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[ellestray]

there is something so, so sweet about readers asking authors about little details regarding a fic- things that aren't necessarily important to the plot, just details about the characters' interests, or more precision on their feelings. idk, i find it just really sweet to see someone's interest & investment in a fic made them wonder about things that really only are important to their imagination

[amaryllidae]

that's so SWEET i'm obsessed oh my god.

is there anything about any of the pearls or diamonds you just wanna tell someone? or any of the gems at all?

hmm. theres a LOT of stuff i'd love to talk about, and tbh anyone reading me is free to send an ask about what they'd love to see in this au bc it helps motivate me to get that out! but i think i'll hit you with some feels and say pink diamond/volleyball REALLY loved iris. she had a soft spot for her from the beginning and hated seeing her struggle with.. well, everything. her and iris were close- not super close, because pink was busy, but still close. when she lost mother pearl, she took sympathy with iris- mother pearl just hadn't been working, and she had never been a fan. she gave her her own beloved pearl and hoped she would help her the way rose had helped her. she picked out a planet for iris herself, thinking it an easily colonized world. at first, when she heard iris had been shattered, she didn't believe it. she saw the feedback and saw this pearl for the very first time, and when she held her fellow diamond's shards..

nothing ever hurt her more. thinking she had led everything up for iris' shattering, given iris the very pearl that took her life, it was soul crushing and broke pink's view on the authority and her own gems. her trust was broken. pink had always had the softer heart of the three, but not anymore. with era 2 came big changes.

[mudpuddless]

I saw a couple tags with king Halt AU and I am interested now 👀 (if you need someone to blab to about this)

okay. listen. i was rereading the early years and halt rescues duncan but refuses to call him highness and duncan gets mad, the canon dialogue is pretty much just,

halt: you-

duncan: YOUR HIGHNESS

halt : i preffer to be called halt, actually

(this is the base idea: this scene is doubly funny if halt were also crown prince)

so picture halt swimming back to shore after ferris tries to kill him and deciding actually he doesn't want this idiot in charge of his country.

halt has had about four years of ranger training on top of royal battleschool at this point and ships ferris of to the countryside, names Caitlyn as his successor to the throne and convinces his father that he should aide araluen (read: the rangers who kept pritchard informed) for diplomacy reasons.

his father thinks this will be a good lesson in war craft for the crown prince and sends him on his way.

halt and Crowley meet in the inn just like in canon while pritchard, who travelled with halt to araluen, makes his way to berrigan who was his main contact and then the plot kicks off (canon slightly to the left) halt is still halt but with the full authority of the clonmel crown behind him. he just doesn't tell people. surely this won't result in any silly situations.

big change might be that daniel, who still dies, asks halt to look for his wife, who is heavily pregnant and halt goes to find her, but presented with a baby who has no living relatives he knows of he just takes baby will and disappears him to Hibernia? Caitlyn loves her nephew. halt insist that will is not his son. will is absolutely his son and no one will be convinced otherwise.

halts father/ the king of clonmel declares Will fourth in line to the throne bc what else are you supposed to do when your heir goes to fight a war for eighteen months and returns with a baby. the king isn't an idiot, halt.

i want at least one scene where an invitation is extended to the Hibernian kings for princess Cassandras first birthday and Caitlyn shows up to represent clonmel and bonds with crowley bc they have a similar sense of humour (compatible with halt). crowley refers to halt only by "Arratay" and Caitlyn only by "my brother". they think the two should meet though crowley thinks halt doesn't know how to behave in the presence of royalty.

this would be even funnier if it was cralt/craltine (geometrically accurate love triangle my beloved) bc crowley is fawning over halt and Caitlyn unknowingly sets them up by encouraging crowley to tell his friend how he feels.

at least one scene would be halt and crowley visiting Crowleys family which is big and loud. halt is immediately a favourite of Crowleys kid sister who thinks he is the funniest person who ever lived. halt is stumped by this

the rangers are also 100% the queerest group of people in the entire country. berrigan and Leander are established and not subtle about it. at least one person is only referred to by ranger, never by any pronouns. this is never remarked upon.

the problem im still trying to figure out is how I can merge canon post TEY. halt returns to clonmel bc he has to check on his family and also bc, yk, the infant he now cares for and virtually disappears from araluen. crowley and pauline are upset bc they dont know what happened. this would be even funnier if this was craltine and they just had a highly emotional moment and then the final battle happens and suddenly halt is gone and no one knows where.

if this was really cracky they would tag along as security/diplomacy detail for duncan when he is invited to halts coronation but then again, we're not catholic so I might as well. could be fun

feel free to add anything you might find funny/devastating etc.

[maxivstappen]

Heyy I need serious advice, I think my teacher is trying to groom me and idk what to do. Like he started out asking what I use on my hair to make it smell good and then for a party I used a red dress that was really tight and had a slit and he texted me (idk where he got my number ) “red is now my favorite color” bc he saw a picture of it in my friends story. On Thursday I was practicing for an event in my school so when I came back the rest of the class was doing something in the lab and I didn’t wanna do that so I went to the classroom and as I’m walking I pass that teacher but I ignore it and keep waking but then I feel like I’m being followed so when I turn the corner I run and enter the classroom where there is only one person and she’s one of my teachers and 5 secs later the creepy teacher comes in and he knew the classroom would be empty bc his classroom is next to the lab and it’s impossible for him not to have seen my classmates. Like 2 minutes after my friend comes. Anyways the event I told you about, the outfits were very revealing so my friend started like complaining about them bc it was a short skirt (very short like upper thigh showing booty type short) and an almost see through crop top and he overheard that so the next day he saw me at the practice for the event and I was Early so I was alone and he asked me how the outfit fit me and I was like “it’s okay hahaha” bc I’m uncomfortable but I still have this thing where I’m too nice to everyone and after I said that I left and then he texted me “I can’t wait to see you in the outfit of the event 🥴” and I stared at it in shock for a min but then he deleted it so I couldn’t take a ss and then I got bored so I answered him (I know it’s wrong but still) but I told him that they changed it and he said “I wanted to see you in that dress 🙁” and then he said he texted me like “sometimes it scares me to text you” and then i asked him why bc at this point I wanna gather evidence to sue him or smth and he said something Iike i don’t want something to be misinterpreted so if I text you something will you delete it and I said o yes bc im obviously not going to delete him and I guess I took to long to answer when he asked if I was alone bc he said that he would tell me in person and now I’m scared of being alone in school, my friends know but they can’t be with be 24/7 even though they try not to leave me alone. But my conflict comes when I don’t know if I want to tell on him to the authorities or not like what if some other girl falls for this? He’s like 40 btw and is everyone’s favorite teacher but also it’s a ONG legal battle (probably) and I don’t wanna gather more evidence bc it’s giving me the ick now that reality has settled in and also I’m scared of telling my dad and I just don’t know what to do. For reference he’s in his 40s and I’m still a minor. But Also I’m worried that they would read the texts and be Ike “she’s flirting back, she wanted it” bc like I told you I have this thing where I’m very polite and the thing is where I’m from the age of consent is 14 and I’m well over that age.

This is crazy girl I hope you’re okay!!

despite you being over the age of consent I think it’s inappropriate and maybe even illegal anyway? i obv don’t know where you live but in Germany your teacher would very much get fired IMMEDIATELY

you feel unsafe so please, even if you don’t want to, talk to your dad or the principal or another teacher BECAUSE THAT IS NOTTTT OKAY

And im pretty sure even if your replies to him would seem like you’re flirting back THATS TOTALLY IRRELEVANT BECAUSE HES YOUR TEACHER that mad should NOT text you and even less he should be sending messages like that

please stay safe and talk to someone!!

if you want to talk to me more about to be scared to send me a dm or another ask but please girl do something 😭 the whole situation is so scary

[ja3yun]

Girl I need serious advice, I think my teacher is trying to groom me and idk what to do. Like he started out asking what I use on my hair to make it smell good and then for a party I used a red dress that was really tight and had a slit and he texted me (idk where he got my number ) “red is now my favorite color” bc he saw a picture of it in my friends story. On Thursday I was practicing for an event in my school so when I came back the rest of the class was doing something in the lab and I didn’t wanna do that so I went to the classroom and as I’m walking I pass that teacher but I ignore it and keep waking but then I feel like I’m being followed so when I turn the corner I run and enter the classroom where there is only one person and she’s one of my teachers and 5 secs later the creepy teacher comes in and he knew the classroom would be empty bc his classroom is next to the lab and it’s impossible for him not to have seen my classmates. Like 2 minutes after my friend comes. Anyways the event I told you about, the outfits were very revealing so my friend started like complaining about them bc it was a short skirt (very short like upper thigh showing booty type short) and an almost see through crop top and he overheard that so the next day he saw me at the practice for the event and I was Early so I was alone and he asked me how the outfit fit me and I was like “it’s okay hahaha” bc I’m uncomfortable but I still have this thing where I’m too nice to everyone and after I said that I left and then he texted me “I can’t wait to see you in the outfit of the event 🥴” and I stared at it in shock for a min but then he deleted it so I couldn’t take a ss and then I got bored so I answered him (I know it’s wrong but still) but I told him that they changed it and he said “I wanted to see you in that dress 🙁” and then he said he texted me like “sometimes it scares me to text you” and then i asked him why bc at this point I wanna gather evidence to sue him or smth and he said something Iike i don’t want something to be misinterpreted so if I text you something will you delete it and I said yes bc im obviously not going to delete him and I guess I took to long to answer when he asked if I was alone bc he said that he would tell me in person and now I’m scared of being alone in school, my friends know but they can’t be with be 24/7 even though they try not to leave me alone. But my conflict comes when I don’t know if I want to tell on him to the authorities or not like what if some other girl falls for this? He’s like 40 btw and is everyone’s favorite teacher but also it’s a ONG legal battle (probably) and I don’t wanna gather more evidence bc it’s giving me the ick now that reality has settled in and also I’m scared of telling my dad and I just don’t know what to do. For reference he’s in his 40s and I’m still a minor. But Also I’m worried that they would read the texts and be Ike “she’s flirting back, she wanted it” bc like I told you I have this thing where I’m very polite and the thing is where I’m from the age of consent is 14 and I’m well over that age.

If you want I can send you the ss but they’re in Spanish so I’d probably have to translate them unless you can speak Spanish

baby this is...not okay :(( if i was you, i would 100% go to someone you trust (whether that be teacher or authorities) and explain the situation. i certainly don't think you should ever be alone with him and i am so glad you have your friends around.

i also understand your concern regarding others misinterpretating your reply. but please don't let that stop you from seeking help on this. he needs to be stopped right now because this is very concerning.

i'm so sorry you're going through this baby, you don't deserve this at all. my honest advice is to speak up about this!

[a-azions]

Reason She Smiles - Shannon x Fem!Reader

warnings: mentions of homophobia, touch starved!shannon, short!reader (only descriptive detail), this is written very sitcom-y bc it's a sitcom lol

requested?: yes

author's note: i'm so happy i've found a few people who want to read abt dessa and her characters so y'all better eat this and send me requests lmao.

Clem and Nick held hands as they walked out of the elevator. Clem dropped Nick's hand to dig the key out of her purse as they approached the door.

"These heals are killing me." Clem groaned sticking the key into the knob. "Why do they have to be so pretty?" She looked down admiring them.

"They do make your legs look very-" Nick tried following Clem into the apartment, but was roughly pushed back into the hallway. "What?" He questioned noticing the shocked look on Clem's face as she closed the door again. "Did Shannon leave the living room a mess again? I swear I am gonna give that girl a stern talking to." Nick shook his head.

"No! She's in there cuddling with someone on the couch." She whisper-shouted.

"What? Who?" Nick asked intrigued.

"I don't know. I didn't get a good look." Clem shrugged.

"Well, what do we do?" Nick asked.

"We can't just walk in there." Clem said trying to think of a plan.

"Actually, we can because it's our apartment." Nick said trying to walk past Clem, but she grabbed his arm stopping him.

"Shannon has obviously been hiding whoever that is and if we just barge in there she might feel like we're attacking her and she'll stop actually talking to us."

"When has she ever actually talked us? If you think about it, we really don't know anything about that girl. She might not even be your sister." Nick said.

"I'm serious." Clem placed her hands on her hips.

"Fine, at least let me get a look at this before we go in." Nick said. He slowly turned the door knob and quietly opened the door, only a bit, peaking his head into the apartment. His eyes landed on Shannon with her arms wrapped around her guests shoulders and her head leaning on top of theirs.

"Aw, it's kind of cute." Clem whispered, her head appearing below Nick's as they both watched the two.

"Yeah, I've never seen Shannon so affectionate." Nick whispered back.

As if on cue, Shannon's guests sat up and turned to lean towards Shannon pressing a gently kiss to her lips. Nick and Clem's eyes widened and their jaws dropped as they stared at the two. They quietly shuffled back into the hall and closed the door.

"I know that girl!" Clem whispered shocked. "I saw her and Shannon hanging out the other day when I went shopping with your mom."

"Why didn't you say anything?" Nick asked offended Clem didn't tell him the biggest news about Shannon.

"I thought they were friends. They didn't look all couple-y when I saw them." Clem explained. "I can't believe Shannon didn't tell me about this. I mean I know we just reconnected, but still this is big."

"Come on, Clem. It's Shannon." Nick grabbed her hands to attempt to comfort her. "She's not exactly an open book."

"I just wish she felt like she could've told me. I don't want her to hide from us." Clem frowned.

The couple jumped upon hearing the door open. Clem whipped around putting on a smile while Nick did the same.

"Uh, hey guys." Shannon said staring at them curiously. "How was date night?"

"It was great, actually. We had this delicious-" Nick started explaining, but was interrupted by Shannon.

"I was just being polite. I don't care that much." Shannon said making him nodded sarcastically.

"Who's this?" Clem asked looking at the girl next to Shannon holding her hand.

"Um, this is my friend, y/n." Shannon introduced.

"Hi, it's nice to meet you." She smiled kindly.

"I'm Clem," She grinned. "This is my fiancé, Nick. It's so nice to finally meet one of Shannon's...friends."

"Why are you being weird?" Shannon asked.

"I'm not being weird." Clem quickly denied.

"Okay," Shannon trailed off. "I'm gonna walk her downstairs. I'll be right back."

Clem stood in front of Shannon drinking her coffee. Shannon was glued to her phone, too busy texting away to notice Clem staring at her trying to think of the best way to bring up Shannon's "friend" from last night.

"So..." Clem trailed, placing her coffee mug on the counter. "Is y/n a new friend?"

"No." Shannon said simply not even looking up from her phone.

"How long have you known her?" Clem asked.

"Why are you being so nosy?" Shannon looked up from her phone suspiciously.

"I'm just wondering." Clem shrugged. "You've never brought anyone over here."

"She's been my best friend for like three years." Shannon answered. "I met her at school."

"You seem really close." Clem pointed out.

"Yeah, we are." Shannon nodded looking back at her phone in her hands.

"Okay." Clem snatched her phone out her hands making Shannon's eyes grow wide.

"Clem, what the hell?" Shannon reached across the counter trying to grab her phone back.

"I need to ask you something." Clem swatted her hand away. Shannon sat back in her seat with a huff of annoyance. "Please, don't get mad. I'm asking you this because I care about you and want you to feel comfortable here."

"What are you talking about, Clem?" Shannon looked at her utterly confused.

"Is y/n your girlfriend?" Clem asked.

Nick who had just stepped foot into the kitchen froze and turned back around to grab his briefcase. "I'll grab some coffee on the way to work." He said before scurrying out the door.

"Pfft, what?" Shannon laughed, attempting to hide her paled face. "Why are you asking that?"

"I saw you two at the mall together. I didn't think anything of it until last night." Clem admitted.

"You're spying on me?" Shannon raised her voice a little.

"No, of course not! I was shopping with Rose and I saw you two walking around." Clem explained. "Look, Shannon. I just want you to feel like you can be yourself here. You look really happy when you're with her and I hope you know you don't have to hide anything from us."

"y/n is my girlfriend." Shannon said looking at Clem with nervous eyes. "I was planning on telling you, but I got scared that maybe you wouldn't accept me, and we really needed a place to stay."

"We?" Clem questioned.

"Oh, yeah. y/n spends the night a lot. Her mom always has her boyfriends over, so she usually crashes with me." Shannon told her.

"Ok, we're gonna circle back to that later." Clem said shocked.

"y/n's really important to me, Clem." Shannon said. Clem sat up straighter upon hearing the seriousness of her tone. "Before she was my girlfriend she was my best friend. I don't wanna any of our mess of a family to ruin my relationship with her."

"Well, I saw the way you two looked together last night. I've never seen you so happy." Clem rubbed her shoulder giving her a soft smile.

"Thanks, Clem." Shannon smiled back.

tags: @fairy-geek-ackerman

[celestie0]

Ooof, sorry if come across rude or anything negative. Just saw your post ihm ex wife asks and how people were being rude or weirdly jealous. I hoped that my ask about knowing more about ihm ex wife, didn’t come off as being weird or rude person. ( I’m the that mention Lana del Rey)

It Seems at one point she’s going be added into the story? Correct me if I’m wrong but that’s really exciting!

Your whole au is my obsessed anyways apologize if came off ass weird/rude :(

hi love! mm yea, i think your ask did contribute to those feelings, mainly the part where you said you entirely block the ex wife part of the story out of your mind because you can’t imagine him w someone else other than reader

i don’t know, i have actually gotten similar asks for kickoff when i had a couple people tell me they skipped all of the scenes with kai in it bc they didn’t want to read about any other guy other than gojo

thing is, those are just things you don’t have to tell an author. if you do block things out or skip things, that’s fine. but just because you have access to communicate with a fanfic author doesn’t mean you should share those things with them. readers forget that we, fanfic authors, have a much more deeply invested personal interest in these stories as the creators of them, than a reader might have. it’s different from texting your friend “oh i dislike xyz ab this story”…because you’re literally sending those words to the person who put all their hard work n time into writing it lol

i try to put this into perspective, but for the whole kai thing for example: i spent a great deal of time planning those scenes out, spent a great deal of time writing & editing those scenes, n ultimately believe those scenes contribute greatly to the dynamics of the story. for people to straight up tell me they skipped those scenes, it’s odd and upsetting for sure.

i’m also like, what are you accomplishing by telling me that you skipped like half the chapter, or that you entirely dismiss parts of my story?…i have thought about this sooo much in trying to understand why tf i get asks like that, or why people think it’s appropriate to share those things with me, and the conclusion i can think of is that people are trying to subconsciously push me towards writing a story that THEY want by telling me the exact parts of my story that they entirely disregard/will disregard. and that makes me feel so icky, like i’m lowkey being manipulated into people pleasing people just cuz i post stuff for free. same goes for pressuring asks i get about writing more smut. those feel even more gross to me tbh, and it entirely kills my drive to write

i’m already struggling to find motivation to create stories among all the other insanity of things going on in my life. so yea words like that definitely do affect me, esp when it’s not just from one person, which i could probs write off as some internet troll, but from like 15+ different readers saying the same thing over n over n over again. and i KNOW i have so many wonderful readers n i’m endlessly grateful…but i’m starting to feel like chappell roan rn where i’m starting to realize maybe i’m just not cut out for this lmfaooo. it’s strange i’ve like literally seen people d** in real time but stan tumblr is what breaks me 💀💀 this shit is nottttt for the weak bahahah i see why so many authors leave

since i started posting here in january, i’ve dealt w people who would shame me for not posting updates at the time i said i would, i’ve dealt w people who would pressure me for updates, i’ve dealt w people who would pressure me for smut, i’ve dealt with people who have reduced my stories to nothing but smut, i’ve dealt with people who have made death threats against kickoff gojo for having commitment issues, i had a person straight up tell me they were “disappointed in the direction” of all of ch7 of kickoff, i had someone comment “he should’ve done ___ instead. will not be reading this fic anymore”, i’ve dealt w so many people belittle n disregard the whole ihm ex wife plotline. i’ve literally cried over some of these asks/comments, n i’ve felt embarrassed over some of them too. i’m just a person.

and i know i know i know i shouldnt focus on the negative interactions, i should just focus on the positive ones. but yknow how much mental real estate that takes to do? i’d consider myself to be a pretty mentally healthy person to be very honest, but even i have a hard time w doing that lmfao.

and then, to make things worse, i get scared that calling readers out for this kind of stuff will just make people fearful to interact with me in the future. and then im like damn i suck lol

in any case, i accept your apology. it’s not that deep at the end of the day i suppose, and i don’t want you to feel bad about it. there are bigger issues in this world rn than fanfiction on tumblr. also sorry i kinda used your ask to say all of this but i just wanted to share my perspective plus i’m pmsing so i’m emo lol i’m just waiting for my estrogen to rise at this point so i can feel human again n i might end up regretting posting this but anyways thanks xxx

[according2thelore]

wait i have more to say. i saw someone else say that youre their favorite wincest writer and i just need to raise my hand and say ME TOO!!!!

i only VERY recently admitted to my best friend that i ship them and when i was reading house song i was going NUTS and i NEEDED to talk about it. so i ended up sending my friend a 10 minute long voice message going through the plot and how beautifully written it is and how its fucking me up!!!!!! im going crazy and shaking dean just SHOT HIS DAD!!!!!!!!! AND IT WAS BELIEVABLE!!!!!!!!!!!! and my friend was like holy fuck that fic sounds crazy but in a good way and they dont ship it but i think they at least get it now lmfao because wow.

and deans guilt over the life he has given sam. an orphan living on a mattress with no money and just his fucked up older brother. goddamn. i want to hug dean. and sam thinking the worst that dean left him like dad. but then ultimately realizing there is literally NOTHING dean wouldnt do to reach him. its just so cathartic and OH THE FLASHBACK TO BABY SAM. ‘no boo boos?’ ARE YOU KIDDING ME? and then then the parallel because sam is covered in blood again and it ISNT HIS. NO BOO BOOS!!!!!!! but he is so so so hurt oh my goddddd

im sorry im so feral about you i just dont have the magical talent with words that you do. like deans admission and saying that the word falls out of his mouth like a dead body hits the ground????? how can i even attempt to match your beautiful fucking mind. ugh. i wont recover from this. your an inspiration for real. okay i will leave you alone now thank you for the brain worms

HELLO!!

GUH the hits keep COMING!!!!!!

i am giggling and kicking my feet that you explained my fic to a FRIEND HOLY SHIT!!!!! oh to hear this voice message lol <3

i had to read this ask series out loud to charlotte, who was also giggling and kicking her feet on my behalf.

i am so glad you found it believable! that was one of the biggest struggles for me, and i liked the boys' characterization in this one, so i'm so sososo happy that you did too!!!!!

i've never done this before, but i thought since you like it, you might find the planning process interesting! i don't do outlines for all of my fics, just the really hefty ones (the heaven fic, this one, and a few others), and i've found this helps me a lot! you can see some things that i've cut or changed. charlotte and i usually plan these out over face time, lol, and she was mostly asleep through this entire planning one (in her defense, she had been working all day). i hope you find it interesting!

i hope you don't think less of me now that you know i wrote that they "boink" 🙏 it was like two in the morning. also handwriting reveal? omg?

anon, i've said it before but i'll say it again--THANK YOU SO MUCH🥺🥺🥺🥺 uno reverse card as well bc folks like you encourage/inspire authors to keep writing!

i always love hearing which parts folks like best, and this fed me for months to come!!!!!!

and please feel welcome to come back and scream with me about these two any time the mood hits you, lol!

-lizzy BELIEVE IT OR NOT BECAUSE ANON IS TRYING TO MELT ME this is 2/3!!!!!!

(house song, the fic in question for anyone curious!)

[what-the-stories-have-foretold]

Damn my phone must be broke ,this is the 4 time I tried to send this to you but it keeps glitching 😭

Anyways, i hope you have a good day !

Last time you told me I was free to tell you about my thoughts of my favourite Character ,so here I am ,again. :D

You really inspired me so i got this Idea :D I hope you like it !I would love to hear you’re thoughts of it because I love to image things like that a lot and I thought about posting it ,but I am too scared 🥲bc I am obv not as good as you are but hey a master has never fallen from a sky (a German sentence pls don’t ask)

So

Image Rei Furuya with a Author s/o ,they love to listen to music and image things ,read books and fanfic a lot. They probably met at first when we maybe ,got out to get fresh air in our lungs and went to the dog park where we met Amuro with his cute dog.And he ask us if we were alright because we looked like we haven’t slept in days (-/////-)

Or we‘re a regular customer at the poirot.Always eating his great sandwiches and searching for inspiration for our new book ,where we saw him(obviously he is just perfect) We sit there silently admiring him while trying to look like we would work on our laptop . 😭❤️ I hope you like it ! Have a good night and stay hydrated <33

Noooo. Literally, just try writing if you want to. You´ll get better with practice, and maybe you´ll even be surprised at how good it turns out already! If you are too worried, you can start writing privately and when you find the confidence, you can start posting then. Whatever you feel comfortable with!!!

Also, yes!!! I´m a sucker for these tropes with an author!reader with a partner who is working really dangerous jobs and can thus give them tips.

Just like: "Hey Rei, how can I write a murder that is realistic?" or "Shuichi, how do I describe a typical mission for a sniper?" and they´ll be so happy to help. Though they will tell you to be careful when someone asks where you got that information from. Just say "lots of research" since he doesn´t need anyone figuring him out.

Also, I think Rei is really big into health (unless it´s about him. He´s shit at taking care of himself pls do it for him) so maybe he´s so used to seeing your cute face in the café, but you´ve been looking so tired lately. And when he sees you in the park, he gets worried and takes you to Poirot to make you your favourite drink, maybe with a shot of espresso (if you, like me, don´t like coffee, he´ll mix it well enough so you don´t taste it) to help you wake up. He makes you tell him what´s going on and then forces you to sleep more. Though he does offer to help you with some scenes that would require research since he has incredibly vast knowledge (and if he doesn´t know something he´ll stay up really late to find it out for you, though he won´t rly tell you that. Again, he´s into health unless it´s about his own well-being...)

[the-cookie-of-doom]

9 & 10 for fanfic author asks :D

9. Biggest pet peeve while writing?

When the word i want is RIGHT THERE, but I can't think of it. Or when I feel like my description is coming across really flat compared to the way I'm envisioning it in my head. Which happens... a lot, lately. Shout out to the people who commented that Kim is very analytical in Technicality, bc that wasn't a conscious decision, I was just struggling to write the smut 🤣 but it was an excellent observation, so I decided to run with it!

Best/funniest comment you’ve ever gotten on a fic?

My goodness, I have no idea, I've gotten so many wonderful ones ;_; But the first thing that comes to mind is a comment from @coldatomheadcanons (Hi, we've never talked, I hope it isn't weird to tag you!) on a fic I wrote... 8 years ago? It was on a oneshot for a small fandom, the whole fic itself only got 6 comments total. I actually printed it out and pinned it to my wall for a while. It was a really long and sweet comment, one of the first of its kind I'd ever gotten. I was 16 and still really new to posting fic online; I'd only made my Ao3 acct less than a year before! And I remember looking at that comment just made my day every time I saw it. Ofc I've gotten so many wonderful comments since then (esp from you my friend <3), and made a lot of great friends through my comment section. But that's a pretty formative one that I still think about all these years later. Finniest comment I ever got was this person who had a meltdown in my comment section bc they didn't like my story, but most of their comment wasn't even about that - they were treating the comment box like a craigslist personal add, listing out all their requirements for a perfect fic and entreating someone to write it for them, as they were simply not talented enough to write themselves. The entitlement was hilarious. Especially when I replied, but they didn't respond to my comment until a full year later. Like baby, I have so moved on. I don't think I was even writing for that fandom anymore.

send me a fanfic ask!

[bloody-wonder]

First of all, thanks so much for sharing your books recs and reviews. I love reading your blog (especially since I did not find many books blog that as good as you in tumblr). 💐🥰

Can I ask your opinion on something? So, I saw some discussion on why shounen series (or series with strong bromance vibes) have more romantic vibes than BL manga/mahwa (MLM books). (Sorry, do you like any BL manga/manhwa or shounen series?) And I kinda agree. But what do you think?

Sorry for this random ask, feel free if you want to ignore this ask....

wow thank you! i love sending my bookish posts into the void and i love it even more when the void expresses its appreciation haha

i didn't know about this discourse but in general i agree with the controversial (?) opinion that non-canon queer-coded or homosocial relationships oftentimes make for more compelling ships than their canon counterparts. one could argue that it's bc something that is just out of reach feels more appealing than something that you already have but in regards to my personal frustrations when reading romance stories and plotlines it often comes down to how the relationship of characters who the author already decided are going to fall in love has little room to breathe beyond that - the sword of damocles of romance is constantly hanging over them and determining their entire narrative. there's little intrigue in that bc when you're an experience reader or a genre-savvy media consumer you know exactly how it's gonna go, bit by bit.

furthermore, i think it's interesting that women and people who used to identify as women when they were young are likelier to write an explicit romance or a canon queer relationship bc they have been socialized to value that type of fiction and in doing that they will, whether by intention or not, regurgitate all the possible tropes and clichées which doesn't necessarily make their original story a compelling romance. by contrast, people who grew up socialized as men have been taught to suppress emotions and value no homo male bonds with their bros which is why a stereotypical cishet male sff author will 1) write an absolutely yucky romance for his male lead and his female love interest, 2) rather die than acknowledge that queerness exists and 3) pour all the most profound and intense feelings his conscious and subconscious mind is capable of into the depiction of the male lead's relationship with his male sidekick. ambiguity tends to make things more interesting so no wonder people will feel more drawn to a ship that is ambiguously homosocial in eve kosofsky sedgwick's sense rather than to a ship that is merely a love story between two people of the same gender.

which brings me to my last (more personal) point: as someone who has been socialized as a woman i am slightly obsessed with romance. however, as someone who identifies as aroace i don't find most romance books or even romance subplots relatable or compelling. this contradiction is a source of constant frustration that accompanies my reading experience - i often seek out romance books bc i do so enjoy a good love story and end up disappointed and alienated most of the time bc of this built in failure to connect with fiction that is written by allos for allos. for example, i have tried to take refuge in historical mm romance bc i figured that neither comphet nor modern identity politics would spoil the magic of two people falling in love for me in this case. however, having read quite a few of those, i have noticed this compulsion the authors have to 1) let the reader know by any means necessary and as soon as possible that the characters in question are in fact into men and 2) state explicitly that these men find each other attractive - a compulsion that speaks to the allo experience of being aware (most of the time) what type of person you're attracted to and being able to interpret a perceived connection as romantic or sexual attraction almost immediately. a compulsion which i, as an aroace reader, find utterly bizarre and terribly frustrating. not to shame allos for how their sexuality works or anything, but i think trying to convince the reader that two characters are into each other without relying on these two conveniences would be a good writing exercise.

by comparison, a relationship that is just allowed to develop without its participants interpreting it as a romance (bc the author who wrote it didn't intend them to at all) feels like freedom. yes, it's unfortunate that they won't kiss or fuck in the end of all that quality time but ah well, i can go to ao3 for that. and yes, if they're not canonically queer it's not real rep etc etc but i think that by now we have all understood that media consumption is not activism and queer rep in your favorite tv show will not bring about the age of tolerance. what i'm talking about in this post is why it sometimes feels like queer fiction fails to depict queerness and romance in a compelling way.

[l1tw1ck]

just a psa.. if you send requests while they're closed, there's a very big chance i'll just delete it

i'm not really upset with anyone who does it, it's just that there are so many asks in my inbox rn that i don't want to add more to the very intimidating amount i already have. please ask someone else or save it for when they're actually open 🙏🏾

rant below ↓

i can't count on my fingers the amount of times people have ignored my boundaries and wishes and i don't really like that. i have everything important linked on my pinned for a reason and it seems like people just tend to ignore all that and send requests thinking that I'll just do whatever they ask me to? the amount of times people have asked me for f*m reader (censored bc a lot of my followers have it filtered) is just...it kind of blows my mind 😭 like, they saw my male reader posts, my pronouns, the trans flag in my bio, and thought: oh yeah, it'll definitely be okay with writing f*m reader! and i know not all transmascs are against doing that but i think that upon seeing that, they should at the very least check if I'm okay with that

i'm okay with women and fem aligned people reading and interacting with my work but i just want y'all to know that my target audience is transmascs and i only write for them and with them in mind.

if i ever write f*m reader it means my life is in danger and you should all start a search party for me /j

there are thousands of f*m reader blogs, the fact that i of all people get asked for that is so silly 😭 it's kind of mind boggling. im not even mad about it, i'm just trying to wrap my head around why anyone would think that i'd write that. it's kind of fascinating to me

anyway, please check for an author's rules before sending them requests. it's the bare minimum

[jacksjoke]

reasons i think ben is a sus ass evil ass bitch!

 music club

ben is the one to invite nueng to the ballroom dance club, bc he has noted that nueng likes to play piano, and he pressures nueng to agree to be in the club both in person and over text. nueng’s joining the club would be helpful to an insidious agenda bc it would ensure that ben - and by extension whoever he’s working with - will know nueng’s specific whereabouts on whatever day and time the club meets, however many times a week. im not saying it’s definitely a dead giveaway as to why nueng is attacked at the club next week ep4 bc palmnueng very well may just be followed from school or home, but it does seem suspicious and so as usual i stand by my theory until proven unmistakably incorrect fdkjhjk

brown nosing bitch

ben sure seems to want answers to shit that is none of his business ! he doesn’t know nuengdiao well and you can chalk some of it up to him just wanting to get to know his crush but of course anything can be creepy if u want to see it that way and- actually u know what hes just creepy ok i dont even have a choice BUT to see it that way tbh! he asks what relationship nueng and palm have, he fuckin asks if they live together based on the more than generous leap of ‘i saw him get in your car’ ??? ok so you can’t imagine that idk nueng was giving palm a ride home bc they live near each other? nah you just need to ask if they live together bc you already have your suspicions about who palm is, you just need to be sure sooner rather than later, especially when it comes to the protection nueng has at home.

insistent for no reason

like i said, he pushes nueng into joining the music club - i didn’t even mention that it’s officially a ballroom dance club, it isn’t even a music club! every scene we’ve had there thus far has shown people explicitly dancing or sitting to talk at the bar! nueng plays piano a couple times, sure, but that isn’t the club’s purpose. so: ben lied bc he knew a music club would be more enticing to someone who just wants a place to play his instrument.

and while at the club, ben approaches palm completely unprompted even tho he saw very well in their introduction to each other that palm is completely Against him being around nueng. he insists that nueng needs space and palm should basically fuck off bc it’s totally ridiculous to think that anyone could be planning to kill nuengdiao, as tho ben, a random high schooler, could possibly guess what the plans of however many hitmen are at work???? like he’s some authority when he’s literally just some guy with a mouth he likes to run off?? and with the most liar ass smirk on his face he says that he isn’t going to hurt nueng, and palm better get used to having him around. ok. palm’s utter hatred for this guy is so fucking funny it sends me like he isn’t having it AT ALL i get to live out my ben distrust through palm <3

defensive for no reason

i daresay ben is defensive in a way that makes zero sense to me. first, nueng asks what he wants from him and ben acts like his very character is being assassinated, as tho he as mr class president isn’t completely aware of the recent uptick in bullying that nuengdiao’s faced. like nueng asking someone he doesn’t know this question is somehow a personal attack on ben. congratulations, you’ve made yourself seem like the defenseless and harmless victim cough i mean Nice Guy! if he really cared about nuengdiao and developing their friendship/relationship, ben would see it from his perspective that nueng has every single right to be cautious - his dad was FUCKING SHOT TO DEATH in front of him like less than 3 months ago????

but instead he acts like nueng is trying to be an asshole without cause, manipulates him into feeling guilty about that, and makes nueng reach out to him bc of that guilt, successfully setting off their entire relationship from that point bc he’s apparently gained nueng’s trust from a frankly transparent .10 second Commitment To His Bit.

THEN when the same happens with chopper asking ben’s intentions with nueng, ben pulls the SAME SHIT - instead of understanding chopper’s concern for his cousin’s well-being?? after chopper watched his cousin suffer terribly from the murder of his father and chopper’s uncle???? ben acts like chopper is completely out of line, blaming HIM for their friendship falling apart cough GUILT, and storms off, and - in parallel to nueng reaching for ben’s wrist and holding it, bc that’s what ben WANTED to happen - chopper half reaches out for ben but doesn’t touch him. ok.

possessive

ben is weirdly fucking possessive/familiar for someone who barely knows nuengdiao, which to me is a massive red flag just in general. he takes out his earbud without permission and gets in nueng’s space, he glares at palm with that gross smirk like he has any right to do so, and twice in the same ep2 he puts a hand to nueng’s shoulder with that unnecessary lingering hold that makes my skin crawl. he plays like he’s harmless dancing around being goofy but it wasn’t just cringe to me; it felt SO FORCED and maybe im accidentally destroying chimon’s acting w this post but hflkjd i can’t help but feel like this man is BAD FUCKING NEWS. he is a FAKE. i would say that palm has really good instincts and that’s why he immediately dislikes ben, but he doesn’t seem to notice anything off about phum, while nueng DOES notice phum is off and does something about it. we see a similar thing when he asks chopper about ben, which brings us to nueng asking chopper’s opinion ep4.

what the fuck is up w benchopper

"he’s nice, he’s talented, so everyone loves him.” RED FLLLAAGGGGG. this IMMEDIATELY set off sirens in my head to translate to he ACTS nice with everyone, he’s talented in everything, so everyone loves him - ie ben is a fantastic actor, as we see when he manipulates nueng through guilt and by acting as someone who wants to be close to him with no mal-intentions. he’s the class president, but he sees the way students bully nuengdiao and does nothing with whatever so called popularity influence he has, not even to talk to the guys and see what’s up? chopper and ben used to be close in first year (10th grade) but different interests had them grow apart, which seems fair enough until chopper warns nueng not to get close to ben bc “ben can’t stay close to someone for very long.” when nueng asks him to explain chopper plays it off with a laugh and a “you’ll know after spending time together :)” like HUH???? GIRL WHAT DOES THAT MEAN U OMINOUS BITCH? did ben try it on with chopper and then saw more potential for gains by moving on to nueng bc of his position in the family? and next week we’ll apparently see chopper even giving advice to ben about admitting his feelings to nueng? so they aren’t close and ben snapped at chopper about being (un)fairly suspicious about his intentions with nueng, but they’re close enough again like some minuscule amount of time later that chopper can offer love advice. alright that makes SO much sense ben is a good guy after all :D

anyway ghjkfk pls feel free to add on to this w ur own ideas/things you’ve noticed and i may or may not do the same when new eps come out. if we get to the finale and ben really is just some guy with a crush i will be truly FLOORED but ig we’ll see lmaofdhkjghldfjk

[pantswarrior]

Hii,

I read Fighting Gravity on ao3 earlier this year and I wanted to tell you I loved it! I'm one of those peripheral members of fandoms who haven't read or watched any of the canon stuff, but are too obsessed with the fanworks to stop. It makes me wonder about stories like yours - is some point in the larger canon where something similar happens, or do you just come up with the idea for an unhoused Spock on your own?

I'm sending my ask to thank your for your story, but I also wanted to ask if you were alright with people printing and binding personal copies (ie. not for profit) of the fic for themselves.

I've been hand binding sketchbooks on and off for a little while, and I saw a tiktok of someone's self-bound versions of their favourite fics and thought that trying my hand at fic binding would be a fun project for this summer.

I just wanted to ask bc I heard some authors aren't okay with personal prints, so just let me know please; I'll always love the story regardless.

Aw, thank you so much! I'm sorry it took so long for me to reply - my laptop completely died several months back and the only one I could get online with is 11 years old, freezes up upon trying to load Tumblr, and is physically falling apart. -_- So I have been away from Tumblr all this time and did not see this until I got a new laptop tonight and could load the site again, I apologize! First of all - I consider it a great honor when anyone thinks enough of my fanstuff to want to do ANYTHING with it. =) I mean, I'm just out here being a nerd, writing fic about characters that are not mine. I can hardly be possessive about them. ;) So while I suppose it's rather late for a summer project, if for some reason the inclination strikes you in the future, feel free! It sounds like a beautiful project and I'm honestly flattered that you would think my story worthy. =) As for the inspiration behind that particular story... there is a rather silly story behind it. (tl;dr, possibly...) My partner-at-the-time and I were both really into the new Star Trek movie when it came out in 2009 - and this was not long after both of us were fixated on Ace Attorney fandom, which had recently had a new game released. Before the game was released, there was some character art showing an existing character looking scruffy, and the Ace Attorney fandom decided he must have fallen on hard times. There were multiple fanfics written about the guy he's usually shipped with finding him unhoused and taking him in and helping him get back on his feet. It became sort of a fandom injoke, "Miles adopts a homeless Phoenix". Not long after the first reboot Star Trek movie came out, the ONTD Star Trek community over at LiveJournal (good times!) dug up some screen test pics of Zachary Quinto wearing the Spock ears... but with a scruffy unshaven look and longer hair. So I showed them to my partner, who reacted with six little words:

"So... Jim adopts a homeless Vulcan?" I laughed because that was ridiculous and impossible given how some things work in the Star Trek canon. ...And then I started thinking about it, and how maybe it wasn't impossible, how someone *could* possibly wind up in such a situation in the Star Trek universe, and stopped laughing. ...And then spent the next several months of my life having this offhand joking comment turn into yet another exploration of one of my favorite themes: predestination vs. free will. OOPS. My partner, of course, was laughing their head off incredulously the whole time as I sent them drafts of the next chapter to read over and repeatedly reminded them that this was ALL THEIR FAULT. ;) So that is the...origin story... of that fic. Apologies for the length of this (and again, the lateness of the reply) - though to be honest it's so absurd it's fun to share it again. :D

[pagesofkenna]

Book asks! 3, 4, 22?

Book asks!! ty and if anyone wants to send me more...

3: What were your top five books of the year?

Difficult to narrow down - I read some read duds this year, but I also read some great books. In the order in which I read them:

The Rest of Us Just Live Here (Patrick Ness). Saw the cover at the library years ago, knew immediately I needed to read it, and I chanced upon this copy at a book giveaway, and I was not disappointed. It's a generic heroic YA fantasy... but it's about the normal kids living in this town where the generic heroic YA fantasy takes place. The fantasy novel is literally happening in the background and it's so well done.

Legends and Lattes (Travis Baldree). Read this mostly to get inspo for my own D&D-inspired novel, and it's really solid and a fun read! Ex-adventurer decides to settle down and open a coffee shop. Love me a cozy take on a fantasy adventure setting.

The Girl and the Ghost (Hanna Alkaf). My middle-grade pick for this year. Girl inherits a pet evil spirit from her witch grandmother; half the story is from the ghost's POV, and half from the girl's. Really good exploration of relationships and friendships and how we harm the people we love.

Icebreaker (A L Graziadei). One of those queer YA novels I read within 24 hours lmao. It's a gay college hockey story, but I was pleasantly surprised to discover it's also mainly a mental health journey.

Bear Town (Fredrick Backman). The other hockey book I read this year lol, what a book. Something awful happens in this small lake town at the edge of the forest in rural Sweden, and over the course of the novel the author unpacks with careful precision everything that leads up to and falls out from this awful thing. I borrowed this from the library and then bought it to own afterwards bc I loved it so much.

4: Did you discover any new authors that you love this year?

Fredrick Backman was someone people have been telling me to read for years and I finally get why. I picked up Anxious People after reading Bear Town and loved it as much if not more.

In that same vein, Patrick Ness is someone I knew was a good author, but 'The Rest of Us' was not what I expected from him, and I realized he was a much better author than I realized. I also read A Monster Calls later this year, which is what he's most famous for, and that was also not what I expected it to be, so I'll have to check more of his out.

22 What’s the longest book you read?

Single volume pagecount, The Starless Crown by James Rollins. The worldbuilding here was really cool, and I think I liked the writing (I read it back in June), but my main memory is... there are twothree big elements in this fantasy/scifi story that match up with a scifi/fantasy story I was writing for NaNoWriMo one year?? It's truly so surreal to see someone else's take on a convoluted premise you also thought up.

Also honorable mention to Scum Villain's Self-Saving System by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu. I tend not to count series in my book counts (I only mark the first book on Goodreads when I read it), instead 'tracking' them as one title. Given that this was four volumes of at least 300 pages each, I think this is the longest (multivolume) title I read this year.

[5eraphim]

I'd understand if you dont want to respond to this, but I audibly breathed out my nose after that guy wrote an essay about how 'immoral' you are on the notes of that scout fic. Like. they have no likes or ppl theyre following... did they make a tumblr account just to drag you? was this somehow the first thing they saw on when they searched 'tf2' or something?

Like, you didnt even glorify rape. the reader basically dissociates and experiences hallucinations of scout being demonic, and how the bedroom is like a fiery pit of hell. Did this human being ever engage with media outside of that one fic?

this has happened before, and yeah it always hurts to see someone making personal attacks like that in my comment section/s, but i think the shock has largely worn off.

i actually didn't read the entire thing until u sent this ask, and i didn't bother before deleting their tirade. i think i'm just going to turn off comments on stories for a while, which feels ungrateful to all the nice ones i've gotten but im getting tired of trolls and tbh, disabling the anon function on my main account has given me wonderful peace of mind. (though the disabling anons on main was partially bc of people sending hatemail about this account, and partially people getting pissed i post/engage in true crime stuff- but God, that's another issue entirely)

and while i am of the opinion authors shouldn't have to justify what they write about through lived experience, writing like this has been very therapeutic for me personally to give myself a creative outlet to process things instead of letting the bad times and memories fester inside my own head, and i've also met so many others like myself sharing my work online and it really means a lot to me. while people calling me a rape apologist/abuse fetishist/ degenerate or whatever fucking sucks, the good people far outnumber the bad.

i try to tag my content to avoid triggering others, if someone wants to ignore all that to get offended in my comment section that's their call, but i am by no means obligated to keep those comments up.