#kidding but new pic from the fb group !!!!!!!

[uksqueeze]

Glenn Tilbrook taken by Ed Rottinger

[auntieslover78]

Someone keep me entertained from the urge of sending my mom a “ accidental” dick pick to see what happens , I feel like she’d be semi okay with receiving it as I’m her second and last son and always been her baby boy who’s never done no wrong or she’d always let me just learn life own my own but never judged and always was the fun parent and now she’s gotten the bad hips barely gets around or enjoys herself so I’m wondering a spark like that might make her more interested as she always wants to hang out and I gotta go grab her then we just drive around smoke and talk for hours , I’ve always took her used bras and panties , she’s found them before , I’ve seen her tits when I was younger fall out while sleeping on the couch her ass is just and always has been super huge too would always get so hard when she’s bent over in some see through leggings or yoga pants , her ex / old step father would always be perverted in front of me like always slap her ass grab it tongue each other and one time I walked in on them having sex and man even while laying on her stomach her huge ass was still up there and dude could barely get past the cheeks and ugh I’ve had her walk in while I was jerking off , she’s walked in while I was drying off no towel kinda on the creep side but I was younger with a lot of gift cards but I’ve even bought a hidden camera stuck it in her room after she left her ex and man the pics I’d get while at school or some of the things she’d try on for her night out was just great even had one in the bathroom for some views of when grandma would stay over but yeah any tips to really seduce my mom the right way before I just go showing her that the cock she needs and excitement sits in her own sons pants and like my ex caught and exposed my old tumblr to fb once my mom screenshotted it and sent it to me not even mad about the mom things I shared and a little upset about the posts I’ve made about my sister but yeah at this point I don’t even think I’m capable of dating after my ex been addicted to incest since I was way younger being left with cousins in the same shittt life situation as you while your moms go out you tend to try things with family first I’ve had my dick sucked by both cousins on my dads side when I was younger even tried stuff with my one guy cousin more of him sucking me off and us rubbing one another to group family porn , one cousin while upstairs one night we found her older sisters dildo and lube so of course looked up what it was turns out it was a strap on but my cousin still wanted to feel the tip touch the hole but not go in and suck on it while jerking me off this is all while we were the ages of 8-11 so of course my first laptop I got was full of incest porn and pretty sure my moms found that a few times , my brother his first baby momma is our cousin and she’d always be nude in his room door open while I was younger he’d call me in to show me her body , visited her years later new man and a couple more kids stayed the night while her man was at work and after the kids gone to bed she sat next to me on the couch small tank on and tits just free as they can be and she gave the hints of wanting dick from the younger brother was able to play with my other cousin her sisters tits which was nice plus like in middle school I hung out with this one outside ass chick a bit older then me who hung with some pretty weird Middle Aged people I’d walk after school hang with these adults smoking was weird as the one dude was an amputee from the knees down dating a crazy black girl body was nice then the other two were on the spectrum but later down the road I was related to the white lady but while hanging there they’d always ask me if I seen or touched boobs or a virgin obviously said yes to all three but in reality I’ve only seen them a couple times cause of my brother so both chicks would get naked and let me touch their boobs or ass the white chick also gave me a handjob and the black chick eventually after a while would let me finger her and suck her tits and ass was always told I can do those things

[compassionatereminders]

Hi! What would you recommend about being harassed online? As revenge my mom keeps making fake profiles and tries to get my info (where I work - she already tried to get my dad fired when I was a kid she was calling his boss and saying lies that he was an alcoholic etc.), my phone number. She even made accs claiming she was my old classmate and that her last name on fb is different because she got married etc. Her daughter never met me because she had her after she left me... and her daughter who is now 17 I believe is making fake profiles too, sometimes pretending that she is a dude who is interested in me (to get my into) or she calls me names and insults me. I told my mom I never want to see her and that she should stop. But she has been doing this since 2016. Mostly during summer break because she takes like 2 weeks off work during that time. Whenever I post a pic of me they make fake profiles of me (I reported a few but probably there are more and I will never find them because they are profiles with a fake name) and she joins hook up fb groups. I am terrified that one day some man will see me somewhere and think he talked to me. As a result I am too afraid to upload any of my pics on fb. I have all my pics private but they can always save the profile pic even (they can screenshot it and so on). This might not sound like a problem to someone but this has been stressing me out. Summer break starts soon here and again I know I will be harassed daily by at least 5-8 accounts. And I know that messages from people who are not my friends go to "other" inbox but it's not really helping since I can still see it. I miss the days where you could make settings so only friends could message you and there was no "other" inbox. So sorry if I annoyed you with my message but I'm really stressed by this harassment. Like if you physically and mentally abused a kid for 10 years and then you abandoned your kid then you shouldn't be mad that the kid doesn't want to see you right?

I'm so sorry you're being stalked! My advice is that you don't engage outside blocking their new accounts as soon as you discover them. The more attention you give them the worse it will get. So just take a deep breath and block them. As many times as you have to. It isn't fair that you have to deal with this kind of behavior, but engaging will only make it worse.

[chasing-rabbits]

Just need to vent a little here. So I’m in this UK handmade selling group on facebook. I’ve always lurked but never posted until recently. I mean I wasn’t really making anything new or selling my old stuff I’d made for my Etsy the whole reason I stopped selling on Etsy was because it got to much for me as I had a lot of irl shit to deal with. So I post my earrings in the group now this group has the same loose definitions of handmade as Etsy does. By this I mean they don’t expect you to be an artisan who makes their own charms for their jewellery. They literally have people selling craft kits - i.e they are buying in paints and brushes and small pottery bits to then combine into a kids craft kit and selling it in this ‘handmade’ group. Which tbh even I think that’s a little bit pushing the boundaries on ‘handmade’ but most of these people also have Etsy’s and that is within Etsy guidelines. So they accept my bubble tea necklaces and then last night I decide to make a post for the earrings. The same ones I’ve promoted on here the fruity ones, the panda butts and the octopus ones. It gets removed/declined for breaking one of the rules. So I’m like okay let’s see it says ‘not handmade’. So I reach out to an Admin who says she’s going to look into it in the meantime I re submit it to the group so she can find it again and look over it and I assumed accept it. She just gets back to me now and says this

Now I want to clarify again just today they have accepted not one not two but multiple posts from other sellers selling earrings with a charm on. One of them even has the EXACT same charm I have on a pair of earrings I’ve got sat right now in my jewellery container. So this isn’t a case of we don’t think they meet the true requirements of ‘handmade’ this is them saying they think I bought these earrings as is that I didn’t attach the charms myself. Bear in mind before they sent this message I offered to send them proof. I said I could show them receipts of where I bought the charms from. I even said I could show photos of the charms because I have charms sat in my jewellery containers on their lonesome and the earring hooks and the findings and all my jewellery making tools. Fuck I even offered to make a video so fuck it I did make a video which is really bad for me because I’ve been SO bad right now with aches in my wrist and hands. So now I’m thinking oh god next thing I’m gonna get back is some criticism of you don’t look like you know what you’re doing so we don’t believe you. I did put in the post I sent them as proof with the video that I AM disabled and right now my hands are not doing great and I was struggling with grip and got the shakes a little when holding the pliers to open the split ring. There’s a reason I’ve not made jewellery since lockdown (except this Monday I had a good day Monday and made some earrings HOWEVER I bought earring hooks that didn’t require me to use split rings. I’ll have to take a picture but the hooks are basically designed in a way that you can just drop the charms and beads onto it. It’ll make sense when I take the pics and post them. But I just had to vent about this because like what am I meant to do in the future when posting to this group? I post something handmade and if they don’t believe me they’re just gonna go nah sorry fuck off and like then what am I meant to do you know? It’s just so fucking dumb like what is it about these earrings specifically that made you think they weren’t handmade compared to the other ones listed on their group from other sellers. Fuck why did they accept my bubble tea necklaces and not these earrings. Like it feels so arbitrary and it’s like well fuck me I guess then. I mean fuck I’m offering you proof and you just ignore it and reply nah soz we don’t believe you. Without even accepting my offer to show you the receipts like nah fucking old white women Karens of FB tho fr. Like and she over there with her cricut selling vinyl personalised mugs and she’s judging my handmade crafts lmfao (also I don’t actually hate on the cricut I have the curio which is a similar model made from the same company like vinyl be all right but like everyone be doing it and technically she could just be buying in from china and Ali express and no one would know so it’s like half the shit on that group you could look at it and think hmm because if its simple enough then yeah it can likely be mass produced and made in china like it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to buy some charms and put them on jewellery like I am aware that I’m not doing anything particularly special here but cut me some slack it takes me twice as long to make this shit because my hands no work and I can’t make consistently because my hands NO WORK so it’s about all I can manage right now)

[laterzgators]

How the gang would be like in modern times.

Kinda basing this off of texts I have with my friends because I get reminding everyday that my old friend group (kinda still my friend group.) are like the gang.

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Ponyboy

He would have like an iPhone 6 in 2020. And he would be so upset about it. But he wouldn’t complain cause his brother didn’t have money for him to have an iPhone 11 or something.

He uses every platform to text. He probably only texts like Johnny and sometimes Dally.

Johnny and him would FT for hours and during them be like “look what I sent you.” And then proceeded to a meme.

Still a whiny baby boy but 2020 edition

Didn’t pay attention to politics cause he isn’t voting so he has no say. :/

Would probably watch anime- but like mainstream.

Has two instagram accounts one for public people he knew and a secret one to post what he wanted cause Darry probably looked into his phone-

Tries to show Darry how to use a smartphone. Darry won’t understand it. But he tried.

Track team until COVID hit 🙄

Hated virtual learning. HATED IT.

Especially when Darry didn’t have work that day he would peep into Soda and Pony’s room to see him on his desk on a call.

Pony putting his arm down shooing him away. “Darry...I’m in class please shh.” “Don’t worry bout me I’m just listening. Making sure these teachers actually are teaching ya.”

Somehow went brain dumb with this type of learning some days so when a teacher would ask him to answer something he would mute and turn off the camera or leave the call.

He was happy when he did know the answer a certain day.

• Having to text Johnny or Two bit to join a class cause the teacher was doing attendance.

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Johnny

Texts Ponyboy and Dally pretty evenly. Though Pony would start being whiny when he didn’t answer. Johnny also probably had an older phone like an iPhone 6 or se maybe even an LG but he wouldn’t complain. He was just fine with having a phone. At least it worked.

Has a whole Instagram account about memes. Pony probably helps manage it.

Watches anime with Pony cause he finds it interesting. Does he understand what’s going on? No not at all but if Pony likes it then it’s okay.

Does really like Naruto though-

He hates school. It’s bad enough he skipped it most days. But now ITS AT HOME SO HE HAD NO EXCUSE TO NOT DO IT!

He would usually join the zoom calls but he kept his camera off and was on mute. His parents were probably arguing-

Some days he could be with Pony at his house and did his zooms from there.

Pony spamming him to join the class.

Pony: “Johnny Mr Fullb-“

Johnny: “I’m about to join just be patient pony.”

Dally sent him a nude once and he was SCARED. Dally used social media for that purpose but we will get more into that later-

He apologized a lot btw-

FT calls were fun cause he would put his phone in a certain position and do work and Pony being high on adrenaline would run around his room and you could see it on camera. It was funny.

—

Dallas

Where do I even start for this man....

TAKES FREAKING A MILLION NUDES LIKE IM NOT EVEN KIDDING ITS GROSS

Poor Johnny once got sent one on accident.

He is still traumatized

Virtual women and real women double bonus for him. He would text or dm one chick and be asking a girls number physically at the same time.

Mans gotta multitask-

Bully people on the internet.

Mainly pony for some reason. He did it playfully but Pony would get upset so quickly-

Pony.boy_curtis posted a picture. Caption: Read this poem at school and I’ve been vibing with it.

Comments: @Dal_winSton: Haha THATS dumb. (And more spam of him that includes 😀 that emoji.)

People would call him an eboy and he didn’t like that. He was just edgy in his own way.

Stole a iPhone 11 Pro so that’s how he has this phone.

GC with the whole gang existence and he was like “This is dumb we see eachother everyday.”

He was a weird teen-

—

Sodapop

My manz always texted Ponyboy when he was to lazy to speak.

Texted a lot of people cause he was that guy. But mainly Steve, Sandy (when they were still a thing.), Darry, and Pony.

His IG was filled with nice pics of him and girls just commenting about how handsome he was. He got annoyed of it at a point and turned off the comment section.

Probably had tiktok and made Pony get it.

Had a free subscription of Spotify and my boy loved his music.

Texting pony is like.: “Hey could you tell Darry that I got the eggs he needed earlier.” Pony never told him. Darry got home with a carton of eggs and started yelling that they wasted money on extra eggs. And Pony stood there after hours of finally looking at the text and would just back up.

Random girls dming asking if he was single.

It made him uncomfortable.

But Steve would grab his phone and say random things to the girls and they’d leave him alone.

He didn’t understand Pony’s memes but liked them cause they were on his page.

He or Darry probably asked later on what it meant.

“Uh-huh.” Is the response after Pony took an hour explaining it.

Still didn’t get it.

Followed every single person he knew or liked on Instagram or any platform.

“PONY CAN I USE YOUR HOTSPOT MY INTERNET ISNT WORKING!!!”

Pony just yelled back sure.

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Darry

You thought Soda was bad nah Darry is a full on Karen-

Had probably had a flip phone until 2018

Loved Karen memes. Pony would see him liking them on fb and he’d just LAUGH.

Yelling at Pony to help him with his phone.

Pressed the wrong buttons all the time.

Probably had an LG-

DIDNT get texting 🤦‍♀️

Telling Pony not to talk to strangers on the internet.

Would have Rants on Facebook.

He pays for cable even though no one in that house used the Tv except him.

Would be so confused on the GC

“IF YOU ARE GONNA GO OUT WITH JOHNNY PUT ON YOUR MASK PONY!”

In the GC: Two Bit: Calm down Jamal dont pull out the nine.

Darry: Who is Jamal and what do you mean by pull out the nine??

Pony: PFT- CHILE I-

Darry: WAIT I SEARCHED IT UP IN THE GOOGLE DO NOT SAY INAPPROPRIATE THINGS IN THIS CHAT TWO BIT MATTHEWS!!!

It’s scary seeing him in our times-

—

Two Bit Matthews.

MEME LORD

All the memes all the jokes he understands it.

He is an intellectual.

Was barley passing school. He was usually on his phone in class.

He probably also had tiktok.

Dmed girls all the timeeee-

Hey good looking

You have been blocked by this user

WHA-

Yeah he didn’t realize girls didn’t like that

Had a whole page dedicated to memes because obviously.

DIDNT join virtual school at allllll

He was busy playing roblox like the cool kid he was.

He is legit a 9 year old-

Hated wearing masks but he did it.

Still hung out with Pony and the gang even with Corona.

He spammed the GC at like 4 a.m when he was super sleepy but still awake and asked all kinds of questions.

“If we call an orange orange can we call orange fruit?” Confusion.

He was something else-

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Steve

Texted Soda during work.

Also texted Evie during work.

Google was his new best friend.

He used google a lot he just did.

Only had Instagram cause Sodapop begged.

He got used to it after a while.

Would get Ponyboy in trouble whenever he posted something that he knew could get him in trouble

Would post pictures of Darry doing random things and say “Superman” in the caption. LOL

Used LMAO a lottt for some reason

On the GC if someone was spamming he’d just say SHUT UP. Like a lot but he would.

He never wore his mask and if he did it was on his chin.

Pictures of chocolate cake.

That’s probably it lol.

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That’s all. I hoped you liked it. Sorry I’m posting so late lol-

[acloudkat]

Gossip Girl 2.0

So. . . I was unsure of whether I was going to talk about this or not but… in the end, here we are!

I shall be talking about the Gossip Girl Reboot.

Now quick disclaimer and mild *excuse you* to HBO, please find ways to make your content accessible to Europe because there are those of us that are interested and unfortunately your "Max" service is US only and honestly i see no reasonable logic behind it. Therefore my means of getting access to this content shall not be discussed.

Extra disclaimer, there will be spoilers. Doi.

Now I am a big die hard fan of the original GG series and despite the outdated (to today’s standards) comparisons and slang, some of the topics hold up even today. For anyone curious or questioning my opinion, based on my generation, I am mildly in the middle as a Zelenial at 23. I did not grow up with GG, I learned about it when I was 14 but watched it for the first time when I was 19. Since, I have watched it up to 14-17 times; more than 10 for sure. So you can do with that as you please. The main reason I mention this is due to some articles and comments pointing out that maybe it’s a “Gen Z only media” or that “Millennials are just bitter cause it’s not theirs”. Keeping that in mind I will be as per usual showing the ups and downs of the show (so far and later on) from my own personal perspective.

After watching ep 1. (& now 2 which will be in a separate post after this) I have a few questions, comments AND concerns. So let’s get into those shall we :)

So let's do a little round up of our characters.

We have newcomer Zoya Lott that is moving to NYC on a Constance scholarship! But little did anyone in the show know, it was all a plot to get to be with her *half sister*. WHAT?! So the tldl on that is that Zoya and our other main character, Julien Calloway, share a mom! Mom, that i quote "left Julien's dad for Zoya's dad and the dads hate each other" because of which hate, they had absolutely forbidden their daughters from communicating. One thing led to another, a friend request was sent and this is basically the parent trap. . . . but for the kids. . .and they're aware of it cause they made it. . . I suppose? The parents haven't really been mentioned to matter in their plan, however, they do keep bringing up their middle names as "Zoya Jane and Julien Elizabeth" as clues left by their mother? Now some rumours around the web have connected the names to the Pride and Prejudice novels and while that would be extremely Gossip Girl-esque to do, and I am entirely up for that, hell yea!!! I'm wondering if it's as simple as... their mother's name was Elizabeth Jane... but maybe GG will be the one to discover that secret first? Other than that, Zoya is very much a very trusting "innocent type" character that probably has more past than we know about so it will be quite interesting to see how that elaborates going further into the series.

Then there is self-made influencer Julien Calloway. She is the new version of queen at Constance but as stated, they "don't do the patriarchy anymore". While she appears all smiles and kindness, personally i feel as if JC is kind of fake? She has things she cares about yes, but the moment someone or something interferes with her followers and her social standing or Obie (more on him later)

"the gloves come off and the claws come out" - Serena Van der Woodsen

When it comes to Julien I am honestly more curious to see who she is once you take away the followers and the media. Will she be an actual person or just a shallow obsessed spoiled brat? I just hope it won't be the typical story of "have to be perfect and have to have everyone like me because my mom left" ie. has mommy issues. That is how that cliche goes after all. So I am greatly hoping that's not going to be it for this one.

Obie Bergmann! We get introduced to Obie as Julien's boyfriend. Throughout ep 1, the things we learn about Obie are that he is basically the richest in the group, and lives in Dumbo. (irony from original GG for anyone that can guess it). He appears like a super nice and kind dude, a supportive boyfriend, kind of bland and tired of the relationship but the main thing that bothers me about him so far is his impossible to ignore "white guilt syndrome". For anyone unaware, "white guilt" is "remorse or shame felt by a white person with respect to racial inequality and injustice". While it's not a bad thing trying to make up for the in-equality in the world, here's hoping that's not his entire character cus that would get old quick.

Then we have the bestie, Audrey Hope. Audrey. . . is cold but to the point. Very analysing and observing. Definitely the type of character that would take all the info first and decide what to do after. I both like and am confused by her? Her cold mannerisms are quite enjoyable among the masses of drama and emotion I won't lie. However, i do predict a juicy threesome between her, boyfriend Aki and one Max Wolfe. Honestly, I am highly interested in how their relationship evolves.

Aki Menzies is kind of a mystery as of the moment. As to be expected with just 1 episode, we won't know too much about all the characters. He is the very supportive boyfriend that tries to keep the peace between everyone.

Max Wolfe on the other hand appears like the much more flamboyant version of Chuck Bass, if Chuck Bass had a supportive family environment and no limits on who he's dating. That's more or less for him but kuddos for his 0 hesitation to basically have a pic of his dick sent to everyone. I will never not find that hilarious. But again, between these three is my prediction for some juicy interactions. Cause to be fully honest, the chemistry is undeniable.

Monet de Haan. Ah. She is honestly the savage that we need around here. She is the control and the power behind Julien's brand honestly. I am curious how come she helps Julien with her brand rather than have her own? If we go off anything said in the episode, she is more feared than adored so maybe that's why? But Monet honey, fear can also have a following, just . . a different one.

And then there's Luna La, "The stylist" while we don't know much about her, some of her one liners are actively giving me life. Her and Monet are definitely a package deal and i wonder if there is juicier gossip there that we don't know yet.

Lastly, we have our new Gossip Girl. Young teacher, Kate Keller. I won't lie, i did not see us knowing who GG is from the get go. I am however wondering whether this will drag her down to the level of highschoolers (besides the fact that she looks younger than some of them xD) Something that is bothering me in the reboot however, is that technically, characters that represent adults, spying on minors??? Like they even make the point that "i shouldn't have these, i should be in jail" in regards to having almost naked pictures of the kids. Like it's not really okay??? In the original yea no one knew who GG was but they always knew it was someone their age. The teachers didn't care at those times. But they do now and I am not fully sure how okay it is.

And of course, the extras like some of the other teachers behind GG and the parents. We however, don't know too much about them as of now so we shall see soon. If any new characters are introduced they will be addressed but for now, onto the episode!

The half sisters plot is definitely interesting so I would love to know where the whole middle names thing will go. The story line I'm most interested in at the moment however is between Audrey, Max and Aki. I want to see that unwind into something horrendous but then beautiful! It has so much potential in my opinion. In terms of character development however i want to see who Julien is without all of her fame and followers. When the focus is not the media and the attention. I want to see that Julien.

The first episode definitely introduced us to a lot of things at once so far that is my take on them. I'm sure that in the future both the teachers and parents will be a bigger part but one thing is abundantly clear. Unlike the OGGG, there won't be more than maybe 2-3 seasons depending on the ages of the students. The teachers won't follow them onto college will they? Or will things drastically change along the way? It was rather amusing seeing them talk about all the old characters however, and reference the OG Gossip Girl. I am vaguely offended that they categorised twitter as "a glorified chatroom for memes for people over 30". Like dude. . . that hit me hard. I am happy that FB was never even mentioned as existing tho! Cause let's be honest that is not the "hip" thing anymore. But the rules they put down at the party definitely made my head spin. Had to listen to them twice to even get what was happening.

But that's probably enough of me babbling on about this xD If you want to find this on an apparently dying type of media, here's my blog post about it as well lol: https://acloudkat.wordpress.com/?p=960

[the-bjd-community-confess]

Ok, so I know this topic is basically over and done with, but I just gotta point out the two confessions were one was like “I don’t tag I don’t tag BC I don’t want people to interact with me/my pics.” and the other that’s like “I don’t want people to see my doll” or whatever. Like, why the fuck are these people on a social meda platform then, where the point is that your pics are seen by other people? If you really don’t want random people to follow, or see your dolls, why the hell would you make an account on a site, or sies, that was literally just built for that exact purpose? It’s literally made to show random people pour pics, and you’re complaining about that exact function. These sound like the kinda people who go to an ice ream parlour, and then complain because the place doesn’t sell steak, and seafood. “But I need to keep track of my dolls!” If you don’t want people to see your dolls, just keep the pics for yourself, or make a spreadsheet to keep track of what you got. “But I only want certain people to see my pics!” Then join a discord group, or FB Group, neither tumblr, or Instagram were made for this type of selective pic sharing.

“But I wan’t new people to see my dolls too! I just don’t want random people to.” Then go to DOA, or the afformentioned groups. Instagram was made for random people to follow you, same with tumblr. Random and new are also kinda the same.

“I only want my followers to see the dolls, since only people who follow me should be able to see them.”(Or something like that.“ Well you’re certainly not gonna get any followers by no-tagging, and even followers migt get tired of that shit. In that case, make Your own discord just for your dolls, and invite your followers. ”But I wanna prevent people from randomly stumbling across my pics, I only want them to be see by a Select few.“ Pretty sure this is repetition, but please go back to the previously mentioned point of joining a group, or making your own discord.

"But what if people see, and then try and streal my oc/"my” doll?“ Stop being so conceited, no one gives enough of a shit about Your OC to go and steal them, and the doll sculpt isn’t yours, only that specfc copy you own. You sound like an entitled kid who throws a tantrum BC some other kid owns the same light-up sneakers, so you go tell to your mom so she can sue the kid fo daring to copy her "sweet angel”. “But what about pornbots, and other annoying type followers?” Block'em, or if you’re really that upset by this (sadly) common experience JOIN A GROUP. Most are moderated. “But I don’t want people constantly asking me about random stuff about my dolls, like sculpt, or company names!” Then tag it, seriously, people will ask way less. “People stil ask though.” Less people will ask, also, some people are just too stupid to check, but such is life, and the internet. <filled With dumb people.

“But it takes so long.” Man, those 3 or 4 extra Seconds it takes to add a tag really must be ruining Your quality of life. Then don’t use a site where tags are such a large part of the sites experience. I probably missed some things, or whatever, but I just don’t get the point of people complaining about the main features of social media platforms, as if it as an affront to them that these sites don’t cater to their specfic internet experience wishes, instead of just finding one that does, and tailoring their own experience. ~Anonymous

[yuzusorbet]

Sendai Holiday 2019, Part 3:  Home rink and Olympic monuments

(Parts 1 and 2 were on ice shows ‘Fantasy On Ice’.)

On my 1st trip to Sendai last year, I flew straight to Sendai Airport.  This time, I decided to take the bullet train.  The shinkansen ride from Tokyo Station to Sendai Station was just one and a half hours, very fast and comfortable. 

I booked the same hotel as last year and everywhere was friendly and familiar.  I felt so happy to be back!  And I knew exactly where to go. :)  First thing I did was to visit the station’s Tourist Information Centre where ‘young master’ Yuzu welcomes all to Sendai.  I needed to find out more about shuttle buses for the ice shows.

It looked the same as last year, except one more message has been added to his poster: “Congratulations on receiving the People’s Honour Award!”  Omedeto~!

Next, I bought zunda mochi from a shop in the station and boarded the bus for Ice Rink Sendai.   Haha, this was exactly what I did on my first day in Sendai one year ago.  

Ahhh.... my sweet zunda mochi, I have missed you. xD

Passed by Nanakita River and Yurtec Stadium; it means we are almost there!

When I alighted from the bus, I was surprised at the changes in the area.  There are new buildings!  To the right of Ice Rink Sendai is a cute pasta restaurant.....

and on the left, a huge D.I.Y. store.   They weren’t here last April. :) 

Pics below: Yuzuru’s home rink, Ice Rink Sendai. 

I brought along Shampoo Neko's fan art (with her permission), wrote "Love and support from Yuzuru Hanyu International Fan Group (FB)" and gave it to the reception of the rink.  I told the nice lady at the reception that this art is drawn by a fan from Argentina and there are many fans from all over the world who love him very much. She smiled and said thank you.  (And I was extra happy to hear Yuzu say he loves fan art during his talk show with Shuzo-san. :D )

I took some photos of the reception area.  Compared to last year, it is much more "bare" because all the support messages for 2018 Olympics have been taken off the black wall.  The rest of it is about the same.   Our handsome 'young master' is still there and there is now a sign saying "Do not touch..." xD

As before, photography is not allowed for the rink area and the small gallery of photos and memorabilia.

When I was here last year, I rented skates and tried to skate.  This time, I didn't skate because I didn't want to risk any injury that would prevent me from going for the ice shows.  So I just paid an entrance fee and sat at the rinkside to watch the skaters.

I was happy to see Nanami Abe sensei again!  Last year, I saw her coaching a group of children/young teens. This time, I saw a different side of her.  She was teaching an older teenage boy and they seemed to be going through the choreography of a programme.  Since Nanami-sensei is a choreographer as well as a coach, I think she probably choreographed a programme for this skater for the new season.  She skated some steps and he had to do the same.... and one part was difficult for him and he couldn't do it properly.  She skated again a few times to show him and he tried it over and over again until he got better at it. Then she took her little music player and they did the steps with music. They were talking and laughing every now and then, and enjoying the whole process.  And Nanami-sensei is so graceful and light on her feet, wow, I enjoyed watching her.  After a lot of practice of that part, they moved on to the next section of the choreography. The student's mother was standing near me and she was using her handphone to record some parts, looking quite pleased.

As a non-skater, I’m glad I got to watch part of a programme being made.   So much hard work.  He was practising some steps that I have taken for granted in Yuzu and I didn't even know they could be so difficult (for a skater).  Watching this boy, I could see the work behind just a few "simple" steps.  I realised that even though I've read and watched so much about Yuzu over the years, I still know so little about skating.  Sigh. :(

The boy was tall and slim and wearing all black, so similar to you-know-who.  I was also thinking, how many times Yuzu must have practised like this with Nanami-sensei, in this same rink, with his mum recording at the side......  *goosebumps*

Pic below: Nanami-sensei and the team of coaches.

There were also a few other skaters having individual lessons, doing spins and jumps, pretty high level stuff.  I was very contented to sit there and watch them.  I also had a nice chat with one of the coaches who gave me a lot of help last year.  She remembered my name (omg I was so happy!) and she bought me a drink from the vending machine (she’s so sweet!).....  It was so good to see her again.   Thank you, Sensei! 

On this day, there were no group lessons as the rink was closing early for a special event.  Javier Fernandez was invited to teach a group of kids there.  As I was leaving, I saw the staff getting the place ready.  Everyone must be pretty excited!  Lucky kids!

Next, I wanted to see Yuzu’s new Olympic victory monument.  I took the subway from Izumi Chuo station to International Centre Station.  It was a beautiful day and I was greeted by a marvellous sight.

The view from the back was as gorgeous as from the front.

When I was here last April, the SEIMEI panel was not up yet.  After watching the ceremony on live stream recently, where Yuzu officially revealed the design, it was very satisfying to be able to see it for real.   And once again, I was reminded that the panels are much bigger than they seem in photos. :)

Congrats again, 2-time Olympic gold medalist, Hanyu Yuzuru senshu!   おめでとうございます！！

Part 1 and 2: the ice shows Part 4:  Nanakita Park and schools

If you want to see my Sendai photos of 2018, HERE.

(Photos are taken by me;  please do not use or repost my photos.)

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New money making gimmicks

Buy china portable lawn mower as brush cutter/grass cutter in the link below and advertise yourself to trim and cut people lawn at a fee charging per KM squire.

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https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/Nplus-High-Quality-Portable-1-6kw_60711473530.html?spm=a2700.galleryofferlist.0.0.4a172f19vcxStP&s=p

https://www.jumia.co.ke/generic-east-250w-electric-grass-trimmer-lawnmower-pruner-garden-power-tool-15027050.html

https://www.jumia.co.ke/generic-garden-zip-trim-portable-cordless-trimmer-lawnmower-grass-edger-works-with-standard-zip-ties-15074551.html

They are saying they are eating corpse 4 other fellows from other tribes or nations to follow suit when they thought they will come up in Africa with innovation 1st or bar them, but to date as googled many nations like Nigeria, Tz, Uganda and Ghana or SA has made much more advances than them and the innovation they want to hack they will never hack lest they blow the Tumblr or FB head office using the gimmicks not tucked explained above. They identify people and heap the burden on as of their tribe when they see good in u, not minding the DNA thing without stoppage, wanting to kill the very very person as they have been given cash and every nation now got the same they wanted to make their and have made such explained inventions like Alternator Generator with Nigeria.

The door in the link below, can have wooden or metallic frame and armored glass circumscribed in between without the metallic pattern decoration. As a wire that the curtains hangs is up on the edges of the start of the rectangular armored glass window on the frame.

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk008JO9l1JEgDqnB4yzZIaPV1CLMWQ:1593086416548&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=china+metal+door+images&client=opera&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjwoNGv9ZzqAhVO1xoKHe9aA7MQsAR6BAgIEAE&biw=984&bih=627#imgrc=hAZMqGpjDr-tcM

https://www.google.com/search?q=china+mortion+censor+light+gadgets+images&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwj65pCS-JzqAhWF04UKHbmjCVgQ2-cCegQIABAA&oq=china+mortion+censor+light+gadgets+images&gs_lcp=CgNpbWcQA1CwM1iwM2DXNmgAcAB4AIABAIgBAJIBAJgBAKABAaoBC2d3cy13aXotaW1n&sclient=img&ei=t5T0XrqvO4WnlwS5x6bABQ&bih=627&biw=984&client=opera

https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fimage.made-in-china.com%2F202f0j00WPIYTQAjgvql%2FDoor-and-Window-Burglar-Alarm-Magnetic-Detector-and-Vibration-Sensor-Anti-Thief-Alarm-with-Sound-and-Light-Home-Security-Alarm.jpg&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fzudensecurity.en.made-in-china.com%2Fproduct%2FKjWxXCMdiyku%2FChina-Door-and-Window-Burglar-Alarm-Magnetic-Detector-and-Vibration-Sensor-Anti-Thief-Alarm-with-Sound-and-Light-Home-Security-Alarm.html&tbnid=3Am-vBBA4DaTwM&vet=12ahUKEwi3s72D-JzqAhWRwoUKHVohC2sQMygAegUIARCaAQ..i&docid=NdbzfrFj5KSSbM&w=550&h=550&q=china%20burglary%20censor%20light%20gadgets%20images&client=opera&ved=2ahUKEwi3s72D-JzqAhWRwoUKHVohC2sQMygAegUIARCaAQ

Sensor motion gadgets and alarm 4 ya window in the links above

Don’t plan an attack and pretend you are good as mediation is concerned yet planned. When i try to tell u the truth in that scenario, kinda, u want to start a battle with me yet in the 1st place u purported the above, while the whole crew behind me ready to ambush me together with u or ransack my pocket or inject me with unknown substances liaising with Dignitaries and Pro-China/Russia gangs. Its not a ticket to grab my manhood or eat my food, hustle dude even if u look me with sinking eye, die period we bury ya, if u don’t wanna do the above as i have suggested above, aint ya father or kid or God that u worshiped that made u to come to earth.

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk008JO9l1JEgDqnB4yzZIaPV1CLMWQ:1593086416548&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=china+metal+door+images&client=opera&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjwoNGv9ZzqAhVO1xoKHe9aA7MQsAR6BAgIEAE&biw=984&bih=627#imgrc=hAZMqGpjDr-tcM

Yaani kufeel hicho kitu, ki-DVD, Ki-VCD, hicho kitu kimefichwa hapo chini joo!!!

King of the jew another version meaning to bring home the truths of worker and vineyard parable. When money placed online Children/kids without wrinkled faces will not be able to buy as grown ups posses such even if u buy a young face it will be hard to do so lest finger prints, blood groups or pulse rate taken. Do not worry with Christ to cement the above truths, even the sparrow of the air i feed, how more will my father in heaven feeds ya, if u investigate the statement it was laden with jealousy maybe of amazing earthly things or no power to finish the father as he was investigated,signalling disciples in the dark at Gethsemane Gardens. Lest u r 18 u can buy in the new world which now is handy when liquid cash eliminated 4 once and for good and monies just transferable points within the electronic media gadgets like phones and computer, where an a/c is created 4 the same as registrations of persons is done. Get this straight pals.

Kinda, u see Russians, Nigerians, Kenyans, SA people hurling up their guns aiming to shoot but countries like Uganda, Tanzania encountering them to signify amicable solution as every nation has learnt the same how to make ammunition and gadgets so no 1 country can exploit another or talk ill.

China swipe ya bank card to pay phones in the link below to eliminate liquid cash dubious tricks

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Even if u dig like bore holes and place sewer water inside much as let the hole be like gas tank size and while reaching the ground place big tanks with the same sewer water and place photos of a sky-scrapper u want to build with inserted pieces of black like nuts and bolts or nails as wires and boom ya house or sky-scrapper as described above. Get it dude same as to with bridges and roads. Eu and USA was build 4 free that way, so think twice if u have known to build yours and stop bothering people with that silly phrase.

Some made in Africa products in the link below

https://www.trtworld.com/life/tanzanian-inventor-creates-local-car-alarm-system-25199

https://www.amazon.com/Tanzania-Country-Laptop-Sticker-Decoration/dp/B0818PYZ9W

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Bluetooth digital thermometer that can be placed in ya house or handle opener to signal ya who is opening ya door or to open ya door. As well as face recognition machine 4 every citizen when the govt have such data-bank, even at your house to be relayed to the relevant authorities to combat crime.

https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/Basal-ROHS-CE0197-Digital-Thermometer-Fever_60684364441.html?spm=a2700.pcdrm.normalList.1.7bf2tljXtljXjz

https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/Digital-Face-Recognition-Detector-strong-Temperature_62500995041.html?spm=a2700.pcdrm.normalList.9.7bf2tljXtljXjz&s=p

Go to countries with Jumia online shopping and check on TV column or sound system google each from to find out which 1 new made in that nation. like in the below link

https://www.jumia.co.tz/tvs-video?page=13&xhr=yx7b8

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jumia#:~:text=Jumia%20was%20launched%20in%20Lagos,present%20in%2014%20African%20countries.

Amtech Tv and stereo made in Kisumu Dala Hera Church in the link below and in-fact they have come up with most of the china stereos ranging from $50-100 and selling them at half price in house to house manner, where such photos of those Stereos are taken cut diagonally or into-pieces and inserted in sewer water and 1 spit saliva on it and boom formed not rocket science that if u inquire the china made 1 they use their gang to ambush ya in ya country. Big shame dude

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk03K_5vUzyJhh-c-unbrw45CJDqXgA:1593065617418&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=amtec+electronics+images&client=opera&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiJmevxp5zqAhUTA2MBHWATCLkQsAR6BAgHEAE&biw=984&bih=627

https://www.google.com/search?client=opera&hs=HaO&sxsrf=ALeKk02AP783NjlwiZfv9HF2L8t2agU0uw%3A1593065754978&ei=GkH0XvydO4nQgwfduYPQCw&q=amtec+TV++from+which+country&oq=amtec+TV++from+which+country&gs_lcp=CgZwc3ktYWIQAzIFCAAQzQI6BAgAEEdQj3tY4YEBYKqOAWgAcAF4AIAB9gGIAZAFkgEFMC4xLjKYAQCgAQGqAQdnd3Mtd2l6&sclient=psy-ab&ved=0ahUKEwj8krezqJzqAhUJ6OAKHd3cALoQ4dUDCAs&uact=5

https://www.patabay.co.ke/product-category/televisions-and-entertainment/televisions/shop-by-brand/amtec/#:~:text=Amtec%20Television%20TVs%20dealer%20in%20Nairobi%2C%20Kenya%20call%200711477775

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The window security to bar those who transfigure to get into ya house many bedroom windows as the one who has the drone in the link below comes to give him the gun after he has opened the window to ambush ya or steal from ya is a thing of the past when light sensors are used placed on the window edge or middle bar of 3 sensor lights where 1 illuminate directly opposite and the other corners as it detect any plastic, metallic and rubber gadget like drones and humans like garnet so sounds the alarm to alert ya of the same as the same can be connected to ya phone to signal ya when away from home as a camera as well can be there to capture footprints as evidence of intruding when at the police desk as can be of bad mouth.

https://www.afrikatech.com/misc/kenya-experimentation-first-passenger-drone-africa/

https://sensor-light.en.alibaba.com/product/1456634001-200096080/Hot_New_Design_Ceiling_mount_security_devices_ST41C_PIR_infrared_motion_detector_smart_switch_mini_motion_sensor.html

Water pump that can be WiFi controlled to not steal water en-mass and sell in big container as using the same to transport to houses to still stay afloat. The City water can employ such as they can cook figures overnight of even hiking the water bill by like 10% per every-house hold to still stay afloat, buy draining the water 1st into big container eliminates such as we know the exact money it cost when full, so when not u can complain and with like buying units 4 ya electricity u can buy units 4 the same as u know exactly how many units fills ya big container. Can be last resort to theft to stay a float in the society with their dubious acts like planned hooliganism among showcasing women and posh vehicles

https://www.jumia.co.ke/starflex-submersible-pumps.-26668328.html

https://www.alibaba.com/countrysearch/CN/wifi+water+meter+wireless+remote+reading.html?fsb=y&IndexArea=product_en&CatId=&SearchText=wifi+water+meter+wireless+remote+reading&isGalleryList=G

https://www.researchgate.net/figure/a-Horizontal-and-b-vertical-roof-top-Polyethylene-Water-Storage-Tanks-available-in-the_fig1_340017786

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk00yE422O9SFRrXmtRiLrwSKuTVHDQ:1593067311698&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=rectangular+water+tank+images&client=opera&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwic8t2ZrpzqAhULzhoKHYzsDz4QsAR6BAgJEAE&biw=984&bih=627

The fallen Malaysian Air was taken down by Russian drone missile to create much pool of cash at 2goinvoice that’s why when cash eliminated such vices ends that facilitates deaths as ransom of failure to pay as described earlier and funds hooliganism among youths as they don’t work hard to achieve and keeps the likes of Russia nations above others without sweet. And more given other reasons of fall might as well be Russian mind so the detectives playing dice with our minds if not unearthed in tumblr davidomolo

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk00MhX5zVdgdhtV9TSUCubi6oxirJw:1593067559714&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=images+of+russian+missiles+taking+down+mh17+airplane&client=opera&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwifyP-Pr5zqAhW5DmMBHWQmAaQQsAR6BAgFEAE&biw=984&bih=627

[this-lioness]

So like... it’s been a really weird fucking couple of days.

I thought about password protecting this, ‘cause not everybody needs to know everybody else’s shit, but I’ll try to summarize in a way that doesn’t incriminate anyone.  Not that I think anybody cares.  This is gonna be super fucking long, so hold onto your butts.

Husband and I belong to a smallish but close circle of friends.  We all largely met one another through one another, if that makes sense.  Like, Person A and Person B meet Persons C and D, then A and B meet E, who has a lot in common with D, and they become friends, and then C’s roommate F starts tagging along to stuff, and now we’re all bowling together or some shit like that.  So when someone in the group meets someone new, and gets along with them, it’s a pretty sure thing that sooner or later they’re just going to be part of the group eventually.

This has worked out really well for us. But... there have been some exceptions.

Case in point, Husband and I met and became friends with a local dude who we thought would integrate well with the group, invited him to our local NYE party, and it seemed like he was starting to blend with everyone.  But then the dude started flaking out, and the fact that at 30-something years old he was still floating from retail job to retail job, didn’t really bathe or keep himself groomed very well, was telling weird, vague lies about completely unnecessary stuff, and we were kinda like... yeah... maybe we don’t want him super involved after all.

But like, you don’t know until you try, right?

A few years ago Husband and I were tabling a local geeky convention of some kind, and we ran into this chick -- we’ll call her Selina -- who was cosplaying there with her best friend -- we’ll call him Logan.  Logan and Selina, with me so far?  They seemed nice enough, typically geeky folks that we had a good deal in common with.  We became Facebook friends with them both.

Something to note about Selina: She was married.  She was also an avid cosplayer and pretty talented makeup artist.  She posted lots of pics of herself in costume on her IG.

Something to note about Logan: In spite of the fact that Selina was married, it was painfully, excruciatingly obvious that Logan was in love Selina.  Like head-over-heels, constantly making “vaguebook” posts pining away for someone nameless who he yearned for deeply, etc.  Like... nobody ever acknowledged that it was Selina that he was in love with, because she was married and she clearly had no feelings for him, but e v e r y b o d y knew.  You couldn’t NOT know.

Not too long after we met them and connected with them on social media, one of our good, dear friends (let’s call him Jay) messaged me privately and said, “Hey, what do you know about Selina?”

Long story short, Selina was really into roleplaying.  Jay mentioned he wanted to give it a shot, and wanted to check to make sure she wasn’t, like, crazypants.  We still didn’t really know Selina all that well, but we told Jay that she seemed cool, and there was no reason to think she was crazypants.

Jay was like, “Cool,” and so Jay and Selina began roleplaying together.

Now, I myself am an avid roleplayer.  I actually offered to roleplay with Selina, but Selina kind of... blew me off?  It turned out I’m a much more long-form narrative roleplayer than she is, and -- if we’re being honest -- probably a better writer than her overall, and I think she wasn’t into that.

Since I’m being so honest, I think she also turned her nose up at the fact that I had a vagina.

Something we came to learn about Selina, the longer we knew her: She loooooooved attention from dudes.  She was a not-particularly-fit-or-attractive chick who used cosplay as a means of surrounding herself with praise and male attention. Which, good for you, you do you, but that’s kind of a thing I don’t care to associate with.

So as time went on, Marc and I kind of... not distanced ourselves from her, but sort of side-stepped away from her into the “Nah, we’re cool” camp, if you know what I mean.  Marc wasn’t one of her drooling admirers, so Selina kind of didn’t give a fuck about him.

In 2016, Marc and I announced that we wanted to do a group cosplay for Baltimore ComiCon.  We wanted to do steampunk Marvel characters.  I was going to be Scarlet Witch, Marc was going to be Colossus.  Our friend Jay was going to be Cyclops, and his wife Julie (our other very good friend) was going to be Psylocke.  Selina and Logan decided they wanted to join in as well, and we met them there in Baltimore, but we weren’t really there with them.  We walked around with them in costume for part of the con, then we all went our separate ways.

Shortly before the convention, Jay’s wife Julie brought to our attention the fact that she and Jay were having some problems, and that Selina was at the center of them.  Jay’s roleplaying with Selina, and the amount of time they spent talking one-on-one with one another, had become problematic.

I’m going to leave it at that, because I’m sure you can kinda suss out what was happening.  Suffice it to say that although it took Jay awhile to realize how his actions were hurting Julie, eventually he realized that he needed to distance himself from Selina for the good of his marriage.  Jay and Julie worked this all out between themselves and all was well again.  There was a bit of awkwardness at the convention, but then we all went our separate ways again and things seemed like they were normalized.

However, the whole thing made us side-eye Selina even harder.

A short while later, Selina divorced her husband.

Now I’m going to introduce you to Karl.

Karl was long-time best friends with Jay, and was good friends with all of us, being part of “the group”.  Karl was in a committed monogamous relationship with Karol, and had been for some time.  We were all really glad about this, because we liked Karol a ton, and frankly Karl was kind of an awkward man-child with a lot of issues, and we all felt that Karol was good for him, and helping him mature.

Throughout all of this Karl had also become friendly with Selina.

One day Karl announces to all of us that he has broken up with Karol for reasons that made no sense to any of us.  We were all very confused and upset, but tried to be supportive of both of them.

Yeah, well, it turned out that Karl had been fucking around with Selina behind Karol’s back.  He broke up with Karol, blaming it all on her, because he wanted to fuck Selina full time, and didn’t want to look like the bad guy.

When “the group” found out we all turned on Karl and were like, “NOPE,” and basically everybody stopped talking to him.  Selina eventually broke up with him, claiming that she had no idea he was in a committed relationship during this time (which is bullshit, because she could clearly see on social media that HE WAS, but whatever), but of course in cutting Karl out we all cut Selina out as well.

Some time passed.  For reasons none of us really understood, in spite of everything he’d done Karol was still in love with Karl, and they continued to live together: initially just as roommates, but apparently rekindling some kind of relationship with one another as well.

Earlier this year, very suddenly and unexpectedly, Jay died.

This came as an absolutely gutting blow to the entire group.  In the wake of his death, we all sort of let Karl back into the fold.  He seemed incredibly repentful, and he knew it was going to be a long road to regain our trust and respect, but he was contrite.

It has been a very hard year for everyone involved, for reasons that I may get into another time.

At the time that Jay died, Selina -- on her cosplaying Instagram account -- posted a budoir-style T&A pic of herself in costume, and at the bottom added, “RIP Jay”.

I’m going to say this again, as judiciously as I can: If this is your thing, good for you, you do you, but in my opinion that was beyond fucking tasteless, and fuck her.

Well.  Earlier this week, Selina killed herself.

This sent a small shockwave back through the immediate group, although it settled again quickly.  Karl is the only one left who had any even remotely positive feelings about Selina, and I’m not 100% sure how he’s taking it. He seems OK, and until he says otherwise we kinda’ have to just accept that.  If he’s mourning her, he’s fortunately got sense enough not to do it where Jay’s widow Julie can see it, so... thank goodness for that, at least.

You may remember Selina’s BFF and unrequited love, Logan.  Let’s get back to him.

Well, Logan has spent the past week melting the fuck down.  I don’t even follow the dude anymore, myself, but out of morbid curiosity I’ve checked his FB page.

Holy shit.

This is not just... mourning.  He has gone way off the deep end, calling he and Selina soulmates, as if -- in spite of the fact that she never reciprocated his feelings (publicly, anyway) -- she was as madly, head-over-heels in love with him as he was with her.  He’s also doing this in full view of Selina’s recent ex-husband, with whom Selina was still friendly, and with whom he is supposedly friends.  God bless her ex-husband for watching this unfold and not driving over and stabbing this guy to death.

Logan even went so far as to talk about the cast of characters from a roleplay he and Selina had been doing together, which included a number of “in character” children born of their two characters, and saying they were AS REAL TO THEM as real live biological children are to actual flesh-and-blood parents.

To note: HE ALREADY HAS ACTUAL REAL-LIFE BIOLOGICAL CHILDREN.

Can you fucking imagine being one of his actual kids and watching him mourn these fictional children who did not actually exist, who your Dad concocted with some chick he was obsessed with, and basically saying that these FAKE KIDS mean as much to him as you do?

Like, he actually concluded the post saying (to Selina), “Please watch over our babies until Papa can come home.” Watching this unfold has been COOCOO-NUTS BANANAS.  I have never wanted to say, “DUDE,” so much to someone before.

I don’t know why I’m writing all this, except to say I really wanted to get it all off my chest.  Part of me subscribes to the whole “don’t speak ill of the dead” thing, and like... look.  I feel for Selina’s friends and family.  I feel for her, because clearly she was troubled, and I’m sorry that she felt this was the only way out of a dark place.  But also, killing yourself doesn’t retroactively erase the shitty things you did when you were alive.  And she did a bunch of shitty things. And yeah, I know I’m probably a shittier person for saying that, but whatever.

Anyway. Like I said.  It’s been a wild fucking year. :|

[homosociallyyours]

a friend just posted a pic on fb of the coffee shop we used to hang out at, taken way back in the day. it’s just a shot of the place taken from inside, looking out the big glass windows and onto the street of downtown chattanooga. but one friend pointed out that she could see another friend’s van parked across the street, and one of the baristas came on and said he’d taken the photo and then proceeded to post a bunch more. 

anyway i’m feeling nostalgic so i’m posting about it. memories behind the cut. 

i started going there when i was maybe 15 years old. i don’t remember why, but it’s likely that the artsy nerd club i was a part of (we stayed after school to watch amadeus and monty python and we’d sometimes go to the local art museum) went there after a meeting one day. or maybe someone told me about it. anyway, it was my favorite place to go. i would drink pots of tea, always trying new things. 

on my 16th birthday my parents got me a teapot from there and a gift certificate to buy tea with. i had that teapot til it broke a year ago. 20+ years! it moved with me to and from college, to nyc, california, texas, and back to california. damn. 

anyway after i’d been going for a while i started talking with the owner. his name was ian, and he was pretty young. he loved tea and coffee and he had a roaster where they’d make their own coffee. it was loud and lovely, and for a long time it lived up front, right by a little elevated area with couches. when it was running you couldn’t hear anything and had no choice but to either shout or be quiet. 

ian encouraged my love of tea, and offered to keep track of everything i’d tried in a little notebook that was kept behind the counter. i got to make notes on every pot i drank, and i remember writing “terrible! grass!” after my first pot of green tea (it was oversteeped--my fault--and probably made with water that was too hot--their fault). i had my first pu-er there, and fell in love with its damp leaf flavor and that turned earth scent that it has. i drank multiple pots of jasmine pearls and wrote a caffeine fueled poem about it with a friend. i loved that little coffee shop. 

i don’t remember when i went from hanging out inside to hanging out outside, but i feel like i was 18 or so. the older people (they were probably barely 21-25, fucking babies) sat out there smoking and drinking coffee. i developed a crush one summer on a guy who made me think of arthur dent for some reason (don’t ask because i don’t know) and we went on one awkward date and didn’t kiss, and now i wonder what’s happened to him and if he, too, wasn’t straight. who knows? someone, i’m sure, but i can’t remember his last name anymore so is it even relevant? 

i’d never felt cool til i went off to college. it was like leveling up without trying, like when you’re playing a game and do one action and suddenly all your stats are refilled and you’re like...this is unexpected? but i’ll take it? i think that’s why i decided i could really sit with the outside tables. that and my bff, who was dating someone who was friends with a lot of those people, would show up sometimes and sit out there. 

(if you’ve actually been reading along so far, here’s where i’m gonna introduce you to a bunch of people i’ve never talked about before and will likely never mention again. just so you have fair warning.) 

the cast of characters shifted a lot, but there were always the constants. scott, the barista, who was much older than most of the people hanging out but looked young and seemed young. i look back with adult eyes and question the relationship we had, but at the time i just thought it was cool that someone so much older thought i was worth hanging out with. but he was 30 when i was 19, and man that’s a lotta years. he had a summer where he hit on my friend and i constantly, after his wife left him and he was kinda floundering a bit. but it never went past flirting and it never bothered me, though like i said it kinda does now. we were still hanging out when i was 21 and we’d go get beers after the coffee shop closed at ten or midnight. he’d turn up obnoxious music really loud and i’d sometimes help close. 

there was gabe and george, brother and sister in a family of people with names starting with the letter g. george was tiny and cute and either very drunk or very hyper from coffee at all times. gabe was a nerd who was usually quiet but loved to play scrabble, and we’d take the board inside sometimes and battle one another. he was much better than me, i won’t lie. liz and ever were both writers who would play with us sometimes. ever had changed her name at some point (to ever; any name she had before is irrelevant) and when we met she explained the meaning of her new name, which i won’t give because damn it’s very google-able. 

she was a so fascinating to me, always talking about some feminist theory or philosopher, and i always felt so smart when we’d hang out. like a Serious Thoughtful Adult and not a kid. and liz was less serious but no less smart. she played scrabble a lot more and for a while we got pretty close. she took me out after coffee sometimes to a shitty bar with pool tables and tried to teach me how to play pool. she had her own cue and even though she was like 5′2″ she could break like nobody’s business. i never figured out how to do that part. 

alex would come with us sometimes. he was tall and handsome and rode a motorcycle, and was the first openly bi guy i ever met. one time he invited me over to his house and we laid around listening to the smiths and talking. he burned me a copy of their greatest hits that i still have, all scratched up so it probably doesn’t play anymore. he crashed his bike more than once driving drunk. dumb fuckin kid. now he repairs coffee machines and sails, i think. life is funny. 

a few other people ran in groups. meg and waide and the aforementioned jason and ardyce. some people called meg “big megan” and another megan (her family was really wealthy, rich southern politicians who knew the clintons and have a mention in sweet home alabama--the song, not the movie) was “little megan” because she was still in high school. i joked that i was medium megan, but the whole thing was awkward because big megan was fat and i was small fat and little megan was skinny. i’m gonna blame it on thoughtless dudes, but who the fuck knows? we all pretended not to mind it anyway. 

waide ended up being a connection with other people who i met later. my hometown is weird in that it’s actually a pretty big part of the southern punk scene, so a lot of punks i meet have spent time there, and anyone over a certain age probably spent time at the bar waide worked at (the stone lion, and then maybe also the pickle barrel) so he’s one of those people who i’ll end up mentioning even though we haven’t spoken in years. 

at some point a kid named ory showed up. i think he was 16 when he started coming around, and i used to call him puppy because he was excitable and silly, full of energy one minute and then mopey crashing the next. like a lot of people there he drank a lot and would be fucked up sometimes and make dumb choices. i always wanted to protect him. when i was 22 (and he was 19, i think) we ended up sitting together at the second lotr movie and having some kind of weird chemistry. that summer i drove him home one night and we had a super heavy make out with lots of clothed grinding. honestly the furthest i’ve ever gone with a cis straight(ish, he hooked up with a couple dudes but idk if he’d say he’s bi) dude and it was awkward in that we never talked about it? and then he came to visit me a couple years later in new york because he was in the navy, and he got super drunk and passed out on my couch and was a mess because he literally never stopped being a puppy. 

he’s fucked up now, fully cancelled bc he said shit about girls rock camp (really dude?) and also probably cheated on his wife on their honeymoon? idk, it was fb rumors and then he deleted. but i’d believe it, honestly. 

and then there were all these absolutely random downtown characters: dirty mark (a crusty punk who was drunk or high most of the time) and shirtless dave (yeah he really didn’t wear a shirt that much) usually came as a pair. sometimes dave hung out with a guy my friends and i called blue hair. he once hit on my friend and she panicked and gave him my number instead of hers because her brain didn’t make up a fake number fast enough. 

there was sandy the flower man, who just passed away a couple weeks ago. he’d get flowers from local florists and go around on his bike, stopping into the coffee shop or to bars with roses and carnations and daisies. people gave him money usually, but sometimes he’d just hand you a flower because he wanted to. i saw a picture from a memorial and there was a portrait of him that was sat on top of his bicycle, all of it surrounded with flowers on flowers. so pretty. it’s what he deserved. 

things changed around 2005 or so, i think. by that time, all the old baristas had left and the kids who came in were all weirdly religious and went to the christian college on the mountain. they made shitty coffee and sometimes played xtian rock and most of the old regulars couldn’t take it anymore. ian got sick around that time, too, and ended up selling the place. they stopped carrying much tea, if any. 

but they finally sold the space and moved in like 2015. i remember the first time i drove by and didn’t see the lights on inside. it felt like seeing a friend from grade school all grown up, maybe the kid you had a crush on but they have a family now and you don’t think they’d recognize you at all so you just have to walk away. gone. 

fuck this post is long as shit, i’m sorry for anyone on mobile. but damn it was good to get my memories out. 

[foxsoulcourt]

Tag game

I was tagged by @fuzzballsheltiepants . Thanks for your patience love! (Never did get the f*%!ing spacing all ironed out)

LAST

drink: Green tea phone call: Grad school mate + former co-worker Katie about her resume + possible next steps text message: My husband saying he just finished his 8 hour drive to Montana song you listened to:  Can I get a Witness - Marvin Gaye time you cried: Last night over an intense episode of Madame Secretary (S01 E16/Tamerlane)

  EVER

dated someone twice: Yep. Still friends w/them kissed someone and regretted it: No

been cheated on: Nope. But, ummmm, I ended one of my first really serious relationships by making out w/someone else while she was away. I know, that’s a horrible a thing to do. It’s a long story.

lost someone special: You bet gotten drunk and thrown up: No, I HATE throwing up! And a big night out is 2, maybe 3 glasses of wine

fave colours? Lime green, teal, turquoise, deep purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE I?

made new friends:  Yes, including a few dear ones here in this Tumblr world

fallen out of love: With ideas + patterns of behaviour; very few people

laughed until you cried: Frequently; more customary is my Laugh + Clap™

found out someone was talking about you: Ugh, yes. At previous job 

met someone who changed you: Several

found out who your friends are: Yes, in several lovely ways

kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: On the cheek, yes    

GENERAL

how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Been off FB for 6+ mos, but if I logged back on...hmmmm...3/4?  do you have any pets: None in the house right now; there’s a humingbird who hangs around when I’m outside. Yes, it’s the same one. do you want to change your name: No, I love it what did you do for your last birthday: Oh, this year was a fun one! Both daughters were home from far away. Dinner out the night before where I def laughed until I cried! Woke up really early that day to find a most wonderful fanfic surprise: FOUR, count them FOUR (!!!!) chapters of @spanglebangle ‘s Doe & Josten: Deductionists . They were particularly enjoyable because that’s where this beautiful sloooow burn started to heat up for real. Finished the chapters in between hanging out w/daughter H, cosplaying Delirium w/a crew at ECCC. Oh yeah, AND I had my pic taken w/Andrew + Neil at that same con! What a day. what time did you wake up today: 7:30 am what were you doing last night at midnight: Turning on the dishwasher before I went to sleep what is something you can’t wait for:  Figure out what exactly I will negotiate people to pay me for in my next professional step. (OK, I CAN wait, but/and I’m low key excited about it.) what are you listening to right now: All Blues radio show have you ever talked to a person named Tom: All the time; he’s one of my besties; infrequently with the bro-in-law version (He’s kinda mean) something that gets on your nerves: Fast, agressive drivers, particularly male  most visited website: Tumblr, AO3 hair colour: Is it brown? Dark blond?  long or short hair: Short-ish + textured; I guess it’s a 21st century shag what do you like about yourself: I am unbound by age + enjoy making connections from wee ones to elders

want any piercings: Nope, I’m content

blood type: I don’t remember. I KNOW I should know, but all I know is it’s not unusual

nicknames: Ms de Milo relationship status: Married zodiac sign: Pisces, Leo rising pronouns: She/her fave tv show: Madame Secretary. Cannot get enough of that salty, open-hearted, badass boss lady + her family + staff tattoos: two - tiny constellation of three HP stars + a small stalk of forget-me-not flowers right or left handed: right-handed ever had surgery: Yes, each related to bringing children into the world + the after effects piercings: Ears + left nostril sports: Sports? No. Activities? Yes! Yoga, walking, bike riding, swimming, hiking vacation: We’re in the ‘visit kids at college + older parents’ phase in life, so trips more than vacations. However, there’s a glimmering possibility of London for spring 2019.  trainers: New Balance eating: Right this minute yogurt + nuts + one of the last tasty in-season peaches drinking: still water i’m about to watch:  Drama Actresses Roundtable The Hollywood Reporter + finish up season 1 of (all together now) Madame Secretary waiting for: A thoughtful, productive next step in the US Supreme Court Justice nomination process want: finish retooling + living out my definition of success at this point in my life

get married: already decades into that adventure; now refining the experience for the next chapter career: I help people + the organisations they are in effectively navigate change. It’s kind of like organisational therapy to be honest. hugs or kisses: It depends on who; cheek/cheek kiss + hugs w/family + close friends lips or eyes: Eyes shorter or taller: Taller older or younger: Depends nice arms or stomach: Yes  hookup or relationship: Relationship; my brain + body shut down at the mere idea of a hookup troublemaker or hesitant: Yes. My modus operandi is watch first + then either ask the question no one else wants to ask or make an observation which stirs the pot. (It’s part of my professional tool kit)

HAVE I EVER?

kissed a stranger: Not so much drank hard liquor: Yes lost glasses: No turned someone down: Yes sex on the first date: Nope, not even close broken someone’s heart: Yes had your heart broken: Yes, in both love + work been arrested: No cried when someone died: Yes fallen for a friend: Yes

DO I BELIVE IN?

yourself: In many ways, most of the time; a little dodgy right now in the professional capacity miracles: Absolutely. Well, not those goopy fantastical ones. More along the lines of everyday small wonders, y’know like that quote attributed to Einstein, “There are only two ways to live your your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”

love at first sight: Not really, although I think if your intuition is finely tuned you know pretty quickly whether it’s going to work out or not. kiss on the first date: Depends on the person + the date angels: Less in the Hallmark movie sense, more in ancestors watching out for us sense.

OTHER

best friend’s name: Four because no one person should ever have to shoulder that much responsibility - Bill (husband), Libby (since childhood), Tom + Rob (met in adulthood) eye colour: Some kind of greenish-hazel business fave movie: The most current one which sparks social commentary. Right now: RBG; looking forward to Captain Marvel. favourite actor: If I absolutely have to choose one, then Frances McDormand favourite food: Artichokes

extrovert or introvert: Gregarious introvert. When I need to facilitate groups I’m on; the rest of the time solitude or similar please favourite flower: Forget-me-nots, zinnias, lavender  favourite hello kitty character? No idea

Tagging @higgins5 @i-h8-u-no-u-dont + @andreaminyard because they tagged me on similar thingies a reallllly long time ago + @sig66 because I want to get to know you better.

[lifeofalaurie]

my uwc story

i remember reading through uwc blogs when i had just found out about uwc and when i was applying and going through all those months of WAITING for the next step...and they were so helpful. im so glad these exist

i first found out uwc through my brother’s friend, who actually went to UWC atlantic college (where im headed!!!!) a few years back. it was one ordinary saturday afternoon (idk if it was actually saturday but that sounds right) and we were carpooling with said friend (usually i dont participate in these but i happened to be in the car that day) and we were talking about next year and whatever and she just kinda said that she wasn’t going to be back next year bc she was going to this ‘abroad’ program. i didnt even really think about it that much. i in fact forgot about it after that...apparently my dad did not.

so my dad would talk about it here and there but i was NOT INTERESTED for that whole year..then...i started researching a bit myself and thought oh this sounds kind of cool. i still didn't really get what UWC even was or if was even a legit thing. it just sounded like another boarding school (a huge NO for me). then i saw that there was a such thing as a “short program” (or maybe someone actually told me about it) and i decided to apply for the one at the USA campus in New Mexico. i remember writing the essays over winter break and thinking they were pretty terrible (there was also a skype interview involved and that was rough) so i was pretty shocked when i found out i had gotten in but it worked out well bc my fam was going to arizona anyway a week before that so i just flew to new mexico myself after that (i say that casually but we had to cancel tickets and get new ones so that i could go to new mexico instead of home PLUS i had to fly for myself for the first time and i was pretty confused). (also, the program is called global leadership forum or GLF)

after hermit’s peak hike (ALL UPHILL FOR A SOLID 4-5 HOURS) i think it was like 8 miles IDK. view was so nice though 10/10

GLF turned out to be an amazing experience and really solidified my trust in UWC and confirmed to me that it was indeed a real thing. i really loved how much we did in those 2 and half weeks or so - camping, hiking, interacting w wolves, having important discussions - and it really pushed me to decide to apply to UWC for real. maybe ill talk more about it in another post!!!!

ok so coming home i did even more research and really really started liking UWC and decided that i might as well try to apply. i knew they never had a certain ‘criteria’ for students but i also knew it was a long and stressful process and involved really digging deep so i really didn’t think much of it (didn’t think i really had a chance) after submitting my written application. and then began the long waiting game...

here’s a nice picture of the sky @ a wolf reservation! just wanted to add a nice pic 

i never joined any of those fb groups or college confidential things for applicants and good thing bc looking at some of them now stress me out so i wouldve probably been even more stressed if i had been involved in that. also i didnt even know they existed until later so thats also probably why.

anyway i had totally forgotten about UWC (more like i was sure they’d forgotten about me or there had been something wrong like my application wasn’t submitted or something) bc i didnt hear back until the end of november (i submitted the application early october). but finding out i was a semifinalist was kind of traumatic bc in my GLF snapchat group one of my friends (who’s going to Pearson this year!!!) said he’d moved on to the next stage and i hadn’t GOTTEN ANY EMAIL. i think i just accepted it that that was the end. but then a few hours passed when i finally decided to check a different email and, alas, there it was. so a few days later, i got an email from my interviewer when we should do our skype interview and it turned out to be the same day i was taking the ACT. good

the interview turned out to be completely ok and actually really great (enjoyable even!!?). if youre at that stage, seriously the best advice i have is to just chill and be honest when youre answering. also, make it more like a conversation rather than the interviewers (yes there are prob going to be more than 1 but i assure u its ok) asking u questions back and forth. think of it as a conversation- that helped me so much to relax. the interviewers just wants to talk to you and find out what kind of person you are and if youre the same one that wrote all those deep meaningful essays from the written application - so if you were honest from the start youll be completely fine...if not, well..sry

after that, school and extracurriculars and life really went up for me and i just forgot about UWC again. i never really told any of my friends about it or anyone except for my parents. i kind of wanted it to be a personal thing- get in or not in the end.

after a really good last day of school before winter break, i went to the town library (lol) and checked my phone and therE IT WAS. I WAS A FINALIST WHICH MEANT I WOULD BE GOING TO THE UWC USA CAMPUS FOR FINALIST WEEKEND. did not know what to expect

waiting for finalist weekend felt looooong

but it came

i flew there myself AND IT WASNT EVEN DIRECT and i remember feeling so independent and proud for making it. it turned out i was one of the later ones and in the last group to be bussed over (but i met a friend on the bus who i still talk to here and there who is going to RBC this yr!!). we were so late we missed the initial meeting and first night of activities and just went straight to the hotel. at the hotel i saw my interviewer and she gave me a hug (<3) and that helped calm me down and it was also really nice to see her in person bc i remember really liking her during our skype interview. then finalist weekend happened. and im pretty sure im not supposed to expose the process so all i can say was that it was actually so genuinely fun and a real good time 

UWC USA <3 

at the end we all exchanged social media and fb and all that and started a messenger group chat -- as nice as it was to be able to connect to everyone, i think it really stressed everyone out. they told us that results would come out early that week (FALSE). THAT WEEK AFTER FINALIST WEEKEND WAS THE MOST STRESSFUL THING EVER. IT TOOK YEARS FOR IT TO GO BY. i remember constantly checking my email between classes and everyone in the group chat wondering if anyone had heard. then on wed night, we all got an email that said the results would be notified by friday instead. the worst

i remember that friday evening i was packing for my first hackathon (it was fun) and thinking the call wouldnt come until later that night. people were freaking out all over the group chat. then, as i was scrambling packing my sweatpants into my bag, the home phone started ringing and i ran..RAN TO THE PHONE. it said my interviewer’s name on the caller ID and i was like OK THIS I S REAL. and i picked it up and it turned out i was too late so i frantically called back probably 10 times on multiple different phones (my efforts did not work). but then, i got a call to the home phone again and it was her so i picked up RIGHT AWAY and when she told me... i kid you not that i screamed and ran around my house a few times. so thats it. it was kind of a really long and sstressful process for sure, but SOO WORTH IT. i definitely learned a lot just from that process bc it makes you think and reflect a lot all throughout. weeee

if youre even thinking about applying please GO FOR IT (well as long as ur in the right age limit, 16-18.... and also make sure you’ve done some research to get a feel for it).. but just DO IT. and u can ask me questions if u want and ill answer to the best of my personal ability (but remember that im just one person and one experience and each person’s experience is completely different)

here is the general website btw:

https://www.uwc.org/

i will probably do another post to explain UWC - at least in my own words and perspective!

<3 <3 <3

[tiny012]

So

My class reunion was this whole weekend..

I knew nothing about it until 3 days ago when one of my classmates told me about it in Walmart...

There was a FB group for my class but I left it along with others when it was talks about going on a cruise instead of having it in Selma.

What it looks like they still had the cruise but decided to still have a get together weekend in Selma.

Welp from the pics I seen I FB, the people who went is the people I didn't want to see..

So it looks like I didn't miss anything....

I'm in this point of my life that I don't feel like hugging people and act liked I actually missed them aka acting fake to them when I remembered theu used to be a bitch to me in school..... That I still really don't like you?

What's the point?

I didn't hang around you 10 plus years ago so what's the point of me hanging around you for a weekend acting like we was cool when I rather be at my new house chillin with my fam?

It certain people that I wouldn't mind seeing but I know for a fact some of them probably didn't even know or didn't even want to go like me...

Hell one of my classmates is on the fucking streets selling drugs and smoking them as I speak. She just had a baby last year which I throught would help her get out that life but she's right back in it.

I mean I wonder do any of them know about that and is concerned about her? Probably not cause she wasn't one of the cool kids. Aka the ones that had money.

Honestly I'm getting to the point that I want to say fuck you to some of them.

I rather be in Birmingham right now with my beastie and having a college reunion. The wonderful six girls that I met during my 2 and half years at UAB.

Now that would be a reunion I would go to.

[hanhdo20032003]

Another bad new from #mydoctorsaid to hurt more came even I thought my worth time over😪 just try laugh& still thanks God for whatever he sent me these days cauz I lost all pain feeling already , I just do charity pray 4 my support when I saw old pics on fb’s reminder - still think possible even what happens he’s still alive & heathy now help me take care BB & support me 12 years in US , this sick time scared me a lot more than 1st heart attack he got cauz I have to due with both : little BB & old DD, without any help even his kid live far kinda far but we’re service (I think most Americans’s child don’t have much reponsible like Asian , just visit & buy some food and they already done ) I remembered J back home right on Thanksgiving - thanks Cha gave him drive & my VN’s group help us carry him upstairs & my ex helping me around during 2 months after that crazy time but together we got over that like a lot other drama & hard time me & my DD been through- now I’m #free don’t have to worry about them anymore I’m sure new one lot better than me 🥳 so much appreciated to DD new love then I can relax don’t have to worry 4 big DD & another life will come soon ... I won’t be there with them anymore & maybe that’s not a good way to leave but I’m ok after my bad news came >< hope big DD can survive long time 4 my BB & he can live better life & meet someone nicer , it’s the last thing I can do . Gluck to all ! God will blessing me alive & after big rain we can see rainbow right 🌈 life still continue & people keep happy , hope we can have #covid_19vacccine soon. Too bad DD more lucky than me when I’m in hospital I will be alone , keep praying for me pls (at California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CICSV5KhNybqXw6FaklQq7ST6FlSbtljHjVLBw0/?igshid=jt963kwos9yg

[sanoiro]

I frequently see the looting of your work on a facebook fan page and knowing where the individual gets it from and chooses to give no credit to the author is troublesome. Often I want to call her out but it would take me to a place spiritual and emotional I do not want to go. I hope you do take some stock in knowing though that those who don't have access to you are able to somehow reap the benefits of your diligence. Small consolation I suppose Stay true to your passion and you will shine

I use the word looting because that’s how I feel its effect. 

It’s true that the internet is an unforgiving place where you can take all the offered knowledge without ever looking back and in a way I get it but for the first time, we see something disturbing. 

It’s no longer about the credits, honestly, I don’t care much about that. I share something with my fandom and that gives me the greatest satisfaction. Also sometimes when an Anon gives me an idea or a clue I’m a bit lost as I have to refer to them as ‘an anon’ said and that does not feel right. Sometimes I give some spoilers etc to be posted by other accounts just because or if they have found it and they notify me I encourage them to post it and I tell them that I’ll reblog. Call me weird. Anyway, the issue we have faced here (not just I) is that fandom ‘fans’ come get what they want and then shoot us down on other platforms. We are called unreliable, unworthy, fake, our work is characterised as something that has no meaning and then… Then we find out that photos, speculations and meta are posted elsewhere word by word sometimes.That is one of the reasons why I’m so reluctant to post the new 3x10 -The Sin Bin spoiler and speculation post for about a month now.  Now confrontations are not my style. I did it two-three times and it drained me. It was the reason why I decided to click that Unfollow button at FB’s group Lucifans. I guess it’s a nice group and all that, it must also have some good people in there but I grew up with a leading psychologist and I would be damned if I didn’t know how certain people try to get under your skin and make you act like a kid. I simply wasn’t having it so yes, do try to stay away. Do not speak up. It’s fine as soon I’ll lose my drive. 

I’ll, of course, continue to collect spoilers and speculations but only for my personal use and in order to discuss them privately. When will that happen? No idea. I try to keep things up until April 2nd when the production will have finished shooting S3. So yeah… we shall see… You see everything has a price but what they do eventually will make us take a step back which nobody will be able to replace as they cannot access to all the sources we have. Who knows? One day I might call it quits and pass everything to @ships-sailing-in-the-night .  

I love my fandom, I love Lucifer and I love all of you because we share something we love on a different level but there is this detail I believe in and outside of the internet. You can fill two cars with the same fuel but a Volvo will never be a Ferrari. Therefore all I can say to the people that love to get pics etc from us is that give some credit if you like, stop watermarking as it will get you into trouble further down the line and of course  DO NOT share our speculation and meta elsewhere. That’s all that’s ours and I mean it. 

Speculation through spoilers is a game, so learn to play it otherwise what’s the point? 

No idea why the video… It just felt right I guess. 

As for the shine part? I always loved to stay in the wings.