#like red tv and jake and 1989 tv and harry

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

The closer we get to TTPD the more I wonder if the eventuality of releasing rep tv down the line kinda gives her the ick lol

[averagewriter-inthedark]

Now That We Don’t Talk | Jake Seresin blurb

Takes place during the TGM events

TGM masterlist

Characters & Pairings: Jake ‘Hangman’ Seresin x ex!reader (past romance), the dagger squad (platonic)

Content Warnings: light angst, profanity, slight suggestive content, cheating, breakup | female!reader | wc: 2.2k

Note: I’m obsessed with 1989 TV and I’ll admit I was never a TS fan growing up but her OG 1989 I liked and I fuck with some songs Evermore, Reputation, Lover & Midnights. That being said, I’ve got the vault tracks on repeat and as a fellow directioner….Harry, baby, I thought you’d be safe.

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“You went to a party I heard from everybody. You part the crowd like the red sea, don’t even get me started. Did you get anxious though, on the way home? I’ll guess I’ll never ever know. Now that we don’t talk.”

His number had been deleted for well over three years when she stepped foot into the familiar bar she once called a second home. It’d been just as long since they’d seen each other, neither aware they’d be reunited in mere moments. When she did find his face among the crowd of their colleagues, she froze, contemplating running out the door and back to her car. Images of their last night flooded her mind. She could recall the constant pinging of her cell phone. Text messages from mutual friends informing her that he had been seen in an intimate embrace with another woman before disappearing from the party.

When he got home he avoided her like the plague. Anxiety consuming his entire being, making it clear the rumors were not rumors. They were true as the sun brightened the sky in the day and the moon reigned at night.

“Jake,” her whimper made him freeze, hand on the railing of the steps leading to their bedroom. No response, only a shake of his head before he continued his journey up. Leaving her to cry herself to sleep on the kitchen floor.

It was a domino effect in the days following. The trust was gone, Jake going out more and coming back late at night. Eventually after two weeks of prolonging the inevitable, Jake returned to an empty apartment. All reminisce of their five years together gone in the blink of an eye. She left a simple note, “Hope it was worth it.”

“You grew your hair long, you got new icons. And from the outside it looks like you’re tryin’ lives on. I miss the old ways. You didn’t have to change. But I guess I don’t have a say, Now that we don’t talk.

Natasha was the first to catch her eye in the Hard Deck, putting down her beer to run over and greet the pilot with a quick hug. Careful not to let anyone else see since they were in uniform. “I’m so happy to see you, Blue.”

She returned the smile, though hers was more tense, “It’s great to see you too, Phee. How’ve you been?” Nerves swarmed her belly with each passing minute. Despite being happy to see her old friend, she was unable to ignore the elephant in the room. The man she thought she’d marry and grow old with on a farm after retiring from the Navy with a bunch of kids and animals was several feet from her.

Overall, Jake had not changed much since their breakup. He was tanner for starters, definitely more toned. But he still had that aura of confidence sometimes confused with being cocky and golden blonde hair making him appear like a life-sized Ken doll. Throughout their relationship she noticed the stares they got from men and women alike. Woman looked at him with want and at her with envy. Men did the same but opposite.

It always surprised people when they got together. Complete opposites, they were known to have a rivalry during their time at Top Gun when they were on the path to becoming the Navy’s best fighter pilots. Jake loved to get under her skin, she loved to deflate his ego. Somewhere the dislike and tension turned into complete desire. And before they knew it they were sneaking into each other’s dorms and getting naughty in the locker room showers.

Her body reacted when he was looking at her. He’d spot her in a crowded room and instantly the woman felt heat along her veins. And she felt that fire right then when a sudden rush of jitters sweeped her figure.

Natasha sensed it too, noticing how the woman became tense. Peeking a glance to the side, a glare took over her once soft expression, “We can go somewhere else if you want.”

“No,” she objected with a slight wave, “I’m fine. A little surprised--although I should’ve expected he’d be a candidate as well given the context of this mission. It’s just we haven’t talked since….”

“I understand,” Nat assured, placing a hand on her back and leading her to the bar. “Let’s get you a drink first, then we’ll deal with him.”

“I call my mom, she said that it was for the best. Remind myself, the more I gave you, you’d want me less. I cannot be your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost. And what it cost, now that we don’t talk.”

Her mothers words replayed over and over again with each step as the two approached the group. Jake was leaning over the pool, calculating his next shot when she moved straight past him causing him to lose focus and miss the ball he was aiming for completely.

“Blue!” Javy shouted, picking her up in a big hug and spinning them around. Not caring if superiors saw or the fact his best friend, who happens to be her ex, was right there. “I’ve missed you, Girl. What’s going on?”

“Nothing much, Javy,” she couldn’t help but giggle. Of all the friends Jake had, Javy was the one who still reached out to her from time to time. Plus he ripped Jake a new one when he found out why they broke up. To this day he still gives him hell for it. “Let it be Top Gun, to bring us all under one roof.”

“Don’t you know it,” he clicked his beer with hers. The two taking a swig at the same time. “Have you met these clowns?” he motioned to the three to his left, “This is Payback, Fanboy, and Bob.”

“Nice to meet you guys,” they shook hands, greeting her with the same enthusiasm. When Bradley arrived she was once again scooped up into a hug, although this time she caught sight of Jake’s hardened expression. That shouldn’t have surprised her. Bradley Bradshaw was the one man Jake always butt heads with.

But the blonde quickly shook it off when he realized he got caught. He had no right to be jealous. It’d been three years since they broke up. And it was his fault nonetheless.

“Well I’ll be damn,” Bradley set her down gently, still embracing her. “If it isn’t Miss. Blues Clues.” A playful slap hit his chest when they parted.

“You know I hate that name, Bradshaw.”

The two caught up briefly, sitting on stools at the opposite end of the pool table. At one point Bradley made her laugh that the beer she’d been sipping on spilled off her mouth, causing him to giggle and hand her some napkins. While dabbing the liquid away, she locked eyes with Jake. It only lasted a few seconds, but it felt like a lifetime. Pinning her to her seat with an unreadable gaze.

She nearly broke, feeling a speck of desire to talk to him, but then remembered her mothers words, “the more you gave him, the less he wanted you. While you may forgive him for all the hurt he brought you, you cannot subject yourself to that again. You deserve better.”

“What do you tell your friends, we, shared dinners, long weekends with? Truth is, I can’t pretend it’s platonic, it’s just ended so…”

She made a silent vow to herself, recalling the painful memories, the phone conversation with her mother along with bits and pieces friends have told her over the years of what Jake had relied on as the reason for their breakup. She would not fall again to his charm. There was no string that could be tied up in an attempt to fix what was cut.

Around them were friends they’d spend long weekends with. Javy and Nat were the most frequent, both having witnessed their relationship blossom and die. It made her wonder what others they hung out with knew. Whenever they’d see each other in passing the conversations always felt like they were walking on eggshells around her. And because she wanted to move on, she’d never ask what Jake told them.

For the sake of their jobs she’d be civil. The past was the past and it would stay there, but she’d make sure to remember it whenever those old feelings threatened to surface. From the looks of Jake throughout the night, he felt the same. It was obvious he wanted to find a moment alone with her to talk, but she refused to let that happen.

“I call my mom, she said to get it off my chest (off my chest). Remind myself the way you faded ‘til I left (until I left). I cannot be your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost (what I lost). And what it cost, now that we don’t talk.”

When she arrived at her dorm that would be her home for the next three weeks, the first thing she did was retrieve the letter to herself she wrote all those years ago. It was crumbled, having almost thrown it away several times, but remembering the significance within the words inked on the lines, she always pulled it back.

Parts of the paper were withered. A result from the teardrops that had fallen when she took to her desk after the phone call with her mother to write down everything weighed on her chest. Pouring her heart and soul into the paper. It wasn’t much, only taking up the front of the page, but it was enough to get the message across.

Her past self coming to remind her of those fleeting last months. Where Jake slowly became the ghost of the man she’d once loved. The constant worry and anxiety from hours of radio silence. Dinners that felt like an awkward first date. Not inviting her out with his friends anymore. HIs lingering eyes on women who weren’t her. Excusing it with bullshit remarks to make her think she was being dramatic. Finally, the party that sealed the deal.

To imagine what they would be if she gave him another chance would be an insult to herself. Instead, she thought about all she gained.

“I don’t have to pretend I like acid rock. Or that I’d like to be on a mega yacht. With important men who think important thoughts. Guess maybe I am better off, now that we don’t talk.”

After the breakup, she realized how much she hid herself from the world. There were things she pretended to like in order to please him. Like watching college football every weekend, entertaining mostly his friends and leaving her to sit on the couch with a book in hand only to not be able to concentrate with the loud ruckus they’d cause.

Or having to refrain from the things that made her happy. Singing at the top of her lungs in the car while her favorite songs played for the first time in years felt liberating. Not having to be careful on what she spent her money on now that she didn’t have to save more for rent because Jake started to blow his on going to the bar during the last several months of their relationship.

The worst was having to put on a facade in front of Jake’s superiors. Though stationed at the same base they were part of different squadrons. During the banquets and balls, Jake tended to make comments on what dresses she should wear and how to act when they arrived. He was always the kiss ass type who wanted to get promoted faster than his peers. Even though she praised him constantly, Jake was never satisfied unless one of his bosses complimented him. If she were honest to herself, she hated attending the events. Despite being in the Navy herself. Unless they were mandatory she’d find an excuse to not go. Being around men with egos as tall as the empire state building who only talked in statistics and status was draining.

“And the only way back to my dignity. Was to turn into a shrouded mystery. Just like I had been when you were chasing me.”

For the last three years, the way she carried herself changed. She had to for the sake of not letting her heart rot away. Taking back the self-respect she’d lost, after thinking for so long it was her fault Jake had betrayed her. That she wasn’t enough.

She was more than enough.

He was the one who chose to cheat. He was the one who didn’t try to defend himself or fight for what they had. He let himself go. He let her go.

So, after a good month of wallowing in self-pity and despair, she lifted herself up with poise and elegance. Remembering who she was before him. The woman who carried herself with confidence, never allowing anyone to tear her down. Who fought hard to build her career to what it was, after so many doubting her abilities.

The woman he chased after. Who at the core was strong, daring, resilient.

Sure, Jake taught her a lot. About herself, about what she wanted in a relationship. About love. She’ll never forget what they had.

She lost him, but along the way she found herself. And to her, that was everything.

“Guess this is how it has to be, now that we don’t talk.”

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[jewishbarbies]

as a swiftie since fearless (the first time around), can i just say i am APPALLED by this woman. the pap walks were annoying. treating joe like she did after six years was cruel. the matty stuff was bad. the travis stuff is embarrassingly pathetic. and now 1989. i don't know how she thought releasing those tracks was a good look because it's not. emotionally blackmailing people, slut shaming (and just generally shaming and mocking them), accusing them of trying on personalities (LOL AS IF SHE DOESN'T) when they're young and figuring themselves out and exploring their gender/sexuality, accusing them of not ~doing enough~ when you're older and more famous and have WAY more power in the relationship is gross. everyone is mocking and dragging harry, and i'm sorry but this man hasn't done anything towards her. the songs he's written about her are sweet/complimentary or he blamed himself. he has always been kind and generous about her as a person and songwriter in public. you don't even have to like him to see and understand that, when it comes to her, he could not have been nicer. and for her to do this is just such low behavior and repeating what she's done to joe, what she did to jake (remember "i don't think about their experience/feelings at all" or whatever it is she said when red tv came out that everyone praised her as a girlboss for. it didn't sit well with me at the time and feels even worse now). she has no regard or respect for anyone else's emotions or well-being. she has to be the victim and center of attention. i NEVER believed or bought into those descriptions of her character before and now it seems very clear to me and tbh it sucks. she sucks. idk what to do with all the love i had and time i spent with her and her music. fifteen years. (sorry for saying that since you rightfully don't like her, it's stupid that it hurts but it does.)

I was in the same position when I realized how horrible she was. I’d listened to her music since her debut in ‘08. it wasn’t so much saddening for me as it much as it just made me angry. it felt like I’d been lied to (and in a lot of ways I was) and to realize her antisemitism, racism, etc. was like a slap in the face.

[thegreatimpersonator]

Your post got me thinking about when it started for me and how I’d seen it increase so much over time in the fandom too, besides the dip during half the Joe years. I never thought about who songs were about until Dear John. I was a fan from the beginning so I didn’t know her life or dating history. I knew when she was with Joe Jonas but didn’t think much of it in the songs. That was the song where I couldn’t ignore who it was about because I knew from the title! Then when Red came out, everyone pretty much knew her relationship with Jake and there was so much slut shaming and focus on her dating life that I listened to it knowing a lot of the inspiration. With 1989 I didn’t feel like it was about Harry styles the way others do but that was the focus of the entire fandom. With Rep and Lover, it was the peaking in the window at her relationship with Joe because the whole world grew accustomed to knowing her dating life. Obviously folklore and evermore were more stories. Midnights was a bit more of the same love of Joe, so we all thought at first that all was the same. I think that’s why this album is actually one that people can’t separate because it’s all this messy drama that hasn’t been in her music in a while and we once again had this very public relationship we know who the muse is for so many of the songs. What I’m trying to say is that I agree that it’s almost as if the harder she tries to separate the music from that the more the interpretations and paternities happen but also I think because of when and what this album is about is why I don’t see anyone not joining in on speculating. I’m more curious to see how it may shift for her next album because I do think many are done being curious after the ratty of it all. This is such a long message and I hope you get what I’m saying that I think this was the peak of speculation albums for many reasons and I think it’ll start to go down from here.

This makes so much sense!! I have no recollection of any of this discourse for ours or even og all too well (the TV was a nightmare obviously), I think the more swifties began vouching for a separation of taylor's music from her exes, the more newer fans engaged in that same behavior because. I'm already seeing swifties excited for ts12 bc it'll feature happy songs about tayvis, it's scary how public this urge to rewrite her life to suit their musical narratives and in a way control her music too is

[joesalw]

i don't even particularly hate taylor swift. she is just another rich white multimillionaire who has perfected the art of playing the victim card & seemingly supporting what is 'in' the current political atmosphere . what i actually hate is how EVERY time her album drops it's always the swifties going 'ooo x isn't safe!' like PLEASE stop. you say that not all of her songs are about men she has dated & about her love life and yet how is it that every time she releases an album or breaks up with a man, you all get excited for the songs about her exes? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE.

her music & songs are so hollow. also imagine my surprise as someone new to her music when i found that joe alwyn worked on all of my favourite songs from folklore & evermore. like i don't even like her actual individual songwriting (& it's not a deliberate dislike. i just simply don't like it). it's so funny to me now.

Her brand is only relevant because of the famous guys she has dated and the rumors she brings. Even during her rerecordings release red tv was all about jake gyllenhaal, sn tv was about not shading john mayer and 1989 tv is being about harry styles controversy, like her whole discography is kind of a joke right now and her fans have played the biggest role in it

[bisluthq]

Question is about Harry and I’m not a Haylor, nor do do I like Harry, nor do I dismiss Tatty. She dedicated Hey Stephen and Cardigan to Matty and those songs weren’t about him either. She dedicates Karma to Travis. She dedicated Trouble to Harry. She applied WANEGBT to Harry. She seemingly sang King Of My Heart to Travis. Question references the most undeniable song about Harry for seemingly no reason. It’s about Harry. She probably wrote it before she and Matty started their affair and when they did she applied that song to him. It doesn’t have to be that deep or mean that Harry is her long lost love. There are songs about Jake and Taylor L on Midnights. Haylors being weirdos doesn’t have to mean that we need to change reality just to spite them lol. Though having read your blog I know you and your anons have a tendency to not have a lot of nuance with this sort of thing.

… except it also references really explicit things about Matty (the shape of his eyes, the party thing which also came up on TTPD, his politics) so MAYBE the one lacking nuance (I say this respectfully bestie) is you and she reapplied OOTW to Matty and ergo included it? Because it actually fits Tatty 1.0 pretty well and Tatty 1.0 happened during 1989 era? And Matty included it on his pre show playlist so it wasn’t just a public rededication - he seemed to know it’s about him from… then?

also what songs about Taylor L do u speak of bestie because I don’t know what you’re talking about there.

Jake might have maroon about him but also I’m not 100% sure about that - a lot of dudes (actually MY personal guess there would be Harry - it makes wayyy more sense for Harry than for Jake to me and wayyyyyy more sense for Harry than Question) fit for that song and she could’ve just liked the theory of red stuff connecting.

so maybe you’re on the correct path when saying she rededicates songs and OOTW was rededicated to Matty when she was working on Midnights and 1989 TV?

[likeadevils]

Are Taylor Lautner and Harry Styles the only exes who have complimented Taylor for writing about them?

i mean, kinda jake— i think around the time of red tv he said something about how the reaction to red tv speaks to the bond between taylor and her fans, which might be taking the absence of an insult as a compliment, but whatever

and joe jonas might’ve said some stuff like, circa-1989 era? i don’t totally remember— harry’s definitely been the only one who got any amount of shit thrown at him and immediately accept it with grace, though

[taylorswiftstylequestions]

The muse discussion of the Red TV vault tracks really shows me how talented Taylor is at creating a cohesive album narrative. Because take TVFN, I completely get why people connect it to Harry and 1989, but there are also SO many lyric and theme connections to other songs about Jake on Red itself. And so regardless of who actually inspired it, I love that it still fits the story behind Red, like how all the vault songs enhance the main album even if they aren’t all about the same person

Every day you guys choose to emulate the best parts of the intraweb with the kindness and generosity of basic respect and empathy towards fellow human beings while also being some of the most articulate and nuanced thinkers out there. What can I say, it's an honour to serve and tippy tappy alongside you all.

But anyway 100% yes! I can totally see how it fits in all regards. I think "enhance the main album" is such a great sentiment about the RED TV vault because the biggest feeling I had coming out of that was how much emotionally it made everything else about RED standard fall into place. Like when my brain clicked "Babe" to the "ATW" of it all??????

And just generally the tiny stitches of storytelling motifs she's put into so many songs that all kind of subtly call back to one another (kitchens, phone calls, big cities, escaping, mixed signals, on/off). It's truly masterful!

[taylortruther]

Red is also connected to Harry Styles. That's when they officially started dating. She has songs on red tv about Harry. She made lots of the promo for red singles about Harry. All the VMAs 2013 drama was like that for a reason.

She even tweeted I Knew You Were Trouble lyrics when they broke up and the picture of her on the boat got out. Harry was there for the red era Taylor.

They literally got together and danced with no shoes in new york (it made headlines), we've got the pictures. Her 1989 songs about Harry have parallels to the lyrics in maroon:

A wine stained dress I can't weat anymore/The burgundy on my T-shirt when you splashed your wine into me

The 1D album with songs about Taylor also has:

Just thinking how I went about it wrong/ This isn’t the stain of a red wine, I’m bleeding love.

It has lots of parallels to Harry's music as well. I mean it could be about Jake but Taylor has openly said she didn't drink any alcohol till she was 21, she had already stopped dating Jake by then.

Red/Scarlet lips was a Taylor thing Red Taylor did not Speak Now. The rust between telephones because they were in a long distance relationship and traveling constantly. They lost track of themselves again, they were on and off for a bit, they broke up because the pressure of being together as celebs was too much. The whole silence came we were blind and shaking thing reminds me so much to Out Of The Woods and running from the monster/noise at the end they were in the clear but the relationship didn't make it.

That's why I don't see how people got Jake Gyllenhaal when so much of the song points at Harry Styles.

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I'm very curious what about the song gives Jake vibes other than the name being Maroon is darker Red. I don't see many parallels between other Jake songs and Maroon. I guess Loosing track of us again? But Harry an Taylor also had those ups and downs. They never go out of style and all that. At least tell me we all agree Question...? Is definitely about Mr. Styles.

anon i appreciate your passion but i gotta ask you to stop sending me these

[septembersghost]

I just went through your blog and was so happy to find out you think TVFN is about harry too. I really agreed with you saying taylor won't describe gellenswift as 'children running'. She tried to be like an adult around him. ATW MV had her trying to look old and mature. Compare it with harry. There is a silliness in hygtg and she even cheekily comments on him in SIO(despite it having nothing to do with harry) which is absent in Red. Plus I don't think tay would write a pop song about a guy who hates pop music to tell him she misses him. WANEGBT was shade and she made it pop because he hates it.Also taylor didn't even break any status quo with Jake the way she did with harry. Noone batted an eye at gellenswift age the way they frowned at haylor.

I know most people point out kitchen reference but Taylor likes kitchen and thinks its romantic. It even appears in cornelia street. It's not a stretch to think that Taylor danced in kitchen with harry too. (It would make fridge light even more interesting because for us it was atw reference but for haylor it was memory).Taylor felt strongly enough to write cbbh and this love about harry after knowing him for like 10 days so she probably missed him.

Also all the songs about jake had an intense feeling that would link back to red(title track). It was driving a Maserati not children running. And Taylor definitely seemed broken hearted after gellenswift unlike haylor 1.0. Jake also doesn't seem like a Polaroid type guy.(I swear I am not tinhat.I don't think atw or last time or anything else in red is abt him)

so i have to fully admit this is bias/my own issue because i know everyone assigns it completely to jg (along with run), and i guess the timing aligns, but it's just a case in my head where i don't like it lmao. it's the only song i feel that way about regarding the inspiration (i think we can safely put cbbh and miab in harry's category), it's just so sweetly nostalgic and has such an innocence to it, and none of the other songs regarding the intensity and passion of the situation with jg have that (not even run, which is maybe the closest). it's such a different emotional palette. there are divided opinions about ikywt/treacherous now (i firmly used to believe both were about jm, then red tv came out and i decided they were about jg all along, then would've could've should've made me ask questions again. and it could easily be that there isn't only one source and she was combining experiences, as she does). i can recognize that the logical answer with tvfn is taylor processing many, many tumultuous issues, and that song was her attempt to capture the relationship in a more pure way, but "i'd pick you up" gives her a kind of specific agency she lacks in moments with jg, and "children running" is curious to me when the crack in the foundation of everything was their age gap and the fact that he weaponized that against her, and that he was so caught in his own ideas of maturity/pretentiousness. she was trying so hard to be grown up, not a child, for him. i've seen it theorized that jg introduced her to polaroids and he just doesn't strike me as that type either (they had a bit of hipster cred at the time, but i still feel like...he's the type of guy who'd expound on the value of real film that has to be developed in a darkroom, you know? this is a man who bought her books he thought she should read and clothes he thought she should wear. polaroids feel too...cutesy? sentimental?...for him). and of course polaroids were the key selling point of the physical copies of 1989, so it just intrigues me.

I don't think tay would write a pop song about a guy who hates pop music to tell him she misses him. WANEGBT was shade and she made it pop because he hates it. this is also something i've pondered since last year. she wrote wanegbt intentionally because he belittled her music, it was designed to be as poppy as possible to rebuke him. ibytam is complete country for a similar reason, and addresses all those ways in which he held himself above her (even down to the city, and his regard for new york being so high above nashville). the phone call theme of red appears in tvfn, but there's an innocence in that specific to tvfn too (whispering on the phone together like kids). the night at the hotel makes me think of perfect. danced in the kitchen is obviously very atw-coded, but kitchens ARE a recurring romantic place, and that particular kitchen was in LA, whereas the atw and maroon dancing takes place in NYC. "every weekend, the same party" can connect to "your cool indie music concerts every week", but breaking the status quo is so...not what happened in their relationship. "back then we didn't know, we were built to fall apart" was before harry came back (this love) and before "we were built to fall apart, then fall back together" in ootw. there are parallels with if i could fly. the lighter silliness of the mood too, that's a good point. i don't know what to say! it fits more for that situation emotionally in my head in spite of the rationality i always try to use!

we will be definitely not tinhats, but merely the very first night appreciators, together.

[sometayrecords]

Midnights chapters

In my mind, Midnights' tracks could be sorted into 3 chapters. These are:

-the "sequels" chapter -the "lost tracks" chapter -the "Midnights core theme" chapter

stick with me and I'll explain everything

Disclaimer: I know there are theories that support the same or different things concerning the following stories, I'm just gonna share what I personally believe :)

✩ The "sequels", or "album sequels", are the tracks that, like the title I gave them says, could be a sequel to a Taylor's old album, if that album was, like, a movie or a book.

Those tracks are:

You're On Your Own, Kid: if Taylor Swift album was a movie, this song would be the "15 years later" final scene.

Midnight Rain: the more I listen to it, the more I think it could be about the boy from Fifteen (Fearless album)

Would've, Could've, Should've is clearly about John Mayer, so it's a Speak Now sequel. it's the relationship that scared you for life, the one everyone told you to run from and you regret not having listened.

Maroon is most definitely about Jake, so it's a RED sequel. looking back at a relationship year's later, all the memories are still there, realizing that what the fire that was burning red was also filling the sky with smoke.

Question...? is probably about Harry Styles, so it's a 1989 sequel. the one that was striking as a meteor and gave you something to hope for, but things were too complicated for anything more to ever happen.

Sweet Nothing: the reputation sequel. Taylor and Joe have found a home in one another and are still sealing their relationship from the world, this time not to hide it, but to keep what matters to themselves.

✩ The "albums' lost tracks" are songs that, in my mind, could've been among Taylor's more recent albums' tracklist, because their lyrics and melody would really fit there.

In contrast to the 'sequels', which lyrically depict a more mature pov of past situations, the 'lost tracks', to me, sound like they could be a part of past albums, both lyrically and sonically, at the time those albums were released.

These tracks are:

Glitch: the whole song is giving jaylor in their pre-dating era, especially during autumn of 2016, so I could really see it in reputation.

Paris: undeniably a Lover's track which lost its way and ended up in Midnights. being happily in love and not letting anything else affect your peace of mind.

Lavender Haze: I could see this one as a bridge between reputation and Lover. It's keeping your private life under a mystery vale, but also reminds me a lot of I Think He Knows.

Snow on the Beach: its ethereal sound and its nature related & otherwordly imagery make me feel the song could fit in folklore.

The songs I think could fit evermore are:

Vigilante Shit (no body, no crime's missing sister)

The Great War (Renegade walked so this song could run)

and High Infidelity

all because of their narrative; everything that happens sounds like a movie or book plot, and everyone who's part of it sounds like a character of that fictional story.

I could kinda see Bigger Than the Whole Sky being among Fearless (Taylor's version) (from the vault) tracks. The hopelessness after losing someone that meant everything to you and trying to figure out what went wrong are really giving young Taylor, while the arrangement reminds me of Don't You.

And I could really see Hits Different being a RED TV (from the vault) track; I feel the lyrics resemble an era of a young Taylor (obviously before Joe) but at a time when, in the media, she was starting to appear as this girl who just 'switches boyfriends' as if she doesn't care about them, so she tries to appear cool and unbothered, while in reality she's losing her mind over the break up that completely broke her heart. And the whole vibe is really The Very First Night and I personally love it as much :,)

✩ The "Midnights core theme" tracks are the songs that, in my opinion, reflect Taylor's deepest feelings on where she currently is in life (not flashbacks of past events). They're the songs that I personally believe could summarize Midnights concept best. In a cohesive order, they are:

Anti-hero: doubting your worth, morality, and overall self image, and realizing half your problems are actually in your own mind.

Bejeweled: acknowledging your real value again, after the ones that hurt you almost took your shine away.

Labyrinth: all the past pain, trauma and insecurities coming to the surface, desperately wanting to heal and being understood, fearing to ever going through what hurt you before again.

Karma: A connection between the past and the present. Your actions brought you here and everyone eventually gets what they deserve.

Mastermind: Taylor admits a part of her intrusive thoughts, but concludes that all her actions (which have been fueled by what she feels are her most disposable, egotistical traits), have actually led her to the purest thing that ever happened to her. And that the person she's safest with could see right through her all along.

Dear Reader: a final letter to her past self, trying to remind her not to get lost in what her mind is telling her at her darkest times.

[chickawah23]

I'm interested in seeing how Taylor handles the vault tracks for Speak Now TV and 1989 TV, if she follows the pattern she started with Fearless TV and continued with RED TV, I think that she'll have one vault song on them that absolutely roasts an ex to hell and back, and the rest will not be super click-baity.

Well, I think that at least the vault tracks outside the one that roasts an ex for Speak Now TV won't be super clickbaity, but I don't know about how Taylor will handle the 1989 TV vault tracks, I think it depends on certain factors and that if some of it's vault tracks are clickbaity, they won't be there just for the sake of being clickbaity, I guess?

If Karlie has ditched the hullabaloo by the time 1989 TV comes out, I could see at least one vault track being kinda loud, and by that virtue kinda clickbaity because, y'know, the whole Big Conversation™ thing and the hullabaloo being gone might be enough to make Taylor giddy enough to be like "F it, I'm celebrating!" and just put a song that's pretty Karlie/Kaylor-y as a vault track.

If Karlie hasn't ditched the hullabaloo by 1989 TV, I could kinda see Taylor putting a loud Kaylor sounding song as a vault track just to make Mr. Superior Thinkin' sweat out of spite, too, tbh. It'll be interesting to see how handling the rest of the vault tracks go. On a vaguely related point, I kinda hope that Taylor includes the Enchanted/Wildest Dreams mash-up as a vault track for 1989 TV because I think the imagery for its lyric video would melt people's brains due to it being the Fishbowl™ of Lover MV fame 🤭

I share some similar thoughts and wonders about the vault tracks for Speak Now (tv) and 1989 (tv) as you, anon. Speak now has so many great songs I don’t know which one she’s going to choose as a single. Would she do the title track lol and have another whole wedding thing. Or will she go back to the fearless tv style and do Long Live as a gift to fans. Then do a saucy but fun vault song and give Taylor Lautner some good press that he can have fun with (similar to how Joe Jonas and Sophie T had fun with Mr. Perfectly Fine). Or she goes for a vault track that comes with the Jake G/ATW 10 treatment for John Mayer and he uses it for some publicity. (Maybe even covers it on tiktok lol). Either way it’ll be fun.

As for 1989 tv vault tracks I really am like hoping she uses it as second opportunity to like work with Katy Perry to undo the Bad Blood narrative. Or maybe she alludes to it in a joking way with Katy’s blessing so that she gets some press. I think the internet would explode if she released a vault track that alluded to Harry Lolol. I’d probably crack up if she did. Harry seems like the type who would totally be down for that though. So there’s some potential for fun. I wonder what the actual single for that album will be though. Like with a music video. I wonder if she would just let wildest dreams live. Or would she give us a music video for like wonderland or New Romantics. Maybe even have Lena direct it. Maybe be chaotic and do a mv for you are in love Lolol. You know lean into the squad and the story.

And yesss that mash up is my dream addition for 1989 tv! It is so perfect and the visuals. Ugh be still my heart.

[obiwan]

swiftie jake gyllenhaal fan? no hate i just followed you years ago during my spidey FFH era and have returned as a swiftie after red TV

JUSTICE 4 MYSTERIO! my man fucking up peter’s life from beyond the grave. lol i think you have me confused with someone but regardless, i’m neither of these things. i like taylor’s music but i’m not a swiftie, i don’t really care for jake beyond “he’s hot”. you can hate him, idc. so long as people extend me the same courtesy and don’t come to me foaming at the mouth and making accusations over some url lol. none of this is directed @ you btw shsjsj you sound very nice. i can’t wait for 1989 tv. i will switch to my harry styles url.

[whiskeyswifty]

it might be just me but i feel like there's been this prevailing opinion in these parts for quite some time that 1989 being a fav makes you a basic taylor fan or you don't really "get" taylor or some shit like that. and maybe it's because so many people who have that opinion are like 17 years old right now, or didn't engage with her music prior to 1989, or something so they won't understand where i'm coming from here. and i'm not mad i just wanna yell about how much i love the 1989 era so here i go.

and if that's you, let me remind you, for older swifties, the 1989 era is oftentimes not just a fav for us because of the music (which is excellent) but because the entire era felt like a goddamn miracle. I don't think those young swifties understand that pre-1989, taylor wasn't anywhere near what she is now. it's hard to imagine given how fondly we wax about her early years, but she was not a superstar or an american sweetheart or whatever for the longest time. Even in the rep era, it was about a pop queen falling out of america's favor, but pre-1989 she hadn't ever been IN america's favor or a pop queen.

in the 4 albums leading up to 1989 the general perception of her writ large was one of an eye-roll. common portrayals of her were that she was overrated and didn't deserve her grammys or even that she could only make country music and would never break out in the fearless era. or made cheesy juvenile disney music and was a try hard in the speak now era. and the worst was the red era of borderline vilifying her for being a serial dater, crazy psycho ex, making feminism look bad, etc and also was made the butt of jokes ON LIVE TV at award shows with her IN THE AUDIENCE, which happened MULTIPLE TIMES. and don't even get me STARTED on the Harry Styles of it all. all the while, media and the public alike saying her music all these years is only popular because it's shallow gossip music. she was a waved-off industry fluke at best and a national joke at worst. and this went on for the entirety of her career for 8 years leading up to 1989. and to be someone who liked her was to apparently be an open invitation for others to constantly have people tell you how much they hated her?? which was like ok why do you feel the need to yell at me in a bar about how annoyed you are by her??? and how much of a national pastime it was to dunk on her for any reason they could find and most commonly blame her for "not knowing better" and being a desperate clingy gf in situations like John Mayer or Jake Gyllenhall (which we now know better as a society but it wasn't THAT LONG AGO THAT WE DIDN'T).

so come to find in the 1989 era where, after the endless emotional warfare of Red, she's all of a sudden beloved.... by.... everyone? like it truly was overnight. and it had NEVER been this far reaching before, in the media and among people i knew, such as my best friend who i lived with at the time, suddenly lauding her music and singing her praises. it made you feel insane to live through how quick that 180 was, and it was such a relief. i can't tell you how much of a relief it was to finally have a break in the mean, hatful bullshit that always came with a new taylor swift album. awards aside, it was the first time ever that she was universally beloved in a pop culture sense and what a halcyon summer that was. not to mention that when she started dating again, her and calvin were "music's hottest couple" or whatever and even that was a relief where she was celebrated for dating someone and not vilified. it was no surprise to us that the rep era followed given what we all knew she had gone through prior to 1989 and how quickly the pendulum would swing back, and frankly we're all shocked the golden age of taylor: america's darling pop princess lasted as long as it did.

and this folklore era feels a lot like what the 1989 era did, yes, but for me and my friends at least, it's nowhere near how much of a high 1989 was. Because sure, folklore came after 1-3 years of negative perception during rep and Lover being just ok, but 1989 was proceeded by 8 YEARS of cruelty for seemingly no reason at all, and that barrage of hate was all there had ever been and felt like all there ever would be. so yeah 1989 is full of certified bangers and on that merit alone is worthy of being a fav according to my subjective but entirely correct dumb bitch music taste, but for those of us old enough to have been media conscious for most of her career prior to it, 1989 more importantly holds this special place in our lives where for an unprecedented stretch of time, not only could we could finally enjoy her music in peace but also alongside everyone else enjoying her music with equal vigor and adoration. why was this so long idk i have 1989 feelings and feel like defending her today.

[pr]

I was tagged by @twothirtyams

FINALLY got around to it HERE:

Nickname(s): Energizer Bonnie. Bon Bon. Bon. The Bonster. Babe (Jake literally has called me Bonnie less than 20 times akdjakanan).

Gender: Lady gal. Tbh I would be agender because I just don't care but along that same vein I just don't care enough to explain that all the time/insist on pronouns. So. Respect to y'all who do. ✌

Height: 5′6″ (I'm the tallest woman in me or Jake's families but also like. Why am I not 5'11"+ akdjakajaj Kaylor's impact….)

Time: 5:47p CST

Where I'm from: Dallas, Texas. (I would specify the suburb but nobody outside DFW seems to kno lol.) Living in Austin, Texas for 21 more days though...

Hogwarts house: SLYTHERIN. Through and through. When I took the quiz at like 15 and got put in the opposite of Gryffindor I cried. But like. Now, I cannot imagine ever not identifying with everything about Slytherin. The ~dark side~ has never ever been appealing to me - I didn't even have an "emo phase" (I thought MCR was scary even) lol but. Ambition and cunning? Hell. Yes. Also Merlin was a Slytherin so. Dab.

Favorite show: Parks and Recreation has taken the top spot for yeeeears - but now it is tied with Crazy Ex Girlfriend. (I base a lot of my identity on kinned TV characters akdjakaj but ANYway.) 30 Rock close 2nd. Breaking Bad/Better Call Saul are 3rd, shockingly. Bojack Horseman an unfortunate 4th but I kin Bojack in a negative way. Always, ALWAYS stan Avatar: The Last Airbender at #5. I have too many to list tbh lol so just check my TV tag.

Favorite animal: So preface: I only like female animals. Akdjakaja. JUDGE me as you WILL. BUT. Other than hyenas, female animals don't RAPE. SO! ANYWAY! Bunnies at a hard #1!!!! 🐰🐰🐰🐰🐰 Alligators, sharks, dolphins, elephants, horses/ponies, cows, pigs (lotta livestock akdjakajaba), cats, opossums, cheetahs, big cats in general, GIRAFFES (KK……) - I love animals a lot (from a sanitary distance akdjakajaj)

Favorite band/artist: I will not even count the obvious answer because that isn't fair. Other than her: Paramore/Hayley Williams, Ariana Grande, Lorde, Hayley Kiyoko, Halsey, Bastille, Troye Sivan, Harry Styles/One Direction, Rush (hate you Jake…), the cast of Hamilton and Crazy Ex Girlfriend.

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...you can't judge me.

Song stuck in my head: Well I'm currently listening to Kung Fu Fighting akdjakaj but other than that Love Kernels has been stuck in my head for OVER A WEEK!!!!

Last movie I saw: Uhhh….tbh I really do not watch enough movies??? Honestly, it might have been Endgame?? God I am sad akdjakakja. Watched Crazy Ex Girlfriend 3× since June tho akdjakana

Last thing I Googled: murphy texas fourth of july concert

Other blogs: I've got a SHIT ton of saved URLs, but other than my temp hiatus blog @kaylor and its side blog @marvelousmidgesusie nah. Too much effort.

Do I get asks:Absolutely not. Never have never will akdjakajaj I'm good with it now.

Why this URL: Not to be like. Dramatic. But. After getting a canon URL previously and receiving 0 validation from it, I started this blog under the guise of like. Having just...a fun URL I can change whenever just to enjoy. So, when the lyrics were leaked, I jumped on this bitch because it was fun! And I'll probably change it again once Lover releases.

Number of blankets: Oh my God. Over 10. Too many.

Followers: Little over 125 I think.

Following: Idk. Maybe 200?

Average amount of sleep: I have been working pretty hard to make it at LEAST 8 - but that never fucking happens aidhakan 7-6 usually and it makes me MISERABLE.

Lucky number: 187, and any combination thereof. I know. Weird. But. On birthday turning from 7 to 8, July 18th (7/18), I decided that was the best day of my life, and that was my number. Do I remember anything about that birthday? Absolutely not. But. The number stuck. It shows up in my life a lot. From random (187 on a bus or on a utilities panel driving by), to mildly interesting (my license plate just has 718 or reblogging/liking things that equal combos of the numbers a lot), to really freakin' weird (the number my mom has had for almost 30 years ends with 0718, my Jake's birthday just happens to be August 17th 8/17). So. Idk. I just wike it.

What am I wearing: Tee from a coffee shop, A&M workout shorts, sports bra, crap underwear, and my heart on my sleeve.

Dream job: For my entire life, it was working in film, most recently being an editor. But within the last few months, in a dramatic turn of events, my ideal job would be doing what @tree-paine does: being the publicist of clientele in media, music, film, sports, maybe even politics. Idk.

Dream trips: Jake and I have an elaborate dream of traveling down the Alps from Frankford to Austria to Switzerland to Mulan and ending in Verona. Additionally, I am desperate to take Jake to NYC, LA, Boston, and San Fran. Would love to visit almost every hotspot in the US (Chicago, Atlanta, NOLA, Southwest, Pacific Northwest, Disneyworld, Colorado, Alaska, etc). Also VANCOUVER, lots of East Asia, lots of Europe, Giza, Jerusalem, South Africa - but I have literally never been out of the country and am TERRIFIED of flying let alone over the OCEAN. UM. I just want to be well traveled man lmao.

Favorite food: LOTTA shit I am NOT picky, but tops for sure: cinnamon rolls, cheeseburgers, pizza, mac n cheese, blueberries, pasta in general, sushi, and Jake's aglio e olio/veggie nachos.

Instruments I play: Lol. As if. I spent almost $300 on a keyboard but have been too depressed to try. Maybe someday. Have also been dying to sing for 23 years…

Eye color: Very, VERY light blue. Whenever I am in public, people lose their SHIT on the daily when they see my eyes. But for me like. Blue eyes be creepy. Lmao. I really want green/hazel eyes but like. W/e. So it goes.

Hair color: Naturally this dark, awful shade of ash blonde. But I've been coloring my hair since middle school, and for the past 5 or so years it has been a natural ginger copper. I dye my brows too, people think it's really because I am such a cracker ass white gal akdjakanakan

Aesthetic: Check my "aesthetic" tag lol. Idk. Peach/salmon tones. Farm animals. Florals. Dresses with sneakers. Women. Taylor Swift lyrics over pastel backgrounds akdjakaj. BUNNIES. Shots with a lot of negative space. Mornings and coffee and eggs and pancakes. Waking up next to Jake. Texas hill country. Cowboy boots worn right. Snow. Christmas. Idk. Just like. Look at the "moodboards" tag too akdjakaj.

Languages I speak: English, do you see my lily white ass akdjakajaj. I can speak Spanglish well enough to get through a transaction or vaguely pick up words but that is IT. Would love to know Cherokee, Korean, German, and whatever the hell Australians are saying tho.

Most iconic song: One time, I had a dream that I wrote my senior thesis on why the song "Red" was on the level of modern icon/classic as songs "Don't Stop Believin'", "Livin' On A Prayer", "Smoke On The Water", etc. I was insistent the opening notes were on the same level as "Immigrant Song" aodaajakaja. And I was SO passionate about it I WOKE UP CRYING AKDHALAJAKKAAJ.

Anyway.

OTHER than that, this is 100% subjective and to me personally but: Tim McGraw because those opening notes are just nostalgic as hell; Out of the Woods because when that leaked I was just starting to get back into TS and I put on my headphones and covered myself in a blanket and closed my eyes to be fully into it and oh my God...it was immersive, I will never forget that feeling; IV Sweatpants by Childish Gambino, because it was the MOST PLAYED SONG OF 2018 on our Spotify akdjakajaj; My Shot/Wait For It from Hamilton because they have both inspired and driven me to feel like I can take on the fucking world; and A Diagnosis from Crazy Ex Girlfriend because it changed my life and I have listened to it more times than I can count.

When I created this account: A few months ago. I am changing my person this year, and starting fresh with how I present my online persona was an important part of that process for me. But I have been on Tumblr on various accounts since 2010/11 lmao.

Best memory: Getting moved to the front row at my first TS concert, the 1989 Tour; so, so many things with Jake, years of memories; getting my bun; reconnecting with Sarah; a lot of SXSW 2018; my 20th birthday.

Best pun: The first thing that comes to mind is a post I reblogged earlier about how Lyra from The Golden Compass does not have a moral compass in the metaphorical sense and I said, "I mean. She has a compass. She quite literally very much has a moral compass." I thought I was funny lol.

Random fact: I finally got diagnosed with BPD! And I've lost 20+lbs this year (getting healthy, it's a good thing)! My closet is color organized by item!

I tag:

@kayspiracy @jake-from-state-farm-school @toastedcoconutchips @vagabonds-and-troubadours @grizzlybairparty @thefuckingstory @pictureofsoph1sticatedgrace @his-dark-memerials @taylorswift

[bisluthq]

Why do you think Tay got back with Jake after RED? Like I'm not offended or whatever by this suggestion of yours but like whats the evidence? That he called her and said the album was good and true to what happened? Like I kinda think its a stretch to say that she got back with him after WANEGBT just based off this. Also when would that have even happened she was with Harry till feb 2013 or whatever

I don’t think they got back together but I think they were in touch and there was back and forth happening - like the evidence is her freaking out seeing him in 2015 and the fact that she was single for most of 2013 and the fact that 1989 draws on a lot of on/off relationship themes and that’s… not actually the premise or Style ergo Haylor. Like Haylor dated and then had a few hookups for the road with no hard feelings, whereas Clean is specifically about finally being free of someone and AYHTDWS and the speeches for it on the tour are pretty clearly about Jake imo like the whole idea of someone who is confusing and not all in and like you deserve better is like all on her Jake songs (also Stay x3 being the anti Jake song on RED). Like I don’t think she was totally over Jake until after the Red Tour (also based on her Red TV prologue and other stuff she said about how the tour changed ATW for her and stuff) and I don’t think it was purely in her head like I think they were in touch.

Again, I don’t think any of those other dudes between Jake and Calvin were like that important and it took her a long time to be fully over Jake 🤷🏻‍♀️