if ppl telling you "jewish ppl in israel were already kicked out of other countries and have no where else to go" makes you feel compelled to call whoever said that a "zionist", I really just dont think you give af about jewish ppl's lives quite frankly.
if your "free palestine" means "getting rid" of all jewish civilians in israel I think you're probably just a heartless asshole.
oh i havent listened to next semester since before i turned 21 this is doing things to me. hearing him say 'start fresh with a new year' is getting to me.
i dropped out of highschool when i was 14 because i was suicidal and in a really toxic situation that would (unbeknownst to me at the time) leave me with trauma that im still sorting through to this day, and it was a choice i made that no one in my life understood or liked, especially my parents. i know why i did it, but i never got over that choice. its such a... shamed choice.
i mean, theres a stigma to it i feel like, not that i need to get into that, but also finishing school is encouraged because jobs want you to at least have a diploma i guess, but also so you can get into college and whatever
and while im not even sure i have a chance at going to college, and getting a job sounds like itll make me miserable all over again, i still want to finish school. even if i dont even pursue either of those things, i still want to finish school.
not to mention, maybe ill make friends there. my traumatizing situation left me isolating myself, i have no real life friends, especially not any of the people i used to know in school. and i didnt even get to go through any of the experiences people always talk about having in highschool, though lets be real thats probably for the best lol. i hope if i get to finish school, that ill make friends.
before i get to my point, this song also hits me because it sounds so much like trauma, i dont know how to explain it in a brief way like im doing here, but the way it feels like trauma resonates with me, and its connection to school and starting fresh next year just all around resonates with me. it felt like exactly what i needed and when i needed it.
but my point is... where i am, and in a few other places, goodwill has a program where people who didnt finish highschool can sign up for that program, and get a diploma when they finish. not a GED, or even a HSE, a diploma. but you have to be 21 to sign up for it... and i just turned 21 twelve days ago as of writing this.
and im just thinking... i can fix my mistakes. i can just go back and finish what i stopped years ago. its felt so much like all my mistakes were unfixable, something i couldnt change or help, and that id be stuck with the consequences forever, frozen in place for the rest of my life based on things i did when i was a child.
but im not. if i get accepted to this program... i can fix it. i can finally get my life back on track after 7 whole years of nothing happening in my fucking life. ive spent my entire teenage years and even into my 20s rotting away, thinking my life was over... but it doesnt have to be. it really doesnt have to be.
i kept feeling like me turning 21 was whatever, just an excuse for my family to finally take me drinking and gambling even though i dont like doing those... but its actually the best thing that could happen for me. finally, i get to continue living my life. i can finally try to go back to being a person after years of not being one.
i dont even know how to make it sound as important as it is to me. words really cant capture how much this is so fucking important to me. i get to start fresh. i cant change what ive done, but i can start fresh. im so happy.
i was looking for a pic of nmcu/mcu foggy to show someone in a poll submission form (too late, got closed, doubt he would have gotten in anyway), and suddenly, in a moment of clarity amid my Finally Getting Better From Covid lucidity, i was hit with a wistful feeling: just looking at him, without any attachment to quotes or posting or fic or anything transformative or tiktok comments, just my eyes of someone who woke up from tiredness and sickness, i just saw some guy. that's literally just some guy.
with this feeling i was hit with just how much he could have just been yet another mid live action mcu adaptation of a comic character, which happens all the fucking time, but fandom failed him, fanon failed him, we all failed mcu foggy. he could have been the just some guy that he is... i still dislike mcu/nmcu foggy but i feel like this gave me more perspective and clarity
just my two honest cents from a moment of clarity and sympathy from a (hopefully nuanced) unrepentant hater
two addendums to the post though:
ADDENDUM 1: all i say here is just about characters. i bear no ill will to actors. actors are just people with a job paid to play some fake people, i have no reason to be mad abt any actor who isn't an irl piece of shit, and this isn't the case here
ADDENDUM 2: when i say mid i mean that in the most neutral way, literally middle of the road. you can dislike things that are mid and you can like them. i think all live action adaptations of foggy are mid but i like only the 2003 one bc i have a soft spot for the movie. said middle of the road judgement also means i don't hold any grudge for nmcu/mcu foggy likers, as long as you're not up your neck in fanon, as that is what i dislike most
@raplinenthusiasts your steezy sampler lol (links below cut)
Clip: Editor & Dancer React <- this is actually a collab on the editor's channel which is also awesome! Jordan has such fun vids and his editing breakdowns are insane
Dancers React pt. 1 <- actually the first time clay really watched jhope (and bts ?) which makes it rly sweet lol
Dancers React pt. 2
bonus clip: BTS choreographer reacts (should cut to Nick gushing about hobi's pickup)
because id rather just talk about it then draw it imma just info dumb abt my lil au cuz why not (all this is canon btw no matter how silly)
Khan is HORRIBLE at slag. "what does 'swag' mean? why are you asking me if i know how to hit the 'griddy'?"
Spock is in the story, he's just Jim's pen pall
Khan doesn't remember much of his life before becoming a vampire, so he tells himself he had a good life (he in fact DID not☝️)
Scotty is quite the baker, he cooks for the church and whatever activities they hold for the community
Scotty has disguised Khan as a human to get him into an Easter Egg hunt at the church, AND IT WORKED🙌
McCoy is the good ol' corrupt priest cliche. im sick and tired of Khan being the bad guy in Scones let McCoy be evil
When shit hits the fan between McCoy and Scotty, Jim leaves
Scotty had an abusive mother. that's it. i wanted him to be silly and have trauma
Khan turns into a black fruit bat :3
Scotty is convinced vampires don't know the YMCA
I don't really know how the story would go along but ive kinda been in love with the idea of Scotty potentially leaving Khan and what he knew behind to escape and live a better life, only for McCoy to take interest in Khan to shape him into a machine of pure revenge to hunt out Scotty together (their relationship would be nothing like Khan and Scotty's, purely toxic. McCoy only uses Khan for his own benefit. Khan would only stay because McCoy was giving him the attention and love he craved and missed from Scotty)
my set wouldn’t let me ramble in the tags which is probably a good thing but hbd to gyu who i so adore. his love and passion for music, the way he reveals his emotions and talks about his feelings, the way he works so hard and cares for the members, his ability to brighten the day of everyone... staff, moas, guests, etc... the way he has grown as a person and an artist... his wonderful character and songwriting skills. i love him so so much. hope he has the best day ever actually he deserves it. picks him up and spins him. lil teddy bear
Say what u will Abt the whole prev tags thing but I think it's neat to see those in my notifications, it's like I get to have a small Convo w someone which is just nice, I get to see into their mind for a moment which is nice and wonderful