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mamawasatesttube · 1 month

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it shouldve been ives........... man.......

#rimi talks #like im glad it wasnt in a way bc im glad megfitz didnt ruin him. if she was gonna ruin anyone im glad it was bernard and not ives or danny #but also the beautiful disaster in my mind of timives as tims first mlm romance that ends terribly but gently bc ives finds him out #bc ives Knows him. so of course he finds him out. it was only ever a matter of time.#and ives knowing tim is lying to him and has been lying to him for YEARS actually has an impact on their relationship. unlike some comics--#anyway they break up but it is gentle. bc ives gets why tim did it but also needs some time/space to process it #so they agree to stay friends. and its bittersweet but it really moves their bond forward.#like... augh the way timives is doomed from the moment tim decides to be with him bc ives knows him too well for the lies to hold forever.#it's a ticking clock from the very first time they hold hands romantical styles and laugh at a bad movie together.#the fact that they know each other so well is the thing drawing together and the thing that will break them apart #MAN. REMEMBER WHEN TIM LYING ALL THE TIME ACTUALLY IMPACTED HIS RELATIONSHIPS #sighs............ timives doomed bittersweet beautiful romance the comic you could have been. the queer themes you could have explored.#alas.......................................................................................................

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cupiidzbow · 10 months

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i know it’s 3am but i was like… what if i had a lil treat

#ive been feeling so out of wack and I was like whay am i missing ☹️#draw your ships boy !!!!!!!#and it worked. im normal now (lying)#but he makes my head all swimmy i like him so much BOOOOOO 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅#i should go to sleep but whatever we move #🦍🏄‍♂️🌊#draws! ✏️

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moupies · 9 months

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Heyyy guysss it’s meeeee

Bonus wukong under the cut

Okay that’s all

#I did. this for a school project and I liked it and decided to return from my disappearance #lmk macaque #lmk #lego monkie kid #lego macaque #pies occasionally draws!!#IM BACK (lying)#sorry if you’ve moved on from lmk and this is a jumoscare #lmk fanart #lmk fandom #lego monkie kid macaque #I lvoe this ep sm the screenshot redraw was inevitable #now that I’m back who’s exited for me to be annoying about s4 #unfollow while you still can #hey wait is this the first full peice ive posted here? WAIT

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phantomrose96 · 2 years

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Hello I’m homeowner now

#and ive been... SO normal about the entire process #<-lying #chrissy speaks #once im packed and moved and settled and have new furniture THEN i promise to be normal again

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crimson-synths · 2 months

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my parent is so frustrating, when she's stressed she takes it out on me and gets mad at me about dishes, or other things on top of that.

when I hardly have any energy or I don't mean to in the first place.

Sometimes I say nasty shit to myself because of this, I think of myself as lazy when really it's internalized abelism I'm trying to face.

She "apologized" but I never accept them or want to, she'll just do it again.

I wish she would take accountability instead of making excuses and saying how hard it is. We have no team work ethic and she still pushes her abelism onto me.

It used to be a lot worse when I was a kid and she showed no love or support.

I'm still trying to heal from it.

I try my best but my body, brain and depression sucks. I hate being isolated having no friends, then dealing with so much rejection and my parents neglect ontop of it fucks me up in so many ways.

I just can't wait to move out, I doubt it'll happen but I can imagine it will I guess.

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tamagotchikgs · 3 months

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sadness n agonies r getting me tonight lads it feels like theres a big knot inside me getting bigger n tighter at the same time n it hurts so much i have no idea what to do but Stand here. i can even sit im too restless im just standing and trying not to cry

#my throat is cramped up from trying so hard #my . existence as a whole is so deeply fucked #everything that made me is just. always here #i can never get away from it #ill never be okay #every time i try to move on i try to give myself an actual life and its There and its stomping it all out #i cant do any of the things i want to #i dont know how to get better when its always there and everyone acts like it isnt #everyone just tells me i need to do it all anyway but i Cant #i want to bust i cant and i know im such a failure for that #my therapist tells me to do all these things but i cant #i dont know how to get there #and whenever i tell her that she just . gets so annoyed #and basically just acts like im lying im making up excuses but i really. i really really dont know what to do #and i dont know what to do about that either #when the one person/place thats supposed to help me with this stuff just. doesnt listen #every time i try to explain she just shuts me down or pushes it aside #and tells me im the only one who can help myself but i . cant #i just cant. ive tried i really fucking have ive put everything i have into it #i cant #so is that it #should i just give up and kill myself #was there never any hope

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seaquestions · 1 year

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devastating: guy with excessive fear and anxiety is also type of person who doesn’t like being wrong, thus making it so any attempt to alleviate the fears and do away with the horrors will come across as ‘corrective’ !

#incoherent turtle noises #the horrors have to be real because if they aren’t real then i am wrong and if i am wrong and the horrors aren’t real then-#who’s flying the plane! anyway ive just been lying down shaking this whole time. i need to shower but im too scared to move.#i dont wanna glitch out in the bathroom again… that was cold…

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todayisafridaynight · 5 months

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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tittyinfinity · 6 months

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Not excited to go back home and give up the rest of my money in the hopes that someone who took 5k from me will still let me live in the house I pay bills in

#it's not even guaranteed. she's unpredictable #sorry about complaining about this so much but i have this thing where i feel like i have to be #completely transparent with every one of my actions in case someone doesnt believe me & accuses me of lying #i bet you can't tell that I've been stalked several times🙃 I've had my every move monitored & ive been accused of shit i didnt do #so many times that i will literally lay out every piece of information about me immediately so no one can ever misunderstand me #and since ive been asking for money i feel like people need to know that im not making the situation up #.bdo

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seven-stars-in-his-palm · 2 months

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rereading comments on my multi chap fic do you remember hanging up the stars and its made me realize how im not very funny but when it hits it HITS. i need to get back to that ffucking fic pleaseeeee

#my betas have not messaged me in 2 months since i last asked. i cant move on without them i need them #be heard #anyways. favorite sentence ive ever written (; = comma):#There was very little margin to fuck that up; and yet Crowley has reached it anyway. Lying was the only way that could be possible.#Aziraphale could sympathize with this--maybe he was trying to spare him of the gory details (unnecessary; he was there)#or he was afraid that he would feel bad for the demons (unnecessary; he was the victim).#i know its a horrible crime to think that you're funny so lock me UP

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conanssummerchild · 5 months

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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

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maliciousalice · 2 months

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My cross to bear is that I didn't like most s2 of ST Pr○ and the story and execution is a hot mess if you take a good look 😞

#it sucks because it didnt have to be but they gave people creative control that nosedived it #i dont want to hate it either i was rooting for it but sit down and look at the story and its easy to see they didnt really #understand what made s1 good #references regression and pride fullfillment is all i see in s2 and it sucks #they gave chakotay a little more room to move and at what cost? 10 freqing years of his life just gone. why? who made that decision without #reflecting on the implications of that? worse is that no one cared about it. not even janeway. things like that neglected for more Wesley #they put their plot and main characters aside to restore faith in a character that had nothing to do with s1 #the time travel was an absolute mess but don't worry it works guys because we had our characters say wibbly wobbly LOL #why do that when there were better ways to get this season across the finish line. simplify and be confident.#the smaller stories are beautifully directed and all that but the plot with the loom and wesley horribly suffocated everything #im tired of people lying about how good this season is #god i could go on...#people are really stupid ive noticed

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coffincoitus · 8 months

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every time someone (or even myself) jokes about the "it's not dead it just went to live at the farm<3" classic lie, I remember the time when I was a kid and my family hid the fact that my grandfather had died for like a whole month by saying he was at the hospital recuperating 😭

#i found out the truth bc my older sister thought I was asleep and began to talk about him being dead over the phone with a friend #i think till this day lying in that bed waiting for her to finish the call and leave #and keeping my breathing even and trying not to move or make a sound while processing everything I was hearing #was one of the most surreal moments of my life lol #it completely shaped my relationship with grief i think (in the sense that i dont. grieve that is)#anyway. it was weird back then but now it's just kinda funny jshdjs #ik ive posted about this before but every now and again I'll remember it and chuckle a little

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aria0fgold · 6 months

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Got distracted and I ended up working on my drawing But then I realized a major mistake on it when I thought I was done with the star veil (yes, again. I changed up the stars at the tips of it, this veil is kicking my ass) and I was erasing stuff already so when I realized I'm like: FUCK-- undo undo undo undo und o un do u n d o. And now I gotta... move All those new lil designs at the tip, Again, so I'm like: Okay... alright... I'll do that Later. I'll write now cuz god Forbid I do anything in that design, it's all mistakes!

#aria rants #that star veil has trapped ME in a time loop of perpetually fixing the thing cuz im never done with it like #this is the messiest drawing ive ever done simply by the Amount of mistakes i have on it and the entire process of it like #past aria wasnt lying about the notes she put for me when i was lazy to do the star veil DAYS AGO but she was only thinking #that: haha future me is gonna bead All those lines >:D well lil did she know is that future her aint gonna bead those lines #anymore but the veil is STILL KICKING MY ASS HARDER THAN WHEN I TRIED TO BEAD IT ALL #also the designs at the tip were supposed to just be stars. but then sirius' heart happened and i was like: i need to put morse code on it #and normally id rely on the circle ruler but i alrdy used circles for the Inner beads. i needed a different kind of circle for the tips #and then i managed to somehow??? freehand a perfectly shaped egg so ive just been duplicating layer and moving #that egg cuz aint no way i can redraw that again. the first was a fluke i didnt know was possible. and i also didnt wanna #redraw the lil dash beads i made via the ruler so ive just been keeping two layers with just one tiny drawing each #of an egg and a slanted rectangle and ngl duplicating and moving those things take up way More of my concentration #than when im just doing the lines over and over again cuz i had to keep track of which layer has which and minimize it #by merging the morse code line ive finished (like once im done for the morse code ''you'' id merge that all tgt)#so i can keep myself from exploding out of incredible confusion on which layer is which but Now i gotta redo ALL THAT #i gotta redo the other ''i love you'' morse code at the right end cuz i Forgot. to leave. a space. at the end.#like the left end has a space (star) before the egg for the first dot of ''i'' but i forgot to do that for the right end.......#theres no space (star) after the rectangle for the last part of ''u''....... i need to move All that-- maaaaaaaaaaannnn #writing it is. ill do writing for now. writing is the best. at least then i dont gotta MOVE EVERYTHING once i made a mistake--

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riacte · 6 months

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had a bit of coffee and weeeeeeeeee rearranged my feel it still au timeline and ohh it's coming together 🔥🔥 or not 🔥🔥 it's like when you have those ideas at 3am that sound cool but not except it's 3pm and i had coffee 🔥🔥

#feel it still au #i moved one of the climaxes like 10 chapters forward :)#lying: the au #the author is slowly but surely becoming more unhinged and it shows from the way characters also becoming more unhinged #the thing abt superhero/villain au is that there needs to be a justifiable conflict (which i struggle with)#and bc of the crack genre my villains usually come out as comedic and cartoonish (re: stanley twit)#i have been parodying / stealing from mine craft the game so there's a basis #but ig doing hero/civilian instead of hero/villain puts less thematic importance on the villains. the mobs can be silly and funny #i can go back to relationship development /conflict (which i realise is also what ive been doing for spopera)#twenty years slow burn... QwQ #anyways if you're following the fic， in my docs im up to.... ch18. hehe

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viosjaan · 6 months

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i don't think you want anything to do with me anymore so i can just vent the texts i want to send to you here

#i am sorry #truly genuinely #ive been trying to justify it to myself that we weren't technically together and you said go kiss other people ill still be here meet your #needs in the way you want #but i think it was #yesterday #this guy flirted with me and i flirted back but then suddenly this wave of disgust and self loathing hit me #like what am i even doing #how could i have done that #you were sitting there thinking we're okay you thought we were still together and im just in a bad mood going thru one of those depressive #episodes you were so understanding when you shouldn't have been because if i say im in love with you i should be there for you every step #of the way.#but you go through so much shit alone and im never there for you or atleast not there for you a lot of times and then i blame you for #liking your bestfriends more like it's so stupid obviously love should be reliable stable #and we were something na. we were everything except the label #i should have told you the moment i started feeling empty and dissatisfied again #but just. this isn't an excuse but like i didn't want to hurt you by bringing up this same fight for the one thousandth time #we agreed that you're not in the position to give more and i agreed to be okay with it and i really was.#but i can't help myself i want to give you everything i hate that feeling that i need to be less love less WANT less. mujhse nahi ho pata #i wasn't lying or pretending to be okay with it i was TRYING my best to be okay with it because i love you and this was the only way to #not lose you forever #now i just want to move on fr and be just friends with you. i can't lose you as a person but i don't know how to make this up to you #i am physically incapable of being in this situationship i want a relationship or a friendship i can't with this in between #which is what i told you in jan. i remember my chest actually feeling heavy with fear bc i was so scared of hurting you and getting hurt #again. jokes on me my worst fears came true all the progress we made by taking space is lost #i don't know if you really deleted my playlist. i tried to listen to more songs from it but they're so. lovely. talking about epic grand #love. which we have. but it's like waving a candy in front of a kid and snatching it away it hurts too much to have all the feelings and #none of the relationship. now that ive talked to some people in the romantic sense i get it #you were my best love my most perfect love there are no flaws there's nothing anyone else can do that can be equal or more to what you did #but idk it isn't meant to be maybe there's no future

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