#lying in bed staring at the ceiling

[inanitate]

just finished reading the dungeon meshi manga and

[ldk-why-lm-here]

I'm afraid to turn off the light at night

Not because I'm scared of the dark

The dark has never bothered me

Instead I'm afraid that once I'm alone,

led in the dark with nothing but my thoughts

All that can't touch me in the day

will come, find me and pounce

Catching me while I'm vulnerable

All the anxious thoughts will come running,

charging at me

And I, defenceless, will be able to do nothing

except for cry.

Cry because of everything I've ever done and everything that I haven't

while my brain fights itself,

torn in two,

convincing me I'm awful

and reassuring me that I am not.

So I keep the light on

and stop myself from sleeping

until I can't stay awake any longer

then I suffer from tiredness

all day long

and the cycle repeats

day after day

night after night.

- 𓆟

[magicruned]

me: i have had trouble sleeping so im going to try and go to bed earlier so I can fix my sleep schedule

me: continues staying up late

me: suffering from The Thoughts that come with staying up past 12:30

[kizzer55555]

The Vampire Aesthetic

Ok so Danny knows two billionaires personally and they really couldn’t be more different. Yet they had one thing in common. A vampire aesthetic. Sam is fully into goth. Spiderwebs, bats, the color black. She enjoys fangs and fake blood and the darkness of her soul. Meanwhile, Vlad is Vlad. If his name wasn’t enough, the dark clothing, pale skin, and flying around with a cape and fangs with coffins in his mansion really sells it.

Danny doesn’t know many rich people so he thinks this might be some kind of trend. (If Paulina is rich, her family likes the chupacabra) So he just thinks that all rich people have some kind of vampire thing going on.

Cue Danny somehow ending in the Wayne household. Maybe he was brought over as a friend of one of the bats, maybe rescued from a field trip/vacation gone wrong, maybe some other situation. But he is there in civilian form with civilian Waynes and Danny just takes a good long look around the inside of the mansion.

“So where’s the vampire aesthetic?

Everyone freezes.

Danny just starts looking around, checking behind paintings and feeling the walls for secret levers. Used to secret passages with Vlad and possibly Sam. The Fentons definitely had them when they were temporarily rich.

“Come on, I know you guys are hiding it.”

Cue the entire batfamily thinking that this is another Tim and that he is fully aware that these people are the batfamily. Danny hangs around the mansion more and the bats just start dropping their disguises and not even bothering to hide stuff around Danny because they assume he already knows. (Possibly even trying to recruit him to be a new bat) Meanwhile, Danny, who does not know these people are batman and his birds, just does not pick up on any of it.

He grew up in a health violation with a giant ballon observatory lab above his head and a portal to the afterlife in his basement. He is a half dead teenager who has tea with the god of time and his godfather is the other parent to his clone child. He’s used to death lazers being scattered across his home and mysterious stains on clothing.

People are weird! He doesn’t judge!

[shinwoonoh]

anywaaaaays, the eighth sense, eh? just a show about surfing and love. totally not about trauma and being in pain everyday to the point where you feel numbed and then suddenly being seen and pulled in like the tide that comes and goes every night and you sorta let it fall naturally at your feet in whatever way it wants to because the ocean is both life and violence. containing things that man has not even begun to perceive but also having the ability to carve away at stone and rock swallowing the earth into itself

[helianskies]

so a recent discussion i had led to a revelation about one of the things that, at the heart of it all, i love about engspa. one of those big things that compels me most about these two. and it boils down to something relatively simple, now that i've reflected on it.

antonio as spain is a romance nation, and over the years that label has been one he has worn not always willingly. it is indeed a tiring thing, that expectation he feels from others. there's a pressure to that label to be someone who takes the lead, takes initiative, instigates, courts, performs the gestures, has the ideas - and it weighs him down after a while because it all feels so one-sided. he wonders why it has to be him. why the label of 'romance nation' means that he has to take the lead with romance when maybe he wants someone else to do that for him. when he wants to be the one who feels loved, pursued, wanted, and so on.

enter arthur. someone who wants to be seen as a gentleman, as mature, as good. i think he takes to romancing in a way no one else has for antonio and the label that antonio bears just... disappears. their romance and their love feels more like duet than a solo. arthur shows he is willing to be a romantic from the very start and, though perhaps a bit baffling for antonio at first, he falls fast for the man who shows he cares. the man who asks how he is, who learns his music, who listens, who spends time in private with him, who'll pick him a rose - or a whole bouquet - and who kisses him not out of obligation or performance but out of instinct. because he wants to and loves to and also understands that physical contact is important to antonio.

arthur alleviates some of that pressure for antonio, and has found someone willing to let him be the romantic he is at heart. arthur can be himself with antonio, just as antonio can be himself with arthur. love is in every gesture and word and moment that they share. and antonio feels that love without having to search for it. for each other, they are a breath of fresh air.

i think that's just one of many things i love about them. arthur, the romantic, the gentleman, the understanding. antonio, who loves loving someone who loves loving him, too. their love is made easy. it is easy to love each other. and that makes their love strong.

[bull-shit-suji]

awoke in the dead of night with a visceral need to redraw this panel

[pepplemint]

Going to look at some puppies tomorrow. Spending the night pondering right and wrong in a world with an uncertain future.

[baeshijima]

HAPPY BDAY WORLDWIDE BELOVED

[sh1zukarul3z]

just a normal conversation between jojo fans (rule)

[thesewersofparis]

people who can nap give me your powers

please i am so exhausted

[semiotomatics]

just need a reality check real quick: its not normal to stay in bed all day if you dont have anything you absolutely have to do, right? like for ppl who arent depressed or w/e, even on a day off you usually get out of bed and do things right?

[outlying-hyppocrate]

i started this year off wanting to change myself in a way that would hurt me but now i realize that was a shitty thing to do. but i want to do it. again.

[minecraftbookshelf]

Etho in MCC

Everen Limited Life Animatic drop

LIFE SERIES MEETING MIGHT BE HAPPENING/HAVE HAPPENED TODAY SEASON FIVE SOON?!?!??

I need to go lie down

[tallytals]

the tsp high has still not worn off

[cornedbeefhashtags]

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