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running-in-the-dark · 4 months

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#man I really need to shut up #but.#how are you supposed to just keep going and going and going when you constantly have to calculate how tired any activity will make you and #which parts of your body will be in pain snd/or useless for a few days? like if I do x now I won't be able to use my hands for anything for #at least two days. that kinda thing #how am I supposed to work like this. it's been tolerable lately but even like this. I have to sit down for a bit after every. little. task #and often I just wake up in the morning knowing it'll be a bad day for no reason. I have no energy and everything hurts and it's just shit #but I need to find a job. I need to. so I need to get over it. I need to somehow figure out how to sleep at the right time and how to feel #okay enough to do shit when I have to do it #and if you're ever stupid enough to mention any of this around anyone all you get is 'lol just wait until you're my age' or 'you're too #young for that' or just that 🤨 look #all I want is to be normal and to be able to do all the things I'm supposed to do (and be able to do)#I'm not sick. I'm not disabled. there is nothing wrong with me. so why am I like this

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thekittyokat · 5 months

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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i-dreamed-i-had-a-son · 6 days

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jon val jon or something

#jean valjean #les miserables #les mis #meme #no bc i just read the part where FIRST of all he's 'so happy his conscience began to bother him' and immediately goes 'can't have that'#and then he 'lived in the backyard like a dog' OF HIS OWN HOUSE WHILE COSETTE IS IN THE MAIN BUILDING #and jvj my beloved i am obsessed with you king but it is SO unhealthy to intentionally deprive yourself just so someone else can tell you..#'no no don't do that you need to take care of yourself' like bro i know you want to be nurtured and have someone prove their love for you #but it's really not great that the only way you keep your room at a liveable temperature and eat good food is when cosette is making you #i say this without judgement bc that was me once too but good GOD man your identity cannot be her!!!!#and stop with the preemptive self-inflicted harm!!! stop with the self-protective and yet -destructive distancing!!#you're only doing that because you want someone to tell you to stop!!!!!#alternate chapter title: in which an old man finds himself at home among the youth (2014 tumblr)#ANYways all this to say jvj is a projectable 10000% and i hate him because i love him because i hate that version of me bc i love me #or: SHUT UP AND BE LOVED YOU SILLY OLD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#kay has a party in the tags #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay is a classical literature nerd #my meme

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shoot1ngst4r · 3 months

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nanami the type of guy to, when you’re yapping away about one of your interests, gives you his full attention. little nods, deep hums, “yeah?”, “oh, really?” just so you know he’s listening. but what really gives it away is his eyes, always looking at you with so much love and happiness and genuine interest because to him, seeing your happiness, your excitement in your face and body language is a sight to behold, and he doesn’t want to miss a single detail.

#need a man to be pathetically in love me and shut the fuck up when i talk. is that really to much to ask for?😔#kinda wrote this for all the autistic girlies who want someone who actually give a fuck about our interests and don’t make us feel bad for #having them #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #nanami kento #nanami kento x reader #might turn this into a fic idk #Star thoughts :3 #nanami kento headcanons #kento nanami

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shima-draws · 9 months

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Catch me being super emotional and sappy on this Monday morning. Anyway I'm so so so glad I got into One Piece, I don't regret it for a single second, I'm so mad that it took me this long to finally sit down and watch it bc now it's been what. 3 months? And I'm 400+ episodes in. I've never watched 400 episodes of anything before (except maybe Pokeani) and I thought it would feel like a chore but now I'm SO fucking addicted I can't get enough. The story is so good the pacing is so good the characters are SO good I can't help but get attached and scream and jump for joy and cry my heart out (and worry my roommates downstairs with all my yelling but. You know) because it's just EVERYTHING. The found family, the power one goofy kid has to topple kingdoms, to make friends with anyone and everyone he meets, to completely destroy anybody who hurts his nakama, to rid his crew of all their burdens and chains that bind them to their traumatic pasts. I'm going to fucking explode I love One Piece so much. And maybe I'm 20 years too late to the party but I'm here and this series has its claws in me so deep that I couldn't leave even if I wanted to. And there's people here who have been fans for years and years and YEARS at this point who are OP Veterans and you've all been so sweet and kind and nice and it makes me want to cry. GOD DAMMIT. Banging my head against the wall all these emotions ARE going to make me blow up. I love you Monkey D Luffy I love you One Piece

#AGHGHGH!!! AHAHGHGHGHGHSHFDFDSFSDDSA #I was looking at fanart last night and going absolutely bonkers with the NEED to create #Me: I need to draw 11218583295873294 different OP fanarts RIGHT this instant #The emotions were too much man. I literally had to lie down for a second. LMAO #One Piece #Really REALLY wish I had gotten into the series sooner but. Better late than never :")#I guess I picked a good time bc of all the revival stuff happening with OPLA and the reboot anyway? Lol #Rolls on the floor #I love my skrunklies so much. Blows kisses to the entire Strawhat crew #Shima speaks #Shut UP Shima. Sorry I needed to be annoying for two seconds.

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thebirdqueen · 2 days

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Life🏵/Death🌌

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No fanart of Chaos and Aerith together? Let me change that REALLLLL quick.

Bad close ups below

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callie-flower · 3 days

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"proship dni" this, "comship dni" that, "neutral dni" unfortunately the people you don't like are still human and deserve comfort. my fucking god shut the hell up you're just as annoying as they are and protest WAY too much about it. go unlearn your purity morality shit

#i dont even KNOW what comship means man #but im so tired of reading every instance of this under the sun with every post about selfshipping #like you realize a good CHUNK of the selfshipping community is going to BE them because they're already otherwise normally ostracized from #their communities for other reasons including being neurodivergent.#they deserve comfort too good lord shut the fuck up with the holier-than-thou “i'm better than you” attitude you're really fucking not and #frankly i'm more suspicious of people like you having something to hide about what they like and dislike #i'm neither pro nor anti nor neutral i'm just a human fucking being that stopped giving a shit about stuff that truly does not matter and #won't affect me in the long run. i'm an adult with more serious things to worry about.#it's like seeing the damn “dni” banners everywhere You Are Annoying.#also it's not like i like anything particularly 'heinous' anyways or pedophilic and i shouldn't need to clarify this but apparently i do!#i'm just sick of this purity culture bullshit i REALLY am #whether u want to hear this or not it is queerphobic and ableist. do u understand? cool.#proship #comship #f/o #selfship #selfshipping

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backpackingspace · 4 months

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Young odysseus convincing everyone Ithaca is nothing but a poor island with rocks and goats to avoid any raids/conquerors/so he doesn't get murdered for talking to Helen bc "it's not like he's a real choice"

Young odysseus falling in love with Penelope at the same event: wait. Wait shit I fucked up hold on just hear me out

#the odyssey #Odysseus #Penelope #Pre-canon(?)#odypen #Odypen meet ulgy #When the cute “bumpkin” boy wants to marry you but only brought 3 goats for your cousins gifts #AND you caught him spying on your family #There's like a single line in the odyssey where I think some god is narratoring (not 100% sure)#And they have a well actually interjection moment to explain how Ithaca isn't just one island it actually has a shit ton of land #And is technically richer then every other country #Which honestly just makes it funnier that odysseus was like welp time to beg again with zero issues for 10 years #But it will never not be funny to me that young odysseus really shot himself in the foot with Penelopes family for the start #Like clearly it worked out but I bet Penelope father HATES him #Listen odysseus showed up to Helen's courting for the drama ONLY he never planned on marrying her #Bc he knew her husband would be murdered immediately #My man showed up for the drama and stayed for Penelope #Otp #I love them #And need more of these two being rat bastards to each other and LOVING it #Listen neither one of them has let a single thing go in their whole life and they like that about the other #Odysseus going to buy anything for his wife ever #Penelope: Oh my can we afford that this is just a simple rock island with a few goats #Odysseus: dressed head to toe in very very rich cloth that his wife made #Ithaca with the fastest ships bc ody designed new ones #Penelope: literally dripping with jewels that were MAYBE stolen (shut up you can't prove anything and Penelope likes it when he's a bastard #Odysseus: you're so right my bad that was so irresponsible for getting you a gift. Perhaps your father would like to pay instead?

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jtownraindancer · 4 months

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missing my second favourite revolutionary spy played by burn gorman tonight 🇬🇧

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ethanharmonia · 11 months

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Volo my beloved babagrill pls take my hand in marriage you evil motherfather.

I have drawn my babygirl, he is so damn silly i love him, i do not care if he betrayed the main character, he is amazing, shut up, he is babygirl material

(also i do not know how to draw clothes what the actual hell did i do to him)

This is basically just my design for my AU cuz honestly all the concepts i did SUCKED so hard so i just did this and bam, Volo, uh, babagrill, housewife, babygirl, malewife, his favourite pokemon are definetly Giratina and Arceus, definetly, he has posters of them in his damn room, do not ask, im not gonna shut up about this babygirl he is so damn cool i bet he just took the Giratina like nothin and kept it like a dawg yall, its now his lawyer (what am i saying ahr har)

(his hair was so damn fluffy at the beginning but he looked like a completly different character so i just gave him his actual hairstyle that he had in the ginkgo guild in the game, i am NOT giving him that Arceus looking ahh hairstyle that makes him look like a bull smh)

#pokemon #pokemon au #pokemon volo #wielder volo #pokemon legends arceus #pla volo #giratina #pokemon giratina #volo is my comfort character i do not care what others say he is my beloved baby #i would make an entire book and documentary about why this man needs a redemption arc shut up #i can fix him totally i am so fitting to fix this man and his mental state #what if he owned arceus in this au instead of the main protagonist what if #I REALLY DO NOT CARE WHAT YALL THINK BUT THIS MAN NEEDS LOVE PLS I DO NOT CARE IF HE IS A VILLAIN RRAHRAHRHAHRHAHRHH

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chepib3 · 5 months

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big fan of when bruce tries to help others and he just ruins everything My poor wife that doesn't know how to communicate yes he will jump to conclusions and make decisons for you to sneakily control your life but please forgive him he's trying to show how much he loves you

#tbh bruce is in complicated moral situations too often he needs to catch a break #im thinking so much about bruce lately Most pathetic man ever i love him #every time some guy says im just like batman or whatever i know theyre joking #but im barely holding back from going on a very long rant about his values (he isnt vengeance oh my god this is batman 101)#and how much his family and friends mean to him even if he will be lonely forever bc hes traumatized and cant get pass it #and how he isnt really batman or bruce wayne or brucie wayne or a father but a little boy on an alley watching his parents die #over and over again #throw dick grayson in there and im not shutting up Ever #my posts are getting less coherent as time goes by. Perfect i dont want anyone to understand what im talking about #bruce wayne #batman #dc comics #thankfully everyone close to bruce knows this already #so they're just like ugh. again??#but they Understand..

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geddy-leesbian · 1 month

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just going to be bitchy on main one last time before making myself go to bed

For real idk why the fuck I'm still bothering with my high effort location/details screenshot compilation posts when I can just make lower effort posts that get SIGNIFICANTLY more notes. Like why the fuck should I even bother to spend at least a couple hours curating screenshots for part 2 of Luis's lab details which will get a maximum of 50 notes when I could just spend like 20 minutes making a few gifs like this and get HUNDREDS of notes

#im not entitled to attention but no one is entitled to my gigantic hoard of very useful reference screenshots #i know theyre very useful bc i frequently reference them myself while writing #and the thing is i can continue to do that myself without posting any publicly :) but i thought other ppl would appreciate them too #and i know a handful of ppl do but overall idk man rn i don't feel appreciated enough to continue sinking my time into these #ill probably feel embarrassed abt breaking down publicly over smth so dumb tomorrow but that's tomorrow heather's problem #tonight heather's problem is feeling ignored by a fandom ive tried so hard to contribute and be helpful to #sorry to the ppl who do interact w and appreciate me are reading this im v thankful for yall and wouldve given up posting sooner without yal #it's still just very discouraging to see my efforts/honestly myselfvgo ignored in the fandom as a whole while other ppl get more notes #and interaction that i see on my dash all the time #idk i dont think that came out right but for rn i really need to just shut the fuck up

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laugtherhyena · 6 months

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Doodle him up

#it had been a while since i last drew Cherry and Beam.. illegal #drawing this reminded me of how funny them being besties is #Cherry can't speak without activating his powers and i genuinely doubt Beam can read #so they communicate through vibes alone and i think that's amazing #oh yeah Cherry has a mouth-#I've been wanting to show it for a while but couldn't sketch anything up before #it's hidden in his mane/hair so you can't see if he doesn't pull it back #that's why trying to forcefully shut him up in fights doesn't really work? because people assume his mouth is where it should be #and hold onto the snout of the skull which does nothing #you'd need to like. choke him in order to actually close the mouth #fun stuff #csm #csm oc #chainsaw man #cherry #csm beam #beam csm #oc #original character #hyena scribbles

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beanghostprincess · 5 months

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Saw this on twt and felt the sudden need to do it!!! It's pretty much obvious just seeing my account but here you go

#wait i am going to explain stuff bc i can't never shut up #my first ship was zolu obviously for obvious reasons bc look at them (great explanation)#i didn't like sanami bc nami is a lesbian to me but now sanji is literally everything but a man so it's okay #zsn is funny bc i DO like it but it's very specific and i don't like the fanon version and i just generally don't really vibe with it much #but i used to ship them a lot and then the fandom kind of ruined it for me #i think i don't need to explain boa/luffy but shipping them is just. not it. for me. i hate it actually. they love each other SO much #but it's in a different way it's not romantic i adore their platonic dynamic #sabosanuso my beloved i wish more people shipped them #nami is a lesbian and zoro is gay and i don't like them romantically but their platonic dynamic is so important to me #save me canon saboala/frobin and opla PLEASE make namivivi canon i know you can c'mon #perouta my absolute beloved #sanusokayanamivivi (??) my fav ship ever tbh but this is just like. like a part of their whole polycule. my fav part #zolu is very high there tho it's like. one of my faves too #so this is it but i think all of these are pretty obvious if you follow me #one piece

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mechaseraph · 4 months

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*lies on ground, touches nearby water* Man I wanna talk about Kaitou Joker. Where are da KaiJo fans here at? Can we talk about Hachi. About his very high potential upcoming character development in Encore? Please?

#shut up seraph #kaitou joker #i hopped on it when 3rd season just premiered because my new friend back then (now bestie of like 8 years) drew fan art for it.#akai was there and i went “who's that” and the rest is history <3 #phoenix kaijo lives rent free in my brain all these years later #witnessed that Hachi dies scene live 👍 honestly one of top 10 hobbyani/kodomo moments you had to be there for me #also been thinking about my kaijo oc again i really need to give them a proper redesign art man

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creachiergh · 5 months

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anyways. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT.

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc 2 #tadc spoilers #tadc 2 spoilers #i was NOT expecting it to get so self-aware!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#waiting for all the pomni screenshots to come flooding in bc she was a Mood this whole episode #i love that they're leaning into her 'done-with-this-bs' attitude #letting her swear and things like that. i think it just adds to her reluctant hero vibe so much and i'm HERE FOR IT #y'all know i love my reluctant protags #OK BUT RAGATHA WITH THE FINGER GUNS WAS SO CUTE FOR NO REASON. SHE'S LIKE SLOWLY CLIMBING UP THERE ON MY LIST OF FAVES #her trying to push aside what happened to be there for pom 🥺🥺#ALSO I'M SO GLAD ZOOBLE IS OK BUT MAN I WISH THEY HAD MORE SCREENTIME #THEM BEING SOFT IN THAT ONE SCENE. GOD I HOPE THEIR CHARACTER IS EXPLORED FURTHER #i do wish they had cut down on the whole jax thing though simply because i know he's a fan fave and they wanna make the fans happy #it's just a little over the top and his presence is just kinda overwhelming. idk i still love him but i think it'll take time before i can #really see him as a more fleshed-out character #we are Not going to be talking about gummigoo because that was CRUEL.#GOD. I KNOW CAINE CAN'T HELP IT BC HE'S AN AI AND DOESN'T UNDERSTAND POMNI'S NEED FOR CONNECTION BUT DAMN. LIKE SERIOUSLY.#OK THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY. FOR NOW. BUT I WILL NOT BE SHUTTING UP ABOUT THIS

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