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I just finished all the chapters of tscr that are out and I just had to write a comment, I've been keeping a note on my phone called "the stars cried requiem annotations", because I realised I had a few things to say and I will not remember them, but I can't access ao3 without vpn and the bitch stopped working a couple of weeks ago, so I'm here (so scared you're gonna update and vpn will still be out, I wouldn't survive that, it would truly be a tragedy). ok so

1. I absolutely loved how you gave Regulus a reason for liking potions and being good at them, I've never seen anyone try to explain it or give it a backstory. and the reason is brilliant

2. And the reasons for the brothers' animagi being a cat and a dog??? I'm in tears

3. Pandora having the same sensory issues as I do is so very dear to me. And everyone being so accommodating and understanding? I'm crying over here

4. Does Durmstarnge still not admit muggleborn students in your universe? It was stated that they have muggleborn teachers that Voldemort wants out, so I'm curious about their policy

hello! this made me so happy to read :3 first of all, thank you for reading my story. i am so happy to hear that you have enjoyed it this far! i am sending all the good vibes to fix your vpn 🪄 🕊️

getting into it:

1. Thank you! When I first started thinking about writing the story, there were a few qualities that I wanted to focus on for Reg’s character, those being his animagus form, his trans/queerness and how he develops his own identity; and, like you mentioned, his skill for potions. I appreciate you pointing it out :)

2. Just like answer 1, thank you :3 I will never get over the dog / cat combo.

3. You and me are sensory struggle twins 🤞🏼:D Pandora is so dear to me also. I am glad you can resonate with her <3

4. This is a very good question, and I unfortunately do not have the best answer…. yet. Durmstrange is going to come into play, but not until a little later in the story. This is writer’s ramble for ‘i haven’t hammered out all the details yet’ forgive me 🙏 however, i’m glad you pointed it out because it’s a good reminder that time is starting to creep ever faster..

Thank you so much for this ask, i have so much fun reading and answering. i’m working my hardest on getting the next chapter of TSCR out soon, as well as reply to all of the comments (if someone out there left a comment and i haven’t responded yet i feel so bad about it and im gonna get to it i swear)

everyone’s instructions: YES YOU🫵🏼

- pet your pet (any pet you have 🙂‍↕️)

- unclench jaw and shake out fingers

- three deep breaths! 🫵🏼

- do a small boogie for 10 second

🕺 (masc vers.) 💃(fem vers.)🕴️(other, et. al. vers.)

Lastly, i appreciate everyone’s patience more than i can put in to words. until the next,

mac ♥️

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are you still planing on updating tscr its one of my favorite maurauders fanfictions I've ever read and I've been keeping up with it for years no pressure to update anytime soon or anything obviously just wonder if I should expect any more updates in general :))

hi friend :3 thank you for asking - this is a great way for me to answer officially in one place:

i appreciate everyone’s patience while my chapter updates have been slow. i cannot say exactly when the next chapter will update, but i CAN promise that it will keep updating. Since—

… ah fuck trying to be formal i’ve rewritten this nine goddamn times but i think honesty is best. life has been ridiculous and i am rather miserable. BUT without that i wouldn’t be:

a. mildly to moderately funny depending on the crowd

b. able to write traumatic and darkly relateable fanfiction, (also depending on the crowd)

c. both a and b

correct answer is c

long story short, this fanfiction truly does keep me going. it will take time, but chapters WILL keep coming. as for now, consider it to be on a temporary hiatus as i get my health under control. thank you to everyone who has read and shared my story, and to everyone waiting on the next update :)

and to ashcharon, it made my night to respond to this ask. i am beyond happy that you like tscr, and that you’ve been following it for so long. i’m sending infinite good energy your way x

until the next,

mac

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im so tired of loving fanfiction TF DO YOU MEAN i read the exact same pairing over and over and over and i’m still reading it like im the same 11 year old that accidentally stumbled upon ao3 thinking it was an official library. kicking my feet, violently sobbing and rethinking my entire life’s purpose on a tuesday at 2pm just because i clicked the purple link

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today the coffee barista was wearing little sun earrings and red converse. they wrote ‘slay’ on my cup and smiled when they handed it to me. so anyway i guess this is my engagement announcement

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I don’t know how we’re letting trump get away with all this shit when I truly believe that if you threw a blanket over his head he would think it was nighttime and go to sleep like a bird

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let me clear some things up for you:

-amab people commit the majority of violent crime to the majority of violent to mostly afab people. Women have a right to single sex spaces because they objectively prevent this. Are trans people allowed to be t4t? Are black people allowed to gather with just black people? Apply that logic to women

-no man is oppressed for being asexual. Women are oppressed by men when they say no to sex. Women are forced to have sex they don't want to because of patriachy

-people can reliably identify a person's sex just by sight. No genitals involved

-lying about your biological sex on a legal document is not a human right

-why can't an afab person be a trans woman?

⚠️TW: Discussion of rape and sexual assault.

Hi anon, let’s dig a little deeper on the topics you brought up and go point by point to clear up the misunderstandings that seems to be occurring.

- “AMAB people commit most violent crime.”

This is true. Most violence against women is committed by cisgender men, and within that, the violence you seem to fear is statistically more likely to occur within and after domestic heterosexual relationships (this has been proven repeatedly throughout countless studies). I agree with you that this is disgusting and wrong, but we are talking about trans women, who are not cis men.

Trans women are actually far more likely to be the victims of violence, not the perpetrators. This, too, can be shown statistically, scientifically, and in a way that is separate from bias and deeply rooted fears. Excluding trans women will not stop patriarchal bias or sexual assault, and if anything, it undermines the real depth of these very real issues.

- “Are trans people allowed to be t4t? / Are black people allowed to gather with just black people?”

Yes. LGBTQ-only spaces are created so that people with shared and similar identities have a sanctuary from systemic oppression, exclusion, and unfortunately, a very present and real threat of violence. Spaces for people of colour are made for this same reason, but that is another discussion that deserves its own post. Fortunately, for your logic, we also have women-only spaces with the exact same intent of promoting unity, allow women’s voices to be heard, provide sanctuary, and to push back against the sick patriarchy that DOES exist in the world.

To exclude trans women from women spaces is a waste of the fight that you could be using to speak up against domestic violence, rape, and patriarchy. You are fighting against the women who are trying to fight alongside you.

- “No man is oppressed for being asexual.”

I think the point you are trying to make here is something along the lines of ‘men are rapists, so asexual men ‘can’t’ be oppressed.’ Asexuals (of any gender and orientation) can be and are victims of oppression, but oppression and rape are two entirely different topics. If your concern is truly within the treatment of asexuals, (though this is doubtful) I would love to talk more about this, but I think the root of this comment is, again, the mistreatment of cis women by cis men.

There is not a singular cause that can be placed upon every instance of rape. Sexual assault occurring at all is awful, immoral, illegal, and should never happen, but it is ignorant to claim that it only happens because of the ‘patriarchy.’ As a victim of sexual assault, and as a feminist, I find it offensive that these very different topics are even comparable to you.

- “You can tell sex on sight.”

Incorrect. Fortunately, you followed this by saying, “no genitals involved,” in which we agree! My question for you is: if you can identify a persons biological sex on sight, and genitals truly aren’t relevant, then why is so much of your argument against trans women and not against rapists / cis men?

- “Lying about sex on legal docs…”

Circling back to your argument that a person’s sex is obvious by physical appearance: if this is the case, then do you really need a gender marker on a legal document to say so? If it’s so easy to tell, let’s just do away with this kind of identification altogether, shall we?

These gender markers are put in place to affirm, not deceive. I promise, you would be more horrified to find that my passport is marked ‘F’ after you’ve met me in person, than to find it marked ‘M.’

- “Why can’t an AFAB person be a trans woman?”

Great question! The term AFAB (assigned female at birth) is a description, not an identity. The term you are looking for is ‘cis-woman,’ describing a woman who was in fact assigned female at birth, and a woman who’s gender is in alignment with the biological body she was born into.

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At the end of the day, the world is facing hundreds of problems that cannot be solved overnight, and they cannot all be solved at once. Sexual assault, patriarchy, and the unfair treatment of women in comparison to men are each VERY big problems, but they are not the only problems.

I get the sense that there is a lot of anger and fear living inside your chest. Me too. But I, a trans person, will stand beside you and hold your hand, even if both our hands are shaking, because I really think that this passion you have can be used for something more meaningful than leaving anonymous and hateful notes online.

If we use that fight inside of us to quarrel against each other, then we lose sight of why it is we are fighting in the first place. Imagine how much more we could do if we only stood together, instead of apart.

hope this helps to ‘clear things up,’ if you will, and i truly hope that one day, you won’t be so afraid of the things you don’t yet understand.

- mac

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I keep seeing people call the Trump administration shit like “schizophrenic” and “psychotic” and can we fucking not do this please???? schizophrenics and people with psychosis have a biological and neurological basis for their behavior and beliefs. there is no biological basis for being racist and sexist and a monster. schizophrenics and ppl with psychosis are innocent. you can’t beat bigotry with more bigotry

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evan:

barty:

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so now miss joanne katherine is coming after us aces. 😐

first, she wants to know what’s in our pants because she’s afraid that every queer person’s goal in life is secretly to SA someone under the ‘disguise of a different gender.’

now, she’s mad that aces typically don’t want to use what’s in our pants at all. so- you want us to fuck, or you don’t? babe. pick a goddamn side, or just leave people alone.

to all the other aces out there, i’m standing with you

🖤🩶🤍💜

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Regulus: *Casually shares absolutely horrifying lore from his childhood without even blinking*

Remus, shocked: Shit, Reg. Your life is bleak.

Regulus, rolling his eyes: Oh, shut it, Wolfy McWolf. It's not like your baggage is the size of a carry-on.

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How many chapters do you think your fic will end up having? :)

Hi! Good question, and one I wish I had a more specific answer to. It is my goal to finish the story between 70-75 chapters, which puts us about 2/3 way through as of chapter 47!

Thank you for asking :)

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don’t hmu just remember barty and evan never met in crimson rivers

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love when fictional men are so devoted to their partner it makes them dangerous and insane. very slutty behavior keep it up king