#localcatyaps

[localkittycat]

the whole trans men not experiencing opression for being men is so funny like i dont get constant weird stares and literal pearl clutching by the grown adult women who see me enter the gynecologists office. yknow? for seeing me as too masculine? believing i dont belong here? assuming about my genitalia?

gynecological healthcare is NOTORIOUSLY bad, underresearched and exclusionist.

and dont tell me its because I'm trans, i am a man and they dont want me in these spaces on the basis of me being a MAN. men require this healthcare too, full stop. i belong in these spaces while being a man. i deserve to be safe in the gynecologists office while being a man. i deserve to be acknowledged as a man while getting the healthcare i require.

"people see you as a man so you dont experience misogyny"

until i require reproductive healthcare, where I'm either actively excluded for being a man, or I'm judged and experience misogyny due to my proximity to masculinity and not "woman-ing" correctly. where I'm assumed to be a woman because this healthcare is literally known as "women's care" and i must be some disgusting degenerate because of how i look, vagina or not.

your terfy radfem denial of reality will never define the truth 🤷

[localkittycat]

hope its okay i add onto this, as my species absolutely influences my attraction too.

cats are known for not being particularly monogamous to put it lightly, and i think it influences how i think about relationships. this expectation of only ever being with one person ever, is. weird to me. a concious choice i engage in for my partner. its rather that im indifferent to the concept as a whole however. i get so much out of this relationship, it makes sense to me to keep it.

i can also relate to the body parts, the base of my tail where it connects to my back is particularly sensitive. the spots behind my ears too. its electric.

the difference between friendship and relationship too is rather artificial if that makes sense. i moreso distinguish what acts are appropriate to engage in with which person, and of course how i close i consider myself to them. the labels put on these relationships are for human socialisation purposes, which i dont mind.

dont even get me started on gender lmao

Sexuality as a bird is really interesting. I find myself falling into the categories of demi/poly/pan, strong lean toward girl. Often my desires are more toward brooding. Specific parts of my body are super sensitive. Like my belly, down my back, the base of my tailfeathers...

[localkittycat]

transandrophobia amirite /s

(long post)

marginalized men exist

marginalized men are opressed on the basis of being marginalized MEN too

having your masculinity questioned, stripped away from you, being told you're not "man enough", being excluded from a safe space because you are deemed unsafe as a man

are all "androphobia". "misandry". sexism. whatever you want to call it.

those who typically benefit can very easily become victims within hierarchy themselves

did we forget? you are one unlucky day away from becoming disabled. anything could potentially trigger a mental health episode. anyone could judge you negatively on the street and put you in immediate danger.

these things happen to men aswell, and yes, this strips you of a privilege you may have once had.

disabled men are not taken more serious

men of colour are not killed less

GNC men are not "correctively" raped less

fat men are not shamed less

mentally ill men are not abused less

that man at the bar is not statistically more likely to kill you than the woman serving you drinks.

abusers. will. abuse.

we need to stop screaming numbers numbers numbers, we need to stop the "one is worse than the other", we need to think more nuanced than that and include ALL victims of bigoted violence in our conversations

we CANNOT put these identies in a neat little list from most to least privileged group

life is so much more complicated than "that man MUST be having a better life than me for being a man".

stop thinking in black and white

stop thinking its us vs them

thats what they want. gender war. infighting.

divide.

organize. educate. stand in solidarity.

don't just uplift men. don't just uplift women. dont just uplift enbies.

Uplift the people who need a voice. uplift the people you love. uplift your local community.

every one, in every height and every size and every skin colour. and every gender.

"men" is not the enemy. masculinity is not a target. manhood is not evil.

this is a very tumblr problem when it comes to how we're treating our transmascs and men.

but we have to admit the gendered divide plaguing our society has been a problem for centuries. the answer is not pointing fingers at those who benefit passively. it's not shifting structural blame onto a singular gender.

in this household we say;

Eat the rich

All cops are bastards

sex work is real work

black lives matter

stop asian hate

protect trans kids

free palestine

slava ukraini

alerta alerta antifascista

[localkittycat]

inspired by undercover werewolf kid's post!

Having a nonhuman body;;

pros :

• flexibility :3

• lots of naps..

• heightened senses o.o

• climbing on things!!

• maker of biscuits

• meow :3 mrrrp mrrowww

• if i fits i sits. on everything. everywhere.

cons :

• chocolate bad :(

• milk bad :(

• human seats hurt tail .

• crepuscular :/ (active at dusk and dawn)

• high alert = lots of energy

• probably shouldn't have a little salami T^T

[localkittycat]

woke up as a cat. took my medication as a cat. ate a meal as a cat. got driven as a cat. ordered my prescription as a cat. played switch as a cat. exercising on my bike as a cat. took a shower as a cat. went to bed as a cat.

living a normal life. as a cat.

[localkittycat]

Ive seen a few creatures post about this, so here's my personal experience with physical and biological nonhumanity. :3

(and yes this is serious. all this became my reality after many years of blatant denial. its only recently that everything seems to have fallen into place and started making sense)

so, yes, I am a cat. fully and entirely. the way my body is perceived by outsiders seemingly fails to reflect my real form*, and i am unsure how or why. i feel and even see parts of my body that others just... don't. I've learned to accept my life being this way.

was i born this way? that's a very loaded question. for me, i think yes. i was born different, i was the odd one out, the humans around me seemed able to atleast sense that something was different. I've lived with that feeling for many years before i even realised that humans are unable to percieve my entire body at all. I've had to contort my body since the day i was taught to stand upright, but luckily as a feline I'm naturally quite flexible. though, i feel like I've unlearned some natural positions over the years with how it was drilled into me that it was wrong to sit and stand a certain way.

i experienced alot of traumatic things (both related to my nonhumanity and not) that have lead me into years of dissociation and denial. i am very disconnected from what is seen as my body*, but i still have to be aware and adapt because of it. its more annoying and exhausting than anything, i especially dislike human clothing. it's playing dress up. this paired with gender dysphoria has been a very difficult combo to manage. i dont dress this body up in the way many humans expect of me because of the genitalia i was born with. you can image the bigotry ive experienced related to this aswell.

roaming the environment i live in with my body, it becomes quite apparent that people think my body is wrong, i'm behaving wrong, i'm moving wrong. i sit down in ways that dont hurt my tail (dont get me started on how inconsiderate typical human spaces are), i wear headphones and hats in ways that dont injure my ears. i walk in a way that is natural to me- but i am often forced to/expected to put my paws down the way a human foot would. its not particularly comfortable, shoes help but i will struggle with this forever. luckily it is easy to blame this on other illness of mine that cause "abnormal posture", so humans think there's a ""real"" medical reason and i wont be seen as such a nutcase.

one part many don't talk about is sexuality. i have the drive of a cat, i have the instincts of a cat, i have the needs of a cat. I've learned the expectations and customs of human relationships and live happily by them knowing that's what my partner wants, it works out and i am very lucky to have him. and, yes, this means i see my real body in the bedroom too. and i act accordingly. my partner is entirely aware of my nonhumanity, and doesn't mind. he is unable to see the aforementioned body parts* so it is of little concern in the first place.

what's nice however is that, with how close our bond is, he seems to be able to sense them much more than any other human. it's like he can see the real me.

so, yeah. no, this is not particularly distressing or affecting my quality of life. i dont think this is anything diagnosable, nor do i care. i know I'm mentally ill, disabled, and frankly weird. but thats my life.

i dont think I'm any sort of secret experiment, or was born into a wrong body. i am just an anomaly. no matter how you as an outsider percieve me, it will never erase my reality. maybe I'm an SCP or something. lol

* my real form, the body parts I'm talking of inlcude the following; my paws, pawpads, my stripes, my tail, my nose, my whiskers, my ears and my fangs. i have those of a marbled cat.

* i am aware of how humans see me. i know what i look like from anothers perspective. i dont see this in the mirror, however pictures taken will often also not reflect my form correctly.

[localkittycat]

whats funny about cameoshifts and having nonphysical theriotypes while having one "main" physical type is that

i stay a feline, right, thats my baseline

but i get seagull shifts sometimes, but that doesn't stop my physical feline traits, so im just a cat that feels like a seagull? you get what i mean?? this cat gets wing and beak shifts. lol.

this is part of what made finding my main 'type so difficult, i still get phantom limbs ontop of my physical shifts. i couldn't tell them apart sometimes.

so basically imagine a theriform cat who is a seagull and waterfowl therian. this cat occasionally gets urges to soar and fly and glide, to dive underwater, to spread its wings and ruffle its feathers. but its still a cat at the end of the day. and it does like being a cat, thats just who it is.

[localkittycat]

stares at you with big wet begging kitty eyes like I couldn't just rip your hand off once you reach out to me

[localkittycat]

about me ΘΔ

english is not my first language, i am german.

art tagged #onionpen

random thoughts tagged #localcatyaps

Disabled little fagboy. autistic adhd. Taken.

exter/intersex.

It/Its, He/Him, Thing/That, 🐾/🐾self

holothere, physical psychological therian

I am physically, literally, genetically a cat;

marbled cat / felinae , werecat

other, secondary (mental) types:

waterfowl, seagull, leafeon, zap (skylanders), owl-hearted, red panda-hearted

and an annoying amount of cameoshifts

i like spongebob, minecraft, art, furry, animals, reading wikipedia articles, splatoon, punk politics, mario kart, mario party, pokemon, collars, weird self expression, i listen to metalcore, punk rock, edm and german house music.

i am an adult.

i may talk about adult topics.

[localkittycat]

feral wild cat in the doctors waiting room, what will he do?!

(getting blood drawn. i hate the vet T-T)

[localkittycat]

there's multiple moodboard requests I've made that have just been ignored entirely :( now, dont get me wrong, i understand. they dont have to do everything, and my species does not have alot of pictures nor general media. (if you feel spoken to, no pls dont worry I'm not mad or entitled to anything from you)

it's just a little lonely. knowing I'm an endangered species. my people, my fellows, their habitats are declining, they're being hunted for pelt, food sources are dwindling due to lack of habitat. humans dont know much about us. humans barely know we exist. which, i think its good. leave those in the wild be. but i feel all the more lonely when theres no discussion, no research, no outrage for my feral friends. and theres little i can do. because there is nothing for me to show you. to forward you to. to convince you of. all i can hope is that you understand, fight for the species you do know, and hopefully they'll be saved in the crossfire.

i hope they, out in the wild, know i miss them. i love them. i feel with them. i hope they're proud of me too. that i live despite the odds. depsite my environment. so far away, like a fish out of water. i hope they hear my cries, share my laughter. see that i am here for them. i hope to participate, for a future in which they thrive, where they may roam free. for all animals. for everyone.

sentimental rant over :p

[localkittycat]

i miss my home. i miss being surrounded by trees. i miss being up high. i miss being sheltered by the leaves. i miss climbing. i miss leaping. i miss my ears, my paws, my tail. i feel them, i see them, i sense them, but it's never enough. others don't see. but they should. i need to purr, i need to hiss, i need to meow. i need to be away from the humans, unknown to most, travelling the lands. i want to travel with my mate. if only we met in this form. but I'm eternally grateful to have them here and now.

[localkittycat]

i dont care how unbelievable people think my identity is. i dont care how oddly and weirdly and differently I'm expressing myself. i was given complex thought and i will use it to its full potential, these rigid boxes and rules should be far behind us as a society, as a species. it doesn't matter. i will wear what makes me comfortable in my body, i was not made for you to look at. i was not made for anything. every thought, every expectation, all the potential you imagine are purely a figment of projection. I'm not doing life wrong. I'm not doing identity wrong. nobody is. i know what i am more than you ever will.

[localkittycat]

*bonks you*

mrrp :3 mroww meow maow!! mrrrrrr mraaaw meeeoooowww

*paws at you*

mmfh maow. brrrrrow •w•

*sighs and loafs*

-w- •w• -w- slow blink

[localkittycat]

-.- huff. mmrrp. mmmh.

-_- mrrowww.