#like theirs is an actual relationship. a real one. and people give them such hate for having a true relationship

[bonny-kookoo]

Jungkook

W.D.Y.W.F.M [Lovebites]

Jungkook could've adopted anybody else, really. He's gotten to know a lot of hybrids left and right during his time at the carecenter and foster homes- low maintenance ones, friendly ones, ones that are easy to be around. So why would he want you?

Tags/Warnings: Idol!Jungkook, Hybrid!Reader, Fox Hybrid!Reader, mentions of trauma, Reader isn't cute & cuddly in this at all, manhandling (not the spicy kind), sort of brat-tamer Jungkook but not in the kinky way if that makes sense? This is about four years AFTER the Prelude chapter!, slight angst, okay it's actually not slight, mentioned attempted violence against mc, mentioned panic attack, fluff, slightly suggestive towards the end but overall SFW

Length: 3.4k words

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A/N: Have you forgotten about this because I didn't

-> Masterlist

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He remembers the day he'd made it public. Not only the fact that he had you, was living with you, legally.. well, owned you-

But that he was also in a relationship with you.

Jungkook remembers the immense wave of both support and hate clashing against one another, both sides aggressively trying to win a fight that was never theirs to fight to begin with. No one ever really pushed against or with him- it had always been about you. Fans trying to shelter and protect you, others attempting to use your past against you, slandering you or even attempting to scare you away from him.

From online threats against your safety, birthday projects all over the world to people actually attempting real life harm against you on airports, and others making signs specifically about loving you to hold up during concerts.

It's a constant push and pull- but after four years now, fans had to pretty much accept the fact that you existed and had this connection to him, or stay in their delusions and theories as to why it cannot be true.

It's like it's gotten simply boring. Old news.

He's kept you at his side, safe and sound, through all these years. Doesn't hide you when he's live, or outside, or taking the plane, or filming. You're a part of his life, and he doesn't ever attempt to keep you hidden. And neither does he ever want to back down and give anyone reason to think that he's not taking you seriously- neither as someone to love, nor as someone to keep safe.

He will do both, fully. Love you, and protect you.

Jungkook is currently live, talking to fans while you're on the couch next to him, tired but unable to sleep yet because it's something you've developed ever since staying with him. It's kind of his own fault- bad timing of him leaving the apartment every time you'd sleep making you wary of leaving him out of sight even to this day. He feels bad for it- but you're both working on that these days.

He doesn't want you to believe that he'd ever leave you alone.

"Is that foxy? Yes, she's right here!" He grins, leaning back a little to teasingly pull one of your ears into frame, showing that you're halfway laying on his lap. It makes some people upset in the chat, but most find it cute. "She doesn't sleep well alone, when I don't sleep she doesn't either." He explains to the fans watching. "Which is.. my fault, I kind of messed that up, but we're working on it." He nods, leaning back forwards to read the chat. "Calvin Klein? Huh?" He wonders why he reads the name of the brand in the chat considering he himself is wearing a simple white nike shirt- before he turns around, spotting you climbing over the back of the couch, seam of your pale purple underwear displaying the brand name. "Ah, yes! We got sent some stuff from their hybrid collection. Looks really pretty!" He smirks teasingly into the Chat, and he knows his management is probably holding their heads again in agony- so he can't help but make them mad just a little more, by reaching out behind him to smack your butt once, earning a squeak from your end and a wave of emojis in the chat.

They can't do much against his relationship or you, but that doesn't mean that they like it when he talks so easily and openly about it like this, or even dares to show public displays of affection towards you. He's not supposed to.

He does it anyways.

"Calvin Klein shooting when? Ah~!" He laughs, leaning back with arms crossed. "I'm not sure if I'd be happy with others seeing her in underwear." He jokes, though there's a hint of truth in it. He's painfully possessive over you- he doesn't like you even just playing around with the other members, for example, does everything for you before anyone else could offer. He doesn't like it when you're being taken care of by others, and he knows that's a bit childish. "But maybe normal clothes. Who knows. Maybe one day." He shrugs and reads the chat that asks him what you're doing- so he turns around to check on you in the kitchen-

Instantly jumping up over the back of the couch to run to you.

"Hey hey hey, no climbing that!" He scolds on his way, pulling you down from the counter before setting you down. "What did you want?" He asks, getting the bowl from the higher shelf for you before teasingly pulling your tail. "Don't do that again, yeah?" He shakes his head as he walks back to the couch, sitting in front of the camera again. "What happened? Ah, she couldn't reach something and climbed on the counter. But she could get hurt, so I don't like it." He explains. "Why? Ah, she doesn't do it usually!" He waves off. "She really doesn't. She's just having an episode these days, so she's a bit more trouble than normal." He says, trying to laugh it off- quickly changing topic.

He doesn't want anyone to really dwell on the fact that the most recent airport accident had sent you into an episode of all things.

Episodes in hybrids can vary in severity. Yours is a pretty serious one- it's been more than 24-hours since the airport incident, and yet you're still quiet, you're still regressing, and most of all- still terribly jumpy, as if you're right back to square one when he'd first brought you home, just ten times worse.

He'd been caught off guard this time. The same as security. No one saw it coming.

The airport had been crowded from the start, which had been normal. It's not unusual for him to draw in a large crowd- you never changed anything about that at the end of the day, if anything, you just increased it with many hybrids becoming fans of you, begging their owners to take them to the airports and other places where they could garner a glimpse of you. But this time, a crazed 'fan' had slipped through security, had grabbed after you- acrylic nails scratching hard on your arm, drawing blood and making you panic, as she yelled in a language he couldn't understand fully at you, hand raised to strike.

Jungkook had barely managed to pull you close, dash towards the car with security suddenly on highest alert, until you both had reached and entered the car.

He will never forget the sight of you, terrified, scrambling to crawl over the backseats, trying to get into the trunk area instead because in that moment, everyone had been an enemy in your eyes.

Him included.

It took him more than half an hour to get through to you, reassuring you enough with his strong hold and scent to push through the fog in your mind, and make you remember that he is safe. He's your person. He's to be trusted. And he's not mad at you for biting him in that moment whatsoever.

You'd thrown up the moment you'd entered the apartment due to the stress, before you shamefully hid in the furthest corner of the shower, cowering in panic, body trembling still.

Jungkook had wanted to cry so badly while the guilt crawled up his neck. Instead, he'd given you space, and had instead called a doctor to schedule an appointment asap for today, and one home visit later, you're all bandaged up and medicated to help your anxiety until you're able to think straight again.

He doesn't like that it has to be like that. But he understands that it's all that can be done to at least make your episode a bit more manageable and comfortable.

"Yeah, I'm gonna take some days off. I actually wanted to anyways, it's not just because of what happened, so don't worry." He reassures the fans concerned over your well-being- probably mostly because of the official statement from his company, which also announced his short hiatus from all activities, and a sharp increase in security measures moving forward. You simply crawl over his lap to lay down lazily, tail smacking around, your impatience the result of lack of attention. "Is she okay? Yeah, she has been prescribed some medication, she is okay." He offers, before he changes the topic again for a moment, until he can finally find a good opportunity to end the livestream.

The moment he does, he leans back, tension leaving his body as he watches you turn your head towards him. You've not said a word since the airport- and your gaze is hazy, not quite there.

He feels guilty just looking at you.

"I won't let that happen ever again." He promises, a hand on your head gently petting your ears. "I'll protect you more seriously." He mumbles, and you just watch him, happy to gain his attention even if you've got no idea what he's saying. Right now, you can't really comprehend anything- neither time, nor words, nor anything else.

You just exist, healing in silence it seems like.

And that's fine with him, as long as you'll be okay.

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You're biting on his curled up finger, while he laughs and wiggles your head around with it, no pain whatsoever in your bites.

You do that, occasionally, even when 'normal'. Though in that state, you typically recoil from your own actions, feeling bad for them even with his patient attempts at reassuring you that it's fine with him. But like this, still in your episode, you're a lot more open with what you're usually hiding when it comes to your natural hybrid behavior.

Love bites. That's what Jungkook calls them.

You bite his arm randomly when he stops paying attention to the movie you're supposed to watch together. You bite his neck whenever you cuddle, tangled up limbs and careful nips on his skin, well aware you shouldn't mark him up- even though he wouldn't complain. You bite after his hands when he tries to feed you stuff, though his reflexes tend to be better. And you bite at his clothes and pillows and toys- those you have a tight hold on though, testing his strength every single time.

He doesn't mind any of those things. He knew what you'd be like right from the start.

Your mind is slowly clearing up a bit, the second day into your episode- though it seems like you're still hiding away behind your hybrid behavior, taking your time to properly heal and collect yourself again before facing reality. And he's fine with that.

You can take as much time as you need and want.

He's brushing your hair for you while you sit on his lap, still tired form having just woken up. He can't really leave you alone like this- and you also still need to go to your regularly scheduled appointments to make sure you're recovering physically and mentally. Last checkup they've found some growing bruises near your hip, probably from the car door having accidentally swung into you in all the frenzy, and because you can't really tell anyone how you're feeling right now, everyone including Jungkook is being a little extra careful.

Though he can't say he doesn't enjoy moments like these, where he's truly got you all to himself.

He's opening a pack of wet wipes specifically for hybrid features, and you automatically move to lay your head in his lap as he cleans your ears for you- something back then, the shelter had told him to teach you to do yourself first things first since you hated having it done with a passion, but he's never had any problems with you. Sure, you can be a brat-

But you always have somewhat of a reason for lashing out if it happens, down the line. And he's learned to take a step back and look for that reason first and foremost, before judging or scolding you.

You wiggle around a little bit as he finishes up, putting everything away before he lets you go to lay down somewhere near the windows on a mattress he'd laid out. He chuckles as he walks back inside the living room, holding out your collar towards you, and his heart breaks a little when your ears clearly droop, probably still scared of leaving the apartment. "I know, but we have an appointment today that has to happen at the doctor's." He gently speaks, squatting down to where you're stubbornly rolling away from him, shielding your neck so he can't put your collar on. He clicks his tongue, carefully putting the collar down into his lap before he pulls your wrists away from your neck. "Baby please. I promise you, no one will ever hurt you again as long as I'm with you, okay?" He presses on, and at that, he can see your ears turn towards him, before you slowly give in to his hands pulling yours down.

He carefully places the simple velvet collar around your neck, both an Identification mark and a Yellow mark with the words 'Caution; Nervous' on it. He's received it from the doctor that checked up on you right after your episode had started- and he feels awful that you have to wear it like this.

But he'll do anything to make sure you're safe.

"…kook?" you ask, and he immediately perks up at hearing you speak again, arms open to let you crawl into his lap. "M' scared." You admit, and he nods.

"I know." He agrees, because he really does know that you're still fearful. It's only natural after what had happened. "But I'll do anything to keep you safe. You trust me?" He asks, and after a moment of thinking-

You nod into his chest, making him feel unbelievably proud of himself.

He won't let it go to waste.

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It's been a week, and Jungkook has to admit- he's never been happier that you're back to your old, chaotic self.

"You know you're in trouble." He states, holding up one of his sweaters-

The strings of the hood all chewed up, clearly because of you. You're just sitting on the floor on a random pillow, tail wagging, as if you're proud of your work. "People keep staring at you!" You complain, huffing in anger as you cross your arms. "You need my scent on you, so they know you're taken!" You say, and he sighs, shaking his head.

"It's not like I'm gonna wear this with those strings still in place anyways." He tells you, and you seem to become even more frustrated now. "In fact, I'm not really wearing anything top-wise in the most recent photoshoots-" He says, and suddenly, you get up, and dash past him, your shoulder hitting his body as you push towards your room- But he doesn't want you to just lock yourself in and 'sleep it off' like you always do. He wants you to explode into his face like this- he needs you to be honest for once. "No, you'll stay right here." He tells you, but you shake your head, trying to claw his hand from your arm.

"I don't want to!" You bark at him, now simply letting yourself drop down, hanging limp from his grip, and he just watches how you throw your little tantrum. "Let me go!" You hiss up at him, but he just takes in a deep breath, and continues to hold you.

"No." He denies. "And I can do this all day long, you know?" He shrugs, dragging you over the floor by your arm into the kitchen to get some water out the fridge.

And even as he can see your eyes start to tear up, he doesn't budge.

"You know, I'd really like to help you." He sighs, sitting down on the floor close to you. "I hate seeing you cry."

"Then let me go!" You try again, but he shakes his head.

"I won't." He denies once more. "I told you that's not how it works. Over and over again." He reminds you, his grip softening a bit. "I need you to talk to me, not just bottle things up and shove them into a corner inside your head." Jungkook complains, and you deflate at that.

"I don't like that.. no one takes me seriously." You say, and he tilts his head a bit in question. "People act like.. like I'm not even there." You say quietly, and he's unsure what you mean.

"What are you talking about baby?" He wonders, helping you sit on his lap, legs over his thighs wrapped around him just like your arms. "Many people love you. And by now, almost everyone knows you too." he reminds you, but you shake your head.

"They know me as your hybrid." You say, in a defeated manner. "But people don't see me as.. you know.. your mate." You complain into his shoulder, and at that he hums to himself, seeing the issue finally reveal itself.

"You're jealous?" He wonders, and you shrug.

"Sometimes." You admit. "When.. people how well this or that.. famous person fits you, you know." You finally say honestly. "And the worst is that they're often right. You do look nice with a pretty actress maybe, or-" You begin to rant, when a hand runs over your back, up and down.

"Mark me." He tells you, and you freeze.

"What?" You wonder, leaning away to properly look at him. But he just smiles, teasingly almost, and leans his head to the side a little.

"You heard me." He chuckles. "Wherever you want. Mark me up." He shrugs.

"But.. I'm not allowed." You shake your head, unsure if you understand him correctly. "I'm not supposed to."

"I do it all the time to you, don't I?" He asks, and you nod, a little shy now. "So? Only fair if you get to do it too. I'm sorry I didn't realize how.. that must've felt like to you, the fact that I always told you not to do it." He offers, a hand running over your tail.

"But they'll get angry at you-" You remind him, and he still denies it, instead leaning in to peck your lips once. You huff at that, even after the second, the third- but the fourth is when you melt, join in, and let yourself be swepped away by his love.

Jungkook knows best, you remind yourself. He knows what he can and can't do. He'll manage that.

You're mouthing at his neck on instinct, careful still- before you actually do end up biting and marking him, the evidence of this staying even the next day and the day after, causing his management to scold him numerous times- all of them Jungkook simply lets wash over him, not really taking it to heart.

He loves you, and therefore things like these are simply normal. They shouldn't be forbidden. He's not a child anymore.

And, at the end of the day, he doesn't need the fame, or money, or anything else.

He only needs you.

[samarecharm]

People who really like shuake also seem to write themselves into a corner wrt Akechi and his relationship to Akiras team. Contrary to popular belief, the team, including Haru, does not hate Akechi. At worst, they tolerate him and deal with his attitude. Hes a good teammate and respectable fighter and the team recognizes that at the end of the day, he was a teenager who was manipulated and abused by a man who saw him as disposable. Just about every thief understands this intimately. They have the same mindset wrt adults who take advantage of the people beneath them. Under different circumstances they wouldve been friends. And if u approach it from that angle, it becomes less about Akechi being the sole person who ‘gets’ Akira, and more about the thieves being the only people in the world who ‘get’ Akechi.

When you expand your thoughts to include the thieves as members of his Team and not roadblocks that get in the way of your ideal shipping dynamic, you allow urself to give Akechi and Akira more depth and nuance to their own relationship.

Akira and Akechi are wildcards; both of them struggle with the face they choose to display to the world. Its the first time Akira interacts with someone who is, at a literal, technical level, his ‘equal’. But Akechi is one of many firsts for Akira yeah? Every thief has their bond with Akira thats completely unique and personal. Akechi will never be the person who witnesses Akiras Awakening, hes never the person who watches Akira have his restless nights alone in the attic, and hes never the person who realizes in real time that the teenager hes housing is just Some Kid, not the delinquent hes been warned about. Hes not Ann or Yusuke, or any of the thieves; he doesnt have the time or experience that they have with Akira, and I think its interesting to explore that part of their relationship, shippy or not.

Akechi is someone who is incredibly lonely and self depreciating despite his cockiness and attitude. He has no positive bonds to speak of save for his connection with Sae. To have him see a team that works together and cares for each other, how do you think he would feel? Out of place? Inferior in some way? Angry about how hes been alone for so long in this single minded quest for revenge? Wouldnt that be a point of struggle between the two of them? I think what makes shuake good for me is knowing that Akechi needs alot of time to heal, and the thieves would want to help with that process. They do it bc they care, bc Akira cares, and bc they trust Akiras opinion (and he trusts theirs in return); if Akira feels like Akechi is someone who can be trusted Now after everything thats happened, then the thieves would do their best to help. And how would Akechi feel about that? Angry about the show of pity? That even now, he has no real say in what happens to him? Or begrudgingly grateful that they are cordial with him? Because they do care, he KNOWS they care, they care TOO MUCH actually; but the one thing he values over brawn and wits is honesty- fighting for what you believe in without having to use soft words to justify it.

[letsbangchanblog]

NSFW ABCs for INTAK

Mature content: 18+ post! Minors, do not enter!!

Summary: NSFW ABCs

Idol: INTAK from p1harmony

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Intak needs aftercare more than you do. Aftercare has to be full of love. He thinks this is the most important part of sex. It's not good sex without sweet after care. He needs you to play with his hair, call him handsome, etc. I love you needs to be said like 7 times. Kisses. Kisses. Kisses.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Intak is very confident in his whole body but needs to hear it from you to be real. The fans can say it all they want but he only wants it from you. He will perform graphic dances but it's robotic. You make it all real.

Intak is into big hips, so he loves yours. He loves to grip them sexually and romantically. Curvy women make the world go around.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Very normal. He actually hates things to be messy. Very fast to clean up his cum. It makes him uncomfortable so he feels so sorry for you.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Subby boy for sure. He loves people seeing him as a dominant man but only you can have him wrapped around your finger. He is very whipped. Willing to do whatever for you.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Shocking but I don't think he has a lot. He is seen as a frat boy but he is actually very romantic. He thinks sex is for love only.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

He loves you being on top or missionary. He loves the view so much. He also can't get over the fact that someone wants to be intimate with him and stay around (he is so used to being sexualized; it means a lot for sex to be about the love you share).

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He's a naturally goofy boy. I think he will try to act cute and sweet but it actually makes you laugh at him more. He would be his natural self even during sex. This means he will just act on impulse; he can be more serious or more humorous.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Very well groomed. He keeps himself up to date. He would never be caught slacking. It makes him feel more confident in himself.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

One of the most romantic men during sex. He thinks your body is a gift from God and he is blessed to be touching you. He will bend over backwards for you. You just have to make sure you tell him three compliments.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

I think he thinks it's boardline wrong in a relationship. Like why would he need to do that? He has a beautiful girlfriend that makes sex so much fun.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

He wants you to see him as a bad boy sometimes. He loves being a good boy for you but wants to be bad so badly. He would lose his mind if you acted upset with him for misbehaving. He would be like no no until you tell him it's sexy.

Do not be mean to him though like calling him stupid or anything. He can't hear mean things from you but he does wanna act up and be softly corrected

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Bedroom for the most part. He will do it on the couch but he is a very traditional man when it comes to location.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

He wants to be a good boy. He wants to make sure that he is giving you the best life you deserve. He NEEDS you to feel fulfilled in all aspects of life and will never forget sex is high on that list.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He doesn't like when you push him around roughly. He wants to be treated softly. Do not expect hardcore sex with him. He does not get the concept. Sex can be fast paced but slapping you, degrading you…. He could never and definitely doesn't want you to do it to him. BUT he does wanna be a dirty boy.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He isn't big on oral honestly. He will let you suck his dick if you want but would rather be balls deep while kissing you softly.

He would eat you out if you asked but he is never gonna do it himself.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Fast and sweet, or slow and sensual.. no room for rough (if he acts up, he wants you to turned on by that and ride him faster but not aggressively more like you are proud)

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

It's a no from him. He doesn't see the point. No one should be so horny they can't wait for a proper hour of loving (until he tries it before a concert).

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Will fuck you right before a concert so you can remind him who he belongs… then take him home and tell him how naughty he was for dancing for girls that aren't you while you ride him slowly, begging to be forgiven.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He can last a long time. He will wait until you give him permission. If he cums before that, he will blush for being bad.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

If you like them, he is willing to give it a shot. If you use toys as punishment, he will learn to be bad more often. He loves them after trying.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Please don't be unfair to him. He would never be unfair to you. He knows he was “bad” but it was only to be sexy. He would never actually be bad for you.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Whimpers so loudly.. hardly moans but man does he whine.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He would think you are getting bored of him and would dress up for you. He would do anything to make you want him.. maybe even let you be rough with him BUT ONLY IF YOU REMIND HIM IT WASN'T REALLY HOW YOU FEEL (just ride him slowly, you promised to not be unfair)

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Huge dick…. Blushes when you say it thinking you are doing it for his ego but no…. He's truly just big.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Horny if you are, otherwise, he has a lower sex drive. He is a good boy and will always be ready tho… being needed makes him horny

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Bro is out in 3 seconds. It was so exhausting for him to pretend to be bad. Wakes up to remind you that he's a good boy and to forgive him.

[uponawhitehorse13]

Ciel SFW alphabet

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Can be affectionate but not in public. The only thing she can do while people are watching is hold your hand. But when you’re alone it’s a different story.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

She’d just be there. She always was. What do you mean you don’t remember when you met?

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

She only really gets cuddly when she’s tired. Otherwise she prefers different kinds of affection.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

She’s used to living alone so she’d be competent at cooking and other housework. You do need to remind her to eat something other than curry sometimes.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

She is sending you to god.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

You’d think the christian girl would be all about marriage but she really hasn’t thought that much about it. The thought of something like that actually intimidates her a bit.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Very much gentle. Hates to see you exert yourself. Sometimes you need to tell her to tone it down since you aren’t made of glass.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Most often her hugs come when you two are parting ways for the day. Her hugs are short but tight, almost like she’s afraid you aren’t real.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

She doesn’t say it too often because she finds it too embarrassing.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Immediately hits you with the death glare and starts questioning what you were doing.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Her kisses are most often short and chaste. Anything more and you might end up doing more than just kissing.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

She’d probably be pretty good around children. She can indulge them but she knows when to get strict.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

She always gets up before you. Sometimes she starts getting ready before you and makes you breakfast or she just decides to enjoy watching you sleep.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

She always waits for you to fall asleep first. Then she leaves to do her “work” but not before giving you a kiss on the forehead.

O = Open  (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say  everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Unless it got to a point she could no longer lie about it she really wouldn’t tell you about her past. She feels bad for it but thinks it’s for the best.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

She doesn’t like to see you put yourself in danger or talking to other women too much. Other than that she’s pretty easy-going.

Q = Quizzes  (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little  detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

She remembers all your anniversaries but often waits to see if you remembered them.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Your first date. Her finally having something she thought she could never have made her incredibly happy.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Oh you can bet your ass she’d kill for you.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

She tries very hard. It’s her way of repaying you for loving her.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

She has a habit of trying to turn down gifts and favours because she feels she doesn't deserve them.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

She doesn’t mind being plain so she’d rarely go out of her way to look good. When she does want to look good however she will really put in a ton of effort.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

She doesn’t realize it but being without you would hurt her really bad.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Ciel listens to Nine Inch Nails. I refuse to believe otherwise. I could make a whole separate post about this but I won’t. There are so many lyrics she could relate to past events in her life and listening to it would make her feel at least somewhat understood. Also she has a shirt she wears when she’s alone.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Vampirism.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

No matter how you fall asleep you will wake up as the little spoon. You don’t know how it happens but it does. Without exception.

Author's note: I've been playing Tsukihime again recently and after finishing the near routes decided to write a little something. I'll probably open requests for it when I finish the far routes. (also shout-out to @cosmichorrorsarestillnicerthanme for proofreading.)

[sirenlulls]

sweet → r. keating (b. skeetz)

pairing —robert keating x fem!reader social media au

summary —where your boyfriend loves annoying you online and people lose their minds

it's so sweet, knowing that you love me. though, we don't need to say it to each other

liked by evehewson, ryanmcmahon_15, and 20,917 others

bobbyskeetz some bassist twat. lake. an ispíní mor. a homeless woman and a cat. bláthana. and some very beautiful lads

yourusername the cat was cuter than you

bobbyskeetz who are you again?

yourusername your ex 🫶🫶

username my parents

yourusername guys don't be fooled by the hard guy act, he bought me the flowers 😁😁

bobbyskeetz i'm sorry but i can't support parasocial relationships. this has to stop.

username i need a relationship like theirs

username sorry mr skeetz but i want to marry that homeless woman

bobbyskeetz oh don't worry about it lad i'm gonna take one for the team. saving the general population and all that

ryanmcmahon_15 you're a very beautiful lad yourself

evehewson a very pretty homeless woman*

yourusername marry me.

liked by gracieabrams, lilamoss, and 1,106,723 others

yourusername dolce and gabbana. food. a smelly burglar. a tipsy gal. a bathtub of drunk gals. vogue. banger. bassist twat. delicious strawberry.

bobbyskeetz thanks for the breakdown, didn't know what i was looking at before

yourusername you are very slow 🫶

bobbyskeetz that bassist twat looks rather dashing

yourusername whatever you need to tell yourself girlie!

bobbyskeetz whoa who's that in the last slide

yourusername pretty sure you said she's a homeless woman?

bobbyskeetz .....a pretty one?

yourusername eve said it first 🥱

evehewson get in line xx

evehewson ur so cool and hip

yourusername ur so rad

maisiehpeters mother!!

username cornelia street supremacy

yourusername lover is such an overhated album

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liked by lizzymcalpine, bellahadid, and 2,102,611 others

yourusername happy anniversary to the biggest bassist twat in the world, the bane of my existence, and the real reason that taylor swift wrote lover (she told me herself) glad it's you who kicks me off the bed every other night ❤️

username wait how long have they been together?

username 7 years

username WHAT.

devonleecarlson ur so perfect..... and he's there! jk, lots of love to u both ❤️❤️🫶🫶

bobbyskeetz jeez, props to me for hanging on this long

yourusername .......

bobbyskeetz love you ❤️

yourusername love you too 💞💞

yourusername omg he can be nice in public?! 😱😱😱

sirenlulls mother and father fr

whoetoshaw will never forget seeing them out of the gig last year

sirenlulls OMG WITH HER GIVING HIM THE FLOWERS I NEARLY FORGOT THAT WAS SO CUTE

whoetoshaw literally made me believe in love.

username she's a 10 but she calls you a bassist twat

bobbyskeetz still a 10 tbh

liked by graciebrns, shayrudolph, and 20,981 others

bobbyskeetz can't believe it's been 7 years and you're still too cool for me. 💔 happy anniversary to the most beautiful person i know. you're my favourite person to play bird bingo with, my forever hiking partner (no matter how much you might complain), the only person i ever want to boot off the bed in my sleep, my homeless woman. please never realise you could probably bag a model and just stick with your bassist twat instead ❤️

yourusername WHAT TJE FUCK

yourusername my post just seems like shit now

yourusername i actually hate you wtf

yourusername no i don't

yourusername you might be a bassist twat but trust you'll always be my favourite

bobbyskeetz nicest thing you've ever said to me

sirenlulls @whoetoshaw THE CAPTION?? GIRL THIS IS SOME FANFIC SHIT WTF

whoetoshaw babes im crying and it's not even for me what is going on 🥹🥹🥹🥹

username "MY homeless woman" "YOUR bassist twat" im actually going to jump in front of a train

username shutting up the bitches who says they're together for coult real fast

username no you don't understand you guys are so special to me

username they're my babies (they're 23 and im 16)

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earthbound old man tier list

S Tier: Doctor Andonuts. idc what anyone says, he is a fascinating bewilderful tragic morally dubious rubiks cube of a character, and if i think about him for longer than 10 seconds i get so emo i wanna dye my hair black and run away into the woods. he is also very funny. i would squash him like putty.

A Tier: Wess. mother 3 wouldn't be mother 3 without Wess and i'm not kidding. i love how he is written as both a terrifying abusive father and also a genuinely wise antifa ally, the duality of humanity or whatever. a bunch of his lines still give me chills to this day. especially [ this one ]

Leder as well. absolute fucking real one. imagine taking a vow of silence for the rest of your life to protect your beloved community, none of whom even can remember the sacrifices you've made for them, singlehandedly bearing a lifetime of unfathomable trauma to spare them theirs. he is atlas with the planet earth on his shoulders. yet another character who turns my brains into spaghetti-os.

B Tier: George is one of the most intriguing characters in the series. Boy, I wish Itoi took the time to actually Write him!!! so many questions, so little canon material, but my imagination does drive me a bit to madness with this guy I fear.

C Tier: the fuck do you mean Geldegarde Monotoli was super wicked evil under Giygas' influence, kidnapped Paula, took over Cartoon New York with sheer capitalist ruthlessness - then as soon as you break the Mani Mani statue he's like -tiny bichon frise sneeze- "ouuugghhh goodness gracious i'm so sorry, i don't know what came over me, i am so harmless and frail and made of pudding also" -little pekingese cough- and Paula is like "don't worry ness 👧 he was just a sweet old man all along lol!!!" nvm it's pretty funny actually

Grandpa Alec goes in C Tier too. imo he's well written in chapter 1. his reaction to grief feels really off-kilter in a strangely human & believable way, like?? he is snapping at Lucas and immediately feeling remorse, cracking jokes to try and assure Flint (and himself) everything is ok when it clearly isn't, kooky silly and also unsettling at the same time. i think people forget that he's also a messy clumsy maladjusted grieving dad, just like Flint. but after chapter 1 he kinda falls off, doesn't have much interesting to say or add to the story. i find myself kinda wishing Lucas had a closer relationship to his grandpa implied post-timeskip… oh well.

is Jonel old? his sprite doesn't look ancient but considering his attitude & his adult kids I imagine him to be in his 60's probably. i like that he's a bit of an asshole, and his moment at the prayer sanctuary implies a religious aspect to the village that's super intriguing… iirc he has a line all the way in New Pork where he trash talks Flint for still holding out hope & tryin to find Claus, and it's like?? damn, Jonel, a cunt to the bitter end!! gotta love that.

likewise Mayor Pusher is one of those Tazmily villagers who really highlights how fake & callous some of these people can be. i love the part toward the end of chapter 7 where he blabbers about how much he hates this hick town and he's so eager to leave already, and when he catches Lucas eavesdropping iirc he's rude as ever to him. what a douchebag! no wonder his son is so depressed ❤️

Nippolyte is a benign real one and I like him, even though there's not much to him.

wish Scamp did or said literally anything of note before dying. oh well

D Tier: yeah fuck Mr. Carpainter though. i don't believe for a second he was solely driven to become a cult leader by alien brainwashing alone, dude's gonna be on some MLM shit within a year mark my words

??? Tier: i don't consider Mother 3 Porky an old man, i consider him Very a forever thirteen year old trapped in a sickly grotesque disproportionaltely aging body. but if you do consider him an old man, he's in the stratosphere tier blowing up the moon

[tanoraqui]

🔪❄️

[ask meme]

Already answered Knife.

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

I know I've said this before, but I really would like someone who has actual experience being a parent and/or having a notably messy relationship with at least one parent to write a fic about Curufin returning to life in Fourth Age Aman and trying to reconcile with Celebrimbor, and then - before he's actually done doing that - Fëanor returns as well so Curufin also has to sort out how he feels and is reacting to that.

I'd like it to be written by someone with more real-life experience in this sort of emotional tangle than I have, because I just...don't have many strong opinions about parenting. Which this story would very much be about, though not exclusively. However, it WOULD need to follow exactly my headcanons for characterization, worldbuilding, and generally the moral dynamics of the cosmology, because god knows that will also come up.

Key characters and other components include:

Curufin has, over the millennia of being dead, resignedly come around to the "less evil would have been done in the breaking of it" position on the Oath. However, he's still very proud and fucking hates apologizing to anyone. He'll do it but he hates it.

He hates it much less when it's apologizing to Celebrimbor, almost not at all. Celebrimbor, however, is very reluctant to believe his father repents of anything except getting caught.

Yantalmandë, Celebrimbor's Vanyarin wife, who is ready to support him either by kicking any unwanted family firmly out the door or by sympathetically talking him through forgiving them, for his own sake if not theirs - whichever the situation requires. One of the most notable heretics in Aman for her theory that morality and ethics can and should exist entirely independently from the dictates of Eru and the Valar but rather be derived from the nature and experience of Arda. She's mildly embarrassed whenever people bring up her philosophical infamy.

(This is, in fact, somewhat the moral of the story: that when you make a living thing, you may raise and guide and advise them, but you fundamentally lose the right to dictate their choices. Children should be independent from their parents and both should be proud of this.)

Curufinwen, their daughter, at least 1,000 years old but vibes as mid-20s, who in family tradition holds her father to be probably the greatest and definitely her favorite person in the world, and who is distinctly more correct in this than the last 3 people in her eponymous lineage. Skeptical of her newly reincarnated family, but willing to give them a chance. Also, superb metallurgist/chemist/explosives expert.

Maltrinbor, Curufin's wife and Celebrimbor's mother, about as willing to forgive Curufin as Celebrimbor is but at a different angle. I still haven't decided whether I want her to be Noldorin (and died in the stormy sea-crossing, or in Dagor Bragollach after the slow eroding of her marriage?) or Teleri (and died at Alqualondë while trying to find her idiot husband and clearly-not-safe child, after walking away from them a decade ago?). Either way, she's a preeminent artist in glass and has been living near her parents near Aulë's mountain, focusing on craft all these millennia since her return, happy to be a mother but avoiding like spiders any royal politics (which Celebrimbor can never quite do.) SO disappointed in Curufin, for not being...better. In literally any way tbh. But especially for never stepping far enough out of his father's shadow to live up to his own potential.

Finrod in the role of frustratingly wise advice-giver, not least in the area of parenting because he's now had 7 children, and, when Curufin cracks and asks him for help, earnest confidant and supporter in this reconciliation. While also playing an extended game which he calls "social rehabilitation" and Curufin and Celegorm both call "publicly humiliating psychological torment." On top of everything else Curufin has to be grateful and/or apologetic to Finrod about, when Celebrimbor returned from Mandos, Finrod immediately took him under his wing and helped him fully recover from his trauma and comfortably re-settle into Valinorian society.

Veryawendë, Finrod's 4th daughter and Celebrimbor's best friend, artistic collaborator, and ally within the family. A superb jewel-smith and -sculptor who actually studied with Nerdanel in order to master form and sense of movement and life. Very ready to bodily kick unwanted parents or uncles out the door on his behalf.

Celegorm, Curufin's usual/former closest confidant, who is very sympathetic to Curufin's plight and of course he also wants to reconcile with his beloved nephew, but he's kind of focussed on reconciling with an entire Vala of the Hunt first so could you maybe stop ranting and help him, Curvo?

Nerdanel absolutely is involved in this, but I think she's trying - maybe by wrestling with herself - to stay out of it, and oblige her children and theirs to solve their own problems which they made.

And of course Fëanor, who comes out of Mandos regretting a great deal...but who is still too prideful to let himself be much diminished by this guilt, and so with all his vigor sets about trying to Fix What He Broke, which sometimes means the world's most undeniable earnest repentant apologies and sometimes means unthinkingly steamrolling everyone and everything in his path.

(Fëanor who never wanted his children to be consumed by his own fire - his own will, his own grief and rages - like kindling for the flame, but who probably didn't always communicate that in word or deed even before the Oath. Fëanor who, accustomed to Bonding Through Craft, tries to connect with his grandson by offering to teach him some techniques which have clearly been lost, and instead only sets off Celebrimbor's latent Annatar-related alarm bells. Fëanor who is overall struggling with many of the same things that Curufin is, and in most ways he's ahead [typical, natural, bitterly surprising] but in some ways he's behind [mind-boggling, earth-shaking, weirdly satisfying in an uncomfortably vengeful way.])

(Vs Curufin who is so angry at and so so so disappointed and betrayed by his father but who has never consciously, and rarely unconsciously, experienced those feelings in that direction before [while alive to remember it] and doesn't really know how to do so, much less how to express it [the answer is 'sobbing while shouting', at least at first]. He's pretty accustomed to feeling them toward himself, though, except he's also very accustomed to ignoring that and/or blaming other people for it and feeling like a victim instead. He never felt it toward his son, not truly; it was just easier for a few years toward the end to include Celebrimbor in the list of people he blamed - but only in his very darkest moments, and it always set off a vicious circle of feeling even worse.)

Oh yeah Finwë definitely needs to be involved in this whole tangle of generations of fatherhood as well. But I have no idea how he fits in, just that he's among the people who all need to be put into a giant hamster ball together and gently shaken until they're all a little healed.

Btw corrollary to the above "you have to be okay with your children doing things you neither plan nor approve of" is "you have to be okay with things you make being viewed and used in ways you neither planned nor approved of." It's not always your right (@Fëanor) and it's not always your responsibility (@Celebrimbor - he's mostly learned the lesson but it still hurts. The recent end of the Third Age brought back how it hurts).

Additional Supporting Cast:

Maedhros: running around playing catch-up on the 3D chess game of Noldorin and Eldarin politics and public perception. (Note: I'm ambivalent as to whether this fic has to take place in a Celechwes-inclusive timeline, but if it is, she gets pregnant shortly before Fëanor's return and that's very thematically relevant.)

Maglor: hasn't entirely recovered from 6,000 years of self-induced Song-filled isolation, has apparently sworn some sort of fealty to Earendil?? No help.

Caranthir: busy trailing after his wife like a repentant puppy until she decided to let him back into her heart. No help.

Ambarussa: one of them, probably Amrod, took up weaving while drifting between Mandos's Halls and Vairë's, and is continuing that apprenticeship while alive again, so they're spending a lot of time with the grandparents.

Mahtan, who is quite near the top of the list of people whom Curufin doesn't want to look in the eye.

The Silmaril which is right over there on the far edge of the continent, he can feel it sometimes...and that's okay. It's where it neds to be, it's in the care of a (distant) (barely counts) kinsman, and more important Maglor is keeping some sort of eye on it. So it's fine. There's nothing he can practically do anyway, not without restarting a war; and that's not an option anymore than charging Angband was.

Huan, best boy. Has also been looking after Celebrimbor since he returned to life, because he's the best uncle in this family.

A wide assortment of OCs, including people who died in Himlad, people who followed Curufin to Doriath and died there, people who followed him to Doriath and survived beyond that, people who stayed with Celebrimbor in Nargothrond, people who were in Eregion and died, people who were in Eregion and survived...

I really want the whole line of Curufinwës to make something together, like, the very first scene is Curufin approaching Celebrimbor not for the first time, but for like the third time and this time he's suggesting a long-term project of some sort, which would give them the opportunity to spend time together in an activity they both enjoy and (used to) both enjoy and are accustomed to doing together. Then that spans the whole story. Idk what it is, though - I do want them to make Maedhros a hand that shoots lasers like Iron Man's glove, but that's not what The Project should be.

CURUFIN HAS TO GET AN EPESSË IN THE END, ONE WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH FËANOR WHATSOEVER.

[stormblessed95]

I don't follow or keep track of tiktok couples who got famous by making their relationship their job. Queer or straight couples, because I think that's a bad idea, but that's a whole seperate post (that we could relate to jikook as well if you want).

Oh please make one. I also think one of the major reason they became so private is to keep their relationship safe,not just from military or anything but just to keep it private and safe as possible. The reason nick and Pierre broke up was they started to feel like their relationship became more of a brand than an actual relationship. Like posting about your partner or private life once in a while is ok, especially if you are at two different places career wise, but making it your whole job and personality is definitely hard as gradually it will be just job and playing out characters for media than actual relationship.

Lowkey, saw this guy Chris from tiktok who said most of what I could say about it, he went through his own tiktok relationship public breakup too, it was awhile ago I believe. A relationship is between 2 people. You can share without giving it up for public consumption. You can share some stories and moments and your love without jeopardizing your privacy if you want to. And that's important.

Your intimacy as a couple together is meant for the 2 of you, not for people to invite themselves into. Tom Holland and Zendaya are a really good more recent example of a couple who does this. Jikook do not owe anyone confirmation of their relationship together (romantic or not) for it to exist. Their bond does not exist for our enjoyment. It's theirs. They can share without outting themselves. They can share without confirmation. They can not share without suddenly becoming enemies. They are real people, not characters in stories. Making your relationship what you base your content on or what you talk about all the time, makes things more fictional (for lack of a better word, it's not quite what I mean, but hopefully yall understand) at times because you don't just get to experience things, you have to turn them into a story for your audience too. And there is pressure to give the audience what they want. No one is owed anything here. From anyone online or from BTS or from Jikook. Everyone's relationships are their own.

I don't want Jikook to come out or confirm their relationship or anything. I want them to stay safe. I want them to only ever come out if and when they feel safe to do so. And if that's never, that's fine by me. I'd love it for the representation given on such a global scale, but I'd hate it because I worry about their safety enough ALREADY. Lol

[tineteenieworld3]

Okay I personally don’t love the ‘trope’? Or headcanon maybe? I don’t think it’s either of those things it’s just a thing. Again, this is completely my opinion and every one is entitled to theirs and everyone’s allowed to just have fun and do whatever they want because it’s seriously harmless, I always want to preface by saying that because the way I feel doesn’t mean the way others feel is wrong or anything. It’s just my thought process.

anyways sometimes I don’t love the treatment of Mike in comparison to Will. I don’t really enjoy when all the characters gang up on Mike, sometimes it happens in fics. Which again TOTALLY COOL there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that I still read. I think it’s more of us being so used to saying or hearing that Will deserves better, or that no one understands why Will would pick Mike or it’s always Mike just being less important or an ass while everyone cradles Will and his feelings.

Again, there’s nothing wrong with making stories like that or joking about it or anything this isn’t me saying that people who do that are dumb or ‘don’t know the characters’ because we’re all just here having fun and none of it is serious. Really, I just love talking about Mike and I think we need to do it more often especially since we’re waiting for season 5.

Mike isn’t less important than Will and Will doesn’t ‘deserve better’ or ‘can do better’. We said that so much after vol. 2 that it definitely ingrained itself into our heads and into the fandom which is understandable. But, I’ve said this before, Mike and Will are equals. The thing that makes them so interesting as a pairing is that they handle their problems without, usually, anyone knowing or outside input. They’re very much together in things and the same level, ya know? I’m not saying this great, but Mike isn’t some dick at all and he deserves as much attention and love as any other character.

He gets a lot of weight but on his shoulders and I think that perfectly represents his character. The expectations for him are much higher than the ones for El or Will or Max or really anyone (other than Nancy because people can’t handle a flawed woman) Mike just got lied to for a whole season straight. He messed up on one day throughout the entire season. Then he tried to fix it, he tried with El, he actually did apologize and fix his relationship with Will. That’s what’s confusing to me sometimes, Mike said the monologue and it was a mess, but he also wouldn’t have said shit if Will didn’t literally force him to. He pulled shit out his ass like any other kid in that situation would. And I think that’s what the writing represents is that Mike is saying stuff you’d hear in any cheesy rom com. But again, wouldn’t have happened if Will didn’t push him.

He really didn’t do anything wrong. Other than the first day in California, Mike was just being Mike but in more of a side character kind of way. El lied to him and then it was displayed to us as it being Mike’s fault. Mike gave Will a pretty great apology that I would die to get from anyone I cared about.

Idk maybe it just rubs me the wrong way because it’s kinda sad. Again, this is absolutely no hate to anyone who likes the trope or to write those stories I completely support you and the way you enjoy this fandom. This is just a personal opinion.

Anyways circling back to Will and Mike here. Their relationship is very mature they don’t have other people butting into it and giving their opinions because I think it would piss both of them off. These two have been friends since they were five and I think if Will heard anyone acting like he was a delicate Angel and Mike didn’t deserve him he’d be pissed off. Mike deserves love and respect, a shit ton of respect actually, just like any other character. Idk the character isn’t real so it really doesn’t matter at all and it’s all for fun of course, but Mike is just as important as Will and El. He’s a complete sweetheart that’s just trying his best.

Especially season 4. He acted out of wack and like a dick that one day and then basically never did again. His character is so interesting, but I love him and I personally believe he’s the best Will could ever do because it’s Mike and he’s not some unimportant character that deserves to be constantly under minded and treated like the villian.

Again this is all just my opinion and is absolutely no hate to fic writers who like this kind of story or anything like that at all, everyone can do whatever they want and I will never ever act like it’s dumb or something you shouldn’t do cause it really doesn’t matter and I support the drama it brings lmao. I just love talking about Mike Wheeler and I think since we all have a lot of downtime before season 5 it’ll be a good thing to do because we don’t explore him as much.

[theconstitutionisgayculture]

I can't wrap my mind around a gay conservative. It's like the homosexual who clings onto religion, the same one condemning them. Are you aware of the slippery slope argument, the one where they think that everything deteriorated once gay marriage was legal? And those who'd compare you to a pedophile? To most of them, you're sub-human, a lost soul headed to hell, a disgrace to nature, so why identify with an ideology that has people like that? Get out while you still can, man. You won't regret.

It's painfully obvious you've never spoken to a real conservative outside of YouTube comments. Every single one I've interacted with, in real life or online, aside from maybe two anon trolls over the years who might not have been leftists larping as conservatives in my inbox, have either not given a single shit about my sexuality, or were happy to see a gay person who wasn't an insane leftist.

Honestly, I can't wrap my mind around any gay who supports the left. They've shown a million times over the years that they don't give a shit about you beyond what you give them. The moment you don't support a single left wing talking point out come the slurs and the hate and the doxxing and the banishment from the "community". They pursue policies that destroy everyone who isn't super rich or super poor, they violate your actual rights every day, they treat you like children who are incapable of making a single decision on your own. I could not care less what the people who are helping me fight against all of that think about marriage. I could not care less what people who are fighting to keep me armed and free think about my sexuality and my personal relationships which are, frankly, none of their business, just like theirs are none of mine. Even if they all hated me for being gay, they're still fighting with me, which is more than I can ever say for the left or the fake ass "gay community".

[ryuichirou]

Replies

A couple replies related to the anti question from yesterday, but then yay, a couple of replies about Idia! <3

mysaldate asked:

Related to the anti question: The localization is also to blame for so many younger people and antis swarming the twst circles. The JP game is marketted as joseimuke and the target group are specifically adult women. The localization, after dumbing everything down and making characters speak like the cringiest side of Tiktok, decided 3+ is a good enough age rating and then changed it to 13+ or wherever it is right now after getting mocked relentlessly for thinking 3+ was a good idea. 13+ is still far too young and it sadly leads to a lot of younger and more immature people being in the fandom.

Oh my god, fucking 3+… And 13+ isn’t much better. The entire rating system is kind of weird when you think about it: simply because there isn’t any nudity or sexual themes or gore, it doesn’t mean that the game is perfectly fit for 13 year olds. But this is its own whole can of worms that I’m not touching with a 5 feet pole…

But yeah, unfortunately immaturity really is a big issue :(

Anonymous asked:

I remember seeing a callout post that mentioned grooming and I was like, “oh no!” Until I read that the person in question never groomed  anyone, rather, the poster was claiming that a drawing of theirs had grooming. Wow, thanks for wasting my time calling this out, Jerk. Yeah, I’m still salty about this.

THIS IS SUCH A BIG ISSUE AAAH because they always use those words to grab your attention, but then out of 10 callout posts about groomers you’ll have 5 posts about someone drawing a problematic ship, 3 posts about someone just talking to someone once, 1 post that is just a straight-up lie and maybe 1 post about an actual predator that people should either block or report. Not only it clogs the report system with irrelevant stuff and distracts from real and very serious cases, it completely desensitises people to the point when their first thought when they see a callout post is “I’m not even going to waste my time reading this, I’m 95% sure this is bs”.

I am very tired of it, so I understand, Anon.

Alright, now let’s have a complete tonal shift and about our favourite hikki boy.

Anonymous asked:

What does Idia find attractive in a person? Like, what qualities, whether appearance or personality-wise would draw him to them? What would be the ultimate dealbreaker or what would be something that would lead to a big “NOPE” from him?

Good question, Anon~

Thank god Idia gives us food to think about these things with his crush on his online buddy lol I’m going to base my thoughts on their interactions.

First and foremost, for someone who isn’t very social, Idia really loves it when he can share his interests with someone. I say it every time, but quality time is one of the most important things for Idia, so if a person listened to a song he’d sent or if he is fun to play with, it’s going to win a lot of points for Idia. And Idia probably senses fakeness in this type of stuff, so he needs someone who is going to be genuinely invested in a game; just like Lilia, Azul or Ortho are.

He also loves determined, strong-willed people who take things into their own hands. Idia is kind of passive and hates being someone who initiates things, so his perfect partner would have to do the heavy lifting when it comes to this side of their relationship. He would have to “feel Idia’s vibes” and know when to push and when to leave him alone. Idia is (probably unintentionally) drawn to people who push him a liiiitlle bit out of his comfort zone, but he gets super defensive when someone oversteps his boundaries. He even complimented Crimson Muscle for always keeping a perfect distance and yet being very involved and friendly with him. In short, his perfect partner would have to make things easy for him emotionally lol

I don’t know about appearance, but I feel like Idia is kind of drawn to tall and mature men that are on the bigger side, he is kind of into this whole fantasy of Crimson Muscle being older than him, which is super ironic considering that at least 3 of his potential lovers are significantly smaller than him (Ortho, Lilia, Azul), and two of them are also younger than him. Not sure of Idia has a thing for this type, it’s probably just a funny coincidence, but it could be a bone in Idia’s body that gets pleasantly tickled because of the fact that he’s being topped by someone as tiny and adorable as they are. Well, not sure if he considers Azul tiny or adorable, but he certainly thinks that he has a pretty face.

Body-wise, the Tweels are probably the closest to what Idia would envision if he was cringe enough to fantasize about having sex with someone which he absolutely doesn’t do because that would be too pathetic and typical for a shut-in otaku loser like him ha ha ha ha ha. Seriously though, he probably doesn’t think about these things, also because he’s never thought that he would be a bottom in a sexual scenario, but if we forced Idia to pick the most attractive body out of all of these people, there is a chance that he would have picked the Tweels.

As for the big NOPEs…. The majority of people are big NOPEs for Idia lol

Ironically, the Tweels are a HUUUGE NOPE because they’re scary. Idia actively avoids them because he knows they are up to no good, and he would never consider any type of relationship with them.

He always complains about extraverts, but they would balance him out surprisingly well. But still, in theory this is a big no-no, in particular because they always have a lot of friends and the thought itself makes Idia feels a bit jealous and lonely. Plus, he considers them obnoxious lol Even though Ortho is an extravert.

He also doesn’t like nosy people who criticise him and don’t understand his hobbies and life philosophies. Azul nags on him, but he is surprisingly good at giving him his space, maybe because he knows that this is just how Idia operates and there is nothing he can do about it.

Idia also hates sporty people, active people, reckless people, people with a stick up their butts… He has a lot of opinions about every single NRC student and why they would be horrible to date lol

Anonymous asked:

Does Idia have to have a connection with someone to sleep with them? Is he open to one-night-stands, granted he wouldn’t be the one to instigate them I’m guessing. Does he like foreplay? What’s a sure way to get him in the mood? Sorry for all the questions! 😓

No worries, Anon, I like talking about Idia a lot as you might’ve noticed lol

It’s probably ironic considering just how many people we ship him with, but I feel like Idia doesn’t even consider having sex as something that might at some point happen to him. His mindset is “I’m a lonely otaku shut-in and I don’t want to be around people, but it’s okay if I stay a virgin because sex is overrated”. It doesn’t mean that he doesn’t want to have sex, he just doesn’t think that it’s an option and he is okay with it… One-night-stand just sounds isn’t as stressful as building a relationship with someone, but it’s still stressful af and very cringy, so he wouldn’t do it “unless he’s 50 and desperate”. But who knows, maybe his circumstances change…

To answer your first question, yes, on paper, he has to be very close to a person to even think about these things. But that’s on paper, in actuality (and this is the scenario for our art and posts a lot of times) sex could just happen to him suddenly because the tension got too strong and; and then Idia would suddenly feel himself overflowing with his suppressed urges. “I have to have a super strong connection with someone to sleep with them” and “I will probably never have sex” are irrelevant when Idia is being touched and feels every single sensation and feeling at once. Out of all of the guys we ship him with, I feel like the only one he would think about having sex with prior to that happening is Lilia (his online self of course), but even then this thought is just cringy delusional cope in Idia’s own opinion.

With foreplay, it’s kinda tricky. I think Idia is someone who would prefer to get it over with, to have sex already, to hurry his lover up, because foreplay feels too overwhelming and embarrassing. But his body craves much more attention that Idia is ready to let anyone give to it, so he would probably enjoy being petted, kissed, even edged, and his own embarrassment always dances on a fine line between ruining Idia’s mood because of the anxiety of it all and making him much hornier because embarrassment is arousing.

As for getting him in the mood, he is way too sensitive and his body is way too responsive, so a lot of times just grabbing and touching him works wonderfully… except when he is very busy gaming, because nothing can stand between him and his game. He’ll push anyone away if he’s busy with his online tournament… well okay, anyone other than Ortho or Lilia lol

Idia also responds to hentai tropes because he is always shocked when he experiences them irl, and ironically Ortho, Lilia, Azul, the Tweels – all of them would trigger that reaction intentionally or not. Especially Azul with his tentacles…

[childlikegoblinqueen]

Hey, got a question. how did you get others (Both writers and readers) into Sweet Child O' Mine? How was the writing process for you in the beginning? Did you ever get nervous about your story not being enough and did seeing other writers complete things for their stories and post update news about theirs ever make you nervous or guilty? Any advice to get over that or say screw it and write? Asking writer to writer.

Ah!

The short version?

Screw it and write!

The long version?

So, as far as how I got others into it? I guess that was luck -- though I DID get excited when I saw some of my favorite fan artists open commissions and put aside some money to have a few scenes drawn out -- not to mention the really cool cover art from @lovemoroporo.

The idea that you can actually (as a fan fiction writer) I could actually CONNECT with artists who drew me MORE into the fandom and commission them to work with some of my silly headcanons was really cool, and felt like a fun way to give back -- and I am sure that attracted some attention too? But also, I just kept at it.

The process has been interesting. The first fic I wrote in the TOH fandom was Stranger Tides, and it was my NaNoWriMo project in 2022. I wrote fan fiction A LONG time ago, and picked it up again as a way to deal with intense grief. I planned on dropping that one and disappearing into a puff of smoke, but Sweet Child just sort of GRABBED me by the heart, and here we are.

I just got this vision in my mind of Hunter and Willow in the early weeks of their first child's life and thought it would make a sweet one shot, but then the story led me elsewhere, and I followed it I guess? I had an idea of where it was going, key scenes and plot points, but some of the other stuff I sort of discovered as I was writing, if that makes sense? I hate the term "pantser" I like "discovery writer" :D.

Anyway, it was really exiting not only writing the story and watching everything click into place, but also meeting readers and commenters as it gained momentum.

I ABSOLUTELY get and got nervous watching other writers complete their work. SCOM is a monstrosity. Not a lot of people have patience for a 500K + fan fiction -- but I couldn't abandon it and I couldn't force it to end before it was ready, so I just bit my lip and kept writing. I feel guilty every time I extended my chapter count, or had to split a chapter because it worked best to end on a particular note -- but I am still happy I did it.

I was also nervous that the weirdness (the bard battles and the media stuff) was just going to be TOO much for some readers from this fandom. I get and got nervous that some of the messy relationships or nuances of character interactions wouldn't transfer well -- like Hunter's initial relationship with Steve was avoidance because of mutual misunderstandings, and the complicated nature of Hunter and Darius' past.

I am super happy that a lot of readers trusted that I had a reason for those things.

I also added a lot of my own experiences (my pregnancy was ROUGH. A lot of the non-magical things that happen to Willow happened in real life to me) I wasn't sure if that would be something people would want to read. That made me nervous too.

I guess my only REAL advice would be, just write the story you want to write. It's really hard if things are taking longer than you want or expected, but I honestly think its worth it! Have fun with it.

EDIT: I should also add that in the beginning, I wrote ONE CHAPTER A DAY. I was in a deep grief zone and barely slept. I feel bad that I am down to one chapter a week now, but I am committed to getting to the end of this story.

So yeah. TLDR; Screw it and Write.

I hope that answers your question? This was a fun ask!

[soup-for-ghosts]

talk ant temenos. for the ask thing :3

First impression

something along the lines of “wow this guy is so funny what is wrong with him (affectionate)” and the murder mystery neuron kicking in

Impression now

oh so THAT’S what’s wrong with him. ok. genuinely one of my favorite characters ever, and uh. also ow? what the heck?? I wasn’t prepared for a personal callout post!!

but yeah temenos is such a good character… and while I do have a few gripes with how his story was handled, I have no gripes with how he himself was written. and those ex skills… so many thoughts about those… I could go into more depth into my thoughts on him but I’ll save that for another place at another time

Favorite moment

all of them /j

ok but seriously, I loooooove the scenes with arcanette. I hate her. I hate her so much, but oooooo those scenes are so goooooood… the placid mask dialogue hits… I didn’t trust mindt from the beginning, but THIS was something else. him yelling at her not to speak of everyone he’s lost in the process of getting here… gahhh it’s just so good….

Idea for a story

uh?? idk what to put for this

Unpopular opinion

also dunno what to say for this one really

Favorite relationship

ok I have two and yes they’re the obvious ones

first is his relationship with crick which give me the 🤨 look all you want but listen. I’m not even talking about the ship this time, I just mean their general dynamic, which yes is very goofy at times but it’s also so complex and interesting. especially when you get into everything crick tells him in chapter 3 stormhail. I don’t like.. I don’t like crick’s death from a literary perspective, idk I just never enjoyed characters being killed for the sole purpose of making you hate the villain or for the emotional appeal particularly when said character is clearly at their lowest point. meeting temenos lead to crick having to learn to doubt (for lack of a better term pf) everything he has ever known, and that has practically brought him to a pit of despair in chapter 3 stormhail and idk I think he deserved the chance to claw his way out of that pit and actually get to learn what faith really means to him and stuff. and also it would be interesting for temenos’ character if one person survived, he already pushes people away out of fear of losing them, if he thought it was just happening again, but it didn’t, he still lived, how would he react to that? how would he develop and move on from that? idk it’s just more interesting to me, but again, conversation for another day, the important part is, their dynamic is very fun and also genuinely interesting, and I like how their characters develop throughout the game because of each other

the second is everyone’s favorite detective duo, temenos and throné. I am a claudelet temenos truther, so siblingisms real, but besides that, their crossed paths and travel banters really hit me I think. my favorite travel banter of all time is one of theirs, “the wool dilemma,” from throné chapter 3 father’s route. wherein throné asks temenos to tell her a story to get her mind off of all. that. and he tells her about this wool dilemma, where wool keeps the sheep warm, but because of that, a lamb never truly feels the warmth of their parents. throné’s response is “I’m not a sheep,” and that to me speaks volumes. she understood exactly why temenos chose this story to tell her, she understands him perfectly. and that’s saying a lot! temenos has a travel banter with osvald in his chapter 5 where osvald explicitly states that temenos never says what he means and it is very confusing and people are bound to misunderstand him. osvald, resident genius scholar, struggles to understand temenos, but throné understands him perfectly. and then their crossed paths… they both have a lot of pent up grief that they are not really… addressing or conveying and they end up working together to tie loose ends both for themselves and others. alpates…… but yeah, they’re a very good duo and the devs made a very good decision having them as a crossed paths duo. I like them a lot….

Favorite headcanon

silly one, but I always loved the headcanon that his eyes glow blue when he’s doing his little “the truth lies in the flame” thing. it’s just fun to me pf, also it looks sick as hell, especially when it’s used outside of just those segments and in scenes like the battle against kaldena and stuff

[wandringaesthetic]

Dear Hozier

I did the thing I threatened to and wrote a "Dear Hozier" (inspired by this podcast)

Dear Hozier,

When I listen to music I rarely give it my whole attention, a fact that might not make you too happy, as a musician and a songwriter. I listen while I’m cooking, or walking, or exercising, or driving. Among other things, the way I listen means I rarely process the lyrics of a song linearly from first notes and words to the last. This is even more true in recent years, when I very rarely have a physical copy of an album and therefore never pore over the liner notes. Often, I never really process the lyrics of a song at all, or I process snatches of it, often based on misheard lyrics that I don’t correct myself on for a hundred listens, if I correct myself at all.

But sometimes a section of the words catches my attention after dozens of listens and I actually read the whole of the words.

The lyrics that caught me in “First Time” were:

The first time that you kissed me I drank dry the river Lethe

The Liffy would have been softer on my stomach all the same

The first line sung with such soul, and the second: what is that? You’re not saying “Lethe” again. So I looked up the lyrics.

The Liffy, the river that runs through Dublin, muddy and polluted and inadvisable to drink from directly. Funny that I should recognize the name of a mythical river, the one that allegedly runs through the underworld and makes you forget, but not the name of a real river that runs through a real place, as far away as it is.

The song starts:

Remember once I told you about

How before I heard it from your mouth

My name would always hit my ears as such an awful sound?

Is that really how you feel about your name? The fact that you chose part of your last name as your stage name rather than your given name doesn’t feel like a coincidence. I have the luxury of feeling comfortable with my own given name, but my partner is in the process of changing theirs. I had the sense, even years ago when we first met, that the old name wasn’t quite right for them, but I became accustomed to it through use, and the new name doesn’t yet feel quite right either.

But you spoke some quick new music

(When I sing along the rhythm of this line sounds so different on my tongue than it does on yours. I’m from the Southeast United States, and have lived here most of my life, but so often you feel like you came from somewhere very near me and not from across an ocean. Perhaps via some sympathetic magic of blood or perhaps through the fact that you and I seem to have a similar relationship to religion, no longer believing in something that nonetheless left deep imprints on our psyche. but mostly, I think, you feel familiar via the soul musicians you were influenced by, some of whom tread dirt that I have trod. Yet sometimes I am reminded that you came from somewhere else, like in the way you pronounce “suffering” in this song, that “u” so Irish. “Suffering.”)

Even if I like my own name, I know the aberrant feeling of being called something that is subtly wrong. The chorus speaks, again and again, of someone calling you “baby,” something that I’ve always hated to be called by a romantic partner. I am not, in any sense, a child, or your child. Yet, I have allowed a couple of people to call me that, even after I asked them not to, because in the moment, as you say in the bridge…

Whatever keeps you around, it keeps you around

And in the second half of the first verse:

And the soul, if that's what you'd call it Uneasy ally of the body, it felt nameless as a river Undiscovered underground

Beyond the bad feeling of being called something you don’t want to be called is the stress of being called something you do want to be called. Not just your own name, but terms of endearment, pronouns, to be called mother, brother, or daughter, to be called a practitioner of your profession or even of your hobby. It all puts you in one box or another. It all creates expectations for you to fulfill. Do you ever want to be unseen, unspoken of? To not have to be anything? But of course such would mean death without ever really being alive.

The alternative is to be the flowers of second verse:

These days I think I owe my life

To flowers that were left here by my mother

Ain’t that like them, giftin’ life to you again

(The flowers, or your mother, Hozier? I imagine going through some awful breakup and the one bright point in your living space being that sort of small gift, falling back on your childhood and your blood relations when your chosen, adult relationships fail. I write this a couple of days after a mothers’ day when I didn’t get my own mother a gift, not flowers or anything else. I buy gifts I think the receiver might like when I happen across them but dislike desperately reaching for a bad gift for the sake of a hallmark holiday in the absence of any inspiration. I hope she understands this. I hope my regards are enough.)

This life lived mostly underground

Unknowin either sight nor sound

Till reachin’ up for sunlight just to be ripped out by the stem

Sensing only now it’s dyin’

Drying out, then drowning blindly

Bloomin’ forth its every colour

In the moments it has left

To share the space with simple living things

Infinitely suffering, but fighting off like all creation

The absence of itself

And before the chorus begins again, an almost offhand: anyway.

I can’t decide whether to call you a coward for that “anyway.” It feels a little too self-conscious, like, “yeah, yeah, I know. That was a lot, even for me, it’s just flowers in a vase.”

It is a lot, But Unreal Unearth is about the underworld, not just the journey through hell of the Inferno, but in dead and dying things being the soil of new life. Funeral flowers are one of humanities’ oldest rituals. There have been remains of cut flowers found with the remains of neanderthals. Which feels very beautiful and romantic, until you realize: it’s the smell. The flowers are there to mask the smell. Maybe it still feels beautiful and romantic. Maybe you’re taking a small life, the pretty corpse of a dying thing, to go with your loved one, to the grave and whatever lies beyond. That it’s a morbid gift doesn’t mean that it’s not a pretty one.

Anyway.

[revui]

the shitfucked way that i make character playlists

if i am to share any of them in a way that actually matters then this is required. i do not know how long this post will be but if i do my job then it shouldn't turn out absolutely unconscionable.

Update: It turned out less long than I anticipated. Is it understandable? Well, I can never tell whether people understand what I'm on about. Give it a skim if you like and feel free to report back.

I'll start with the basics, the traits shared across all my focused character playlists. I specify "focused" because I do still sometimes throw 50 or 100+ songs into a pot and then put a character name on it, but that's different to what I'm describing now.

All focused playlists contain exactly 8 songs.

The song order somewhat reflects both character progression and an outward perception of the character, as in, the lower down you get, the less obvious the traits would be to the people around the character.

With varying but deliberate order, each playlist touches on four facets of each character, with two songs for each.

The four facets in question are their interactions with the abstract, their interactions with the real world, their general emotions and values, and their logic and objectivity.

Each of those facets gets one "establishing" song in the first half of the playlist to set the precedent for that character and then a "response" song in the second half.

The placements of the establishing and response song correlate to each other; the fifth song responds to the first, the sixth to the second, the seventh to the third, and the eighth to the fourth.

The response song might contradict the establishing song in cases of internal conflict, or it might simply explore the facet further. It might reinforce specific parts of this facet or reveal hitherto unknown, often surprising or unhealthy manifestations of the traits in the establishing song. Sometimes the two songs have lines that directly parallel or foil each other. Bottom line is that it has to have some sort of interaction with the establishing song, at least in a way that I can understand.

Here is the playlist for my character Miranda Hilton, quickly edited so you know which songs respond to which, and which of the four facets they represent. The order of the facets depends on the character and isn't static, so they won't always be in this exact order.

The specific placement of each song also has meaning, as I mentioned above, so I will explain in more detail now.

Song 1 - The character's baseline. The most obvious traits of theirs you would recognize during their introduction or a meeting with them in real life. Where the character is comfortable.

Song 2 - Works in tandem with song 1. Establishes a different set of important traits that often augment those in song 1. Often less positive than song 1.

Song 3 - Sometimes a bit of a response to song 2. The first area of discomfort for the character. Often representative of something they regularly struggle with but not a major source of problems. More like background radiation.

Song 4 - Sometimes a bit of a response to song 1. Sort of a coin-flip of song 1. Exposits that which the character represses or the facet they struggle with the most.

Song 5 - Responds to song 1. Often challenges song 1 and relates to negative behavior that arises when the comfort of song 1 is no longer habitable.

Song 6 - Responds to song 2. This is often something the character hates about themself, whether it's an extension of song 2 or a challenge to it. If you're looking for a more cynical side of a character then you'll usually find it here. A good way to think about song 6 is, what would their theme song be if they were a villain?

Song 7 - Responds to song 3. Often a source of chaos or confusion in the character's life. Usually the weak point with the highest likelihood of breaking interpersonal relationships.

Song 8 - Responds to song 4. Not always overtly negative but always representative of something the character doesn't quite know how to reckon with. Song 8 can be surprisingly chill in contrast with the other response songs because it tends to be more of a reassurance or acknowledgement than a challenge because it usually doesn't represent something that needs to be tackled, it's just something that needs to be recognized.

Crucially, this all hinges on my understanding of the songs and how they relate to the character and the facet and the songs they're responding to, and I have no idea how opaque my thinking process is. The example above is just to help you have an idea of what the playlists look like and how I perceive them, not to explain why the songs are there. You can ask me about that if you want.

Anyway. That's the shitfucked way I make character playlists.

[yap-bot100]

Ok, i don’t know what’s going on anymore. I have a best friend right? They’re awesome, they’re chill, very sweet, real smart, so on so forth. Recently they started dating, that’s fine - kinda stung not going to lie but that’s my problem not theirs - they seem very happy and very much in love, good for them y’know?

My issue is that i can’t tell if I like them or if I’m just mixing friendship and romance. I’m not going to do anything about it because thats fucked up but i quite literally cannot tell anymore. I know that the first instinct is to say romance but i don’t want that from them, i don’t won’t to go ‘yes, this is my partner’, and i don’t want to introduce them to my family as such. I’ve known this person for years, they’ve already met my family, so it would be fine. I just don’t want to.

But the level of pain I felt when it sunk in that they’re dating someone else? I actually cried. Several times. I don’t think I’ve ever cried over someone like that outside of deaths.

I guess it makes sense to some degree, i felt that I’d lost them, that i was being replaced by some new stronger, taller, opposite-gender version of me. Their partner can make them smile and laugh like no one else by simply saying a couple words that just roll off their tongue. They can pick them up and carry them over their shoulder as if they were part of a romance novel. They take them on dates and hold their hand, give goodbye pecks. But what hurts the most is that if we ignore physical traits, if we ignore height, or face, or strength, or body, we are uncomfortably similar. Their partner and i both sew, we both hyperfixate on interesting things, we’re both oddly analytical, both strangely social with random people, both hate crowds, both express affection the same ways, both compliment the same things, are both sentimental to the point of sickly. I feel like my identity is wrapped up in someone else only I lost out to a relationship I wouldn’t be able to accept.

I want to go back to how it was. When we were best friends and i was the first person they’d talk to when something new happened, when they wanted my opinion on what to buy at the shops. When they’d come over to my place and chill with me watching a movie and talking over some details of something stupid someone decided to do that contradicted their whole world stance. How we’d stay up as late as we can to be tired enough to actually talk about deep shit. I miss having the friend that i could be a little clingy with - that I’d opened up to being clingy with. I hadn’t been a big physical affection person before. Now it just feels like I’m crossing boundaries I shouldn’t, because i know that if -whatever this is- is related to any kind of romantic feeling then I’ll not only be betraying the comfort of myself and of my friend but hurting their partner, who, by the way, is a really great person. Funny, and sweet, and very much in love with my friend, like always planning their next date with some kind of gift to go along with it kind of love.

And i hate so badly that even with all of this bullshit, i miss what we were. I miss being the most important. I know that they claim were both at their top just ‘different categories’ and maybe I’m competitive, maybe i just want the person I talk to the most to talk to me the most too, but i want to be top of the list combined.

We’ve been best friends for years. Through several groups of three that always ended with something going badly but we stayed. They’ve known each other longer but were never close until a couple months ago. I feel like I’m now in another group of three, only having to watch as they’re close, and cute, and happy. From the outside, like a third wheel. Watch and add to a conversation I already know has been shared between them. Sit and wonder why the ever living fuck I’m even still there when you can get my perspective, my exact words from the same person they’re dating. I feel like my opinions are irrelevant because someone already has them. Like I’m a double. What’s the point in having a group of three if two of them are supposedly the same. I feel like i hold no value in conversations anymore. When you can do nothing but agree with someone else because they’re always saying what you want to say.

Im so sick of feeling like this. So sick of putting all my time and joy into someone that’s already getting that and more from another person. Someone they talk to regularly, someone who plays their stupid video games with them, someone who calls them almost every night. I feel like my time isn’t enough for them but i know it would hurt them if I left. What the fuck am i supposed to do with that?