#lulztime

[lawlznet]

State of the Channel Address:

I've missed this entire week so far in part because I've had so much accumulated crap to do from months of avoidance behavior, and I can't bring myself to get on late just to do a half assed show for a couple hours before disconnecting with all the grace of a fart.

I know that the opposite end of "waiting until you can do everything perfectly" is potentially, never streaming again, but honestly? Is it really that much better having a VOD archive full of embarassment?

Look, I haven't even found the time to edit out potential dox from an old vod, which is why there have been no new updates on youtube aside from the occasional short in over a month. Don't even get me started on the mental emotional landscape.

Turning to social media and filling your profile with retweets and retoots and getting involved in drama that's almost certainly beyond you is a coping mechanism. Hell it's probably how some former vtubers degrade into vtweeters over time, getting stuck in this hell of forever shoving things under the bed.

So what's to be done with this?

Well I'd jokingly say "time to touch grass" here but I never stopped my diet and exercise regimen. Cosplaying May was a proof of concept that it was possible to get fit from sheer desire to become a Femboy alone, and that journey hasn't ended.

I've also swallowed my pride and hooked up for some new vtuber collabs, soon(tm). Also I have no idea why I didn't stream the previous ones. These WILL be streamed.

And though I've teased it before, I intend to continue the spoopy ARG stuff sometime in November, perhaps with social media blitzing the week of my anniversary (October 31st to November 5th). I don't know what form it will take and frankly there remains the possibility that all of my current active socmed accounts (the ones you're reading this from) somehow die before that can happen, from Elongated Muskrat making yet another dumbass move, Fediverse eating itself into an ouroboros, or Tumblr conducting another Purge, but given how the last one was *also* a caffeinated dream splurge of using up free time at work and fueling my in-character tweets with out of character madness?

I'm sure it will be A-okay!

Even if that all fails somehow, the crowning event of all of that socmed hoopla is meant to be a Dungeons and Dragons 5th Edition live play that i'm hoping to run in December, the first I will have run in years. I have three months to prepare the campaign and in the weeks leading up to it i'm hoping to slowwwwwwlly send out invites to people who might be interested in joining. It is sure to be a mess, insofar as trying to run online several session long TTRPG's while balancing meatworld and vtuber world responsibilities, but sometimes you have to kick bad expectations to the curb and just try and do shit anyway. All I have to spend is time and while everything from employment to online presence is uncertain, at the end of the day...

...so what?

Yeah I could trash all these plans and simplify things and be as mundane as possible trying to force things to "work" as they did for the past two years. Because there might not be a December because any number of things could happen before then.

But so fucking what? Tomorrow I could die, the next week a tragedy or three happens and then all of this will be the last thing on my mind. I could also try to limp along and get back to "normal" because its safe and I totally loved looking back at a whole bunch of mediocre and embarassing archives where a clearly disinterested and half asleep femboy tells themself that they're entertaining.

Stop it. This isn't my primary job (thank god) and nobody is forcing me to keep up this song and dance to a made up metronome and an imaginary conductor, so why do I feel the need to force half baked, half assed content online only to excortiate myself afterward? Does that make any fucking sense? No? Why would it?

Why do something you don't love? Why do something that only makes you hate yourself if you're not even being PAID for it?

You look at what you've "accomplished" in the meanwhile, frittering away time everywhere but your passions while lamenting not finding time for your passions and you don't even recognize yourself in the mirror anymore.

Go big or go home.

...So yeah i'll also be working on an in-character youtube project with another vtuber friend! The details of which need to be-

-hashed out but it'll be an excitingly different experience all around! It's been forever since i've done any recorded acting, voice over or otherwise, and i'm not entirely sure what to expect. You can bet that there will be #lulzlore involved and yes, it'll be canon. That's going to be sometime in November once again, schedule and a messy timeline notwithstanding.

On the short term it'd be nice if I could stream regularly again. As in, you can reliably tune in at 2100 CST and expect to at least see my loading screen running instead of randomly getting a twitch email notif at like 2236 which lasts for like an hour because Lulz literally (note: not lirerally) dies on stream.

You know what would also be nice? How about not having to pack up and switch fucking social media platforms every few months? Gee fucking willickers wouldn't that just be BEAUTIFUL.

As beautiful as you reading this. <3

Anyway if you've read this far you're a trooper and Thank You For Playing. See you next time when one of these rants is less stream of consciousness and doesn't disseminate the point in between sporadic bouts of insanity.

See ya!

[helsauge]

Arizona Green tea lulztime (à Rue du Sauvage)

[krutonite]

Generated posts to get your attention.

I've been seeing a great influx of posts generated by Tumblr or popular blogs on Tumblr where they use popular gifs, fake comments with witty 'tumblr standard' remarks like "I CAN'T EVEN" and "I AM SO DONE". All that just to get your attention and then have a look at their bullshit. Some sneaky Tumblr mind control shit :P

[iamfollowingyoubecauseyouarehot]

lulztime, heyfunniest and the-absolute-funniest-posts are like the 9gag of tumblr. they slap their names in every single post they reblog. it's really annoying.

[babyufo]

URL

[ihaveabigcockpit]

i petition to get rid of the 1000 note blogs that RUIN EVERY GOOD POST

[lawlznet]

Trapped in some ruined buildings in the middle of nowhere, with half of the team disabled, Team Shitpost prepares to get their hands dirty to survive the night in yet another dystopian apocalypse.

Will they survive? Tune in at Noon CST/1800 GMT on 11/11/2023 to find out... at twitch.tv/lulztime !

[lawlznet]

WAITING ROOM IS UP! :D :D :D

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[lawlznet]

lethaling companies #envtuber #vtuber

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[lawlznet]

ONE HUNDRED PERCENT ORANGE JUICE

This weekend’s derpy collab: ONE HUNDRED PERCENT CITRUS FLUID TONIGHT, RIGHT NOW! #envtuber #vtuber #vtuberuprising

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[lawlznet]

Annnd we're rolling! Live with the survival horror TTRPG, We Who Remain! twitch.tv/lulztime

[lawlznet]

whispers we're live. :')

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[lawlznet]

VKILLER COLLAB

This afternoon at around 1300 CST: Vtubers go to a streamer convention! What wacky hijinks will they get up to next? Find out... soon(tm)!

twitch.tv/lulztime

Featuring: @cosmobergamot , @MenheraAgeha , and @mechatv.bsky.social

[lawlznet]

er... this isn't a story...

I'm as confused as you are. Someone's entered Lawler's twitch channel and is currently streaming... something. https://www.twitch.tv/lulztime