#like mental health dead in mariana trench

[raininyourblackeyes]

My cousin, a published writer, a well-known poet in my country and a literature professor, for whom I've always been no.1 support ever since her first attempts at writing in high school, told me that I must stop writing as a hobby because that's her thing and since I'm writing fantasy mostly my writing could never have any important artistic value anyways.

[whimsicalpoet44]

Do you have any song recommendations if you're up to it? Thank you!

Absolutely! Music is one of my special interests and I have a very vast musical taste. 😂 I think the only genre I do not like is Country.

There's so many different ways I can do this post, but I think I'll settle on doing songs associated with my big 3!

Before I begin...please look up Ryan Caraveo if you're neurodivergent, a fire Sun, or an 8th/12th houser. His music is literally amazing. Like, if I could only listen to one artist for the rest of my life, it would be him, hands down. (A lot of his songs will be in my recs 😂)

Songs that I like as a Pisces Moon | 12th House Stellium

As a Pisces Moon, I like to make myself sad sometimes. (Hello enneagram number four) So these are what get me up in my feels. (please don't judge me 😂)

🎶 Neptune by Sleeping at Last

🎶 Four by Sleeping at Last

🎶 Peanut Butter Waffles by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Hear Me by Imagine Dragons (Saturn in the 3rd | 12th Houser | Chiron Gemini would relate)

🎶 Destroy Myself Just For You by Montell Fish

🎶 Hello My Old Heart by the oh hellos

🎶 The Ghost on the Shore by Lord Huron

🎶 Get to Choose by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Atlantis by Seafret

🎶 Galaxies by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Cradles by Sub Urban

🎶 Deceived by Ryan Caraveo (Sunset driving with a lot on your mind. It's a whole vibe)

🎶 All Time Low by Jon Bellion

🎶 Believe by Mumford & Sons

🎶 Control by Halsey

🎶 Nate by NF (trigger warning. If you grew up with a narcissistic mom, this is the one. It does talk about addiction)

🎶 Bottom of the Ocean by blink-182

🎶 Nutcase by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Dandelions by Ruth B. (It gives off that "the world is so beautiful and so are you" vibes)

🎶 My Head Gets Loud by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Literally anything by Hoizer

🎶 Are You With Me by nilu

🎶 Family Line by Conan Grey (LOL if you know, you know)

🎶 Angels on the Moon by Thriving Ivory (helped me grieve my dad)

🎶 Sun by Loveless

🎶 Doctor by Truslow (Trigger warning: It's describing a really bad maniac episode that leads to hospitalization, but it sounds really happy. It got me through some really difficult days in college when my mental health was trashed. Before I got diagnosed with ADHD)

🎶 Better by One Republic (Same as above. Pluto in the 12th probs.)

🎶 Hold on tight by Aloe Blacc (This song always makes me ridiculously happy when I'm struggling)

🎶 Sing of the Moon by The Collection

🎶 All My Life by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 I feel 2 much by blackbear.

🎶 Someday You Will Be Loved by Death Cab for Cutie

🎶 I will follow you into the dark by Death Cab for Cutie (I feel like everyone knows this song, but it's such a 12th house vibe 😂)

🎶 Is it me by Loveless

🎶 I Miss the Days by NF (helped me heal. Made me sob. It was nice)

🎶 Wake Me Up by Avicci

🎶 Ghost by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 If I could i would feel nothing by blackbear.

🎶 Fallout by Marianas Trench

🎶 Stupid Deep by Jon Bellion

🎶 Unclear by Kodaline

Songs that I like as a Sagittarius Sun

🎶 Soulmate by Lizzo (It's such a vibe and so empowering)

🎶 Ashes by Stellar

🎶 Play with fire by Sam Tinnesz and Yacht Money

🎶 Burning Pile by Mother Mother

🎶 Blame by Bastille

🎶 Outta My Head by Khalid

🎶 Nightmare by Halsey (I get chills listening to this song)

🎶 Believer by Imagine Dragons

🎶 Finale (Can't wait to see what you do next) by AJR

🎶 Willow by Jasmine Thompson

🎶 Arsonist's Lullaby by Hoizer

🎶 Venom by Little Simz

🎶 I've Had Enough by Melina KB (If you're healing from an abusive relationship, this is the one)

🎶 Castle by Halsey

🎶 Go Easy by Matt Maeson

🎶 Never Did by Ryan Caraveo (When I say this song got me through the grief and anger when I went no contact with my mom!)

🎶 cinderella's dead by emeline

🎶 Middle Fingers by Aston

🎶 Permanent Red by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Sleep on the Floor by the Lumineers

🎶 Wake Me Up by Avicii

🎶 Truth Hurts by Lizzo

🎶 Patient by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 No More Tears by Jez Dior

🎶 The Anthem by Good Charlotte

🎶 Day N' Nite by Kid Cudi

🎶 I Love Me by Demi Lovato

🎶 Runaway by Aurora

🎶 The Kitchen by Tow'rs

Songs that I like as a Capricorn Rising

🎶 Saturn by Sleeping at Last

🎶 Perfect World by Ryan Caraveo (If you're a poet or a musician that grew up in a toxic household, you'll appreciate this one)

🎶 god sent me as karma by emlyn

🎶 Get to Choose by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 I Am (ft. Flo Milli) by Baby Tate

🎶 Can't Pretend by Tom Odell

🎶 Daddy Issues by the Neighbourhood 😂

🎶 Killing Me to Love You by Vancouver Sleep Clinic

🎶 Won't Stop Yet by the collection

🎶 Theme Song by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Motion Sickness by Phoebe Bridgers

🎶 lovely by Billie Eilish and Khalid

🎶 Deep End by Fousheé

🎶 I am not a woman, I'm a god by Halsey

🎶 Older than I am by Lennon Stella

🎶 Go Time by Ryan Caraveo

🎶 Panic Room by Au/Ra

🎶 Praying by Kesha

🎶 Let you down by NF

🎶 To My Younger Self by Britton

🎶 I hope your miserable until ur dead by nessa barrett

[ladyimaginarium]

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NAME: Angel / Arcana / Ansale'wit / ᐋᓐᔐᓃ are my& core / host / singletsona names, but we're& also a namehoarder & our& main system name is the imaginarians galaxy. so. lmao

STAR SIGN:  Cancer Sun; Sagittarius Moon; Libra Rising; Leo Venus.

HEIGHT: Bodily 5′2″.

WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?: none of ur business lil bitch

PUT YOUR SPOTIFY ON SHUFFLE. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FEW SONGS THAT POPPED UP? HISS - Megan Thee Stallion ; Realer - Megan Thee Stallion ; E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY LIFE - CORPSEHUSBAND ; Black Barbies - Nicki Minaj ; Cocky Af - Megan Thee Stallion ; Haunted - Evanescence ; Miss Me - Drake & Lil Wayne ; Lithium - Evanescence ; Perfume - Britney Spears ; Be Prepared - The Lion King OST ; Over It - Bullet For My Valentine ; Under The Water - The Pretty Reckless ; Yayo - Lana Del Rey ; thousand eyes - FKA Twigs ; Out There - The Hunchback of Notre Dame OST ; NDA - Billie Eilish ; everything i wanted - Billie Eilish ; Desperate Measures - Marianas Trench ; Saviour - Lights ; Chaos Is A Ladder - Ramin Djawadi ; Cruel World - Faye ; The Winds Of Winter - Ramin Djawadi ; Nymphs Finding The Head Of Orpheus - Nicole Dollanganger ; Jenny Of Oldstones - Ramin Djawadi ; Daisy's Theme - The Bryan Ferry Orchestra ; antlers - Ethel Cain ; Famous Last Words (An Ode To Eaters) - Ethel Cain ; Ptolemaea - Ethel Cain.

EVER HAD A POEM OR SONG WRITTEN ABOUT YOU? yeah, my& ex enbyfriend wrote a song about me&. i& never got to hear it tho. they promised. i&. really wanted to hear that song. if anybody like secretly wrote a song or poetry about me& then they hiding it lmao.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED AIR GUITAR? never. lmao

WHO IS YOUR CELEBRITY CRUSH? MNMNMMNUUUHHHH megan thee stallion for literally so many reasons. like. whats not to like about her. she tall, she hella cute & fine & hot asf & straight up one of the most beautiful women in the world imho, she's nerdy & educated, she looks fun to hang around, she speaks out about mental health & trauma (even after all the bs that so many ppl including black men & even other black women like whats going on w/ nicki minaj rn she went so far as mention her dead mom {like girl wtf} put her through & she literally got shot & a lotta folx didnt believe her & was calling her a liar & blaming her & making fun of her trauma & literally none of these white artists showed sympathy or even acknowledged what happened & who were all like support other women got real silent when megan clarified on her twitter & instagram & had to see people paint her as the aggressor & make fun of her traumatic experience all while trying to heal & losing both of her parents, getting fucked over by her record label, almost losing her life from getting shot at, getting backstabbed by the people she cared about & having people on the internet make fun of & make memes of her trauma & laughing at her pain on the internet & all this stupid shit bc misogynoir is such a massive issue, she literally went through so much shit & it genuinely makes me angry & i hope she has a support system), ngl if she dissed me& i& would deadass never leave my& house again LMAO she's insanely talented & confident, she writes her own raps, not only is she a rapper but she's also an actress, she literally makes every style work, she's queer & bisexual & actually supports trans ppl, she's only like what 6 years older than me, she loves anime & she really inspires me& & her strength gives me& strength too, she's v special to me& & if i& had a dream girl it'd probably be sb like her tbh, her music & just her existence alone helped w/ my& mental health & my& own self image & my& self esteem & my& trauma & reclaiming my& sexuality than my& psychiatrists ever did & im& not even exaggerating. lmao. ion rly like calling it crushes tho, it's more like. deepfound respect & admiration for a person. like. "damn this person is just so fuckin cool". & ion say that a lotta people & especially not about celebrities. megan & ethel cain are two of my biggest ones & are like tied in that whole area lmao.

WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE; SOUND YOU LOVE? hate: the sound of people screamin bc it brings back bad memories lmfao ; love: absolute gotdamn silence. the sound of the ocean & birdsong & cats purring's nice too :>

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? i& am a ghost (& have ghosts in our& system). lmao

HOW ABOUT ALIENS? i& am an alien (& have aliens in our& system). lmao

DO YOU DRIVE? tryna start my& course yeah.

IF SO, HAVE YOU EVER CRASHED? no bitch i& aint jinxing it.

WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? the winds of winter : arianne martell i & sansa stark / alayne stone i by grrm / gangsta. by kohske.

DO YOU LIKE THE SMELL OF GASOLINE? ye for the most part.

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? the love witch !!

WHAT’S THE WORST INJURY YOU’VE EVER HAD? had to get lil stitches in my& forehead bc undxed pots was a lil bitch & i& hit my head when i& fainted in highschool. lmao. thats just what i& remember tho. apparently i& had much worse when i& was a baby. like. wholeass surgeries & shit.

DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? plurality literary tropes, transcending to godhood, come back wrong, the mad prophet archetype, apotheosis, tryna find faith in humanity, witchcraft & occultism, learning our& indigenous languages & cultures, & being gayass.

DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? the vast majority of the time im& a very forgiving person. but i& don't forget. & especially as i& get older the less & less tolerance i& have for bs & same w/ forgiveness, especially after everything i've& been through to the point where my& doctor told me& that most would've kermitted if they'd experienced the things i& went through & im& like. kinda at my& limit. undxed cptsd aspd & bpd doesn't help things either. bc like these days im& just. like. callous & abrasive especially when im& irritated which is like. often. & i'm& like. one of the most patient people on the planet when it comes to the people i& genuinely care about & love so you'd have to do something fucked up for me& to tell ya i& dont give a shit. "well you should be the bigger person, take the high road!!" i've& literally Never benefitted from that shit. my& main abuser is still free & lives in the same neighborhood as me& fuck outta my& face. the cult i& was in was all "forgive those who hurt you!!!!!! yes even if they treated you badly!!!!" & that put my recovery back several years bc i& felt forced to forgive them or else i'd& be damned. "two wrongs dont make a right! if you get back at them you're making the world a worse place!!" the countless wrongs committed against me& didnt make a right either. choke. if w/e sb did to me was bad enough they ass is getting hexed and/or cursed. idgaf. fuck around & find out. & it also doesnt help that im& a cancer sun so tldr only if they fucked up REAL BAD. lmao

IN A RELATIONSHIP? im& in a qpr & in an insys relationship but bodily, outerworld wise? nah.

tagged by: hello im& angie im& 23 & i& steal memes for a living

tagging: @fossilizeddumbass @dilfsisko @abri-chan uhhhhhhhhh idk who else but i& encourage yall to steal if yall wanna do this

[bitchcraftmagic]

It’s so interesting to me that it is only now that Joe Rogan is under the spotlight of mass criticism when he has been laundering white identity politics for several years now. Alex Jones, a purveyor extraordinaire of white grievance narratives and repackaged antisemitic conspiracy theories, is a regular guest on the Joe Rogan Dumb Shit Power Hour. Stephan “I went to Poland and became a White Supremacist” Moleneaux has been on the show a handful of times, as well. These people are unequivocally bigots of the highest caliber. They make their living on hateful bullshit and Rogan has them on and let’s them seem nominally reasonable because he has the intellect of a baked potato. And because his brain is the rotted corpse of an armadillo he has no means to push back meaningfully on the disgusting shit they say. Not that he seems that interested in pushing back to begin with.

This has been a pattern with this beefy boy for years on end. The fact that Jordan Peterson, a bigoted dumbass who knows big words and thinks people are lobsters, has come on to spew the most nonsensical drivel countless times should have been disqualifying. That man has been so traumatized by the vague Cold War concept of communism that it like severely effects his mental health. This is a thing he readily admits to and the fact that anyone takes him remotely seriously any longer is beyond my apparently limited imagination. He almost died from only eating meat. He speaks and behaves like he has never really spoken to any human being for longer than four minutes. It is astounding that people think he is a thought leader. Everything he says is so shallow that he makes kiddie pools look like the Marianas Trench.

And maybe people don’t really understand this but the fact that Joe Rogan is friends and colleagues with ALEX JONES should have made any attempt at discourse impossible. Anytime anyone talks about Joe Rogan with respect I urge you to remind them that he is friends with a man who harassed the parents of dead children to make money. This is not an exaggeration. This has been documented in court. That association should have been a final nail in Rogan’s coffin. And what is worse is that when Jones goes on that dumb as fuck podcast he just sits there and believes whatever bullshit Alex tells him. Alex “the frogs are gay” Jones is someone that Rogan takes seriously. And he has for decades. Are you fucking kidding me?

What this shows me, and continues to show me, is that so many people are fine with bigotry. Perhaps they aren’t going to go around spouting this shit but they find it entertaining. They can stomach enough to just sit for three hours and listen to a greasy turd talk about how everyone is just too uptight about all the bigots he platforms. And the thing about this is even if Rogan is deplatformed (which I highly doubt he will be) the desire for people just like him won’t go away. Our culture is dissolving into out and out white supremacist fascism. This is just the entertainment branch of it. This bootlicking fuck head has the ears of a millions despite the fact that he has never said anything remotely funny. And everyone he talks to just jerks him off because he is a cash cow dumbass who falls to flattery like a house of cards. Even if you claim that he is not racist (which is laughable considering the amount of times he has said the n word for fucking shits and giggles) It’s still guilt by association, for me. You lay down with dogs you get fucking flees and that motherfucker is itchy as hell.

[garciapimienta]

2019 reading challenge: 3/100. Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman.

*This book also fits my ‘Read a book about mental health’ challenge.

Synopsis: I’ll put the goodreads synopsis down, which actually doesnt explain much but i like it and that’s all i knew before reading the book. But basically, we follow Caden’s struggle with mental illness as he starts having allucinations and delusions.

(From Goodreads)

Caden Bosch is on a ship that's headed for the deepest point on Earth: Challenger Deep, the southern part of the Marianas Trench.

Caden Bosch is a brilliant high school student whose friends are starting to notice his odd behavior.

Caden Bosch is designated the ship's artist in residence to document the journey with images.

Caden Bosch pretends to join the school track team but spends his days walking for miles, absorbed by the thoughts in his head.

Caden Bosch is split between his allegiance to the captain and the allure of mutiny.

Caden Bosch is torn.

My Rating: 5 stars. This is for sure one of my favourites books now.

I loved the story and the portrayal of Caden’s mental illness. I loved how there was no romanticizing it, at all, and that you could clearly tell A LOT of research and work had been put into it. Another thing I really loved was how much i connected with Caden’s character from the start, and i think that is mainly because you could see how Neal Shusterman spoke from personal experience (and in the author notes he talked about how a friend of him had dealt with Schizophrenia and also how his son lived with it too). And a detail i liked a lot were the drawings made by Caden (that were actually made by Neal Shusterman’s son!) that appeared throughout the story.

I’ll be honest and say that the first few chapters regarding Caden’s marine adventure were a little confusing, but I still found them really interesting. And as the story advances, the story about the ship starts to connect with ‘reality’ more and it all starts to make a lot of sense; so if you struggle with the first chapters, i would recommend sticking with it, because it really does get better. I loved the format in which he decided to tell Caden’s story and i loved the writing style.

And i’ll put two quotes i really liked here:

"Schizophrenia, schizoaffective, bipolar I, bipolar II, major depression, psychotic depression, obsessive/compulsive, and on, and on. The labels mean nothing, because no two cases are ever exactly alike. Everyone presents differently, and responds to meds differently, and no prognosis can truly be predicted."

"Dead kids are put on pedestals but mentally ill kids get hidden under the rug.”

10/10 would recommend to anyone, though i will put trigger warning for schizophrenia and (talk of) suicide

[grimsauce]

About Brendan Fraser and his divorce, he's not the only one. Lots of girls do this now, they marry a rich guy, they wait until he's at his top and divorce to get everything he have. If I remember well Robin Williams had worst, this is why he's dead. It's really sad how evil some people are but some rich guys start to understand it and don't want to marry any girls. We don't know all the reasons of course

Oh boy, where DO I start.First of all, why bother with anon? I have a pretty fair idea of who you are going by recent interactions with my blog.Secondly, that post was about a specific man and HIS story, a man that has been through a hell of a lot and often gets negative comments thrown his way about his life post divorce. It is not a post about how women are evil manipulative creatures, nor is it one you can lump your misogynistic and clearly misguided opinions on to.So, let’s start with you and your “Lots of girls do this now” comment. Financial manipulation isn’t a gender specific trait and is something as I woman I have been on the receiving end of multiple times, by men. You’ll also find the percentage of people who pull this shit is pretty small, not to mention the majority of rich folk are straight white older men, so if someone is going to do it the chances are it will be a woman if you hear about it. You’re not as likely to hear about a guy doing it to a woman because there simply aren’t as many wealthy women out there. Could that be because the majority of the world’s wealth is controlled by men, in a form of financial manipulation? WOWEENow on to your wholly misguided views on mental health, Robin did not kill himself because of a prior divorce, he committed suicide as the result of a tragic cocktail of depression and a rare form of dementia that causes huge emotional swings, hallucinations, and motor issues. He was even due to undergo a neurological assessment regarding it a week after he died.So before you start trying to bend tragic stories to your own nasty narrative, just don’t. Get your fucking facts straight and don’t try to us others pain to build yourself up.Rich guys don’t marry because they are often far too spoilt and can’t settle on one woman, they always want more because they are used to buying their way through life. Others are hard working and busy, dedicating all their time to their work and business, leaving none for relationships. Some simply don’t want to, some may be homosexual.TL;DR: Pro-tip, mind your own fucking business, take your twisted little incel narrative and fuck right off into the bottom of the Mariana Trench

[sometimesalwaysmusic]

HOLLOW RIVER

Hollow River (HR) is the stage name of Mark MacDonald, an up-and-coming singer-songwriter. We discussed his experience working for a music studio, his writing inspirations and the influence of his formal education on his music. Keep an eye out for upcoming Ottawa gigs and give his latest tune, Falsetto, a spin!

VITALS

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/HollowRiverMusic/

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/hollowriver/

Twitter: https://twitter.com/hollowriver

Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/mark-macdonald-music

Web: https://www.hollowriver.org/

Upcoming shows: Stay tuned!

SA: How did you get your start in music? HR: My parents got me my first guitar when I was 8, and it quickly became my greatest escape. From there I tried to get involved in anything I could related to music- I picked up the saxophone when I was 10, I would go to school early to be a part of the choir, start bands with friends. I can't imagine life without it.

SA: What bands would you cite as biggest influences on your sound? HR:  I would put John Mayer as my biggest influence. He was the one to show me that you could write songs with intricate guitar parts and words that actually mean something and still have people sing along. However, I also take a lot of influences from Pop Punk bands like Blink 182 or Marianas Trench.

SA: Thus far in your career, what has been your biggest success? HR: My biggest success to me was playing my first show in Ottawa. I wasn't even considering a serious release for my music, but decided to book a show and see what happened. It was a great surprise when tons of people showed and the venue hit capacity - it was the moment I realized I could actually make this happen.

SA: On the other hand, what is the biggest challenge you have faced, and how have you dealt with it? HR: Staying on a timeline- between wanting my own release to be a good as it can be to working with other talented artists as a recording engineer it easy to get back logged and push back my release to help someone get theirs out in time.

SA: How do you approach the song-writing process? HR: Songwriting is therapy- it always has been. I deal with a number of mental health issues including depression and insomnia, and as one gets worse it feeds into the other. So most of my bests songs come out when I'm at my lowest- I take all the overwhelming feelings and try to make something awesome instead.

SA: What are your thoughts on the Ottawa music scene? HR: Ottawa is my favourite place to play, the fans are engaged, enthusiastic, and always bring the energy. The city is big enough to breed some great talent, but small enough to support at the grassroots level. I think Ottawa will become a key music city in the next few years as the Canadian music scene as a whole gets more international attention.

SA: You went to the University of Ottawa for Creative Writing. Do you find your formal training in writing impacts your song-writing, or are they pretty distinct processes? HR: I think it had a huge impact with my approach like thinking of the speaker of a song or piece as a character. While I try to draw on feelings and emotions that are sincere, thinking about it like this allows me more creative freedom within the narrative of the song.

But I was also lucky from getting the chance to become friends with the other students from the class. We formed a writing group and we all still talk to this day. Having great creative minds that you trust to bounce off ideas helps you think about you work more critically and bring it to the next level.  It was actually one of my friends from that group that helped land on the name Hollow River.  

SA: If you could have any artist, dead or alive, collaborate with you on a Hollow River track, who would it be and why? HR: 100% John Mayer. The things I could learn about songwriting and guitar playing seems unfathomable.

SA: You've had experience in the music industry working at Grant Avenue Studio in Hamilton. What was that experience like and has it changed your approach to making music? HR: Yeah, I still work at Grant Avenue. I owe them everything, especially my mentor Amy King. There is a reason she's one of the most respected engineers in the Hamilton music scene. She's really helped me see music in much broader terms, progressing my technical skills as an engineer, producer, and songwriter while not forgetting the art and the magic of it. It's a fine line that she walks effortlessly.  

SA: What do you have in store throughout 2017? Best wishes for your continued successes, Mark! HR: I will be releasing my first EP this coming September, recorded at Grant Avenue Studio. Make sure to like my Facebook page to stay in the loop about the EP release party in Ottawa, as well as the release of the music video for Falsetto in the coming months. For now you can find Falsetto on iTunes, Apple Music, Spotify, and many more streaming platforms.