#like do u go *yeah we can do that BC thats fucking funny* or r u supposed to be like *no we're not naming our kid that*???

[inhidingxoxo3637]

I can only assume when Rory Skinner was born his mum conked out and his dad (a bike mechanic) wrote Rory on the birth certificate before anyone could stop him

[earlyspringtranscendence]

btw i think one of the most impt hobbies in the world is having a mostly non-existent, mostly self indulgent crush on a professor/lecturer just to zone out to their classes to and focus instead on their hair and their hands and their dark circles speaking NAWT from experience. maybe a little bit.

[munamania]

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh guys. i have HILARIOUS updates for you from today. warning this post will be rambly but it has some hits and i think if im not your favorite character in life i really should be. ok

OKAY. so it all starts with a dream. i dream that ruby cruz is on my campus shooting smth and long story short she approaches me at one point, as shes abt to say smth my one friend pops in like 'oh hey is this your girl?' meaning FILM GIRL. and everything morphs in that moment like a fucking comical nightmare and im like What No except it was... and okay anyway. i didnt sleep a lot and this is the first dream mention of her in a while. well get this.

spot her on campus as lydia and i r fucking RUSHING bc not one but TWO buses passed us. im like huh first spotting of the semester odd time but ok.... meanwhile i just have this dread so ancient in me because she also has her film major so at any point i can be jumpscared. it wasnt even that real genuinely im at a point where im like ok that shit was fucking stupid and i shouldnt have gone thru all that so she sucks but whatever. anywho we rush into class late with the bESTTTTTTT prof <33333333 im settling im sat im figuring out the space. im sitting at the front however with lydia so like i take a little while to do some glimpses around the class... well get this!

yeah shes there. and im kind of like. sigh. okay whatever. lydias staring at me like Hey so um....... and im like Yeah im aware i know. but i see so many other film people i know to varying degrees so thats cool!!!! im like yippeee also my prof keeps referring to me directly so im like heyyyyyyyyyyy queen <3 esp bc she has like legit aphantasia and i didnt even participate That Much last year but it gets crazier! we're going through attendance and who's directly behind me but abby lee miller! jk um it's my friend im kind of having a flirty little moment with maybe? idfk so im like redactedddd what r u doing hereeeee. and theyre also well aware of the drama we bonded talking shit.

so yeah imagine being me. psychologically attacked every step of the way. except it's lowkey really fun and silly i was having a funny time. i had to laugh! and talked to people and it was fine. but also everyone knows each other to varying degrees and so im sitting there feeling like im being slowly cooked alive. in a fun way...

but also we watched joan is awful in class and the prof was telling us about how you can do it to your face and have a poster (except then netflix can use ur face!) and she singles out '[film girl] is awful' out of everyoneeeeeeee so i had to giggle i had to laugh like without knowing anything my prof is such an ally to me personally fucking love her <3 she also had an association with her and frankie grande and i was like yeah. make her gayappropriatingstraightbi ass uncomfortable. anyway.

and then also. sigh hello lydia if ur seeing this. i try to introduce lydia and that friend and after the typical introduction i was like 'yeah cool i mean ive talked to you about each other at various points!' like girl why would you say something like that. like huh. neither of them says anything and i save it by bringing up our bottoms plans but i was just sitting there in my own goddamn mind control room like yeah ok. girlfailureloser moment. why are you WEIRD. it's not even that real actually im awkward frequently and people roll with it but just given the energy of everything going on in class it was a really great way to end. and then we talked to that prof for a While after class she's literally the best she would do numbers on here. within the cool lesbian mutuals space anyway and thats all that matters. and we talked about bottoms !!!!!<33333 and willow and shes like yeah ok dyke in the most affectionate way i can possibly say that i love herrrrrr

[ragdollfizix]

⚠️🏗🚧 teehee an intr o post!!! 🚧🏗⚠️

Haaaai ^-^ hi hi for the love of god hi. My name is fizix im a 21 y/o transman whos here for the silliness. And the cock and pussy and hole and tongue and cunt aand slick but also the silliness ^-^

yes i will make typos. its not a dumb puppy horny moment i just have fast fingers and im also halfblind with no autocorrect so liek. Yeah <3 this is also a sideblog!!! So if u know my main shhhhh no you dont :] i probably wont follow back but we r mutuals if youve dmed me and we've held a good few convos tbh

Im what you could classify as polyamorous but i dont identify with that label, im not looking for anything committed im just here to whore around and have some fun :D im bisexual, so anyone can interact! (EXCEPT CISHET MEN. OBVI.)

I am a man!!! anyone can interact but sapphics be known that i am a man and feel free 2 block me if that makes u uncomfy <3 godspeed queens. I try not to interact with wlw/mendni posts so if i do im SORRY </3

MINORS LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. ITS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. GO OUTSIDE DO YOUR HOMEWORK OR SOMETHIGN

And also on that note ANYONE OVER 27 LEAVE ME ALONE THANK U <3

AND AND AND any ageless blogs/blank with only porn gifs are getting blocked <3<3<3<3<3

Asks & DMs are open! If you go 100mph out of the gate with the "ouhhh i wanna fuck you so bad with my big dick" i might just make fun of u tho. Buy me dinner first. Im down to flirt w anons/ppl in the askbox bc im a whore <3 mutuals get to kiss me with tongue too <3

Also i know i act all funny and silly but i AM down to clown if you get me in a mood <3 feel free to send a horny ask and see what happens :D

Current anons in da box: 💙 || 🐝 || 🐶 || 🦋 (feel free to ask for ur own emoji if you plan on sticking around!!)

I am a switch so im down for whatever. Want me to sub? Welcome to subway what do you want on your fuckig sandwich. Want me to dom? Welcome to dominos wjat is none pizza left beef. You know?

If ur just dying to know what i look like then uhhhh im a redhead w no surgery so i got titties and a cunt <3 im also not a shaver so you gotta fight the WHOLE underbrush to get to the center of the tootsie pop <3<3 is it like a. Cherry tootsie pop? because im a redhead and the. the pusee. also since this apparently drives people crazy im 5'4"

I dont wanna have a full list of my kinks bc i feel like itd be more fun for ppl to figure that out for themselves instead of getting a cheat sheet <3 anyone that does a quick scroll on my blog can tell im into oral, p3tplay, and praise tho. ill give a list of my No-Gos bc i wanna have fun with this blog and not get squicked/triggered away from it. List might be updated as time goes on

Yellow Light (stuff im neutral/alright with as long as it doesnt go too deep): dumbification, degredation, daddy/mommy title, only mutuals can bondage me

Red Light (hard stops, if u come at me with this stuff ur getting blocked): r@pe, piss, inc3st, scat, v//mit, p3do/4geplay, gun/knifeplay, k1dnapping, detrans, intox, feederism

And thats all for an intro poast i think! Thanks 4 reading have a good day and DRINK SOME WATER i know youre thirsty ;] This isnt a sex thing this is tumblr we are all dehydrated here. Suffering is not noble drink the damn water

[juyomiao]

NAURRR I FORGOT TO SCREENSHOT THE NOTIFICATION💔 but tumblr was being saur cute sisbissnks it was like

juyomiao has posted

we noticed they're one if your favorites❤️

or smthn along the lines of that and ACK IT WAS SAUR CUTE PLS JSBKSNSKSKA-

anyways idk if u can answer the first one but it's still cool hshshshs

✩ do you have/ can you give some not-so-spoiler spoilers for o.o? (hahajahs u made me obsessed w this and im not complaining)

★ your mtl biased member in cravity? (just ur preferences, u may put reasoning if u want :] )

✩ fav/recommended tbz songs? (im really planning on stanning they seem fun ajajasjs)

★ *IF* w1 is really pursuing with the greek mythology shit, which god/goddess (there's a possibility) do you think bin is going to be? (and state ur reasons hshs)

omg tumblr being cute (unexpected)

☆ uhhhh idk how to give spoilers without spoiling everything so all i can say is what i alr said : its getting more angsty bc i like being cruel n ruining things 🤭 BUT dw it will have a happy ending and the funny elements of the fic r not going anywhere bc thats still the most important part to me

★ okay omg this is hard wait

disclaimer ofc i love all the members

minhee : he was my bias in x1 too so even when i didnt rlly stan cravity i still considered him my cravity bias lmao hes also the proof i have a 'type' when biasing idols bc . the minhee - younghoon - sunghoon trinity explains a lot abt it

serim : he was the reason i got more interested in cravity bc i was watching a cravity park episode n realized how fine he was so ,, yeah . kind of surprising bc he was one of the two members i didnt rlly know abt before stanning (i knew minhee hyeongjun wonjin n jungmo bc of produce n knew seongmin taeyoung n allen bc ppl talk abt them a lot) but im so insane abt him to the point something i said after seeing one of his pics became an inside joke in my friend group

seongmin : my bbg hes so cute n pretty n soft n i love his voice so much . n lately i've been wanting to eat him too .

hyeongjun : ofc knew him bc of x1/pdx n already loved him back then but now even more . in the nicest way possible hes insane hes not normal but thats exactly why i love him

this is where it gets more complicated bc i cant rlly rank them ? like probably woobin n then jungmo wonjin n allen more or less on the same level ?? like even i would expect jungmo n wonjin to be higher but . heres a fun fact‼️i watched produce without subtitles ! so i remember little to nothing abt it n had no idea what was going on ⅔ of the time !! bc i used to watch it when they livestreamed it on youtube n then was too lazy to go look for the subbed ep ,, then i got more attached to minhee n hyeongjun bc they were in x1 obviously

that was so long im sorry but u cant give me a perfect opportunity to infodump abt my special interest / hyperfixation n . expect me not to do it

☆ OHHHH OKAY so idk what music u like more so this list might be a bit questionable bc i like everything even noise music . but i'll focus on b-sides !!

walkin in time , only one (obviously , the queen who inspired my fic title) , melting heart , l.o.u , text me back , daydream , espionage , shake you down , scar , salty , goodbye , checkmate , shine shine , insanity , prism , kiss me if you can , hush , kingdom come (i'll never get tired of saying it , tbz were robbed on that bitchass show FUCK MNET) drink it , out of control , nightmares , merry bad ending , hypnotized , russian roulette , one dance , sweet , c.o.d.e , survive the night , levitating , awake , savior

tbz's entire discography is honestly perfect have fun stanning them u wont regret it‼️‼️

★ honestly idk😭😭 when i was younger (n we r talking abt 5yo until 14yo so it was . a while) i was sooo obsessed with greek mythology but my brain just . wiped all that information away😭 so i genuinely dont know

[butterscotch-brigade]

the Mario Movie Post

ok SO heres a more expansive post listing my Thoughts on the mario movie. HUGE spoiler warning under the cut btw

it was....good! i keep comparing it to the sonic movies in my head bc thats what ive seen a lot of other ppl doing, and i think, compared to those movies, this one is a “safer” adaptation of the source material; and ofc this isnt an inherently good or bad thing, but it may influence ur opinion if u were expecting a more derivative adaptation like the sonic movies, which take more risks and creative liberties. id rank the mario movie below sonic 2 (the greatest movie of all time btw), but idk if id put it above or below sonic 1; ultimately, like i said, it depends on whether u prefer the adaptation thats “safer” or “riskier” in terms of what its trying to accomplish.

anyway, here r some things i rly liked abt the movie!! warning for me gushing abt bowser bc im in love with him btw ASDLJKADS

bowser is the greatest character in the entire thing ofc. not surprising at all ASLKJDSLKJDS my big beautiful monster husband he is SOOOO GOOOODDD like.....hes the most expressive, full of personality, and jack black gives an AMAZING performance as him. his fucking song???? the princess peach love song??? beautiful. lovely. i love bowser so fucking much......like yeah he “kidnaps people” and “tries to kill innocents” or whatever but errmmm he does it in the name of love so its ok uwu my big strong cuddly ferocious teddy bear i love him I LOVE HIIMMMMM KLASJDKLJASDLKJ HES SO PERFECT HES A SWEET LOVEY DOVEY DORK BUT HES ALSO FUCKED UP EVIL AND POWERFUL AND WILLING TO CRUSH ANYONE WHO STANDS IN HIS WAY GOOOODDDDD I WANT HIM SO BAD

animation is gorgeous, including the environments and character models. say what u want abt illumination but u have to admit their actual animation game is pretty damn good and this film is no exception

i rly appreciate all the references and easter eggs! i like how they used music from the games in various ways, and how they incorporated the different worlds/levels.

i LOVE the little additional bits of lore they added!!! ive been a huge Mario Lore Enthusiast pretty much since i first learned how to use the internet so this was very satisfying to my autistic brain ALSKJLKDASJ

as far as specific lore elements go, i loved getting to see mario and luigi’s parents (+ extended family!!!). u dont understand for the longest time the only CANON picture we had of mario and luigis parents were these images from the end of yoshis island ASKLDJSLAKDJ so im very happy we got more detailed designs for them

i love the backstory they gave princess peach!! ive always wondered why she rules the mushroom kingdom despite not being a toad. i hope they expand on her story more if they ever make a second movie bc i think it would be rly interesting to know more abt where she came from!!

i LOOOVE the kongs so so much......ty mario movie for finally ending the debate abt whether or not dk is cranky kongs son or grandson SALKJDALKSJ also i love dk’s characterization in this too, his friendly rivalry w mario was rly funny

i love love LOOOVVE the sibling dynamic between mario and luigi. Bro They Are Bros

i like the incorporation of the power-ups and how they work

king bob-omb is there. i like him :)

and now for some criticisms (note that these r all pretty minor, there wasnt rly anything i Disliked abt the movie which is admittedly more than i can say abt the first sonic movie actually LKSAJLKD):

a lot of the characters just kinda felt flat, especially compared to bowser who has the most personality. luigi is the only one i can think of who has any kind of significant “arc.” peach, toad, and dk dont rly have any kind of significant character growth, while mario’s arc is just kinda....He Learns To Get Better At Fighting And Navigating The Mushroom Kingdom i guess. to be fair mario games in general arent rly known for focusing on character development (w some exceptions like the rpgs, but none of that development is rly focused on mario himself), but that ultimately just made this movie’s writing pale in comparison to the sonic movies (which arent perfect (except for the second one) but still)

luigi didnt rly do much throughout the whole thing.....i liked him a lot in the beginning, but he spends most of the movie being captured. i DID like the fight scene at the end where mario and luigi team up to beat the shit out of bowser tho!! i just wish we got to spend a little more time with luigi so his arc had a more satisfying conclusion

Why didnt they credit grant kirkhope for the dk rap. wtf nintendo/illumination

but yeah those r my Thoughts. overall it was a pretty good movie, id maybe give it like....7/10? 7.5/10? it wasnt Great but it was good. definitely better than the Other mario movie thats for sure LKASJFLKJS

[i-just-want-to-destroy]

Dick Grayson for the ask game?

damn my boy is so famous everybody wants him fr

send me a character and i’ll list:

favorite thing about them the way i look at dick is similar with the way i look at allen i love how many layers there r in his character like especially the conflicting identity issue he has throughout his superheroing career :))) im actually not a big fan of talon arc (i hate it when a character is "meant to be evil" bc their family was evil) but that seems to be the reoccurring theme for his character. i like that hes a fake bitch in a way that he becomes someone who people around him need. do u see what i mean. like hes so fake all the time because hes so aware of the images that he has depending on who hes with hes a PERFORMER in every sense of the word! i love this aspect of him a lot :)

least favorite thing about them the way that hes often written lamely bc hes a dc character and thats the fate of dc characters also i really dont like whatever is going with him rn him building that alfred statue is so jesus fucking christ. really funny though

favorite line this convo! bruce: "people fall so they can get up" dick: "wrong! people fall because they were pushed. they get up so they can push back" *punches bruce* fucking iconic like the weight in that dialogue the ANGER in it the fact the way this is the core of his true character that rarely shows up like this.... love it sm. also when hes quoting dog day afternoon when he was like "kiss me. i like to be kissed when im getting screwed." okay king of my life!

brOTP him n his siblings, him with everybody tbh.... him and midnighter :) and also my fav, him and tiger. oh my god. tiger and dick were soooo good together we need more of them.

OTP idc

nOTP i dont even wanna say it.

random headcanon hes a bit pretentious about his tastes like somebody would be "oh i like this movie" and his faces is just like this :) but inside hes judging you. nobody knows this though. like hes the kind of person who comments essays on letterboxd. he likes to have alone time more than he seems but nobody realizes this.

unpopular opinion yeah hes hot sure hes sexy yeah yeah we all knew that but dc sluttifying him up rn is so fucking sad why are they whoring my king out like this and not even in a good way. like those "sexy" variant covers of him are so shit like its not even sexy anymore

song i associate with them the killing type, lost boy, polarize, the president has a sex tape, who are you really?, idontwannabeyouanymore, favorite color is blue, kid wonder

favorite picture of them

[sphericalbee]

bro if either of my irls see this i will look crazy pahtetic idk maybe ill delete iti should probably just leaves this ini the drafts

im pretty pathetic irl anyway i think lol wo who carse

im thinking ab my middle school best friend and i miss her so much it isnt even funny

idk if i was her best friend but i always loved her so much and i think about her almost every day even 2 years later

ik she wasnt doing well and she didnt come from a good home and was awful at managing her emotions and didnt talk to anyone and she would sh (i only know ab bc of some complicated secret poetry thing but she never knew i had seen that but i think she meant me to) and i think she cared about me? i kinda hope not bc i want her to be happy

but i would genuinely give anything to go back in time and talk to her again for just a few hours

i want to text her and tell her everything but idk its too weird after 2 years

i think she deserves to know how much i care about her,, right?

i had to pause twice writing this bc i was crying too hard i worry about her so much

its good im godo at crying silently lol no one can even tell so sneaky

i saw a girl with the same hair as her last week and i teared up in the middle of the hallway because it hit me how much i dont know what shes doing or if shes even alive bc i KNOW hse wasnt fucknig donig well

my cat was trying to comfort me but i think he got bored and left he's so cute lmfoa my brain made it into a very angsty analogy b4 i had the chance to stop it 💀

im this close to cracking and spam texting her

i googled her just now and found her linkedin profile of fucking course shes on linkedin thats so inc harecetr where she says she wants to go to medical school and she uses fucking stupid old words like candor and idk i hope she gets into her dream college

im sure she can she was always so smart i thknk shell do rly well and maybe one day shell perform open heart surgery on me lol that would be baller

"I believe in honesty because it creates an environment that permits integrity. Allowing for candor leads to an honorable work space. Integrity is an essential value to have as it holds all to a high ethical standard. Integrity adds trust, which is necessary for professionalism. I plan to enroll in a four-year college for a master's degree to study biochemistry. I then intend to go to medical school and earn a doctorate."

she fucking talked like that even at 13 yeah and she liked running and read all the time and she loved gamed of thrones and i still own one of her shitty books and we met when she was challenging classmates to race and she was so tall and had pretty hair

sophia im sorry for crying i think it would make her uncomfortable haha

i have fucking snot on my face now shed forsure be uncomfortable lmfaoo

ill go watch some tv show and try not to burst into tears again in 10 minutes ugh maybe it would be better if i had stayed depressed having this many feelings is driving me crazy why r u here bro : /

i should make a secret vent account LMFAO my followers r here for ohshc and mq not sob stories sorry sorry

[frostbite-the-bat]

OK random FROSTBITE THE BAT (CHARACTER) TOONTOWN RAMBLES

thinking abt frost and their development with them hiding their identity as a cog - it's always been basically a big joke, after all this lore and 'au' with them isn't very serious and is very jokes (though some of the more personal or detailed things mean a lot to me, especially the allan/cathal/frost/spam/hr/freakson goofy family dynamic)

but I just think it's so funny how they went from careless but still careful to realizing nobody cares as a case of convenient plot armor. like oh no wait we can't do that the toons will know we're cogs. We (spam + frost) gotta be careful though the cogs don't know we're toons. we're in this middle ground where we're FUCKED OVER

but they find toons and cogs they love who love them back and frost just had their whole careless development and they just. Don't care now like all the oil stains and only ever talking to cogs that they were worried about in the past it seems to be a joke to them too. as long as like the resistance doesn't know, they're fine

And if they were to be sorta harassed away from presenting as toons and being around toons they have a massive safety net with the cogs. canonically this would never make sense but it's a self insert au for myself and my friend group, so like whatever we want to happen can happen it's goofy it's cheesy it's nice it's very seperate from canon but it's FUN like I'm aware and like. they barely do shit thats like bad bad theyre just silly goofy frost max bites you then does a prank they dont do evile. they dont even got normal job)

Plus frost especially doesn't have to worry about cogs seeing them as a toon and getting attacked either this fucking thing is a menace with maybe a slightly oversized ego even if they get fucked up in a battle they're probably gonna pretend it didn't happen (while everyone else laughs) boy they scare any flunky with those teeth

like it's very unrealistic but it's so goofy and fun just watching this just. goofy loud motherfucker do whatever they want and do pranks and be a menace. it's fun to just have a character to mess with around non seriously but goooood the more private dynamic stuff is so good I mention it in doodles

them mirroring allan with showing off son everywhere and being very proud of him. their dynamic with spam of kinda being the lead sibling getting into trouble and being loud with empty threats with spam just being like 'uh huh yeah' about it because frost wouldn't do it. frost is a very fail character but in a swag way. their whole 'this weird fucking thing that perplexes me I need to know more about them now we got something fruity going on that isn't ever disclosed because it's entertaining on stage but also frost never says shit' with hr (they're the Fucking Thing), them being able to keep cathal company in some times lifting his mood and motivation up whenever he's too dismotivated or. like just depressed for stuff. more reason to do things when you got goofy siblings to do things with. Especially frost being the opposite energy like they have energy levels equal to graham like those two constantly babble!!

Another dynamic!! The rivalry with Graham but like. there's still some slight care bc mole pace flint is canon here. That's their boss and the guy dating their clubs leader and one of their closest friends also like. but also they will be tryna fight each other in small goofy ways and try to one up each other like 💀💀💀 the girls r fighting. OK see u next week same time for me beat you up!!!!!

It's all so goofy but I LOVE IT I LOVE MY SILLY GUYS I LOAVE TOONTOWM EVEN IF ITS MY OWN PERCIEVED SELF INSERT VERSION OF MYSELF. MY TOONTOWN FRIENDS AND REAL FRIENDS ARE ALL IN IT!! WE'RE ALL HERE!! AND MY GOOFY BAT IS IN THE CENTER OF IT ALL!!

[webslingingslasher]

hiii it's sleepover anon again :’) another long update ahahah. i was able to talk to them the day after my bday thru vid call!

they basically said that they were talking abt me bc it was just randomly brought up when they were tgt waiting for me to arrive to bff1's house on the day of the sleepover/dinner party, and they thought that me being delusional over the guy was funny.. i mean, sure yeah it is pretty funny but 1) someone *must* have brought it up bc how else would that convo even happen while they were waiting for me 😭 i don't believe it was "random".. 2) they were still laughing abt me behind my back ? i mean, yk we could've done that together lol bc i rly was silly ngl. but i said that i'm not ashamed about it even if they think i was being too much bc first of all that guy actually showed interest and he implied lots of times that he did like me sooooo it's only natural to feel that way ? 🙁 i wasn't going to not let myself not feel anything abt it bc i just wanted to have fun 😭 and even if he was sus, which we all thought at first b4 i got close to him, i stuck around w him bc he was the only person i knew in one of my classes cuz we were also classmates in the previous term.. then we got close bc we helped each other n yk stuff happened but it was also for the sake of common decency. and i rly was just fucking around to find out bc i wanted to know even tho he was sus.. and now i know and there's actual proof that he's just not it. i wasn't going to cut him off or smth without reason or proof lol i'd end up being the bad guy despite what we all thought ab him at first :// but now i do have a good enough reason that i can back up n thats why i stopped talking to him. simple as that

also bff2 alr felt bad enough bc she realized that drunk her isn't a good person so i didn't feel the need to crush her abt the stuff she said abt our other friend lmaooo.. i could've but nah she was alr depressed enough i'm just glad she's aware now. i did mention it tho and i said it was just plain mean..

but it's also quite funny to think they were making fun of me for being so head over heels when they don't even have experience 😭 they don't even know what it's like to have someone interested in them at least.. like one time when i was talking to him for like 2 whole days, bff2 once told me she was jelly of me and him bc she's never gotten to talking stage w anyone.. n then after all that they were laughing abt me like lol ok :\\

anw i just told them that i don't appreciate how they talked abt me without my presence bc whatever they said to each other was smth they could actually say to my face.. it's smth i'd laugh abt too yknow.. but they apologized tho which is good but honestly i don't rly trust them now after all that.. their insecurities spilled onto their perception of me + our other friend like yikes i don't rly want insecure friends who laugh abt me behind my back i want supportive and non-judgmental ones!! it's not even hard to be kind 😭 glad i went to that sleepover n that i went thru him tho even tho it was just bs bc i found out the truth abt my friends.. bottom line is i don't have trustworthy friends so i'm just going to keep my distance.. we r still 'friends' i don't want to cut them off but i'm just not telling them anything anymore and i'm not talking to them unless they msg to talk to me first or if i need them for smth lol

anw thats it for this whole drama thank you sm for listening omg HAHAH 😭😭💗💗 also jsyk i am one of the emoji anons haha i just didn't rly want to associate the drama w it but yes. tysm for the safe space u created on here<33 and thank you for taking ur time to always talk to us even if it's a lot to go thru one by one🥹🫶🫂❤️‍🩹

WAIT UR AN EMPJI ANON?????? NAH CAUSE NOW IM TRYA FIGURE IT OUT

also!!! let’s go boundary queen!!! nice to know it was all bc they’re jealous.

[actualbird]

going thru the list of xmas partyland trivia questions and answers and uh

ARTEM?????

like we knew this but the details just make me bonkers bc. WHAT.

HE'S THE 1%.....AND HE SPECIALIZES IN JUST. ALL. WHAT. ARTEM WING, R U OKAY??? LIKE......I KNOW UR NOT, BUT THIS IS INSANE

and then theres this which im more interested in

WHAT?? HES FLUENT IN GERMAN???? //searches more and okay, theres event dialog confirming this too, wtf

well fuck my life, we've got ANOTHER polyglot.

vyn knows his home nation's language and whatever is being primarily spoken in stellis (stellan? could be english but then samsspambox mentioned that it might not be english and thats v cool to me, so i'll just call it stellan for now), marius knows stellan and latin because hes a pretentious art nerd, luke knows stellan and spanish because of pablo neruda: my point here is that theyve all got a Reason for knowing the non-stellan language

artem knows german for......WHAT REASON???

i hope thats explained eventually but anyway i do wanna talk about something fun with german (im not german but i did take classes for it in college so pls bear with me if i get stuff wrong and also any germans/german-speakers r free to add to this with ur actual braincells): the pronouns

because i think something funny can happen here

in german theres a formal 2nd-person pronoun, "Sie." and an informal 2nd-person pronoun, "Du." and if im remembering correctly, "Sie" is kinda like calling people "ms. / mr." but in pronoun form and "Du"is kinda like calling the person by their first name but in pronoun form. "Sie" is definitely for people you have just met and i think you only rlly switch from "Sie" to "Du" once you consider them a friend. but also aside from formality, theres also respect in "Sie" thats less present in "Du."

anyway, im under the assumption that maybe artem is fluent/comfy enough in german that he Thinks In It Too (im bilingual and once youve got more than one language in the noggin, thinking can happen in either of them) so yeah, thoughts in german

so heres prim and proper artem wing

he meets vyn and marius due to nxx stuff,

and at first he referred to both of them as "Sie" in his head

but then very shortly (anywhere from a week to 3 hours), he started referring to them as "Du."

not because he considered them friends already (that only comes much much later)

he switches pronouns simply because he just like, internally no longer had respect for them at all after realizing theyre both their own brand of asshole

[marssie]

thinking sooo fucking hard abt latest cough syrup update (chapter 25 i hold u gently...) thoughts. VVV

okay so first of all. ides outdoes himself Yet again. love the tying together of the jack vs tommy conflicts with tubbos relationship with the both of them, bc as far as im aware, i dont think thats pushed at all in the dsmp canon? i could be dead wrong, but i Love the plot point of tubbo being used as a go-between. like. god. felt. it feels soooo very cstubbo to try to mend his friends relationships from the inside out. what the fuck. hi.

and then the other side of it!!! where cstommy explains his side and gets very defensive about it!!!! tommys emotions r shown literally So well im going a bit crazy about it. and tubbo's diffusing skills for the both of them. hi can u hear me im kinda losing it.

well and what else am i going crazy about. the Constant family trauma brain processes, tubbo thinking himself a lost cause because when schlatt was doing similar things everyone hated him!!! augh. pain. agony, even. and the brief reflection of- hey yeah, ranboo means well when he says "talk to phil" but he doesnt really KNOW what its like!!! he doesnt know its not that simple!!! i rlly liked the brief acknowledgement of that.... just.... yeah.

also acknowledging that csranboo is a CAGEY MFER. and the 'hmmm. that is... disconcerting.' ghe urge to just go to ranboo and be like WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH U RN. the walls are cracking etc....

and the awkward bitchy car ride with the almost legal brother that u barely talk to without your mutual brother.... i dont have anything to add here but Literally. also the brief bit about techno standing outside of doors for upwards of five minutes. Please... djdmkgkwkf. like i knew we talked abt this before but it still fucking gut punched me thats so funny. and tubbo literally just constantly worrying abt his friends. Help him he is literally sinking. this guy is sinking help him.

@nightmare-rivulets u dont understand how much ur writing makes me lose it a little and i am bad at conveying in words but!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its v good, rlly dont worry abt ur stuff "decreasing in quality" its still like. Literally genius!!! also hi btw hihihi <- has a disease thst forces me to say hello in every interaction

[udonthreens]

top 5 disco elysium moments i have never played the game but ithink you should explain it like i know everything already anyways

anon uve triggered my autism beam

these r vaguely ranked but also i. i dont promise coherency and if i thought abt it with more brain theyd be different.

5) ok this is the last one im writing and idk. theres so many good scenes and moments and nevermind. the chair. the fucking CHAIR and evrart. it took me 200hrs to see what happens when u PASS the composure check like. tbh failing this check is basically canon. slide down it like a jello shot. again like the megarich container guy this is one of those possible early moments of 'ou this games a fucking weird comedy' and i just. best way to assert dominance with the corrupt commie boss like 'what a great display of... idek what that was' and im pretty sure u lose a rep point with kim if u fail it too like. kim dont be mad this is just my interogattion technique im not giving the rcm a bad rep i promise kim

actually some honourable mentions: lamby, boardgames with kim, joyce pale convo, kim voice dilligent boy, THE CHURCH I DIDNT MENTION THE CHURCH i love doin the dance after gettin shot its so funny. love the rave kids. shivers voice theres a hole in my heart. the fucking 'lookin to score some d girl!' bit with kim & acele thats comedy gold actually. thats brilliant. i might just start listening everything. pinball with kim when u pass it im just like. kim why dyou sound so smitten . the piss and fuck jackets. actually i really like the whole bit with the working class woman that was Devasting. even more so when i realised u could actually tell her ud look for her husband ...... i liked the jamais vu viscal pleasure wheel bit after (i think that was added with the update? yes it was) altho i dont remember specifics just. his brain reconstructin smth as idk.. smth to make him feel better? felt bittersweet. i should go see that scene again.

ok ill fuckin wrap this up. 'are u... a really good detective?' great line and not a moment per say but. the fact that jean just. hangs around the whirling for several days in that fuckin wig like, obvs he doesnt move spots bcs its a video game (despite the edc lines showin that he does do other shit) cuz u need to know where to find him. but he just fuckin commits like. the character building from all this shit for whats technically a minor character. brilliant. doesnt HE have a fuckin job to do. also titus is always in the whirling for the same video game reason so like. yes. yes to that rarepair.

3) communist book club and the tower building that was soooooo cool not to mention the fuckin hilarity of readin bout inframaterialism for the first time nd going "???? is this pseudoscience in the game or can it ACTUALLY fucking happen like wtf"

2) karoke. pass over fail tbh limbic system KILLS it (and its more lyrical spoken word doesnt fit the song nd also i thot id actually hear harrys voice during that scene and we kinda did but like thats a different tangent) and kims support 'detective du bois... it was down right tragic' and the edc or concept check? concept i 5hink that was like 'to him that represented being an rcm member perfectly' like HELLO??? kim bestie its not 2 late for a career change. AND not to mention gartes reaction to it like... u really get the feeling that he Will get rid of the machine if harry fucks it up. however i do like the pass as well bcs a) harrys had enough cringe fail b) jeans deadbeat litany of 'yeah its shit it sucked awful' like. thats how he talks 2 harry when hes being NICE its so funny. het life partners <33

4) mega rich light bending guy. AGAIN the weiss thingymay coefficent where ur like 'is this an actual Thing or is harry just fuckin insane' nd also i crit succeeded on my first playthru real early on when i hadnt seen any of the wacky shit yet nd it just. the -2 if u have the artcop thought the fuckin ultralib shit . u get like 4 ultralib points at LEAST if u pass/fail the right concept check. god not to mention kim earnestly suggesting rcm reforms like kim bestie kim kim my bestfriend kim its not 2 late for a career change. also if u get the 100 real and kims like 'ur full of surprises most of them bad but some of them good' soooo true <33

1) salami man.

[aprincesslonging4luv]

euphoria characters and how i relate to them.

 hey. so u may be wondering uh why r u putting this here??? this is my digital diary duhhhh why else?? do i care what strangers on the internet are going to think when i post my feelings?? nope!! if anything i hope u relate and know ur not alone :) anyways back to what i was saying originally, i watch euphoria. like almost everyone out there, and feel in love with it in 2019. season 2 um, thats...so diff than season 1 thats for sure... anyways season two has made me relate to some characters more than i thought in season one, therefore here is this hahah

Maddy 

my fav ever everyone loves maddy so much, also if it wasnt clear before there will be spoilers in this lollll anyways maddy has been deeply in love with nate.they break up whatever and then he goes with her fucking best friend, and i cant exactly relate but i was in love and she did go to someone else in the blink of an eye and i can just so fucking relate to her heartbreak and feeling of betrayal and heartache,, like almost all of her fucking scenes god it hits my heart strings so much. it hurts to watch sometimes but lolll i can not miss out on euphoria god 

Cassie 

lollll this one is funny, im so cassie though. everytime nate calls, she picks up on the first ring im like gahdamnnnn whyyy is that meeeee lollll like so may of cassies quotes i can so relate too,,,cassie hitting nate saying she ruined her life for him im like god how i fucking wish i could hit you i wish i could hit you so fucking hard because look at what youve done to me,,,and i still fucking love you?????i love you so much???? what the fuck is wrong with me?? what the hellll no literally everytime she messages immediate smile on my face and its so sadddd but like will i stop... no.... i get so mad at cassie right but like i cant get mad at her and not get mad at myself,,,,but i do lolllll anywho lets move on 

Rueeee

i am not an addict bbtu rue basically got cheated on. and then ratted on. relateable. i ddint get ratted on but lollll yk. but rue yelling at jules i felt that so hard kinda but i aslo had to ask myself do i love her or do i love being loved but no i really do love her but thats for a different blog post.. anyways,, rues anger for jules and elliot is so relateable like yeah we dont wanna talk about them fuck them anyways lets move on like yaaaasss rue thats right fuck them!!!!

Lexi

i love lexi i relate to lexi bc shes the shy girl who doesnt really stand out in the friend group and i feel like that is me but not as much as it used to be,,lexi was also like one small exchange and i fall in love and im like lolll thats soooo me minus the fact im already in love deeply deeply in love but yeahhhh anyways lexi is so gorg but hasnt had any romances growning up and doesnt think guys like her and im like wowww thats like so been me like growning up totally thats so funny but yeahhh 

anywho i think thats it i think thts everyone i elate to tbhhhhh anyways yeahhhhhhhhh

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom episode 4-7 Thoughts: (under a readmore because, these got kinda long!)

-the outfit danny had to buy for dash's party. CLASSIC 2000S i cannot stop laughing. And also showing up to the party and everyone is dressed like the trio is hilarious. and further proof that everyone looks good dressed goth.

-dash has a closet full of cute lil bear plushies?? LOVE that. adorable. also his response to danny trashing his room fighting a ghost was SO valid if somone BROKE MY BED IN HALF ID BE PISSED TOO.

-technus being like 'oh smart, u should be a tutor!' then later being like 'forget tutor, be a teacher!' :) supportive king <3 I also really like his upgraded suit/design. AND SPOCK CAMEO??? HELLO??

-the music in this show is super. its so funky. I looked it up and the guy who does it, guy moon (awesome name) also did music for other cartoons like fairly odd parents, barnyard, chalkzone, billy & mandy, AND some actual movies like FIGHT CLUB??? the whiplash I got from reading that)

-sam being rich explains a lot about her, actually.

-I know the moral of the episode was supposed to be 'dont ditch your friends for popular people/spend a lot of money on clothes that arent You to Fit In'. but tbh. it wouldve been easy for danny to have been like 'well, okay, ill come but only if my friends can!' but I get. that hes 14. so. not a lot to say there.

-BOX GHOST IS BACK!!!!! also, danny sitting up and wearing the dress/wig/makeup. umm thats how I dress everyday LMFAO. unironically me. (hate the jokes that boil down to 'haha funney man in dress' tho. but this is a look)

-jazz being protective of her brother once again being like NOOO YOU GUYS BETTER NOT STAKE OUT HIS (actually haunted) LOCKER!! shes aware of how people perceive him and she wants to help :( which is also probably why she told dash to invite him to that party even tho she had no interest in going!! she wants to help him out :(

-gotta say im with tucker on the whole 'should danny use his powers to get back at bullies' debate. 100% yes. let him teach kids to fight back. making dash throw his food at paulina out of the blue? no. but when hes actually about to pick on someone? yeah! for self defense? YEAH! if dash and his friends just threw food at him, I think rather than. idk doing sneaky shit with frogs he couldve just threw it back and not pulled punches if they tried to fight. I kNOOWWW its a kids show so they are like 'if u fight back ur just as bad!! violence bad!!' but. theyre HIS POWERS. WHO CARES.

-like my only gripe is that dash really isnt LEARNING ANYTHING WHEN DANNY GETS BACK AT HIM IN THE MOST PETTY INDIRECT WAYS. whatever they had to add a bully psa episode I guess. I hate it and I hate the way cartoons usually handle it because these methods simply Do Not Work. 'aND YouRE USinG YOur poWErs FOR EVill???!' this is Not Evil. even when poindexter takes dannys body, theyre only being 'nice' bc hes stealing soda for them!! bitches deserve what they get (nothing too brutal bc theyre high schoolers but damn, if they pick on danny he doesnt need to be the 'bigger person' he needs to start biting people)

-SAM TRYING TO SMUGGLE FROGS OUT OF THE BIO LAB?? girl in middle school when we had to dissect frogs we could opt out, also, they came to us already dead and preserved...

-sidney's lingo and the fact hes in black and white is sending me. also, danny is a ghost celebrity apparently for being a halfa?? ok. thats interesting to know

-the DENTIST BEING EXCITED ABOUT THE COTTON CANDY FLOOD IS THE FUNNIEST THING SO FAR.

-I LOOOVE the trope of 'wishes gone wrong'. not crazy about the stereotypical genie, or the use of the dreamcatcher looking design. (also, I KNOW theyre scientists but the way theyre handling a cold...are the fentons ANTIVAX)

-the genie. she. whitewished paulina. JKASDFHKJ. (the ghost literally just being hello kitty???? im dying) 'why do i feel that im special and wonderful? because I AM! <3' paulina ilu self worth queen. felt bad for her also getting possessed by (2) boys later who were arguing INSIDE HER. WTF.

-imagine being the guy trapped in his now flying car. he thought danny and tucker were HALUCINATIONS. imagine being trapped in a flying car with two, what you think are imaginary arguing 14 year olds convinced ur gonna die. i WOULD say this dude is gonna need so much therapy, but he seemed totally fine and excited when they landed (I would be happy too if a chicken was on my head. chickens rule) stoner rights

-sam's bat slippers??? iconic. SO cute.

-I think desiree's backstory is so :( do all ghosts have messed up sad backstories?? poindexter's was sad too...cannot imagine box ghost has any kind of fucked up backstory. but what if. his mom got pushed off cliffs by boxes...........a la cruella... anyway her 'no man may lay a hand on me' iconic. ilu

-I know danny has no concept of how much bras cost but my god dont attack tucker with some girls bra. those are so expensive.

-its really. well its not a GOOD THING he went into the portal and got fucked up, but its good danny was the one to do it rather than sam or tucker. because even tho he was being influenced by desiree and kept getting more malicious and it prob wasnt 100% him...he sucked as a ghost like most the people he 'pranked' were innocent ppl just Chillin and he didnt want to help anyone at all. I think danny is the most responsible out of them but also, hes 14 and shouldnt HAVE to feel obligated to fight every ghost. hes a good kid and wants to, but I also feel like he feels like...responsible for the portal turning on?? because his parents did give it up,, but it was an accident and not his fault (if anything, why was the on switch on the inside. why was it that easy. why was there no safety measures. that seems like smth OSHA needs to hear about). like thats my son. hes a good boy. and hes never done anything wrong in his life, ever. if anyone hurts him im killing everyone in this room and then myself. etc.

-danny's curfew is 10PM????? DUDE. when I was 14...shit I couldn't be out that late, I had to be back at like, 8 at the latest, and my parents had to know exactly where and who I was going with, AND i had to call/text them regularly...is this a case of my parents being overbearing, or the fentons sucking??? the only time i could EVER be out that late was if I was at an overnight sleepover or smth...

-the vultures have lil fezes. why do they have fezes...theyre so fuckin funny 'ask him for directions' 'I KNOW WHERE IM GOING' these ghost vultures are my new grandpas. pick them up, put them in the adopt box.

-'I wonder why those guys were trying to waste dad!' THEYRE GHOSTS. YOUR DAD HUNTS GHOSTS. why is that not a conclusion you'd immediately jump to??

-*jazz voice, clearly disgusted* WISCONSIN???

-mrs fenton with the lab coat and leg warmers and PERM. YESSS STYLISH.

-was going to say 'ew billionaire' @vlad but. super valid he used his powers to assumedly steal and cheat to get that money, thats how all billionaires do it! but ew hes a SIMP. and spending your billions on FOOTBALL STUFF?? you are Not Valid overall. I DO respect the fact you have a castle instead of a mansion. in wisconsin. if youre going to be stupidly rich might as well go all out, torches on the wall and all. I DO like his ghost form's little kitty ears. catman. and his cape! every design can benefit from a cape. and how different his forms look, like danny looks the EXACT SAME IN BOTH FORMS ASIDE FROM COLOR CHANGES. vlad's is like,, I could believe they were different people!! also I love the drama. but dude you are fighting a 14 year old. lame. also he was like, telling danny he wanted his mom and him and like, wanted him to renounce his dad?? WHAT ABOUT JAZZ?? bitch. those r MY kids and they are both important and special. I do agree they need better parents but thats not u sir <3

-I thought vlad's 'little badger' nickname for danny came from the football mascot of the packers, but google says they have NO MASCOT?? so now I'm like?? is it because his hair is sometimes black and sometimes white?? I hate to give him props but thats a PERFECT NICKNAME. theyre also tiny and vicious!

-why did I get so excited that Skulker is back!! its been like. 2-3 eps LMAO. AND THE DAIRY KING. ICONIC I LOVE HIM. hes the nicest guy ever :) more nice ghosts please. danny cannot be fighting alone everytime with no ghost buds like every ghost being hostile sucks :(

-mr. fenton knew vlad was controlling him, but a few episodes ago he had no clue danny was doing the same thing...is it something about how malicious the ghost is?? he just seemed to think his memory had gaps the first time, this time he was INSTANTLY LIKE 'GHOST'. then again in this ep when danny did it again he was just slightly confused but not immediately freaking out like he did with vlad possessing him!!

-'my parents will accept ME NO MATTER WHAT' so. so why haven't you come out to them yet, danny?? if you really think that?? if theres no harm, and you're sure??? if vlad is a real problem, wouldnt that make dealing with him easier, to expose him???? SO WHY HAVENT YOU COME OUT YET?? COULD IT BE,, MAYBE YOU HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY WILL ACCEPT YOU??? 🤔 ... 🏳‍🌈 I get why people say He Is Trans. I totally totally get u danny.

-sorta unrelated, but it just occurred to me in one of these eps they go to casper HIGH not casper middle school??? theyre 14?? dont highschools usually do ages 15-18? (I didnt go to hs so I might be wrong, if I am ignore this...) freshmen are usually 14-15, could just be a case of them not turning 15 yet but they will sometime in the school year (I say they because tucker said he was 14 too)? I know the show has 3 seasons, so by the end of it will they be older? thatd be neat but usually cartoon characters stay the same age...I love shows where you can see the characters age and grow up, though...three seasons seems like a long time to spend on like, 1 year...

[darkicedragon]

Discussion of past non-con and the reactions from it afterwards under the read more. Discussion in general also 2k+ words.

aZure "Trying to beat the shit out of each other made werewolves so happy they acted drugged afterwards?" it's called an orgasm??? and u just gave Kentas a mindblowing one, M uwu darkicedragon .........................................which makes me wonder does m know what an orgasm feels like and was it consensual but on a happier note, maybe m just hasnt experienced one and really cant imagine something feeling That Good

aZure bc angst, I'd say M has sexual experience, but noncon, bc Union so M experiencing it with Kentas and actually enjoying it bc it turns out it can feel pretty good when you're with a person you trust and like also M being like O.O at the emotions??? bc??? the fuck is this??? why's his heart so full??? and why does he feel all tingly? and his tummy feels funny??? darkicedragon he doesnt actually want to scratch his skin off afterwards?? why does he feel RELAXED and not a tight ball taut muscles?? aZure and uh??? he doesn't feel like pulling away during? doesn't feel nauseous??? he... likes it??? and likes having Kentas hold him and hug him and nuzzle him??? darkicedragon M just like =^= when they first start, but fine, whatever, ppl Just Like Doing that, so he can do it if kentas wants to ....oh And maybe kentas just continually checking in, and m just being Really Confused bc the others had liked it when hed fought against it, but this clearly isnt a power trip for kentas Either that, or the first time was a disaster, bc  m just didnt react and kentas is just like r u ok?? 'Yeah, fine. Just get this over with' <ono>??? aZure yesss Kentas instantly stopping bc??? this is like a spar??? if M doesn't like it then they stop "It doesn't matter, just get on with it." darkicedragon 'It does matter. Do you want to do it?' 'Yeah?' Compared to all the others, he wouldnt mind it with kentas //Huff// 'lets go home' '???' He said yes?? darkicedragon Would kentas then go to frankenstein or muzaka for advice? <ono> am i doing something wrong? Is this a human thing? So then it becomes a problem of do they tell m that kentas has been talking with them abt him, and also the fact that f+m realise what must have happened to m And also like This isnt something that f+m can just say 'talk to him', bc m prob doesnt even realise anything is up and think that his reaction is normal ococo > bc angst, I’d say Ohohohohoh :3 yessssss You had me at angst ococo M getting angry at kentas cause he involved muzaka and frankenstien, cause how can he tell the closest thing he has to parents about this darkicedragon 'You told them we had sex??' 'Yeah? I was trying to understand what i did wrong' 'But. Its sex??' 'Is... is this another human culture difference?' .....is it???? 'Do you just talk to your elders abt the sex you just had??' 'We wanna know abt how well were getting on with our partners??' 'Huh???' M thinks kentas talked abt the sex in detail, while kentas just talked abt it in general terms ococo M getting mad "you.. u should've talked to me first!" "M21.. I tried! you seemed more uncomfortable so I didn't want to push you" "Just stay the hell away from me" Kentas is like 'but we are supposed to spar today' q.q 'I am not sparring with you' darkicedragon Oh noooo qnq ococo Yes :3 cause that what break up to werewolves but M didn't know that M just angry and wanted his space, he didn't know he accidentally broke up with kentas darkicedragon Too much culture differences ahaha M just means 'not rn' but kentas hears 'FoReVeR' ococo Yes XD darkicedragon So then does kentas go and TTnTT at muzaka and frankenstein, or will he not, bc thats what caused the problem in the first place Or f+m realise somethings up Bc obvsly both of them are now upset and neither of them are talking with each other Kentas might straight up disappear and go for a run And m21 might head out too ococo Muzaka and franken going after them? Talking to them darkicedragon Going to have to Bc they missed dinner 😱 They know neither of them would do that if they wanted to, so theyre worried ococo >w> <w< Imagine M made it clear before that he doesn't like being tracked. So imagine a scene, M sitting on top of a building in a cold night you know because drama, and the moment he hears frankenstien or Muzaka stepping in, M is sulking "I thought I told you I don't like being tracked" darkicedragon 'If you didnt want to be tracked, you wouldnt have gone to a clearly seen rooftop with no cover. You wanted to be found' >n> ococo M is like :( darkicedragon They know him haha He wants to run off and be Alone, but too alone that he actually worries ppl darkicedragon ....either that or m is lile 'What, you wanna talk abt my fucking sex life in person now?' ococo O.O But they know him by know, he is trying to push them away but they aren't having it.. If it is Muzaka, He would hug him mid sentence "just wanted to make sure you're alright" If it is franken he would definitely talk to him "you are not in the union anymore, you definitely can talk to us about your worries" darkicedragon Maybe frankenstein is like 'not in detail, no' 'Then why the fuck are you here?' 'I would like to hear your side of whats happening' 'Why do you care?' 'Bc kentas voiced some concerns, but we havent heard what happened from you' 'Why does it matter? You know from kentas' 'I think, by now, you acknowledge there is a difference between how you and kentas can interpret a situation, mm? So if you would like, please tell me what happened' ònó o-o aZure > would kentas then go to frankenstein or muzaka for advice depending on how much Kentas knows about M's past, he might be like >-> also thinking he might be accidentally hurting M, he would def go ask bc M doesn't always tell what bothers him and Kentas doesn't always understand hoomans and yeaaah, not sure 'talk to him' would work bc M admitting what happened to him would be him admitting his weakness and that ain't gonna go well darkicedragon preeeeeetty much everything stems back to the union, and maaaaaybe kentas just cant fathom noncon happening, bc. is spar and sex. meant to be happiness and checking in. but also he knows Enough that there was Shit going down in the union, but yeah, m sometimes just shrugs when kentas wants to know. 'stuff happened in the union; i dont want to talk abt it' bc its that, or m explodes at him and tells him Every Little Detail and more than once is enough, so m just clams up abt the union now, retreats to t2 when he needs some union-survivor space it miiiight be better if kentas went to t2 instead, but kentas thinks its a human-werewolf thing, rather than a union thing aZure owo ohoho imagine, M being pinned face down, and Kentas having a hand on his nape to keep him down and M's instincts just kick in HARD his brain switches from just spar to DANGER, and goes feral darkicedragon maybe t2 go looking for kentas while f+m go look for m oooooooof aZure hurting Kentas and pushing him off him and Kentas knows instantly something is wrong because M's no longer acting like it's a spar he acts like a cornered animal darkicedragon 'm21...?' 'so thats what you wanted, huh?? fuck off!' ??? 'what i wanted? i wanted to-' 'yeah i fucking thought so' aZure Kentas is very much confuzzled 'Did I... hurt you?" cuz yeah, sparring did mean kicking the crap outta each other, but not hurting each other and M realizes he's overreacted 'it's nothing, forget it' darkicedragon <ono>? aZure 'I did something that upset you and I don't know what" darkicedragon 'c'mon, lets start the spar again' '...no, lets not.' 'its nothing. it doesn't matter' 'but...if i do it again?' 'ill not react next time' <ono> aZure 'No. I... want to know. If it happens in a fight, I need to know how to help you and how to have your back." darkicedragon 'you can have my back my not touching my back' /mutter mutter/ <ono>? aZure Kentas figuring out that's a NO TOUCHY SUBJECT he prolly has a list - what the union did to M - V BAD, NO DISCUSS' - how M became a werewolf - again V BAD, NO DISCUSS; - M24/Mark; darkicedragon SAFE SUBJECTS - FOOD - SPARS (sometimes??) - WORK IS ALSO SAFE - PPL IN THE HOUSE aZure bad subjects may be discussed only SOMETIMES when M feels safe enough and when he brings it up Kentas knows not to ask any questions and just let M say what he has to say he also learned to be for M when such moments happen darkicedragon m21s past in general is a touchy subject yesssss aZure bc M shows Kentas his weakness and trusts him with it and Kentas knows that HE CANNOT FUCK UP THAT MOMENT it's like BIG darkicedragon and he also knows m is also trying really hard to trust him aZure I imagine that after misunderstandings, M needs a lil moment to collect his thoughts and make an active effort to trust Kentas and usually he goes to Kentas and explains himself with only as many details as needed bc after that spar, M going to Kentas and Kentas knows it's one of those moments 'Don't.... touch my neck. I hate being held down. It's... scary. Thanks for having my back tho" darkicedragon yeah, they start figuring out the culture gulf is sometimes just That Huge, so they sometimes need to take a moment before they try to meet each other in the middle darkicedragon (and then it turns out its bc of ms trauma, rather than the cultural differences, but. it still helps to try and understand whats goin gon) aZure yessss Tao and Takeo help too (and that's one of the subjects Tao never jokes around with they don't talk about M's past because it's not their story to share but give Kentas enough information to know how life was in the union the experiments they themselves went through, the training, the 'survival of the fittest' mentality, the humilation, the abuse aZure 'That's what we went through, and we were higher ranked. You can prolly imagine what M went through." "I... didn't know." "We know, it's okay. Just give him time. Hard to shake some things off, ya know? Kinda becomes an instinct to lash out." darkicedragon > bc after that spar, M going to Kentas 'but...ive pinned you before? did you not like it then either?' 'hmmm' //long pause as m21 thinks it over// 'i think it was the neck touch, and bc i couldnt see you. i didnt - i didn't know who was pinning me down then' 'ah, got it.' aZure >_> <_< 'wanna train and figure out how to throw off an enemy if they pinned you down like that?' o3o M prolly goes 'pff, ofc you'd think of training... yeah, think I'd like that' darkicedragon 'just...not rn, ok' bc hes still a lil shaky and distracted aZure def but he's trusting Kentas to help him with his problem and that's a big thing darkicedragon yussssss ococo > owo ohoho imagine, M being pinned face down Hmmmm, maybe the second time they do something sexual, kentas would give M complete control, and it would be becaus M wanted to darkicedragon M is conflicted during it, bc he def likes being able to take his time and explore, and not be forced into anything without his knowing But he also feels strange abt kentas not doing anything, esp when its clear he wants to ococo Kentas keeping his hands to his sides And now its M's turn to ask what's wrong XD They went into a loop darkicedragon XD ococo And then they actually have a mature conversation, kenats telling him that he is scared M would have another episode darkicedragon Yusssss also m just being unsure bc kentas is just like {{^@v@^}} and... He cant tell if thats a good expression or not ococo XD ococo Especially if kentas is having a reaction down there XD "He stopped me, but he clearly wants it???" M going to Muzaka darkicedragon m might not think much of a reaction since he knows one can be forced through contact >n> but also, being confused, bc that contact hadnt been done, so... 'diiiid ya talk to him abt that?' 'just. trying to sort out what happened' >_>;;