a little validation.

A little over a year ago my mom started getting into buying blind boxes of leather goods. She found a facebook group of people with the same hobby, where they trade and sell pieces from the blind boxes, and it kind of took over her life for a little while. After a while she got banned from the group which, honestly, isnt surprising to me. She has a tendency to be really mean out of nowhere - i had to unlearn a lot of habits i learned from her in order to stop constantly getting into arguments online. To an extent, i cant really blame her for it, since she has chronic pain and it's hard to be nice all the time when youre constantly in pain, but there are also time when she'll just say something needlessly mean or judgemental about a person and expect me to laugh with her, because thats her sense of humor.

But after she got banned, she started asking me if i could give her access to my old facebook account to get back in. I havent used facebook in years and honestly have no desire to go back to it, but it feels like an invasion for her to ask for it. Shes the kind of person who's hard to directly say "no" to, though; she always has to ask why, and if the reason you give isnt good enough for her, she'll argue until you just say "yes." I also really feel like i dont have the right to say no when she asks me for things, since im 26 and still live with my parents, and i owe them a lot. So, when she asked, i made an excuse about not having access to the email address attached to my account, and ive sort of just awkwardly dodged the question any time shes brought it up since.

Am i right that this is kind of an insane thing to ask for, or am i an asshole for not just saying yes?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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contentment-of-cats · 1 year

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F*ck anons

Hate, Harassment, and Threats: Coping and Handling

It happens and it's happened since the rise of LJ. I remember getting my first hatepost and how much it upset me, but I was never a target in the way that many were. LJ was truly the wild and wooly west - Dodge City or Deadwood, when people thought it would be a utopia. We had greyfaces, anons, sock puppets, and meat puppets. For people transitioning from controlled environments like e-Groups, Listserv, and forums it was not the mod-free utopia that they might have wished for. Real fandom scandals and legitimate harm to fans have been built on anons, sockpuppets, and greyfaces.

Terminology

Anon: Anonymous account either from outside the service or from an established account that has been anonymized.

Greyface: LJ term for an account with no identifiers, created explicitly to harass.

Sock Puppet: Account created by one person with the intent of being perceived as a separate individual.

Meat Puppet: Also used to be called a fanpoodle. A person whose actions are directed by another. Also called a muppet for having the controller's hand shoved so far up their ass that it can work their mouth.

Defining Hateposting/Cyberstalking/Harassment/Threats

First, there is a federal law -18 U.S. Code § 2261A Stalking - that defines stalking and harassment. Full text is here, with excerpt below:

(2) (Whoever) with the intent to kill, injure, harass, intimidate, or place under surveillance with intent to kill, injure, harass, or intimidate another person, uses the mail, any interactive computer service or electronic communication service or electronic communication system of interstate commerce, or any other facility of interstate or foreign commerce to engage in a course of conduct that— (A)places that person in reasonable fear of the death of or serious bodily injury to a person, a pet, a service animal, an emotional support animal, or a horse described in clause (i), (ii), (iii), or (iv) of paragraph (1)(A); or (B)causes, attempts to cause, or would be reasonably expected to cause substantial emotional distress to a person described in clause (i), (ii), or (iii) of paragraph (1)(A),

Laws can vary from state to state. 48 states have some laws on the books, with 44 having criminal penalties. You'll need to contact local law enforcement or look them up on your state legislature's website.

All forms of online harassment can be grouped under the label of cyberbullying. How do you know what is or isn't cyberbullying? There is a comprehensive list. Even some things that you didn't think might be bullying are, in fact, bullying. Unfortunately, the FBI seems to focus on financial crimes and scams, and have changed their reporting pages to reflect that. In all cases using the internet to convey threats as defined under 18 U.S. Code § 2261A need to be documented and reported to the FBI.

Documenting: Keep the Reciepts

Documenting online abuse is key to stopping online abuse. To be Tumblr specific, screenshots of DMs, replies to your posts, posts harassing you, reblogs of your posts with abuse in the comments and tagjacking or abusive hashtags, screenshots of anons/sockpuppets and harassing asks need to be kept. You need your receipts.

Fuck Anons

Anons are not worth your mental health or the pleasure and community you derive from fandom.

"But some of my followers are shy!"

They can create an account that they can use just for doing asks. Exposing you to abuse and bullying should not be the price of someone being shy. I have also turned on anons when someone has asked me to via DM, in a post comment, or via an anon comment on my Ao3 so that they could send me an ask without unmasking themselves. This protects me and protects them.

Tumblr recently started requiring a valid email address to send an anon without being signed in. This could be seen a couple of different ways - Tumblr wants some sort tabs on people using their site anonymously, or that they want people sending anons to create an account. There is nothing to stop an anon from creating a burner email account in order to harass, so that only goes so far.

Block anons. I am serious. Just go into your account settings and do it. You can even turn off asks entirely.

Per Tumblr: "Anonymous asks are not associated with a specific account, and blocking those will block the IP address of the sender."

So, if you block an anon and someone suddenly disappears from your followers, or you get a follower asking why they can't see or interact with your blog, then you have your answer as to where your anon bullying might well be coming from.

However, isn't it easier to just turn off anons?

Yes. It is. My anons are kept off 99.9 percent of the time and I sleep just fine.

Other Tips and Tricks

You can control who reblogs your posts. The default is that anyone on Tumblr can reblog. You can also block anyone from reblogging. The new feature offers middle ground by allowing you to add users allowed to reblog by mentioning them. I don't know if this extends to other parties reblogging from the people you allowed to reblog, however. Click on the little gear to access the dropdown.

From the Settings Menu

In addition to the default, you have two other options under the dropdown.

Tumblrs you follow and that have been mutuals with you for a week can reply

Only Tumblrs you follow can reply.

Keep the people you follow private by toggling this off.

Toggle off to stop DMs from people you don't follow.

Hide your Tumblr from people without a Tumblr, or from people who are signed out. Remove your blog from Tumblr search results or from search engine crawlers.

Finally, you can block DMs on a case by case basis, too.

Finally, it can be hard to start over, but when the bullying is too much and too persistent, you can back up your blog or take it private and start a new Tumblr with people you trust.

Other Resources

Online Harassment Field Guide - a really comprehensive source

#anon help #anon harassment #anon hate #block anons #block media in asks #blocking at ip level #blocking

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will-noble-owns-my-ass · 1 month

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You Will Be Found IV || Cal Knight

(Not my GIF)

Cal stood looking at the entrance of the Holby City Emergency Department. He was excited to go back to work there. Of course he was. Things had changed, he would adapt, he knew he would. But he also knew that it would take time. Some big changes had happened since he was last here.

His sister had a house now. He had a nephew now. He was Uncle Cal, and the change he was most proud of? His sister and her best friend were his bosses. He was snapped out of his thoughts by a little "Say hello to Uncle Cal." He looked over and saw his sister and her little family.

"Hey Amy, Rash." He smiled

"You okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine."

She looked at him for a second. Rash stepped in then. Taking Isaac from her gently and kissing her cheek "I'll take him to the creche. I'll be back and ready for debrief."

"Thanks love, see you soon. Love you both."

"Love you too. Say bye mum." he said quietly to Isaac as he made him wave at her gently. She smiled and waved back a little "Have a good day." She smiled as they walked toward the creche.

Cal smiled, wrapping his arm around her shoulder "You really are happy aren't you?"

"I am." She smiled and looked up at him. "Right you. Tell me what's going on in your head."

"Nah. Nothing. I'm fine."

"Yeah. Cause standing staring outside the Emergency Department is fine. Come on so, come through to the office. I've got your ID in my desk."

"Okay." He took a deep breath and started following het in slowly. She stopped walking then, looking back at him. "Oh my God! That's part of the problem isn't it?"

"Uh... Yes and no."

She ran a hand through her hair.

"No Amz, I promise you. It's not the fact your my boss. I'm really proud of you. It's just that... There's been a lot of change since... Oh and I haven't even thought about Ethan."

"Understandable." she stopped then "Oh my God. We haven't told him have we?" She ran a hand through her hair as he shook his head. "Oh that's going to be interesting."

He nodded as they made their way into the office and she moved around her desk pulling open the drawer and finding his new pass, switching on her computer as she went.

Suddenly the door opened again "Oh, Hi Cal." Will said as he moved to his own desk "Here. I got you your tea."

"Ah cheers. My shout tomorrow?"

"Sounds good."

Cal chuckled softly

Amy looked up, over the top of the takeaway cup "Oh! Sorry Cal. Here. Here's your new pass." She checked her email, grabbed a post-it, wrote something down and passed it to him. "And this is your new log in. Your locker key is on your pass."

"Oh, thanks Amy."

"No problem. Go get changed while we decide where everyone's going for the day and then I'll introduce you. 'Cause there's some new people since you were last here."

He nodded "Sounds good." He saluted playfully and walked out moving toward the staff room.

She laughed "Okay so... I'm thinking we put him in cubicles. Just for a week or two. While he gets used to the place again."

"Yeah, sounds good." Will smiled softly. They placed everyone else for the day and as they got up and moved to the desk as everyone gathered around it.

"Hi everyone! I hope everyone had a good night." Will stepped forward a bit then. "Before we get into telling you where you'll be based today, we have an introduction- or for some of you it's a reintroduction. " Amy pulled Cal to the front of the crowd around the desk.

"This is my brother, Doctor Caleb Knight." He waved with a slight smile, seeing the shock on people's faces.

"Hi guys. It's been a long time."

"Caleb." Everyone turned then

"Uh... Hey Ethan"

"Amy..."

"Yes Ethan...?"

"Can I... uh... Can I go home?"

"Uh..." she sighed "Yeah go on so."

"Thank you." He turned around and walked straight back out again.

She sighed "Okay so... Doctor Knight, Doctor Monroe, Doctor Masum and Doctor Keogh. If you would join me in cubicles." Will jumped in "And Doctor Kinsella, Doctor Hanna and Doctor Nash if you'd join me in Resus?"

Everyone nodded

"Alright everyone. Let's get on with our days. Come say Hi to Cal when you've got a minute if you want to. And we'll be having drinks in the Hope and Anchor tonight to welcome him back. Have a great day and if anyone has any issues, please do not hesitate to come and find Will or I."

Will smiled at them as everyone moved away "Yis'll be fine. Have a good day Cal. I'll see you both later."

"Cheers Will." He sighed leaning against the desk "I should have gone to see Ethan before we planned for me to come back."

"Maybe so. but it is a difficult situation. We'll handle it together."

"We will?"

"of course we will. You're my brother."

"You promise?" He asked pushing himself off the desk

"I promise. I wouldn't leave you to deal with our brother alone."

She said as they walked toward cubicles. People walking past Cal and welcoming him back as they went.

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barbietoiles · 1 month

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Well if it was swimming with a raft "nager avec un radeau" is totally correct, just not that common mdrrrrr

Yeah our words are weird like who decided that a banana would be "UNE banane"??? My take is that you just learn the pronouns of the words by living your life and earring people talk about these words, but there is no logic to just guess if it's "un" or "une" 😭

In school students often laugh saying that to guess a Spanish word, you have to take a French one and add "o" or "a" at the end (so students often make up words if they don't know the translation lmao)

But for us it's also much more difficult than in English for the gender neutral pronoun ; since in English everything is genderless, you can say "they are tired"

In French, you would say,

for a masculine pronoun : il est fatigué

for a feminine pronoun : elle est fatiguée

so for a gender neutral pronoun : iel est fatigué.e

it's called "inclusive writing"! As you can guess old people and far-right ppl are totally against, saying it's denaturing our language and bla bla bla but in fact, my teachers use it a lot in email to address a big group of students and include everyone like " à tous les étudiant.e.s". Bc we have a dumb rule that we learn in primary school that "masculine win over feminine" (le masculin l'emporte sur le féminin) meaning that if you have 10 girls and only 1 guy, you still have to say "ils" in plural. So with that it's easier to include everyone in written form !

And yep I never really watch multigaming before twitch tbh, there are only two men that can makes me watch league of legend, and they are etoiles and kameto (I don't understand a single thing 🫠)

(The space invader does look better on pc, he even has small codes to help him jump!)

-👾

No logic to it.... i see i see.... you live and you learn.... pain. I must listen to etoiles and baghera well!

The "take a french word and make it spanish" is hilarious and also quite cute kkkk. Its like my sister, who makes english words by saying latvian words in an english accent. And ALSO!! I KNEW IT i mentioned to an irl friend that im learning french and that learning spanish beforehand helped a lot because theyre similar and they said "french and spanish are nowhere near similar". SUCK IT BABY, i know what im talking about!!

The inclusive language looks a bit silly with the full stop lol but i think its clever. -é.e. i can choose to be é or e or . , very nice kkkkk. But yeah, old folks will complain about anything, the pissiness of latvian folks when a "no gender" bathroom is mentioned can be UNREAL (though usualy all the angry people are on the internet loll). Cant imagine how it would be if we tried doing inclusive language lol. (Or maybe we could just do a "oh its like russians ono dont worry about it" reasoning lol)

The "male over female" is a whole rule??? Oh my D: its usual to have the masc form be kind of considered "default", but thats crazy..... We use the "viņ(š)(a)" writing very often in emails and documents, its not considered progressive at all because its what we were always using pretty much? But the masc word always comes first. And ive noticed a phenomenon of masc even being considered "gender neutral", because to kind of neutrally address someone you COULD address them in the plural form, but problem is we also have gendered plural lol. So usually the masc one is used to kind of make the person "gender neutral". Its hard....

Theres going to be league of legends? Oh no... one friend played it all the time and it looks so boring ;u;..... well, its etoiles i dont care if game is boring i can get distracted by his shitty facecam mdr

(Also, im using mdr now, its so fun. Saying it out loud is good "r" practice kkkkk)

#ask bits #octo tag <3

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horce-divorce · 4 months

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I have hard boundaries for myself about how I use social media that I've followed for the last few years. Ever since I briefly left tumblr and tried twitter, I took so much psychic damage from that experience that I had to make new rules about how I use the internet. Setting app timers did nothing for me, so I compromised: im allowed to use social media daily to my heart's content (which I found isnt actually all that much)- as long as isn't the FIRST thing I open when I wake up.

For YEARS it was my habit to crack open my eyes and click into FB or Twitter or Insta before I even got out of bed. It was like this compulsive Need to Know What's Going On Out There. what did I miss while I was asleep? Never much, but always some new drama, some new political blunder, some new Person of the Day everyone was dunking on. I hated it, but I COULDN'T stop. I physically couldn't resist.

So lately I've tried to replace that habit with, just, something else. Anytime I feel the urge to click into social media, I try using another app instead. Usually it's a game (dvc has been great for me bc of the social feature, but just as often I'll open up my coloring book, wordscapes, or any other game that keeps me busy for 2 seconds and fulfills the "click button get dopamine" urge). Especially first thing in the morning. My brain needs a solid 2-3 hours of consciousness before I can handle social media.

A cool life hack I learned recently is that it's easier to get up in the morning if you do something you actually LIKE to do first thing in the day. it's done wonders for my mental health. I went from "ugh, morning again? It was literally morning yesterday," to feeling like Spongebob hopping out of bed going "IM READY!" every day. Clicking into social media was NOT something I was doing because I liked it. Gaming is something I do because I love it. I love checking on my dragons, it makes me feel HAPPY to have looked at them, i make new friends playing games bc we already have something in common (ive rarely made new friends on social media. I used to make friends ALL THE TIME playing games like neopets, roleplaying and posting on forums, and building little websites and things- ive even made a bunch of friends on tumblr. Never on FB, though). It's a world of difference getting up and checking on my animal crossing villagers, who fill me with glee and delight, vs looking at FB first thing in the morning and feeling bitter about all the people I know who aren't paying attention to me.

So anyway, this has worked SHOCKINGLY well for me? Usually just clicking another app and looking at it for a minute fulfills the urge to have clicked the FB button, or whatever, which then goes away- and I have sated my craving without pissing myself off, and without creating additional urges by going on social media. I have been using social media SO MUCH LESS since I started doing this and I've been feeling amazing for it. And it's not always games. I also use more practical apps like Bearable and Habitica. Sometimes I'll even click thru my photos or notes instead of clicking the social app.

This morning, I broke my habit. For the first time in weeks or maybe even months, I woke up and clicked FB and Insta first thing. I shared a post or two lately and I was hoping my friends had seen it, but I knew they hadn't even before I looked. 2 likes, no comments. I clicked into Instagram and saw a Reel from Kevin James Thornton, a comedian and whole media personality who has over 600k follows on Instagram alone, pleading with his existing fans to choose to check up on him and to sign up for his email list instead, because the algorithm only wants to hook new followers. The 600k existing ones aren't good enough. Gotta have that exponential growth or else our shareholders will be very cross with us!

I realized this morning what it is about FB that makes me so irate, the thing that creates additional urges to post my whole ass and pick fights and be as annoying as possible: because I hate feeling like I'm being ignored. And this is a feeling social media manufactures for you CONSTANTLY. You log on and ONLY see posts that are already popular, posts that are already "getting engagement." Everyone else is clearly online commenting and interacting with all this other stuff except for yours. Why aren't you good enough? Don't they like YOUR posts? Why are they ignoring you? What did you do wrong?

You can KNOW wholeheartedly that Facebook gives incentives to certain posts/posters and that it does the opposite with certain topics, especially socio-political ones. You can know that it's the algorithm refusing to show your posts, and not your friends ignoring you. But still, you have a page, people know how to find you- can't they come to your page to check? Did they forget you exist? Do they just not care? You can SEE they're online, and they can see YOU'RE online, so what's not clicking???

In me, at least, this WILDLY increases the urge to post something dramatic, incendiary, or outrageous just to get a response. OH, you guys don't like me when im being polite and quiet? You'll really hate me when I decide to be annoying on purpose!

Which then increases engagement, providing you with positive reinforcement for posting "controvertial" things, starting fights, posts that provoke people into responding... If you wont choose to interact with my posts? Fine. I'll make the urge fucking irresistible. A positive reinforcement for fighting and doing other unpleasant things we don't like, and supposedly don't want to use social media for, and yet.

It's not merely that posting misinformation and getting in fights is profitable to these platforms. Why is it profitable? Because the more you engage with (read: fight) random strangers, the more other, new people are also exposed to your inflammatory conversations, which in turn sparks a response in them, and so and so forth.

If we all just gained 600k followers and then stopped, and we all saw every update they made, and we all just hung out in our own corners and minded our own business? Sure, that would be lucrative for the creators with all those followers, but Instagram wouldn't be experiencing exponential growth- they need MORE new users, MORE old users spending MORE time on the app, following MORE people, leaving MORE comments, SEEING MORE ADS, because they need more and more and more for their shareholders. Influences are the product just as much as regular users.

I'm thinking about that post that talks about how, as income inequality gets worse and the middle class shrinks, advertising gets more and more aggressive, despite people's ability to spend shrinking with each new day. This feels similar somehow? Like, people are starting to get wise to the fact that social media makes us feel like crap, and that the excuse of "I have to use it to stay connected to everyone else" falls flat when you're not actually connecting with those people. Even as the internet continues to shrink, more and more people are getting fed up with social media and using it less, or leaving outright, because it's becoming less and less usable, more ad-ridden than ever. And yet it reinforces the need for those platforms to get more aggressive, to bring in more users to replace the ones they're losing. It's a never ending cycle of "we have to cause you psychic damage! in the interest of roping in more people to damage psychically :)" and we all know we're doing it, and we all hate them for it, and yet we can't stop.

Once again I have to mention that absolutely fucking BIZARRE interaction my bf had the other day. Someone he knew "liked" a comment that was spreading misinformation and a very anti-treatment sentiment about DBT. He messaged this friend privately to ask if they really thought that. They told him, "I dont know what DBT is. I just click 'like' on any comment someone I think is cool makes." When my bf pressed them further, along the lines of, "why would you do that?" They said "for engagement." This was not an influencer, this is not a brand or a page or a business account they were using. It was a personal account w a few hundred friends. I just CANNOT get over this. Clicking buttons just because they're there, "for engagement" lmao. Engagement for whom, my good bitch? They might be interacting with your posts, but this is not "your" platform. The engagement isn't for you, sweaty. But ok.

I dont have a conclusion or any suggestions here. Just an observation. What a fucking mess. Social media demanded that we all make ourselves available 24/7, trained us to React instead of to care, convinced us all that we are each some kind of personal brand that requires social marketing to maintain, got us to pick fights with each other constantly as a result, made the internet a miserable place to be, and we have thanked them for the privilege.

Anyway. No more letting the algorithm tell you what to care about today. Contact me thru a series of intricate rituals or not at all. If it's really that important you can send me a Neomail 👍

#me #internet #join me on neocities too btw. im horce-divorce.neocities.org #im probably also gonna make a new personal tumblr #this ones getting too many follows and i dont want my mom to find it

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khodorkovskaya · 1 year

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05.01.23

my parents are coming to my place tonight and im gonna surprise them with a three course fancy dinner! 😈 i love surprising people with gifts and nice things. it's the same feeling of mischief you would get if you were planning to prank someone but with better consequences. ive been chuckling to myself throughout the day like "heheheh they don't know what awaits them! mwahaha!"

i got two avocados on sale today and i have celery and left over lumpfish caviar. so for starters im gonna make some kind of fancy toasts i think. for the main dish im gonna make stir fried noodles with beef and vegetables bc my stepdad complains about not ever eating enough vegetables so he's gonna be v happy. i even bought wood ear mushrooms, his favourite! ahhh i just can't wait too see the look on his face when he's gonna see it! and for desert i got us strawberry swiss roll, my mum's gonna love it! im so excited!!!

anyway, isolating myself has been v fulfilling so far. ive been super burned out after the past couple of months. i have so many unopened messages on whatsapp and instagram and ive been ignoring all of my friends bc im just so tired... the only people i talk to are my bestie from france (who's taking a break from social media so i send her emails), my cousin and occasionally my zurich friend over messages and my parents irl. it's made me realise that the last time that i was alone with my own thoughts was when i was like what 13? enough of touching grass! i need to be alone and self reflect! bc all this time i was just so distracted by everything and everyone. and i really needed to stop letting things just happen to me and take a step back and think. and now is the perfect time to do that bc im working from home (and next month im gonna be working at the shop), i don't have to worry about B's needs and i don't have uni until mid february.

so i was thinking about why some people are obsessive and some aren't. maybe it has something to do with morals and values again. for example my london bestie has such a strong moral compass, i don't think ive ever met anyone else like that. ever since we were kids she'd always say things like "you don't do that" or "that's not how it's supposed to be". and ive always wondered how she knew these things. id pretend to be like her and also say "you don't do that" and pretend to be outraged at certain people's behaviours, but id never understand the why of any of it. she on the other hand always instinctively knew what was right and wrong, what should be done and what you "don't do". and i think that's why she fits in so well anywhere she goes. that's why she feels comfortable at her office job and can make friends. because it's what "you do". but i always feel like i need an explanation. and if im not given one then i do the things you're supposed to do but don't see any meaning in them and become unhappy.

it reminded me of how whenever we'd go for walks with B my mum and my bestie would often shake their heads in disapproval bc it's something "you don't do". my mum would often say "you can't just drop what you're doing and run to see him, you should value yourself". and i never understood what it meant. in my head it would be clear: B asks me to go for a walk and im not particularly busy and i enjoy walks with him => i say yes and join him.

this really stood out to me when we had a falling out with nik. we were in the middle of an argument in our groupchat and my bestie said something along the lines of "you don't do that" to him and he replied with "ok, i know you know what's right and what's wrong. it's just that in my mind, there's also what's logical and what's not.". and yeah, screw nik, but i think this message really shows the way people function. some instinctively know what's right and what's wrong, what you should and shouldn't do. and some need an explanation.

and back to the topic of obsession, my bestie is a very balanced person. she just instinctively knows things and with this knowledge she's never been drawn into any extremes. she's never been a hardcore die-hard fan of anything, she's never liked anything to the point of obsession. i, on the other hand, have been through i don't know how many obsessive phases. i always need to have a favourite thing in every single category of things. my notes app consists of endless lists of my favourite things: top 5 favourite foods (do i like chocolate better than cheese??), top 10 friends, list of my favourite family members etc etc. every single thing i engage with needs to be ranked and i can't just be chill about anything. i need to be consumed by what i consume, otherwise i don't feel it. and that includes love. i didn't just like B, i was obsessed. i was convinced that it was written in the stars, that every little coincidence we had was so much more than it was. id look at him and my head would start spinning.

maybe it's because some people are born empty and some are born full (born or brought up idk). ive always felt like an empty vessel that life just flows through. ive never had thoughts of my own or ideas i came up with by myself and didn't just steal from a book or a youtube video or while trying to act like someone else. and maybe that's why i become obsessed and feel the need to fill my natural emptiness with things i interact with. and others like my bestie, who are full with a natural understanding of life, don't have that much empty space in them to fill.

anyway, im finally in the process of developing thoughts of my own and trying to find my values. hopefully one day i'll be able to say "you don't do that" and really mean it and understand it. and make more valuable friends. and become a complete person.

#january

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haloburns · 1 year

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yknow. i dont talk abt being disabled a lot on here past making jokes but like

i was gointhrough emails on my uni account and deleting a lot of things, and watching my condition raipdly get worse in spring of 2021 through those was surrel. like i remember most of it because of constant recounting to the doctor's (the amount of doctor's messages too is wild), but it's also so weird for me to read an email to my Chinese lang prof telling her I couldn't participate in class that day because brain fog was so bad even after sleeping all fucking day.

like, in my mind, i went from a normal able bodied person to pretty severely disabled over the course of two years. i told my other disabled friends i hurt all the time and theyre like "well how long has this been going on" and i was like "oh two years, but im thinking maybe more. but i dont have chronic pain, it just Happens To Me" and this was BEFORE i had a chronic fatigue crash that cemented CFS in my body as a real and present thing. now i have to contend with it every day, along with the complications its brings.

now, i've been dealing with chronic pain for. an inordinate amount of years now. i've been disabled MUCH longer than i've been aware. the further back i think, the more i realize i've hurt and i either didnt realize that wasnt normal or i told people and they brushed me off.

my knees hyperextend. they have my whole life. (i had to go back and find picture evidence of this because my mom didnt remember) this causes a lot of pain on my feet, and has at least since middle school. i didnt like playing outside bc it hurt and was exhausting, but everyone assumed it was bc i was a bookworm and fat. i remember sitting next to the older family friend i was at the zoo with because both of our feet hurt from walking. i was 10. she was 60.

and i just wonder... how much did my doctor not notice??? i went through precocious puberty and she was never concerned. i started puberty at 7, and got my first period at 9. i havent grown since age 11. my tits are massive for my height bc THEY didnt stop growing until i was 21. she never mentioned my knees bending back, but she did mention my back/posture being a little weird (not weird enough to FIX apparently. ps i have a small unnatural curve of my spine, not sure if its scoliosis or not). my mom constantly feels guilty bc no one noticed, but tbf i never brought it up. i never thought i was hyperflexible/double jointed but it turns out i AM which means i was just a dumbass adhd kid who assumed everyone was like that.

and like. my joints are causing more and more problems. i started having more problems after my surgery as a result of the stress on my body, who knows what's gonna happen now that ive had covid??

i hyperextended my middle finger in my sleep and now it hurts to use. my right hip hyperextends and possibly subluxes on the regular and i cant fix it. my shoulders are WAY more mobile than they used to be, and i can force my left shoulder out of its socket to some degree while laying on it. the tips of my fingers bend super far down and my thumb apparently "looks like rubber" bc of how far i can bend/wiggle it.

idk, i had a point but i lost it. being disabled is weird and surreal for me, and most days i dont mind bc it makes me the funniest person in any room, but some days it REALLY fucking sucks

#ecto speaks #my posts #disabled talk #disability talk

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maxverstepponme · 1 year

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Time to be real about the whole Kelly and Max situation, I have many things to say and I don’t even know where to start.

• First of all she admitted there was sparks between them when Max was barely legal and she was 28. This happened in a dinner in Monaco according with her, she said she felt something. ( it’s important to remember Max was already breaking records when he was this young, that’s why she got her eyes on him.) But with this timeline makes me think she was with Daniil if I’m not wrong, so this is both disgusting because it’s grooming and it’s also disrespectful towards her partner and father of her child. She knew she couldn’t get with him at the time so my theory is she waited. Max and his ex, Dilara broke up right after Kelly and Daniil did, in here I really think she tried to contact Max since he knew her brother and tried to make conversation with him. At this point we can really believe he cheated on Dilara with Kelly. Kelly likes to say Daniil broke up with her in her birthday via email but with all this information we can now assume it’s a lie. She makes a web of lies and does not know where to actually stop. These past weekend she said she was sick so she can only advertise an IV company.

•Like in every interview she talks about Max because it’s her only priority. She said she wanted to be a role model of her daughter? Honestly I feel sorry for the kid, her mother is fascist and now it’s also a groomer. Definitely not a role model. Also she always likes to make sure people think Max is Penelope’s father and how their relationship is. We can make contrast with a Max interviewed where he said he didn’t wanted kids for the next years and he didn’t have any. He doesn’t even talk about Penelope.

• She also says she has many things in common with Max, another lie. She goes to this fancy parties and Max hate those, the photos we get when he’s there he looks so bored. He wants his videogames and to be back home doing what he loves. She claimed she was private which is a lie, she shares everything, the only difference is she does photo dumps but she still over shares. Definitely not something Max likes.

•Max grew up with a bad father that would treat him poorly, he grown up in trauma and he didn’t had the help he needed for that. Kelly took that chance and made him believe in all the lies she wants. She even made him believed she got hate on Instagram because of him once which is not true. It’s all lies above lies and he believes because he needs help. If he had the help he needed nothing like this would ever happen.

•Jos is a piece of shit but at least made him open his eyes but unfortunately for Max he didn’t opened. His mother lives from his money so she doesn’t say anything, she wants Max happy so she gets her share, I hate to think like this but maybe Victoria is on the same situation or doesn’t want family drama.

Something happened in the beginning of the year that’s for sure. They are not the couple they used to be but why stay together? Maybe after all this drama Max will open his eyes and finally dump her.

Maybe Kelly has something to make him stay. I heard rumors she may have a sex tape of him and use it to make him stay. I guess we will never know. We can only hope he opens his eyes.

Also in another note, I remember there was here an anon from Monaco. If you have any details please do let us know. People will probably talk.

Also that anon that knew Sophie would be nice to know more details about all of this.

Also tarot reading anon we need you back now. More than ever.

The way she mentioned Penelope rubbed me off the wrong way. It seemed so fabricated and as if she was waiting to say that.

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heystephen · 11 months

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i desperately need a min to vent scout i hope you dont mind

i work freelance and im not from the us but my main client is from there

im missing four paychecks now, all overdue (one is from freakin december!!), and with june ending, i sent in a new one to get paid. all of them together total $10k. ive been reaching out to the client for a while now (since the first one became overdue), who's been finding excuses on why they're overdue. i call it finding excuses because it's not my job to chase them for payments. i do my work, great work, deliver on deadlines and everything, haven't had a complaint. and then i get paid. the money im owed is enough to put a down payment on a mortgage loan for a penthouse apartment where im from. i have leeway for about the end of the year, god forbid anything bad happens. ive reverted to eating like a college student to try saving more which is almost impossible with the inflation rates here. the last time i got paid was half of an overdue paycheck from last july, which wasn't even enough to get through the month.

now, last time i heard from the client was the beginning of last month. i kept sending messages and emails these past few weeks and got no response or anything. i talked to others working with the same client and they also have overdue payments and haven't heard back. so i decided to install a mail tracker before reaching out one more time, just to be sure that my email is at least being delivered if nothing else. well i learned that it has been delivered, and not just that, but opened multiple times. but i hear nothing back. im on the verge of a breakdown, it's so maddening and devastating and i cant even cut the client because who knows when ill hear back then or even get paid and the job market im in is wonky atp. i cant even borrow money from friends and family because they're going to expect it back at some point but i dont even know when ill be able to pay anyone back in that situation. and this is my main source of income. i cant take them to court because im not from the us. all i can do is wait and hope. and it's killing me that ive done all this work with no compensation. not even the decency to hear back after i explained that i need the money to live, pay rent and bills and get food. i cant move back home and revert back to triggering flashbacks that are terrible for my mental health. the reason ive been overworking is to stay as far away as possible from there. i started getting anxiety attacks just thinking about all this.

anyway that's all i got im exhausted and cant stop crying rn

anon im so sad for you because this entire situation is so unfair and it sounds so exhausting. there's no excuse for this client to be ghosting you for this long, like at the absolute very least, they owe you the dignity of a response. you provided a service and you're entitled to your payment. i love u. :(

#i wish i could think of something helpful but i came up w/ nothing #i got mail*#anonymous

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delcakoo · 2 years

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hi ema! i hope all is well <3 today i plan on fixing my spotify playlists! do u perhaps have any recs? its kind of intimidating because i have a lot of playlists to go through in a bit,,, but ive been putting it off for far too long now so TT anyway,,, i hope you treat urself kindly today! hydrate & take breaks as needed <3 stay lovely as always (+ i cant stop reading your jake x short!reader headcannon,,, brb alerting houston bc theres def a problem & i know its going to escalate much more when heeseungs comes out… im rlly not ready at all ema TT) — 🫘

HEY BEANIE BOO 🫶🫶🫶🫶 yesss all is well because it’s finally the weekend bsjshdj 😭

OO OMG THAT SOUNDS FUN !!! bestie… dont even get me started w song reccs i’ll go insane and start giving u a whole list but. pspspsps i highly recc emails i cant send by sabrina carpenter (tbh the whole album is top tier but hdjdh), life is still going on by nct dream, poppin star by txt, and faded in my last song by nct u <333

awh thank you sm love :( this made me smile <3 the same goes for you, get lots of sleep and eat well !!

BEJSHKSD IM GLAD U ENJOYED THE JAKEY HC WOOOO 🫶🫶🫶 funny cuz i actually just finished writing hoons ver 🏃🏃🏃 IM WAITING A BIT TO POST IT THO (im sorry for making u wait but 🧌🧌)

and omg ur hee biased????? so true so true 😍😍 i pulled his iconic hoodie pc from d:d essential and i havent been the same since LDDNKDNS also sadly his ver will be the last since other members were requested first so T-T rip

god i love hee biases sm,, US???!! 🫂🫂

#delcakoo #🫘 anon

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contentment-of-cats · 1 year

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Hate, Harassment, and Threats: Coping and Handling

Terminology

Anon: Anonymous account either from outside the service or from an established account that has been anonymized.

Greyface: LJ term for an account with no identifiers, created explicitly to harass.

Sock Puppet: Account created by one person with the intent of being perceived as a separate individual.

Defining Hateposting/Cyberstalking/Harassment/Threats

First, there is a federal law -18 U.S. Code § 2261A Stalking - that defines stalking and harassment. Full text is here, with excerpt below:

Documenting: Keep the Reciepts

Fuck Anons

Anons are not worth your mental health or the pleasure and community you derive from fandom.

"But some of my followers are shy!"

Block anons. I am serious. Just go into your account settings and do it. You can even turn off asks entirely.

Per Tumblr: "Anonymous asks are not associated with a specific account, and blocking those will block the IP address of the sender."

However, isn't it easier to just turn off anons?

Yes. It is. My anons are kept off 99.9 percent of the time and I sleep just fine.

Other Tips and Tricks

From the Settings Menu

In addition to the default, you have two other options under the dropdown.

Tumblrs you follow and that have been mutuals with you for a week can reply

Only Tumblrs you follow can reply.

Keep the people you follow private by toggling this off.

Toggle off to stop DMs from people you don't follow.

Hide your Tumblr from people without a Tumblr, or from people who are signed out. Remove your blog from Tumblr search results or from search engine crawlers.

Finally, you can block DMs on a case by case basis, too.

Finally, it can be hard to start over, but when the bullying is too much and too persistent, you can back up your blog or take it private and start a new Tumblr with people you trust.

Other Resources

Online Harassment Field Guide - a really comprehensive source

#bullying #harassment #abuse #threats #how-to

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ofstormsandfire · 2 years

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hi. hello. this is sailormars7111 from ao3, in case you couldn't tell from the nickname (that is not meant to be rude at all, sorry if it is)

I LOVE YOUR FICS

its currently my life goal to read through every single one of your pokemon fanfics because i fucking love pokemon it is my life and you write them so well it is impossible to not like your fanfic.

i first discovered you through "There's blood of your lies" and holy shit i love that fic. absolutely amazing. wish i could give a million kudos.

since then ive just been reading fic after fic written by you and they are AMAZING

i love how every character gives their pokemon nicknames, i love the story with Cyrus, Riley, Cheryl and Cynthia going on their pokemon journey, and ive thought of a few ideas to expand on that (what if cynthia had died, and cyrus had kept going on became champion? what if cynthia had convinced cyrus to stay just a little longer, ending up with them not trying to reshape the world? what if someone else had formed Team Galactic, what would they have done differently? the ideas i have-)

Anyway, i am a major fan of yours and i wish i could show some more appreciation. when i figured out you had a tumblr, i ran over here practically feral so that i could just give you major kudos.

please keep writing. yours is some of the best ive ever read.

btw, if i were to ever actually write a fanfic with the sinnoh people, can i use the nicknames for their pokemon you gave them? im attached to the nicknames. i also love nicknaming my pokemon.

youre so cool

oh HI HELLO!!! so I sort of. lost my account briefly, long story, brain scrampled egg and I ended up forgetting not the password to my account here but the email associated with it.

(I have logged into so many old accounts in my attempts to get here. I have seen terrible, terrible things, relics from when I was a repressed baby in catholic middle school. but I'm back now babey!)

anYWAY! very nice to see you here! and thank you very much, I appreciate it a ton! I have a lot of thoughts about cynthia, and the pokemon world in general, and just. that ends up translating itself over to ridiculous amounts of headcanoneering, worldbuilding, and Feelings.

still have no idea how blood on your lies ended up being as popular as it is? (okay, I do have some theories, but a very large part of it was sheer dumb luck and either way, it doesn't feel quite real that I'm the author of a fic this popular?? cool as hell though.)

seriously, thank you so much! stuff like this does keep me going, though re: continuing to write? there is literally no force in this world or any other that could stop me from writing something. encouragement just helps me do it faster ehehe.

you're super cool, too! for reaching out to the authors you like and letting them know how much you appreciate them! means a lot <3 thank you

#askbox #writing things #hey check out how hard I can CRY #arceuscansuckmydick #(also that username is hilarious. sparks joy.)

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Been interesting lately!

Passed out apple ballots on the 8th (featured picks of the teacher's union, which is super helpful because they cover the less exciting folks people forget to think to vote for) and my lymph nodes had been a little swollen. Not good.

I wake up at 2 am DRENCHED through the sheets in sweat. Chills, fever, feeling faint, the whole shebang. Ok, my insurance is a one stop shop kinda place, and it's great that it's 2 am, nobody's gonna be there at the urgent care!

Took about an hour in all, and they test me for flu and COVID. I call off Thursday and Friday to be safe since I don't have the results yet. In that time, I keep getting worse. Constant chills, no appetite, fever, headache, HORRIBLY swollen and painful lymph nodes. I'm achy, I'm faint, I feel awful.

I get an email Friday from my vice principal telling me we need to meet Monday due to "issues that occurred during [my] absence". What the fuck? I email for clarification on the issues so I can fix them for Monday, since I'm still terrible and not getting better at all. Radio silence, of course.

Sunday morning, I'm so faint that I can tell I have to be dehydrated. I'd been chugging fluids best I could, but couldn't keep up. I call the advice nurse, and she tells me to get a ride to urgent care.

168 heart rate, dehydrated to hell and back, and they set me up with an IV. I have the world's teeniest and deepest veins, so they have to use a vein finder, and eventually an ultrasound to set another IV in. I'll spare the details, but they dropped me full of 5 liters of saline, and probably took half as much blood out for tests LOL.

I was at urgent care for over 24 hours before they forwarded me to a hospital for 5 days of just sitting, 5 liters of saline a day, blood draws, and watching The Last Airbender for the first time.

They tested me for everything under the sun. My liver and spleen are a hot mess, but I'm feeling a lot better. The jaundice is a little funny, but I'm just pretending to be Bela Lugosi.

The mono test came back negative, so they had to redo it and an Epstein Barr Virus test, and that wouldn't come back until after I was back home.

Turns out I not only had(ve) Mono, but also had(ve?) Metapneumovirus at the same time! What a deal!

Turns out the meeting my admin wanted had nothing to do with my sub plans or anything, but they don't like that my classroom is messy, and are apparently cleaning it? They've harped on me about it for the entire time this principal has been here, yet they can never come up with criteria or an explanation for what they consider to be clean for my classroom. I've told them in the past that we obviously have different standards, and I need help. I never get an explanation, though.

That, and their general shitty treatment of the specials team since we've been back from the pandemic has been the last straw, and this is going to be my last year at my school. I love the community and the kids, but the weird power tripping/scapegoating admin pulls on the specialists isn't something I feel like putting up with any more.

They're not gonna know what they've lost, but they shouldn't have emailed my husband and heckled me about sub plans while I was in the fucking hospital.

I'm on the mend, though! Just been eating best I can, sleeping when I feel tired, and playing a ton of pokemon Scarlet.

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