#me on this blog: if i dont write this idea rn ill DIE

[nonranghaes]

heads up! domestic bath together, no sexual undertones. just two ppl taking a bath together :3 also mentions of reader + shua having drank wine earlier.

"you're falling asleep~"

joshua's voice teases you as you grumble a little, still fuzzy from the wine you and joshua had broken into earlier to go along with dinner (you more than him, to be honest). you can still taste it on the back of your tongue, you think. something about it makes you glad you're taking this bath with joshua holding you right now. sure, you're not so far gone that this would be a hazard, but you like knowing that he's keeping you safe. he giggles a little, fingers trailing across your bare skin as he massages your shoulders.

"i think," you mumble, eyes drifting shut for a moment, "i wanna go to sleep."

"oh?" there's a teasing lift to his voice, "do you?"

"you're bullying me again."

another chuckle, just as warm as before. "you," he says, "are not sleeping until i get a glass of water in you."

you whine.

"do i need to bring it back?" oh no. not the PSA he made in high school. "drink water--"

you whine again.

"not--" he's already chuckling as he draws you back into his arms, "not alcohol."

you think you actually might hate the love of your life for a minute. whereas joshua accepts it as a product of the time, the secondhand embarrassment you felt while watching that video was horrible. the cheesy effects and everything only made it worse, and current-day joshua thrives on reminding you of it just to see you grimace at remembering it. it's not even your embarrassing video, but joshua thinks that only makes your reaction funnier.

he rests his cheek against you, planting a soft kiss against your skin. "i love you," he says, and you can feel him smiling against your skin. "but i'm getting prune-y, and i'm not leaving you here. c'mon," he nudges for you to get up. "we can cuddle... after your glass of water."

you'll be sure to hold him to it.

[tabe4]

This game is like a fucked up version of wobbledogs but I gotta say I like the "feed this creature shit and see what happens" gameplay. The "fuck around and find out" genre if you will.

OOC: i've never actually heard of that game but yes JKBSDBKFBJKSDF i'm also having fun seeing what happens, everyone's submissions surprises me as much as it surprises everyone else, and i have fun seeing how users keep skirting around some deaths somehow or finding stuff i didn't expect them to BSDBFBSD

the relentless hunger death and the one upcoming was considered rare cuz i didn't expect users to submit so many insane submissions, but yall found them incredibly fast omg

for inspo tho (and an info dump),

i was considering several types of video game formats before trying this one. after tobaiblog (which is still on backburner i just gotta do some assets i just dont wanna do rn smh) i realised something like that is fun but can be overwhelming with how many options you had and a character who is unwilling to give any hints. i wanted something more simple and intuitive, and i think giving very limited ways to interact w the game provides a more authentic video game vibe while also being more intuitive.

initially i was messing w a labyrinth game concept and ill likely try it later down the line, w an rpg aspect to it and an end goal. but i felt that it was still complicated to interact with. i started thinking about other video game formats, like a visual novel, or pet care games. those things are simple in options for interaction, but i wanted some kind of horror undertone or element that would give more interest than just interact w the characters.

i decided on the idea of the pet care game but focused entirely on the feeding, it was simplified, there wasn't a lot of things to keep track of, and it allows users to be creative with the limitations given to them.

i was partly inspired by Can Your Pet (if u dont know anything abt it and like this blog, please try it, it's like a 10 or so min game iirc. dont look at spoilers if u want to play it cuz it has a twist at the end. idk if its still free but when it was popular it was hosted online for free on many game sites) and Happy Tree Friends to an extent, but also some analog horror content. subverting expectation of something cute into something weird or creepy as things progressed was primarily what i wanted to pull from these

the diary option was mulled over a lot as i wanted a way for users to interact directly w the characters made and i had a number of ideas for this at first. then i remembered in town of salem, you have a death note (haha) you can write in that will be shown if you die, and i was like oh an in game note system would be perfect to manipulate and also fit into the whole pet care sim vibe.

the death list was conceptualised as i needed a goal for players, and the cosmetic unlocks were also a fun reward. tho i think people at this point aren't going for looking for specific deaths but rather seeing how the character reacts to things (which is fair cuz i also figured half the appeal would be the character reaction to things, which is why i draw unique reactions to food 99% of the time~)

[angel-baby479]

being sososo honest rn bestie, im gonna make so many elitello fics you have no idea

theres no stopping me at this point

the only thing preventing me from starting a new one now that im done the previous one is if i dont wait like,,, a week ill end up hating the process and then i wont write at all so theres gonna be like,, 1 week intervals but still

gonna find prompt lists because im bad at coming up with ideas myself

i will say tho, i do have one idea im very excited to try and do justice thought id let you know

BSBDNCNDNSNSKXKDKXBSKKSNS oh ok guess I'll die then 🤷‍♂️ /pos

and totally understandable!!! take ur time oml!! u absolutely Do Not have to write a fic every week dhdjjsks the first one was amazinggggggg ugh!!!!

I'm happy ur excited about writing! ur very good at it :DD have fun w/ it and try not to stress out or anything- maybe u could even start a blog for ur fics :OOO doesn't have to be exclusively elitello either ✨️ I'd read ur writing any day homie

[miku-life-tips]

yk what, fuck it, all of them, 1-50

 Do you have freckles?  Yes, several, I've had only two for as long as I can remember, the rest have slowly come in over time

 Do you drink tea or coffee? How do you take it?  Hate both, coffee smells disgusting, sweet tea turned me off tea

What was the last song you listened to?  Currently listen to Creek, Thunder by The Reverent Marigold

Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side? Yes, no, yes. I get ill if I sleep on my stomach, it's odd

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?  Several currently, but the main one is from 10 years ago! Almost 11 now! She is a pink poodle named Bubbles

Do you prefer drawing or writing?  Writing, I'm not the best at drawing, but I have years of writing experiences so I think I'm pretty decent :D

What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with? Depends, either 2 or 3, 2 if it's hot, 3 if it's not. (Younger me would say just the comforter)

What’s your favorite band/artist? Whatever Spotify shows me rn!

When is your birthday? You will know when it is because I will 100% post like Its my Birthday :D But October 19th lol

How tall are you? 5'1, am short

What color are your eyes? Blue, at least that's what my ID says :D

Who are five (or more) people you want to hug right now? No one! Already hugged my mom today :D

Fears? Several! Spiders, deep water, irl social interaction, needles for example

What’s your favorite color? Purple, blue, black, red, any really tbh

What’s your favorite season? Ah. I don't know. Spring or Winter

Want any tattoos? What of? I'm good without! lol

Want any piercings? Where? Not really already got the standard ears ones (though. one is closed now. The other got reopened by a bee)

Who is the last person you texted? My friend!

Do you have a best friend? How long have you been friends? I have 2! One since Elementary School (3rd grade to be exact), the other since Middle School (7th I think)

What/who do you miss? I've been missing a lot of things recently. I don't really know exactly what yet though

How was your day today? It was Ok, work is work lol 

How much sleep did you get last night? None! I work night shift lol

Answered Already!

When was the last time you cried? Why? When the video about Technoblade came out.

What’s your favorite decade?  I like the 2000s, like 2010 and stuff

What are some seemingly childish things you like?  Stuffed animals, dressing up, toys

What’s your favorite book? Or just one you’ve read a few times? The Treasure Box by Penelope J. Stokes!

How are you, really? Tired...

Does it take you a long time to make decisions?  Sometimes! It depends :D

Answered Already!

What are you looking forward to in the distant future? I'd rather not think about it!

If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go?  Anywhere? I'm not sure tbh

Do you sleep with your door open or closed? Have to lol, the animals

What’s your favorite flower? I love Lilies of the Valley!

Do you currently have a squish? I don't know what that means!

Do you like your middle name? Yeah :D 

Do you prefer dogs or cats? I like cats a bit more

Do you have any phobias? Aren't fears and phobias the same?

Do you stay up late? I work night shift!

Do you like the beach? Do you prefer it sunny or cloudy? Ugh no, hate sand 

What’s your favorite cartoon? I like Gravity Falls, Hilda, and Centaur World :D

Tag 5 of your favorite blogs I don't want to bother anyone >.<

Do you have siblings? How many? Yes, 2. I am the youngest 

Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? Probably my mom! I say it a lot

Is there anyone you would die for? Ah, probably not >.< Dont like the idea of dying tbh 

What do you need when you’re sad?  A hug, reassurance

Have you memorized your phone number? Nope!

Who’s someone you can trust with your life? My friend! She knows who she is!

What does your last text say?  I love him (It was about Genshin Character Thoma)

Wild Card. Any question, ask away.  I already answered 49, what more is there lol

[justasouthernlady]

50 questions tag

Yah this will take a while but I love it and @katdefbeom who tagged me for this mess. 💚

1. What takes up too much of your time?

(Honesty hour?) Worrying, reading

2. What makes your day better?

Coffee / working out / sunshine

3.whats the best thing that happened to you today?

I got to see one of my sweet pals and chat with her over desserts

4.what fictional place would you like to go to?

I'm going to agree with @katdefbeom howls moving castle universe or Hogwarts for me.

5. Are you good at giving advice?

I dunno? I guess? You tell me! People say I am.. so yes?

6.do you have any mental illnesses?

Yup! Social anxiety and general anxiety.

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

Nope!

8. What musician inspired you the most?

To do what? Overall? Ahhh dolly Parton cos she gives no fucks and JB from got7 cos like damn boy can write a song.

9. Have you ever fallen in love?

Yes, all the time hahaha

10.whats your dream date?

Book shopping and then reading the newly bought books in a cafe, possibly holding hands while reading or just our legs / feet are touching.

11. What do others notice about you?

I have no idea. I'm nice and have good teeth? I don't feel v noticable lol.

12. What's an annoying habit you have?

I pick at my fingers when I'm nervous or anxious, and I bounce my right leg a lot.

13. Do you still talk to your first love?

Lol no. He was emotionally manipulative and a huge flaccid penis so no.

14. How many ex's do you have?

4.

15. How many songs are in your playlist?

Which one? My biggest playlist has like 500 songs in it, my shortest one has 10. But over all I'm sure it's like 7,000 songs.

16. What instruments can you play?

Flute, piano (kinda piano)

17. Who do you have the most pictures of?

I have pictures of paintings and statues from museums lol. But ahhh probs chanyeol.

18. Where would you like to go before you die?

Japan. China. South Korea. Singapore (in that order I think)

19. What's your zodiac?

LIBRA

20.do you relate to it?

Yaaaaas. A fancy bitch who loves love and tries to balance shit out. ME AF.

21. What is happiness to you?

Good Coffee, someone I love, friends, family, a good perfume.

22. Are you going through anything right now?

When aren't I going through something???

23. What's the worst decision you ever made.

Deciding to be a clingy bitch. Also getting into a serious relationship when I didn't know who the fuck I was (I was 18 like WOW girl no!)

24. What's your favourite store?

Urban outfitters and muji. Your girl is in both all the time.

25. (HALFWAY!) what's your opinion on abortion.

A woman has the right to choose, that's a decision her and her doctor need to make on whether it's right for her. My stance is "no uterus no opinion"

26. Do you keep a bucket list?

No that shit would make me anxious lol

27. Do you have a favourite album?

Not that I can think of

28. What do you want for your birthday?

Cake and books

29. What are most peoples first impression of you?

I DUNNOOOO I dont ask cos I dont want to know. But probably quiet, nice, labrador face? Too many feelings?

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

Most people think I'm like anywhere from 19-22. I look like a baby uuugghhhh. But I'm def the responsible friend and will take care of you lol.

31. Where do you keep your phone when you're sleeping?

Next to me?

32. What word do you say the most?

Probs "FUUUUCK" Or "V"

33. What's the oldest age you'd date?

32.

34. What's the youngest age you'd date?

21? Probs not though really, boys be dumb.

35. What job / career do most people say would suit you?

Kindergarten teacher or an art historian.

36. What's your favourite music genre?

Kpop as of rn

37. If you could live in any country in the world where would it be?

Ahhh Canada? Close enough to home but with universal healthcare

38. What is your current favourite song?

Too many to think of just one ahhh PASS.

39. How long have you had this blog for?

9 years.

40. What are you excited for?

Ateez concert

41. Are you a better talker or listener?

I do both very well 😂

42. What is the last productive thing you did?

Mail boxes

43. What do you want for Christmas?

Someone special hahaha

44. What class do you get the best grades in?

History

45. On a scale of 1-10 how do you feel right now?

Ahhhhhhh solid 4.5 outta ten

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

God I have no idea. I'll probs have kids? And a cute dog and like a proper job? Who knows

47. When did you get your first heartbreak?

17.

48. At what age do you wanna be married?

PRESSURE. No idea. Before I'm 40 sounds good.

49. What career did you want to have as a child?

Ballerina, Veterinarian.

50. What do you crave right now?

Cant tell you, it's a secret secret.

I'll tag: @gyomies @sundropsoo @into-the-kpop-void @jongin-be-my-jagi and anyone else who feels like it 💕💕💕

[rottenbutrecovering]

Hi! I'm starting to come to terms with having BPD but the criteria confuses me; is it okay for you to share how you experience it so I can at least get an idea? Thank you, love your blog!

Okay I’ve had this ask in my inbox for so long but I’m finally answering it! Putting it under a read more as it’ll be long.

Note: I wrote this for my boyf a few months ago (I’m changing the wording), so it uses the old criteria! One day I’ll write it up for the new one

Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment

I am sensitive to abandonment. To me, when someone is angry, it doesn’t mean “they’re angry rn” it’s “they’re angry so they’ll leave me.” This is why i spent 6 hours arguing with my ex when he dumped me. I’m hypervigilant so will over analyse behaviours a lot. People may catch me often saying “are you mad at me?” “do you hate me?” or “are you okay?” randomly when I percieve a change in mood/behaviour as I will auto assume it’s a negative change and will mean they’ll leave me.

Also, I test people. And I hate it. I’ll say things like “we can stop talking if you want” cause i want the person to say they wanna talk to me. I normally notice when im doing this and stop

Also I say “tell me you love me” and “tell me im pretty” to confirm my boyf won’t leave me

A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation

Basically, this means in my relationships (this includes friendships and family) I go from adoring the person to hating them, and back. I hate this, and I avoid doing it the best I can. People may notice with my friends one day ill say they’re my best friend and the next ill say i hate them/they piss me off. My relationships are intense as my feelings are.

Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self

I mirror others personalities, as I can’t see mine myself. I’m unsure who I am, so change a lot. My views shift with people im with, and i go thru obsessional phases with things and they become my personality (e.g. fnaf). It also means i relate to fictional characters a LOT and often mirror them (unconsciously). I’ve also had quite a few break downs where I end up repeating “who am I” to myself, and I find it hard to describe myself to others

Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., substance abuse, binge eating, and reckless driving)

I don’t binge eat, drive, or abuse drugs or alcohol. However, i do impulsively message people saying stuff that will start fights (havn’t done this for ages tho). I may not have this symptom, altho I show it sometimes.

Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior

I get suicidal thoughts. When breaking down and crying I’ll say that I wanna die quite a lot, and I may make a lot of jokes about wanting to die. I get suicidal thoughts, well, pretty often. Maybe even daily. Sometimes fleeting, sometimes not.

It’s fairly rare that I self harm, and it’s normally only at my worst. 

I do, however, take part in mental self harm. Looking at things I know will hurt me mentally for example. I sometimes do this when my symptoms are low as i worry im faking.

Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)

Mood swings son, are the BANE of my life. Tiny things can change them, and sometimes they just change for NO REASON! Yeah, I hate this. It makes me feel I can never fully enjoy anything because my mood can flip to extremes at any moment.

Chronic feelings of emptiness

It’s literally feeling nothing, emptiness. I get this… look in my eyes when im empty that i dont like. When like this i may talk about how nothing matters and say “whatever” and “not that it matters” a lot. I get like this when im breaking down. When like this i become apathetic and, if I’m really bad, kinda mean, and I hate it, cause i wanna be a good person

Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)

I tend to direct anger towards myself (blame myself for things) than to others. But ill admit I am quick to get VERY defensive and not listen to what others have to say if I perceive they’re attacking me.

Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms

This bitch paranoid! Which is also why I’m not very impulsive. I often think people are out to get me and doing things behind my back. I will over analyse. I may accuse people of something out of nowhere, with no evidence. But to me, there is evidence. If this happens, please ask for my reasoning, and explain why it’s wrong. I dissociate in stress. Dissociation is where i feel disconnected from my body. My typing becomes messy, my thoughts disorganised, and I feel out of reality. I may ask things like “where am i” or “i have no idea whats going on”.