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#like she'd be mean when the others are being dumb
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"tricia and those guys" "ike and those guys", what about "tricia and those idiots"?
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spellboundstarlet · 24 days
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ALL FOR HER — CAITLIN CLARK X READER.
warnings: strap on , cait making reader touch herself as she watches , fingering , kind of mean caitlin (my fav) , caitlin eating r! out , praise , petnames (ma, mama, baby, good girl, and more) , teasing , this is better viewed in dark mode.
word count: 1,047 words.
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it'd been a bad game for fever. your girlfriend felt as if she'd made them lose, even if you'd reassured her it was not her fault. "you don't get it! it was game point. i missed my shot". when the two of you got home, you thought you would be in for it. it had become a normal thing for caitlin to let her post-game anger out on you. normally by now, your face would be shoved into a pillow as the brunette plowed into you from behind so hard you thought she'd split you in half. but tonight was different.
the second you entered your shared bedroom, the girl had that look in her eyes, the same one she usually got before she fucked you dumb. caitlin smirked at you, her dimples showing, as she pulled down your shorts and panties. her fingers found your inner thigh, teasing closer and closer to your exposed cunt. she shakes her head at you, "so wet already, hm?" she asks. "you gonna take that shirt off f'me too, baby?"
you removed you shirt immediately after the question left her lips, leaving you in your laciest bra, all for caitlin. she loved you like this.. so obedient, so eager to please. the brown eye girl tutted at you, "hmmm, you want me to help you out.. yeah?" she asks, and you nod. the combination of the cold air hitting your skin, and her warm hands running up and down your thighs had you begging her to do something. "well that's to bad, mama.. i'm gonna watch you get off, got it?" wanting to remain "good" for her, you tried to not show your disapproval, but the sad pout on your face showed it all. "show me you deserve it and i can help you".
caitlin sat back on your desk chair, while you sat on the edge of the bed facing her. your fingers rubbed soft circles on your clit, soft whimpers leaving your mouth. gaining confidence, you slipped one finger in. caitlin's eyes met yours as you pumped your middle finger in and out of yourself, all for her. your fingers were nowhere near as long as your girlfriends, meaning they didn't reach the right spots.. and caitlin knew it.
needing more, and knowing you weren't allowed to touch your girlfriend, you added another finger and circled your clit with your other hand. the knot in your stomach dared to snap. cait's eyes never left yours. she sat manspread, with a small smirk on her face.. irresistible. "caitlin, please.." you begged. she seemed to listen, standing up and sitting beside your nearly naked body as you plunged your fingers into yourself at a steady pace.
"think you deserve it?" she asked knowing you did, moving her hand up to cup your breast and squeeze it slightly. your orgasm was approaching quickly, her being next to you making you that much more wet. caitlin's other hand moved down to find your own. as she removed your fingers, she replaced them with two of her own.. a vast difference than what you'd felt before. she was relentless, fingerfucking you fast, the room filled with squelching sounds as her fingers hit the gummy spot inside of you.
"cait... cait!" you screamed out as the band snapped, her fingers slowing down inside of you as you released on her hand. as you panted, trying to catch your breath, she removed her fingers which elicited a sigh from you. "did s'good for me, baby.. so good." caitlin cooed at you as you snuggled impossibly close to her, coming down from your high. "think you can give me a couple more??"
the girl layed you back down, leaving you still completely exposed in front of her. caitlin wasted no time in diving between your legs, her tongue flicking and lapping at your throbbing clit. all that could be heard as she worked you with her mouth was your loud moans. you could feel her smirking against your skin, she knew just how crazy she had been driving you up until this point. her fingers slipped inside of you, curling and hitting that perfect spot. your girlfriend pushed you closer and closer to the edge until you were simply a quivering mess beneath her.
just as caitlin was bringing you to your second orgasm of the night, she pulled away from her spot between your thighs with the same smirk from earlier. "not yet, baby," she whispered huskily, before climbing on top of you and kissing her neck. the feeling of the kisses on your neck made you nearly forget how close she'd just brought you to the brink of letting go. it was overwhelming.
after getting up and disappearing into the bathroom, she returned a few minutes later with her strap already in place. just the sight of your girlfriend like this had you a ready for more.
"you all ready for me, baby?" she said, making you even more wet. the brunette above you teased your hole with the head of the strap, causing you to whimper once again. this time, fully pushing in, your hands reached for her bicep and dug your nails into it. your girlfriend thrusted, her dark eyes watching as the silicone disappeared in and out of you creating the perfect bulge in your lower stomach. caitlin pressed soft kisses on your forehead, pushing the hair stuck to it away and wishing she could take a picture of how fucked out you looked in this moment.
knowing you were close, based on the sounds coming from your mouth, and your impossible grip on her arm, caitlin’s thrusts slowed down. “did so good.. so perfect baby. so pretty like this.” she whispered as she brought you closer and closer. “all for you, cait. all for you.”
soon enough, you held onto the girl tightly as your orgasm rippled through you.
after care with caitlin was perfect, she’d hold you close in the shower, then practically rock you to sleep while still praising you. “my good girl, yeah?” she’d whisper, too tired to speak, you’d only nod against her chest. within minutes you were passed out, and she wouldn’t even dare go to bed before she knew you were comfortable and asleep.
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mattyriddlesbitch · 4 months
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a steamy enemies mattheo fic w you as the shy yet stern tutor and he keeps messing w you. maybe at the end after he passes his exams you try to stop the meetings by saying he doesn’t need a tutor anymore and he gets mad/the jealousy trope 🤤😈🛼 also what if there’s a scene where you go to a ‘dangerous’ party w the wrong crowd and he catches you there and gets mad bc he doesn’t want u around those people
I hope this works! So sorry this took so long!
Tutor
Mattheo Riddle x F!Reader
Warnings: kissing, cussing
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You and Mattheo never got along. Everyone knew that too. Insults and snarky comments were thrown at each other all the time.
So it was infuriating when McGonagall said you were his new tutor since he was struggling with some classes. You tried to get out of it, switch with another tutor, but she just said that everyone's already set up with another student and she can't change it.
Tutoring sessions were brutal. He always messed with you. Always tried getting off topic. Even jokingly flirting with you to try to derail your lesson. But you were determined to get him to study and tutor him enough to pass so you could stop these sessions. 
“How about every answer I get right, you give me a kiss?” He smiled at you.
“In your dreams, Riddle.” You rolled your eyes, but felt the heat rise to your cheeks. “Can you just focus?”
He finally just started passing his classes, his homework and test scores soaring  enough to make him start passing classes. McGonagall said you didn't have to tutor him anymore, but she recommended you did since your own scores were going up as well as you tutored him. You had enough of Mattheo and told him you weren't going to be tutoring him anymore during your last tutoring session, showing him the tricks you learned for studying and retaining information.
Oh, he was mad. He never really hated you. He liked you and never knew how to express his feelings so he became mean to you instead. He was a dumb kid when he decided that and didn't know how to change it and make you like him, even as a friend. These tutoring sessions were making his feelings grow. He thought it'd be a perfect time to find out more about you, asking you questions about yourself, trying to change the topic to something more fun to hear you talk about something other than school, even flirting with you to try to change your view of him and see if he could fluster you.
So when you told him that you were done with tutoring him, he was upset. Moreso at himself than you. He was upset that he didn't seem to get you to change your view of him. He was upset he tried so hard, he passed enough to not need you to tutor him anymore. He was upset that he decided to be an ass to you at the beginning of your relationship so you'd always have a bad view of him.
“What do you mean you're not tutoring me anymore?” He frowned as he sat across from you in the library.
“I mean exactly that. You're doing well enough to not need one anymore.” You shrugged.
“I'm only doing this well because of you.”
“I'm showing you how I study so you can keep doing this well. You don't need me.”
He wanted to say he does need you. Merlin, he wanted to. He wanted to see how you'd react. He even wanted to see you get all smug and tease him about needing you, but he bit his tongue.
Truth was, he really didn't need your help. He knew this stuff enough to pass with flying colors. He just never applied himself. But he thought if he did start passing because of you, you'd be impressed and happy he did so well because of you. He felt like he lost his chance to win you over once he saw you leaving the library after your last tutoring session.
Your friend invited you to a party she'd been invited to, saying it'll be fun and to think of it as celebrating successfully tutoring Mattheo and being done with him. You were reluctant but finally agreed, deciding it'd be fun to relax and let loose.
You arrived with your friend, who let you borrow one of her short dresses and a pair of heels. You both drank and danced until she was eventually pulled away by one of the guys there, leaving you alone. You were slightly tipsy, just enough to make you relaxed and slightly dizzy.
A guy approached you, you recognized him enough to know he was in Slytherin, but you never learned his name. He was about to say something when an arm wrapped around your waist from beside you.
“Hey, princess. Hope you weren't waiting on me for too long.” You recognized the voice as Mattheo and turned your head to see him smiling at you.
“What-”
“You seem a bit tired. How about we go sit down?” Something in his voice and smile was off. You nodded and he guided you away from the crowd and down a secluded hallway. “What are you doing here?” He asked as he moved to stand in front of you.
“My friend invited me.” You frowned.
“And she left you alone?” He matched your frown.
“Some guy took her to dance.”
“You're kidding. This isn't safe for you.”
“What? Why?” You crossed your arms in front of your chest.
“Doesn't matter. I'll get you back to your dorm.” He said, trying to turn you back around to lead you away.
“No, tell me. If I'm in danger, then I should know why.” You said, resisting him.
He sighed, looking down the hallway before looking back at you, talking quietly. “This is for purebloods and Death Eaters, something you shouldn't get involved with. So, let me get you out of here before something happens to you.” He said, trying to guide you again and you let him this time.
“What are you doing here then?” You questioned, now sobered up from this conversation.
“My father. What do you think, Ms Know-It-All?” He teased and you rolled your eyes.
“No need to be mean.” You frowned. There was a pause as he led you out of the party and started the way to your dorm. “Why are you helping me anyways?”
“I don't hate you, you know?” He said and you turned your head to look at him again.
“You don't?” You raised an eyebrow.
“No. I never have. I'm just…” He paused trying to find the right words and you stopped walking, turning to face him as he stopped too. “I'm not good at…words-at expressing myself. I don't do well with feelings and emotions.” He sighed, looking down.
“Okay.” You spoke quietly. “So…what do you actually mean then, if you don't hate me?”
“What I mean is that…” He looked back up to meet your eyes. “I mean, I don't hate you, I…” He ran a hand through his hair, letting out another sigh. “Fuck it.” He muttered before grabbing your face gently and pressing his lips against yours. He pulled back after a few seconds, noticing your surprised expression as you still tried grasping what just happened. “Did that make sense?” He asked, hands still cupping your face.
“Um, I think so.” You said, still a little dazed.
“Let's get you back to your dorm. Maybe it'll give you time to figure it out.” He said, a small smirk playing on his lips now as he moved a hand back to your waist and started guiding you again.
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eilishsmuse · 1 month
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confess that you were lost
— billie eilish x fem!reader
context. friendship? relationship? situationship? you have no clue what you have with billie. and she doesn’t really clarify what is going on between you two either. all you really know is that there’s a thin line of platonic and romantic the two of you constantly cross over for one another.
cw. angst, swearing, heartbreak, jealousy, suggestive, makeout, reader feels thrown to the side constantly, billie is very unaware with the situation, lowk gets a lil slutty, lowk smut, lowk cliffhanger, good ending ig
soundtrack. temptations - partynextdoor
anon’s ask. “there’s not enough billie angst so how about a situation where reader likes billie but billie’s playing with the line of platonic and romantic so r just doesn’t want to risk hurting the friendship”
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You're dumb
Well no. Not really. You just fell in love with your best friend, that's all. Which, in your case, was dumb to even begin with. You don't even know how it initially happened. One day you were breaking up with your boyfriend, and Billie was there, comforting you every second of the way.
I mean, it was the real package. Break up with your boyfriend, get endless amounts of affection from Billie, and let her smother you with affection, both physically and verbally. As a friend.
That's what sucked. It was just a way of Billie being a good friend.
But since the breakup, she has been more touchy and affectionate than before. Of course, your delusional self saw it as one of Billie's many ways of flirting. But you were wrong. Billie just, in all honesty, casually likes hopping over the thin line between platonic and romantic. And it haunted you.
Now you were here, sitting on Billie's couch as she raved about one of her most recent hookups with some girl she met at her friend Charli's birthday party. And you sat there, head on hand, as she gidded about all the lust and enjoyment she got out of the hookup. A TV show playing the background you were planning to binge with Billie.
"I mean, it was great," Billie half-laughed out. "Definitely top five from now on."
"That's nice," You fake smiled, glancing over at the TV as the show played on the screen. Letting the sound of the dialogue flood your ears. Not wanting to hear about Billie and her hookup anymore. Jealousy eating you inside and out.
A small frown settled on Billie's lips as she watched you look away from her to the TV. "Why do you suddenly seem annoyed?" She questioned.
Billie had always been able to notice the slight changes in your mood towards her, whether they were negative or positive. She knew your body language well enough, that she easily picked up the signs.
You take a small breath in and looked back over at Billie, your eyes fluttering as they landed on hers. Your eyebrows raising in 'confusion', eyebrows furrowing as well, "I'm not ."
Lie. That was a lie. You were jealous. You hated hearing Billie constantly talk about her hookups all while you listened to her in silence and torture.
Billie's frown continued to deepen. She didn't believe your lie for a second. And that's why she leaned closer to you, her gaze never leaving you. "Bullshit," she bluntly called out, shaking her head.
Billie always knew when you were lying. You couldn't fool her. At least not the way you usually did with your other friends.
"Dude c'mon, I've known you long enough to know when you're lying," she added, letting herself scoot closer to you.
Her slender hand came in contact with your cheek, gently caressing the warm skin with her fingertips. She wanted your honest answer. Sacred what was going on through your mind. Worried for you. Like a true friend.
Just then your skin tingled at Billie's touch. It was a common gesture between the both of you. She'd always been touchy with you in that friend way and it never bothered you. Not fully. You just wished it was more than that friend way.
You then finally took a deep breath in at Billie's words. Your eyes hooded as they looked into hers. A small glimpse of sadness and tiredness laced all throughout them.
A pang of worry hit her gut as her eyes studied your expression. It was a mixture of sadness and exhaustion. She could practically feel the pain you were in. What pain? She didn't know. But still, she wanted to be there for you.
Billie's hand slid down from your cheek to your chin. She gently pinched her thumb and forefinger in order to raise your chin, so your gaze wouldn't stray from hers again.
Billie's features softened, her usual bright eyes looking at you with nothing but worry for you.
"You know you can always tell me the truth," Billie softly assured you. Her touch on your chin never faltered. In fact, it gently caressed your skin with her thumb.
It hurt Billie so much, to see those sad and tired eyes as they searched hers. She longed to know what you were thinking. What was making you feel that way? To figure out a way to make you feel better - maybe even smile.
She gently caressed your chin with her thumb, her eyes searching your face for any sign as to what was truly bothering you. But she was clueless. All she knew was that you were upset, and that hurt her the most.
"I know something's up," she spoke again, her tone soft and soothing.
Billie let go of your chin and tucked a loose strand of your hair behind your ear, her eyes never leaving your own.
Billie wasn't stupid. She could see the jealousy radiating off of you.
For a split second, you leaned into Billie's touch. Eyes closing for a moment and cherishing the moment. Her gentle touch was so delicate that when you leaned into it, her hand had no choice but to press up against your head with more force.
"I just-"
Your voice was gentle and low, cracking almost. You weren't on the verge of tears or anything, but the way your throat tightened and swelled as if you'd woken up with a cold said something differently.
Billie watched your expression as your eyes shut for a split second. The way you practically melted into her touch was something that always made her heart flutter.
Her hand stayed against your head, gently rubbing over your temple with her thumb. She was now patiently waiting for you to voice your thoughts, and she had all the time in the world for you.
"Just…?" she softly whispered, encouraging you to continue speaking.
Billie's eyes searched your face for anything that could hint what was going on in your mind. Her thumb continued to gently rub against your temple, trying to soothe any and all thoughts that were causing you to react the way you did.
She knew you. She knew your body language better than anyone else. And all the while, her heart ached at the fact that you were hurting. She hated seeing you in that way. And the fact that you won't say the reason why was killing her.
A quite half whine and sigh came from you. Your eyes now more noticeably showing sadness and fear behind them.
Was this really the time? Billie just finished raving about her 'amazing' hookup, and now here you are on the verge of confessing your love for your own best friend. She wasn't making it any easier either.
With the way her soft, gentle touch feathered across the skin on your temple and the way her eyes searched for any emotions in your body language and eye movement.
Just the way her whole demeanor changed just for you.
Billie's eyes continued to study your face, never straying anywhere else. Her heart felt like it was beating too fast.
She hated this. Hated how you looked so sad and fearful and how you weren't telling her what was wrong. She felt powerless. All she could do was sit and try to soothe you with her touch until you found your voice again.
Billie could feel the atmosphere change. The shift in your body language was very noticeable, and her eyes picked up on it in an instant. "Please, just talk to me," she softly pleaded.
"I can't."
At this point, your voice was scratchy and on the verge of cracking from how tight your throat formed from the emotions. Your eyes shut as soon as you said your words. Your face contorted into a fit of guilt and worry for what was to come in the next few moments.
Your breathing was now heavier and faster than before. Chest rising and sinking with vigorous speed. Face heating in Billie's touch. Mind hazy and blurred.
The more you spoke, the more concern and worry built up inside of Billie. She hated seeing you so torn and upset. Her heart nearly shattered apart when your voice cracked from the emotions.
Her thumb continued to rub over your temple gently, as if to soothe the guilt and worry that was etched on your face. Her other hand moved to hold your cheek, wanting to keep you grounded.
Billie could feel the emotions radiating off of you. She could see and sense the uneasiness and tension.
Billie's features hardened as she could see the look of guilt and worry cross your face with your squeezed shut eyes. She gently gripped your chin and pulled your face up, forcing you to open your eyes and look at her.
"Why can't you?" she softly demanded.
Your heart was pounding. And she knew that. She could feel it under her fingers that were gently pinched around your chin, holding your face steady.
Billie's eyes searched yours, almost pleading with you to tell her the reason why you were so hurt and guilty.
She didn't like this. She hated this. Hated seeing you in pain and not knowing how to fix it.
"Please, just tell me why," she whispered, her voice gentle and soft as her thumb began to rub gentle circles on your chin.
"I hate it when…"
You swallowed to try and make it easier for yourself to say what you wanted to say, but the swallowing only hurt and made your throat tighten up more.
"I hate it when you talk about your hookups."
Your gaze lowers onto your lap where your hands nervously fiddled with one another to soothe the tension in your body.
Billie's heart shattered at your words.
Of course. She should have known. Should have seen the signs.
Her grip on your chin tightened, slightly tilting your face back up so you were looking at her once more. Her eyes were wide as the realization hit her.
She was so dumb.
But she shouldn't have been surprised. All she could see now was the jealousy and sadness in your eyes, all because of the casual talks she had about her hookups with random girls.
Her eyes stayed fixed on your face. She could see how your body language showed tension from how you were fidgeting with your fingers in your lap.
Billie's thumb continued to gently rub your chin as she tried to get you to look at her again.
"Look at me," she firmly spoke, eyes darting all over your face.
"I..."
Billie's voice died in her throat. Her heart was now pounding as fast as yours was, and she was completely at a loss for words.
Everything suddenly made sense. The subtle looks of annoyance whenever she mentioned a hookup. The sad and exhausted look in your eyes. All the times she tried to coax an answer out of you but was met with "I'm not jealous."
Fresh tears began to pool in your eyes, slowly trickling down your cheeks. Billie's heart shattered once again.
Seeing you like that hurt. It hurt her more than she could even express. Her grip on your face softened, gently caressing your skin.
"No, no, no. Don't cry," she gently pleaded, bringing her other hand up to your face to try and wipe away your tears.
Billie's features now held a sorrowful look as she watched more tears glide down your red-tinted cheeks. She began to rub away at the tears on your face, trying her best to comfort you in any way she could.
"Please, don't cry," she repeated, her voice much softer this time. Her eyes continued to study your face, trying her best to decipher what you were thinking.
"I fucked up."
Your tone was regretful. You were regretful. You just threw away a friendship for the girl you loved the most and who cared for you the most, just because you caught feelings.
Now you were just annoyed with yourself as you cried. Aggressively tearing Billie's hands off your face and whipping the tears off your face so hard that it burned and was sure to leave red marks. It wasn't Billie's fault, but at the same time, it was.
Why did she have to be so perfect? So beautiful, caring, funny, and loving. Shit.
"Hey, hey," Billie quickly protested as you swatted her hands away from your face. Her expression hardened as she watched you roughly rub at your face.
Billie didn't know what to do. You had just roughly swatted at her hands, which was something you never did to her, and now you were practically rubbing at your face like you were trying to rid it.
She was stunned. Confused. Worried beyond measure. She had never seen you like this before.
"Y/N. Look at me," she firmly demanded.
Billie gently gripped your wrists in order to get you to stop rubbing at your face. Her grip was firm but gentle. She wasn't going to let you bruise or hurt yourself any further.
The concern was obvious in her voice as she spoke, eyes never leaving your own.
"Stop. Look at me. Now."
And so you did. Your face burned as your hands were pulled away from the aggressive actions. Your breathing was fast and uneven.
Panic and anxiety pooling throughout your mind and body. Your hands were shaking ever so slightly in Billie's hands out of worry.
You looked into Billie's eyes with a look of sorrow and fright.
You didn't want to lose her. You wanted her. You needed her.
Billie could feel your hands shaking in her grip, the subtle tremors telling her just how worried and scared you were.
Your facial expression broke her heart, seeing you look so frightened and saddened all because of her.
She couldn't stand seeing you like this anymore. Seeing you in such distraught all because of something she did. Even if she didn't realize it hurt you so much. She just wanted to soothe you and tell you it would be okay.
"Y/N," she softly spoke, gently rubbing her thumbs over your wrists.
And in that moment, Billie looked at you with so much worry and empathy. It was literally living proof that she had to have felt sort of the same way.
She was perfect for you.
Billie's all you ever needed.
It was quiet, the background noise of the TV was the only thing heard along with both of your breathing. You don't know why you did it, but you surged forward.
Your lips ended up on Billie's. They were soft and sweet. It felt like a warm embrace. And you needed more.
The sudden kiss caught her off guard as your lips landed on her own.
Billie swore her heart stopped.
For a few seconds, she couldn't bring herself to respond. But then, as she felt you press against her more, her body took over, acting on its own.
Billie's brain finally registered what was happening, the events finally setting in.
You were kissing her.
You were kissing her.
And she couldn't bring herself to pull away.
Billie's hands let go of your wrists in order to move to your waist, gently pulling you into her lap. She needed you even closer.
Billie slowly tilted her head more to the side in order to deepen the kiss, trying to get more of you. Your lips were so smooth and soft against her own, and the way you pressed up against her had her head feel fuzzy.
Her hand traveled to gently grip your chin in order to tilt your head down, a perfect angle for her to deepen the kiss even further.
Billie's heart was beating faster. It was going at a speed that was way too fast, her body was practically quivering with excitement in your presence.
She continued to meet your eager movements with her own, tongue slipping out to tease against the seam of your lips. Begging entrance.
A moan slipped past your lips into the kiss. Not out of lust. But out of satisfaction. And eagerness.
Your hands rested on her shoulders, gripping harshly and not wanting to let go. One hand travelling to the back of her head to scrunch her hair in between your fingers.
"I love you."
Your voice was whiny and desperate. You needed Billie to know.
Billie's breath hitched at the sound of the moan coming from you. The little noise alone sent a chill down her spine.
She couldn't stop the low whimper that escaped her own throat with your soft, yet rough, grip in her hair and on her shoulders. And when she felt the words of love come from your lips, her entire body shivered.
"Say it again," she murmured against your lips, her grip on your waist tightening somewhat as she pulled you closer to her.
"I love you."
Your body was hot, and your lips were eagerly molding into Billie's. Your hand on her tightened as the words left your lips.
Tongue tracing along her bottom lip, waiting to be let into where you both needed each other most.
The sound of you repeating those three words again had her entire body going weak. It was all she wanted to hear from you. The one thing she was too scared to ask for.
But you were right here. In her lap. Begging her with your tongue.
Billie quickly granted your mouth access, granting your tongue with entrance between her lips. Her own tongue quickly tangled with yours, relishing the sweetness and heat of your mouth.
Billie's hands moved from your waist, her hands roaming over your body eagerly. She needed to touch you. She needed to feel every inch of you. To feel the heat of your body and the sound of every sweet moan coming from your lips.
Her brain was hazy and fuzzy. All she could focus on was how you felt against her. How you tasted and sounded and felt.
Her hands continued to grip you tightly, not wanting to let you go. Her heart was pounding, and her mind was going fuzzy as she continued to kiss you. It was like nothing she had ever felt before.
She had never wanted a kiss so badly. Never craved someone's touch so much. You were the sweetest, hottest, best thing she's ever had.
Billie pulled back, her eyes taking in your appearance for a few quick moments. Then, without warning, she began to kiss at your jaw and neck.
A scratchy moan slipped past your lips as you separated from her lips. Her lips are wet and harsh on your skin. It's exactly all you've ever wanted. Needed.
Billie continued to kiss at your neck, sucking and biting at the sensitive skin, desperate to hear more sounds from you. She needed to know how much you wanted her as much as she wanted you.
Her hands gripped your hips tight, holding you in place so you wouldn't pull away from her.
"Are you mine? Please. Tell me." she quietly whispered against your skin, the neediness in her voice hard to hide. It came out in a moan. She was hot and desperate. You had no choice but to whine in response.
"Yes."
You'd never sounded more desperate and eager to please her. You wanted her to know that you were hers. You wanted her to know that you were hers to please.
To destroy.
To love.
The simple yet firm word coming from your lips satisfied her more than anything. Hearing you agree that you were hers had butterflies in her stomach.
"You're mine," she continued to murmur against your skin, leaving open-mouthed kisses behind as she went.
She wanted to mark you, leave behind proof that you belonged to her. "All mine, all mine," she repeated again, her voice becoming possessive.
Her mouth continued its assault on your neck and jawline. She left love bites of different sizes, covering most of the skin she could reach. She wanted you to wake up the next day and notice the marks with pride. She wanted you to see just how much you were loved, and she wanted others to see just how taken you were.
Billie's teeth gently grazed over your sweet spot, her tongue darting out to tease the sensitive skin.
Your mind was hazy and hot with all the attention. Your core throbbed from the attention. The cloth that covered your core grew damp and uncomfortably sticky with Billie's doings.
Billie's mouth continued to kiss and suck at your neck, her tongue licking and teasing the sensitive skin. The little gasps and moans she was drawing out of you were driving her crazy.
She could feel the heat coming from you, and it was driving her mad. The thought of you wanting and needing her as bad as she wanted and needed you had her heart racing.
Billie leaned back from your neck to get a look at your face. Her eyes landed on you, drinking in your flushed expression.
Both of your breathing was heavy as you both locked eyes. Lust, love, and eagerness lacing through the two of y'all's eyes.
As Billie took in your expression, she swore that her heart skipped a beat. All she saw in your eyes was raw, pure lust and love.
She couldn't tear her gaze from your own, and the heavy breaths that came from the both of you only added to the feeling of tension.
Billie's hands began to glide up and down your sides, needing to touch more of you. Her fingers gently pressed into your rib cage, as if she didn't want to let you go.
She wanted you closer, more. She needed to be connected with you. To see how you felt.
"I need you," she breathed, her eyes never leaving yours. "I need you, all of you."
"Have me."
Please.
"Take me."
Yes. It came out of your mouth just as you wanted it to.
Needy. Hot. Truthfully.
It was like a cry and plea for Billie to please you and reassure you that all the two of you needed were each other.
"I will, I will," she breathlessly repeated as she looked at you. Her fingers tightened around your waist, gripping the flesh as the need in her voice took over.
She was desperate. So, so, desperate for you.
Without warning, Billie swiftly picked you up in her arms and turned you around, now with you on your back and her hovering above.
Billie's knee was now between your legs and pushing up. Her body now pressed completely against yours, their chests only separated by a thin layer of fabric.
She was close. So close. And all she wanted to do was feel you. Every inch. Every part. All of you was for her to have. And no one else's.
Billie leaned down, the tip of her nose gently grazing along the skin of your neck once again.
As she teased her way across your skin, your hands trailed between the two of you, and you started unbuttoning Billie's pants. Your nails scrape softly against the skin just below her belly button.
Your knuckles being met with her soft, warm skin.
A small gasp escaped her lips at your cold fingers and nails gently scraping over her belly. Her skin instantly prickled with a set of goosebumps at the feeling. It made her shiver.
But she didn't protest your actions.
Billie wanted this just as much as you did.
She continued to gently nibble and kiss at your neck as she felt her pants being unbuttoned, letting you do as you wanted.
While you were hers.
She was also yours.
Her body leaned forward more, her knee now pushing directly between your legs. The slight pleasure now shooting up through your core.
Billie was going crazy, and all you did was undo her pants. She needed you.
Billie slowly started traveling her kisses down the side of your neck, her tongue slowly tracing your collar bone before she continued her descent.
Billie's pants were now unbuttoned but that's all your hands could manage to do. You laid there panting as she kissed her way down your body.
You felt Billie's hands come into contact with the hem of your shorts, slowly pulling them down. Her cold rings splaying on your warm skin.
Her hands pulled down the hem of your shorts, revealing more of the pale skin of your legs. Her calloused hands gently gripping the skin of your thighs as she continued to kiss further down your chest and stomach.
Slowly, she pulled your shorts the rest of the way down, leaving you only in your underwear. Billie sat up for a moment, taking in the sight of your body.
Your skin so smooth, and your form so perfect. She was in love.
Billie's hands gently massaged along the inside of your thighs, her fingers tracing over the skin softly.
She then glanced up at your face, a smirk now on her lips. "God, you're so beautiful like this," she whispered, her hands trailing their way further up the inside of your thighs.
You looked at Billie with so much love and lust. You loved the way her eyes scanned your body. The way she adored everything she saw.
Billie continued to look at you, never glancing away. "So pretty Y/N." she said.
Her fingers reached the hem of your underwear and started to gently pull the material down.
"All mine," she then repeated under her breath, as if it was more of a reminder to herself.
With one hand on your hip and the other on your thigh, she leaned down and began tracing open-mouthed kisses along the inside of your thighs.
Billie wanted to feel and taste every inch of you. She wanted to know how sweet you were.
And she was going to find out.
As she lowered her head between your thighs, you held her head gently. Looking down at her with so much love. So much adoration.
The kisses continued to travel up your thigh, making their way closer and closer to where you wanted her most.
Billie's free hand continued to gently massage your thigh, her fingers tracing little patterns into the skin while she took her time getting closer.
"I love you," she muttered against your leg, the words coming out rough and desperate.
"Billie," You whined softly, looking down at her. Wanting and needing her mouth on your core.
Your whimpers sent a shiver up her spine. She loved the way you said her name. The way it came out as though it was the only word you could speak.
Billie wanted to draw more of those sounds out of you, and it seemed she was getting exactly what she wanted.
Her kisses only continued to travel higher, getting closer and closer.
"Be patient," she said, her voice low and soft against your skin.
And soon, finally, her mouth was where you wanted it the most.
Her tongue gently licked your core, tracing around the sensitive skin. Her free hand gently slid over your thigh, her fingers digging into the flesh.
Billie was going crazy. You tasted so sweet. Better than how she could have imagined. She loved the way you squirmed and gasped and gasped her name.
Her tongue continued to lick and explore, finding all the places that made you gasp the loudest.
She needed to hear more. Needed to feel more of you on her mouth.
Between the sweetness and the heat, she was losing herself. Everything was getting blurry. All she could focus on was you.
You couldn't help but let a cry out at the pleasure. Her wet mouth sucked and swirled on your throbbing core.
The sounds of her wet, lewd actions filled the room along with your moans.
She separated from your core for a split second and looked up at you with her beautiful blue eyes you fell in love with.
"I love you."
'I love you too."
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fer yaps!!!
yay!
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ominous-horse-noises · 4 months
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im ab to be annoying ab dimension20 fhjy but im genuinely loving the character arcs for the bad kids this season?
kristen going from self-annihilatingly stupid to trying to build a genuine bridge with the man who not only wielded the religion that traumatised her (bobby dawn), but also was trying to ruin her life, just bc she thought a grieving father ought to be comforted in some way? her genuine distress at being unable to revivify buddy even though the two had only had negative interactions, or her biting her tongue in front of her parents so she could better look after her little siblings? grappling with the fact that she still, on some level, expected practising religion to be easy and convenient for her as a holdover from an entire childhood spent being a Chosen One, and finally putting her nose to the grindstone and committing to working her ass off for a deity that couldn't even benefit her for a hot minute? making an effort to be cordial with tracker's new gf and letting go of that codependency? the kristen applebees from ep20 would NOT do all the same stupid shit as ep1 and i love that.
fabian being humbled by the narrative again and again has been an absolute treat for his character. the whole ivy/mazey situation was great: freshman/sophomore year fabian would've gone for ivy no sweat, i mean her character seemed pretty similar to pre-redemption aelwyn and he had a huge crush on her then. but this time, when he realised he'd hurt a genuinely great person, and intentionally swallowed his pride to make it up to mazey, even though it required him being 'uncool' with the whole twister thing. his general arc of learning that earnestness and humility doesn't make him less of a man felt like a natural extension of fabian defining his own version of masculinity- sure, a 'maximum legend', but also someone deeply involved in the arts, and someone who is less afraid of saying sorry and being vulnerable in front of someone he likes
fig. fig fig fig. what a woman. its been absolutely fascinating watching build her sense of identity over these three seasons. at her core, fig is a character that loves so deeply. in freshman, she was terrified of the depth of her own devotion, so she tried to distance herself emotionally from everyone. in sophomore, she built herself around that love for other people. in junior year, fig's arc has been learning she can do both: that she's defined by her love for others, but not solely by it. ik emily wanted to retire the character before this season but i think fig's paladin arc was the best capstone to her journey possible.
gorgug's arc has been about establishing clear boundaries for himself and i love it. im aware there's been some Discourse ab the mango soda scene but to me that was pretty easily chalked up to teenage insecurity. a big part of gorgug's arc was trying to believe in himself when everyone around him told him he was too dumb to follow his passion- imagine struggling in an area that you have no natural aptitude for, and someone comes along and also trounces you in the one area you thought you were the best in. i'd be petty and reactive too (gorgug follows up calling her a freak with the fact that she beat the shit out of him, so its clearly him just still smarting from a bruised ego and not actual malice). in general, i've really like gorgug learning to put his foot down and say enough is enough without completely losing his gentleness.
adaine hasnt had an obvious arc, but considering she addressed most of her baggage in the first two seasons, i'm not surprised. i would've liked to see the other bad kids address her 'teenage adult' behaviour, but her self-awareness about it and relying on fabian to pull in clutch for the oracool stuff still felt like she'd learned to rely on her friends at least + her reaching out to aelwyn and the two of them healing from their parents together has been rewarding it its own right.
riz is perfect and has learned nothing. his neuroticism is part of his natural swag
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ckret2 · 1 month
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How did you come up with your human Bill design?
I described my goal in the first post I made about his design:
After seeing dozens of tall dapper skinny white twinky anime boy Bills, I wanted a design that matches none of those words. My other two goals were to use the show’s art style; and to lightly pay homage to Alex Hirsch’s “canon” human Bill with the triangle body… except not deliberately hideous.
My unspoken final goal was "and I'm gonna make him damn good looking."
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All the colors were sampled from Bill & Bipper, except his skin (which I sampled off a background character and tweaked until it looked good with the yellows) and his gold tooth (which I sampled off of Ergman Bratsman's).
On top of the fact that I was tired of specifically white dude Bills, brown skin tone was chosen because of the emphasis on Bill's interactions with ancient Egypt; I wasn't sure at the time how much of an influence I was gonna headcanon he had on the region, and it woulda felt weird depicting Egyptians bowing down to a white dude. (And then I decided to deemphasize his influence on Egypt almost completely lol.) It woulda been more accurate to go darker, but I was worried it would start to tilt his design into Nyarlathotep-esque Creepy Pitch-Skinned Mysterious Demonic Threat From The Orient racist territory, especially when he's already got demon eyes.
The triangular torso is the most important part of his design, I usually draw an equilateral triangle in the sketch layer and then pad it out.
If I were a better artist a year ago, I would have given him a double chin so his head+torso together would be triangular. But when I tried, I couldn't figure out a way to draw it that looked appealing instead of like a mean fat joke. So I took the coward's way out and gave him a skinny neck with a vaguely triangular chin, and now write him complaining about having a neck every few chapters.
I think the skinny neck, thinner face, noodle limbs, and typical baggy hoodie fooled people into assuming he's skinny. I figured out a way to draw a rounder face with less neck that looks more appealing to me than the original face, so I do that now. Can't do anything about the noodle limbs tho, those were chosen to match Bill's canon noodle limbs.
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I went for a hoodie instead of the typical suits you see on human Bills for two reasons.
One: several years ago I had an OC I'd conceived of as a dumb kid who'd given Bill permanent standing permission to use her as a puppet, and when letting Bill take over she'd hide her human features by wearing a hooded poncho and tying a blindfold with an eye on it over the hood, and that idea stuck with me.
And two: for the story I came up with this design for, the premise is that Bill's been recently unhappily stuffed in a human body and dumped on his enemies' doorstep. So, he doesn't have the freedom or money to get fancier clothes; he's too depressed over being stuck in a human body to care much about his human appearance; and he's most comfortable in something that obscures his human anatomy and reminds him of his real form. If he was rich, free, and able to ditch the body any time he wanted, he'd be wearing suits.
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leeknow-thoughts · 2 months
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Your two different versions of Minho made me feel a certain kinda way. God lately this guy has been conjuring up all my thoughts and now, after having read that fic of yours I can't stop thinking about him even more 😭
I hope you write an entire fic on that topic someday. Imagine him losing his shit and going from mommy to minho and just being deliciously mean when oc cries out the wrong name. 😭
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA this awakened something in me my dear anon and OH MY GOD THIS IS THE HOTTEST THING EVER AND YEAH I INITIALLY WROTE LIKE A PARAGRAPH AND THEN WAS LIKE YEAH THIS NEEDS ITS OWN DRABBLE SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS MY DEAREST ANON :3 also @yongbun bc I think she'd like :3
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୨୧ MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE
𝝑𝝔 cw : soft!Dom Minho (referred to as mommy), mean!Dom Minho (referred to as Minho), spanking, clit play, porn no plot, one face slap, pussy slapping, degrading, uhhh guys I think that's it??
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"Say ah, jagi," the devilish tone of Minho's voice paired with his almost piercing gaze is pointed at you has you dripping, waiting for you to open your mouth, a command that you're quick to obey. You're on your knees in front of him, he's sitting on your couch, one of his hands running through your hair, the other's fingers finding homage in your awaiting mouth.
"Mommy," you groan against his fingers, "mommy pl-please t-touch me?"
"Aw, sweet girl," Minho coos, "you want mommy to touch your drippy kitty parts?"
You're nodding your head so fast you're sure it's going to fall off. "C'mere," he hums, patting the space next to him on the couch, removing his fingers from your mouth and watching as you crawl onto the couch next to him.
"Lay your head on my lap, jagi," he instructs with the softest voice, "c'mon, baby, mommy doesn't bite."
You lay your head on his lap, head so full of Minho, everything about him. Your head is facing up at him, Minho staring down at you with a loving gaze.
His soft skin, his scent, his aura. Minho's hands are slipping past the waistband of your pants and you're slipping into that soft familiar headspace.
Minho's hands are delicate, touching you ever so gently, rubbing your clit with his calloused fingers. It is too much, body writhing around on the couch, trying to grasp everything he'll give you. "Minho!" you're screaming, hands gripping his own, your nails clawing into his soft milky skin.
"You want Minho?" he evilly grins, his hand coming down to slap your cunt.
The sting of the impact setting your nerves ablaze, your whole body curling around his hand, toes curling, eyes squeezing shut. "Open your fucking eyes," he hisses, his spare hand gripping your chin.
When you don't open your eyes he is quick to slap you across the face, not enough to actually hurt you - he wouldn't dare - but just hard enough to remind you of your place. Your eyes are snapping open, staring up at him, your pupils lust blown and fucked out and he hasn't even put his cock in you yet.
"Mommy!" you squeal, fat tears running down your cheeks.
"Ah ah ah, mommy can't help you now, dumb girl," he coos, slapping your cunt yet again, "you wanted Minho, you get Minho."
"Mommy!" you can't help but cry as Minho man handles you.
He has you face down ass up on the couch, you can hear his sweatpants being pulled down before you feel his fat tip pressing into you.
You scream into the pillows as he gives you no time to adjust to his cock, his movements swift and deep in your cunt. "Minho!" you're chanting his name like it's the only one you know and you're positively crying, salty tears running onto the cushions of the couch.
"There you go, jagi," he's groaning, his cock hitting that spot inside you that has you seeing stars, "just take it like the fucking whore that you were made to be."
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kamisama1kiss · 4 months
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Soooooooooooo, can I request for the ninja reaction when they’re caught off guard by a kiss on the cheek?
Like let’s say Lloyd is just doing something and chatting with his partner until his partner kisses him on the cheek suddenly, if you understand what I mean?
I get it, and it will be delivered on a silver plate right about now 🍽 (pretend it's silver)
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The reactions of the suprise cheek kisses + Ninjago Headcanons
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~Lloyd Garmadon~
It was one of those weekly stargazing dates you two would have, laying next to each other in the silence of nature holding hands. It was these moments that he loved. Even more when you surprise kiss his cheek.
Immediately breaks into a boyish smile, looking at them with his pupils' heart-shaped. Ears turning a soft pink with now moving over to simply hugging you, his heart about to busy throughout his ribs.
~Kai Smith~
It could be at any moment, and he would become silent from the affectionate action. His eyebrows raised before returning into a grin, the topic had been long forgotten.
Tilting his head to the side with a little laugh. Even tho he is the master of fire, any affectionate from his lover burns him up so much more. His confidence only falterd for a second after. The look in his eyes says many more words than could be said.
~Cole Brookstone~
Watching a show with Cole was always interesting. He'd always got something to say about how dumb it was but couldn't stop seeing how it went. Of course, being the amazing lover, you are the peck on his cheek immediately stopped another one of his little rants.
Forgetting for a moment why he was ranting, his gaze flickerd to you instead. His calm expression turned rather quickly to a big grin, and he attacked with tickles. Occasionally dropping a small peck on your skin between.
~Zane Julian ~
Zane is cooking this evenings dinner, not really focusing on his surroundings too much other than the food. His lover popping up next to him surprisingly and within seconds placing a peck on his cheek.
Would simply grin happily back to his lover and ask if you wanted to help with anything, leaning over to kiss your cheek rather soon after. He found it cute and would like it to be more often of an acurance.
~Jay Walker~
He could be working on a little machine thing of his own, like usually. Being in his own whole world but being snapped out the second a short peck was planted on his cheek.
Immediately would be hit with the ':0' kind of face, but it would be quickly replaced with a down smile. His face would trun warmer and would stutter just slightly when talking after. Let's just say his focus is solely on his lover and what they wanted to talk about.
~Nya Smith~
The duo was talking together about machines, powers, and any sort of topic that came to mind, laughing amongst themselves. They moved over and gave her a short peck on her left cheek.
It was easily picked up that Nya had been stunned for a moment, looking at her lover with a surprised expression. Taking it as a small challenge as now randomly she'd kiss their cheek mid conversation.
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illubean · 4 months
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Lmao crack request: How much/What kind of stupid shit would it take for hxh bois to divorce/kill their spouse or come close to it
Like a spouse that meets all their other requirements, But is just an absolute moron in the most mundane ways (confusing salt with sugar, forgoting their birthday/dates, cannot be trusted around open flame, will eat thing they're not supposed to if left alone, tripping in pulic and embarrassing them.)
Chrollo, Illumi, and Machi(Plus anyone else you want honestly)
What Would Make HXH Characters Kill/Divorce You
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Characters: Illumi Zoldyck, Chrollo Lucilfer, Machi Komacine
IM BACK!! or am i (smirk emoji)
Warnings: killing and divorce duh
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Illumi Zoldyck
it already takes a lot for Illumi to even consider being with someone so I'd imagine it would take a lot for him to kill you
divorce is not and never will be an option for this man
its either you are married forever or he is killing you
the only way I can see him killing you is if you cheat or pose some sort of threat to the family
and even if you did cheat he's more likely to kill the other person than you...
honestly if you act up he'd probably just lock you in a basement or something
you must have some crazy redeeming qualities for this guy to be with you because why the hell are you so dumb
he probably uses your idiocy against you
as in he manipulates you..
you don't pick up on it obviously but you're generally happy so i guess it doesn't matter
ignorance is bliss i guess
Chrollo Lucilfer
poor Chrollo
he already has a whole troupe to run and has to hide from the cops and whatnot
but now he has a dumb ditzy s/o? lord help him
a part of him lwky likes that you're so stupid but the other part of him...not so much
like aww you depend on him but also Oh my god you can't be left alone.
you stress this man OUT
i don't think he could ever get to the point of considering marrying you stupid or not
his live is too busy to be tied down like that
also since he likes you in the first place I don't think he'd ever have it in him to kill you
unless you were like a serious threat or something
he lightly pokes fun at you for your lack of spatial awareness like when you walk into poles or trip over something that was easily avoidable
but it does get tiring having to yank you out of the way of oncoming traffic or trying to stop you from wandering off
Machi Komacine
Machi is very level headed so I doubt she'd kill you over anything dumb
and she has sharp intuition so I doubt she'd marry you in the first place if she felt there was room for divorce
but she's very loyal to the Troupe and Chrollo so that being said, if you pose a threat to them she might kill you
but if somehow you guys get married and she doesn't realize how stupid you are before she's definitely realizing it now
it takes a long time of little things for her to actually divorce you
like wtf do you mean you ate her wax melts because they looked like chocolate? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDN'T KNOW YOU HAVE TO CHECK EXPIRATION DATES???
she's surprised you haven't accidentally killed yourself yet
her breaking point is when you tried making instant ramen in the microwave
With no water.
You ended up setting it on fire.
she stares blankly into the flaming appliance and says flatly "I want a divorce"
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skzimagines · 2 months
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"A love story."
It was no secret that Hwang Hyunjin was in love. He hadn't meant to tell anyone, but he writes it in his poetry, paints it in his pictures, talks about it when his mind drifts off about her and doesn't ever realize he's even doing it.
He pictured their lives together, how perfect they would be. How perfect he would make sure to make it. He'd give her the moon if he could. Buy her a beautiful house, with a perfect garden, give her beautiful children, even a huge, family-oriented wedding. Anything for her. She'd name it and he'd get it for her. There was just one thing though....
She didn't feel the same.
It's not that she didn't "like" Hyunjin. He is sweet, caring, artistic and of course beautiful. She just knew she was way out of his league. He was a straight A student, a perfect dancer... hell, the guy knew how to paint like Van Gough.... just for fun! And she was struggling to get good grades, barely made it through the year without calling it quits.
Even if she thought she had a chance with him, it was quickly swept under the rug by the thought of him being able to find so much better.
The two shared friend groups, so they were often times around each other. Which Hyunjin loved and to which she hated... not because he was around, but because she fell for him more and more every time, she was within two feet of him.
The group decided to have a picnic at the nearby park, since everyone had the day off. Getting together was next to impossible these days.
"You're going to fall on your face, idiot!" "I am proud to let you know... Iam very good with my hands!" Changbin and Han bicker back and forth as Changbin hangs from the monkey bars upside down. His face turns red from being in the position for longer than he should have been. "Just get down, cause we're not going to the hospital if you get hurt. I want to go home." Han laughs.
Further down the lawn, where they've laid out a blanket in the grass, setting all of their things together. Sits Hyunjin and y/n. Everyone has ran along and started their own things, leaving the two behind.
"Do you ever think they'll stop bickering?" She chuckles, asking Hyunjin. "Probably, maybe when pigs learn to fly." His face contorts into a disgusted look, embarrassed by his dumb reply. She makes him nervous. Being around her caused his heart to race, palms to sweat and his brain to become a straight fog.
He looks down at the paper that's sitting in his lap, taking in the beautiful drawing that he's made of her, for the past 30 minutes. He takes in every detail of her features and pastes them into the drawing. But somehow, it's never as good as the real her. It's almost as if her beauty is unattainable by any means.
"Whatcha working on?" She asks him, moving closer to try and get a look at his book. Hyunjin quickly pulls his book away with a quick "Don't look!" She slowly backs away from him with her hands in the air in defeat. He shuts his drawing book and sets it beside him. "It... It's just not done yet. It's not even that good." He scrambles to say, giving her a small smile.
"Hyunjin, come look at this!" Felix yells from the other side of the park. He looks at her to which she gives him a small smile. He stands from his spot on the blanket and makes his way to Felix.
She notices the small black book on the blanket. Left right where Hyunjin has left it. She looks over to Hyunjin, seeing his distracted with whatever Felix has found fascinating. She knows it's wrong, that she shouldn't look inside of it. But she grabs the small black book anyway.... sifting through the pages. She comes across many photos of flowers, thinking to herself that it must be his favorite thing to draw, considering the number of drawings of them.
That's until she comes across another set of very interesting photos... Her. A drawing of her from a few weeks ago, when they were all hanging out at the beach together. She flips the page to see another, this time it's from a few days ago, sitting in the library where she thought she was the only one there. She flips the page one more time, revealing the picture Hyunjin had been so quick to hide from her. It was her, sitting on the blanket, hair being tussled in the small breeze. Her finger slowly slides against the lines of the drawing, taking it all in.
A sudden scream from Changbin scares her from her thoughts and she quickly shuts the book and sets it back down. "Everything okay?" She asks him. "Yup! I fell..." He says in defeat, laying on the ground under the monkey bars. "I told you to get down bro, you never listen." Han says, walking away from him.
She looks over at Felix and Hyunjin and sees he's making his way back to the blanket. She gives him a small smile when he arrives back and watches as he picks up his black book and pencil, before he looks up at her and sees her starring. "Everything okay?" He asks. She smiles at him before giving a small nod. "Everything is perfect.." She replies quietly, before sitting back into the position he was drawing her in.
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Can u give me ur full thoughts on Alex? I feel like a lot of the shit he gets is unjustified. Yeah he says some sus things to the farmer (no matter what gender you are!) but that's only because he's horribly mislead. The man just doesn't know any better. I mean think about it. Abused and neglected, lacking good male role models, and he's got no friends in town except for maybe Haley and you know how she is. If she was told "you're probably not into sports" she'd say "ew no" because sports would get her all dirty.
I always saw him as just a loner-type guy who doesn't know how to talk to people. Spent too much time trying to develop his cringe ass macho man persona that he forgot to develop social skills. I don't think that makes him a bad person though. I could honestly talk for hours about how toxic masculinity is a monster that preys on young boys and eats them alive if they're not careful. But even with societal pressure being so intense, growth is possible. Alex is still a massive sweetie in my eyes. A big dumb doofus who loves his granny and wants to lift heavy things just to impress you.
I would love your thoughts though!!
#1 Alex fan anon ⚡️
Yeah. That's basically more or less my thoughts😅
It honestly depends on what you experience that can greatly color Alex's character
This might be one of my more controversial takes
(right next to being a Clint apologist💀)
but stick with me here-
If you grow up in a similar environment to most guys, you can understand why Alex is the way they are. It's not exactly easy to be soft or mindful when you have a harsh environment around you. Many guys end up coping with repressed thoughts and feelings in unique ways to soothe themselves. I think Alex's was sports. (Idk just a hunch) but it often leads to a lot of blind spots or misunderstandings of the world.
I've seen a lot of people like Alex and I've had a couple of friends in high school like that too! And I can tell you... yeah... it comes from SOMEWHERE, A lot of them ain't doing so great mentally.
Heck, I do that! Whenever I get uncomfortable with a situation or feelings I don't like, I make jokes to ease my brain. Releses a little serotonin ya know what I mean?
Not all coping mechanisms are bad tho, we kinda have our own form of bond and support that from the outside looks cold and uninviting but I promise you, we would die for our brothers. (plus the cold uninviting part is just a front)
"I know the homie told us to KYS over Roblox but he bought the group Freebirds during the gym session so it's all good!"/j
I can't say much from the other perspective but I would assume they would see Alex as a HUGE BIG RED flag and someone potentially dangerous or someone who brings back bad memories which is why he is dunked on so much. Even if they don't mean it, they have a higher chance of hurting people.
I don't think Alex is THAT type of character at all, I think he has good intentions but as you said "no social skills". I can see why others would interpret that way though.
It's funny that you mention how Alex doesn't have many female role models cuz... you have
Haley- Lazy and super not into dirt.
His mom- got sick and DIED.
Granny Evelyn- frail weak old woman who makes cookies and tends to flowers.
Those are not exactly SUPER GREAT examples of women who like sports.
Personally, I get why people say that playing a male farmer is better for Alex's story arc along with confronting George about the whole being gay thing but I think the female farmer has elements that I don't think are acknowledged much.
From my perspective anyway, I think a Fem farmer shows Alex a better example of women and what they can do VS grandma, dead mom, and Haley... along with learning boundaries and how better cope with repressed feelings and MAYBE-
-even address the fear of the farmer DYING of a sickness just like his mom or the intrusive thoughts of believing he'll end up like his father making him overprotective and paranoid about the farmers well being...
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but you can ignore that...
Idk man, that's just the way I view it. You either like Alex or you don't :/
I ain't saying anyone's wrong to feel the way they do
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that fall, annie's new neighbors nick and nina moved in across the hall. "nick and nina," annie would always say when she saw them. "love saying those names together."
they were a couple just slightly older than annie -- probably 30, 31. nina worked in publishing and nick was an architect or something.
annie was a good neighbor--she was quiet--from her days living with robbie she'd adopted the habit of listening to everything from music to podcasts to TV in headphones. her apartment was clean because despite her overall efforts to clean up her drug use, she was not ready to let go of her adderall-fueled weekend cleanup sessions.
because their apartments were the only two on the floor and were shaped as mirror images of each other, their bedrooms shared a wall. this of course meant that annie could hear nick and nina fuck, which was pretty much an every-evening thing. sometimes it was very short--15 minutes or so with very clear climaxes. annie thought of mark and his wife and their focus on making each other cum and getting it over with. but other nights it was long and giggly and rough. one evening, after hearing them clearly wrap up, annie turned on her vibrator.
annie rarely used sex toys--she was truthfully, much better at getting off with her hands. her clit could be so sensitive that she often needed to wear panties to cum with a vibrator. today she put her bedsheet between her wand and her cunt. she sensed a quietness in nick and nina's bedroom. they were listening to her. she had a vocal orgasm - nothing too excessive, but audible. and then she kept going. she heard nina make an impressed noise.
leaving for work the next morning, annie ran into nina in the hallway. nina immediately blushed. annie hovered around deciding between playing dumb and being all-knowing and decided on the latter. "was i too loud last night?" annie asked. "i realized after that you could probably hear me since i can always hear you."
"oh god," nina said, turning a brighter shade of red.
"don't be shy," annie said, putting a hand on nina's shoulder. she felt nina relax into her touch. "that's being neighbors, right?"
"i can tell you're a therapist," nina said. "most people don't say this stuff out loud."
"maybe so," annie said. "well i think it is great that you two have such an active sex life."
nina whispered a shy "thank you" and practically ran from annie down the street.
on the way home, annie ran into nick, who had clearly talked to nina during the day. "hear anything good lately?" he asked her. he gestured at the headphones around her neck, and then grinned.
"sorry if i freaked out your wife," annie said. "but i do really enjoy knowing you two get after it so often."
"every night," he said. "my other friends don't believe me."
"well, i can testify," annie said.
"they've known nina since we were in high school and i think they can't really picture her as sexual."
"do you want them to picture your wife as sexual?" annie said wryly. "is that fun for you?"
he laughed. "kinda, yeah. i mean, everybody likes to brag about their hot partner."
"women like being bragged about," annie said. "even when they protest."
that evening, annie went on a second, long-delayed date with roger. they had drinks, then dinner, and then annie invited roger back to her apartment. she liked watching him reconcile in real time that he was going to fuck his therapist. it put a real pep in his step.
as roger railed annie from behind on her bed, she wondered how hard her headboard was rattling nick and nina's bedroom. the truth was, roger had a modestly-sized cock that he wasn't all that familiar with. the sex was rough and quick, and annie did not have an orgasm, and roger did not offer to get her off after cumming on her back. she politely got him out of her apartment, took a shower, masturbated, and fell asleep naked.
this time, she saw nick in the hallway in the morning. "high five," he said. "we both got laid last night."
"mine was very disappointing," annie said. "small dick, no skill, didn't get me off. you?"
"my wife rode my cock with her tight little shaved pussy while i put my fingers up her ass," he said. "i can't complain."
"nina is shaved, huh?" annie said. "i wouldn't have guessed that."
"she is sometimes," he said. "i like the variety."
"me too," annie said. "i mean, i like variety. and i am also sometimes shaved."
"you have really big tits so guys probably don't even notice your pubes, right?" he said.
"yeah that is not inaccurate," she said.
on the way home, it was nina in the elevator this time. surprisingly, she initiated the conversation.
"older man," she said, looking away. "is that a thing for you?"
"definitely," annie said. "daddy's girl."
nina laughed. "i had a...phase."
"an older man phase?"
"yeah. when i was 16."
"hot," annie said. "how old was he?"
"52," nina said. "my parents were so mad."
"i bet," annie laughed. "was he your first?"
"no," nina said. "i screwed a couple of boys my age first. just to make sure i wasn't missing anything."
"and your older man won out?"
"he had the biggest cock i have ever seen. still. i mean, nick has a very nice one. but this guy was gigantic. i don't think i could have taken him without an elastic teenage pussy."
they were in annie's apartment now. without even communicating it, annie had led her in and poured her a glass of wine.
"tell me more."
"i used to call it climbing mount rushmore, because you know, he was very gray, and it would take like a half hour to get him hard and then like 90 minutes to get him off.
"90 minutes? straight?"
"90 minutes of sucking and fucking. we dated for like five months and by the end of it i was in such good shape. i had amazing abs. he was so perfectly shaped to nail my g spot that i would cum, vaginally, like 6 or 7 times."
"amazing."
"i haven't been able to cum more than twice in a row ever since."
"so why did you break up?"
"his kids came to visit and his daughter found my panties in his bathroom," she said. "and you know, they were like, whatever, something very slutty from victoria's secret at the mall that only a teenager would buy. and his daughter forbid me from seeing him again."
"i hope she was willing to suck his dick for 90 minutes then," annie said.
nina laughed so suddenly she sprayed wine out of her nose. they both laughed. "no joke," nina said. "i called her and said something like that. she was like 22, which is so funny because at the time she seemed like an adult. but i was like, 'well who is gonna fuck your dad now, you?' and she said, 'maybe.' which made me feel like I lost the argument."
"kinda hot," annie said.
nina looked warily at her. "yeah i know," she said. "but that's a very therapist thing to think about. how all women want to kill their moms and take their place?"
"yeah i think that's universal," annie said. "although i do finally get along with my mom now."
"maybe there's hope for me," nina said. "i fucking hate my mother."
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So... how would the scene play out with Azure helping MK, Mei, and reincarnated Peaches go? Would he take the opportunity to yoink Peaches with Sun Wukong and/or Macaque trapped in the scroll (if that even happens)?
Or if he successfully becomes Jade emperor would he let the power get to his head and hold Peaches captive?
These are just some scenarios that have crossed my mind, feel free to ignore!
ooooohoohoo skye i love your questions
we'll just go with modern twice as bad au, to keep this relatively simple. it takes place in the lmk timeline; wukong and macaque are big bad guys, mk was raised by wukong and looks naturally like his monkey self, reader in the current era is a reincarnation of the reader from the past who was killed whilst on the journey with her two demon husbands, said husbands have been intermittently causing trouble and flirting with her every chance they get. reader works at pigsys alongside mk as the cashier/other delivery person, and is friends with the gang.
so, i imagine this is happening after the final lbd fight, but in this au wukong and macaque are also big bads, so their helping to defeat her is more because mk asked than out of any sense of heroism. they're still very much evil, they insist, and after that little bout of heroism they go back to being the bastards everyone knows them as. buuuut just a bit more tolerant of mk's friends (mostly because reader has influenced them with kindness bit by bit up to this point, shoujo-protagonist-style).
wukong invites reader to come to the mountain with mk after his monster-of-the-week battle with the twin metal demons in order to "help them organize" all the junk the kid is bringing home. really, he just wanted to get reader to the mountain so he could see her again and tease her (maybe she inadvertently admitted to finding him attractive in a heated moment the last time they met, during the big battle. like, telling him to get his big dumb handsome head in the game or smth idk). macaque joins in on the teasing too, of course.
mk, ever oblivious to his caretakers blatantly flirting with his coworker, opens the memory scroll by mistake. it almost gets him, if not for macaque quickly grabbing him by the back of his shirt and tossing him out of the way. unfortunately, this means the six-eared demon is absorbed into the ink. mk turns to wukong for help, and is firmly told to take reader and run. wukong stops a strike from the ink entity before being absorbed as well. reader and mk call out for them, but run for their lives until they get beyond the scrolls reach.
they go back later with their friends, the gang excluding mei get absorbed, and they're saved by a lion demon who introduces himself as azure.
the newcomer pauses when he looks at reader, a strange, stricken look crossing his features, almost as if he recognizes her. he looks like he wants to say something...but the moment passes and he continues his introduction. the two teens insist on going to save their friends (kinda ignoring reader's concerned voice in the bg), and he eventually agrees to help them.
the monkey demon boy and dragon girl go into the scroll (with the same reckless excitement they display in every other aspect of their lives), leaving reader behind with an unfamiliar demon. the distrust must show on her face, because said demon maintains his distance with the promise that he means her no harm.
azure tries to reassure reader, and offers to answer the many questions he's sure she has.
azure would explain the story a bit more in depth to reader (spinning it in his favor, of course). he would tell her the truths the monkey demons are hesitant to say; how reader's previous incarnation was a captive wife to the so-called great sage and his general, how monstrous the two really were, just how much bloodshed and chaos they caused... even when in service of the great monk.
reader is stunned—but not as surprised as she thought she'd be. anyone who pays even the slightest mote of attention to the world around them could tell you about just how much trouble the infamous monkey king is responsible for. kidnapping and hostage-taking seems tame in comparison.
when azure tells her point-blank who she used to be, reader goes silent. she's always felt a strange pull in her chest whenever she's around wukong and macaque. like she wants to get closer, but also wants to run as far away from them as she can. it's sobering to know why. she feels something similar when she looks at azure, she admits.
he chuckles fondly at her. it makes sense, he says, they used to be close after all. among the monkey king's allies, he was the only one who befriended the human queen of flower fruit mountain. azure assures her that her previous self was a kind person, that she had many friends who mourned her passing; himself included. reader says nothing, too stunned to speak.
azure lion rises from where he sits, stating that he must move the ritual site to his own home in order to bring the many victims of the scroll safely out. reader insists that she go with him. no offense, but i don't trust you with them, she says. azure chuckles, agreeing that blindly trusting someone you've just met wouldn't be very sensible. the two travel to camel ridge, and azure gives reader a tour.
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sometime later, mk and mei bring each of their friends back to their present selves. they manage to free themselves as well (after mk has an...enlightening encounter with the scrolls' curse about his human half). they learn some interesting things about their past selves, and their many foes. they break themselves out of the scroll and confront azure about everything they've seen.
azure is holding reader hostage. the lion pins reader to his chest, and she struggles in vain to escape his grip. she yells, hurriedly telling them that azure isn't a good guy, he—! the lion moves his paw over her mouth. his expression is grim as she claws at the appendage.
the gang barely hold back from attacking him, not wanting to hurt reader in the process. though mei stubbornly tries to land a strike at the lion's head, getting knocked back.
azure says he didn't want to do it this way, but...he can't have anyone messing up his plans.
perhaps he puts reader into a scroll peice, right before the very eyes of her friends.
they stand horrified as she dissapears. azure glances at the scroll peice, tracing the characters of reader's name with his eyes. his expression softens a bit. he delivers his monologue to the gang, azure frees his brothers, they attempt to fight, the gang flees when their weapons are taken. they hate to leave reader behind, but... they're outmatched.
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reader is forced to relive key moments in her past life as captive queen of the monkey king and the six-eared macaque. she learns more about them than she ever thought she would (way, way more; some of those memories were spicy 👀). she begins to understand why they treat her like they do, despite her seemingly being just another of mk's friends.
she plans on confronting them about it once she's been freed.
meanwhile, the gang is training and getting better, trying to figure out how to get both reader and wukong's scroll peices back. reader's peice is better hidden than wukong's, and so it'll be more difficult to recover. they have no idea where macaque's peice is, but one mystic monkey on their side is better than none. they know the two warlords are their best bet for defeating azure and the brotherhood.
thanks to some quick thinking, somewhat of a plan, and a whole lotta luck, the gang recovers wukong's scroll peice. they repair it, and it only takes a bit of prying from mk to get him out. the ginger-furred demon really doesn't like dwelling on his memories.
the rage radiating off the newly-freed monkey king is palpable. the hatred he feels for his once-allies is a force all on its own. now, mk and the gang just need to unleash it.
everyone is on edge during the battle, choosing to keep their distance and do their part while monkey king and mk fight azure. wukong demands to know where reader is. what have they done with her? if they laid even a single hand on her their lives are forfeit, he promises. he and azure fight for a while, trading jabs and airing out their grievances... to kinda everyone? the friends never would've guessed monkey king had romantic drama, but here they are.
it's likely they don't get reader's scroll peice back until later. i imagine macaque, after being freed (maybe it's revealed he was never trapped at all and it was just a trick; he sank into a shadow, not the ink, and that's why they don't see him in the scroll; watching and waiting for the right time to strike), sneaking into the jade palace to find her. he knows that the lion would keep her someplace he thinks she won't be in danger of being broken. when mac does find her (hidden by the throne, wrapped in a part of the lions' old cape), he handles the scroll peice as gently as glass, pressing it to his chest as he leaves the palace. he'll be the one to bring her out. he was her favorite, after all.
(kinda phoning in this part cause ive run outta steam)
the big battle happens, the gang defeats azure, they kill him, it's real sad, things sorta go back to normal. i imagine that wukong, macaque, and reader will have to have a long talk about everything.
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we want the work blowout deets
I'll give you the tea but it will be lengthy and I'm going to cry.
Thank you for asking anon. To be honest with you I've been crying in bed about it for the past couple hours. I stood up just now and went to the bathroom and saw two big wet patches on my smiley face tshirt and it sucks so much. I'm so sad.
I could really use some feedback on this situation to be honest. OK. So the long story short is that I got a new supervisor a year ago and my work life has been hell ever since. First off, she doesn't understand what I do. She's never done my job. And she is THE micromanager from hell. For the first 7 months of the year she had me turning in a time card every week showing everything I did down to 5 minute increments. I turn the spreadsheet in on Friday, then every Monday we'd have a meeting where she'd tell me she just doesn't understand how I use my time. Why did it take so long to do X amount of invoices? She estimates it should take 2 minutes per invoice, but it took me 4 minutes per invoice. Like I said she knows nothing about my job and as many times as I've explained it she still "doesn't get it." It was demoralizing, nerve wracking, and frankly so insulting to my competence that I went to her boss (my old supervisor who I love). When she did nothing I went to HR with serious concerns about discrimination----it's no coincidence that I was granted some medical leave at the beginning of the year to address mental health concerns.
Yada yada yada, we made some changes and I don't have to turn in the spreadsheet anymore, but she is still making me email her every week with a list of tasks I didn't complete from the week before. It's still insulting but at least she agreed I'd only have to do it for another 3 months. Actually she said 1 month, but she's such a bitch that by the next HR meeting she claimed she never said 1 month and switched it to 3 months. She's a fucking moron, reader. She's dead fucking stupid. I really can't stress that enough. Dumb. It took her 15 years to get the position I got within 3 years of starting. The only reason she's where she is is seniority, personal relationships with management, and being a fucking bully. A dumb bully! Telling you how to prioritize your work! She's accused me recently of being unprepared for a meeting---a meeting that I hosted, provided all the material for, wrote all the notes on, fleshing out a new process she told me to start implementing but had zero idea how. She just tosses ideas at me and I'm left to figure out any kind of practical way to do it because---AGAIN---she doesn't know how to do my job. There've been other things too. She's a sneak humiliator. She's a button pusher. She's a moron. A big fat ugly moron who looks like Roz from Monster's Inc.
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So on Thursday at 4:30pm, end of the day, suddenly a meeting with HR and this cunt appears on my calendar for 10am Friday (yesterday). I'm like---well here we go. She's either going to fire me or put me on a formal PIP. I'll be honest with you, I'd already decided to quit but I was holding out for my bonus in December. I entered the meeting feeling tranquil. I thought, "Do it. Pull the trigger. I'm ready for the end. Just fire me. Let me go. Release me."
But when the meeting starts it's just a touch base with our HR rep to see how everything is going. Are YOU fucking KIDDING me. Anyone would have thought the same thing I did. Of all the things my supervisor sucks dicks at, communication is the worst of all. She can't even spell. She can't string a sentence together. I mean it's shocking she writes at like a 6th grade level. I've seen emails she sent that are so garbled they are literally incomprehensible.
So I'm PISSED. I express how nerve-wracking the previous evening and all morning had been. We're off to a great start. She lets me know she's going to try to end the email process early. OK good. She tells me she's concerned because I haven't been providing personal feedback to her when prompted. Easy enough to explain: I hate your fucking guts, I'm trying to be a grey rock until I can quit. But I can't say that so I'm just like Alright.
Now here comes the bullshit! 1) She now wants me to ask permission in advance to work on weekends. I'm so overworked and stressed out I work like every weekend and now she wants me to ask her permission for the privilege of working on my day off. Guess who's never working a weekend for this company again. 2) The emails that just contain a list of tasks, right? Was 1 month, now 3 months, etc. She also changed the rules so that I have to provide a count of all the claims I processed across multiple platforms. And well---she just doesn't understand how I processed X number of claims and it took this long. In fact, she said, she counts 8 hours reported on my timecard she can't account for last week.
I lost it. I was openly hostile and belligerent. Fuck this fucking bitch. I cannot work for this vile idiot anymore. I actually used my IRL voice to poke holes in what she was saying and pointing out how fucking stupid it all is. Then she comes at me for not respecting her authority. As a reminder, just minutes before she'd complained about me having no feedback for her.
I left the meeting by refusing offers for additional time with the HR rep. I was in no place. I barely worked the rest of the day I was so upset and I didn't send my email, didn't complete my tasks, and didn't ask her permission to finish it up on the weekend (lol). I don't have another job lined up but this is the last time she's going to question whether I'm just straight up lying on my timecard or some kind of moron. That's it. This is her 100th strike for me.
Now here's why I'm so conflicted. 1) My previous supervisor (now my boss's boss) is going on a leave of absence like THIS WEEK for about a month and a half to treat her cancer. I care about her very much. I don't want to stress her out at the last second like this. 2) My bitch boss is also having a sudden serious health problem requiring her to be at the hospital multiple times a week. 3) On top of that, this stupid fucking cow has to take over my boss's boss's work while she's out for cancer. 4) They are absolutely fucked without me. For me to leave right now is a disaster. Add to that---the one person I manage and have a 100% rock solid relationship straight up told me that she's going to quit at some point and that if I quit she's walking out right behind me. She said this to me unprompted and I discouraged her from quitting. 5) I have a heart. The boss and the boss's boss are both having life problems that are more important than work. I think it's immoral to leave them in the lurch right now. They have serious health problems. As much as I hate my boss, at one point we were friends. My heart is breaking.
So I'm crying in bed. I can't live this way anymore. Toxic work stress has taken over my life. I get so miserable, but then some days it's just a job. It's a job I know how to do. I've been here 6 years. The health insurance is spectacular. I've got nothing lined up. I have adequate savings to get through a couple months of unemployment, but it's no guarantee I'll find a position that suits me in that timeframe. I have all these personal relationships at work (a mistake I will not repeat). I've let this job become part of my identity. I'm getting older. I'm 37 and I'm tired and I'm crazy and I just want peace. This position is fully remote---what if the next guy makes me work in person? My whole life will change. I just want this job to work like it has been for the 5 years before she took over. I'm so sad. I've felt this way so many times.
I want to quit first thing Monday. But I want to offer them the option of staying on until good boss gets back from cancer leave, so long as I don't have to work with illiterate cunt boss any more than is absolutely critical in the meantime. What do you think guys? My heart is breaking.
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AITA for not wanting to be in my cousin's life? This will be long, I'm sorry
I (f19, but this started at 15) have a rough relationship with my family, I don't have a better word to describe them as besides just not the best towards me. But the real issue now is that I don't want to be involved in my cousin's (f8, but this started at 5) life. This sounds very silly, I know, but let me explain. My cousin is physical in how she expresses herself towards me (she likes to throw things at me and hit me and bite me, and I can't do anything about it because I get in trouble if I do). I have a severe nut allergy and there have been multiple times she's been caught trying to smear peanut butter on me or in my mouth while I slept. She likes to tell me she wishes I'd just eat the peanut butter so she'd never have to see me again. She just hates me, honestly (I'm not sure why, I've never hated the kid, I'm not mean to her, none of us have been able to figure out why and when asked she just says she hates me because she hates me)
The house we lived in contained just me, her, my mother, and my uncle. She is not abused by either adult, before anyone asks, she's actually quite spoiled due to the fact that they can't discipline her in any way without risking her being taken away. And I don't hate her at all, I'm bitter about how she treats me, but I know she's only a little kid. However, I just don't like being treated that way. I recently moved out and I told my mother that I didn't want to be part of my cousin's life until she stopped treating me that way. (Info: My mother thinks she treats me this way because she's a kid so she can't vent her anger out on the adults and I was the only other kid she could vent it out on.) My mother thinks I'm being cruel and punishing my cousin, she says I'll regret this choice and that my cousin will be all I have one day so I shouldn't do this. I've tried to explain that I'm not doing it to punish my cousin, it's just not good for my mental health and I can't be around this behaviour anymore. Other family members and family friends have agreed with my mother, but my friends think my decision is right. Since moving out and not going through that every day, I've started to feel better about myself, my depression isn't as bad and I don't have as much anxiety when I go to sleep. That is kinda swaying my decision to me thinking I'm right for choosing this for myself, but I still worry my mother might be right and I might be ruining my cousin's mental health by leaving.
I want to add that I know I'm way older than her, and some of you might be wondering why I don't stand up to her, but I could never do anything to stop her. I spent many years in foster care due to issues with my family (my mother, specifically), and I know that even the littlest thing where I live can get your kid taken from you. If I even raised my voice at her to tell her to stop and she told someone, she could be taken away from my family and I can't do that to her, I know the horrors of foster care. I also have spent most of my life being abused and don't know how to protect myself or defend myself in situations like these. Please keep this in mind when/if you call me pathetic or stupid, trust me I know I am.
Please, I know a lot of you may think this is silly or dumb or bait, but I need to know aita for not wanting to be in my cousin's life?
Reasons I think I might be NTA: I think my decision is good for both of us and I believe I should put mental health first in this case as it can be dangerous in the future if I don't. I don't want to stay longer and end up hating her, she's just a kid and doesn't deserve to be hated.
Reasons I think I might be TA: This could be seen as punishing her, and she might hate me more for it. She's already started being meaner to other kids now that she can't vent it out on me and I'm an adult so I can take it better than one of her classmates could. She might think her behaviour drove me away and blame herself.
What are these acronyms?
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Oil is Thicker the Blood (Part 60)
All she could see was the blurry grey of the bunker walls, her arms and legs moving without her input in a four limbed gallop across the floor of the bunker, all attempts to stop herself lead to such agonizing pain that she'd had to give up the fight for control.
Her tail cracked like a whip behind her, extending her spines as it looked around behind her and ahead of her. It was still early… people were still in their homes asleep, or getting ready to go to work.
Drool pooled out of her mouth as she stopped for a moment, the solver symbol across the whole of her visor, her audio receptors tuned to catch the smallest noise a drone could make.
Need food, can't stop, need food.
Disjointed thoughts entered her head while her consciousness took a back seat, only being able to watch from behind her visor as her body lept up into the ventilation system like a cat into a tree.
She sniffed, picking up the scent of dust that caused her to sneeze before shaking her head, she moved through the vents quickly, until she was able to hear a noise.
“And like… he was being so stupid I just had to tell him!” It was Lizzy’s voice, muffled slightly by how high up she was, and she growled softly before another voice graced her ears.
“I dunno Liz, Thad was just trying to be helpful… in his own dumb way.” It was V, and Uzi peered down from the vents with her head cocked.
Lizzy was laying on the bed, V was behind her, braiding her long hair, her tail coiled around Lizzy’s leg. Uzi sniffed.
Oil and old parchment, that was V. Marked as a packmate in her systems. The accompanied scent of cherries and coolant had to be Lizzy… also marked as a packmate, affiliated as V's mate. She huffed and moved on.
It was strange, being a passenger in your own body, even stranger was registering thoughts that didn't seem to come from her, she wasn't even aware of a ‘packmate’ system until her… body? solver possessed self? went through and checked it.
There were definitely thought processes happening though, a method. Not just a feral, all consuming killing spree.
More voices…
“Sorry… I'm not interested.”
“Aww come on…”
“No. Chloe.”
Thad, that was a voice she recognized, checking through her system again, she was half-surprised to find he was listed as a packmate as well. But the other one… the other one definitely wasn't.
“You assaulted one of my freinds, I'm not going with you to a party.” Thad's voice was firm and slightly irritated, a scent of fresh grass and machine grease hit her, yup… definitely Thad, he even had to smell athletic.
“Ugh. Fine… you're no fun.”
“Not sure we have the same definition of fun.” He replied harshly, they were right outside Thad's apartment, peering down out of the vent, he had a backpack slung over his shoulder, clearly about to head to school.
Chloe just scoffed and began to walk away, throwing her head back in a classic, mean girl fashion, Thad just rolled his eyes and started to walk in another direction, grumbling something about “not getting enough sleep for this.”
Uzi crept through the vents, following Chloe as she walked through the halls, she had school too though… so where was she going?
Her body didn't seem to care though, [Target Found] displayed on her screen and she gave a manic grin as she stalked her prey, waiting for the perfect moment…
Finally, she stopped in a section of poorly lit bunker, leaning on a section of wall while looking down at her phone, tapping away.
And that's when she dropped from the ceiling, landing silently to the left of her, in the darkest area of the hall, Chloe didn't even look up, just continued to look down at her phone.
Then, in the next second, with a flick of her tail. Chloe was pinned to the wall by a dozen sharp spines, a screech leaving her as the phone tumbled out of her hands and she was slammed into the steel wall with a resounding bang.
Her breath picked up as she looked at her attacker, a tail coming up to wrap around her wrists and trap her arms above her head, Uzi's breath was hot, coming out in puffs of steam that brushed Chloe's face, her mouth open and saliva dripping off her glistening fangs and onto the floor.
“Oh shit-oh shit! Uzi?! Fuck- I, I'll leave N alone! Is that what this is about?” She thrashed a bit, the spines digging her clothing into the wall, but she was completely trapped.
“L-let me go!” Uzi grew closer, a twisted smile on her face as a long, grey tongue exited her mouth, Chloe's eyes went hollow at she caught a good look at her open maw, gulping.
Within, Uzi was cackling, of all the drones to get in her way when she wasn't in control, it was this bitch. Part of her didn't even really feel bad about it either… another part didn't actually want to kill her, but if it had to be anyone…
Her maw went in closer to her neck, causing her chosen victim to squirm in fear, she was so close now, another swift movement and-
Something big and heavy grabbed her from behind, causing an animalistic yelp to escape her as she was pulled off her prey. She growled and kicked as Chloe ripped herself off the wall and got away. She whipped around, ready to sink her teeth into whoever had interrupted her hunt.
She came face to face with gold.
‘Serial Destination N; Mate, Packmate, Leader.’ came up in her systems and her body immediately retracted her claws and snapped her mouth shut, it whimpered, curling in on itself.
“It's okay, it's okay… here.” He pushed something in her direction, and a breif sniff reveled it was an entire roll of pure titanium, her body lept for it, taking a huge chunk out of it and purring softly.
N stroked her back in the middle of the hallway as she took more bites of it, tearing into it like some wild dog, he moved more things in her direction, a brick of silicone, and a ball of rubber.
As she ate, the solver symbol flickered out and replaced with her purple eyelights, though she didn't stop eating… she was too hungry for that.
She didn't know where N had gotten these, and she didn't know how he knew this was what she needed, but as she put the last peice of rubber in her mouth she sighed, the hunger satiated for the first time since it had started
She looked up at N after there wasn't a speck of raw material left, processing what the hell just happened.
She'd lost control… again. And this time she had nearly killed someone. Sure, it was Chloe, but it could have easily been someone else.
“N…” She started, but he stopped her by scooping her up and placing a kiss on the side of her head.
“Don't… you're okay. You didn't kill anyone, and I can go get more if you get hungry again.” He nuzzled her cheek and she found herself too tired to argue, a mixture of her bodies physical activity and the sudden intake of material.
“I'll take us home. And I think we need to do another scan, I have… a theory.”
“You have a theory? Did we switch places?” She teased, unable to help herself, he hummed, smiling slightly.
“I do have moments.”
When they got back to the apartment, N laid her on the bed gently, and Uzi was beginning to get used to being carried around…
N cleared the data on the scanner and held it over her midsection, letting it re-map the area over several minutes, and with it, what he was looking for.
The small ball of mass that had been there before was now slightly larger, and now the shape of a bean. The scanner was able to pick up what it was made of.
Silicone and rubber, trace amounts of titanium. There was a forth substance marked with a ‘???’, but that was less important. He gave Uzi a wary smile as he showed her the image.
“I think… that's why you're so hungry.”
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