#mac’s rambles

[starsmacabray]

drop this sunflower 🌻 into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy! lets spread a little sunshine ☀️ <3

gasp-

@hotdamnitsmoony stawppp i’m blushing :))

[charlieism]

[charlie-kellyyy]

I love over analyzing characters I love picking them apart I love associating lyrics with characters even if it doesn't seem to make sense cause it makes sense to me I love projecting onto characters I love turning characters inside out just to explain one line of dialogue they had and the meaning behind it I love characters

[sam-winchesters-gay-lover]

in general i think sam is gayer than dean unless it’s incestuous in which case dean is far gayer

[nahimjustfuckinwithya]

good morning lgbtqdw+ community

[hubba1892]

"Oh my god - how much I enjoyed that. At half time I said if we can turn this it is something we can tell our grandkids. I see mine in 10 days so I can tell them."

[puntastic-artist]

*picks up mic*

*taps it*

People should portray Francis like a loser more, I need loser content, please I'm starving

[macaronissi-mo]

so... I found a foil Gale magic card at my local game shop :>

also looked for Astarion or Astarion's Thirst but no luck there, I'm VERY happy with my Gale though <3 I also got Wyll and Halsin :D

I know very little about Magic other than watching my friend play the online version but I am (unsurprisingly) enticed by the D&D/Baldur's Gate cards

[unclewaynemunson]

Thinking about Nancy Wheeler going to college finally escaping the town that has held her a captive of her memories for years. Thinking about Nancy in her room, putting stuff in boxes, desperate to leave, longing to be able to breathe again. Thinking about how she'll pause and stare at the pictures on her wall, the pictures that tell a story that looks unfinished because it got the most brutal ending possible. Her and Barb, making silly faces in a photo booth. Her and Barb, with sunglasses on in the Wheeler's backyard. Her and Barb, dressed up for Halloween, their cheeks pressed together and matching bright smiles on their faces. Her and Barb, always.

She gets to go to college. She gets to leave Hawkins and grow older and live a whole life. But Barb will forever be nothing more than the girl laughing in the fading pictures on her wall, no matter how old Nancy will get.

She has never been able to take any of the pictures down. But this time, she removes all of them from her childhood bedroom wall with gentle hands. She takes them with her to Boston and carefully hangs them on the wall of her dorm room. And she'll repeat that same process every time she moves somewhere else.

[fatmaclover]

theres something to be said about how mac still holds such a childish adoration for his parents after such a long time. how literally its shown to us by the fact that

mac always slicked his hair back as a child, when he still had contact with his father

he stops doing this into adulthood, but later in life, once mac interacts with his father again, he starts slicking his hair back again

he doesnt stop. slicking his hair back. until his own father walks out during his coming out performance. the guy he put it on for. only after that does he completely stop styling his hair that way

not to mention the constant refusal that his mom (and dad) could be anything but perfect, the way hes so desperate to do good by them, viewing them as the way to measure his success...

and. yeah thats. something.

the internal denial that his parents treated him poorly, the fact that its his primary instinct to deny that his parents suck, the constant dismissal of his own issues relating to family because his whole life hes been told that "other people have it worse". the way hes internalized that so hard. the way it takes his dad walking out on macs coming out performance to him for mac to stop blindly idolizing some guy whos threatened to kill him

the constant fear of his own father, while also believing him to be the coolest bestest guy ever. the way he always assumes his father is gonna get violent when actually talking to him, but sings nothing but praises when away from him

the fact that he still calls his dad "daddy" even.

i mean you cant really blame him for not fully growing up in some areas huh

its not even that i think he doesnt know that his parents treat him horribly, it just really seems like he wants so badly to believe thats not the case from years of having his cries for help ignored or made fun of. he cant have been treated poorly, because charlie was treated poorly, and his baggage isnt nearly as bad as charlies, so clearly macs home life wasnt bad.

i think thats proven most of all by his frustration with his own family at times, it really feels like theres some underlying issues. they can very quickly manifest as frustration and anger, but honestly its probably mostly sadness. the way he reacts to his own mother really reminds me of how i interact with family members i have grudges with but have to pretend i dont. im not actually angry at any of these people, im mostly just exhausted by them.

he very clearly is still aware of the neglect he faced as a kid, to me. he knows his home life was severely fucked up, hes just never been able to express that, so hes coped by just. pretending that it didnt happen.

and realistically i dont know if he could ever properly acknowledge that his home life was fucked and his parents suck. maybe hed acknowledge that his dad sucks now, but it wouldnt have been that bad when he was a kid and wasnt a fag. right? he was loved then. his mom still did a great job raising him, and he really loves her, and he was raised with all the love and care a child needs.

[starsmacabray]

i did not know this was an option but i am actively sobbing WHAT DO YOU MEANNN YOU SENT ME THE MOON IS THIS A PROPOSAL? (I accept)

[charlieism]

sunny episode where dee starts dating women and mac gets up in arms abt it bc being gay is 'his thing' and it snowballs into a being gay competition. in the end dennis wins. nobody even knew he was competing

[nutmegpoid]

this is how wind waker was meant to be played

[charlie-kellyyy]

real footage of me trying not to say "is that a sunny reference?" / "this happened in sunny" / "this conversation is so sunny coded" to absolutely everything

(I am trying to appear sane and normal)

[sam-winchesters-gay-lover]

sam’s smile makes me weak in the knees for real

[sunscall]

my favourite thing about macdennis is their weird domestic habits like wdym they rented all their furniture for more than two decades instead of buying them. they rented the predator movie each time too even though it's their favourite movie that they've watched 30 times in the last two months. mac peels dennis' apples for him and dennis isn't allowed to eat apples with them. they have monthly dinners that they look forward to where they dress nicely and go to fancy restaurants. MONTHLY. mac only knows how to cook boxed mac and cheese and dennis screams at him for this but doesn't consider taking up cooking himself ofc. they make a room in their suburbs house a trash room and paste fresherners all over the room bc they don't know how to just take out the trash like normal people. they need two rooms and two bathrooms at minimum as a home, and bc they can't find that, they'd rather sleep with dee and an old man in one bed in a house with only one bathroom. the fact that basically nothing in their house before the fire belonged to mac, and dennis supposedly hates living with mac and yet still does even though they're pushing 50. they seem to share their finance, and dennis tells mac to stop buying the rock drinks using it. dennis lets mac massage his pecs and dye his hair. they do all this and yet dennis acts like mac is insane for acting like they're a couple.