#look I just miss the quiet times

[q-starhalo]

Mm, so Pomme managed to help Bad calm down a bit? Eh, not as fun with destroying most stuff and the waystone but that'll mean a (hopefully) calm beginning and probably ending for today's stream :D

[forcedhesitation]

astarion origin playthrough worth it just for all the extra moments where he does the "sad wet cat" face

[alsojnpie]

since i can't have an autoplay playlist on this site I'll just pin whatever song i wish i could force you to listen to while you look at my page

[forestofsprites]

yearning for my shitty little studio apartment and its mouse problem . and general closet-like appearance .

[greppelheks]

We all actually need summer vacation in the way we had as kids. Just six weeks off work where time doesn't exist. Where we can just hang out by the pool for hours on end, reading. Where we can come home at God knows what hour for dinner, exhausted but satisfied from spending all day outside. And we can actually decompress from working all year. So we can come back to work refreshed and motivated to start again. I miss the way time seemed endless during those days.

[taeyungie]

hi ♡ i guess i'm back? 🥹

here's a little life update! i think you guys deserve it after my absence that lasted longer than even i expected it to last ;( i am very sorry about that. i miss everyone here and bangtan so much, you have no idea. the reason for all that is that for the past months i have been going through a lot of things and changes in my life. there were good and bad things happening, time flies extra fast, days melt into one and i didn't even notice the past half a year pass. although i think my absence was unavoidable in these circumstances i just thought that you guys deserve to know what's been up with me for the past months haha i have received a lot messages and reminders that people remember about me and that they miss me and i just want to send all of you my biggest apologies for leaving you for so long with no response, as well as all my love and gratitude! 🥺 i think i've been always fairly transparent on here so if anyone wanted to know more I'll leave some more details in the tags but basically I just hope that soon i will be able to become more active again and respond to messages ❤️❤️❤️ i hope everyone is doing great 🥰

[infizero]

ok guys i dont wanna be a hater but im gonna be 100% honest i didnt rlly like the nimona movie 😭 I MEAN IT WAS FUN. it was nice. but i feel like it was missing everything that made me like the original graphic novel and honestly by the last like 30 minutes i was kind of just waiting for it to be over so i could read the book again 😭 NO HATE TO ANYONE WHO RLLY LIKED IT believe me when i say i dont think it is bad or anything. but i feel like just sooooo much was changed that it didnt feel like nimona at all to me. idk how to explain it, im sure once i reread the book i’ll be able to put it into words since the original will be more fresh in my mind. i think it was good but as someone who was literally obsessed w the og graphic novel it was honestly kinda disappointing. but i dont rlly care honestly its still rlly cool it got a movie!! 

but in my mind at least it proves that some things dont need to be made into a movie. ppl act like movies are the best form a piece of media can take and if something gets made into a movie then that’d be the peak form of it. but i honestly think nimona works wayyyyyy better in its original graphic novel form. most of the early stuff is way more slice of life lowkey stuff that lets you get attached to ballister and nimona as characters and get invested in their relationship w each other, BEFORE all the angsty final act stuff happens. also there honestly was just a ton of stuff that felt to me like it worked better in the original, like jousting tournament thing instead of the knighting ceremony, nimona being captured and being forced to turn into her “true” form rather than this new version with it just sort of happening bcuz of Emotions, etc. also the movie suffered from a lot of pacing and tone issues imo but the former i think is just from that lack of the slow buildup of their friendship, and the latter is something that i think just worked better in the book. idk again I’LL BE ABLE TO SAY THIS STUFF MORE CONCRETELY WHEN I ACTUALLY REREAD THE BOOK but i dont remember there being so much jokes and goofy shit DURING serious scenes. like iirc in the original during serious scenes it was SERIOUS. but in the movie theres so many unnecessary unfunny jokes and stuff. idk IDK i probably just had too high expectations idk. anyways

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

[tnbc-thoughtsandheadcanons]

Still kind of amazed that this blog has been around for...7 years? Like, the time REALLY flows by...

[piplupod]

thinking abt the previous post, the agency i worked at for a couple years would use bits of ABA and I just... I always nodded along to the boss instructing me on how to work with the kids with those tactics (I worked with the kids who were 6 and under) and then as soon as she left I tossed all that shit out of my brain and just treated the kid like a human being and worked with them where they were at.

and guess what !!! i had the most and fastest success out of every other worker in the entire building!! i was often told it seemed like i was working miracles with my kids bc they'd just progress so fast (comparatively) through the skill book we had to work on, and that the kids always seemed so happy and eager to come to the building after they started working with me!!

this is partially why I quit because I couldn't stand seeing my coworkers treat the kids like they were dogs (talking down to them, being patronizing, and utilizing shitty ABA tactics) and as much good as I was doing there, it was fucking me up bc they were extremely demanding that I work more than I was comfortable (or able) to, and often put me with "problem" kids who I didn't get to regularly see so we couldn't make much progress bc the kids weren't able to get to know me and (rightfully!) didn't trust me because they thought I'd be treating them the way everyone else did.

i just...... my coworkers would ask me how I had so much success and I would just shrug and say like, "just treat them like they're human and work with them where they're at" and I couldn't explain any more bc that'd require me admitting I wasn't following the boss' guidance for a lot of shit fjfkdl

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[coridallasmultipass]

I'm still internally laughing about that goth Dirk post, so I dug up the pics from the time I did a goth Dirk Strider to an NYCstuck meetup in like 2014/15ish... and this first pic is sending me lmao... it's so cringe and perfect.

My caption on the selfie:

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

[paeonie-s]

im still freaking out abt denji that was such a good fucking chapter

[soggypotatoes]

sometimes I'll have a bit of a freak out over whether my therapist is actually helping me

it's understandable, considering how much I spend on it

but.. therapy is strange.. it's not concrete. there's no way of measuring whether it helps or not. and my therapist doesn't like.. give me tips or strategies, but I like that. bc I know all the strategies, honestly. i did 15 months of dbt, 20 weeks total in hospital, I knoooow all that shit. a lot of the time she literally just sort of sits with me. today in fact, I spent, like.. maybe a third of the session all up just sitting in silence, thinking. and a critical part of me says, what's the point of paying someone hundreds just to sit in silence? but... I don't think I would have, otherwise. and the important thing is, *someone was there*. someone sat in silence with me, let me just think for a bit, and then I could say what I was thinking about, and have the relief of being able to tell someone things I feel would be too heavy for anyone else.

I have a lot of other thoughts about therapy, lol. but I think she's exactly the person I needed.

[carcinized]

^ top 10 albums that make me feel emotions