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malka-lisitsa · 1 year

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#oh i see everyone thinks they can just write her now #ok #enemies got a lotta enemies #*speaker distorts*#I keep being provoked for what reason do you have #i am literally right here #must you stoke this fire #must you ruin friendships like this #ive never been shy about it #ive never once fronted #ugh. its a personal betrayal every single time someone I really liked does this #cant trust no one these days

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adahlenan · 6 months

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[ and it seems my hell is your high water ]

#FFXIV #Gposes #My characters #OC: Lev Dagnyr #Final Fantasy XIV #Azem #OC: Leucothea #heeheehoohoo i dont rly post about my wol bcs im EMBARRASSED #anyways ;w;#I love Lev he's my baby boy who's oh so ocean coded along with his Azem who I just call Luke bcs it's funny. mitron wannabes #poor guy never wanted to be the wol and is literally drowning in all the pressure and expectations bcs of it #shadowbringers spoilers #??#anyways i have a bunch of lore but ive been too shy to share it until now aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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shiteatinggrin · 2 months

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people will hate chuck bass bc of his gothic hero swag and bitchiness

#its the dangerous balance he attains by being cruel and closed off one scene and surprisingly kind and shy the next #sometimes ed estwick just looks like a little boy when hes happy and it throws off my whole vision of chuck #chuck could do wuthering heights but heathcliff could never go up to gossip girl (not bc he would not be able to #but because he could not give enough of a shit about this teenagers website)#lmao ignore ive been watching way too much gossip girl these days with my adorable roomate and it is rotting my brain #chuck bass #gossip girl

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tennessoui · 7 months

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Which of your Obi-Wans do you think have inconvenienced their corresponding Palpatines the most?

my immediate thought was, of course, obi-wan from use my body to break your fall, as obi-wan seduces the companion (anakin) palpatine has been paying money to have tea with and slowly convince to Fall before he can ACTUALLY Fall, wins that anakin's loyalty in a matter of weeks when palpatine has not been able to do that since the first time he paid for anakin's time

and THEN he somehow gets anakin to ALMOST FALL and do something as stupid as KILL the chancellor of the REPUBLIC which also happens to be palpatine so that'a pretty fucking inconvenient

but then i remembered that actually the obi-wan from this au would inconvenience his corresponding palpatine so much more. and it's ten times funnier because it's literally all palpatine's fault, because he's the one who convinced anakin that he was in love with obi-wan, thinking they'd break up eventually and then anakin would hate obi-wan and be pushed away from his only strong connection to the Light....only for obi-wan to love him back and for keeps lol

#asks #obikin #palpatine in that au: so have you broken up yet #anakin: obi-wan is taking me to a three day spa trip off the planet :D ive never been more in love #palpatine: literally fuck that guy hes too old for you #anakin: he was shy about the age difference but i find it really hot :D and he was less shy after i told him that

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phantabula-interactive · 2 years

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Posting my guys while I'm unconscious

#slugart #dragon age #dao #alistair theirin #tiaret cousland #been SHY about posting art. in surgery at time of posting so i cant delete this though. a little scrap ive queued up.#no they will never make eye contact. thats private.

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prettyflyshyguy · 5 months

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I'm watching a contrapoints video on twilight and I am learning so, so much about the dark romance genre, the appeal, and the differences between yearning and craving and I'm getting so galaxy brain

Oh yeah it's all for a fic. It's for a spn fanfic. I'm researching for an spn fanfic I'm writing.

#shy talks #not art #Ive never been a huge romance genre fan #and ive often not understood the appeal of a lot of it NOT ALL just a lot #and FUCK this is a good video #i'm going to be so smart after this #i want to write a romance element (an established relationship)#but I also want to examine twilight from the perspective of a character who doesnt get it #and I used to not get it!!!!!!!#its still not For Me #but I need to Get It #to write about someone Not Getting It #you feel me

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dahldahlbills · 7 months

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just hit 50k in cryptids wip :’)

#chugging along but the book is getting WRITTEN #I have 12.5 scene left btw…#technically in my outline I’m a little past the halfway point #but I think I have ~30k left to go 👀👀#it’s always so funny when you reach a milestone like this bc despite the agony of writing the thing you get all tingly and sappy like..#oh yeah :’) I wrote all that!! I’ve made it so far!!#ive got weird feelings abt this story but i am quite proud #it’s also been a while since I’ve progressed this far with an original project and ngl.. I really missed this feeling 😭#creating is cool!!! we love writing!!!#and just you wait until I reach the end. I’m gonna be so annoying about it (<— will most likely feel too shy to even say anything)#I wrote 5 scenes in like.. twoish weeks. which doesn’t seem like a lot but with the little time I have it honestly is #so if I’m consistent I could finish this draft in ~4 weeks???? 👀👀👀 like.#in a month I could have another book done. that’d be crazy.#anyway. yeehaw :D #blahblahbills #lol I know this means nothing to most people bc I literally never share anything abt this project lol #ew I used lol at the beginning and end of that tag but I don’t feel like retyping all that 💀

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orcgirlcock · 11 months

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i need to kiss someone right now. i need to hold their face as i lean in for the kiss. i need to feel their lips against mine and have our tongues slide across each other. i need to feel the slight hesitation before they finally give in and kiss me back with everything they've got. i need to feel the saliva stringing between our mouths. i need to feel their hands pulling me closer, desperate to feel all of me

#i just woke up from a dream where one of my friends wanted to kiss me but was too shy about it #but i could tell they wanted it so i gently rubbed their face and leaned in most of the way #and let them close the distance. they were still nervous until i slipped my tongue into their mouth #in which case all worry left their head and they kissed me back proper #and it was everything I've ever wanted in a kiss. but now im awake completely unkissed #I'm tired of getting teased by my dreams like that..#i get stuck with all this vivid passionate imagery and no fucking outlet #i feel so pathetic yearning this hard but all my peers have had their first kisses #friends that i wanted to kiss going and kissing eachother in front of me just for the hell of it #the girlfriend i dated for longest refused to kiss me. i got like. maybe 2 cheek kisses? never once on the lips #even when i asked she would say no. i dont resent her for it but Man did it hurt #the closest I've ever gotten was one of my friends shotgunning me hits from his bong #every time my heart flutters and i want to kiss him for real #ive just been searching for someone to kiss me for a very long time #and ive just never found them...

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privatelife · 7 months

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y'all who actually have partners,, what is a text ice breaker to start conversation? im really bad at it 😭

it feels important to note that when we do talk, the conversation flows great we have a nice rapport and complimentary senses of humors it's just starting the conversation that is the problem i think we are both just painfully shy 😔 (and maybe traumatized .)

#all my friends have offered is 'send a meme' which just gets me a heart react which is nice and all but i wanna SPEAK TO THEM.#and ive also done ~little random updates of my day~ which also works but on my days off i dont DO anything so i cant be like .#hey i rotted in bed all day what did you do #i feel like he's interested but shy ?? i guess ?? or maybe unsure if i feel the same way so he doesnt rly initiate #he did the other day just send me a photo of him working as a little life update which i took as a good sign :) and it sparked a short conv #i just dont know what to talk about or rather i wanna talk about literally everything but i dont wanna be annoyingggg #i dont know whats annoying and what isnt i guess is the main issue #he just got back from a 2 week work trip thing like working nonstop and normally we'd both be free tuesdays (tmrw) but since he JUST got #back today i figured it would be rude and/or seem desperate or clingy of me to ask if he wanted to hang this week #am i just crazy ?? oftentimes yes #it's also 10pm on a monday so i couldnt ask now anyway BUT I WOULD STILL LIKE TO JUST TALK #BUT I DONT WANNA BE ANNOYING all ive ever done in the past is annoy ppl or come off too 'weird' by just trying to get to know them #AND I DONT WANNA MESS UP THIS TIME CAUSE I THINK I DO GENUINELY LIKE THIS GUY IVE JUST NEVER BEEN IN THIS POSITIONNNNN #ITS NEVER FELT REAL #OK BYE

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damnedifivoodoo · 3 months

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The stuffed animal I gave to my out-of-state cousin's daughter is apparently her absolute favorite. She'll probably never know me because we see them so rarely but I'm so glad I can be a part of her life somehow 😭

#they're in town right now and the baby is super shy but she gave me a hug by the end of our visit #as a former shy baby who never wanted hugs i felt so honored :')#ive been emotional about this for days. they send pictures of her with the bear now and then and i just 😭😭😭

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rocicrew · 11 months

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i do not think i have felt as seen as i did yesterday

#i was hanging out with a friend #and ive always been shy about my interests bc i was shamed a lot growing up #but we've learned we literally have lots of common ground #admitting to writing fic to someone close to me ??#never thought it'd happen #and to have just warm feelings about it #being nerdy and weird together and having fun ??#i have never felt like i was fully myself with a friend until now

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orcelito · 1 year

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OK so I have an inkling of an idea for a trigun ficlet. A one-shot, really. Not really any plot, but I just have the urge to write my own interpretation of Weird Plant Shit. Like for how much ppl tag this stuff as xeno, most of it's honestly pretty tame. Which kinda makes sense, considering a lot of this is being based off of the plants in stampede, which While uncanny are not NEARLY the amount of inherent horror of the plants in the manga. There's some FREAKY shit going on there. So like. You know. What if I took more inspiration from That for Vash's freaky shit?

#speculation nation #YES this is for a smut idea. dont judge me #ive never posted smut b4 bc ive exclusively been writing akeshu & theyre teenagers #im not interested in writing smut of teenagers #but i have my interests 😭 and i am an undeniable monster fucker. we been knew.#just. vague idea. ppl have run with the plant idea. & id wanna too. but in a different sort of way.#thinking more. venus fly trap kind of situation. NOT easily translatable to human biology #the kinds of shit that may trip even the most adventurous man up. but we all know he would take it in stride in the end.#idfk so much of the allure of this pairing to me is the inherent inhuman nature of vash's physical form. and how that manifests everywhere #the human and the angel. for all that entails.#i dont have an idea for an actual story for these characters yet. my brain is spinning them but it hasnt come up with that yet #but a lil smth self indulgent to just play around with Fun Ideas? i reaaally wanna go for it.#we'll see if i end up writing this. & if i end up posting it.#im both somehow Very solidly kinky and VERY solidly shy about it. aka why i barely post about that kind of stuff.#face in my hands just talking about this here. who knows how i'd fare with posting it.#but if i go thru the trouble of writing it you BET id go thru the trouble of posting it #and you B E T itd be angsty. the inherent longing and unsaid words. what am i if not an unrepentant angst writer lol #thoughts & ideas r spinning. i will have a merry little time.#uhm. do i need to tag this as anything. is this too tmi? i dont even know #WELL if u read the word 'xeno' and keep reading that's on U. sorry #here just in case if ppl r worried i will tag this as #tmi/#sorry lol

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1800duckhotline · 8 months

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salice: i probably shouldn't have read this book. but I have the rights to because the previous owner who was a stupid cunt couldn't decipher it before and I have wanted to be a necromancer for all my life and it's made me a little cuckoo so I think I'm right to do this and if you don't agree well too bad for you

#everyone else like girl are you okay? salice replies Ive never been more fine than now (lying)#there's A REASON she's like this but. I'm shy about explaining it

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hickoryhorneddevils · 10 months

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genuinely so fucking tired of the 'conversation' around 'trauma dumping'. none of you know how to use that word AND none of you motherfuckers understand what boundaries are. like yes if theres a pattern of someone or multiple people throwing heavy and triggering shit on you unprompted then theres an issue and they need to redirect their behavior, but so do you!! you need to communicate if you are uncomfortable and/or do not have the capacity to discuss things!!! YOU.

#and also. the idea that traumadumping is just anytime you have a heavy conversation with someone/friends/family is so. ohhmygod have you #never had a genuine connection in your life. shut up #maybe its just specifically how me and my community and friends exist together but like. im not one to shy away from heavy topics or to tal #about my own life experiences including trauma sometimes like if its relevant? like its not venting but its just fucking conversation??#like i consider myself an open book im not going to curate my thoughts and experiences for other people to take me seriously or whatever.#but obviously time and place yknow?? there Are more appropriate times than others to say certain things and its important to know when/wher #AND. ive been guilty of trauma dumping before!! we all have!! and it doesnt make you a bad person!!! it makes you fucking human!!!#and every other bitch who acts like their above poor communication or making mistakes and is 'so mature' can suck it and is a fucking liar.#okay rant over sorry #.txt

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pankomako · 1 year

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sometimes i think about interactions boat and i have had and things he's said to/about me over the years and it makes me feel as though i must occupy some little space in his heart. like i live in his mind rent-free the way he does for me, although not nearly to the same extent lmao.

speak of the goddamn devil i just got a steam notification he's playing tf2

anyway i never thought i'd have that kind of effect on a person, much less my favorite content creator. but it sure appears to be that way, and idk. it makes me feel special. warms my heart n all that :)

#was one of two people to give me their phone number when i had to drop off of discord 2 years ago #never took advantage of it though (shy (also we have different brands of phones so texting probably wouldnt work right #other person was an irl friend (never contacted them either #i remember one time YEARS ago when he was wanting to read jjba on stream or smth like that #him: it's like REALLY not family friendly me: well i shouldnt watch bc i am a Child him: no its ok you dont have to skip It's very dirty th #like guy clearly just wanted me there bc he enjoys my company And he's said he does! i remember him saying he likes seeing me in chat #and once again he was the one that wanted me on the staff team when usually the staff pick new recruits and boat has final say #and apparently he's talked about me to his other friends. that's kinda where the old Time to Mod in-joke started #he was using voice to text to talk to whoever and said my username but the thing misinterpreted it #that coupled with the meme drawing i did that he edited so it's him just saying 'pain'. eventually that dumb fucking image spawned #and then there was the night he spammed it and spam mentioned me in chat when he was streaming while i was ASLEEP #once we were in a vc and he was like 'wow i'd forgotten what your voice sounded like' NEVER heard him say that to anyone else. What #dont even get me started with him and my artwork (man would probably flip tf out seeing what i can do now LOL)#guy literally wanted ME to design an official tff logo but at that point they were kinda slowing down so it never happened #but yeahno i just. ugh. our friendship means a lot to me. i am ITCHING to speak to him again you have no idea #and to just give him a big ol hug. been wanting that for such a long time #quite frankly a friendship dynamic like no other ive seen #dont mind me REMINISCING. im sooo sappy about him he's the most important guy in the world to me #if god exists he knew we'd be too powerful if we grew up together

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milf-harrington · 2 years

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i will never be mad at or blame my sister for the situation she has been forced into, but i will forever be frustrated with our family for the responsibility thats been shoved onto me

"he'll have a village" my ass, he's got two mentally ill siblings and a FIFO worker who are all in their 20's

#its such bullshit and its so fucking hard listening to everyone go one about how much they love him #and how lucky he is to have a big family #where the fuck are they then!!!! why is it my job!!!#and i am NOT complaining about helping my sister or looking after my nephew #if youve been here long enough you 1. have probably heard this rant before and 2. know how much i love them #but fuck #my sister's looking at getting a fulltime job which sucks for both of us #im going to have to handle more responsibility and she's barely going to see her fucking son #like fuck you (our family)#ive been helping my sister since i fucking graduated so ive never been able to get a job #i dont even know if im going to be able to leave for my birthday like i planned because im just going to be stressed and guilty #about leaving my sister to handle everything alone for a week #(<- she would yell at me for that thought but i cant help it)#and my fucking cousin has the fucking guts to tell me it 'breaks her heart' that my nephew is shy around her #that he doesnt recognise or know her; but she's following her happiness in the city #which yeah!! good for her!! but dont fucking complain to me about not knowing my nephew #when you wont even bother to call him on his birthday #dont praise me for how much i help my sister like it was ever an option for me #'your sister is so lucky to have tou' yeah cause she doesnt have anyone fucking else #shes not even comfortable letting our mum have him without me there bc mum just fucking sucks #i dont care if im not being fair i just had to hold back from fucking bawling when i got hit with how unfair it is #4 years ago i thought id be in university studying art and saving up to go to italy #and now im 20 and im practically about to become a fulltime parent #and if IM tired i cant even imagine what my sisters going through #yknow shes always wanted to be a stay-at-home mum?#she only got the first 6 months #im just filled with dread and frustration and a bitter sort of sadness #but at least my nephew is a really cool dude to hang out with #and hey i might get better at cooking ajdjs #vent

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