#just kill me at this point

[bamsara]

Do I drive 16+ hours and sleep in a rest zone parking lot or do I pay for a flight and pay over 1k for a rental car for 2 weeks of car time hmm hmm hmmmm traveling is a sham gas is expensive travel is expensive im going to put my head into the drywall

[robotclownindulgence]

She hitch on my cock until- the birds! Aaaaaa! there are so many!

[vortahoney]

Spent the better part of this afternoon making food for a woman who I dated in high school with a very serious boyfriend. Thoughts?

[imlitterallyjustblogging]

MY FUCKING HEADPHONES BROKE

[fortunatelyenchantingtaco]

Ngl i still havent actually processed Nier Automata as a game and what actually happened there. I played it enjoyed it got it but god knows im still not over this shit so badly

Yall ever think about the way 9S knew and remembered what happened but still loved 2B enough to destroy the whole world because she wasnt in it? Hated but loved too deeply? That 2B was thankful to stop doing her program and see him for the last time and smile earnestly knowing she wont ever hurt him?

[filthygob]

I'm having a mental breakdown and, since god just hates my guts apparently, my mom and her boyfriend are doing the fandango in the sheets...

[saucetail]

currently emotionally devastated I'm going to need to make a university project where we'll hypothetically represent the USA in the UN :^/

[orphyd]

You ever wake up and EVERYTHING hurts…Jesus lord what happened-

[feathers-little-nest]

I have funny feelings rn. Realized that a person I changed for so much, and I changed for the better!, was so not worth it. But I'm still happy with the growth and I don't really want to leave them behind. They cost me so many sleepless nights and wasted evenings and I still don't want to leave them, fuck

[morzowo]

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[tryanmybest]

breaking news: local idiot wants to ask for a commission from an artist they really enjoy but are too afraid to communicate with them

more at 11

[0ldzia]

Venting because that’s the only thing that helps me.

TW: euthanasia, pet loss, cancer, sad stuff in general

As I put my hand on your chest, feeling your heart when it was giving me your last heartbeats I felt the price of love being torn away from my heart.

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Backstory: my dog was diagnosed back in January with cancer, the tumor was located near his bladder and it was not possible to operate (99% that he would bleed out) and even though it all started few earlier, it was terminal and without any chance of remission, recovery or any of that stuff. I saw him shake once, got concerned and went to vet the next day but it was already too late and there were no earlier symptoms at all. It’s so frustrating because we lost before even starting. We decided to start chemo in pills which is the softer version to stop the tumor growth and make his life a bit longer, and it did. It gave him 9 more months of quality, painless, happy life. He was only 7 years old, it was my first dog that I dreamed of my whole life, I saw him at the animal shelter and he was at our house not even a week later. Sparky was so inteligent, a bit sassy, smart, loving, calm, such a distinct and expressive personality, I wasn’t even aware that was possible for an animal. I never experienced love for a living creature like this, once in a lifetime bond. My family spent all their and thousands and thousands to give him the best care thought his life in general but especially in his last months of life. As everyone expected the time had come and we had to euthanize him when he got worse because nobody wanted him to suffer. He got worse two weeks ago, everyone did all they can but the meds and treatments were not working anymore. On Saturday he visibly lost all his will to live and was done fighting (which i couldn’t never be mad at him for, he was so brave for so long, my perfect angel, the tumor was his only ever flaw) There is an infinite amount of things I can say about him, my feelings and this situation but I will limit myself to this.

I willI will share my conversation (or rather a monologue I had with my friend about this).

My friend: Buff... how hard, I couldn't [put an animal down] do it, so you were brave

Me:

it was more my parents decision but i agreed to it

honestly when i saw in what stage my dog was that day

i was thinking about this situation months ahead and i always thought

i could never agree to it

but when i saw him

how weak and sick he was

there was not a doubt in my mind

i hope you will never be in a situation like this

when you see your pet like this

and the look they give you

when they look deeply in your eyes like saying: I love you, now it’s my time.

(i am crying typing this btw)

i made that decision with a (of course) veeeeery heavy heart

but you do [make that decision]

and i repeat i wish you that NEVER happes to you

but i can guarantee you if you were in my position you could and would 100% do it

and everyone (except some psychos) would

he was not eating by himself for days (forced feeding) taking sooo many meds

had the energy to move but not the will

stopped cleaning himself

my dad was wiping his private parts with wipes

[Sparky] literally was so done with life he pissed himself inside the house

having IV daily for hours

heavy breathing, heart pounding faster than normal, having slight shakes despite being on a lot of medication

when it was already decided and my dad went to get the vet to come to our house

two hours before procedure

i was sitting with him in my garden

when i basically carried him in

his head on my lap

and he just gave my that eye to eye look

“i love you, it’s my time to go”

this shit is the hardest, most painful and saddest thing that ever happened to me

and i will never go a day in my life without thinking about him

his paw print forever tattooed on my body

i feel like the saddnes is rotting my body and my mind away

I will love you and cherish forever our time together my perfect boy ❤️‍🩹. Even though I’m not religious, everyday I am one step closer to meeting you again and that keeps me a going a little bit more. As I put my hand on your chest, feeling your heart when it was giving me your last heartbeats I felt the price of love being torn away from my heart.

[vkatyassuka]

I can’t believe its already may

[pathos-bathos]

Google how do I study when this country is crumbling before my very eyes. Google help

[estevnys]

Insane migraine/headache all day omfg

[too-much-gacha]

ideas for clickbait tiltes if this night was a youtube video

will I read the "introduction to psychology" presentation before the test or will the presentation read me

who would win? presentation with 150 slides vs. anxious student on 2 energy drinks

can 5 prince polo milk chocolate bars make you pass a university course?