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[missmcspooks]

Children and Parents of Serial Killers Speak Out

When people hear about serial killers, all we tend to think about is who they are and what they did to their victims. We think about what their victims went through, and what the victim’s families must be going through knowing that the person they love was taken from them, and in such a despicable manner. But what about the secondary victims? Does anyone ever think about how the family members of these killers feel? What are they thinking? What are they going through? People often forget that these serial killers have people who love them, too. They have children, wives, parents, siblings… In this article we’ll learn about how these secondary victims feel about their serial killer family members. 

MELISSA MOORE: The Happy Face Killer’s Daughter

Keith Hunter Jesperson, aka known as “The Happy Face Killer,” was convicted in 1995 for the rape and murder of at least eight women, killing them by strangulation. He has claimed to kill around 160. Keith gained his nickname “The Happy Face Killer” from signing his many letters to the authorities with happy faces. This stemmed from his aggravation towards the police who had the wrong man in custody, and that man was taking credit for the murders he committed, so he decided to let authorities know they had the wrong man by drawing smiley faces at his crime scenes, just like he did his letters. He is serving three life sentences.

Melissa Moore, one of three children, is who I got the secondary victims quote from. In 2015 she had an interview with 20/20 regarding her father. 

“We are secondary victims. We carry that shame and we want to remove that. I feel in a sense I am related to my father, but I didn’t cause the pain. But knowing my father caused some pain causes me pain.”  

She looked back at her life with her father as a child and shared that on some level she knew something was strange about him, and that she felt uncomfortable with his behavior towards women.

“He never molested or beat any of us, it was just a feeling that something was building, seething beneath the surface. I once tried to articulate it to a school counselor, but it didn’t come out right. I mean, a lot of kids think their dad is weird.”

“He would leer at women in public, make lewd remarks about them, and harass them.” 

Moore also explained that she felt like her father wanted to tell her about what he was doing, but he simply couldn’t face what he did. He didn’t have the courage. He would simply tell her:

“I can’t tell you, sweetie. If I tell you, you will tell the police. I am not what you think I am, Melissa.”

Moore also explained that he used to torture animals when she was a child. One time she found kittens in a farmhouse, and her father hung them up on a clothes line and started to torture them. She started to scream and beg him to stop, and he just laughed and enjoyed himself. Later on, she found their dead bodies in the back garden. 

“I think I caught a glimpse of the sociopath, the part of where he felt in control over me and that he enjoyed it. I got the sense that there was another side to him.” 

She also explains that she used to question whether or not she had the right to be happy. 

“Being the daughter of a serial killer puts everything into question. Am I worthy? Do I have the right to exist? When he took so much from other people. If I’m happy, is that a slap to the face to the victims' families? I don’t want it to be.” 

Moore states that she has talked to more than 100 children of murderers, including Kerri Rawson, the daughter of the serial killer known as the “BTK killer.” 

“They have been living in shame the way I used to live in shame, thinking that you’re somehow responsible for the family member’s actions, that you owe the world an apology.” 

In 2015 during her interview in 20/20, she spoke to a relative of one of her dads victims and shared how she feels about her father.

“I’m ashamed that he’s my dad. I’m ashamed that he has no remorse. I’m ashamed of how he treated your sister and what he did to your sister.” 

Melissa Moore has a podcast called “Happy Face Serial Killer,” and also shares stories about her father, along with letters and whatnot that she receives from him prison on her TikTok, “lifeafterhappyface.” 

MATTHEW RIDEGWAY: The Green River Killer’s Son

The Green River Killer, aka Gary Ridgeway was convicted in 2001 for the murder of 48 women, although it’s estimated that he had killed more than 90. He is currently serving life in prison. His only son, Matthew, claims that his father never did anything that would indicate that he was doing such dark and horrible things. He claims that he was your typical soccer dad. They would spend a lot of time together, often going camping or playing baseball. 

“Even when I was in the fourth grade, when I was with soccer, he would always, you know, be there for me. I don’t think I ever remember him not being there.”

Gary claimed that at one point, his son was in the car with him when he picked up a woman and then killed her in the nearby woods. He told Matthew that she had decided to walk home. During another time he claimed he had sex with a woman's dead body while his son was 30ft away in the truck, asleep. Matthew has no memory of any woman, or being asleep in the truck for a long period of time. Matthew never believed that his father was the man who could commit these horrible acts. 

“He’s just one of the guys that happened to be in one place, and you know, he’s my dad. He didn’t do it, you know.”

KERRI RAWSON: The BTK Killers Daughter

The BTK killer, Dennis Rader, was convicted in 2005 for the savage murders of 10 women. He would stalk his victims, bind their arms and legs with rope, torture them, and strangle them. He would then keep “trophy’s” of his murders under the floorboards of his home. She always thought her father was just a normal man. He was a good father, a good husband, and was very supportive and protective over her.

“Nobody wants to believe their father could be capable of such monstrous things.” 

When she realized who her father really was, and found out about his secret double life, she struggled with it immensely. 

“I have never hated him. I was extremely hurt by him, I love him after all. He was my dad. So I was extremely angry and hurt.”

She even released her own book called “A Serial Killer’s Daughter.” It explains how her anger for her father was complicated by the love she had for her father, along with the burden his dark secret life had taken on her and her family. The day she learned about this horrible truth she stated:

“I was just trying to stay alive and breathe. Trying to recover from the shock, telling myself over and over that I’d do anything to not be the daughter of a serial killer.” 

She even had a bone to pick with the author Stephen King in 2016, when it was announced that his novella was going to be turned into a movie that was inspired by her fathers murders.

“He’s just going to give my father a big head, and he absolutely does not need that. Great - now Stephen King is giving my father a big head. Thanks for that. That’s the last thing my dad should get.” 

She had an interview with the Wichita Eagle, where she spoke on how she feels about her father.

“He said he is sorry, but that means nothing. He is not worth all the books and the news stories and all the attention.” 

While Rader was in prison he became very upset over the fact that no one in his family came to visit him. Not his wife, nor his children. She responded to him with the following:

“You have had these secrets, this ‘double life’ for 30 years; we have only had knowledge of it for three months… We are trying to cope and survive… You lied to us, deceived us.” 

Eventually, Rawson forgave her father and wrote him a letter. She told him all about her life and her children, and even told him that she appreciated him for how he raised her. 

“I don’t know if I will ever be able to make it there for a visit, but know that I love you and hope to see you in heaven someday.” 

BETTY SCOTT: Dennis Nilsen’s Mother

Dennis Nilsen was a serial killer and necrophile who killed at least 12 young men and boys. He kept the remains of his apartment, which he would at some point dissect and bury them in his garden. He was sentenced to life in prison with a minimum of 25 years in 1983, and in 1994, it was changed to a whole life tariff. 

Betty wrote letters to her son in prison for years, but he never responded to them. In 2001, she told him that she wanted to see him and ask him why he killed those young men. 

“I would like to speak to him to see why he did this. He was just nothing like what he has turned out to be… He never fought at school. He was never nasty to anybody.”

JOHN SUTCLIFFE: The Yorkshire Ripper’s Father

The Yorkshire Ripper was very similar to Jack The Ripper. He was an English serial killer who killed at least 13 women and attempted to kill seven others. He was sentenced to 20 life sentences, but was changed to a whole life tariff in 2010. 

His father was very honest in his interviews about his son, and he struggled between the love he had for him, and being disgusted about the horrors of what he did. 

“He deserved to be hanged. I love that lad. I don’t love him for what he’s done, I love him for being who he is.” 

KATHLEEN DENNEHY: Joanna Dennehy’s Mother

Joanna went on a 10 day killing-spree in 2013, and stabbed three men to death, and two others who luckily survived. She claimed she wanted to kill to see how she would feel afterwards, and wanted to know if she was really as cold and evil as she thought she was. She was sentenced to life in prison with a whole life order. 

Her mother didn’t think she was capable of these crimes and decided to disown her daughter, and expressed her feelings in an interview:

“That girl who killed those people is not my daughter. My daughter’s that nice 16-year-old that never came home… She was very sensitive. If she stood on a worm or something she would be really upset if it died - she used to take them to bed with her. So she was a loving girl.”

[tobybo]

On October 13, 2007, a photo of Keith Hunter Jesperson during an art show at Oregon State Penitentiary.

[thenewsart]

Investigators close in on ID of 'Happy Face Killer' victim

More than 30 years after a woman died violently at the hands of the “Happy Face Killer,” Riverside County investigators are close to a breakthrough in identifying her — but they’re seeking the public’s help. The serial killer, whose name is Keith Hunter Jesperson, boasted of killing the woman and seven other female victims in the early 1990s, sending letters to the press about his exploits that…

[unatestadellidra]

Keith Hunter Jesperson - Confessioni di un killer (parte 2)

[qudachuk]

Melissa Moore is the daughter of Keith Hunter Jesperson, the serial killer who terrorised the US in the early 1990s

[fletchermarple]

Quick Review of the True Crime Books I Read in 2018 (Part 2)

Review of Books in 2018 Part 1

Review of books in 2017 Part 1 and Part 2

Review of books in 2016 Part 1 and Part 2

Review of books in 2015

In the Name of The Children by Jeffrey L. Rinek: This book was written by a retired FBI agent who worked a lot of cases involving child abuse and murder, so be aware that its contents are very disturbing. Much like John Douglas in Mindhunter, Rinek mixes his personal history with some of the cases he worked in when he was in the bureau, although his book offers less academic and actual crime information and a lot more emotional response and family life. This is not really a bad thing. Rinek is an interesting person, and he really shows the effect that working with cases like this can have in one’s mental health and close relationships. As for the cases themselves, they are all horrific and some more detailed than others. Probably the best one, because of the amount of information and detail, is the Yosemite Murders, which happens to be the only one that doesn’t involve actual children (the youngest victim was 15). Overall, a gripping read which might not be as insightful as other books written by former agents, but way more personal and raw.

Dark Dreams by Roy Hazelwood: Roy Hazelwood is probably one of the main experts in sexual crimes, and he was one of the top agents in the Behavioral Analysis Unit at the FBI (he sadly passed away in 2016). If you’ve ever read books involving some kind of predator, it’s not uncommon that the cops went to him for his advice regarding profiles. Again, this is another John Douglas type of book in which he goes through some of the cases of his career in the agency, although in contrast to In the Name of Children, this has almost no personal information about Hazelwood himself. That means this book is purely concerned with identifying different types of sex crimes and criminals by giving real life examples. It’s very academical and informative and a fairly easy read (because of the narration style, the subject is as dire as you’d expect). My only issue is that he never goes in detail into the cases and most of the time won’t even mention the names of the victims or the perpetrators, which annoys me because it makes it hard to look up more information. But still, a worthy read for true crime enthusiasts who want to understand more what goes into this sort of cases.

Burned Alive by Kieran Crowley: This books details the murder of Kim Antonakos, who in 1995 was kidnapped for ransom and left with no food, water or warmth in a basement for three days before she was set on fire. It provides a lot of information I didn’t know about the case and it’s a good account of how things went down in the investigation and trial. I don’t like though that the writer decided to write a full passage telling us what Kim was feeling and thinking while she was in that basement, because there’s no way to know that’s true and when you insert that kind of thing in a serious, non fictional book it always throws me off. It’s also quite evident that a lot of the information came from one of the men accused in the kidnapping, Julio Negron, who was the one who made a deal with police and testified against the other killers in their trials in exchange for a more lenient sentence. Apparently he was the only one willing to give his version of the story to Crowley, so I would take some of the things presented here with a grain of salt.

Blood Justice by Tom Henderson: Do you ever read a book and completely forget it soon after you finish it? That happened to me with this one, which is obviously not a good sign. The case it talks about is very compelling: two murders, six years apart, committed by the same perpetrator. One was Margarette Eby, a music teacher savagely killed in her home in 1985. Then, flight attendant Nancy Ludwig was rape, butchered and tortured in a Detroit hotel in 1991. It took a really long time and a lot of effort from police to finally get enough evidence to arrest their murderer. The book has plenty of details about the case, the victims and the killer to satisfy the reader, I think the problem to me is that the narrative falls flat most of the time. This book has a structure problem that takes away all of the suspense, and also the author failed to really give us a good character to focus on, which happens a lot in true crime books about long winded investigations. But it is a fairly unknown case, so you might want to give this a try.

I: The Creation of a Serial Killer by Jack Olsen: This novel is about serial killer Keith Hunter Jesperson, also known as “The Happy Face Killer” because he had the tendency to draw smiley faces in the letters he sent to the media. Jack Olsen, an award winner journalist, makes the bold choice of writing some of the chapters in first person, as Jesperson. At first I was a little put off by this, because as you know, I’m a bit of a purist when it comes to non fiction, but I have to admit, those chapters are very gripping and really give you a glimpse into the workings of a very twisted mind. Most of what’s written in first person was culled from interviews Olsen had with Jesperson, so I’m sure he got the tone, the wording and the train of thought right. These chapters follow the actual murders and crimes committed by Jesperson, and they are interjected with more common third-person narrative and newspaper article style writing about the biography of Jesperson and what was going on with the investigation. It was a very interesting read, although you do have to be prepared to put up with a very sick individual pouring his thoughts, indirectly, on the page.

The Anatomy of Motive by John Douglas and Mark Olshaker: As usual, an excellent food for thought from one of the masters of crime analysis. John Douglas really knows how to pick cases to analyze and give you the right balance of information and opinion. In this case, as you can tell from the title, he wanders into the motive behind several crimes with very clear examples. This book reminds us that motive is probably the main mystery we always want to solve in any case. Even when we know the culprit, if we don’t understand the motive there’s always something very unsatisfying about its resolution. Douglas offers us a glimpse of his own thinking about some complicated cases, including Andrew Cunanan’s killing spree and the still unsolved Tylenol murders, among many others. Recommended.

[truecrimeguru]

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[beardedmrbean]

Gilroy, Calif. — A victim of the "Happy Face Killer" has been identified nearly 30 years after her body was left near a California highway, authorities said Monday.

Patricia Skiple of Colton, Oregon, had been known only as "Blue Pacheco" for the color of her clothing until genetic genealogy was used to identify her last week, the Santa Clara County Sheriff's Office said.

Skiple, a mother known to friends and family as "Patsy," would have been about 45 years old when she was killed, the sheriff's office said.

Authorities identified her with help from the DNA Doe Project, a non-profit group that uses volunteers to help identify people listed as "Jane Does" or "John Does" through DNA profiles of possible relatives.

Skiple's body was found on June 3, 1993, on the side of California State Route 152 in the Gilroy area in the San Francisco Bay Area.

The cause of her death was listed as undetermined at the time.

In 2006, Keith Hunter Jesperson wrote to the county district attorney's office and said he had sexually assaulted and killed a woman near the highway.

Jesperson, who was arrested in 1995 on suspicion of killing a woman in Washington state, was dubbed the "Happy Face Killer" because he drew smiley faces on letters he sent to the media and police, prosecutors said.

Jesperson eventually confessed to killing eight women between 1990 and 1995 in California, Washington, Oregon, Florida, Nebraska, and Wyoming. He currently is serving four life sentences without possibility of parole in Oregon.

[latenightsleuth]

Watching "The Original Night Stalker" on DARK MINDS with M William Phelps. Now that Joseph James DeAngelo has been convicted as ONS or the Golden State Killer, it is amazing how spot-on this show was. Listening to serial killer consultant Raven, now identified as Keith Hunter Jesperson or the Happy Face Killer, speak as to who ONS may be and why is chilling. #takesonetoknowone . #VisaliaRansacker #EastAreaRapist #EastSideRapist #EastBayRapist #KnotKiller #NightStalker #OriginalNightStalker #ONS #EARONS #CreekBedKiller #GoldenStateKiller . #DarkMinds #MWilliamPhelps #KeithHunterJesperson #KeithJesperson #serialkillerconsultant #happyfacekiller . #serialkillers #convictedserialkillers #solved #solvedcrimes #solvedrapes #solvedmurders . #latenightsleuth https://www.instagram.com/p/CYyBCtIMFMf/?utm_medium=tumblr

[samsexualdeancurious]

Thanks For Listening | Chapter 1

Square: Free Space

Pairing: Sam x Reader

Words: 8,498

Warnings: hurt!Reader, pining, eventual smut, dirty talk, voice!kink, unprotected sex.

Summary: Sam hosts two podcasts - a secret one for hunters called the War Room and a public one with fellow hunter Y/N called Criminal History. Y/N and Sam have never seen each other, let alone met, but that doesn’t stop Sam from worrying when Y/N suddenly goes missing.

Betaed by @manawhaat 

Written for @spnkinkbingo

Header by me and Mana

Masterlist - AO3

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You rest your elbows on the cheap motel table, leaning on it as you speak into the microphone. "Chief, you've heard my thoughts on this. What do you think?"

There's a pause, the same little dramatic one Sam does every time, and then that rich voice you adore says, "I think he's guilty as hell."

You can't suppress a small laugh at Sam's straight-forward statement. "Well, folks, the Chief has spoken - and the jury has, too. Guilty. As. Hell. Keith Hunter Jesperson, A.K.A. the Happy Face Killer, was sentenced to life without parole and is currently housed in Oregon State Penitentiary. If you want to hear another side of this story, I recommend the podcast Happy Face, which is hosted by Melissa Moore, Jesperson's daughter. Anything else you want to add?"

"Definitely check out that Happy Face podcast, guys. It's a great one."

"Thanks, Chief. Until next time, then, folks. This is Criminal History. Thanks for listening."

You sit back from the mic, both you and Sam leaving a moment of silence where Sam can later cut the recording and add in the outro music.

"How was that?" you ask. "Think we need to go again?"

"No, you were great," Sam assures you. "You always are. You know that."

Your cheeks warm at the compliment. "I know," you say, putting on a little bit of a playfully cocky tone. "I just like hearing you say it."

Sam laughs and your stomach does happy flips. "Fine," he teases. "I see how it is. You're just using me for my voice."

"You caught me," you say with enough playfulness in your voice to hopefully combat the heat in your cheeks, even though Sam can't see that.

You find yourself staring longingly at the computer screen, wishing for the hundredth time today alone that you could see Sam's face. But, unfortunately, voice recordings are easier on shitty motel WiFi than video calls are.

“If you think we’ve got everything we need, I’m gonna stop my recording,” you continue, pushing past your wandering thoughts.

“We’re good. Go ahead and stop the recording.”

You do just that, saving the file and uploading it to a file sharing service Sam found. “File’s uploading now. We’ll see how long it takes on this motel WiFi. I’m surprised we didn’t have any connection issues. The WiFi really sucked earlier.”

“Gotta love motel WiFi. What episode number is this?”

“47 according to my notes,” you reply. “We’re not even to 50 and you’re already losing track?”

“I’m running two podcasts. There’s only so much my brain can handle.”

“What? Sam Winchester’s brain has a limit? Alert the media.”

You can practically hear his eyes rolling. “Ha ha. You still chasing that vamp nest?”

“Unfortunately. I’m gonna meet up with Allen Burton tomorrow. He caught wind of the nest moving south past Moab.”

“Allen. I’m not familiar with that name. He’s experienced?”

“Not as experienced as I would prefer but everyone else is caught up in something or on the other end of the country, and I’m not waiting around for these bastards to kill anyone else.”

Sam makes a soft, displeased sound. “Be careful, okay?”

Your heart warms at the concern in Sam’s voice and you try to play it off with a little joking. “Always am.”

Sam doesn’t fall for your change of tone, though. “Y/N. Please. Vampires are no joke.”

“I know. I’ll be careful,” you promise, suddenly eager to reassure him.

“Call or text me when you’ve got the nest wrapped up?”

“Of course.”

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Sam is reluctant to end the call. He always is. Y/N is just so easy to talk to, which is part of why they make such good co-hosts. Recording their weekly episodes are one of the highlights of his week.

He reaches over and flicks the switch on the wall behind his desk - the one connected to the “Quiet Please. Recording in Progress” sign and the red light above his office door. This was his own special addition to this room and the wiring was a giant pain in the ass but it was definitely worth it to minimize the sounds in the hall outside. 

Someone knocks on the door as soon as the sign and light are turned off. “Come in,” he calls, saving his own audio file to a folder he’ll download Y/N’s to once it’s uploaded.

“Ya done in here?” Dean asks, poking his head in.

“Done with Criminal History,” Sam tells him, spinning his chair around. Another worthwhile investment, his nice desk chair. “Still gotta record an interview for the War Room.”

“I’m Sam Winchester,” Dean says in a gruff voice, stepping fully into the room. “Welcome to the War Room.”

Sam rolls his eyes. “I don’t sound like that.”

“You totally sound like that.”

“Do you have a reason for being here or are you just being annoying?”

Dean holds up a plate Sam didn’t notice he had. “Dinner.”

“Have I really been in here that long?” Sam asks, happily accepting the plate to find that Dean made chicken and rice with chipotle green onion gravy.

“You sure have. You and Y/N must’ve been a coupla of old Chatty Cathy’s today.”

“Yeah, it took us a while to get going,” Sam admits around a bite of food.

“What’s she been up to?”

“Still tracking that vamp nest. It’s moved into southern Utah now and she’s gonna meet up with another hunter, some guy named Allen, to finally take care of it. Well, that’s what she’s hoping for, at least.”

“You two gonna hang out once she wraps that case up?”

Dean shoots Sam a wink and Sam responds with a glare. That only prompts his brother to laugh.

“Seriously, Sammy,” Dean says. “You’ve been digital pen pals for over a year. It’s about time you finally meet.”

Dean’s right and Sam knows he is, but it’s his duty as the younger brother to never admit it. Truthfully, Sam’s dying to meet Y/N. As hunters, they’re both a little paranoid about new people and despite knowing each other for so long, they’ve never actually video chatted, let alone met in person. He trusts Y/N, though. He feels like he really knows who she is, after all their texting and phone calls pre-podcast, all the time they spend just talking ‘off the clock’, and the hours of recorded chat he sometimes edits down into bonus episodes.

In all honesty, Sam likes Y/N. He likes her a lot. He’d never tell her that, though. They’ve got a good thing going and he doesn’t want to ruin that with his own mess of feelings when it’s so much easier to just keep things to himself.

“We’ll see,” is all Sam gives his brother. He drains his water bottle washing down a mouthful of rice and shakes the empty container at Dean. “Can you go fill this?”

“I’m not your butler,” Dean grumbles even as he takes the water bottle.

“Thank you!” Sam calls after him, spinning to put his plate on the desk and really go to town on his dinner. It’s a simple recipe but a delicious one, if a little spicy.

Dean returns with the water bottle just as Sam is scraping his plate clean.

“You’re the best,” Sam says, happily accepting the bottle in exchange for the plate.

“Yeah, yeah,” Dean replies. “Don’t you forget it.”

“I won’t. Now get out so I can record.”

As soon as the door is closed behind Dean, Sam flicks his sign on again and swings over to his microphone. He drinks a little water to clear his throat, checks the clock to see that he has a few minutes left until his guest hunter calls, and hits the record button. A thirty-second wait for white noise and then he leans in a little closer to the microphone than he usually does for Criminal History.

“I’m Sam Winchester,” he says, unable to resist being just a little dramatic. “Welcome to the War Room.”

---

Y/N texts Sam right up until she and Allen are headed out to where they think the vamps are hiding, three days after they’d first met up.

She doesn’t text Sam after that.

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"You've reached Y/N. I'm probably off having more fun than you are. Leave a message."

Sam signs, scrubbing a hand over his face as he enters the bunker kitchen. "Y/N, it's Sam. Again. Please call me as soon as you can." He hangs up, tapping his phone against his hand as he fights the urge to call again.

"She still not answering?" Dean asks from where he's standing at the stove frying bacon.

Sam shakes his head and shoved his phone in his pocket. "It's been almost a week. I'm getting really worried."

"Do you know where the nest was? Maybe you should go check on her."

"Somewhere in southern Utah. I don't know exactly where, though. Last we spoke she said the vamps had holed up somewhere not on a map." Sam slams one hand flat against the door of the fridge before running that same hand through his hair. "Shit, I should've gotten the coordinates from her."

"Hey, hey," Dean says, dumping bacon onto a paper towel and returning the pan to the burner. "I'm sure she's fine. She probably just lost her phone somewhere and hasn't been able to get a new one"

"After a week?" Sam shoots Dean an incredulous look.

"Just trying to think positively."

Sam slumps, leaning against the fridge. "I know. I'm just-"

"Really worried. I know. I can tell." Dean nudges Sam to the side so he can get a carton of eggs from the fridge. "Are there any hunters we know that are in the area and can check on her?"

"I don't know. I think Charlie was in Idaho."

"Well,” Dean says, cracking a couple of eggs straight into the bacon grease that still coats the pan. “Go give Charlie a call."

Sam feels a little better having something he can do right now and he immediately pulls his phone out. He realizes too late that Charlie is in a different timezone, but by some miracle Charlie is just getting back to her car after a salt and burn and answers after the second ring. She promises to head south and see if she can track down Y/N.

"I'll keep you updated," she promises. "It's almost a seven-hour drive, though, and I need a few hours of shut-eye before I get on the road."

Sam nods, stirring a bit of creamer into his coffee. "Do what you need to do. I don't want you putting yourself in danger."

"I'll text you when I'm on the road."

"Thanks, Charlie. I really appreciate it."

"Hey, man. After everything you've done for me? Checking up on someone is the least I can do. Plus, Y/N is a friend, too. But I know you guys are really close and it's not like her to be out of contact this long."

Sam leans against the counter, suppressing another sigh. It feels like he’s done that a hundred times in the last hour alone.

“Hey,” Charlie says gently, seeming to sense Sam’s distress. “We’ll find her.”

“Thanks, Charlie,” Sam murmurs. “I’ll let you get some sleep.”

They end the call and Sam turns his attention to his coffee, fighting to keep his mind from wandering.

“It’ll be fine,” Dean says from where he’s now sitting at the table, mouth full of eggs and bacon. “Eat some bacon and find something to distract yourself.”

“I’ll try,” Sam mutters, snagging a piece of bacon and heading off to his office.

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Sam’s really glad they’re ahead on recording for Criminal History because he’s able to lose himself in editing and getting the episode uploaded. Then he gets the next episode of War Room ready to go. From there, though, all he has left is to edit more episodes of Criminal History and he just… can't. He can't sit in his office and listen to her voice when he doesn't know if she's even alive 

No. Don't think like that. He rubs both palms over his face, trying to scrub that horrible thought from his brain. She's alive. She has to be.

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[murderleek]

What true crime case is most interesting 2 u and why? (U have full permission 2 go off)

THANK YOU FOR ASKING AAAA. Okay, so this case and man is probably less known.

I'm in the process of reading the book "I: The Creation of a Serial Killer" written by Jack Olsen, and it's about Keith Hunter Jesperson. He killed and r*ped 8 women, mainly women he calls "lizards" (prostitutes).

It's particularly interesting to me because of his signature and the lack of belief on the police's end, believe it or not.

He dubbed himself the "Happy Face Killer" and admitted to his crimes in letters signed with drawings of smiley faces. His letters were ignored by officials for years before he killed his fiancee. He tried to get away with saying "oh it was just my fiancee I killed!" But the day before his arrest he sent a letter to his brother admitting to all the murders he committed. So, he got convicted for the murder and r*pes of all 8 confirmed women. His father tried to figure out why his son turned out to be so horrible. Turns out there's a disorder that closely resembles Keith's mindset and actions that RUNS IN THEIR FAMILY. Keith said he was wrong, though.

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Keith Hunter Jesperson - Confessioni di un killer (parte1)

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Serial Killer Documentary: KEITH HUNTER JESPERSON - THE HAPPY FACE KILLE...

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Letter From The Happy Face Killer Keith Hunter Jesperson

27 November 2018

Dear,_____

Enclosed is a photo of a piece of art I had done back in about 2003 with colored pencils. Prismacolor. I’m a lot better now. Most art you see online of mine is older stuff. I’m sure you have already looked at some of it. If not? I’m fine, i’m 63 and will be 64 in April 2019, I’m not a youngster anymore. Would love to be able to make a decent living as an artist. The prison will not allow me to sell my art based on my crimes. They will, however allow me to sell art for artistic value alone. My biggest hurdle is people like yourself who write me because i’m in here. Judge me and my art as Murderabilla art. Not see the big picture: to be able to sell lots of art and not settle on a few pieces. My problem is to find a person who knows who/what I am and willing to not sell my art the easy way on Murderabilla markets in favor of selling it to the open art market as art. To market it with a fake name or unsigned art and have people buy it because it appeals to them. Are you that person? What medium do you use? oils? before prison I did sign work. I hated lettering, but it was needed. Even used a router to do western theme signs. You don't have many friends...family is gone... I know this all to well. I also get lost in my art. Most are 19 x 24 or 14 x 17 in size 100# vellum paper. I have about $8,000 in art supplies now. Send a photo of yourself. If you really are who you say you are, I think we could be helpful to eachother penpal or more? How much do you sell your art for? A friend of mine got out of here and does graphite art for about $600.00 each piece. I had a girlfriend back in 2003 named Carmen. She is an artists as well. Beautiful woman. I screwed it up. She’d be 59 now. Portraits with oil. Thousands of dollars each. Horror movies: The Exorcist? The Exorcist first came out in 1974 Halloween night... midnight showing at the capital theatre in Yakima, Washington. I picked up my friend and paid his way to see it. He slept with the lights on after that. I drove a 1974 chevy blazer. Music? I listen to 101.9 Kink FM. You can go online and listen to it if you want at Kinkfm.com New and old rock. Pass the time? Work 7:00am to 2:30 pm Monday thru Friday. Do artwork when I come to my cell. Weekends I finish my weekly piece. Play cribbage a lot. Answer mail and talk to people on the phone. If you want to help $ send money orders/Jpay to: 

Central Trust Account

Keith Jesperson #11620304

Po Box 14400

Salem Oregon

97309-5077

That's only for sending money. Okay, a lot to take in. Read the book Dangerous Ground by M. William Phelps. Phelps is currently working on a 4 hour show to cover the book. Due out march 2019. Collectors buy my art for $300.00 to $2000.00 each. I’ve seen the murderabilla sites printouts.

Take Care,

Keith