#lexi talks

[thatpinkkwitch]

i just heard the phrase “if you wouldn’t trust their advice, don’t trust their criticism” for the first time and i don’t think i’ve ever needed to hear anything more

[coconut-cluster]

every few months I remember loceit and it’s like getting hit with a baseball bat

[lavenderkyn]

A collection

Honestly games that start like this are one of the genders of all time

I see this shit in my dreams fr

[bluemusickid]

Hungary is gorgeous✨️🫶

[chcmpagnes]

i swear i saw someone on tumblr predict loss of my life, you genius

[alexilulu]

I don't have a thesis here yet because these are 11pm bedtime thoughts about novels I'm reading/have read recently but

There's something interesting that I've realized I'm seeing in a few works of fantasy/science fiction where they posit secondary gender binaries/socialized gender constructs.

The first one for me was Gideon the Ninth, where the cavalier-necromancer binary is extremely present as its ersatz stand in for gender. Your gender doesn't make you who you are, your capacity for thanergetic manipulation does. This is fairly explicit, intentional and, as revealed later on, pretty clearly engineered by Jod both to form his ideal society in his image (mirroring his bond with Alecto/Earth) and create a tractable society for his use.

The second, which I'm reading now, is The Lowest Healer and the Highest Mage, a modern magical story in which the binary is Mages, who have the capacity for magic, and Healers who have the capacity to diffuse the dangerous buildup of tension inherent to the use of magic that can drive mages insane or cripple them. Again (though I'm not finished with it yet, and do quite like the world building it's placing to scaffold that basic concept) a gender binary that stands apart from socialized gender but clearly serves as the main designator of your social role and where you fit in; skilled Healers are hounded by Mages for their hands in bonding as a pair for life, which leads to a great many of what would be gendered dynamics in our world that operate as sexism would IRL.

(There is one funny line which tickled me where it explicitly states that the bond between healers and mages is not possible between close blood tied individuals, as well as between people raised as siblings/close family. It's a little brain poisoned in a way only explicable to The Online but I understand the impulse, I'm not faulting them for it)

Both of these are also scaffolded by the recognition that because of the specific ways in which these dynamics are extremely contextual, difficult and frankly hard to work into normal society, that people outside these binaries exist to keep society at large functioning (the average house member in GtN probably, subliminal mages/healers in LHHM).

Both of these books are billed as lesbian romance, and it seems relatively obvious why they would desire to remove gender, so to speak, from the equation (to set aside our own perceptions of 'the man' in a lesbian relationship, it's just more palatable to write novels about stories that don't involve gendered bigotry, as a general rule). And yet...

This is also how omegaverse works. (Not a bad thing!)

I just don't know what to do with that information. I don't know that it means anything. I'm just sitting up in bed writing this as I think about it. I genuinely can't tell if I'm just a 33 year old trans dyke who is too Poisoned by Knowledge of Gender as what it is and I'm reading shadows. But...yeah.

[wootzietoozee]

MePhone, meeting Oodle: ohmygod this guy's kinda cute??? no, don't think like that mephone, you just met him for god's sake-

MePhone, getting dragged around by Oodle: he's holding my hand????!!!!!! okay calm down calm down this probably doesn't mean anything

MePhone trying things on in front of Oodle: does he think it looks nice??? wait, why am i worrying about impressing him??

MePhone, Googling at 2 am: how to flirt with cute boys who are also demigods

[metrolexi]

enough of “trying to look dark and mysterious” it’s time to live everyone and be a light to every person who crosses your path

[violaciousvociferation]

👀

Do it. Do it. Do it. Do it.

[princekeerys]

i’m completely and utterly in love with the concept of reader developing feelings for alastor, but she knows he’s aroace so she doesn’t know how to communicate/doesn’t wanna cross any boundaries. so the next best thing? distance and close herself off from him.

when they’re in the same room she will not look at him or talk to him in case it slips that she’s head over heels.

she even goes as far as standing on the other side of the room because being too close to alastor sends her into a nervous frenzy.

but alastor, being the very observant demon that he is, notices how closed off she’s being when he’s used to her standing close to him. used to her soft and calming voice. used to having her presence around him all the time.

does he miss it? yes. will he ever admit that out loud? absolutely not.

so alastor confronts her about it. and maybe it takes a bit of poking and prodding to finally get reader to admit everything and she’s so terrified because “i don’t wanna lose you to my stupid and idiotic feelings”

but then… hehe. alastor just says;

“my darling, i love and cherish your company more than any of the others here. it’d be a downright shame to not have a beauty like you on my arm”

[thatpinkkwitch]

my husband did his first ever ritual with me tonight!! we did a protection spell for the both of us and it was so nice and intimate, i’ve truly never felt so happy as sitting with my husband and our cats and practicing this craft that i love

[coconut-cluster]

hello all I just wanted to pop in and say I am in fact writing chapter 5 of Crowns and Cutlasses, I didn’t just dip after posting the notes lol but I WON A FULBRIGHT so i have been busy and insane

[lavenderkyn]

This morning I'm playing everyone's favourite game "Am I ripping off the media I'm consuming or has it just given my enough passion to actually be creatively productive?!"

Bonus points if you haven't slept yet!!

[bluemusickid]

Happy Diwali to all my peeps💕🫶

Sending you love and light from Prague✨️✨️💕

[chcmpagnes]

feeling like maybe i should watch shogun bc the tenderness looks off the charts

[wootzietoozee]

why does nobody talk about how suitcase got the most traumatic gemory in episode 13...like that scene messed me UP when i first watched it bro