#maybe coming soon?

[clairificusrex]

MFlow Entertainment released a new trailer of their upcoming BL “#TimeTheSeries”, starring Camp Kunstip, Jimmy Jiramite, Bas Karan, Petch Tutton, Art Sirarach, and Bess Woraphon, is coming out soon.

"Foam" Famous young actor wakes up with bad news. When a former lover like "Chris" is extradited by the police for a crime Chris didn't commit, fate gives Foam a chance to go back and correct the past with what he made wrong, causing "Chris's death. When a mysterious man gives a clock that can travel back in time to "foam," will Foam be able to fix the past and save a lover's life? Only time will prove it!

Never trust a thai trailer so no air date yet and could be never but M Flow has history so this is probable I think...

@absolutebl @bengiyo @heretherebedork @iguessitsjustme @respectthepetty @waitmyturtles

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

[lazylittledragon]

pls dad astarion i beg of you

as much as i really want to i don’t know how much sense it makes, so for now let’s just be unserious

[everydaylouie]

feels like home 🏡 - louie zong & friends

(youtube)

[chloesimaginationthings]

I just love wills adorable middle finger

I just know this dude, despite being springlocked, is grinning to himself that he never paid Mike 💀

[bonus-links]

INTERLUDE: DOG DAYS, pt. 1

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[b4kuch1n]

podcast people in my phone

[ato-dato]

Save me punk Perona. Punk Perona save me. Please punk Perona sa

[egophiliac]

HEY GUESS WHAT!! BOOK SEVEN IS COMING TO ENGLISH LATE THIS MONTH!! WE GET TO GO THROUGH THE SUFFERING TOO!! I AM SO SCARED ABOUT BAT DAD

S O O N

[willgrahamscock]

So turns out, if you eat moldy bread and take expired medication you do end up developing severe intestinal issues! It’s not the update I wanted to give, but it turns out I am not invincible and in fact, I am incredibly unwell. Stay tuned.

[pempempemto]

FNAF RUIN SPOILERS

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still thinking about. the last encounter with eclipse .

[clairificusrex]

Artop Media just released an Official Trailer of their upcoming mini-series “#MyRoommateTheSeries” — starring Hawk Nanthakorn, Jo Kavinpat, Kris Zenthoelyn, Por Wichada, Bonzai Panachai and Xinweer.

Synopsis: Xian, who lives alone in Bangkok, hurried home to inherit the house left by her mother when she received news of her mother's passing. Unexpectedly, there were 5 strangers living here.

This looks terrible... super low budget, bad subs... but it has a GL couple... same actors from Meow! And they are adorable... @absolutebl @aliceisathome @bengiyo @heretherebedork @weekendatennuis

[inkskinned]

my 10 yr high school reunion is coming up in november. does anyone wanna be my fake gf for it. i was super bullied in high school but i'm hot now so i obviously am only going to do lying, crime, and theft.

pros: - you can design your own character. i love improv games and will go along with whatever bit you desire - there's an open bar - you don't know any of these people and i don't care about any of these people, which is the closest either of us will ever get to diplomatic immunity. all bets are off. go hog wild

cons: - im devastatingly pretty & funny & charming and you will fall in love with me - some of the adults present will be business majors. i cannot do anything about that im sorry. - it is a high school reunion, which is the closest either of us will ever get to a nuclear waste site

[felsicveins]

John Dory's Final ex reveal!!!

It's Creek!

Wait, what's this?

It's Patty with the steel chair!!!

Meet Patty the Pain™!!! She's a professional wrestler rock troll! She and JD met at a party after a wrestling show and she basically said "I like you. You're going to be my boyfriend for a little while."

[bu-blegh-ost]

Hey, so, I just finished my fourth rewatch of Riptide, and I have done some math while doing so, and I wanna share it.

Did you know that throughout this entire campaign Chip has received 132 lightning damage in total?

Well that itself might feel like a lot, until you hear abt Jay Ferin, who received a total of 199 lightning damage, a whooping 67 more damage than Chibo.

Now.

Gillion Tidestrider. The reason I decided to count this shit in the first place. I needed to know. And I did indeed find out.

That Gillion Tidestrider, from start to finish, from episode 1 to 115, has suffered 382 lightning damage. A full 183 more damage than Jay and fucking 250 more than Chip. He is a literal lightning rod in a fish disguise, and here is your proof.

[chalkrub]

been doodling some bri'ish wildlife - love seeing these guys. because they are the classics aren't they?